CHAPTER XVIII.

Two or three days had passed after Fred’s departure, when Mrs. Ogilvie

stated her intention of going to Allonby to call upon his mother.

“You have not been there for a long time, Effie. You have just contented

yourself with Fred--which is natural enough, I say nothing against

that--and left the sisters alone who have always been so kind to you. It

was perhaps not to be wondered at, but still I would not have done it.

If they were not just very good-natured and ready to make the best of

everything, they might think you were neglecting them, now that you have

got Fred.”

As was natural, Effie was much injured and offended by this suggestion.

“I have never neglected them,” she said. “I never went but when they

asked me, and they have not asked me for a long time. It is their

fault.”

“Well,” said Mrs. Ogilvie, “it is winter weather, and there is nothing

going on. Your tennis and all that is stopped, and yet there’s no frost

for skating. But whether they have asked you or not, just put on your

new frock and come over with me. They are perhaps in some trouble, for

anything we can tell.”

“In trouble? How could they be in trouble?”

“Do you think, you silly thing, that they are free of trouble because

they’re so well off? No, no; there are plenty of things to vex you in

this world, however rich you may be: though you are dressed in silks and

satins and eat off silver plate, and have all the delicacies of the

season upon your table, like daily bread, you will find that you have

troubles with it, all the same, just like ordinary folk.”

Effie thought truly that she had no need of being taught that lesson.

She knew far better than her stepmother what trouble was. She was going

to marry Fred Dirom, and yet if her heart had its way! And she could not

blame anybody, not even herself, for the position in which she was. It

had come about--she could not tell how or why.

But she could not associate Phyllis and Doris with anything that could

be called trouble. Neither was her mind at all awake or impressionable

on this subject. To lose money was to her the least of all

inconveniences, a thing not to be counted as trouble at all. She had

never known anything about money, neither the pleasure of possession nor

the vexation of losing it. Her indifference was that of entire

ignorance; it seemed to her a poor thing to distress one’s self about.

She put on her new frock, however, as she was commanded, to pay the

visit, and drove to Allonby with her stepmother, much as she had driven

on that momentous day when for the first time she had seen them all, and

when Mrs. Ogilvie had carried on a monologue, just as she was doing now,

though not precisely to the same effect and under circumstances so

changed. Effie then had been excited about the sisters and a little

curious about the brother, amused and pleased with the new acquaintances

to be made, and the novelty of the proceeding altogether. Now there was

no longer any novelty. She was on the eve of becoming a member of the

family, and it was with a very different degree of seriousness and

interest that she contemplated them and their ways. But still Mrs.

Ogilvie was full of speculation.

“I wonder,” she said, “if they will say anything about what is going on?

You have had no right explanation, so far as I am aware, of Fred’s

hurrying away like yon; I think he should have given you more

explanation. And I wonder if they will say anything about that

report--And, Effie, I wonder----” It appeared to Effie as they drove

along that all that had passed in the meantime was a dream, and that

Mrs. Ogilvie was wondering again as when they had first approached the

unknown household upon that fateful day.

Doris and Phyllis were seated in a room with which neither Effie nor her

stepmother were familiar, and which was not dark, and bore but few marks

of the amendments and re-arrangements which occupied the family so

largely on their first arrival at Allonby. Perhaps their interest had

flagged in the embellishment of the old house, which was no longer a

stranger to them; or perhaps the claims of comfort were paramount in

November. There was still a little afternoon sunshine coming in to help

the comfortable fire which blazed so cheerfully, and Lady Allonby’s old

sofas and easy chairs were very snug in the warm atmosphere.

The young ladies were, as was usual to them, doing nothing in

particular, and they were very glad to welcome visitors, any visitor, to

break the monotony of the afternoon. There was not the slightest

diminution visible of their friendship for Effie, which is a thing that

sometimes happens when the sister’s friend becomes the _fiancée_ of the

brother. They fell upon her with open arms.

“Why, it is Effie! How nice of you to come just when we wanted you,”

they cried, making very little count of Mrs. Ogilvie. Mothers and

stepmothers were of the opposite faction, and Doris and Phyllis did not

pretend to take any interest in them. “Mother will be here presently,”

they said to her, and no more. But Effie they led to a sofa and

surrounded with attentions.

“We have not seen you for an age. You are going to say it is our fault,

but it is not our fault. You have Fred constantly at Gilston, and you

did not want us there too. No, three of one family would be

insufferable; you couldn’t have wanted us; and what was the use of

asking you to come here, when Fred was always with you at your own

house? Now that he is away we were wondering would you come--I said yes,

I felt sure you would; but Doris----”

“Doris is never so confident as her sister,” said that young lady, “and

when a friendship that has begun between girls runs into a love affair,

one never can know.”

