HOME AGAIN.
Io’s yearning was for quietness and solitude, but in the village
neither was now to be found. The Karens, smiling, and with little
offerings in their hands, came to see the white travellers start. There
were crying babies and laughing children, quiet girls and noisy boys,
such as are always to be expected in a mixed crowd. Several women came
with their palms pressed together, as if preferring a request. One
bowed down almost to the ground, so as to touch the lady’s feet. There
was a good deal of talking, apparently addressed to Io; but her senses
were so bewildered by the late shock, that she could not take in a
single word. Io looked helplessly at her husband for an explanation.
“They are begging you to leave Maha with them, my love. The woman says
that she has lost her only child, and desires to adopt Maha as her
daughter. I have spoken to Ko Thah Byu, who gives to the widow a high
character for piety.”
The object of the petition was mutely standing by with her hands
clasped, and her dark eyes watching the face of her mistress.
“Does Maha wish to stay here?” asked Io. She spoke in English, and
Oscar translated the question.
“These are Karens, mine own people,” replied Maha, with a wistful
glance at the widow; “and she is so like my dead mother.”
“Would it pain you to part with your _protégée_, my Io?” asked Oscar.
“Pain? no, nothing pains now, but――” She paused, and pressed her hand
on her heart. Io was somewhat like the poor victim broken on the wheel,
who, after the first crushing blow had paralyzed sensation, mocked at
the idea of any other stroke having power to hurt.
Oscar hastily completed the arrangement, and then, turning towards Ko
Thah Byu, warmly grasped his brown hand.
“You have done much for me――more than you know, my brother,” said the
Englishman to the Karen. “You have helped to release me from bonds
which I believed would have bound me for ever.”
It was a relief to the Coldstreams when Mouang was left behind, though
Maha and others followed Io’s litter for more than a mile, the Karen
girl weeping bitterly at parting from the mistress whom she honoured
and loved. At length the last farewell was said, and Io felt alone;
for Oscar dropped behind the litter, respecting his wife’s wish for
absolute silence――a wish which, after the excitement of the morning, he
fully shared. Io closed her eyes to shut out all sights, but the mind’s
eye could not be closed. The less she saw the more she thought. The
face of poor Walter, her childhood’s companion, continually rose before
her! It was some comfort to her now, as it had been when she had first
heard of his sudden death, that her merry hare-brained young cousin had
had serious thoughts on religion; that with all his giddiness he had
received the truth with the simple faith of a child. Io would not have
had this comfort had her brother been the one to be suddenly taken.
The halting-place for the night was reached at last, where the
little tent was already pitched, the fire lighted, the meal prepared.
Coldstream avoided any allusion to painful subjects as he sat beside
his pale wife, and helped her to food which Io in vain attempted to
eat. Coldstream related all that he had heard from Ko Thah Byu of the
Karen’s former life; and Io, though she made no comment on the strange
tale, readily understood what influence it had had on the mind of her
husband.
The lady early laid herself down to rest, but not to sleep. Feverish
and restless Io remained through what appeared to be an almost
interminable night. If a few minutes of slumber came, they were
rendered horrible by dreams in which the terrible tragedy of the cliff
was acted over again. But Oscar was able to sleep; his wife marvelled
to see how calmly he rested. The cause of this was partly physical
fatigue and reaction after a violent inward struggle, but partly that
his confession to his wife had in some measure relieved his conscience.
He had taken the first step――or rather desperate leap――under the weight
of the cross which he had at last dared to take up.
Day dawned, and with it came the morning’s preparations, the morning’s
start.
“Oscar, will you arrange that we do not reach Moulmein till quite after
dark?” said Io, as she took her place in the litter. “The moon does not
rise now so early. I wish no one to know of our arrival. I could not
endure to-day to meet Thud or the doctor.”
“There is no fear of our meeting till to-morrow morning,” replied
Oscar. “All the English residents of Moulmein were invited to spend
this Thursday evening at a _fête_ given by the rajah.”
“Thursday! I thought that this was Saturday,” said Io dreamily. “It
seems as if this week would never come to an end.”
It was not till after dark that the Coldstreams reached their home,
where they were expected by no one. All their servants, except one lame
old man, had gone to see the rajah’s fireworks. No fires were lighted
in the compound, no lamp in the dwelling. It was with some difficulty
that even the door was opened to receive the master of the house. The
furniture was in the holland wrappings in which Io had left her things
when expecting to be absent for weeks. It was a dreary coming home, but
more congenial to sad feelings than a cheerful greeting would have been.
“I will go to rest at once,” said Io. Nature was demanding sleep; after
the last two terrible nights the lady could scarcely keep her eyes open.
“Shall we first pray together?” suggested Oscar.
Blessed rift in the dark, dark cloud! Oscar could at last kneel down
by the side of his wife and pray aloud. And what a prayer was his! It
seemed to be poured out at the feet of a Saviour in visible presence――a
pleading, imploring prayer for mercy on the guiltiest of the guilty.
But it was a prayer uttered in faith and hope――faith that there is
indeed a Fountain to wash away sin; hope that its stain had already
been removed from a penitent’s soul. The sinner was prostrate indeed,
but, like Saul of Tarsus, in deep humility, not in despair. Io drank
in each word of the prayer. It refreshed her, it strengthened her,
while it made her tears flow fast. When the supplication was ended,
the “Amen” came from her lips with a sob.
Then the husband and wife arose from their knees. Oscar knew that the
mail for Calcutta would start on the morrow, and Io had promised to
give her answer on the day which had now passed into night.
“What would you have me do now, my beloved?” Oscar inquired, taking the
hand of his wife.
Io knew what he meant. “Whatever you think right,” was the faltered
reply.
The husband pressed a long, tender kiss on Io’s cold brow. Not another
word passed between them. Io went to her own room, and Coldstream
retired to his study.
Seated in that study, Oscar wrote a brief but full account of his crime
in an official letter addressed to Government House. He omitted nothing,
except the cause of the hatred which he owned that he had felt towards
his unfortunate victim; he made not the slightest reference to his wife.
Oscar wrote with a strange calmness which was to himself a matter of
surprise. He then lighted a taper and sealed up his document, placed
it in his desk, which he locked, read awhile in his Bible, and then
retired to rest.