There was a silence for some moments.

“You’ve not booked your berths yet?” asked Jack.

“No. I must go up to Sydney.”

Again Jack waited before he spoke. Then he said:

“What’s made you settle on going?”

“I don’t know. I feel it’s my fate to go now.”

“Ha, your fate!” said Harriet. “It’s always your fate with you. If it

was me it would be my foolish restlessness.”

Jack looked at her with another quick smile, and a curious glance of

dark recognition in his eyes, almost like a caress. Strangely apart,

too, as if he and she were in an inner dark circle, and Somers was away

outside.

“Don’t you want to go, Mrs Somers?” he asked.

“Of course I don’t. I love Australia,” she protested.

“Then don’t you go,” said Jack. “You stop behind.”

When he lowered his voice it took on a faint, indescribable huskiness.

It made Harriet a little uneasy. She watched Lovat. She did not like

Jack’s new turn of husky intimacy. She wanted Richard to rescue her.

“Ha!” she said. “He’d never be able to get through the world without

me.”

“Does it matter?” said Jack, grinning faintly at her and keeping the

husky note in his voice. “He knows his own mind--or his fate. You stop

here. We’ll look after you.”

But she watched Richard. He was hardly listening. He was thinking again

that Jack was feeling malevolent towards him, wanting to destroy him,

as in those early days when they used to play chess together.

“No,” said Harriet, watching Lovat’s face. “I suppose I shall have to

trail myself along, poor woman, till I see the end of him.”

“He’ll lead you many a dance before that happens,” grinned Richard. He

rather enjoyed Jack’s malevolence this time.

“Ha, you’ve led me all your dances that you know,” she retorted. “I know

there’ll be nothing new, unfortunately.”

“Why don’t you stay in Australia?” Jack said to her, with the same

quiet, husky note of intimacy, insistency, and the reddish light on his

face.

She was somewhat startled and offended. Wasn’t the man sober, or what?

“Oh, he wouldn’t give me any money, and I haven’t a _sou_ of my own,”

she said lightly, laughing it off.

“You wouldn’t be short of money,” said Jack. “Plenty of money.”

“You see I couldn’t just live on charity, could I?” she replied,

delicately.

“It wouldn’t be charity.”

“What then?”

There was a very awkward pause. Then a wicked redness came into Jack’s

face, and a flicker into his voice.

“Appreciation. You’d be appreciated.” He seemed to speak with muted

lips. There was a cold silence. Harriet was offended now.

“I’ll just clear the table,” she said, rising briskly.

Jack sat rather slack in his chair, his long, malevolent body half sunk,

and his chin dropped.

“What boat do you think you’ll catch?” he asked.

“The Manganui. Why?”

But Jack did not speak. He sat there with his head sunk on his chin, his

body half-turgid, as if he were really not quite sober.

“You won’t be honouring Australia long with your presence,” he said

ironically.

“Nor dishonouring it,” said Richard. He was like a creature that is

going to escape. Some of the fear he had felt for Kangaroo he now felt

for Jack. Jack was really very malevolent. There was hell in his

reddened face, and in his black, inchoate eyes, and in his long, pent-up

body. But he kept an air of quiescence, of resignation, as if he were

still really benevolent.

“Oh, I don’t say that,” he remarked in answer to Richard’s last, but in

a tone which said so plainly what he felt: an insulting tone.

Said Richard to himself: “I wouldn’t like to fall into your clutches, my

friend, altogether: or to give your benevolence a chance to condemn me.”

Aloud, he said to Jack:

“If I can’t join in with what you’re doing here, heart and soul, I’d

better take myself off, hadn’t I? You’ve all been good to me, and in a

measure, trusted me. I shall always owe you a debt of gratitude, and

keep your trust inviolable. You know that. But I am one of those who

must stand and wait--though I don’t pretend that by so doing I also

serve.”

“You take no risks,” said Jack quietly.

Another home-thrust.

“Why--I would take risks--if only I felt it was any good.”

“What does it matter about it’s being any good? You can’t tell what good

a thing will be or won’t be. All you can do is to take a bet on it.”

“You see it isn’t my nature to bet.”

“Not a sporting nature, you mean?”

“No, not a sporting nature.”

“Like a woman--you like to feel safe all round,” said Jack, slowly

raising his dark eyes to Somers in a faint smile of contempt and

malevolence. And Richard had to acknowledge to himself that he _was_

cutting a poor figure: nosing in, like a Mr Nosy Parker, then drawing

back quickly if he saw two sparks fly.