“It was not any doing of mine that it ran into--anything,” said Effie,

indignant. “I liked you the----” She was going to say the best, which

was not civil certainly to the absent Fred, and would not have been

true. But partly prudence restrained her, and partly Phyllis, who gave

her at that moment a sudden kiss, and declared that she had always said

that Effie was a dear.

“And no doubt you have heard from your brother,” said Mrs. Ogilvie, who

was not to be silenced, “and has he got his business done? I hope

everything is satisfactory, and nothing to make your good father and

mother anxious. These kind of cares do not tell upon the young, but when

people are getting up in years it’s then that business really troubles

them. We have been thinking a great deal of your worthy father--Mr.

Ogilvie and me. I hope he is seeing his way----”

The young ladies stared at her for a moment, in the intervals of

various remarks to Effie; and then Doris said, with a little evident

effort, as of one who wanted to be civil, yet not to conceal that she

was bored: “Oh, you mean about the firm? Of course we are interested; it

would make such a change, you know. I have taken all my measures,

however, and I feel sure I shall be the greatest success.”

“I was speaking of real serious business, Miss Doris. Perhaps I was just

a fool for my pains, for they would not put the like of that before you.

No, no, I am aware it was just very silly of me; but since it has been

settled between Effie and Mr. Fred, I take a great interest. I am one

that takes a great deal of thought, more than I get any thanks for, of

all my friends.”

“I should not like to trouble about all my friends, for then one would

never be out of it,” said Doris, calmly. “Of course, however, you must

be anxious about Fred. There is less harm, though, with him than with

most young men; for you know if the worst comes to the worst he has got

a profession. I cannot say that I have a profession, but still it comes

almost to the same thing; for I have quite made up my mind what to do.

It is a pity, Effie,” she said, turning to the audience she preferred,

“if the Great Smash is going to come that it should not come before you

are married; for then I could dress you, which would be good for both of

us--an advantage to your appearance, and a capital advertisement for

me.”

“That is all very well for her,” said Miss Phyllis, plaintively. “She

talks at her ease about the Great Smash; but I should have nothing to do

except to marry somebody, which would be no joke at all for me.”

“The Great Smash,” repeated Mrs. Ogilvie, aghast. All the colour had

gone out of her face. She turned from one to the other with dismay.

“Then am I to understand that it has come to that?” she cried, with

despair in her looks. “Oh! Effie, Effie, do you hear them? The Great

Smash!”

“Who said that?” said another voice--a soft voice grown harsh, sweet

bells jangled out of tune. There had been a little nervous movement of

the handle of the door some moments before, and now Mrs. Dirom came in

quickly, as if she had been listening to what was said, and was too much

excited and distracted to remember that it was evident that she had been

listening. She came in in much haste and with a heated air.

“If you credit these silly girls you will believe anything. What do they

know? A Great Smash--!” Her voice trembled as she said the words. “It’s

ridiculous, and it’s vulgar too. I wonder where they learned such

words. I would not repeat them if I could help it--if it was not

necessary to make you understand. There will be no Smash, Mrs. Ogilvie,

neither great nor small. Do you know what you are talking of? The great

house of the Diroms, which is as sure as the Bank of England? It is

their joke, it is the way they talk; nothing is sacred for them. They

don’t know what the credit of a great firm means. There is no more

danger of our firm--no more danger--than there is of the Bank of

England.”

The poor lady was so much disturbed that her voice, and, indeed, her

whole person, which was substantial, trembled. She dropped suddenly on a

chair, and taking up one of the Japanese fans which were everywhere

about, fanned herself violently, though it was late November, and the

day was cold.

“Dear me,” said Mrs. Ogilvie, “I am sorry if I have put you about; I had

no thought that it was serious at all. I just asked the question for

conversation’s sake. I never could have supposed for a moment that the

great house, as you say, of Dirom and Co. could ever take it in a

serious light.”

Upon this poor Mrs. Dirom put down her fan, and laughed somewhat

loudly--a laugh that was harsh and strained, and in which no confidence

was.

“That is quite true,” she said, “Mrs. Ogilvie. You are full of sense, as

I have always said. It is only a thing to laugh at. Their papa would be

very much amused if he were to hear. But it makes me angry when I have

no occasion to be angry, for it is so silly. If it was said by other

people I should take it with a smile; but to hear my own children

talking such nonsense, it is this that makes me angry. If it was anyone

else I shouldn’t mind.”

“Oh, yes,” said Mrs. Ogilvie, “I understand that; for if other people

make fools of themselves it is of no particular consequence; but when

it’s your own it’s a different matter. But Miss Doris, I suppose, has

just taken a notion into her head, and she does not care what it costs

to carry it out. Effie, now, really we must go. It is getting quite

dark, the days are so short. No, I thank you, we’ll not take any tea;

for Mr. Ogilvie has taken a habit of coming in for his cup of tea, and

he just cannot bear us to be away. When a man takes a notion of that

kind, the ladies of his family just have to give in to it. Good-bye,

young ladies, good-bye. But I hope you’ll not be disappointed to find

that there’s no Great Smash coming; for I don’t think that I should

relish it at all if it was me.”

