ANTIETAM
On all the other farms roundabout, this mid-August was a slack season.
The hired men and boys did a little early fruit-picking, a little
berrying, a little stone-drawing, but for the most part they could be
seen idling about the woods or along the river down below Juno Mills,
with gun or fish-pole. Only upon the one farm whose turn it was that
week to be visited by the itinerant threshing-machine, was any special
activity visible.
It was well known, however, that we were not to get the
threshing-machine at all. How it was managed, I never understood.
Perhaps the other farmers combined in some way to over-awe or persuade
the owners of the machine into refusing it to Abner Beech. More likely
he scented the chance of a refusal and was too proud to put himself in
its way by asking. At all events, we three—Abner, Hurley, and I—had
to manage the threshing ourselves, on the matched wood floor of the
carriage barn. All the fishing I did that year was in the prolific but
unsubstantial waters of dreamland.
I did not work much, it is true, with the flail, but I lived all day
in an atmosphere choked with dust and chaff, my ears deafened with
the ceaseless whack! whack! of the hard wood clubs, bringing on fresh
shocks of grain, and acting as general helper.
By toiling late and early we got this task out of the way just when the
corn was ready to cut. This great job taxed all the energies of the two
men, the one cutting, the other stacking, as they went. My own share of
the labor was to dig the potatoes and pick the eating-apples—a quite
portentous enough undertaking for a lad of twelve. All this kept me
very much to myself. There was no chance to talk during the day, and
at night I was glad to drag my tired limbs off to bed before the girls
had fairly cleared the supper things away. A weekly newspaper—_The
World_—came regularly to the post-office at the Corners for us, but we
were so over-worked that often it lay there for weeks at a time, and
even when someone went after it, nobody but Abner cared to read it.
So far as I know, no word ever came from Jeff. His name was never
mentioned among us.
It was now past the middle of September. Except for the fall ploughing
on fields that were to be put to grass under the grain in the
spring—which would come much later—the getting in of the root crops,
and the husking, our season's labors were pretty well behind us. The
women folk had toiled like slaves as well, taking almost all the
chores about the cattle-barns off our shoulders, and carrying on the
butter-making without bothering us. Now that a good many cows were
drying up, it was their turn to take things easy, too. But the girls,
instead of being glad at this, began to borrow unhappiness over the
certainty that there would be no husking-bees on the Beech farm.
One heard no other subject discussed now, as we sat of a night in the
kitchen. Even when we foregathered in the living-room instead, the
Babcock and the Underwood girl talked in ostentatiously low tones of
the hardship of missing such opportunities for getting beaux, and
having fun. They recalled to each other, with tones of longing, this
and that husking-bee of other years—now one held of a moonlight night
in the field itself, where the young men pulled the stacks down and
dragged them to where the girls sat in a ring on big pumpkins, and
merriment, songs, and chorused laughter chased the happy hours along;
now of a bee held in the late wintry weather, where the men went off
to the barn by themselves and husked till they were tired, and then
with warning whoops came back to where the girls were waiting for them
in the warm, hospitable farm-house, and the frolic began, with cider
and apples and pumpkin-pies, and old Lem Hornbeck's fiddle to lead the
dancing.
Alas! they shook their empty heads and mourned, there would be no
more of these delightful times! Nothing definite was ever said as to
the reason for our ostracism from the sports and social enjoyments
of the season. There was no need for that. We all knew too well that
it was Abner Beech's politics which made us outcasts, but even these
two complaining girls did not venture to say so in his hearing.
Their talk, however, grew at last so persistently querulous that
“M'rye” bluntly told them one night to “shut up about husking-bees,”
following them out into the kitchen for that purpose, and speaking with
unaccustomed acerbity. Thereafter we heard no more of their grumbling,
but in a week or two “Till” Babcock left for her home over on the Dutch
Road, and began circulating the report that we prayed every night for
the success of Jeff Davis.
It was on a day in the latter half of September, perhaps the 20th or
21st—as nearly as I am able to make out from the records now—that
Hurley and I started off with a double team and our big box-wagon, just
after breakfast, on a long day's journey. We were taking a heavy load
of potatoes in to market at Octavius, twelve miles distant; thence we
were to drive out an additional three miles to a cooper-shop and bring
back as many butter-firkins as we could stack up behind us, not to
mention a lot of groceries of which “M'rye” gave me a list.
It was a warm, sweet aired, hazy autumn day, with a dusky red sun
sauntering idly about in the sky, too indolent to cast more than the
dimmest and most casual suggestion of a shadow for anything or anybody.
The Irishman sat round-backed and contented on the very high seat
overhanging the horses, his elbows on his knees, and a little black
pipe turned upside down in his mouth. He would suck satisfiedly at this
for hours after the fire had gone out, until, my patience exhausted,
I begged him to light it again. He seemed almost never to put any new
tobacco into this pipe, and to this day it remains a twin-mystery to me
why its contents neither burned themselves to nothing nor fell out.
