SHOP AND BABY.
Once clear of the well and the wall, Clare set off running like a
gaze-hound. Such was the change produced in him by joy and the
satisfaction of hope, that when he entered the shop, no one at first
knew him. His face was as the face of an angel, and none the less
beautiful that it shone above ragged garments. But Mr. Maidstone, the
moment he saw him, and before he had time to recognize him, turned
from the boy with dislike.
“What a fool the beggar looks!” he said to himself;--then aloud to one
of the young men, “Hand over that parcel of sheets.--Here,
you!--what’s your name?”
“Clare, sir.”
“I declare against it!” he rejoined, with a coarse laugh of pleasure
at his own fancied wit. “I shall call you Jack!”
“Very well, sir!”
“Don’t you talk.--Here, Jack, take this parcel to Mrs. Trueman’s.
You’ll see the address on it.--And look sharp.--You can read, can’t
you?”
The people in the shop stood looking on, some pitifully, all curiously,
for the parcel was of considerable size, and linen is heavy, while the
boy looked pale and thin. But Clare was strong for his age, and present
joy made up for past want. He scarcely looked at the parcel which the
draper proceeded to lay on his shoulder, stooped a little as he felt
its weight, heaved it a little to adjust its balance, and holding it in
its place with one hand, started for the door, which the master himself
held open for him.
“Please, sir, which way do I turn?” he asked.
“To the left,” answered Mr. Maidstone. “Ask your way as you go.”
Clare forgot that he had heard only the lady’s name. Her address was
on the parcel, no doubt, but if he dropped it to look, he could not
get it up again by himself. A little way on, therefore, meeting a
boy about his own age returning from school, he asked him to be kind
enough to read the address on his back and direct him. The boy read it
aloud, but gave him false instructions for finding the place. Clare
walked and walked until the weight became almost unendurable, and at
last, though loath, concluded that the boy must have deceived him.
He asked again, but this time of a lady. She took pains not only to
tell him right, but to make him understand right: she was pleased with
the tired gentle face that looked up from beneath the heavy burden.
Perhaps she thought of the proud souls growing pure of their pride, in
Dante’s _Purgatorio_. Following her directions, he needed no further
questioning to find the house. But it was hours after the burden was
gone from his shoulder before it was rid of the phantom of its weight.
His master rated him for having been so long, and would not permit him
to explain his delay, ordering him to hold his tongue and not answer
back; but the rest of his day’s work was lighter; there was no other
heavy parcel to send out. There were so many smaller ones, however,
that, by the time they were all delivered, he had gained something more
than a general idea of how the streets lay, and was a weary wight when,
with the four-pence his master hesitated to give him on the ground
that he was doubtful of his character, he set out at last, walking
soberly enough now, to spend it at Mr. Ball’s and the milk-shop. Of the
former he bought a stale three-penny loaf, and the baker added a piece
to make up the weight. Clare took this for liberality, and returned
hearty thanks, which Mr. Ball, I am sorry to say, was not man enough to
repudiate. The other penny he laid out on milk--but oh, how inferior it
was to that the farmer’s wife had given him! The milk-woman, however,
not ungraciously granted him the two matches he begged for.
On his way to baby, he almost hoped Tommy would not return: he would
gladly be saved putting him in the water-butt!
He forgot him again as he drew near the nursery, and for a long while
after he reached it. He found the infant and the dog lying as he
had left them. The only sign that either had moved was the strange
cleanness of the tiny gray face which Clare had not ventured to wash.
It gave indubitable evidence that the dog had been licking it more than
a little--probably every few minutes since he was left curate in charge.
And now Clare did with deliberation a thing for which his sensitive
conscience not unfrequently reproached him afterward. His defence was,
that he had hurt nobody, and had kept baby alive by it. Having in his
mind revolved the matter many a time that day, he got some sticks
together from the garden, and with one of the precious matches lighted
a small fire of coals that were not his own, and for which he could
merely hope one day to restore amends. But baby! Baby was more than
coals! He filled a rusty kettle with water, and while it was growing
hot on the fire, such was his fear lest the smoke should betray them,
that he ran out every other minute to see how much was coming from the
chimney.
While the fire was busy heating the water, he was busier preparing a
bottle for baby--making a hole through the cork of a phial, putting the
broken stem of a clean tobacco pipe he had found in the street through
the hole, tying a small lump of cotton wool over the end of the
pipe-stem, and covering that with a piece of his pocket-handkerchief,
carefully washed with the brown Windsor soap, his mother’s last present.
For the day held yet another gladness: in looking for a kettle he had
found the soap--which probably the rat had carried away and hidden
before finding baby. Through the pipe-stem and the wool and the
handkerchief he could without difficulty draw water, and hoped therefore
baby would succeed in drawing her supper. As soon as the water was warm
he mixed some with the milk, but not so much this time, and put the
mixture in the bottle. To his delight, the baby sucked it up splendidly.
The bottle, thought out between the heavy linen and the hard street, was
a success! Labour is not unfriendly to thought, as the annals of weaving
and shoe-making witness.
And now at last was Clare equipped for a great attempt: he was going
to wash the baby! He was glad that disrespectful Tommy was not in the
house. With a basin of warm water and his precious piece of soap he
set about it, and taking much pains, washed his treasure perfectly
clean. It was a state of bliss in which, up to that moment, I presume,
she had never been since her birth. In the process he handled her, if
not with all the skill of a nurse, yet with the tenderness of a
mother. His chief anxiety was not to hurt, more than could not be
helped, the poor little rat-eaten toes. He felt he must wash them, but
when in the process she whimpered, it went all through the calves of
his legs. When the happy but solicitous task was over, during which
the infant had shown the submission of great weakness, he wrapped her
in another blanket, and laid her down again. Soothed and comfortable,
as probably never soothed or comfortable before, she went to sleep.
As soon as she was out of his arms, he took a piece of bread, and with
some of the hot water made a little sop for the dog, which the small
hero, whose four legs carried such a long barrel of starvation, ate
with undisguised pleasure and thankfulness. For his own supper Clare
preferred his bread dry, following it with a fine draught of water
from the well.
Then, and not till then, returned the thought--what had Tommy done
with himself? Left to himself he was sure to go stealing! He might
have been taken in the act! Clare could hardly believe he had actually
run away from him. On the other hand, he had left the baby, and knew
that if he returned he would be put in the water-butt! He might have
come to the conclusion that he could do better without Clare, who
would not let him steal! It was clear he did not like taking his share
in the work of the family, and looking after the baby! Had he been
anything of a true boy, Clare would have taken his bread in his hand
and gone to look for him; being such as he was, he did not think it
necessary. He felt bound to do his best for him if he came back, but
he did not feel bound to leave the baby and roam the country to find a
boy with whom baby’s life would be in constant danger.