Chapter XXII: THE SHADOW OF DEATH

Jim spent the night at the police-station, where a military camp-bed was

provided for him in an empty whitewashed room. Late in the evening his

overcoat, guitar-case and kit-bag were brought to him from the hotel,

the latter containing a few clothes and necessaries; and, pinned to his

pyjamas, was a sheet of notepaper upon which, in Monimé’s handwriting,

were the pencilled words: “Keep up your spirits. I shall come to England

with you, my beloved.”

A surprising languor had descended upon him after the excitements of

the evening, and it was not long before he fell into a profound sleep,

from which he was aroused before daybreak by the entrance of a native

policeman, who deposited a candle upon the cement floor and informed him

that he was to be taken down to Cairo by the day train due to depart at

dawn. A cup of native coffee was presently brought in, together with a

pile of stale sandwiches, which, he was told, had been sent from the

hotel on the previous evening; but, having no appetite, he placed these

in the pocket of his coat.

After the lapse of a dreary and bitterly cold half hour, the Consul

entered the cell, bluntly bidding him good morning. “I have orders,” he

said, “to bring you down to Cairo myself.”

“That _will_ be jolly,” Jim answered gloomily.

The Consul adjusted his eyeglasses and stared at him coldly. “I must

warn you,” he mumbled, “that anything you say may be taken down in

evidence against you.”

“That’ll make the journey jollier still,” said Jim. Now that Monimé

knew all, and had declared that she loved and trusted him, he was in

much happier mood, and could face the shadow of death with sufficient

equanimity to permit him to jest with his captors. But exasperation

returned to his mind when in answer to his inquiry he was told that

his wife had not been informed of his immediate departure, nor had the

authorities any concern with her or her movements.

“‘The sin ye do by two and two ye must pay for one by one,’” quoted the

Consul, to whom Kipling was as the Bible.

“Oh, shut up!” said Jim. “Get out your notebook and write down that I

declare I’m innocent and that the police are bungling fools.”

On the journey down to Cairo he and the Consul occupied a compartment

which had been reserved for them. A policeman was stationed in the

corridor, and the windows on the opposite side were screened by the

wooden shutters which serve as blinds in Egyptian railway trains. There

was nothing to do except smoke the cigarettes he had been permitted

to buy at the station, or doze in his corner, while his companion

complacently read a novel and smoked his pipe on the opposite seat,

occasionally glancing at him over the top of his eyeglasses.

Fourteen hours of this sort of thing was enough to reduce him to a

condition of complete desperation, and when at last the train jolted over

the points into the terminus at Cairo, he had almost made up his mind

to bolt and to attempt to return to England on his own account. He was

well guarded, however, and soon he was deposited for the night at the

Consulate. Next day he was taken, handcuffed, to the station, where he

was pushed into the train for Port Said under the eyes of a gaping crowd.

He was now in the charge of a Scotch ex-sergeant serving in the Egyptian

Police, who had been lent for the purpose; and on the following morning

this man, assisted by native policemen, conveyed him to the liner which

was to carry him to England.

Here an interior cabin had been assigned to him, a small glass panel

in the door having been removed so that he might be at all times under

observation; and here for the twelve weary days of the journey he was

confined, with nothing to relieve the tedium except an occasional visit

from the kindly captain, a nightly breath of fresh air on the deserted

deck, the reading of the novels which were considerately sent down to him

from the ship’s library, and the playing of his guitar, which by favour

of the Cairene authorities he had been allowed to retain.

His depression was deepened by his inability to obtain any news of

Monimé, but he presumed that she would know his whereabouts, and she had

said that she would follow him to England. At any rate there would be no

lack of money for her journey and the ultimate expenses of the trial; for

he was now, of course, once more owner of the Eversfield property, and

Tundering-West was again his name.

During these days his mind dwelt for hours together upon the problems of

life as they presented themselves to a man of his Bedouin temperament,

and clearly he began to see that it was not enough merely to live and let

live. As he lay sprawling upon his berth, staring at the white-painted

walls and at the locked door of the cabin, or as he paced the narrow area

of flooring or sat listening to the rhythmic throbbing of the engines, it

became apparent to him that the recognition of some sort of obligation to

society at large was essential, if only for the sake of his son.

He had always been an outlaw, hating organized society, and naming it,

like the wise Giacomo Leopardi, “that extoller and enjoiner of all false

virtues; that detractor and persecutor of all true ones; that opponent

of all essential greatness which can become a man, and derider of every

lofty sentiment unless it be spurious; that slave of the strong and

tyrant of the weak.”

