I said, that I would avoid writing any thing of my own particular
affairs in the above address, if I could.
I will write one letter more, to inform you how I stand with this man.
But, my dear, you must permit that one, and your answer to it (for I
want your advice upon the contents of mine) and the copy of one I have
written to my aunt, to be the last that shall pass between us, while the
prohibition continues.
I fear, I very much fear, that my unhappy situation will draw me in to
being guilty of evasion, of little affectations, and of curvings from
the plain simple truth which I was wont to delight in, and prefer to
every other consideration. But allow me to say, and this for your sake,
and in order to lessen your mother's fears of any ill consequences that
she might apprehend from our correspondence, that if I am at any time
guilty of a failure in these respects, I will not go on in it, but
endeavour to recover my lost ground, that I may not bring error into
habit.
I have deferred going to town, at Mrs. Sorlings's earnest request. But
have fixed my removal to Monday, as I shall acquaint you in my next.
I have already made a progress in that next; but, having an unexpected
opportunity, will send this by itself.