Chapter 4: Onan, Lord of the Past

Not wishing to delve too far into my past or relate what would be

mundane and disconnected with my story, I will summarize with brevity

what my situation was. I was a military man, an Air force pilot to be

exact, and was on active duty patrolling the no-fly zones off the coast

of China, it being, at that time, an area of very high tensions. The

situation was grim, as any small incident promised to set the pendulums

of war into motion, but the worst had subsided, and things were

beginning to look as if that incendiary incident wouldn't come after

all. The main part of my story begins on a cloudy night of what was to

me just a few weeks back, though it seems like many ages ago now, and

indeed, it was.

I was flying over an area that was littered with small volcanic islands,

the type that rise above or fall below sea level continually, so that

what one year is above water is later below. Some of them have even been

known to only rise above the waves for a short time, and then vanish

from the sea completely, worn down by wind and waves. The night was

murky, and the air was thick with water and dust, the result being that

there was no natural light whatsoever, and any artificial light that

could be mustered was largely reduced to nothing, visibility being no

more than twenty feet.

The wind was calm and the flying, though strenuous from lack of sight,

was without turbulence. I was doing well, until out of nowhere I heard a

loud crack of thunder, followed by a bolt of lightning that hit the

plane. At once I lost all of the instruments, excepting the actual

control of the plane in manual, meaning that the radar and all the

guidance systems were crippled, and I could see nothing. Not knowing

what to do, and not being able to radio for help, I pulled down and

slowed until I was just barely remaining airborne, and began looking for

an island to land on.

Once below 200 feet, the clouds gave way and I saw an island. I aimed

for it and slowed more, preparing to land on it. I did, though just

barely, for it was extremely small, being one of those inconsistent

volcanic islands. Getting out of the plane, I was greeted by a strong

blast of wind that was dripping water from its cold grip, and I was

instantly chilled to the bone. There was nothing on the island at all,

except for the hole in its center, from which, no doubt, came the lava

that had formed it. It was on a slightly elevated hill, and looked as if

it had not erupted for many thousands of years. With nothing to do at

that moment except to get an idea of the island that I had landed on, I

walked over to it and knelt down beside it, peering blankly into its

depths. It seemed to be absolutely devoid of light, and, as often

happens, its darkness was mysterious to me, for I wondered what lay

hidden in it, and my curiosity got the better of my common sense. I

leaned slowly forward. Then, as I did so, I heard a loud and terrible

voice, personified in the crashing of the waves and the moaning of the

wind, and it said in a monotonous and unending refrain, "Enter." Nothing

more nor less than the continual repetition of that word. This alarmed

me, and as I did not want to do that, I began to stand upright and back

away from it, to return to my plane. But as I raised my knee from the

ground in order to stand, my other knee slipped under the increased

pressure, and in the ensuing instability, I completely lost my balance

and fell forward into the hole.

There are certain events in our lives that change the whole course of

our existence, and falling forward into the hole was one for me. Its

immediate effects weren't injurious to me at all, but it matured with

time, like a good wine, and grew until it overcame me, starting the

chain of events which would result in my demise. Yet not only mine, but

that of everyone.

Let me continue, though, and I will explain what I mean and not confuse

you more. I landed with a thud on a pile of soft dirt some twenty feet

down, in a dark place which seemed open, not cavernous and cramped as I

would have expected. My eyes adjusted to the darkness, and as they did,

I realized it was not now totally lightless, for there was a faint glow

coming from somewhere in the distance. Looking up through the passage I

had come down, I saw that there was no way to climb up it, and,

accordingly, set off to find the source of the faint light that came

from the distance. After walking cautiously through the darkness, I

reached a curve and then a tunnel-like exit to the spacious cavern that

I was in, and as I turned it I saw the source of the light: lava flows.

The room, or area, I had entered was rather thin and round, with a river

of lava flowing downwards and a small ledge of rock winding along its

edge. Together they descended spirally downwards at a gentle angle,

taking the form of an intelligently designed ramp. As I followed it down

I soon broke out in a sweat, for the gurgling, fiery plasma heated the

area up to a warm degree.

I found myself looking intently at the flowing fire beside which I

walked, its strangeness stealing my meditations from other things, and I

looked at it absorbingly, not paying attention to the path that I walked

on, so entranced was I with the feeling that its boiling character gave

to me.

