THE TEA-PARTY.

“Amiable personality,” I observed seeing Fyne on the point of falling

into a brown study. But I could not help adding with meaning: “He

hadn’t the gift of prophecy though.”

Fyne got up suddenly with a muttered “No, evidently not.” He was

gloomy, hesitating. I supposed that he would not wish to play chess

that afternoon. This would dispense me from leaving my rooms on a day

much too fine to be wasted in walking exercise. And I was disappointed

when picking up his cap he intimated to me his hope of seeing me at the

cottage about four o’clock—as usual.

“It wouldn’t be as usual.” I put a particular stress on that remark.

He admitted, after a short reflection, that it would not be. No. Not

as usual. In fact it was his wife who hoped, rather, for my presence.

She had formed a very favourable opinion of my practical sagacity.

This was the first I ever heard of it. I had never suspected that Mrs

Fyne had taken the trouble to distinguish in me the signs of sagacity or

folly. The few words we had exchanged last night in the excitement—or

the bother—of the girl’s disappearance, were the first moderately

significant words which had ever passed between us. I had felt myself

always to be in Mrs Fyne’s view her husband’s chess-player and nothing

else—a convenience—almost an implement.

“I am highly flattered,” I said. “I have always heard that there are no

limits to feminine intuition; and now I am half inclined to believe it

is so. But still I fail to see in what way my sagacity, practical or

otherwise, can be of any service to Mrs Fyne. One man’s sagacity is

very much like any other man’s sagacity. And with you at hand—”

Fyne, manifestly not attending to what I was saying, directed straight

at me his worried solemn eyes and struck in:

“Yes, yes. Very likely. But you will come—won’t you?”

I had made up my mind that no Fyne of either sex would make me walk

three miles (there and back to their cottage) on this fine day. If the

Fynes had been an average sociable couple one knows only because leisure

must be got through somehow, I would have made short work of that

special invitation. But they were not that. Their undeniable humanity

had to be acknowledged. At the same time I wanted to have my own way.

So I proposed that I should be allowed the pleasure of offering them a

cup of tea at my rooms.

A short reflective pause—and Fyne accepted eagerly in his own and his

wife’s name. A moment after I heard the click of the gate-latch and

then in an ecstasy of barking from his demonstrative dog his serious

head went past my window on the other side of the hedge, its troubled

gaze fixed forward, and the mind inside obviously employed in earnest

speculation of an intricate nature. One at least of his wife’s

girl-friends had become more than a mere shadow for him. I surmised

however that it was not of the girl-friend but of his wife that Fyne was

thinking. He was an excellent husband.

I prepared myself for the afternoon’s hospitalities, calling in the

farmer’s wife and reviewing with her the resources of the house and the

village. She was a helpful woman. But the resources of my sagacity I

did not review. Except in the gross material sense of the afternoon tea

I made _no_ preparations for Mrs Fyne.

It was impossible for me to make any such preparations. I could not

tell what sort of sustenance she would look for from my sagacity. And

as to taking stock of the wares of my mind no one I imagine is anxious

to do that sort of thing if it can be avoided. A vaguely grandiose

state of mental self-confidence is much too agreeable to be disturbed

recklessly by such a delicate investigation. Perhaps if I had had a

helpful woman at my elbow, a dear, flattering acute, devoted woman....

There are in life moments when one positively regrets not being married.

No! I don’t exaggerate. I have said—moments, not years or even days.

Moments. The farmer’s wife obviously could not be asked to assist.

She could not have been expected to possess the necessary insight and I

doubt whether she would have known how to be nattering enough. She was

being helpful in her own way, with an extraordinary black bonnet on her

head, a good mile off by that time, trying to discover in the village

shops a piece of eatable cake. The pluck of women! The optimism of the

dear creatures!

