BIANCA MARIA CAVALCANTI
For three days in the Marquis di Formosa's house a deep silence
had reigned. The doors, oiled in their hinges and locks, shut and
opened with no noise. The two old servants, Giovanni and Margherita,
walked on tiptoe, not saying a word, like shadows gliding over the
floor--or, rather, they made no movement. Giovanni, seated on the
single straw chair that furnished the lobby, Margherita seated at the
sick girl's bedside, gazing at the pale face sunk in heavy stupor
in the sickly slumber of high fever, both kept quite still. The
doctor, some sort of a medical man, called in from Berriolas', the
neighbouring druggists, said that above everything any noise would
have a bad effect on the patient's brain, and at once in the house
every sound, even sighs, were hushed. Not a word was said above the
breath, for those old servants were accustomed to being silent and
motionless. It looked already as if they had been overtaken by the
long last rest. Then the doctor asked for the family practitioner.
When they mentioned Dr. Amati's name, he at once proposed to send
for him. He needed him. The Marquis di Formosa's anxious face got
icy, and the two servants looked just as sorrowful. Then he suspected
something, shook his head, and set to treating the patient himself,
covering her burning head with ice, giving her quinine every two
hours to try and bring down the high fever, the raging typhoid,
giving her strong nourishment, but without making any improvement,
never managing to overcome the state of coma she was in, except by
raising a queer delirium, mingled with spasmodic nervous convulsions;
for the blood-poisoning by typhoid was complicated by serious nervous
disorders.
'What do you say about it, doctor--what is your verdict?' asked the
Marquis di Formosa on the stair landing.
'If it was only typhoid there might be some hope; but the whole
nervous system is overthrown. We run the risk of meningitis. I tell
you again, you must call Dr. Amati in; he knows the patient.'
'It is impossible to do so,' the Marquis answered sharply.
'Then I do not answer for the consequences,' said the other, going
off.
Going back into his daughter's room, the Marquis di Formosa stiffened
his pride against the doctor's request, which tortured his fatherly
heart. That man, who had taken his daughter's heart from him, would
never enter his house again and bring his evil influence on her.
Bianca Maria was young and strong; she would get over the illness.
Thus he persisted in his haughtiness, and went back to sit at his
sick daughter's bedside. He leant over that face that always got more
bloodless, and called to his daughter just above his breath.
She was lying sunk in that torpor of typhoid, with a lump of ice on
her motionless head, her hands joined as if in prayer, the usual
attitude of typhoid patients. Still, she heard that breath of a
voice. She did not answer, she did not open her eyes, but, with a
slight contraction of her muscles, she drew her eyebrows together
frowningly, as if annoyed; and her hand made a constant motion,
always the same, obstinate, discouraging, to keep her father at a
distance. He leant down again, hurt and offended, saying in a whisper
that it was her father--her own father, who loved her so fondly, who
wanted to make her well; he was the only person who really loved her.
But the bored expression got stronger on the poor invalid's face--the
patient, as the doctor called her--and the slender, obstinate, uneasy
hand went on driving away the Marquis di Formosa. The old man had
difficulty in keeping down a rush of anger that rose to his brain,
and he went to sit a little distance off, folding his arms across
his breast, his head down, submitting, humbling himself. Margherita
alone got an answer when she asked Bianca Maria anything--if she
would drink any of that strong beverage, marsala, beaten up egg and
soup, that is given to typhoid patients, or if she wanted the ice-bag
changed. The girl, without opening her eyes, answered either way by a
wave of her slight hand. And the Marquis di Formosa was obliged, if
he wished to know anything, to watch the old waiting-woman's face.
At certain times, in despair at that obstinate ostracism, he went
out of Bianca Maria's room and began to walk up and down in the
drawing-room; but often his excited footsteps made too much noise,
and Margherita's worn face came to the doorway. He stood still. She
made him a sign to be quiet; the noise did harm to Bianca Maria.
'Here, too, do I annoy her?' he asked, quivering.
And as Margherita agreed, 'Yes, it was true,' even in the distance
he made her suffer, to keep down a feeling of rage, he took his
hat and went out of the house. Then the flat fell back again into
its great stillness; Giovanni slumbered sadly in the hall, whilst
Margherita leant over the invalid's pallid, burning face to breathe
out some gentle word to her. Making an effort, the poor girl smiled
for a single minute, and the old servant, satisfied, went back to her
chair, muttering words of prayer to herself, without taking her eyes
off Bianca Maria.
Very, very late, after having wandered through the streets, tiring
himself by walking, ill-dressed, unbrushed, having lost all care for
his appearance, quite unrecognisable, the Marquis di Formosa came
home to find the door open, as if they had heard his footsteps from
a distance. Margherita came up to him in the dark with her ghost-like
step.
'How is she?' he asked.
'Just the same,' she sighed out.
'What does the doctor say?'
'He orders ice and quinine. He again asked for Dr. Amati to be sent
for.'
'I told you never to mention that scoundrel's name!'
'Hush!' she hissed out respectfully, and she went away.
