CHAPTER XXIII

In the white drawing-room, afterwards, Lady Highford was particularly

gushing to the new bride. She came with a group of other women to

surround her, and was so playful and charming to all her friends! She

must be allowed to sit next to Zara, because, she said, "Your husband

and I are such very dear, old friends. And how lovely it is to think

that now he will be able to reopen Wrayth! Dear Lady Tancred is so

glad," she purred.

Zara just looked at her politely. What a done-up ferret woman! she

thought. She had met many of her tribe. At the rooms at Monte Carlo, and

in another class and another race, they were the kind who played in the

smallest stakes themselves, and often snatched the other people's money.

"I have never heard my husband speak of you," she said presently, when

she had silently borne a good deal of vitriolic gush. "You have perhaps

been out of England for some time?"

And Lady Anningford whispered to Ethelrida, "We need not worry to be

ready to defend her, pet! She can hold her own!" So they moved on to the

group of the girls.

But at the end of their conversation, though Zara had used her method of

silence in a considerable degree and made it as difficult as she could

for Lady Highford, still, that artist in petty spite had been able to

leave behind her some rankling stings. She was a mistress of innuendo.

So that when the men came in, and Tristram, from the sense of "not

funking things" which was in him, deliberately found Laura and sat down

upon a distant sofa with her, Zara suddenly felt some unpleasant feeling

about her heart. She found that she desired to watch them, and that, in

spite of what any one said to her, her attention wandered back to the

distant sofa in some unconscious speculation and unrest.

And Laura was being exceedingly clever. She scented with the cunning of

her species that Tristram was really unhappy, whether he was in love

with his hatefully beautiful wife or not. Now was her chance; not by

reproaches, but by sympathy, and, if possible, by planting some venom

towards his wife in his heart.

"Tristram, dear boy, why did you not tell me? Did you not know I would

have been delighted at anything--if it pleased you?" And she looked

down, and sighed. "I always made it my pleasure to understand you, and

to promote whatever seemed for your good."

And in his astonishment at this attitude Tristram forgot to recall the

constant scenes and reproaches, and the paltry little selfishnesses of

which he had been the victim during the year their--friendship--had

lasted. He felt somehow soothed. Here was some one who was devoted to

him, even if his wife were not!

"You are a dear, Laura," he said.

"And now you must tell me if you are really happy--Tristram." She

lingered over his name. "She is so lovely--your wife--but looks very

cold. And I know, dear" (another hesitation over the word), "I know you

don't like women to be cold."

"We will not discuss my wife," he said. "Tell me what you have been

doing, Laura. Let me see, when did I see you last--in June?"

And the venom came to boiling-point in Laura's adder gland. He could not

even remember when he had said good-by to her! It was in July, after the

Eton and Harrow match!

"Yes, in June," she said sadly, turning her eyes down. "And you might

have told me, Tristram. It came as such a sudden shock. It made me

seriously ill. You must have known, and were probably engaged--even

then."

Tristram sat mute; for how could he announce the truth?

"Oh, don't let us talk of these things, Laura. Let us forget those old

times and begin again--differently. You will be a dear friend to me

always, I am sure. You always were--" and then he stopped abruptly. He

felt this was too much lying! and he hated doing such things.

"Of course I will, dar--Tristram," Laura said, and appeared much moved.

And from where Zara was trying to talk to the Duke she saw the woman

shiver and look down provokingly and her husband stretch his long limbs

out; and a sudden, unknown sensation of blinding rage came over her, and

she did not hear a syllable of the Duke's speech.

Meanwhile Lady Anningford had retired to a seat in a window with the

Crow.

"Is it all right, Crow?" she asked, and one of his peculiarities was to

understand her--as Lady Ethelrida understood the Duke--and and not ask

"What?"

"Will be--some day--I expect--unless they get drowned in the current

first."

"Isn't she mysterious, Crow? I am sure she has some tragic history. Have

you heard anything?"

"Husband murdered by another man in a row at Monte Carlo."

"Over her?"

"I don't know for a fact, but I gather--not. You may be certain, Queen

Anne, that when a woman is as quiet and haughty as Lady Tancred looks,

and her manners are as cold and perfectly sure of herself as hers are,

she has not done anything she is ashamed of, or regrets."

"Then what can be the cause of the coolness between them? Look at

Tristram now! I think it is horrid of him--sitting like that talking to

Laura, don't you?"

"A viper, Laura," growled the Crow. "She's trying to get him again in

the rebound."

"I cannot imagine why women cannot leave other women's husbands alone.

They are hateful creatures, most of them."

"Natural instinct of the chase," said Colonel Lowerby.

But Lady Anningford flashed.

"You are a cynic, Crow."