And she managed to find something which looked eatable. That’s all I

know as I had no opportunity to observe the more intimate effects of

that comestible. I myself never eat cake, and Mrs Fyne, when she

arrived punctually, brought with her no appetite for cake. She had no

appetite for anything. But she had a thirst—the sign of deep, of

tormenting emotion. Yes it was emotion, not the brilliant sunshine—

more brilliant than warm as is the way of our discreet self-repressed,

distinguished, insular sun, which would not turn a real lady scarlet—

not on any account. Mrs Fyne looked even cool. She wore a white skirt

and coat; a white hat with a large brim reposed on her smoothly arranged

hair. The coat was cut something like an army mess-jacket and the style

suited her. I dare say there are many youthful subalterns, and not the

worst-looking too, who resemble Mrs Fyne in the type of face, in the

sunburnt complexion, down to that something alert in bearing. But not

many would have had that aspect breathing a readiness to assume any

responsibility under Heaven. This is the sort of courage which ripens

late in life and of course Mrs Fyne was of mature years for all her

unwrinkled face.

She looked round the room, told me positively that I was very

comfortable there; to which I assented, humbly, acknowledging my

undeserved good fortune.

“Why undeserved?” she wanted to know.

“I engaged these rooms by letter without asking any questions. It might

have been an abominable hole,” I explained to her. “I always do things

like that. I don’t like to be bothered. This is no great proof of

sagacity—is it? Sagacious people I believe like to exercise that

faculty. I have heard that they can’t even help showing it in the

veriest trifles. It must be very delightful. But I know nothing of it.

I think that I have no sagacity—no practical sagacity.”

Fyne made an inarticulate bass murmur of protest. I asked after the

children whom I had not seen yet since my return from town. They had

been very well. They were always well. Both Fyne and Mrs Fyne spoke

of the rude health of their children as if it were a result of moral

excellence; in a peculiar tone which seemed to imply some contempt for

people whose children were liable to be unwell at times. One almost

felt inclined to apologise for the inquiry. And this annoyed me;

unreasonably, I admit, because the assumption of superior merit is not a

very exceptional weakness. Anxious to make myself disagreeable by way

of retaliation I observed in accents of interested civility that the

dear girls must have been wondering at the sudden disappearance of their

mother’s young friend. Had they been putting any awkward questions

about Miss Smith. Wasn’t it as Miss Smith that Miss de Barral had been

introduced to me?

Mrs Fyne, staring fixedly but also colouring deeper under her tan, told

me that the children had never liked Flora very much. She hadn’t the

high spirits which endear grown-ups to healthy children, Mrs Fyne

explained unflinchingly. Flora had been staying at the cottage several

times before. Mrs Fyne assured me that she often found it very

difficult to have her in the house.

“But what else could we do?” she exclaimed.

That little cry of distress quite genuine in its inexpressiveness,

altered my feeling towards Mrs Fyne. It would have been so easy to

have done nothing and to have thought no more about it. My liking for

her began while she was trying to tell me of the night she spent by the

girl’s bedside, the night before her departure with her unprepossessing

relative. That Mrs Fyne found means to comfort the child I doubt very

much. She had not the genius for the task of undoing that which the

hate of an infuriated woman had planned so well.

You will tell me perhaps that children’s impressions are not durable.

That’s true enough. But here, child is only a manner of speaking. The

girl was within a few days of her sixteenth birthday; she was old enough

to be matured by the shock. The very effort she had to make in

conveying the impression to Mrs Fyne, in remembering the details, in

finding adequate words—or any words at all—was in itself a terribly

enlightening, an ageing process. She had talked a long time,

uninterrupted by Mrs Fyne, childlike enough in her wonder and pain,

pausing now and then to interject the pitiful query: “It was cruel of

her. Wasn’t it cruel, Mrs Fyne?”