“Do you think I’ve let you down? I never pledged myself,” he said

coldly.

“Oh, no, you never pledged yourself,” said Jack laconically.

“You see I don’t _believe_ in these things,” said Somers, flushing.

“What’s that you don’t believe in?”

And Jack watched him with two black, round eyes, with a spark dancing

slowly in each, in a slow gaze putting forth all his power. But Somers

now looked back into the two dark, malevolent pools.

“In revolutions--and public love and benevolence and feeling righteous,”

he said.

“What love, what benevolence and righteousness?” asked Jack, vaguely,

still watching with those black, sardonic eyes. “I never said anything

about them.”

“You know you want to be the saviours of Australia,” said Richard.

“I didn’t know. But what’s wrong with it?”

“I’m no good at saving.”

“We don’t pretend to be saviours. We want to do our best for Australia,

it being our own country. And the Pommies come out from England to try

to upset us. But they won’t. They may as well stop in their

dead-and-rotten old country.”

“I’m sorry it looks to you like that,” said Richard.

“Oh, don’t apologise,” said Jack, with a faint, but even more malevolent

smile. “It’s pretty well always the same. You come out from the old

countries very cocksure, with a lot of criticism to you. But when it

comes to doing anything, you sort of fade out, you’re nowhere. We’re

used to it, we don’t mind.”

There was a silence of hate.

“No, we don’t mind,” Jack continued. “It’s quite right, you haven’t let

us down, because we haven’t given you a chance. That’s all. In so far as

you’ve had any chance to, you’ve let us down, and we know it.”

Richard was silent. Perhaps it was true. And he hated such a truth.

“All right,” he said. “I’ve let you down. I suppose I shall have to

admit it. I’m sorry--but I can’t help myself.”

Jack took not the slightest notice of this admission, sat as if he had

not heard it.

“I’m sorry I’ve sort of fizzled out so quickly,” said Richard. “But you

wouldn’t have me pretend, would you? I’d better be honest at the

beginning.”

Jack looked at him slowly, with slow, inchoate eyes, and a look of

contempt on his face. The contempt on Jack’s face, the contempt of the

confident he-man for the shifty she-man, made Richard flush with anger,

and drove him back on his deeper self once more.

“What do you call honest?” said Jack, sneering.

Richard became very silent, very still. He realised that Jack would like

to give him a thrashing. The thought was horrible to Richard Lovat, who

could never bear to be touched, physically. And the other man sitting

there as if he were drunk was very repugnant to him. It was a bad

moment.

“Why,” he replied, in answer to the question, while Jack’s eyes fixed

him with a sort of jeering malevolence: “I can’t honestly say I feel at

one with you, you and Kangaroo, so I say so, and stand aside.”

“You’ve found out all you wanted to know, I suppose?” said Jack.

“I didn’t _want_ to know anything. I didn’t come asking or seeking. It

was you who chose to tell me.”

“You didn’t try drawing us out, in your own way?”

“Why, no, I don’t think so.”

Again Jack looked up at him with a faint contemptuous smile of derision.

“I should have said myself you did. And you got what you wanted, and now

are clearing out with it. Exactly like a spy, in my opinion.”

Richard opened wide eyes, and went pale.

“A spy!” he exclaimed. “But it’s just absurd.”

Jack did not vouchsafe any answer, but sat there as if he had come for

some definite purpose, something menacing, and was going to have it out

with the other man.

“Kangaroo doesn’t think I came spying, does he?” asked Richard, aghast.

“It’s too impossible.”

“I don’t know what he thinks,” said Jack. “But it isn’t ‘too impossible’

at all. It looks as if it had happened.”

Richard was now dumb. He realised the depths of the other man’s

malevolence, and was aghast. Just aghast. Some fear too--and a certain

horror, as if human beings had suddenly become horrible to him. Another

gulf opened in front of him.

“Then what do you want of me now?” he asked, very coldly.

“Some sort of security, I suppose,” said Jack, looking away at the sea.

Richard was silent with rage and cold disgust, and a sort of

police-fear.

“Pray what sort of security?” he replied, coldly.

“That’s for you to say, maybe. But we want some sort of security that

you’ll keep quiet, before we let you leave Australia.”

Richard’s heart blazed in him with anger and disgust.

