1. Long afterwards Sylvia told me about what happened between her
husband and herself; how desperately she tried to avoid discussing the
issue with him--out of her very sense of fairness to him. But he came to
her room, in spite of her protest, and by his implacable persistence
he made her hear what he had to say. When he had made up his mind to a
certain course of action, he was no more to be resisted than a glacier.
“Sylvia,” he said, “I know that you are upset by what has happened. I
make every allowance for your condition; but there are some statements
that I must be permitted to make, and there are simply no two ways about
it--you must get yourself together and hear me.”
“Let me see Mary Abbott!” she insisted, again and again. “It may not be
what you want--but I demand to see her.”
So at last he said, “You cannot see Mrs. Abbott. She has gone back to
New York.” And then, at her look of consternation: “That is one of the
things I have to talk to you about.”
“Why has she gone back?” cried Sylvia.
“Because I was unwilling to have her here.”
“You mean you sent her away?”
“I mean that she understood she was no longer welcome.”
Sylvia drew a quick breath and turned away to the window.
He took advantage of the opportunity to come near, and draw up a chair
for her. “Will you not pleased to be seated,” he said. And at last she
turned, rigidly, and seated herself.
“The time has come,” he declared, “when we have to settle this question
of Mrs. Abbott, and her influence upon your life. I have argued with you
about such matters, but now what has happened makes further discussion
impossible. You were brought up among people of refinement, and it has
been incredible to me that you should be willing to admit to your home
such a woman as this--not merely of the commonest birth, but without a
trace of the refinement to which you have been accustomed. And now
you see the consequences of your having brought such a person into our
life!”
He paused. She made no sound, and her gaze was riveted upon the
window-curtain.
“She happens to be here,” he went on, “at a time when a dreadful
calamity befalls us--when we are in need of the utmost sympathy and
consideration. Here is an obscure and terrible affliction, which has
baffled the best physicians in the country; but this ignorant farmer’s
wife considers that she knows all about it. She proceeds to discuss it
with every one--sending your poor aunt almost into hysterics, setting
the nurses to gossiping--God knows what else she has done, or what she
will do, before she gets through. I don’t pretend to know her ultimate
purpose--blackmail, possibly----”
“Oh, how can you!” she broke out, involuntarily. “How can you say such a
thing about a friend of mine?”
“I might answer with another question--how can you have such a friend?
A woman who has cast off every restraint, every consideration of
decency--and yet is able to persuade a daughter of the Castlemans to
make her an intimate! Possibly she is an honest fanatic. Dr. Perrin
tells me she was the wife of a brutal farmer, who mistreated her. No
doubt that has embittered her against men, and accounts for her mania.
You see that her mind leaped at once to the most obscene and hideous
explanation of this misfortune of ours--an explanation which pleased her
because it blackened the honour of a man.”
He stopped again. Sylvia’s eyes had moved back to the window-curtain.
“I am not going to insult your ears,” he said, “with discussions of her
ideas. The proper person to settle such matters is a physician, and if
you wish Dr. Perrin to do so, he will tell you what he knows about the
case. But I wish you to realize somehow what this thing has meant to
me. I have managed to control myself----” He saw her shut her lips more
tightly. “The doctors tell me that I must not excite you. But picture
the situation. I come to my home, bowed down with grief for you and for
my child. And this mad woman thrusts herself forward, shoves aside your
aunt and your physicians, and comes in the launch to meet me at the
station. And then she accuses me of being criminally guilty of the
blindness of my child--of having wilfully deceived my wife! Think of
it--that is my welcome to my home!”
“Douglas,” she cried, wildly, “Mary Abbott would not have done such a
thing without reason----”
“I do not purpose to defend myself,” he said, coldly. “If you are bent
upon filling your mind with such matters, go to Dr. Perrin. He will
tell you that he, as a physician, knows that the charge against me is
preposterous. He will tell you that even granting that the cause of
the blindness is what Mrs. Abbott guesses, there are a thousand ways in
which such an infection can be contracted, which are perfectly innocent,
involving no guilt on the part of anyone. Every doctor knows that
drinking-cups, wash-basins, towels, even food, can be contaminated. He
knows that any person can bring the affliction into a home--servants,
nurses, even the doctors themselves. Has your mad woman friend told you
any of that?”
“She has told me nothing. You know that I have had no opportunity to
talk with her. I only know what the nurses believe----”
“They believe what Mrs. Abbott told them. That is absolutely all the
reason they have for believing anything!”