For Charley she found excuses. He at any rate had not said anything,

while he had looked very gloomy and miserable. He couldn’t have taken

part against his aunt—could he? But after all he did, when she called

upon him, take “that cruel woman away.” He had dragged her out by the

arm. She had seen that plainly. She remembered it. That was it! The

woman was mad. “Oh! Mrs Fyne, don’t tell me she wasn’t mad. If you

had only seen her face....”

But Mrs Fyne was unflinching in her idea that as much truth as could be

told was due in the way of kindness to the girl, whose fate she feared

would be to live exposed to the hardest realities of unprivileged

existences. She explained to her that there were in the world

evil-minded, selfish people. Unscrupulous people.... These two persons

had been after her father’s money. The best thing she could do was to

forget all about them.

“After papa’s money? I don’t understand,” poor Flora de Barral had

murmured, and lay still as if trying to think it out in the silence and

shadows of the room where only a night-light was burning. Then she had

a long shivering fit while holding tight the hand of Mrs Fyne whose

patient immobility by the bedside of that brutally murdered childhood

did infinite honour to her humanity. That vigil must have been the more

trying because I could see very well that at no time did she think the

victim particularly charming or sympathetic. It was a manifestation of

pure compassion, of compassion in itself, so to speak, not many women

would have been capable of displaying with that unflinching steadiness.

The shivering fit over, the girl’s next words in an outburst of sobs

were, “Oh! Mrs Fyne, am I really such a horrid thing as she has made

me out to be?”

“No, no!” protested Mrs Fyne. “It is your former governess who is

horrid and odious. She is a vile woman. I cannot tell you that she was

mad but I think she must have been beside herself with rage and full of

evil thoughts. You must try not to think of these abominations, my dear

child.”

They were not fit for anyone to think of much, Mrs Fyne commented to me

in a curt positive tone. All that had been very trying. The girl was

like a creature struggling under a net.

“But how can I forget? she called my father a cheat and a swindler! Do

tell me Mrs Fyne that it isn’t true. It can’t be true. How can it be

true?”

She sat up in bed with a sudden wild motion as if to jump out and flee

away from the sound of the words which had just passed her own lips.

Mrs Fyne restrained her, soothed her, induced her at last to lay her

head on her pillow again, assuring her all the time that nothing this

woman had had the cruelty to say deserved to be taken to heart. The

girl, exhausted, cried quietly for a time. It may be she had noticed

something evasive in Mrs Fyne’s assurances. After a while, without

stirring, she whispered brokenly:

“That awful woman told me that all the world would call papa these awful

names. Is it possible? Is it possible?”

Mrs Fyne kept silent.

“Do say something to me, Mrs Fyne,” the daughter of de Barral insisted

in the same feeble whisper.

Again Mrs Fyne assured me that it had been very trying. Terribly

trying. “Yes, thanks, I will.” She leaned back in the chair with

folded arms while I poured another cup of tea for her, and Fyne went out

to pacify the dog which, tied up under the porch, had become suddenly

very indignant at somebody having the audacity to walk along the lane.

Mrs Fyne stirred her tea for a long time, drank a little, put the cup

down and said with that air of accepting all the consequences:

“Silence would have been unfair. I don’t think it would have been kind

either. I told her that she must be prepared for the world passing a

very severe judgment on her father....”

“Wasn’t it admirable,” cried Marlow interrupting his narrative.

“Admirable!” And as I looked dubiously at this unexpected enthusiasm he

started justifying it after his own manner.

“I say admirable because it was so characteristic. It was perfect.

Nothing short of genius could have found better. And this was nature!

As they say of an artist’s work: this was a perfect Fyne. Compassion—

judiciousness—something correctly measured. None of your dishevelled

sentiment. And right! You must confess that nothing could have been

more right. I had a mind to shout ‘Brava! Brava!’ but I did not do

that. I took a piece of cake and went out to bribe the Fyne dog into

some sort of self-control. His sharp comical yapping was unbearable,

like stabs through one’s brain, and Fyne’s deeply modulated

remonstrances abashed the vivacious animal no more than the deep,

patient murmur of the sea abashes a nigger minstrel on a popular beach.