The Marquis was seized by so profound an anguish that, the old faith
rising again in his heart, he sought for a place to kneel down and
pray the Lord that He would save his daughter, and free him from
that agony. Alas! the small room used as a chapel at first, where
Bianca Maria and he had prayed together so often, was empty: he,
after having abused the saints and the Virgin, after having done
the sacrilege of punishing Ecce Homo, had sold the saints, Virgin,
and Ecce Homo to stake the money at the lottery. There were no more
guardian saints in Cavalcanti House; the Virgin and her Divine Son
had withdrawn their saddened eyes from insult. There was nothing left
in that house, nothing. During these last days, throughout the poor
girl's illness, they had lived on alms; that is to say, off some
allowance inexhaustible pity of Gennaro Parascandolo the usurer's
wife had granted to Margherita and Giovanni's tears and entreaties.
The Cavalcantis were holding out their hands for alms now! For many
weeks he had had no money to stake, and he avoided Don Crescenzio's
lottery bank, as he had not the many francs he owed him to give back;
but when Friday came, though he knew they were reduced to private
begging, knowing that what he did was a domestic crime, he came
to Margherita to implore her to give him two francs, or only one,
to gamble with. Only on that Friday, confronted by Bianca Maria's
illness, he had not dared; he was struck incurably. That girlish
body, stretched on what perhaps might be her death-bed; that head
crushed down under the heavy bag of ice; that profile, pinched as
if it was rubbed down by an inward hand; that eyebrow, that frowned
on hearing his voice only; and that hand, that hand above all, that
chased him away constantly, obstinately, a victim to a dumb, lively
horror--all that had broken down the last energies of his old age.
Illnesses of old people make the old thoughtful and melancholy, but
young people's illnesses frighten them as a thing against the order
of Nature. Ah! in these moments of anguish, he felt so weak, so old,
so worn-out, an organism with no vitality, a lamp with no oil. And
shaking, trembling, not even looking towards his daughter's bed, he
went to sit in his usual place, letting himself go, as if he had to
sit there and wait for death.
Only one thing could give him back a flash of energy--that is to say,
a flash of hatred--and it was the name of the loathed doctor, which
was repeated from time to time by the new doctor or mentioned by his
own servants, who referred to him in spite of his express orders
against it. She, Bianca Maria, had never mentioned it. In the doleful
convulsions that had come on before that typhoid she had raved at
great length, cried out over and over again, calling for her mother,
'Mama, mama!' like a child in danger, like a lost child; nothing
else. Vainly in these low ravings, in that confused muttering,
that long, disconnected chatter, he had stretched his ears to hear
his own name or the scoundrel's who had taken his daughter's heart
from him. She had always called for her mother, no one else. And he
trembled, shivered, in case of hearing that name coming from her
lips, still keeping up in his old age and tiredness, in his growing
weakness, that dull rage, that implacable hatred. Sometimes, when the
delirium got higher and higher and haunted him, he ran away from the
room, stopping his ears, always fearing she would call on that name.
Outside he stood thus, waiting, undecided, and very agitated.
'What is she speaking about?' he asked Margherita when she, stupefied
and frightened, came out of the room.
'She wants her mother,' the other muttered, crying silently, for it
seemed to her a forerunner of death.
And the typhoid went on, finishing its first week, not yielding to
the ice or the quinine, keeping always between a hundred and four and
a hundred and five degrees, as if the mercury in the thermometer had
stuck at that doleful figure, a funereal cylinder that nothing was of
any use now to bring down.
'How much is it?' the old father made inquiry with anxious eyes from
Margherita, who was looking at the thermometer held against the sick
girl's burning skin.
'A hundred and four degrees,' she muttered under her breath with
infinite despair.
Implacable figure! To bring down the fire that burned away Bianca
Maria's blood and nerves, seeing that quinine taken by the mouth
in large doses had no proper effect, quinine was now injected with
a tiny, pretty silver syringe into the patient's arm. Not having
the strength to open her eyes, she raised herself with difficulty,
propped up on pillows, and held up in Margherita's arms, and her head
shook, the black hair stuck to her temples, and dripped moisture
from the chill of the ice-bag. They had to hold up her head, too,
for it went from side to side. Then, baring the poor arms all
dotted by the silver needle, a new burning, painful puncture was
added to the others. She started, but only slightly, as if no pain
was worse than that sleep. Sometimes she opened her eyes, and set
them on Margherita's face, and they were so sad in their expression
of weariness, so muddy in colour, dry, and indifferent now to all
earthly sights, that a glance from them wrung the heart. It looked as
if they had emptied out the fountain of tears. When her father and
Margherita saw these doleful eyes in front of them, they gave a start.
'My child! my child!' the old man said to her, holding her hands.
Then she, disturbed and tired, lowered her eyelids at once, and
sank anew into that stupefied state in which the only two signs of
vitality were her laboured breathing and the high temperature. Very
seldom did the quinine injections succeed in bringing down the high
fever; there was a slight discouraging variation, nothing more.
