CHAPTER XV.

At the close of a misty day Jim Taylor stood at the parlor door to take

his leave of Mrs. Cranceford. During the slow hours of the afternoon

they had talked about Louise, or sitting in silence had thought of her;

and now at parting there was nothing to be added except the giant's

hopeful remark, "I believe we'll hear from her to-morrow; I am quite

sure of it." Repetition may make a sentiment trite, and into a slangish

phrase may turn a wise truism, but words spoken to encourage an anxious

heart do not lose their freshness. "Yes, I am quite sure of it," he

repeated. And the next day a letter came. It bore no post mark; the

captain of a steamboat had sent it over from a wood-yard. The boat was

an unimportant craft and its name was new even to the negroes at the

landing, which, indeed, must have argued that the vessel was making its

first trip on the Arkansas. The communication was brief, but it was

filled with expressions of love. "I am beginning to make my way," the

writer said, "and when I feel that I have completely succeeded, I will

come home. My ambition now is to surprise you, and to do this I must

keep myself in the dark just a little longer. I have tried to imagine

myself a friendless woman, such as I have often read about, and I

rather enjoy it. Love to Jim."

The Major was in his office when the letter was brought, and thither his

wife hastened to read it to him.

"What is it?" he asked as she entered the room. "A letter from Louise? I

don't want to hear it."

"John."

"I don't want to hear another crazy screed from her. Where is she? Is

she coming home? Read it."

During the reading he listened with one hand cupped behind his

ear--though his hearing was not impaired--and when the last word had

been pronounced, he said: "Likes to be mysterious, doesn't she? Well, I

hope she'll get enough of it. If her life has been so much influenced by

sympathy why has she felt none of that noble quality for us? Where is

she?"

"The letter doesn't say. It is not even dated, and it is not

post-marked."

"Did it come in a gale? Was it blown out of a mysterious cloud?"

"It came from the wood-yard, and the man who brought it said that it had

been left by the captain of the Mill-Boy, a new boat, they say."

"Well, it's devilish----"

"John."

"I say it's very strange. Enjoys being mysterious. I wonder if she

equally enjoys having the neighbors talk about her? Sends love to Jim.

Well, that isn't so bad. You'd better have some one take the letter over

to him."

"I sent him word by the man who brought the letter that we had heard

from her."

No further did the Major question her, but taking up a handful of

accounts, he settled himself into the preoccupation in which she had

found him, but the moment she went out and closed the door, he got out

of his chair and with his hands behind him, walked up and down the room.

At the window he halted, and standing there, looked down the river, in

the direction of the cape of sand whereon Louise had stood, that day

when Pennington coughed in the library door; and in his mind the old man

saw her, with her hands clasped over her brown head. He mused over the

time that had passed since then, the marriage, the death, the dreary

funeral; and though he did not reproach himself, yet he felt that could

he but recall that day he would omit his foolish plea of gallantry.

For the coming of Jim, Mrs. Cranceford had not long to wait. She was in

the parlor when he tapped at the door. After she had called, "Come in,"

he continued to stand there as if he were afraid of meeting a

disappointment. But when he had peeped in and caught sight of her

smiling face, his cold fear was melted.

"Here it is," she said, holding the letter out to him. Almost at one

stride he crossed the room and seized the letter. In the light of the

window he stood to read it, but it fluttered away from him the moment he

saw that there was a greeting in it for himself. He grabbed at it as if,

possessing life, it were trying to escape, and with a tight grip upon it

he said: "I knew she would write and I am sure she would have written

sooner if--if it had been necessary."

Mrs. Cranceford was laughing tearfully. "Oh, you simple-hearted man, so

trustful and so big of soul, what is your love not worth to a woman?"

"Simple-hearted? I am nothing of the sort. I try to be just and that's

all there is to it."

"No, Jim Taylor, there's more to it than that. A man may be just and his

sense of justice may demand a stricter accounting than you ask for."

"I guess you mean that I'm weak."

"Oh, no," she hastened to reply, "I don't mean that. The truth is I mean

that you give something that but few men have ever given--a love blind

enough and great enough to pardon a misdeed committed against yourself.

It is a rare charity."

He did not reply, but in the light of the window he stood, reading the

letter; and Mrs. Cranceford, sitting down, gave him the attention of a

motherly fondness, smiling upon him; and he, looking up from the letter

which a pleasurable excitement caused to shake in his hand, wondered

why any one should ever have charged this kindly matron with a cold lack

of sympathy. So interested in his affairs was she, so responsive to a

sentiment, though it might be clumsily spoken, so patient of his talk

and of his silence, that to him she was the Roman mother whom he had met

in making his way through a short-cut of Latin.

"Jim."

"Yes, ma'm."

"I want to ask you something. Have you talked much with Tom lately?"

"Not a great deal. He was over at my place the other night and we talked

of first one thing and then another, but I don't remember much of what

was said. Why do you want to know?"

"Can't you guess?"

"Don't know that I can. I was always rather slow at guessing. And don't

let me try; tell me what you mean?"

"You are as stupid as you are noble."