Yet he saw now that to some extent it was necessary to conform to its

ways. The art of life, in fact, was to conform without being consumed,

to submit without being submerged. But in his case he had, by his

inconsideration, managed to put people’s backs up on all sides, and now,

when he needed their friendship, for his wife and his child if not for

himself, he was friendless.

He had contributed nothing, he felt, to his fellow men. He had carried

his dreams locked in his head, and only occasionally had he troubled to

write them down in the form of verse. He had squandered the gifts with

which he was endowed; he had wasted the years; and now, in his desperate

plight, there was no one to come forward to say a word in his defence.

Public opinion would declare him guilty, and he would have to fight for

his life not only against an absence of sympathy, but against a bias in

his disfavour.

Monimé, too, had gone her own way, ignoring the conventions, following

with him the law of nature and not respecting that law in the form

into which man has had to twist and limit it to meet the conditions of

civilized society. And now they and their son would be the sufferers.

They were a pair of outcasts; and yet she, as individually he understood

her, was a personification of the glory of womanhood. They were vagrants;

their love, at the outset, had been Bedouin love; and how they must pay

the price.

The troubles by which he was surrounded had had a salutary effect upon

his character, and had aroused him to his shortcomings. Before he had

inherited the family property his life had been of an indefinite and

dreamy character; at Eversfield he had been suppressed and rendered

ineffectual; but since he had come to love Monimé he had emerged from

this stagnation, and in the strongly contrasted turmoil of his subsequent

life he had, as the saying is, found himself.

As the vessel passed up the Thames and approached its moorings at

Tilbury, he had the feeling that, grasped in the relentless tentacles,

he was being drawn in towards the cold, fat body of the octopus against

which he had always fought. Perhaps he would be devoured, perhaps he

would be vomited forth unharmed; but, whatever the issue, he had no power

to resist, and must assuredly be sucked into that horrible mouth. There

had been times during the voyage when he lay in his berth, sick with the

dread of it; but now that his destination was nearly reached he felt an

eager desire to be up and fighting for his life and liberty.

There had been times, too, when he had turned with aching heart to his

guitar, and had sat for hours on the edge of his berth, playing and

singing melancholy ditties and songs of love. He was ever unaware of the

beauty of his voice, and he would have been surprised had he been able to

see the wrapt faces of the stewards and others who used to gather at the

door to listen, and who would sometimes peep at the wild figure bending

over the strings.

At Tilbury he had to face an army of cameramen who ran before him

snapping him as he came down the gangway in charge of two policemen.

A motor police-van conveyed him thence to the prison where he was to

await the formal proceedings in the magistrate’s court; and here at last

he experienced the full rigour of the criminal’s lot. Until now he had

been confined in rooms not intended for imprisonment; but here he found

himself in an actual cell, designed and built to cage the arbitrary and

the recalcitrant. The iron bars, the ingenious mechanism of the lock

and bolt, the inaccessible window, the uniformed warder in the passage

outside—these were all instruments of the great octopus, and obedient to

its word: “Thou shalt have none other gods but me.”

In the late afternoon he lay upon his bed in a comatose state, due to his

nervous exhaustion; but whenever sleep came upon him his active brain

created a picture of his coming trial, so dreadful that he had to fight

his way, so it seemed, back to consciousness to avoid it. He saw the

crowded court, and the hundreds of eyes that watched him as he stood

in the dock, and it appeared to him that the judge was none other than

the fat, leering spectre which at Eversfield had come to represent his

married life and its respectable surroundings. But now the creature no

longer coaxed and wheedled; it was impelled only by malice and revenge,

and the flabby hand was pointed at him in cold accusation, or raised

with a sweeping gesture to indicate the all-embracing power of the great

octopus.

In momentary dreams and in half-conscious thought his fevered brain

gradually formed into words this monstrous judge’s summary of his

actions, so that he seemed to be listening to the story of his life

as interpreted by his fellow men. “Vile creature,” the voice droned,

“coward, bully, and assassin, let me recount to you the steps which have

led you to the scaffold. As a young man you deserted the post at which

your good father had placed you, and, unable to do an honest day’s work,

you fled over the seas and attached yourself to the world’s riff-raff,

thereby breaking the parental heart. Having squandered your patrimony,

you came at last to some low haunt in the city of Alexandria, and there,

meeting a woman of loose morals, you cohabited with her, but deserted her

when she was with child.”

“It’s a lie!” he heard himself screaming, as he struggled to loose

himself from the grip of the attendant policemen.