Only on the morning of the tenth day she seemed, all of a sudden, in
a better state. It was sleep instead of torpor, and in the comforting
sleep a cold sweat ran over her forehead, which Margherita wiped off
carefully. The poor old woman followed tremblingly every minute of
that sleep, as if she guessed intuitively Bianca Maria's life was to
depend on it; and while she said her prayers over mentally, her whole
attention was fixed on the loved face sharpened by illness, that
seemed to be getting back renewed brightness. Whilst the sound sleep
lasted, Margherita's vigilant ear heard a noise in the flat. She got
up on tiptoe and went out. It was the Marquis di Formosa coming in
again, and he questioned her with his eyes anxiously.
'She is resting; she is better--she is much better,' muttered the
poor old woman, putting a finger to her lips to enjoin silence.
The father's dry eyes filled with tears; it was the first good news
in ten days' anguish and fears. He, too, went into his daughter's
room, sitting down in his usual place, watching the thin face, where
the great nervous tension seemed to have given way to a favourable
crisis.
Margherita, so as not to disturb Bianca Maria's sleep, dared not make
use of the thermometer to find out her temperature, but her heart
told her the fever had certainly gone down. Then, both silent, she
praying inwardly and the Marquis di Formosa fishing up some shreds
of prayer from the depths of his clouded conscience, they spent two
hours watching over the invalid's quiet sleep. It was dusk when she
opened her eyes--the large eyes that had been shut for ten days by
fever's burning, leaden hand, and at once Margherita leant over her,
questioning her:
'How do you feel?'
To her astonishment, the girl, instead of answering with a wave of
the hand or a nod, said in a very feeble voice:
'I am better.'
Also the Marquis di Formosa had come up beside the bed, and,
quivering with joy, he said over and over again:
'My child! my child!'
'Do you want anything?' the waiting-woman asked, for the sake of
hearing the feeble voice which had gone to her heart.
'No, nothing; I feel better,' the invalid whispered, with a sigh of
relief from her unburdened breast.
Her father had taken hold of her hand, gazing affectionately at his
daughter. And she, who for ten days had driven him away from her bed
by her look and the waving of her hand, smiled on him this time. It
was a flash of light. He could do nothing but stammer out:
'My child! my child!'
And Margherita went out of the room cheerfully, as if her young
mistress were safe--safe for ever from the frightful danger she had
gone through for ten days. The Marquis di Formosa had sat down at the
head of the sick girl's bed, and, holding her slight hand in his, he
felt his darling's fleshless fingers pressing now and then a little
harder on his own, as a loving caress. Twice or thrice he leant over
and asked, 'Would you like anything?' She had not replied, but that
rapid flash of a smile had come back. It was night already, and faces
could not be made out any longer, when, on a new question from her
father, Bianca Maria replied: 'Yes, I do.'
'What do you want? Tell me at once!'
'I want the doctor at once,' she said.
'Do you feel ill?' the old man asked, misunderstanding her.
'No; I want Dr. Amati.'
Her father put his hand over the girl's on the coverlet, but he said
nothing.
'Do you hear? I wish for Dr. Amati,' she repeated in a louder voice,
that already had a quiver of annoyance in it.
'No, my dear, it cannot be,' he replied, trying to restrain himself,
thinking of her illness, and remembering her danger.
'I want Dr. Amati,' she said in a loud voice, raising her head from
the pillow with a peculiar motion. It seemed, indeed, to the old man
that she had ground her teeth after having announced for the fourth
time her strange demand.
'It is not possible, my dear,' he muttered, trying to hold in his own
burning rage.
'Go and call Dr. Amati! Go at once!' she shouted, as if giving him an
order.
'You are mad!' he cried out, rising from his seat. 'I will never go.'
'Yes, yes, you will!' she yelled, rising on the pillow, clutching at
the sheet with her clenched hands; 'you will go at once, and bring
him here directly. I want Amati beside me--always with me. Go at
once!'
'No, no, I will not!' he shouted in his turn, not knowing what he was
doing. 'He will never put a foot in here while I am alive.'
Margherita had run in, quite upset, in despair a second time, but
still more despairing from the new turn the illness had taken. Hardly
had Bianca Maria seen her, when she called out to her:
'Margherita, if you love me, go and call Dr. Amati.'
'I forbid you to; do you hear?' the old Marquis shrieked to the
woman. He was so exasperated that his hands shook, his eyes gave out
sparks.
'For goodness' sake, miss, do not get in such a state; remember you
are talking to your father. Please, my lord, remember my lady is ill;
she is not in her right mind.'
'I am not mad; I want Dr. Amati,' the girl still cried out, clenching
her fists, grinding her teeth, rolling her eyes so convulsively that
only the white of the eyeball could be seen.
'Holy Virgin! Holy Virgin!' Margherita went on sobbing out.
'For the love of God, if you are fond of me, go and call Dr. Amati!'
the sick girl sobbed out, her head swaying about, sometimes rising
from the pillow and falling back upon it.
'She is mad! she is mad!' shouted the old man, raving.
'My lord, go away outside; I beg of you, go away,' Margherita
implored, seeing that his daughter fixed her eyes, now full of
intense rage, then with keen sorrow, on her father, and that the
sight of him made her still more frantic.