"What did you say, ma'm?" Again he had given his attention to the

letter.

"Oh, nothing."

"But you must have said something," he replied, pressing the letter into

narrow folds, and appearing as if he felt that he had committed a crime

in having failed to catch the meaning of her remark.

"Oh, it amounted to nothing."

He stupidly accepted this decree, and smoothing out the letter and

folding it again, requested that he might be permitted to take it home;

and with this reply she gladdened him: "I intended that you should."

At evening old Gid came, with many a snort and many a noisy stamp at the

dogs prancing upon the porch. Into the library he bustled, puffing and

important, brisk with the air of business. "John," he said, as he sat

down, "the last bale of my cotton has been hauled to the landing. It

will be loaded to-night and to-morrow morning I'm going with it down to

New Orleans; and I gad, I'll demand the last possible cent, for it's the

finest staple I ever saw."

"I thought you were going to bunch in and sell with me," the Major

replied.

"I intended to, John, but you see I'm too far ahead of you to wait. I

don't like to discount my industry by waiting. The truth is, I want the

money as soon as I can get it. I am chafing to discharge my debts. It

may be noble to feel and acknowledge the obligations of friendship, but

the consciousness of being in debt, a monied debt, even to a friend, is

blunting to the higher sensibilities and hampering to the character.

Now, you've never been in debt, and therefore you don't know what

slavery is."

"What! I've owed fifty thousand dollars at a time."

"Yes, but you had a way of getting out from under it, John. We don't

deserve any credit for paying a debt if it comes easy, if it's natural

to us. Why, a man with the faculty of getting out from under a debt is

better off and is more to be envied than the man who has never known

what it is to walk under a weight of obligations, for to throw off the

burden brings him a day of real happiness, while the more prudent and

prosperous person is acquainted merely with contentment. You've had a

good time in your life, John. On many an occasion when other men would

have been at the end of the string you have reached back, grabbed up

your resources and enjoyed them. Yes, sir. And you have more education

than I have, but you can never hope to rival me in wisdom."

The Major was standing on the hearth, and leaning his head back against

the mantel-piece, he laughed; and from Mrs. Cranceford's part of the

house came the impatient slam of a door.

"It's a fact, John. And within me there is just enough of rascality to

sweeten my wisdom."

"There is no doubt as to the rascality, Gid. The only question is with

regard to the wisdom."

"Easy, John. The wisdom is sometimes hidden; modesty covers it up, and

if the rascality is always apparent it is my frankness that holds it up

to view. Yes, sir. But my wisdom lacks something, is in want of

something to direct it. Pure wisdom can't direct itself, John; it is

like gold--it must have an alloy. You've got that alloy, and it makes

you more successful as a man, but sometimes less charming as a

companion. The part of a man that means business is disagreeable to a

gentle, humor-loving nature like mine. I perceive that I've got my

speculative gear on, and I'm bold; yes, for I am soon to discharge a

sacred obligation and then to walk out under the trees a free man. But

I'm naturally bold. Did you ever notice that a sort of self-education

makes a man adventurous in his talk when a more systematic training

might hold him down with the clamps of too much care?"

"Yes, might inflict him with the dullness of precision," the Major

suggested, smiling upon his guest.

"That's it, and for this reason half-educated men are often the

brightest. I read a book--and I reckon I'm as fond of a good book as any

man--without bringing to bear any criticisms that scholars have passed

upon it. But with you it is different."

"Gid, you ascribe scholarship to me when in fact you are far more

bookish than I am. You sit in your den all alone and read while I'm shut

up in my office going over my accounts. From care you have a freedom

that I can never hope to find."

"John, in comparison with me you don't know what care is."

The Major leaned against the mantel-piece and laughed.

"It's a fact, John. Why, I have care enough to kill a statesman or

strain a philosopher. Look at me; I'm old and don't amount to anything,

and that is one of the heaviest cares that can settle down upon man.

Wise? Oh, yes, we'll grant that, but as I before remarked, my wisdom

lacks proper direction. It is like ill-directed energy, and that, you

know, counts for nothing. I once knew a fellow that expended enough

energy in epileptic fits to have made him a fortune. He'd fall down and

kick and paw the air--a regular engine of industry, but it was all

wasted. But he had a brother, a lazy fellow, and he conceived the idea

of a sort of gear for him, so that his jerkings and kicks operated a

patent churn. So, if I only had some ingenious fool to harness me I

might do something."

"Why," said the Major, "I wouldn't have you otherwise than what you are.

Suppose you were to become what might be termed a useful citizen,

truthful and frugal----"

"Hold on, John," Gid broke in, holding up his hands. "You distress me

with your picture. When I hear of a frugal man I always imagine he's

hungry. Yes, sir. But let me tell you, I'll be a man of affairs when I

come back from New Orleans. You may be assured of that. I'm going to

scatter money about this neighborhood. Why, every lout within ten miles

square, if he's got fifteen dollars, holds his opinion above mine. Ah,

by a lucky chance I see that your demijohn is in here. And now just fill

up this bottle," he added, producing a flask as if by a sleight-of-hand

trick, "and I will bid you good-night."

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