“The facts speak for themselves,” the accusing voice continued. “You

deserted her because you had inherited your uncle’s money, and were

lured back to England by the love of gold. In your own ancestral village

you used your position to bully your tenants; you assaulted one of your

honest farmers, you insulted the saintly vicar, and the local medical

officer; you incurred the mistrust of the simple villagers. Your only

friend was a filthy poacher and thief. You pursued the most comely maiden

in the neighbourhood, and did not desist until you had encompassed her

downfall. But, having married her, you treated her like a bully, and at

length you deserted her, too, as you had deserted your former mistress.”

“Lies! Lies!” he shouted. “I will not listen!”

“Returning to your disreputable life in low haunts, you were involved in

a cut-throat affray in Italy; and, escaping from this, you pretended to

have been murdered, and allowed your assailant to stand his trial on that

charge. Thus you thought to escape from the bonds of wedlock, and with a

lie upon your lips you returned to the arms of your mistress, proposing

to her a bigamous marriage. But, fearing detection, and needing money,

you sneaked home; lured into the woods the sorrowing woman who, deeming

herself a widow, mourned your memory; and there did her to death.”

“I am innocent!” he gasped, looking about him in desperation at the hard

faces which surrounded him and hemmed him in. “Of her death at any rate I

am innocent.”

“You fled, then, back to your lover,” the voice went on, “and ruthlessly

involved her in your coming débâcle. When the officers of the law had

hunted you down you threatened them with death; but presently, running

from them like a coward, and being too craven to take your own life,

you were ignominiously captured, and brought trembling to this place of

justice. Enemy of society, lazy and useless member of the community,

wretched victim of your own lusts, have you anything to say why sentence

of death should not be passed upon you?”

Wildly he struggled to free himself, and so awoke, bathed in perspiration

and shaking in every limb. “O God!” he cried, beating his fists upon the

bed, “take away from me this vision of myself as others see me. Because I

have turned in contempt from the Great Sham, because I have dared to be

independent, must I pay the penalty with my life, and go accursed to my

grave? Must Monimé, must Ian suffer for my mistakes, and bear the burden

of my sins?”

For an hour and more he paced his cell in torment; but at last the door

was opened and a clergyman entered, announcing himself as the prison

chaplain, and politely asking whether he might be of service.

“Yes,” said Jim without hesitation, looking at him with bloodshot eyes,

“go away and pray for me.”

But his visitor was too accustomed to the bitterness of the prisoner’s

heart to accept this rebuff, and held his ground. “I am one of those who

believe in your innocence,” he said, “and that being so, I should like to

say that I am proud to meet you.”

Jim pushed the hair back from his damp forehead and glanced quickly at

him. “Is that a figure of speech?” he asked, menacingly.

“Why, of course not: I mean it,” the chaplain replied. “The whole

English-speaking world is under the deepest debt to you.”

Jim stared at him in astonishment. “I don’t understand,” he muttered.

“Well, you are the James Easton who wrote _Songs of the Highroad_, are

you not?”

“Oh, _that_!” Jim smiled. “The book is out, is it? I thought they were

going to publish late in the spring.”

“My dear sir,” the visitor exclaimed, “do you mean to say you haven’t

seen the reviews?”

“No, I don’t know anything about it,” Jim answered.

“But every man of letters in the country is talking about it. We have all

hailed you as the greatest poet of modern times. Why, the one poem, ‘The

Nile,’ is enough to bring you immortality. My dear sir, do you really

mean that this is news to you?”

“Of course it is,” said Jim. “I haven’t read the papers for weeks.” He

sat down suddenly upon his bed, his knees refusing their office.

The chaplain spread out his hands in wonder. “But don’t you know that

your arrest has caused the biggest sensation ever known in recent years?

First comes the book, and you are hailed as a public benefactor, the

friend and interpreter of struggling humanity, the genius of the age, the

uncrowned laureate of England; and then the discovery is made that you

are one with the James Tundering-West, alias James Easton, wanted on the

charge of murder. Why, it has been dumbfounding to us all. Nobody can

believe that you are guilty.”

“I’m not, padre,” said Jim quietly. “But the evidence is pretty damning,

you know. I _was_ there in the woods with my wife.”

“Well, you will have public opinion on your side,” the chaplain

continued. “A man like you, who has given so much to the world, will

certainly receive the maximum of consideration.”

“But ... but,” Jim stammered, a lump in his throat, “I’ve given nothing.