* * * * *

"And you will really show me your favorite haunts to-morrow, Lady

Ethelrida?" Francis Markrute was saying to his hostess. He had contrived

insidiously to detach her conversation from a group to himself, and drew

her unconsciously towards a seat where they would be uninterrupted. "One

judges so of people by their tastes in haunts."

Lady Ethelrida never spoke of herself as a rule. She was not in the

habit of getting into those--abstract to begin with, and personal to go

on with--thrilling conversations with men, which most of the modern

young women delight in, and which were the peculiar joy of Lily Opie.

It was because for some unacknowledged reason the financier personally

pleased her that she now drifted where he wished.

"Mine are very simple, I fear, nothing for you to investigate," she said

gently.

"So I should have thought--" and he again as he had done at dinner

permitted himself to look into her eyes, and going on after an

imperceptible pause he said softly, "simple, and pure, and sweet ...I

always think of you, Lady Ethelrida, as the embodiment of sane things,

balanced things--perfection." And his last word was almost a caress.

"I am most ordinary," she said; and she wondered why she was not angry

with him, which she quite well could have been.

"It is only perfect balance in all things, if we but know it, which

appeals to the sane eye," he went on, pulling himself up. "All weariness

and satiety are caused in emotion; in pleasure in persons, places, or

things; by the want of proportion in them somewhere which, like all

simple things, is the hardest to find."

"Do you make theories about everything, Mr. Markrute?" she asked, and

there was a smile in her eye.

"It is a wise thing to do sometimes; it keeps one from losing one's

head."

Lady Ethelrida did not answer. She felt deliciously moved. She had often

said to her friend, Anne Anningford, when they had been talking, that

she did not like elderly men; she disliked to see their hair getting

thin, and their chins getting fat, and their little habits and

mannerisms growing pronounced. But here she found herself tremendously

interested in one who, from all accounts, must be quite forty-five if

not older, though it was true his brown colorless hair was excessively

thick, and he was slight of build everywhere.

Now she felt she must turn the conversation to less personal things, so:

"Zara looks very lovely to-night," she said.

"Yes," replied the financier, with an air of detaching himself

unwillingly from a thrilling topic, which was, indeed, what he felt.

"Yes, and I hope some day they will be exceedingly happy."

"Why do you say some day?" Lady Ethelrida asked quickly. "I hoped they

were happy now."

"Not very, I am afraid," he said. "But you remember our compact at

dinner? They will be ideally so if they are left alone," and he glanced

casually at Tristram and Laura.

Ethelrida looked, too, following his eyes.

"Yes," she said. "I wish I had not asked her--" and then she stopped

abruptly, and grew a deep pink. She realized what the inference in her

speech was, and if Mr. Markrute had never heard anything about the silly

affair between her cousin and Lady Highford what would he think! What

might she not have done!

"That won't matter," he said, with his fine smile. "It will be good for

my niece. I meant something quite different."

But what he meant, he would not say.

And so the evening passed smoothly. The girls, and all the young men and

the Crow, and Young Billy, and giddy, irresponsible people like that,

had gathered at one end of the room; they were arranging some especial

picnic for the morrow, as only some of them were going to shoot. And

into their picnic plans they drew Zara, and barred Tristram out, with

chaff.

"You are only an old, married man now, Tristram," they teased him with.

"But Lady Tancred is young and comes with us!"

"And I will take care of her," announced Lord Elterton, looking

sentimental--much to Tristram's disgust.

Ethelrida seemed to have collected a lot of rotters, he thought to

himself, although it was the same party he had so enjoyed last year!

"Lady Thornby and Lady Melton and Lily Opie and her sister are going out

to the shooters' lunch," Laura said sweetly. "As you are going to be

deprived of your lovely wife, Tristram, I will come, too."

And so, finally good nights were said and the ladies retired to their

rooms; and Zara could not think why she no longer found the atmosphere

of hers peaceful and delightful, as she had done before she went down.

For the first time in her life she felt she hated a woman.

And Tristram, her husband, when he came up an hour or so later, wondered

if she were asleep. Laura had been perfectly sweet, and he felt greatly

soothed. Poor old Laura! He supposed she had really cared for him

rather, and perhaps he had behaved casually, even though she had been

impossible, in the past. But how had he ever even for five minutes

fancied himself in love with her? Why, she looked quite old to-night!

and he had never remarked before how thin and fluffed out her hair was.

Women ought certainly to have beautifully thick hair.

And then all the pretenses of any healing of his aches fell from him,

and he went and stood by the door that separated him from his loved one,

and he stretched out his arms and said aloud, "Darling, if only you

could understand how happy I would make you--if you would let me! But I

can't even break down this hateful door as I want to, because of my

vow."

And then for most of the rest of the night he tossed restlessly in his

bed.

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