She did not take that quite as he expected. “So Mary Abbott _did_ tell
them!” she cried.
He hurried on: “The poisonous idea of a vulgar Socialist woman--this is
the thing upon which you base your suspicions of your husband!”
“Oh!” she whispered, half to herself. “Mary Abbott _did_ say it!”
“What if she did?”
“Oh, Douglas, Mary would never have said such a thing to a nurse unless
she had been certain of it!”
“Certain?” he broke out. “What certainty could she imagine she had?
She is a bitter, frantic woman--a divorced woman--who jumped to the
conclusion that pleased her, because it involved the humiliation of a
rich man.”
He went on, his voice trembling with suppressed passion: “When you know
the real truth, the thing becomes a nightmare. You, a delicate woman,
lying here helpless--the victim of a cruel misfortune, and with the
life of an afflicted infant depending upon your peace of mind. Your
physicians planning day and night to keep you quiet, to keep the
dreadful, unbearable truth from you----”
“Oh, what truth? That’s the terrifying thing--to know that people are
keeping things from me! What _was_ it they were keeping?”
“First of all, the fact that the baby was blind; and then the cause of
it----”
“Then they _do_ know the cause?”
“They don’t know positively--no one can know positively. But poor
Dr. Perrin had a dreadful idea, that he had to hide from you because
otherwise he could not bear to continue in your house----”
“Why, Douglas! What do you mean?”
“I mean that a few days before your confinement, he was called away to
the case of a negro-woman--you knew that, did you not?”
“Go on.”
“He had the torturing suspicion that possibly he was not careful enough
in sterilizing his instruments, and that he, your friend and protector,
may be the man who is to blame.”
“Oh! Oh!” Her voice was a whisper of horror.
“That is one of the secrets your doctors have been trying to hide.”
There was silence, while her eyes searched his face. Suddenly she
stretched out her hands to him, crying desperately: “Oh, is this true?”
He did not take the outstretched hands. “Since I am upon the
witness-stand, I have to be careful of my replies. It is what Dr. Perrin
tells me. Whether the explanation he gives is the true one--whether
he himself, or the nurse he recommended, may have brought the
infection----”
“It couldn’t have been the nurse,” she said quickly. “She was so
careful----”
He did not allow her to finish. “You seem determined,” he said, coldly,
“to spare everyone but your husband.”
“No!” she protested, “I have tried hard to be fair--to be fair to both
you and my friend. Of course, if Mary Abbott was mistaken, I have done
you a great injustice--”
He saw that she was softening, and that it was safe for him to be a
man. “It has been with some difficulty that I have controlled myself
throughout this experience,” he said, rising to his feet. “If you do not
mind, I think I will not carry the discussion any further, as I don’t
feel that I can trust myself to listen to a defence of that woman from
your lips. I will only tell you my decision in the matter. I have never
before used my authority as a husband; I hoped I should never have to
use it. But the time has come when you will have to choose between
Mary Abbott and your husband. I will positively not tolerate your
corresponding with her, or having anything further to do with her.
I take my stand upon that, and nothing will move me. I will not even
permit of any discussion of the subject. And now I hope you will excuse
me. Dr. Perrin wishes me to tell you that either he or Dr. Gibson are
ready at any time to advise you about these matters, which have been
forced upon your mind against their judgment and protests.”
2. You can see that it was no easy matter for Sylvia to get at the
truth. The nurses, already terrified because of their indiscretion, had
been first professionally thrashed, and then carefully drilled as to the
answers they were to make. But as a matter of fact they did not have
to make any answers at all, because Sylvia was unwilling to reveal to
anyone her distrust of her husband.
One of two things was certain: either she had been horribly wronged by
her husband, or now she was horribly wronging him. Which was the truth?
Was it conceivable that I, Mary Abbott, would leap to a false conclusion
about such a matter? She knew that I felt intensely, almost fanatically,
on the subject, and also that I had been under great emotional stress.
Was it possible that I would have voiced mere suspicions to the nurses?
Sylvia could not be sure, for my standards were as strange to her as
my Western accent. She knew that I talked freely to everyone about such
matters--and would be as apt to select the nurses as the ladies of
the house. On the other hand, how was it conceivable that I could know
positively? To recognize a disease might be easy; but to specify from
what source it had come--that was surely not in my power!