I’ve been a selfish beast, going my own way, ignoring my obligation to

society. Why, all the way home in the steamer I’ve been telling myself

that my life has been useless. And just now the judge said.... Oh, padre,

the things he said!... No, that was only a dream; but the fact remains,

I’ve been useless.”

“Useless!” his visitor laughed. “Why, man, you will be beloved and

thanked for generations to come. How little do we realize when we are

being of use!”

Long after his visitor had gone Jim sat dazed and overawed. He cared

nothing for his actual triumph, but there were no bounds to his

thankfulness that at last he might appear worthy of the love of Monimé.

He slept little that night. He was alternately miserable and exultant,

and there were moments when he could with difficulty refrain from

battering at the door with his fists, in a frenzy to be out and away over

the hills.

Daylight brought no relief to the confusion of his mind; and by

mid-morning, as he sat waiting for something to happen, hovering between

hope and dread, his head seemed nigh to bursting.

But suddenly all things were changed. The door of his cell was opened and

a warder entered. Jim did not look up: his face was buried in his hands

in a vain effort to collect his thoughts.

“There’s your wife to see you, sir,” said the warder, tapping his

shoulder. “You are to come with me.”

Jim sprang to his feet, his eyes blinking, his hair tossed about his

forehead. Down the corridor he was led, and up a flight of stairs. The

door of the visitor’s room was opened, and a moment later the beloved

arms were about his neck, and the warder had stepped back into the

passage.

“It’s all right, my darling!” she cried. “We’ve found the murderer. The

order for your release will come through at once: you’ll be out of this

in an hour or so. Oh, Jim, Jim, Jim, my darling, my darling!”

He was incredulous, and in breathless haste she told him what had

happened. She had come back to England by the quick route, and,

travelling across country, had arrived some days before his ship had

completed the long sea route by way of the Peninsula.

“Mrs. Darling came with me,” she said. “Oh, Jim, she’s been splendid.”

“What d’you mean?” he asked in astonishment. “She is my accuser.”

“Oh, that was only natural,” Monimé explained. “That was a mother’s

instinctive feeling. But we talked all through that terrible night

at Luxor, and long before we left Egypt I think she realized she had

made a mistake. You see, as soon as the police were able to prove that

Merrivall’s housekeeper was not guilty she at once thought it must have

been you after all, and she swore she’d hunt you down. She came to Egypt

with the concurrence of the police, who had an unconfirmed report about

your having been seen at Abu Simbel.”

“Never mind about all that,” Jim interrupted. “Tell me who did it.... Oh,

for God’s sake tell me they’ve really got the man!”

Monimé reassured him. “Listen,” she went on. “As soon as we arrived in

England I made Mrs. Darling take me down to Eversfield, and we started

our own inquiries. You had spoken of having sent your poacher friend

off to get Mrs. Darling’s address from the postman; so of course we

went first to the post-office, and Mr. Barnes was quite emphatic that

Smiley-face was only with him for a few minutes early in the afternoon.”

Jim’s face fell. “I feared as much,” he groaned. “You’re on the wrong

scent. You’re suggesting that Smiley did it.”

“I’m not suggesting,” she answered with triumph. “He _did_ do it. He has

confessed.”

He stared at her in dismay. “Good Lord!” he exclaimed, and, turning away,

stood lost in thought. He had not believed it possible that the poacher

was in any way connected with the crime, for his errand in the village

had seemed to account for his time, and later in the afternoon he had

returned with perfect composure.

“Has the poor chap been arrested?” he asked at length.

Monimé shook her head. “No,” she said, “he is in the infirmary at Oxford.

They hardly expected him to live yesterday, after all the strain of

making his confession to us and then to the police.” It was his heart,

it seemed, that had given out, a fact at which Jim was not surprised, for

when he had met him on that memorable day it was evident that he was very

ill.

“Poor old Smiley!” he murmured. “He did it for my sake.”

Monimé’s eyes filled with tears. “Oh, Jim,” she said. “I’m so cross with

you. To think that you never let me know you were a great poet. You said

you only scribbled doggerel. When I read this book of your poems I cried

my eyes out, with pride and temper and love and fear. Didn’t you realize

you were writing things that would live?”

“Good Lord, no!” he answered. “I thought you’d think them awful rot.”

The order from the Home Secretary for Jim’s release was not long delayed,

and soon after midday he was a free man once more, enjoying a bath and a

change of clothes at the hotel where his wife was staying. Here, when his

toilet was complete, Mrs. Darling came to see him, and he was surprised

to observe the affectionate relationship which seemed to exist between

her and Monimé.