“You need not be afraid,” he said. “You’ve made it all too repulsive to

me now, for me ever to want to open my mouth about it all. You can be

quite assured: nothing will ever come out through me.”

Jack looked up with a faint, sneering smile.

“And you think we shall be satisfied with your bare word?” he said

uglily.

But now Richard looked him square in the eyes.

“Either that or nothing,” he replied.

And unconscious of what he was doing, he sat looking direct down into

the dark, shifting malice of Jack’s eyes. Till Jack turned aside.

Richard was now so angry and insulted he felt only pure indignation.

“We’ll see,” said Jack.

Somers did not even heed him. He was too indignant to think of him any

more. He only retreated into his own soul, and turned aside, invoking

his own soul: “Oh, dark God, smite him over the mouth for insulting me.

Be with me, gods of the other world, and strike down these liars.”

Harriet came out on to the verandah.

“What are you two men talking about?” she said. “I hear two very cross

and snarling voices, though I can’t tell what they say.”

“I was just saying Mr Somers can’t expect to have it all his own way,”

said Jack in his low, intense, slightly husky voice, that was now

jeering viciously.

“He’ll try his best to,” said Harriet. “But whatever have you both got

so furious about. Just look at Lovat, green with fury. It’s really

shameful. Men are like impish children--you daren’t leave them together

for a minute.”

“It was about time you came to throw cold water over us,” smiled Jack

sardonically. Ah, how sardonic he could be: deep, deep and devilish. He

too must have a very big devil in his soul. But he never let it out. Or

did he? Harriet looked at him, and shuddered slightly. He scared her,

she had a revulsion from him. He was a bit repulsive to her. And she

knew he had always been so.

“Ah, well!” said Jack. “Cheery-o! We aren’t such fools as we seem. The

milk’s spilt, we won’t sulk over it.”

“No, don’t,” cried Harriet. “I hate sulky people.”

“So do I, Mrs Somers, worse than water in my beer,” said Jack genially.

“You and me, we’re not going to fall out, are we?”

“No,” said Harriet. “I don’t fall out with people--and I don’t let them

fall out with me.”

“Quite right. Don’t give ’em a chance, eh? You’re right of it. You and

me are pals, aren’t we?”

“Yes,” said Harriet easily, as if she were talking to some child she

must soothe. “We’re pals. But why didn’t you bring your wife? I’m so

fond of her.”

“Oh, Vicky’s all right. She’s A 1 stuff. She thinks the world of you,

you know. By golly, she does; she thinks the world of you.”

“Then why didn’t you bring her to see me?”

“Eh? Why didn’t I? Oh--well--let me see--why, she’d got her married

sister and so forth come to see her, so she couldn’t leave them. But she

sent her love, and all that sort of sweet nothing, you know. I told her

I should never have the face to repeat it, you know. I was to give you

_heaps_ of love, ‘Heaps of love to Mrs Somers!’ Damn it, I said, how do

I know she wants me dumping down heaps of love on her. But that was the

message--heaps of love to Mrs Somers, and don’t you forget it. I’m not

likely to forget it, by gee! There aren’t two Mrs Somers in the

universe: I’m ready to bet all I’ve got on that. Ay, and a bit over.

Now, look here, Mrs Somers, between you and me and the bed-post--”

“Do you mean Lovat is the bed-post?” put in Harriet. “He’s silent enough

for one.”

Jack glanced at Somers, and also relapsed into silence.

CHAP: XVI. A ROW IN TOWN

The thing that Kangaroo had to reckon with, and would not reckon with,

was the mass-spirit. A collection of men does not necessarily mean a

mob. A collection of men--an accidental gathering--may be just a

gathering, drawn by a moment’s curiosity, or it may be an audience drawn

to hear something, or it may be a congregation, gathered together in

some spirit of earnest desire: or it may be just a crowd, inspired by no

one motive. The mass-spirit is complex. At its lowest it is a mob. And

what is a mob?

To put it as briefly as possible, it is a collection of all the weak

souls, sickeningly conscious of their weakness, into a heavy mob, that

lusts to glut itself with blind destructive power. Not even vengeance.

The spirit of vengeance belongs to a mass which is higher than a mob.

The study of collective psychology to-day is absurd in its inadequacy.

Man is supposed to be an automaton working in certain automatic ways

when you touch certain springs. These springs are all labelled: they

form a keyboard to the human psyche, according to modern psychology. And

the chief labels are herd instinct, collective interest, hunger, fear,

collective prestige, and so on.