They did not leave her alone for long. Mrs. Tuis came in, with her
feminine terrors. “Sylvia, you must know that you are treating your
husband dreadfully! He has gone away down the beach by himself, and has
not even seen his baby!”
“Aunt Varina--” she began, “won’t you please go away?”
But the other rushed on: “Your husband comes here, broken with grief
because of this affliction; and you overwhelm him with the most cruel
and wicked reproaches with charges you have no way in the world of
proving----” And the old lady caught her niece by the hand. “My child!
Come, do your duty!”
“My duty?”
“Make yourself fit, and take your husband to see his baby.”
“Oh, I can’t!” cried Sylvia. “I don’t want to be there when he sees her!
If I loved him--” Then, seeing her aunt’s face of horror, she was seized
with a sudden impulse of pity, and caught the poor old lady in her arms.
“Aunt Varina,” she said, “I am making you suffer, I know--I am making
everyone suffer! But if you only knew how I am suffering myself! How can
I know what to do.”
Mrs. Tuis was weeping; but quickly she got herself together, and
answered in a firm voice, “Your old auntie can tell you what to do. You
must come to your senses, my child--you must let your reason prevail.
Get your face washed, make yourself presentable, and come and take your
husband to see your baby. Women have to suffer, dear; we must not shirk
our share of life’s burdens.”
“There is no danger of my shirking,” said Sylvia, bitterly.
“Come, dear, come,” pleaded Mrs. Tuis. She was trying to lead the girl
to the mirror. If only she could be made to see how distraught and
disorderly she looked! “Let me help you to dress, dear--you know how
much better it always makes you feel.”
Sylvia laughed, a trifle wildly--but Mrs. Tuis had dealt with hysteria
before. “What would you like to wear?” she demanded. And then, without
waiting for an answer, “Let me choose something. One of your pretty
frocks.”
“A pretty frock, and a seething volcano underneath! That is your idea of
a woman’s life!”
The other responded very gravely, “A pretty frock, my dear, and a
smile--instead of a vulgar scene, and ruin and desolation afterwards.”
Sylvia made no reply. Yes, that was the life of woman--her old aunt
knew! And her old aunt knew also the psychology of her sex. She did not
go on talking about pretty frocks in the abstract; she turned at once to
the clothes-closet, and began laying pretty frocks upon the bed!
3. Sylvia emerged upon the “gallery,” clad in dainty pink muslin, her
beautiful shiny hair arranged under a semi-invalid’s cap of pink maline.
Her face was pale, and the big red-brown eyes were hollow; but she was
quiet, and apparently mistress of herself again. She even humoured Aunt
Varina by leaning slightly upon her feeble arm, while the maid hastened
to place her chair in a shaded spot.
Her husband came, and the doctors; the tea-things were brought, and
Aunt Varina poured tea, a-flutter with excitement. They talked about
the comparative temperatures of New York and the Florida Keys, and about
hedges of jasmine to shade the gallery from the evening sun. And after
a while, Aunt Varina arose, explaining that she would prepare Elaine for
her father’s visit. In the doorway she stood for a moment, smiling upon
the pretty picture; it was all settled now--the outward forms had been
observed, and the matter would end, as such matters should end between
husband and wife--a few tears, a few reproaches, and then a few kisses.
The baby was made ready, with a new dress, and a fresh silk bandage
to cover the pitiful, lifeless eyes. Aunt Varina had found pleasure in
making these bandages; she made them soft and pretty--less hygienic,
perhaps, but avoiding the suggestion of the hospital.
When Sylvia and her husband came into the room, the faces of both of
them were white. Sylvia stopped near the door-way; and poor Aunt Varina
fluttered about, in agony of soul. When van Tuiver went to the cradle,
she hurried to his side, and sought to awaken the little one with gentle
nudges. Quite unexpectedly to her, van Tuiver sought to pick up the
infant; she helped him, and he stood, holding it awkwardly, as if afraid
it might go to pieces in his arms.
So any man might appear, with his first infant; but to Sylvia it seemed
the most tragic sight she had ever seen in her life. She gave a low
cry, “Douglas!” and he turned, and she saw his face was working with the
feeling he was ashamed for anyone to see. “Oh, Douglas,” she whispered,
“I’m so _sorry_ for you!” At which Aunt Varina decided that it was time
for her to make her escape.