Fyne was beginning to swear at him in low, sepulchral tones when I

appeared. The dog became at once wildly demonstrative, half strangling

himself in his collar, his eyes and tongue hanging out in the excess of

his incomprehensible affection for me. This was before he caught sight

of the cake in my hand. A series of vertical springs high up in the air

followed, and then, when he got the cake, he instantly lost his interest

in everything else.”

Fyne was slightly vexed with me. As kind a master as any dog could wish

to have, he yet did not approve of cake being given to dogs. The Fyne

dog was supposed to lead a Spartan existence on a diet of repulsive

biscuits with an occasional dry, hygienic, bone thrown in. Fyne looked

down gloomily at the appeased animal, I too looked at that fool-dog; and

(you know how one’s memory gets suddenly stimulated) I was reminded

visually, with an almost painful distinctness, of the ghostly white face

of the girl I saw last accompanied by that dog—deserted by that dog. I

almost heard her distressed voice as if on the verge of resentful tears

calling to the dog, the unsympathetic dog. Perhaps she had not the

power of evoking sympathy, that personal gift of direct appeal to the

feelings. I said to Fyne, mistrusting the supine attitude of the dog:

“Why don’t you let him come inside?”

Oh dear no! He couldn’t think of it! I might indeed have saved my

breath, I knew it was one of the Fynes’ rules of life, part of their

solemnity and responsibility, one of those things that were part of

their unassertive but ever present superiority, that their dog must not

be allowed in. It was most improper to intrude the dog into the houses

of the people they were calling on—if it were only a careless bachelor

in farmhouse lodgings and a personal friend of the dog. It was out of

the question. But they would let him bark one’s sanity away outside

one’s window. They were strangely consistent in their lack of

imaginative sympathy. I didn’t insist but simply led the way back to

the parlour, hoping that no wayfarer would happen along the lane for the

next hour or so to disturb the dog’s composure.

Mrs Fyne seated immovable before the table charged with plates, cups,

jugs, a cold teapot, crumbs, and the general litter of the entertainment

turned her head towards us.

“You see, Mr Marlow,” she said in an unexpectedly confidential tone:

“they are so utterly unsuited for each other.”

At the moment I did not know how to apply this remark. I thought at

first of Fyne and the dog. Then I adjusted it to the matter in hand

which was neither more nor less than an elopement. Yes, by Jove! It

was something very much like an elopement—with certain unusual

characteristics of its own which made it in a sense equivocal. With

amused wonder I remembered that my sagacity was requisitioned in such a

connection. How unexpected! But we never know what tests our gifts may

be put to. Sagacity dictated caution first of all. I believe caution

to be the first duty of sagacity. Fyne sat down as if preparing himself

to witness a joust, I thought.

“Do you think so, Mrs Fyne?” I said sagaciously. “Of course you are

in a position....” I was continuing with caution when she struck out

vivaciously for immediate assent.

“Obviously! dearly! You yourself must admit....”

“But, Mrs Fyne,” I remonstrated, “you forget that I don’t know your

brother.”

This argument which was not only sagacious but true, overwhelmingly

true, unanswerably true, seemed to surprise her.

I wondered why. I did not know enough of her brother for the remotest

guess at what he might be like. I had never set eyes on the man. I

didn’t know him so completely that by contrast I seemed to have known

Miss de Barral—whom I had seen twice (altogether about sixty minutes)

and with whom I had exchanged about sixty words—from the cradle so to

speak. And perhaps, I thought, looking down at Mrs Fyne (I had

remained standing) perhaps she thinks that this ought to be enough for a

sagacious assent.

She kept silent; and I looking at her with polite expectation, went on

addressing her mentally in a mood of familiar approval which would have

astonished her had it been audible: “You my dear at any rate are a

sincere woman....”