'I am going away--I am going away; but she will not see Dr. Amati!'
he shouted, going outside, feeling he could bear it no longer.
But from the drawing-room, whither he had borne his anger, he heard
a loud shriek, loud and agonizing, as if the patient were driving
her nails into her flesh; and after that shriek another, lower,
but equally agonizing, such a cry of unbearable sorrow quivered in
it, and words spoken now loudly, now in low tones, that came to him
confusedly. The girl had fallen into convulsions. Suddenly the sounds
quieted down, and then, still trembling from a mixed feeling of rage,
pity and fear, he went near the room; but he did not go in, merely
calling Margherita to the door.
'How is she?'
'She is worse, much worse,' she said, weeping silently.
'But what is she saying?'
'She wants Dr. Amati.'
'That she will never get.'
These short discussions, however, though the invalid sank at
intervals into a state of coma, were heard by her, and twice on
coming out of that torpor the loud shrieks had burst out anew, with
a quivering of all her muscles, especially with a frightful knotting
together of the muscles in the nape of the neck. Throughout the cries
that name, the name the poor thing had worshipped so long in secret,
that name that had been for her the sign of salvation--that name
came up again always obstinately in her delirium, proclaimed by the
soul that knew no fetters now; imperiously, gently, despairingly,
with such an outflow of love that Margherita and Giovanni, who
ran in to keep down the hysterical girl's arms, felt their hearts
breaking. From the other room, as the sick girl raised her voice,
sometimes shrill, then deep, calling upon Dr. Amati, the Marquis di
Formosa started and shuddered, with that obstinate, blind hatred of
old people who cannot forgive. Vainly, vainly he tried to think of
something else--not to hear, not to feel the despairing sorrow of
that appeal. It was no use keeping down his head and stopping his
ears, trusting to the farthest-off room in the house; that clamorous
complaint still reached him persistently--nothing could be done to
check it. It was a nightmare now, and in spite of the distance, in
spite of closed doors, he heard clearly and distinctly the words of
love and sorrow in which Bianca Maria called on Dr. Amati; the words
got printed on his mind, and hammered on his brain like a persecution.
That went on for an hour and a half, and she did not quiet down nor
stop speaking, finding new strength, nervous strength, to call, and
call as if her voice, as if her calls, were to go through the wall,
across the streets, were to get to the man she longed for to save
her. Oh, that nightmare, that nightmare! to hear his daughter's
ravings! She who had thrust him away from her bed, now was making
desperate appeals to another man. Now and then, as if to put an end
to that talking, imploring madness, he went close to the room door,
and heard Margherita's level voice, as she held her mistress clasped
in her arms, trying to calm her, whilst she went on as if she had
no ear for other voices, as if she had to call for Dr. Amati until
she saw him come into her room. And her old father went off wild
and desperate, shaking with rage and anguish, not knowing what to
do; now grovelling, now ferocious, still unsubdued; keeping up his
hatred, not able to calm down, his blood boiling in his veins, and a
shortness of breath oppressing him. But at a certain stage he heard
the bell ring, and someone go into the flat, and then into Bianca
Maria's room. Formosa stood still, motionless, astounded. Who had
come in then?
When Margherita came into the room where he had taken refuge, and
called him with a wave of her hand, he followed her meekly. Beside
the sick girl's bed, holding her twitching arms and looking into her
eyes, was the doctor in charge, Morelli, whom poor Margherita had
called in. But Bianca Maria, even under the doctor's strong hands,
even under his scrutinizing glance, went on trembling; her head rose
convulsively from the pillow, her neck stretched forward, getting
rigid, and then her head fell back again, worn out, still with a
continued slight movement backwards and forwards, whilst unweariedly
she went on saying, sometimes low, then shrilly, 'Amati ... Amati ...
Amati ... I want Amati....'
'But what is the matter with her?' asked Formosa, clasping his hands,
with tears in his eyes.
'She must have had some strong excitement two or three hours ago: had
she not?'
'Yes, I fear so.'
'Was it from some alarm, some noise?'
'I ... I don't ... quite know.'
'Well, she got excited? Did she cry out?'
'Yes ... she did.'
'Why did you let her get excited? Why did you not let her have what
she wanted? Do you know the danger your daughter is running?'
'I do not know ... I know nothing. What do you expect me to know?'
the old man shouted, holding out his hands, beseeching like a child.
'The danger is of meningitis,' said the doctor through his clenched
teeth.
Now the invalid had half opened her eyes. The doctor examined her
pupils. Her eye seemed glassy, rigid, as her whole person had got.
'Doctor, what is it? is she dead?' yelled the old man, as if he were
mad.
'It is temporary paralysis, from meningitis.'
'What is to be done?'
'Well, we will see. Meanwhile I beg you to have Dr. Amati called in.'
The old man looked at him, disordered.
'What do you say?'
'Send and call Amati. Do you not see she wants him?'
'... She is raving.'
'Yes, sir; but when she asked for him, she must have been conscious;
and even in delirium you must obey her, my lord.'
'Am I to obey?'
'Your daughter is in a serious state; it is better to satisfy her.'
'Is she in danger?'