4. But the trouble between these two were not such as could be settled
by any burst of emotion. The next day they were again in a dispute, for
he had come to ask her word of honour that she would never see me again,
and would give him my letters to be returned unopened. This last was
what she had let her father do in the case of Frank Shirley; and she had
become certain in her own mind that she had done wrong.
But he was insistent in his demand; declaring that it should be obvious
to her there could be no peace of mind for him so long as my influence
continued in her life.
“But surely,” protested Sylvia, “to hear Mary Abbott’s explanation----”
“There can be no explanation that is not an insult to your husband, and
to those who are caring for you. I am speaking in this matter not merely
for myself, but for your physicians, who know this woman, heard her
menaces and her vulgarity. It is their judgment that you should be
protected at all hazards from further contact with her.”
“Douglas,” she argued, “you must realize that I am in distress of mind
about this matter----”
“I certainly realize that.”
“And if you are thinking of my welfare, you should choose a course that
would set my mind at rest. But when you come to me and ask me that I
should not even read a letter from my friend--don’t you realize what you
suggest to me, that there is something you are afraid for me to know?”
“I do not attempt to deny my fear of this woman. I have seen how she has
been able to poison your mind with suspicions----”
“Yes, Douglas--but now that has been done. What else is there to fear
from her?”
“I have no idea what. She is a bitter, jealous woman, with a mind full
of hatred; and you are an innocent girl, who cannot judge about these
matters. What idea have you of the world in which you live, of the
slanders to which a man in your husband’s position is exposed?”
“I am not quite such a child as that----”
“You have simply no idea, I tell you. I remember your consternation
when we first met, and I told you about the woman who had written me
a begging letter, and got an interview with me, and then started
screaming, and refused to leave the house till I had paid her a lot of
money. You had never heard such stories, had you? Yet it is the kind of
thing that is happening to rich men continually; it was one of the first
rules I was taught, never to let myself be alone with a strange woman,
no matter of what age, or under what circumstances.”
“But, I assure you, I would not listen to such people----”
“You are asking right now to listen! And you would be influenced by
her--you could not help it, any more than you can help being distressed
about what she has already said. She intimated to Dr. Perrin that she
believed that I had been a man of depraved life, and that my wife and
child were now paying the penalty. How can I tell what vile stories
concerning me she may not have heard? How could I have any peace of mind
while I knew that she was free to pour them into your ear?”
Sylvia sat dumb with questions she would not utter, hovering on the tip
of her tongue.
He took her silence for acquiesence, and went on, quickly, “Let me give
you an illustration. A friend of mine whom you know well--I might as
well tell you his name, it was Freddie Atkins--was at supper with some
theatrical women; and one of them, not having any idea that Freddie knew
me, proceeded to talk about me, and how she had met me, and where we had
been together--about my yacht, and my castle in Scotland, and I don’t
know what all else. It seems that this woman had been my mistress for
several years; she told quite glibly about me and my habits. Freddie got
the woman’s picture, on some pretext or other, and brought it to me; I
had never laid eyes on her in my life. He could hardly believe it, and
to prove it to him I offered to meet the woman, under another name.
We sat in a restaurant, and she told the tale to Freddie and myself
together--until finally he burst out laughing, and told her who I was.”
He paused, to let this sink in. “Now, suppose your friend, Mary Abbott,
had met that woman! I don’t imagine she is particularly careful whom
she associates with; and suppose she had come and told you that she knew
such a woman--what would you have said? Can you deny that the tale would
have made an impression on you? Yet, I’ve not the least doubt there are
scores of women who made such tales about me a part of their stock in
trade; there are thousands of women whose fortunes would be made for
life if they could cause such a tale to be believed. And imagine how
well-informed they would be, if anyone were to ask them concerning
my habits, and the reason why our baby is blind! I tell you, when the
rumour concerning our child has begun to spread, there will be ten
thousand people in New York city who will know of first-hand, personal
knowledge exactly how it happened, and how you took it, and everything
that I said to you about it. There will be sneers in the society-papers,
from New York to San Francisco; and smooth-tongued gentlemen calling,
to give us hints that we can stop these sneers by purchasing a de-luxe
edition of a history of our ancestors for six thousand dollars. There
will be well-meaning and beautiful-souled people who will try to get
you to confide in them, and then use their knowledge of your domestic
unhappiness to blackmail you; there will be threats of law-suits from
people who will claim that they have contracted a disease from you
or your child--your laundress, perhaps, or your maid, or one of these
nurses----”
“Oh, stop! stop!” she cried.
