THE INARTICULATE KNIGHT
I
PHILIP departed from Tite Street, Chelsea, without having invited Peggy
to go with him. Getting married, except in the case of the very young,
is not such a simple business as it appears. The difficulty lies in the
fact that a man's conception of the proper method of wooing is
diametrically opposed to that of a maid; and since the maid has the
final word in the matter, it stands to reason that the campaign must
ultimately be conducted upon her lines and not her swain's. Hence Romeo
usually finds himself compelled, at the very outset, to abandon a great
many preconceived and cherished theories, and adapt himself to entirely
unfamiliar conditions of warfare, and he usually suffers a good deal in
the process.
On paper, the contest should be of the most one-sided description; for
the defending force (as represented by the lady) is at liberty to choose
its own ground and precipitate or ward off an assault as it pleases,
while the invader has to manoeuvre clumsily and self-consciously in
the open, exposed to shafts of ridicule, fiery days of humiliation, and
frosty nights of indifference. He marches and countermarches, feeling
sometimes tender, sometimes fierce, not seldom ridiculous; but never,
never, never sure of his ground. Truly it is a one-sided business--on
paper. But woman has no regard for paper. Under the operation of a
mysterious but merciful law of nature, it is her habit, having placed
herself in an absolutely impregnable position, to abandon her defences
without warning or explanation--not infrequently, at the moment when the
dispirited lover at her gates is upon the point of striking camp and
beating a melancholy retreat, marching out, bag and baggage, into the
arms of her dazed and incredulous opponent.
But Philip, being unversed in the feminine instinct of self-defence, did
not know this. To him, from a distance, Love had appeared as a Palace
Beautiful standing on the summit of a hill--a fairy fabric of gleaming
minarets, slender lines, and soft curves--a haven greatly to be desired
by a lonely pilgrim. Now that he had scaled the height and reached his
destination he found nothing but frowning battlements and blank walls.
In other words, he had overlooked the difference between arrival and
admission. To sum up the situation in the language which would
undoubtedly have been employed by that master of terse phraseology, Mr.
Timothy Rendle, Philip was "up against it."
There is nothing quite so impregnable as the reserve of a nice-minded
girl. The coquette and the sentimental miss are easy game: there is
never any doubt as to what they expect of a man; and man, being man,
sees to it that they are not disappointed. But to make successful love
to a girl who is neither of these things calls for some powers of
intuition and a thick skin. It is the latter priceless qualification
which usually pulls a man through. Philip possessed rather less than the
average male equipment of intuition, and his skin was deplorably thin.
Peggy meant so much to him that he shrank from putting everything to the
touch at once. Like all those who have put all their eggs in one basket,
he feared his fate too much. So he temporised: he hung back, and waited.
If Peggy had ever given him an opening he would have set his teeth and
plunged into it, blindly and ponderously; but she never did. She was
always kind, always cheerful, always the best of companions; but she
kept steadily to the surface of things and appeared to be entirely
oblivious of the existence of the suppressed volcano which sighed and
rumbled beneath her feet.
Philip became acquainted, too, with the minor troubles of the love-lorn.
If a letter lay on Peggy's plate at breakfast he speculated gloomily as
to the sex of the sender. He sat through conversations in the course of
which his Lady appeared to make a point of addressing every one present
but himself. He saw what Mr. Kipling calls "Christian kisses" wasted
upon other girls and unresponsive babies. He would pass from the brief
rapture of having his invitation to a drive in the Park accepted to the
prolonged bitterness of having to take the drive in company with a third
party, casually cooepted into the expedition by Peggy at the last moment.
He purchased little gifts, and kept them for days, not venturing to
offer them for fear of a rebuff. Once or twice he embarked upon
carefully prepared conversational openings of an intimate character,
only to have these same caught up, tossed about, and set aside with
unfeeling frivolity by the lady to whom they were addressed. He
sometimes wondered what had become of the Pegs he had once known--the
wistful, dreamy, confiding little girl with whom he had discussed all
things in heaven and earth under the wintry skies of Hampstead Heath.
Mental myopia is a common characteristic of young men in Philip's
condition.
So he departed from Tite Street without having delivered himself, and
returned to his own place. And yet not even that. For the garret in
Wigmore Street was no more. One day during his convalescence he had
desired certain books and papers, so Peggy and Miss Leslie made an
expedition to fetch them.