'You may lose her from one hour to another. She has no strength to
bear up against meningitis.'
'Doctor, doctor, do not say that!'
'My dear sir, do you want me to tell you the truth, especially as
the poor patient cannot hear us? First of all, you would not allow
Amati to be called; then you let the young lady get into this state
of exasperation.... You will not go on with this refusal? The girl is
dying....'
'O holy God!' blasphemed the Marquis.
'I will go to Amati's house,' Morelli said.
'... He will not come.'
'Why should he not? Was he not the doctor in charge? He is an honest
man; he is a great doctor.'
'... He will not come,' Formosa repeated.
'Then go yourself, my lord.'
Now, whilst Formosa made a despairing gesture, the sick girl had
started up, and again rapidly through her clenched teeth she had
begun to say: 'Amati! ... Amati! ... I want Amati!...'
'Do you hear?' said Morelli.
'But I cannot!' shouted Formosa, 'for I turned that man out of my
house. I would not let my daughter marry him. I cannot humble myself
to him.'
'Very well, but my lady is dying,' said the doctor, holding down the
girl's hands, which were clapping together.
'Go and call Amati! For mercy's sake, for the love of God, do not
give me up! Call Amati!' groaned the invalid.
'My God! what a punishment! what a punishment!' the old man cried
out, tearing his hair. 'But, doctor, give her something; do not let
her die!'
'... Amati! ... Amati! ... I want Amati!' she said, raving, rolling
her eyes fearfully. Then, falling back again, worn out, on the bed
with a fresh stroke of paralysis, the only living thing in her was
her voice, asking for Amati; still the only idea of her wandering
reason was Amati, Amati, Amati.
'I will write to him,' the old man said desolately, going to another
room whilst the doctor was trying to put new ice on Bianca Maria's
burning head.
The Marquis di Formosa was writing, but it was unbearable, the shame
of having to give in, and the words would not come from his pen. He
tore two sheets. At last a short letter came out, in which he asked
Dr. Amati to come to his house, as his daughter was ill--nothing
more. When he had to write the address he nearly smashed the pen.
Then, not looking Giovanni in the face, he told him to run to
Dr.--yes, to Dr. Amati's. The poor old thing ran, whilst Morelli
gave calomel pills to his delirious patient, who was crying out,
for the pain in her head had got unbearable, frightful. Her father,
having carried out his first sacrifice, felt he was going mad with
these howls, fearing lest he should begin to howl and howl like her,
as if he had caught meningitis from her. Now that he had written
the letter, carried out an unbearable sacrifice, the Marquis di
Formosa began to wish that Dr. Amati would come soon, at least. It
was impossible for him to bear these cries, laments, and groans any
longer, where one name came up continuously. Now he was counting the
minutes for Giovanni to come back, straining his ears if he heard
the noise of a door opening. Time was passing, and the sick girl, in
spite of ice, in spite of calomel, was raving, with glaring eyes, a
prey to the inflammation that seemed to be burning up her brain.
Here was a door opening; someone was coming towards the room where
the Marquis di Formosa had taken refuge in his desperation. It was
Giovanni alone, and he looked so tired, so old, so sad, that the
Marquis shivered as he asked him:
'Well?'
'Dr. Amati is not coming.'
'Was he not at home?'
'He was not. I waited for him under the portico; then he came
back....'
'Well, then, what happened?'
'He read the letter ... and he said he was too busy; that the young
lady was sure to have a good doctor.'
'Did you not ... beg ... him to come.'
'I did, my lord. He got severe then, and went away muttering
something that I did not understand.'
'You ought to have gone upstairs and insisted.'
'I had not the courage.'
'But do you not know my lady is dying for want of him? Do you not
know that?'
'I do know it, my lord; but the doctor used me ill. I am a poor
servant.'
'He is right,' said the old man slowly; 'I insulted him deeply.'
'My lord, my lord, go yourself; he will not refuse you.'
'You are mad.'
'For the young lady's sake.'
'He will refuse. He will insult me.'
'For her sake.'
'No, no; it is too much to expect....'
'But, my lord, you said it yourself: my lady is dying.'
'Go away!' shouted the Marquis brutally, driving his servant away.
He was left alone. His pride rebelled against the idea of humbling
himself before the man he had abused. He suffered frightfully; his
daughter's voice, now muttering in a low tone, now yelling shrilly,
calling out 'Amati,' gave him a feeling of physical pain, of a
red-hot iron scorching his flesh. Within him, however, as time
passed, as the girl's danger increased, a work of clearing away was
going on, in which all the old and the new rebellions of his haughty
feelings went on tumbling down, and in place of the pride came a
tremendous pity, a great affection, an immense sorrow. The hours
flew by whilst he walked up and down, gnawing at the curb of the
last chains in which his heart was bending, till at last it sank to
the earth; and that eternal delirious voice which could say nothing
but the name of Antonio Amati never ceased. He no longer shook with
anger; hatred was silent, and when Dr. Morelli, having gone away and
come back, asked for Amati, he replied:
'He has not come. I am going myself.'
'Will you bring him?'
'Yes, I will.'