“I am quite aware,” he said, quietly, “that these things are not
calculated to preserve the peace of mind of a young mother. You are
horrified when I tell you of them--yet you clamour for the right to have
Mrs. Abbott tell you of them! I warn you, Sylvia--you have married a
rich man, who is exposed to the attacks of cunning and unscrupulous
enemies. You, as his wife, are exactly as much exposed--possibly even
more so. Therefore when I see you entering into what I know to be a
dangerous intimacy, I must have the right to say to you, This shall
stop, and I tell you, there can never be any safety or peace of mind for
either of us, so long as you attempt to deny me that right.”
5. Dr. Gibson took his departure three or four days later; and before
he went, he came to give her his final blessing; talking to her, as he
phrased it, “like a Dutch uncle.” “You must understand,” he said, “I am
almost old enough to be your grandfather. I have four sons, anyone of
whom might have married you, if they had had the good fortune to be in
Castleman County at the critical time. So you must let me be frank with
you.”
Sylvia indicated that she was willing.
“We don’t generally talk to women about these matters; because they’ve
no standard by which to judge, and they almost always fly off and have
hysterics. Their case seems to them exceptional and horrible, their
husbands the blackest criminals in the whole tribe.”
He paused for a moment. “Now, Mrs. van Tuiver, the disease which has
made your baby blind is probably what we call gonorrhea. When it gets
into the eyes, it has very terrible results. But it doesn’t often get
into the eyes, and for the most part it’s a trifling affair, that we
don’t worry about. I know there are a lot of new-fangled notions, but
I’m an old man, with experience of my own, and I have to have things
proven to me. I know that with as much of this disease as we doctors
see, if it was a deadly disease, there’d be nobody left alive in the
world. As I say, I don’t like to discuss it with women; but it was not I
who forced the matter upon your attention----”
“Pray go on, Dr. Gibson,” she said. “I really wish to know all that you
will tell me.”
“The question has come up, how was this disease brought to your child?
Dr. Perrin suggested that possibly he--you understand his fear; and
possibly he is correct. But it seems to me an illustration of the
unwisdom of a physician’s departing from his proper duty, which is to
cure people. If you wish to find out who brought a disease, what you
need is a detective. I know, of course, that there are people who can
combine the duties of physician and detective--and that without any
previous preparation or study of either profession.”
He waited for this irony to sink in; and Sylvia also waited, patiently.
At last he resumed, “The idea has been planted in your mind that your
husband brought the trouble; and that idea is sure to stay there and
fester. So it becomes necessary for someone to talk to you straight. Let
me tell you that eight men out of ten have had this disease at some time
in their lives; also that very few of them were cured of it when they
thought they were. You have a cold: and then next month, you say
the cold is gone. So it is, for practical purposes. But if I take a
microscope, I find the germs of the cold still in your membranes, and I
know that you can give a cold, and a bad cold, to some one else who is
sensitive. It is true that you may go through all the rest of your life
without ever being entirely rid of that cold. You understand me?”
“Yes,” said Sylvia, in a low voice.
“I say eight out of ten. Estimates would differ. Some doctors would say
seven out of ten--and some actual investigations have shown nine out of
ten. And understand me, I don’t mean bar-room loafers and roustabouts.
I mean your brothers, if you have any, your cousins, your best friends,
the men who came to make love to you, and whom you thought of marrying.
If you had found it out about any one of them, of course you’d have cut
the acquaintance; yet you’d have been doing an injustice--for if you
had done that to all who’d ever had the disease, you might as well have
retired to a nunnery at once.”
The old gentleman paused again; then frowning at her under his bushy
eye-brows, he exclaimed, “I tell you, Mrs. van Tuiver, you’re doing your
husband a wrong. Your husband loves you, and he’s a good man--I’ve
had some talks with him, and I know he’s not got nearly so much on his
conscience as the average husband. I’m a Southern man, and I know these
gay young bloods you’ve danced and flirted with all your young life. Do
you think if you went probing into their secret affairs, you’d have
had much pleasure in their company afterwards? I tell you again, you’re
doing your husband a wrong! You’re doing something that very few men
would stand, as patiently as he has stood it so far.”
