Chapter X.

The tattered man stood musing.

“Well, he was a reg’lar jim-dandy fer nerve, wa’n’t he,” said he

finally in a little awestruck voice. “A reg’lar jim-dandy.” He

thoughtfully poked one of the docile hands with his foot. “I wonner

where he got ’is stren’th from? I never seen a man do like that before.

It was a funny thing. Well, he was a reg’lar jim-dandy.”

The youth desired to screech out his grief. He was stabbed, but his

tongue lay dead in the tomb of his mouth. He threw himself again upon

the ground and began to brood.

The tattered man stood musing.

“Look-a-here, pardner,” he said, after a time. He regarded the corpse

as he spoke. “He’s up an’ gone, ain’t ’e, an’ we might as well begin t’

look out fer ol’ number one. This here thing is all over. He’s up an’

gone, ain’t ’e? An’ he’s all right here. Nobody won’t bother ’im. An’ I

must say I ain’t enjoying any great health m’self these days.”

The youth, awakened by the tattered soldier’s tone, looked quickly up.

He saw that he was swinging uncertainly on his legs and that his face

had turned to a shade of blue.

“Good Lord!” he cried, “you ain’t goin’ t’—not you, too.”

The tattered man waved his hand. “Nary die,” he said. “All I want is

some pea soup an’ a good bed. Some pea soup,” he repeated dreamfully.

The youth arose from the ground. “I wonder where he came from. I left

him over there.” He pointed. “And now I find ’im here. And he was

coming from over there, too.” He indicated a new direction. They both

turned toward the body as if to ask of it a question.

“Well,” at length spoke the tattered man, “there ain’t no use in our

stayin’ here an’ tryin’ t’ ask him anything.”

The youth nodded an assent wearily. They both turned to gaze for a

moment at the corpse.

The youth murmured something.

“Well, he was a jim-dandy, wa’n’t ’e?” said the tattered man as if in

response.

They turned their backs upon it and started away. For a time they stole

softly, treading with their toes. It remained laughing there in the

grass.

“I’m commencin’ t’ feel pretty bad,” said the tattered man, suddenly

breaking one of his little silences. “I’m commencin’ t’ feel pretty

damn’ bad.”

The youth groaned. “Oh Lord!” He wondered if he was to be the tortured

witness of another grim encounter.

But his companion waved his hand reassuringly. “Oh, I’m not goin’ t’

die yit! There too much dependin’ on me fer me t’ die yit. No, sir!

Nary die! I _can’t!_ Ye’d oughta see th’ swad a’ chil’ren I’ve got, an’

all like that.”

The youth glancing at his companion could see by the shadow of a smile

that he was making some kind of fun.

As they plodded on the tattered soldier continued to talk. “Besides, if

I died, I wouldn’t die th’ way that feller did. That was th’ funniest

thing. I’d jest flop down, I would. I never seen a feller die th’ way

that feller did.

“Yeh know Tom Jamison, he lives next door t’ me up home. He’s a nice

feller, he is, an’ we was allus good friends. Smart, too. Smart as a

steel trap. Well, when we was a-fightin’ this atternoon,

all-of-a-sudden he begin t’ rip up an’ cuss an’ beller at me. ‘Yer

shot, yeh blamed infernal!’—he swear horrible—he ses t’ me. I put up m’

hand t’ m’ head an’ when I looked at m’ fingers, I seen, sure ’nough, I

was shot. I give a holler an’ begin t’ run, but b’fore I could git away

another one hit me in th’ arm an’ whirl’ me clean ’round. I got skeared

when they was all a-shootin’ b’hind me an’ I run t’ beat all, but I

cotch it pretty bad. I’ve an idee I’d a’ been fightin’ yit, if t’wasn’t

fer Tom Jamison.”

Then he made a calm announcement: “There’s two of ’em—little ones—but

they’re beginnin’ t’ have fun with me now. I don’t b’lieve I kin walk

much furder.”

They went slowly on in silence. “Yeh look pretty peek’ed yerself,” said

the tattered man at last. “I bet yeh’ve got a worser one than yeh

think. Ye’d better take keer of yer hurt. It don’t do t’ let sech

things go. It might be inside mostly, an’ them plays thunder. Where is

it located?” But he continued his harangue without waiting for a reply.

“I see a feller git hit plum in th’ head when my reg’ment was

a-standin’ at ease onct. An’ everybody yelled to ’im: ‘Hurt, John? Are

yeh hurt much?’ ‘No,’ ses he. He looked kinder surprised, an’ he went

on tellin’ ’em how he felt. He sed he didn’t feel nothin’. But, by dad,

th’ first thing that feller knowed he was dead. Yes, he was dead—stone

dead. So, yeh wanta watch out. Yeh might have some queer kind ’a hurt

yerself. Yeh can’t never tell. Where is your’n located?”

The youth had been wriggling since the introduction of this topic. He

now gave a cry of exasperation and made a furious motion with his hand.

“Oh, don’t bother me!” he said. He was enraged against the tattered

man, and could have strangled him. His companions seemed ever to play

intolerable parts. They were ever upraising the ghost of shame on the

stick of their curiosity. He turned toward the tattered man as one at

bay. “Now, don’t bother me,” he repeated with desperate menace.

“Well, Lord knows I don’t wanta bother anybody,” said the other. There

was a little accent of despair in his voice as he replied, “Lord knows

I’ve gota ’nough m’ own t’ tend to.”

The youth, who had been holding a bitter debate with himself and

casting glances of hatred and contempt at the tattered man, here spoke

in a hard voice. “Good-by,” he said.

The tattered man looked at him in gaping amazement. “Why—why, pardner,

where yeh goin’?” he asked unsteadily. The youth looking at him, could

see that he, too, like that other one, was beginning to act dumb and

animal-like. His thoughts seemed to be floundering about in his head.

“Now—now—look—a—here, you Tom Jamison—now—I won’t have this—this here

won’t do. Where—where yeh goin’?”

The youth pointed vaguely. “Over there,” he replied.

“Well, now look—a—here—now,” said the tattered man, rambling on in

idiot fashion. His head was hanging forward and his words were slurred.

“This thing won’t do, now, Tom Jamison. It won’t do. I know yeh, yeh

pig-headed devil. Yeh wanta go trompin’ off with a bad hurt. It ain’t

right—now—Tom Jamison—it ain’t. Yeh wanta leave me take keer of yeh,

Tom Jamison. It ain’t—right—it ain’t—fer yeh t’ go—trompin’ off—with a

bad hurt—it ain’t—ain’t—ain’t right—it ain’t.”

In reply the youth climbed a fence and started away. He could hear the

tattered man bleating plaintively.

Once he faced about angrily. “What?”

“Look—a—here, now, Tom Jamison—now—it ain’t—”

The youth went on. Turning at a distance he saw the tattered man

wandering about helplessly in the field.

He now thought that he wished he was dead. He believed he envied those

men whose bodies lay strewn over the grass of the fields and on the

fallen leaves of the forest.

The simple questions of the tattered man had been knife thrusts to him.

They asserted a society that probes pitilessly at secrets until all is

apparent. His late companion’s chance persistency made him feel that he

could not keep his crime concealed in his bosom. It was sure to be

brought plain by one of those arrows which cloud the air and are

constantly pricking, discovering, proclaiming those things which are

willed to be forever hidden. He admitted that he could not defend

himself against this agency. It was not within the power of vigilance.

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