We talked a good deal, in a desultory fashion, as the team plodded
their slow way into Octavius. Hurley told me, in answer to the
questions of a curious boy, many interesting and remarkable things
about the old country, as he always called it, and more particularly
about his native part of it, which was on the sea-shore within sight
of Skibbereen. He professed always to be filled with longing to go
back, but at the same time guarded his tiny personal expenditure with
the greatest solicitude, in order to save money to help one of his
relations to get away. Once, when I taxed him with this inconsistency,
he explained that life in Ireland was the most delicious thing on
earth, but you had to get off at a distance of some thousands of miles
to really appreciate it.
Naturally there was considerable talk between us, as well, about Abner
Beech and his troubles. I don't know where I could have heard it, but
when Hurley first came to us I at once took it for granted that the
fact of his nationality made him a sympathizer with the views of our
household. Perhaps I only jumped at this conclusion from the general
ground that the few Irish who in those days found their way into
the farm-country were held rather at arms-length by the community,
and must in the nature of things feel drawn to other outcasts. At
all events, I made no mistake. Hurley could not have well been more
vehemently embittered against abolitionism and the war than Abner
was, but he expressed his feelings with much greater vivacity and
fluency of speech. It was surprising to see how much he knew about
the politics and political institutions of a strange country, and how
excited he grew about them when anyone would listen to him. But as he
was a small man, getting on in years, he did not dare air these views
down at the Corners. The result was that he and Abner were driven
to commune together, and mutually inflamed each other's passionate
prejudices—which was not at all needful.
When at last, shortly before noon, we drove into Octavius, I jumped off
to fill one portion of the grocery errands, leaving Hurley to drive on
with the potatoes. We were to meet at the little village tavern for
dinner.
He was feeding the horses in the hotel shed when I rejoined him an
hour or so later. I came in, bursting with the importance of the news
I had picked up—scattered, incomplete, and even incoherent news, but
of a most exciting sort. The awful battle of Antietam had happened
two or three days before, and nobody in all Octavius was talking or
thinking of anything else. Both the Dearborn County regiments had been
in the thick of the fight, and I could see from afar, as I stood on the
outskirts of the throng in front of the post-office, some long strips
of paper posted up beside the door, which men said contained a list of
our local dead and wounded. It was hopeless, however, to attempt to get
anywhere near this list, and nobody whom I questioned, knew anything
about the names of those young men who had marched away from our Four
Corners. Someone did call out, though, that the telegraph had broken
down, or gone wrong, and that not half the news had come in as yet. But
they were all so deeply stirred up, so fiercely pushing and hauling to
get toward the door, that I could learn little else.
This was what I began to tell Hurley, with eager volubility, as soon as
I got in under the shed. He went on with his back to me, impassively
measuring out the oats from the bag, and clearing aside the stale hay
in the manger, the impatient horses rubbing at his shoulders with their
noses the while. Then, as I was nearly done, he turned and came out to
me, slapping the fodder-mess off his hands.
He had a big, fresh cut running transversely across his nose and cheek,
and there were stains of blood in the gray stubble of beard on his
chin. I saw too that his clothes looked as if he had been rolled on
the dusty road outside.
“Sure, then, I'm after hearin' the news myself,” was all he said.
He drew out from beneath the wagon seat a bag of crackers and a hunk of
cheese, and, seating himself on an overturned barrel, began to eat. By
a gesture I was invited to share this meal, and did so, sitting beside
him. Something had happened, apparently, to prevent our having dinner
in the tavern.
I fairly yearned to ask him what this something was, and what was the
matter with his face, but it did not seem quite the right thing to
do, and presently he began mumbling, as much to himself as to me, a
long and broken discourse, from which I picked out that he had mingled
with a group of lusty young farmers in the market-place, asking for
the latest intelligence, and that while they were conversing in a
wholly amiable manner, one of them had suddenly knocked him down and
kicked him, and that thereafter they had pursued him with curses and
loud threats half-way to the tavern. This and much more he proclaimed
between mouthfuls, speaking with great rapidity and in so much more
marked a brogue than usual, that I understood only a fraction of what
he said.
He professed entire innocence of offence in the affair, and either
could not or would not tell what it was he had said to invite the
blow. I dare say he did in truth richly provoke the violence he
encountered, but at the time I regarded him as a martyr, and swelled
with indignation every time I looked at his nose.
I remained angry, indeed, long after he himself had altogether
recovered his equanimity and whimsical good spirits. He waited outside
on the seat while I went in to pay for the baiting of the horses, and
it was as well that he did, I fancy, because there were half a dozen
brawny farm-hands and villagers standing about the bar, who were
laughing in a stormy way over the episode of the “Copperhead Paddy” in
the market.