“Jim, my dear,” she said, when the somewhat difficult greetings were

exchanged. “I am a wicked old woman to have brought such unhappiness

upon you; but you will know what I felt about my Dolly’s cruel end.” She

passed her plump hand over her eyes. “I can’t yet bear to think of it.”

“Yes, I know,” he answered. “But you might have realized that I would not

have done such a thing.”

“I see that now,” she said. “This dear girl has explained you to me, so

that I see you as clear as crystal. She has pointed out that you will

neither let anybody interfere with your life nor will you interfere with

theirs. You just live and let live. I hadn’t quite understood that, but

I see it now, and your poems, too, have helped me to understand. Isn’t

it true that if you once remove understanding from life you get every

kind of complication! It is our business as women to make a study of

the workings of men’s minds; but in this case I made a miserable hash

of it.... Oh dear, oh dear!” she muttered, and suddenly, sitting down

heavily upon a chair, she wept loudly, rocking her fat little body to and

fro.

Jim was not able to remain long to comfort her. He had determined to

catch an afternoon express to Oxford to try to see the dying Smiley-face

before the end; and he had arranged to return by the late evening train,

so that he and Monimé might go down next morning to join their little son

on the south coast.

He evaded a mob of journalists at the door of the hotel, and reached

Oxford after the winter sun had set, driving to the infirmary in a scurry

of snow. In an ante-room he explained his mission to the matron, who

seemed much relieved that he had come.

“He’s been asking about you all day, and begging us to tell him if you

had been released,” she said. “It’s almost as though he were clinging on

to life until he knew you were safe. He’s a poor, half-witted creature.

It’s a mercy he is dying.”

Jim was taken into a small room leading from one of the large wards; and

here, in the dim light of a green-shaded electric globe, he saw a nurse

leaning over the sick man’s bed. He saw the poacher’s red hair, now less

towsled than he had known it in the open, and of a more pronounced colour

by reason of its washing and combing; he saw the drawn features, and

the shut eyes; he saw the rough, hairy hands lying inert upon the white

quilt: and for a moment he thought he had arrived too late.

The matron, however, exchanged a whispered word with the nurse; and

presently a sign was made to him to approach. He thereupon seated himself

at the bedside, and laid his hand upon Smiley’s arm.

For some moments there was silence in the room; but at length the little

pig-like eyes opened, and Jim could see the sudden expression of relief

and happiness which at once lit up the whole face.

“Forgive me, forgive me,” the dying man whispered. “I didn’t know they’d

taken you. If I’d ha’ known that, I’d ha’ told them at once. I thought

you was safe in them furrin lands; and when your lady come yesterday and

said they’d cotched you and put you in the lock-up, I thought I’d go

clean off it, I did.”

Jim pressed his hand. “Smiley,” he said, “why did you do it?”

“Seemed like it was the only way,” he replied. “When I come back into the

woods to wait for you, I heerd you and her talking, and I listened; and

then I heerd her say as ’ow she’d make your name stink in the nostrils

of every gen’l’man, and I knew you couldn’t never be rid o’ she. Then

her come running past where I was a-hiding, and her tripped up and fell.

Fair stunned, her was. I thought her was dead, her lay that still. So I

reckoned I’d make sure. I did it quick, with a stone. Her made no sound.”

“But why did you do it?” Jim repeated.

Smiley-face grinned. “Because you was my friend, and her was your enemy.

Because I remembered your face that day when you was a-weeping down there

in the woods, and a-longing to be free again.”

He closed his eyes and for some moments he did not speak. At length,

however, he looked at Jim once more, and his lips moved. “Parson do say

God be werry merciful,” he whispered. “Maybe He’ll understand why I done

it. But I don’t care if He send I into hell fire, now I know you’re

happy. Tell me, sir, what be you going to do?”

“I’m going away, Smiley,” replied Jim. “I’ve got a lot of work to do. We

are going to find a little house overlooking the Mediterranean, and in

the years to come, when all this is forgotten, we shall come back here,

perhaps, and get the place ready for my son. You’d like my son, Smiley:

he’s a fine little lad.”

The poacher nodded. “When you come back here,” he said, “go down into the

woods and whistle to me the same as you used to do. I shall hear. I shall

say: ‘There’s my dear a-calling of me. Friends sticks to friends through

thick and thin.’ And maybe they’ll let me answer you....”

His voice trailed off, but his lips smiled. “Oh, them little rabbits,” he

chuckled.

THE END

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