As I walked along the lava preoccupied with my meditations and not

paying conscious attention to the path, my subconscious was carefully

monitoring my way, and when once my eyes glanced upward, I quickly saw

that my surroundings had changed. The narrow, spiral descending tunnel

had given way to a very cavernous area where the lava flow formed a

large lake of fire. A domed ceiling crowned this great room, though not

exact and polished, having instead a rough appearance as it stretched

from wall to wall, a semi-chasm of a hundred yards, more or less, with

its uppermost height being not less than twenty yards. On the far walls

were two lava falls, trickling from raised tunnels in the wall into the

body of lava, which covered the whole bottom of the room. There was a

platform that sat in the middle of the fiery lake, connected to the

tunnel I had come from by a walkway of stone. This room was different

than the other two, also, in its fashion, for while the previous had

vague evidences of intelligent design, this one was very obviously

artificially decorated. The walkway above mentioned was of ornate stone

with an intricate design of circles, squares, and triangles carved into

it, and on each corner of the center stage was a long pillar that

reached from floor to ceiling, each carved like a totem pole, with a

variety of animals and shapes stacked upon one another. The dome was

done ornately as well, for I saw as I walked further into the room that

what I had thought had been imperfections in the dome proved to be an

elaborate three dimensional sculpture that stuck out from the ceiling,

depicting an intricate scene of figures and telling a story of some

great saga of war and peace, pride and prejudice, love and hate, faith

and betrayal, all combined to make the greatest mural: history, the

story of time itself.

As I looked in awe upon its beauty, I was startled by a voice coming

from an unseen figure somewhere on the center platform. It said, "Jehu,

you have come at last. Welcome."

The voice was very gentle and pleasing to the ears, slowly and

confidently spoken, meticulously articulated. I looked around in its

direction and saw a short, elderly gnome with a long white beard

reaching to his chest and a short crop of hair on his oblong head, which

was outfitted with a sharp, angular nose, a pair of sparkling eyes, and

two protruding ears. He was no more than four feet tall, and no less

than three, with a dignified poise to him, and was dressed in a dark

robe with a black and gold design on it. We looked at each other for a

moment, he smiling pleasantly and me expressionless, for though I felt

that I should be surprised, or at least bewildered, at the sight of a

gnome in an underground cavern, I was not, it was as if I had almost

been expecting it to happen, as if in the back of my mind I had already

been there and done that. Perhaps it was only a case of predestined deja

vu, or maybe it was something less tangible. Either way, the gnome then

broke the silence again, saying:

"Let me introduce myself, Jehu. I am Onan, the Lord of the Past, and

these are the Chambers of History."

He then paused for a moment, waiting for my reaction, which was, again,

not too much surprised, but rather complacent, thought I didn't look

bored or snobbish, as is sometimes the case in that situation. Instead I

became as genial as possible, realizing that whatever force was behind

this, it was greater than I.

"Hello, Onan, it is pleasure to meet you," I said, advancing with a

proffered hand extended towards him, which I realized belatedly made me

appear oafish, but he took it good-naturedly, and with his pleasantness

eliminated my unease at shaking the hand of one half my size. He then

beckoned for me to follow him, and turned and walked to the center of

the platform, where he unexpectedly laid down on his back, facing the

muraled dome. I did the same, somewhat hesitantly, though I found it to

be quite comfortable once I was down. He saw my sluggishness and by way

of explanation said to me:

"Do not be troubled, my dear Jehu, for we lie on our backs to bring

about clarity of mind."

Then he continued speaking, calling my attention to the sculptured dome:

"That is history," he said.

"What do you mean," I asked, "I've always viewed history as an organic

being, constantly growing as it devours the present."

"It is an organic being," he replied, "A monstrous beast of sorts. But

that (meaning the mural on the dome), my friend, is the genetics of

history, its code that dictates what it is and what it will become, the

master plan."

Allow me to take a moment to describe the mural for you. Firstly, its

form: it was spread out across the dome like the painted ceiling of the

Sistine Chapel, its whole being a broad, harmonious picture that

complimented itself, telling a story throughout its united branches. It

was much more than a painting, though, because it stood out from the

dome like a group of completely independent sculptures, but placed so as

to tell the combined story with a sort of native ease, not stressed or

artificial, yet seeming as natural and beautiful as water in its flowing

grace. Now I will endeavor to describe its content, though I realize

that in this case the picture must be worth many millions of words.

The center of the mural was its beginning, and there a man was standing

proudly upright, dressed in splendid clothes of fine linens. He held in

his hand a magnificent cup of gold with a row each of diamonds, rubies,

sapphires, and pearls running along its breadth. It contained a dark red

liquid, which appeared to be boiling, and the man was holding it out to

a fierce lion whose shoulders were four feet across and whose mouth was

like a cavern, with stalactites and stalagmites of the most terrifying

nature. With an evil glare in its eyes toward the man, the lion drank

thirstily from the cup. Around the man and the lion there was a ring of

blazing fire, leaping out of the dome like great pillars of flame,

entrapping them within its narrow circle. On the outside of the fire was

a group of mighty lizards and beasts, the smallest of which was larger

than several elephants. Their whole attention was paid to a great fight

in which they were engaged, yet their foe was naught but the reflections

of themselves on the great sea which surrounded the island that held

these strange sights. Several of them were dead or severely wounded at

having been accidentally mauled by their fighting brethren. Across the

ocean from the island there was another landmass, whose far edges were

not in sight. On it were many ape-men bowing down in worship of a

gigantic White Eagle which was soaring far above them with a multitude

of lords and ladies gripped in its massive talons. The lords were

dressed in silken robes and adorned with many pieces of fine jewelry,

and the ladies were clothed in skirts of crimson; both groups had upon

their faces looks of pleasure, and contempt towards those far below

them.

