EDNA’S FIRST WEEKS AT MRS. DANA’S.
Mrs. Dana did not live in a block, but in a little wooden house standing
by itself in the suburbs of the city. John Dana, who was a carpenter by
trade, though he now kept a small grocery, had built the house himself
at odd hours of leisure, fashioning it after no particular style, but
rather according to his means, which were somewhat limited. It was
neither pretty nor commodious, but very comfortable, and nicely kept by
his thrifty wife, who tried to make Edna feel that she was not in the
way, notwithstanding the smallness of the quarters and the hosts of
children which seemed to fill every nook and corner of the kitchen, and
followed even into the spare room, where, though dignified with the name
of parlor, there was a bed on which poor Edna laid her aching head,
feeling more desolate and homesick than she had ever felt in her life
before, and in her desolation even longing for the old familiar chamber
at Aunt Jerusha’s which looked out upon the graveyard. She was not
accustomed to city ways of living, and the house seemed so small and the
noise in the street so great that she felt it was impossible for her to
stay there. But what should she do and where should she go? To return to
Aunt Jerusha was not to be thought of, and so she did not consider that
for a moment; but her thoughts did keep straying away toward Leighton,
Charlie’s home. Perhaps Georgie had been mistaken and Charlie had a
right there after all, or if he had not, possibly his mother and brother
would take some interest in her for Charlie’s sake, and ask her to come
to them or try to help her in some way.
“And if they do, I’ll accept their overtures,” she thought to herself,
as she held her throbbing head with both hands, and tried to keep back
the scalding tears.
The children had been quieted down by this time. The baby was asleep in
its cradle; Rachel, the girl who in Mrs. Dana’s absence had cared for
the family, had gone home, and Mrs. Dana, having laid aside her
travelling suit, was busy putting things to rights and preparing supper
for her husband, the master of the house, whom Edna had not yet seen,
and whose approach was hailed by the children with a perfect storm of
joy.
“Papa’s comin’. I seen him, I did.”
“I mean to tell him first ma’s here.”
“You shut, ’cause I’m goin’ to. You’re always doin’ everything and me
nothin’.”
These and similar outcries fell on Edna’s ears, and she began to feel a
little curiosity about this man, who, finding her there in the capacity
of a poor, sick relation, might consider her in the light of an
intruder. But she did not know John Dana. Everybody was welcome so long
as he had a crust, and as soon as he had been made a little more
presentable by a fresh collar and necktie, and had washed his hands to
get off what his wife called “a mackerel smell,” he went to Edna’s room
and spoke very kindly to her, and said he hoped Susan had made her
comfortable, and that the youngsters would not drive her crazy.
He had one in his arms then, and two more were holding to his coat
skirts and climbing up his knees, and Edna felt at once just how kind
and generous and unselfish he was, and the terrible pain lessened a
little, and the homesickness was not so great as before. He had a letter
for her, he said, or rather one directed to Mr. Churchill, and placing
in her hands the letter written by Mrs. Churchill to her son, he called
his troop of children to come out while “Cousin Edna read her letter.”
His wife had brought in a lamp, and sitting up in bed Edna held the
letter a moment while her hand grew icy cold and her heart beat almost
audibly. For a single moment she thought, “I will not open it. I will
send it back unread;” then there came over her an intense desire to know
what Mrs. Churchill or Roy thought about the marriage. Charlie had said
to her on the morning of the bridal, “I have written to Roy and told him
we were coming home after a little;” and this, of course, was the reply.
“Maybe I shall know if what Miss Burton said was true or false, if I
read this,” Edna thought, and with a hope for the best she opened the
envelope and read the letter through, knowing when she had finished it
how contemptuously Charlie’s mother looked upon the girl who had
entangled her son into a _mésalliance_, and how mercenary her motives
were regarded.
“I cannot help feeling that if she had known all, your unfortunate
entanglement would have been prevented,” Mrs. Churchill had written, and
Edna commented sadly upon it:
“Yes, if I had known all, it would have been prevented; but it is not
the money,—no, not the money; oh, Charlie, it is losing faith in you
which hurts me the worst,” she moaned; then, resentment toward Mrs.
Churchill got the better of her grief, and she said, “I’ll write to that
woman, and tell her how mistaken she is.”
But only for an instant did she harbor such a thought. She would not
wound Mrs. Churchill more deeply than she was already wounded. She would
not write her at all, but to Roy, the heir,—Roy, the master of Leighton.
The money came from him, and to him it should be returned, but not all
at once. Fortunately for her Roy had sent a check payable to the bearer,
and so she had no trouble in getting it cashed, and she decided that she
must keep a part and pay it afterward. She had seen enough of the
arrangements of the house to know that while there was not poverty,
there was not a great plenty, and the owners could ill afford any
additional expense.
“I may be sick for weeks,” she thought, “and I shall need money, and
that twenty-five dollars in poor Charlie’s purse will not go very far.
Oh, if only Aunt Jerusha was kind and forgiving; she has means; she
could help me, if she would.”
At this point Mrs. Dana came in, bringing Edna’s supper, which she had
tried to make as inviting as possible. But Edna could not eat; and, as
the evening advanced, she grew so hot and feverish, and said such queer
things, that Mrs. Dana sent for a physician, who managed by dint of
bleeding, and blistering, and pills, to reduce his patient to a
desirable state of weakness and keep her an invalid for two weeks or
more; during which time Jack Heyford came many times to inquire after
her, and bring her some little present which he thought might please
her. Now it was an orange, or a bunch of grapes, and again a bouquet of
flowers, which he left; and Edna liked these the best, and always cried
over them, and thought of the little patch of flowers which, after a
vast amount of pleading, she had been permitted to have for her own in
Aunt Jerusha’s garden.
From Aunt Jerusha there had as yet come no reply to the message sent
from Iona, and Edna began to feel that she was alone in the world, with
herself to care for, unaided by any one. And with returning strength she
felt equal to it. The blow which had taken Charlie from her and opened
her eyes to Charlie’s defects, and showed her the estimation in which
Charlie’s mother held her, seemed to have cut her loose from all that
was giddy, and weak, and foolish in the Edna Browning of old. All the
lightness and thoughtlessness of her young girlhood fled away and left
her at seventeen a woman, self-reliant, and determined to fight her own
way in the world independent of friend or foe.
And so her first act when able to do anything was to send the three
hundred dollars back to Roy, with her note for the balance. How proud
and strong she felt as she wrote that note, and then read it aloud to
see how it sounded, and how she anticipated the time when she could pay
it even to the utmost farthing. Once she thought to sell her watch and
corals, the pretty gifts which Charlie had brought her just before she
went with him to the house of the clergyman. He had come into the room
after she was dressed, and stealing up behind her, had laid the chain
across her neck, and with his arms around her had held the watch before
her eyes and said:
“Look here, my darling! see what I have brought you.”
With boyish delight, he fastened it in her belt, and put the delicate
pink jewels in her ears, and then bade her look at herself in the mirror
to see the effect. That scene was as vividly in her mind as if it had
occurred but yesterday; the happy, blushing face which the mirror
reflected, and behind the young girl the tall young man whose lips
touched her glowing cheeks as they whispered, “My beauty, my wife!”
She could not part with the bridal gift, so she kept a part of Roy’s
money, and put the coral away as unsuited to her black dress, but she
wore the watch, and its muffled ticking beneath her belt seemed like
some friendly human heart throbbing against her own. This was before she
received Aunt Jerusha’s effusion, which came to her the same day on
which she sent her first letter to Roy, and which deserves a place in
another chapter.