We drove away, however, without incident of any sort—sagaciously
turning off the main street before we reached the post-office block,
where the congregated crowd seemed larger than ever. There seemed to
be some fresh tidings, for several scattering outbursts of cheering
reached our ears after we could no longer see the throng; but, so far
from stopping to inquire what it was, Hurley put whip to the horses,
and we rattled smartly along out of the excited village into the
tranquil, scythe-shorn country.
The cooper to whom we now went for our butter-firkins was a long-nosed,
lean, and taciturn man, whom I think of always as with his apron tucked
up at the corner, and his spectacles on his forehead, close under
the edge of his square brown-paper cap. He had had word that we were
coming, and the firkins were ready for us. He helped us load them in
dead silence, and with a gloomy air.
Hurley desired the sound of his own voice. “Well, then, sir,” he said,
as our task neared completion, “'tis worth coming out of our way
these fifteen miles to lay eyes on such fine, grand firkins as these
same—such an elegant shape on 'em, an' put together wid such nateness!”
“You could git 'em just as good at Hagadorn's,” said the cooper,
curtly, “within a mile of your place.”
“Huh!” cried Hurley, with contempt, “Haggydorn is it? Faith, we'll not
touch him or his firkins ayether! Why, man, they're not fit to mention
the same day wid yours. Ah, just look at the darlins, will ye, that
nate an' clane a Christian could ate from 'em!”
The cooper was blarney-proof. “Hagadorn's are every smitch as good!” he
repeated, ungraciously.
The Irishman looked at him perplexedly, then shook his head as if the
problem were too much for him, and slowly clambered up to the seat.
He had gathered up the lines, and we were ready to start, before any
suitable words came to his tongue.
“Well, then, sir,” he said, “anything to be agreeable. If I hear a man
speaking a good word for your firkins, I'll dispute him.”
“The firkins are well enough,” growled the cooper at us, “an' they're
made to sell, but I ain't so almighty tickled about takin' Copperhead
money for 'em that I want to clap my wings an' crow over it.”
He turned scornfully on his heel at this, and we drove away. The new
revelation of our friendlessness depressed me, but Hurley did not seem
to mind it at all. After a philosophic comparative remark about the
manners of pigs run wild in a bog, he dismissed the affair from his
thoughts altogether, and hummed cheerful words to melancholy tunes half
the way home, what time he was not talking to the horses or tossing
stray conversational fragments at me.
My own mind soon enough surrendered itself to harrowing speculations
about the battle we had heard of. The war had been going on now, for
over a year, but most of the fighting had been away off in Missouri
and Tennessee, or on the lower Mississippi, and the reports had not
possessed for me any keen direct interest. The idea of men from our
own district—young men whom I had seen, perhaps fooled with, in the
hayfield only ten weeks before—being in an actual storm of shot and
shell, produced a faintness at the pit of my stomach. Both Dearborn
County regiments were in it, the crowd said. Then of course our men
must have been there—our hired men, and the Phillips boys, and Byron
Truax, and his cousin Alonzo, and our Jeff! And if so many others had
been killed, why not they as well?
“Antietam” still has a power to arrest my eyes on the printed page,
and disturb my ears in the hearing, possessed by no other battle name.
It seems now as if the very word itself had a terrible meaning of
its own to me, when I first heard it that September afternoon—as if
I recognized it to be the label of some awful novelty, before I knew
anything else. It had its fascination for Hurley, too, for presently
I heard him crooning to himself, to one of his queer old Irish tunes,
some doggerel lines which he had made up to rhyme with it—three lines
with “cheat 'em,” “beat 'em,” and “Antietam,” and then his pet refrain,
“Says the Shan van Vocht.”
This levity jarred unpleasantly upon the mood into which I had worked
myself, and I turned to speak of it, but the sight of his bruised nose
and cheek restrained me. He had suffered too much for the faith that
was in him to be lightly questioned now. So I returned to my grisly
thoughts, which now all at once resolved themselves into a conviction
that Jeff had been killed outright. My fancy darted to meet this
notion, and straightway pictured for me a fantastic battle-field by
moonlight, such as was depicted in Lossing's books, with overturned
cannon-wheels and dead horses in the foreground, and in the centre,
conspicuous above all else, the inanimate form of Jeff Beech, with its
face coldly radiant in the moonshine.
“I guess I'll hop off and walk a spell,” I said, under the sudden
impulse of this distressing visitation.
It was only when I was on the ground, trudging along by the side of the
wagon, that I knew why I had got down. We were within a few rods of the
Corners, where one road turned off to go to the post-office. “Perhaps
it'd be a good idea for me to find out if they've heard anything more—I
mean—anything about Jeff,” I suggested. “I'll just look in and see, and
then I can cut home cross lots.”
The Irishman nodded and drove on.
I hung behind, at the Corners, till the wagon had begun the ascent of
the hill, and the looming bulk of the firkins made it impossible that
Hurley could see which way I went. Then, without hesitation, I turned
instead down the other road which led to “Jee” Hagadorn's.