It was very late, however, when he set out on foot to go to Santa
Lucia Road, where Dr. Amati was now living. It was nearly midnight,
and people had turned out in Toledo in the mildness of the April
evening. In spite of being old, the Marquis ran through the streets,
urged by a nervous force, and when he got to the big gateway of the
palazzo Amati lived in, he went up the stairs rapidly, not giving any
answer to the porter, who asked where he was going.
'Tell Dr. Amati that the Marquis di Formosa is here,' he told the
housekeeper, who came to open the door to him.
'Really ... he is studying.'
'Tell him, I beg of you. It is very urgent ...' the old man
implored; his pride was completely gone. She went off, and came back
again at once, making the Marquis a sign to come in. He crossed
two sitting-rooms, and came to a study all in shadow, where the
lamp-light was concentrated on a large table scattered with papers
and books. But Dr. Amati was standing in the middle of the room,
waiting. These two men, who had hated each other so much, looked at
one another, with the same sorrow they had in common, and pity for
the unhappy dying girl cut short all rancour. They looked at each
other.
'What is it?' Amati asked in a weak voice.
'She is dying,' said Formosa with a despairing gesture.
'Of what?'
'Of meningitis.'
An earthy pallor spread over the doctor's face, and two lines formed
themselves about his lips. And he dared not make the Marquis any
reproaches. Had he not himself forsaken the poor girl, though he had
promised and sworn to save her? Had he not through pride left the
delicate, sickly flower a prey to all moral and physical evils? Both
of them were guilty, both.
'Let us start, then,' he said. They went out together, called for a
cab, and had the hood put up, as if they wanted to hide their sorrow.
They did not speak during the drive. Only whilst he bit at his spent
cigar Dr. Amati from time to time asked some medical questions.
'How long has she had meningitis? is this the first day of it?'
'Yes; but she has had typhoid fever for nine days.'
'Had she high fever?'
'It went up to a hundred and four and a hundred and five.'
'Had she bad headaches?'
'Frightful headaches.'
'Did she have convulsions?'
'Yes, at intervals.'
'Does she roll her eyes about?'
'Yes, she rolls her eyes.'
'Do the muscles at the nape of her neck contract?'
'Yes, they do.'
'Was there some reason for it?'
'Yes,' said the father humbly, almost sobbing out his monosyllable.
'Did she get calomel?'
'Yes; Morelli gave that.'
'Did it not soothe her?'
'No, not a bit. Often she is paralyzed, but for a short time.'
'It is just meningitis,' the doctor muttered thoughtfully.
The carriage went on and on, as well as it could with an ordinary
night horse. They were not getting there yet, and they had already
urged the driver to hurry.
'Is she delirious?' the doctor asked again.
'I do not know--I am not sure if it is delirium; but she is always
speaking convulsively.'
'What does she say?'
'She calls out for you.'
'For me?'
'Yes--always for you.'
Ah! the doctor's heart broke on hearing that. The old father heard
him say, like a frightened prayer, 'My God!' They said nothing
more. They found the door open. Poor old Giovanni had waited for
them on the landing, leaning over the railing, looking into the
entrance-hall, anxious to see them arrive, but certain that the
doctor would come.
'How is she?' asked her father at once; he had a constant need of
being reassured.
'Just as she is bound to be,' sighed the old butler, going on in
front. 'She is much the same.'
'Is she still delirious?'
'Yes, still delirious.'
They went in very softly to the small room. Dr. Morelli had gone away
a little while before, leaving a short note for Dr. Amati. But he
went straight to the sick girl's bed. Her voice, tired now, but still
impassioned, went on always repeating Amati's name, but her head was
sunk in the pillows, and her eyes half shut. He saw everything at
once, and the disorder of his mind must have been tremendous, for he
could not manage to control his face--he, the strong, invincible man.
And he hesitated a minute before replying to the unhappy, raving girl
who went on calling to him, fearing to cause too strong an impression
on her nerves; but he could not resist the feeble voice that went
straight to his heart and made it bleed with tenderness; he said:
'Bianca Maria.'
What a cry the answer was! She got up, her face suddenly flaming; her
eyes grew enormous. She threw her arms round his neck, and leant her
head on his breast, crying out:
'Oh, my love! my love! how long you have been in coming! Do not leave
me again--never forsake me; it is so long since I have been calling
for you--do not leave me.'
'Do not fear; I will not leave you ...' he muttered, trying to
overcome his emotion, petting her fine, ruffled, tumbled hair.
'Never go away from me again--never!...' she cried out passionately,
clinging with her arms round his neck. 'If you forsake me I shall
die.'
'Keep quiet, Bianca Maria, be quiet--do not say such things.'
'I will say so!'--she raised her voice, irritated at being
contradicted--'if I have not you it is death for me. But you will not
let me die? Ah, do not leave me to die!'
'My darling, be quiet--be quiet,' he said, not able to control
himself, trying to loosen the chain of her arms round his neck.
'Do not lift me from here! do not make me let go!' she shrieked,
making desperate motions with her head. 'If you make me let go, I
feel that death will take hold of me....'