But the only way to make any study of collective psychology is to study

the isolated individual. Upon your conception of the single individual,

all your descriptions will be based, all your science established. For

this reason, the human sciences, philosophy, ethics, psychology,

politics, economics, can never be sciences at all. There can never be an

exact science dealing with individual life. _L’anatomia presuppone il

cadavere_: anatomy presupposes a corpse, says D’Annunzio. You can

establish an exact science on a corpse, supposing you start with the

corpse, and don’t try to derive it from a living creature. But upon life

itself, or any instance of life, you cannot establish a science.

Because even science must start from definition, or from precise

description. And you can never define or precisely describe any living

creature. Iron must remain iron, or cease to exist. But a rabbit might

evolve into something which is still rabbit, and yet different from that

which a rabbit now is. So how can you define or precisely describe a

rabbit? There is always the unstable _creative_ element present in life,

and this science can never tackle. Science is cause-and-effect.

Before we can begin any of the so-called humane sciences we must take on

trust a purely unscientific fact: namely, that every living creature has

an individual soul, however trivial or rudimentary, which connects it

individually with the source of all life, as man, in the religious

terminology, is connected with God, and inseparable from God. So is

every creature, even an ant or a louse, individually in contact with the

great life-urge which we call God. To call this connection the

will-to-live is not quite sufficient. It is more than a will-to-persist.

It is a will-to-live in the further sense, a will-to-change, a

will-to-evolve, a will towards further creation of the self. The urge

towards evolution if you like. But it is more than evolution. There is

no simple cause-and-effect sequence. The change from caterpillar to

butterfly is not cause and effect. It is a new gesture in creation.

Science can wriggle as hard as it likes, but the change from caterpillar

to butterfly is utterly unscientific, illogical, and _unnatural_, if we

take science’s definition of nature. It is an answer to the strange

creative urge, the God-whisper, which is the one and only everlasting

motive for everything.

So then man. He is said to be a creature of cause-and-effect, or a

creature of free-will. The two are the same. Free-will means acting

according to reasoned choice, which is a purest instance of

cause-and-effect. Logic is the quintessence of cause-and-effect. And

idealism, the ruling of life by the instrumentality of the idea, is

precisely the mechanical, even automatic cause-and-effect process. The

idea, or ideal, becomes a fixed principle, and life, like any other

force, is driven into mechanical repetition of given motions--millions

of times over and over again--according to the fixed ideal. So, the

Christian-democratic world prescribes certain motions, and men proceed

to repeat these motions, till they conceive that there _are_ no other

motions but these. And that is pure automatism. When scientists describe

savages, or ancient Egyptians, or Aztecs, they assume that these far-off

peoples acted, but in a crude, clumsy way, from the same motives which

move us. “Too much ego in his cosmos.” Men have had strange,

inconceivable motives and impulses, which were just as “right” as ours

are. And our “right” motives will cease to activate, even as the lost

motives of the Assyrians have ceased. Our “right” and our righteousness

will go pop, and there will be another sort of right and righteousness.

The mob, then. Now, the vast bulk of mankind has always been, and always

will be, helpless. By which we mean, helpless to interpret the new

prompting of the God-urge. The highest function of _mind_ is its

function of messenger. The curious throbs and pulses of the God-urge in

man would go on forever ignored, if it were not for some few exquisitely

sensitive and fearless souls who struggle with all their might to make

that strange translation of the low, dark throbbing into open act or

speech. Like a wireless message the new suggestion enters the soul,

throb-throb, throb-throb-throb. And it beats and beats for years, before

the mind, frightened of this new knocking in the dark, can be brought to

listen and attend.

For the mind is busy in a house of its own, which house it calls the

universe. And how can there be anything outside the universe?

There is though. There is always something outside our universe. And it

is always at the doors of the innermost, sentient soul. And there

throb-throb, throb-throb-throb, throb-throb. It is like the almost

inaudible beating of a wireless machine. Nine hundred and ninety-nine

men out of a thousand hear nothing at all. Absolutely nothing. They

racket away in their nice, complete, homely universe, running their

trains and making their wars and saving the world for democracy. They

hear not a thing. A tiny minority of sensitive souls feel the throb, and

are frightened, and cry for more virtue, more goodness, more

righteousness à la mode. But all the righteousness and goodness in all

the world won’t answer the throb, or interpret the faint but painful

thresh of the message.