All this time Sylvia had given no sign. So the old gentleman began to
feel a trifle uneasy. “Mind you,” he said, “I’m not saying that men
ought to be like that. They deserve a good hiding, most of them--they’re
very few of them fit to associate with a good woman. I’ve always said
that no man is really good enough for a good woman. But my point is that
when you select one to punish, you select not the guiltiest one, but
simply the one who’s had the misfortune to fall under suspicion. And he
knows that’s not fair; he’d have to be more than human if deep in his
soul he did not bitterly resent it. You understand me?”
“I understand,” she replied, in the same repressed voice.
And the doctor rose and laid his hand on her shoulder. “I’m going home,”
he said--“very probably we’ll never meet each other again. I see you
making a great mistake, laying up unhappiness for yourself in the
future; and I wish to prevent it if I can. I wish to persuade you to
face the facts of the world in which we live. So I am going to tell you
something that I never expected I should tell to a lady.”
He was looking her straight in the eye. “You see me--I’m an old man, and
I seem fairly respectable to you. You’ve laughed at me some, but even
so, you’ve found it possible to get along with me without too great
repugnance. Well, I’ve had this disease; I’ve had it, and nevertheless
I’ve raised six fine, sturdy children. More than that--I’m not free to
name anybody else, but I happen to know positively that among the men
your husband employs on this island there are two who have the disease
right now. And the next charming and well-bred gentleman you are
introduced to, just reflect that there are at least eight chances in ten
that he has had the disease, and perhaps three or four in ten that he
has it at the minute he’s shaking hands with you. And now you think that
over, and stop tormenting your poor husband!”
6. One of the first things I did when I reached New York was to send a
little love-letter to Sylvia. I said nothing that would distress her; I
merely assured her that she was in my thoughts, and that I should look
to see her in New York, when we could have a good talk. I put this in
a plain envelope, with a typewritten address, and registered it in the
name of my stenographer. The receipt came back, signed by an unknown
hand, probably the secretary’s. I found out later that the letter never
got to Sylvia.
No doubt it was the occasion of renewed efforts upon her husband’s part
to obtain from her the promise he desired. He would not be put off with
excuses; and at last he got her answer, in the shape of a letter which
she told him she intended to mail to me. In this letter she announced
her decision that she owed it to her baby to avoid all excitement and
nervous strain during the time that she was nursing it. Her husband had
sent for the yacht, and they were going to Scotland, and in the winter
to the Mediterranean and the Nile. Meantime she would not correspond
with me; but she wished me to know that there was to be no break in our
friendship, and that she would see me upon her return to New York.
“There is much that has happened that I do not understand,” she added.
“For the present, however, I shall try to dismiss it from my mind. I am
sure you will agree that it is right for me to give a year to being
a mother; as I wish you to feel perfectly at peace in the meantime, I
mention that it is my intention to be a mother only, and not a wife. I
am showing this letter to my husband before I mail it, so that he may
know exactly what I am doing, and what I have decided to do in the
future.”
“Of course,” he said, after reading this, “you may send the letter,
if you insist--but you must realize that you are only putting off the
issue.”
She made no reply; and at last he asked, “You mean you intend to defy me
in this matter?”
“I mean,” she replied, quietly, “that for the sake of my baby I intend
to put off all discussion for a year.”
7. I figured that I should hear from Claire Lepage about two days after
I reached New York; and sure enough, she called me on the ‘phone.
“I want to see you at once,” she declared; and her voice showed the
excitement under which she was labouring.
“Very well,” I said, “come down.”
She entered my little living-room. It was the first time she had ever
visited me, but she did not stop for a glance about her; she did not
even stop to sit down. “Why didn’t you tell me that you knew Sylvia
Castleman?” she cried.
“My dear woman,” I replied, “I was not under the least obligation to
tell you.”
“You have betrayed me!” she exclaimed, wildly.
“Come, Claire,” I said, after I had looked her in the eye a bit to calm
her. “You know quite well that I was under no bond of secrecy. And,
besides, I haven’t done you any harm.”
“Why did you do it?” I regret to add that she swore.
“I never once mentioned your name, Claire.”
“How much good do you imagine that does me? They have managed to find
out everything. They caught me in a trap.”
I reminded myself that it would not do to show any pity for her. “Sit
down, Claire,” I said. “Tell me about it.”
She cried, in a last burst of anger, “I don’t want to talk to you!”
“All right,” I answered. “But then, why did you come?”