'Oh, Bianca, Bianca, be quiet, for my sake! do not kill me!' said the
strong man, now become the weakest and wretchedest among men.
'Death will catch hold of me! it is here behind me! I feel it! You
alone can save me! Do not let me die--I do not wish to die: you know
I do not wish to die!'
'You will not die. Hush, my dear, or you will get worse. I am here: I
will not go away ever again--I will not leave you!'
'... I do not wish to die!' she ended up, again getting a little
quieter. They remained like that for some time. The father was
standing at the foot of the bed, leaning against the bed-rail, with
his eyes down, feeling in his broken pride, in his wounded soul, the
full weight of the chastisement the Lord was heaping on him, as a
punishment for his lengthened sin.
Very softly, seeing that the girl had stopped speaking, that her eyes
were closing, Dr. Amati tried to put her head back on the pillow;
but she felt the movement, and while he bent down she drew him to
her at the same time, and he had to stoop, since her arms would not
let go. They remained like that, she dozing, he leaning over in an
uncomfortable position, in such anguish at her state and his own
powerlessness that the sensation of physical discomfort did not
affect him. Grief took such a violent hold of him that he seemed
about to suffocate, not being able to weep, cry out, or speak now
the unhappy girl was dozing; but sometimes she gave a start, and an
expression of painful annoyance came over her fleshless face. An idea
seemed to come into her mind: either she heard a voice the others did
not, or saw some fanciful sight, for her eyelids fluttered and her
lips drew back from her whitish gums. Then she opened her eyes, as
if she had found out where that noise, that sight, that disagreeable
impression, came from, and with a thread of voice, which only the
doctor heard, she called:
'Love!'
'What is it you want?'
'Send him away.'
'Who do you mean?'
'My father.'
The doctor turned pale, and did not answer. He gave a side-glance at
the old man, who was still standing at the foot of the bed with his
eyes cast down in sorrowful thought.
'I beg of you, send him away,' she began again, speaking into his ear.
'But why do you wish it?'
'Just because--I don't wish to see him. Send him away. He must go
away.'
'Bianca Maria, remember he is your father.'
'Look here--listen,' she said, pulling him nearer to her, so that she
could speak lower. 'He is my father,' she whispered; then, with a
smothered fear and an immense bitterness, 'but he has killed me!'
'Do not speak like that,' he replied, turning his head the other way
that she might not see his feelings.
'I tell you I am dying through him. I am not raving, you know; I am
in my senses,' she replied, opening her eyes wide with that babyish
trick of dying children that drives mothers mad with grief.
He shook his head, as if he could not tell what to do nor what to say.
'Send him away!' she insisted, in a rage, with the fatal outbursting
fury of meningitis.
'I cannot do it, Bianca Maria....'
'If you do not send him away yourself, I will get up and shriek out
to him to go away, never to come before me again--never, for the
future: do you hear?'
'Wait a moment,' he said, as he made up his mind, resigned.
And he left her, loosening himself from her, putting back her thin
arms on the coverlet. She followed him with her glance, never taking
her eyes off him, as if through them she could know what Dr. Amati
was saying to her father in a low tone.
Dr. Amati, with great delicacy and a shudder of grief that made his
voice shake uncontrollably, was explaining to him that meningitis
is a frightful malady which burns the brain, breaks the nerves, and
makes the unlucky patients attacked by it rave for days and days: it
incites them to constant anger, and fury, even. Poor Bianca Maria was
a victim to this fancy, that she could not bear to have anyone in
her room; and that if he loved his daughter, if he did not wish to
hear her burst out into wild talk, would he be so kind as to go into
another room?...
'Did my daughter tell you that?' the old man asked, deadly pale, with
his eyebrows knitted.
'Yes, it was she who said it.'
'Does she wish to have no one in her room?'
'No, no one.'
'Except yourself, is that it?'
'Yes, I may stay.'
'Does my daughter turn me out?' shrieked the old man.
'For goodness' sake, my lord, do not get irritated! Have pity on your
daughter, yourself, and me.'
'I will not go away unless she tells me herself, do you hear? Bianca
Maria!' the Marquis called out, going up close to the bed.
She looked at her father with the greatest intensity, as if she was
answering him.
'Bianca Maria,' shouted the exasperated old man, 'is it true that you
do not want to have me in your room? Say yourself if it is true. I do
not believe this man. You must say it yourself.'
'It is true,' she said in a very clear voice, looking at her father.
He cast down his eyes, where the last tears of old age were showing,
and his head sank on his breast, overcome by the inflexible
punishment that came to him from the raving girl--from his dying
victim. He went out without turning round. And stooping, as if he
were a hundred years old, alone, speechless, he went away to what
had been his study, where only an old table and a chair were left.
There, lying forward with his face in his hands, with no conception
either of time or things, the old sinner sank into the immeasurable
bitterness of his punishment. Sometimes Bianca Maria's voice came to
him, feeble or loud, ever telling Amati:
'I do not want to die--I will not die! Save me! save me! I am only
twenty! I will not die!'