There is no Morse-code. There never will be. Every new code supersedes

the current code. Nowadays, when we feel the throb, vaguely, we cry:

“More love, more peace, more charity, more freedom, more

self-sacrifice.” Which makes matters all the worse, because the new

throb interpreted mechanically according to the old code breeds madness

and insanity. It may be that there is an insufficient activity of the

thyroid glands, or the adrenalin cortex isn’t making its secretions, or

the pituitary or the pineal body is not working adequately. But this is

result, not cause, of our neurasthenia and complexes. The neurasthenia

comes from the inattention to the suggestion, or from a false

interpretation. The best souls in the world make some of the worst

interpretations--like President Wilson--and this is the bitterest

tragedy of righteousness. The heroic effort to carry out the old

righteousness becomes at last sheer wrongeousness. Men in the past have

chosen to be martyred for an unborn truth. But life itself inflicts

something worse than martyrdom on them if they will persist too long in

the old truth.

Alas, there is no Morse-code for interpreting the new life-prompting,

the new God-urge. And there never will be. It needs a new term of speech

invented each time. A whole new concept of the universe gradually born,

shedding the old concept.

Well now. There is the dark god knocking afresh at the door. The vast

mass hear nothing, but say: “We know all about the universe. Our job is

to make a real smart place of it.” So they make more aeroplanes and

old-age-pensions and are furious when Kaiser William interrupts them.

The more sensitive hear something, feel a new urge and are uneasy. They

cry: “We are not pure in heart. We are too selfish. Let us educate the

poor. Let us remove the slums. Let us save the children. Let us spend

all we have on the noble work of education.” So they spend a bit more

than before, but by no means all they have, with the result that now

everybody reads the newspapers and discusses world-politics and feels

himself most one-sidedly a bit of the great Godhead of the sacred

People.

And still the knocking goes on, on, on, till some soul that dares as

well as can, listens, and struggles to interpret. Every new word is

anathema--bound to be. Jargon, rant, mystical tosh, and so on. Evil, and

anti-civilisation. Naturally. For the machine of the human psyche, once

wound up to a certain ideal, doesn’t want to stop.

And still, all the time, even in the vulgar uneducated--perhaps

more in them than in the hearty money-makers of the lower

middle-classes--throb-throb-throb goes the godurge deep in their souls,

driving them almost mad. They are quite stone-deaf to any new meaning.

They would jeer an attempt at a new interpretation, jeer it to death. So

there they are, between the rocky Scylla of the fixed, established

ideal, and the whirling Charybdis of the conservative opposition to this

ideal. Between these two perils they must pass. For behind them drives

the unknown current of the god-urge, on, on through the straits.

They will never get through the straits. They do not know that there

_is_ any getting through. Scylla must beat Charybdis, and Charybdis must

beat Scylla. So the monster of humanity, with a Scylla of an ideal of

equality for the head, and a Charybdis of industrialism and possessive

conservatism for the tail, howls with frenzy, and lashes the straits

till every boat goes down, that tries to make a passage.

Well, Scylla must have it out with Charybdis, that’s all, and we must

wait outside the straits till the storm is over.

It won’t be over yet, though.

Now this is the state of the mass. It is driven, goaded mad at length by

the pricking of the God-urge which it will not, cannot attend to or

interpret. It is so goaded that it is mad with its own wrongs. It is

wronged, so wronged that it is mad.

And what is the wrong, pray? The mass doesn’t know. There is no

connection at all between the burning, throbbing unconscious soul and

the clear-as-daylight conscious mind. The whole of Labour, to-day, sees

the situation clear as daylight. So does the whole of Capital. And yet

the whole of the daylight situation has really nothing to do with it. It

is the god-urge which drives them mad, the unacknowledged, unadmitted,

non-existent god-urge.

They may become a mob. A mob is like a mass of bullocks driven to frenzy

by some bott-fly, and charging frantically against the tents of some

herdsman, imagining that all the evil comes out of these tents. There is

a gulf between the quivering hurt in the unconscious soul, and the

round, flat world of the visible existence. A sense of weakness and

injury, at last an intolerable sense of wrong, turning to a fiendish

madness. A mad necessity to wreck something, cost what it may. For only

the flat, round, visible world exists.

And yet it is the bott-fly of the Holy Ghost, unlistened to, that is the

real cause of everything.

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