They drove up to the door of the house, and having ascended to the
fourth floor, let themselves into Philip's retreat with his latchkey.
"It is terribly thrilling," observed the romantic Miss Leslie, "to find
yourself alone in a man's rooms."
Peggy said nothing, but looked round the dusty sitting-room with
wondering eyes. She thought of her own private den at home, with its
pretty curtains, soft cushions, fresh flowers, and the thousand useless
but companionable knick-knacks that make a woman's room look cosy. This
gaunt, pictureless, carpetless eyrie made her shiver. There was not even
a grate in the fireplace: only a rusty gas-stove.
"Mercy on us!" exclaimed Miss Leslie. "Can the man not afford a cover
for the table? And where does he sit if a visitor comes?"
She disappeared into Philip's bedroom, and returned dragging a
portmanteau.
"The only chair in there has a leg missing," she mentioned. "Take the
armchair, child."
Peggy obeyed, and Miss Leslie, seating herself cautiously upon the
portmanteau, enquired:--
"How long has the creature been living here?"
"Two or three years, I think."
"Has he no friends?" continued Miss Leslie scathingly.
"I don't know, I am sure."
"No mother, of course?"
"No."
Miss Leslie nodded.
"I have always maintained," she observed, "that there ought to be a law
appointing women inspectors to go round and look after the rooms of
young men that live alone in London. Their motives would be
misunderstood, of course, but it would be worth while, all the same. Is
there a servant-body of any kind in this place?"
"He says that a woman comes in every morning and tidies up."
"I should like to meet her," said Miss Leslie grimly. "I expect she
could a tale unfold. Where does he get his food, and how does he eat it?
Off the floor?"
"I don't know," said Peggy, who had sat very silent through this tirade.
"I--I had no idea it was as bad as this."
They invaded the tiny pantry. Here they found a teapot, together with a
cup and saucer, two plates, a knife, a fork, and a spoon. There was also
a small frying-pan, and a tarnished cruet-stand. A very dingy dishcloth
hung upon a nail at the back of the door. There were receptacles which
had evidently at one time contained tea, sugar, and salt, but they were
empty. The lady who tidied up had seen to that. The place was dusty, and
smelt of mice.
"And he told me only yesterday that he was very happy here," remarked
Miss Leslie. "Poor, poor body!"
They returned to the sitting-room, and, having selected the necessary
books from a heap upon the floor, turned to go. But Miss Leslie's
attention was arrested by something upon the mantel-piece.
"Bless me," she exclaimed, "what's that?"
"That" was the Meldrum Carburettor, the original model--the solitary
ornament of the apartment.
"He invented it, I think," said Peggy. "Didn't he tell you about it?"
"He did," replied Miss Leslie, "several times. Well, let us be stepping.
This place gives me the creepies."
She marched out of the room and began to descend the staircase. Peggy,
hanging back for a moment, unexpectedly produced a diminutive
pocket-handkerchief from her belt, and put it furtively to one of its
uses.
After that, flinging a defiant glance round the empty room, she picked
up the books from the table and turned once more to the door. Suddenly
her eye was caught by a gleam of colour at her feet. It was a pink
carnation--one of a small bunch which Philip had given to her. He had
bought them in the street during his first outing in a bath-chair, and
after keeping them for three days had taken the flowers in one hand and
his courage in the other and made the presentation. They were slightly
faded--a fact upon which their recipient had not failed to comment.
Indeed, she had accused the donor, to his great distress, of having
bought them second-hand.
Well, here was one of the bunch lying on the dusty floor: Peggy had
dislodged it from her belt in replacing her handkerchief.
She picked it up, and gazed thoughtfully about the room. Then she
tiptoed across to the mantelpiece, and proceeded to ornament the Meldrum
Carburettor with a floral device. Then she ran guiltily down stairs
after Miss Leslie.
II
"Philip," enquired Miss Falconer of her patient that evening, "how much
money have you got?"
Philip ruminated.
"I don't quite know," he said. "How much do you want?"
"I want enough to find decent rooms for you to live in. Can you afford
it?"
"I suppose so. I don't spend half my income at present. My father left
me a good deal, and I have my salary as well. But what is the matter
with my present abode?"
"It is poky, and dirty, and unfurnished, and quite impossible," said
Peggy with finality. "You must move into something better."