They had a silent drive home. Effie had so many thoughts at that moment

that she was always glad, when she could, to return into them. She

thought no more of the Great Smash than of any other of the nonsensical

utterances which it might have pleased Doris to make. Indeed, the Great

Smash, even if it had been certain, would not have affected her mind

much, so entirely unconscious was she what its meaning might be. She

retired into her own thoughts, which were many, without having received

any impression from this new subject.

But it vaguely surprised her that her stepmother should be so silent.

She was so accustomed to that lively monologue which served as a

background to all manner of thoughts, that Effie was more or less

disturbed by its failure, without knowing why. Mrs. Ogilvie scarcely

said a word all the way home. It was incredible, but it was true. Her

friends would scarcely have believed it--they would have perceived that

matters must have been very serious indeed, before she could be reduced

to such silence. But Effie was heedless, and did not ask herself what

the reason was.

This was the evening that Ronald had been invited “to his dinner,” an

invitation which had called forth a protest from Mrs. Ogilvie; but,

notwithstanding, she was very kind to Ronald. It was Effie, not she, who

kept him at a distance, who avoided any conversation except the vaguest,

and, indeed, sat almost silent all the evening, as if her lover being

absent she had no attention to bestow upon another. That was not the

real state of Effie’s mind; but a delicate instinct drew her away, and

gave her a refuge in the silence which looked like indifference.

Mrs. Ogilvie, however, showed no indifference to Ronald. She questioned

him about his house, and with all the freedom which old family

connection permitted, about the fortune which he had “come into,” about

what he meant to do, and many other subjects. Ronald gave her, with

much gravity, the information she asked. He told her no--that he did not

mean to remain--that he was going back to his regiment. Why should he

stay, there was nothing for him to do at Haythorne?

“Hoot,” Mrs. Ogilvie said, “there is always this to do, that you must

marry and settle; that is the right thing for a young man. To be sure,

when there is no place to take a wife home to, but just to follow the

regiment, that’s very different; for parents that are in their senses

would never let a girl do that. But when you have the house first, then

the wife must follow. It is just the right order of things.”

“For some men,” said Ronald, “but not for me; it is either too early,

or, perhaps, too late.”

“Oh, too late! a lad like you to speak such nonsense!--and there’s never

any saying what may happen,” the lady said. This strange speech made

two hearts beat: Ronald’s with great surprise, and devouring curiosity.

Had he perhaps been premature in thinking that all was settled--was it a

mistake? But oh, no, he remembered that he had made his congratulations,

and they had been received; that Eric was coming back to the marriage;

that already the wedding guests were being invited, and all was in

train. Effie’s heart beat too, where she sat silent at a distance, close

to the lamp, on pretence of needing light for her work; but it was with

a muffled, melancholy movement, no sign of hope or possibility in it,

only the stir of regret and trouble over what might have been.

“Are you going to write letters, at this time of night?” said Mr.

Ogilvie, as he came back from the door, after seeing Ronald away.

“Just one, Robert; I cannot bear this suspense if the rest of you can. I

am going to write to my cousin John, who is a business man, and has his

office, as his father had before him, in Basinghall Street in London

city. I am going to ask him a question or two.”

“If I were you,” said Mr. Ogilvie, with some energy, “I would neither

make nor meddle in other folk’s affairs.”

“What do you call other folk’s affairs? It is my own folk’s affairs. If

there ever was a thing that was our business and not another’s, it’s

this. Do you think I would ever permit--and there is very little time to

be lost. I wonder I never thought of John before--he is just the person

to let me know.”

Mr. Ogilvie put his hands behind his back, and walked up and down the

room in great perturbation.

“I cannot see my way to making that kind of inquiry. It might do harm,

and I don’t see what good it can do. It might set people thinking. It

might bring on just what we’re wanting to avoid.”

“I am wanting to know, that is all,” said Mrs. Ogilvie. “As for setting

people thinking, that’s done as you’re aware. And if it’s done down

here, what must it be in the city? But I must be at the bottom of it,

whether it’s false, or whether it’s true.”

Mr. Ogilvie was not accustomed to such energy. He said, “Tchk, tchk,

tchk,” as people do so often in perplexity: and then he caught sight of

his daughter, holding Rory’s little stocking in the lamplight, and

knitting with nervous fingers. It was a good opportunity for getting rid

of the irritation which any new thing raised in him.

“Surely,” he said, with an air of virtuous indignation, “it is high time

that Effie, at least, should be in her bed!”

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