“I call a woman sincere,” Marlow began again after giving me a cigar and

lighting one himself, “I call a woman sincere when she volunteers a

statement resembling remotely in form what she really would like to say,

what she really thinks ought to be said if it were not for the necessity

to spare the stupid sensitiveness of men. The women’s rougher, simpler,

more upright judgment, embraces the whole truth, which their tact, their

mistrust of masculine idealism, ever prevents them from speaking in its

entirety. And their tact is unerring. We could not stand women

speaking the truth. We could not bear it. It would cause infinite

misery and bring about most awful disturbances in this rather mediocre,

but still idealistic fool’s paradise in which each of us lives his own

little life—the unit in the great sum of existence. And they know it.

They are merciful. This generalisation does not apply exactly to Mrs

Fyne’s outburst of sincerity in a matter in which neither my affections

nor my vanity were engaged. That’s why, may be, she ventured so far.

For a woman she chose to be as open as the day with me. There was not

only the form but almost the whole substance of her thought in what she

said. She believed she could risk it. She had reasoned somewhat in

this way; there’s a man, possessing a certain amount of sagacity....”

Marlow paused with a whimsical look at me. The last few words he had

spoken with the cigar in his teeth. He took it out now by an ample

movement of his arm and blew a thin cloud.

“You smile? It would have been more kind to spare my blushes. But as a

matter of fact I need not blush. This is not vanity; it is analysis.

We’ll let sagacity stand. But we must also note what sagacity in this

connection stands for. When you see this you shall see also that there

was nothing in it to alarm my modesty. I don’t think Mrs Fyne credited

me with the possession of wisdom tempered by common sense. And had I

had the wisdom of the Seven Sages of Antiquity, she would not have been

moved to confidence or admiration. The secret scorn of women for the

capacity to consider judiciously and to express profoundly a meditated

conclusion is unbounded. They have no use for these lofty exercises

which they look upon as a sort of purely masculine game—game meaning a

respectable occupation devised to kill time in this man-arranged life

which must be got through somehow. What women’s acuteness really

respects are the inept ‘ideas’ and the sheep-like impulses by which our

actions and opinions are determined in matters of real importance. For

if women are not rational they are indeed acute. Even Mrs Fyne was

acute. The good woman was making up to her husband’s chess-player

simply because she had scented in him that small portion of

‘femininity,’ that drop of superior essence of which I am myself aware;

which, I gratefully acknowledge, has saved me from one or two

misadventures in my life either ridiculous or lamentable, I am not very

certain which. It matters very little. Anyhow misadventures. Observe

that I say ‘femininity,’ a privilege—not ‘feminism,’ an attitude. I am

not a feminist. It was Fyne who on certain solemn grounds had adopted

that mental attitude; but it was enough to glance at him sitting on one

side, to see that he was purely masculine to his finger-tips, masculine

solidly, densely, amusingly,—hopelessly.”

I did glance at him. You don’t get your sagacity recognised by a man’s

wife without feeling the propriety and even the need to glance at the

man now and again. So I glanced at him. Very masculine. So much so

that “hopelessly” was not the last word of it. He was helpless. He was

bound and delivered by it. And if by the obscure promptings of my

composite temperament I beheld him with malicious amusement, yet being

in fact, by definition and especially from profound conviction, a man, I

could not help sympathising with him largely. Seeing him thus disarmed,

_so_ completely captive by the very nature of things I was moved to

speak to him kindly.

“Well. And what do you think of it?”

“I don’t know. How’s one to tell. But I say that the thing is done now

and there’s an end of it,” said the masculine creature as bluntly as his

innate solemnity permitted.

Mrs Fyne moved a little in her chair. I turned to her and remarked

gently that this was a charge, a criticism, which was often made. Some

people always ask: What could he see in her? Others wonder what she

could have seen in him? Expressions of unsuitability.

She said with all the emphasis of her quietly folded arms:

“I know perfectly well what Flora has seen in my brother.”

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