Onan continued speaking, "You see, Jehu, the whole of history, both that

now written and that yet to come, is planned, executed according to its

own power, for the course of time is marked as clearly as the tides: by

its own coming and going it is revealed. Revealed, however, only in an

abstract and undefined manner, so that while its marks are clearly seen,

it is only by special revelations that it is shown in a comprehensive

and detailed light. And that is why I have summoned you here, my dear

Jehu, for you are the chosen one, summoned to help me."

I was skeptical and asked him, "You summoned me? But how, I was to

forced to crash land on the island by the weather, and accidentally fell

into the volcano's mouth. It was by my own freewill decisions that the

circumstances of my arrival here were fulfilled."

Onan laughed quietly and said, "History is not an unstoppable machine,

allied with fate to control the destiny of all things past and future,

nor does it nullify the power of man's freewill, yet the force that acts

upon the minds of men to form them is history itself. You see, men are

not the opponents of history and fate, for they do not impede its

progress with their freewill decisions, instead they are its minions,

its slaves, building up its strength and carrying out its dictates by

its influence, so that they become history as they serve it, adding to

its organism their own consciouses. While you were brought to these

Chambers by circumstances of your own choosing, your desires in choosing

those circumstances were dictated by the experiences of the past. But

never mind how I summoned you, for you are here now."

"Very well," I said, not wishing to disagree with the Lord of the Past.

Still, I was in a stubborn frame of mind, and asked, "But if the past is

as powerful as you construe it to be, then why does the Lord of the Past

need the help of a mere mortal like myself? Or do you mean you need a

more direct agent than those you control only by influence?"

"Something like that," he answered. "You see, there was a great disaster

once, which was blamed on me, and in order to atone for it, I promised

to send a kinsman redeemer before anything so devastating happened

again, and I believe you are the perfect choice."

"What devastating event hasn't been blamed on the past in one form or

another?" I said, "But why not just go yourself?"

"It is against the rules," Onan told me.

"How typical."

"Yes, indeed, I sometimes wonder what good it is to be a god if you

can't do anything yourself," he said with a sigh.

"What do you want me to do there, then?"

"I cannot tell you, unfortunately."

"Against the rules?" I asked.

"Very much so. All that I can do is send an agent with a slight

understanding of the situation of history and physical existence to the

people, but he must make the judgments of how to proceed all on his own.

If I did tell you, it wouldn't be much different than going myself, and

then there would be no human resolution to human problems."

"Our lives serve as a spectator sport to the gods, then?" I inquired of

him.

"I am afraid not," he said, "It is much more serious than that. The

Greeks were not all wrong, you know."

"Who else, I wonder."

"Not many," he sighed, "But tell me, are you ready?"

"As I'll ever be."

"Then I will begin. The understanding of life begins with the

understanding of physical existence," Onan said, "And by physical

existence I mean the quality of being materially animated. Not to

confuse it with consciousness, which is the ability to think and reason,

it is rather the realm in which one has substance and continuity. I will

call the elements of physical being time and matter, those words

representing widely known concepts. Matter provides the raw substance

and time gives those lifeless objects a plane of being to exist in.

Without time, matter can do nothing except sit in a sterile state, in a

vacuum in which nothing could occur; and without matter, time would

flow, but nothing would move with it. Thus, the basis of physical

existence is time and matter, each being useless separately, yet

together being the perfect combination of a tangible object and the

fluid, forward movement to animate it. Imagine it as a three-dimensional

painting, matter given depth by time."

"Not so complicated," I said cheerfully.

"Not yet, you mean," he laughed.

"Exactly, tell me more."

"Not just yet, Jehu. First you must help me."

"The time to begin has come then?" I asked.

"Yes, you must go now," he said, "And remember, I'll be watching.

Good-bye."

And with that, not even standing up, Onan put me into a deep state of

comatose and sent me through time to the unknown lands and people whom I

was to deliver. I awoke, as you will remember, in the center of the

savanna. Now that you know the circumstances of my arrival on Daem, I

will go back to where I was before: on the way to the Canitaur's hidden

fortress.

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