"The rooms suited me well enough," objected Philip. "I got through a
good lot of work there. Besides, they were handy for Oxford Street."
"Nevertheless, you will leave them," announced Peggy.
Philip glowed comfortably. He liked being ordered about by his Lady. It
showed that she took more than a passing interest in him, he argued.
"If I do," he said cunningly, "will you come and see me there sometimes?
Tea, or something? You could bring Miss Leslie," he added.
"Mayhap," replied Peggy indulgently. "But listen: I have a plan. I think
you and Tim Rendle ought to take rooms together. At present he is in a
very stupid, expensive set of chambers in Park Place, wasting a lot of
money and getting into bad habits. You could club together and take a
lovely little flat, say in Knightsbridge, and have a proper servant and
decent meals. Will you? Philip, what are you frowning about?"
Philip's little glow of happiness had died away as suddenly as it came.
That Peggy should make plans for his future was gratifying enough. But
to be urged by one's Best Beloved to set up a permanent bachelor
establishment is not an unmixed delight. Such a recommendation points in
the wrong direction. Philip would have been better pleased had Peggy
advised him to take a real house somewhere.
Besides, the mention of Timothy had spoiled everything. Not that Philip
was jealous, but Timothy's inclusion in the scheme had shorn the
situation of its romance at a single blow. For one foolish moment Philip
had imagined that Peggy's concern for his welfare and comfort had their
roots in deep soil; but now the whole enterprise stood revealed for what
it was--a mere feminine plot: a piece of maternal officiousness. Timothy
and Philip were to be put into chambers together--Timothy to brighten up
that dull dog Philip, and Philip to act as a check upon that
irresponsible young idiot Timothy. Hence the ungracious frown. But his
spoken objections took a different line.
"Knightsbridge is a long way from Oxford Street," he said.
"I know," replied Peggy calmly. "That is why I chose it."
"Tim would rather interfere with my work," Philip continued.
"I know," repeated Peggy. "That is why I chose _him_! He will be a nice
distraction."
"He will," growled Philip.
Suddenly Peggy flared up.
"Philip," she asked hotly, "why are you so cross? Don't you like
Timothy?"
"Yes, of course, I do; but--"
"And wouldn't it be pleasant to have his company?"
"Yes, rather! But--"
"But what?"
Philip reddened.
"I don't know," he said helplessly. But he knew well enough, and so did
Peggy.
"Then don't be a baby," she said severely. "It is not very nice of you,
considering that I am only trying to make you comfortable and--"
But Philip was already doing penance.
"Peggy," he burst out,--he called her Peggy because she called him
Philip: they had never returned to "Pegs" and "Phil," although she
sometimes addressed him as "Theophilus,"--"I am a brute. Forgive me!"
Peggy relented, and smiled.
"No, you are not a brute," she said; "you are just a child. However,
since you are an invalid, I forgive you. But you must not be sulky when
people take trouble on your behalf. You are getting a big boy now, you
know! Say 'thank you,' nicely!"
"Thank you," said Philip obediently.
"That is _much_ better," remarked Peggy approvingly. "But tell me, why
don't you want to settle down in nice comfy rooms with Tim?"
Philip hesitated, and his throat went dry. Was this his opening--at
last?
"I don't want to settle down--in that way," he said hoarsely. "Peggy,
I--"
"Shall I tell you why?" interposed Peggy. "Because you are far too much
wrapped up in your work. You work too hard. You think of nothing but
Oxford Street and--and carburettors, and things. I want you--I mean, you
ought to go about more, and see people, and enjoy yourself, and have a
lot of friends."
"I don't want--" declared Philip rebelliously.
"Think how interesting and amusing you could be, if you went about and
met more people," continued Peggy.
She got home that time. Philip winced.
"I'm a dull dog, I know," he said.
"No, you are not," said Peggy; "so don't be foolish." Then, softening
again, for she had averted the danger, she continued gently:--
"All I meant was that it would do you good to have a little more leisure
and distraction. 'All work and no play,' you know! Now, will you look
about for nice rooms when you get well--for yourself and Tim?"
"Yes--if you will help," replied Philip, with great valour.
"Of course I will," said Peggy heartily; "but not if you are going to be
cross with me."
Philip assured her that she need never again have any fears upon that
score. And he was as good as his word.