The voice, the despairing words, said in delirium, but which still
seemed to be a lament and a curse, had a cruel effect on him. He had
not strength left to get up and go out, to leave the house alone, to
die like a dog on some church steps, unwept for and unregretted. He
did not get up to go beside the dying girl, for his daughter had
turned him out, keeping by her the only person she had loved.
'I will not die, love! I will not die!' the delirious girl was saying.
'She is right--she is right,' her father thought, giving a start.
Whilst the hours went by he heard, from where he was, the doctor
going backwards and forwards, in his effort to save the girl's life,
the hurried orders, Giovanni going out and the assistant doctor
coming in. He had no right now to come forward and know what was
going on, and, in fact, he was forgotten there, as if he had been
dead for years and years, as if no Marquis di Formosa had ever
existed. Would it not be better for him if he were dead, since
everyone had forsaken him? 'It is what I deserve,' he thought to
himself.
He strained his ears sometimes, as if the noises that came to him
were to tell him that his daughter was getting better, that the
doctor was giving her strong, effective remedies; but, except for the
servants, the assistant, and the doctor going about their work, he
heard nothing else but the constant agonizing cry: 'I will not die! I
will not die! Love, save me!'
He sank into a slumber, with his old head resting on his arms,
towards dawn, still hearing in this slight unconsciousness that same
cry of anguish. It was Giovanni who wakened him, at full daylight,
by bringing him a cup of coffee. The father, turned out of his
daughter's room, questioned the servant with his eyes.
'She is still in the same state--just the same.'
'Then, not even Amati can save her--not even him?'
'He is trying to, but he is in despair.'
The Marquis di Formosa spent three days and nights in that room
alone, not seeing a bed and hardly touching the little food that was
brought in for the three days and nights that Bianca Maria's dying
agony lasted. The old man's face, always of a reddish tinge, in
spite of his age, was now streaked with purple, his white hair, when
Giovanni and Margherita came to him, was tragically disordered. Only,
from seeing their crushed state, he asked them no more questions.
Did he not hear her still raving, crying out that at her age she did
not want to die, she would not die, adding the most heartrending
supplications and cries?
The two servants told him nothing; his hearing had got more acute,
and not a word of the raving went past unheard. Still, that very
vitality of nervous strength, that strong voice, deluded him as
being a sort of health, and in the short intervals of silence he
almost wished the raving would begin again. But the third day, in
the morning, a new painful sensation drew him out of that stupor.
The delirious girl, in a choked voice, was calling for her mother,
begging _her_ not to let her die. Sometimes she stopped speaking; he
looked round him, alarmed at these sudden silences, which got longer,
starting when again Bianca Maria began to cry out:
'Mother, I will not die! I will not--I will not, mother dear!'
About two hours after midnight, on the third day, still seated by his
small table, slumber came upon him, with the raving still echoing in
his ears. How long did he sleep? When he wakened, the silence was so
profound that it frightened him. He waited to hear the voice crying
out not to die yet. There was nothing. He counted the time from the
wasting of the candle; two hours must have gone by.
A horrible fear took hold of him; he dared not move. He looked under
the doorway arch, and saw Margherita's white face looking at him. He
understood. Still, mechanically he asked:
'How is Donna Bianca?'
'She is well,' the old woman said feebly.
'When did it happen?'
'An hour ago.'
'Did she not ... did she not ask for me?'
'No, my lord.'
He tried to get up; he could not. He thought that death would lay
hold of him there, on that seat, at once, since young people of
twenty die before old men of sixty. Now Dr. Amati had come into the
room. He was unrecognisable; a deadly weight had broken down all his
moral and physical energies. Great silent, child's tears rolled down
his cheeks. They said nothing for a time.
'Did she suffer a great deal?' the father asked.
'Yes, frightfully....'
'Were you not able to do anything to ...'
'No, I was able to do nothing,' the doctor said, beaten, holding out
his arms as he owned to the most horrible of his failures.
The old man, his face now rigid in tragic expression, was not crying.
Like a child who is not to be comforted, Dr. Amati took him by the
hand, lifted him from his chair, and said gently:
'Come and see her.'
They went. The Marchesina di Formosa Bianca Maria Cavalcanti was
lying on her small white bed, her head rather sloping on one
shoulder, the waxen hands, with discoloured fingers, clasped over
a rosary. A soft white robe had been put over her wasted body. The
violet-shaded mouth was half open, the clayey eyelids lowered. She
seemed very much smaller, like a girl in her teens. On her face there
was only the haughty seal of death, that soothes all and forgives
all. It was not serenity, but peace.
From the doorway the two men gazed on the small figure, with long,
black hair flowing over it. They did not go in; motionless, both kept
their eyes on the mortal remains, and Amati repeated gently, as if to
himself, like a child whom nothing could comfort:
'There should be flowers--flowers....'
The old man did not hear him. He looked at his dead daughter, saying
not a word, giving no sigh; he bent his great frame and knelt down
in the doorway, holding out his arms for forgiveness, like old Lear
before the sweet corpse of Cordelia.
THE END
BILLING AND SONS, LTD., PRINTERS, GUILDFORD
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TRANSCRIBER'S NOTES
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