There was no reply to that. She sat down. “They were too much for me!”
she lamented. “If I’d had the least hint, I might have held my own. As
it was--I let them make a fool of me.”
“You are talking hieroglyphics to me. Who are ‘they’?”
“Douglas, and that old fox, Rossiter Torrance.”
“Rossiter Torrance?” I repeated the name, and then suddenly remembered.
The thin-lipped old family lawyer!
“He sent up his card, and said he’d been sent to see me by Mary Abbot.
Of course, I had no suspicion--I fell right into the trap. We talked
about you for a while--he even got me to tell him where you lived; and
then at last he told me that he hadn’t come from you at all, but had
merely wanted to find out if I knew you, and how intimate we were. He
had been sent by Douglas; and he wanted to know right away how much I
had told you about Douglas, and why I had done it. Of course, I denied
that I had told anything. Heavens, what a time he gave me!”
Claire paused. “Mary, how could you have played such a trick upon me?”
“I had no thought of doing you any harm,” I replied. “I was simply
trying to help Sylvia.”
“To help her at any expense!”
“Tell me, what will come of it? Are you afraid they’ll cut off your
allowance?”
“That’s the threat.”
“But will they carry it out?”
She sat, gazing at me resentfully. “I don’t know whether I ought to
trust you any more,” she said.
“Do what you please about that,” I replied. “I don’t want to urge you.”
She hesitated a bit longer, and then decided to throw herself upon my
mercy. They would not dare to carry out their threat, so long as Sylvia
had not found out the whole truth. So now she had come to beg me to tell
no more than I had already told. She was utterly abject about it. I had
pretended to be her friend, I had won her confidence and listened to her
confessions; how did I wish to ruin her utterly, to have her cast out on
the street?
Poor Claire! I said in the early part of my story that she understood
the language of idealism; but I wonder what I have told about her that
justifies this. The truth is, she was going down so fast that already
she seemed a different person; and she had been frightened by the
thin-lipped old family lawyer, so that she was incapable of even a
decent pretence.
“Claire,” I said, “there is no need for you to go on like this. I
have not the slightest intention of telling Sylvia about you. I cannot
imagine the circumstances that would make me want to tell her. Even if I
should do it, I would tell her in confidence, so that her husband would
never have any idea----”
She went almost wild at this. To imagine that a woman would keep such a
confidence! As if she would not throw it at her husband’s head the first
time they quarreled! Besides, if Sylvia knew this truth, she might leave
him; and if she left him, Claire’s hold on his money would be gone.
Over this money we had a long and lachrymose interview. And at the end
of it, there she sat gazing into space, baffled and bewildered. What
kind of a woman was I? How had I got to be the friend of Sylvia van
Tuiver? What had she seen in me, and what did I expect to get out of
her? I answered briefly; and suddenly Claire was overwhelmed by a rush
of curiosity--plain human curiosity. What was Sylvia like? Was she as
clever as they said? What was the baby like, and how was Sylvia taking
the misfortune? Could it really be true that I had been visiting the van
Tuivers in Florida, as old Rossiter Torrance had implied?
Needless to say, I did not answer these questions freely. And I really
think my visitor was more pained by my uncommunicativeness than she
was by my betrayal of her. It was interesting also to notice a subtle
difference in her treatment of me. Gone was the slight touch of
condescension, gone was most of the familiarity! I had become a
personage, a treasurer of high state secrets, an intimate of the great
ones! There must be something more to me than Claire had realized
before!
Poor Claire! She passes here from this story. For years thereafter I
used to catch a glimpse of her now and then, in the haunts of the birds
of gorgeous plumage; but I never got a chance to speak to her, nor did
she ever call on me again. So I do not know if Douglas van Tuiver still
continues her eight thousand a year. All I can say is that when I saw
her, her plumage was as gorgeous as ever, and its style duly certified
to the world that it had not been held over from a previous season of
prosperity. Twice I thought she had been drinking too much; but then--so
had many of the other ladies with the little glasses of bright-coloured
liquids before them.
8. For the rest of that year I knew nothing about Sylvia except what I
read in the “society” column of my newspaper--that she was spending the
late summer in her husband’s castle in Scotland. I myself was suffering
from the strain of what I had been through, and had to take a vacation.
I went West; and when I came back in the fall, to plunge again into my
work, I read that the van Tuivers, in their yacht, the “Triton,” were in
the Mediterranean, and were planning to spend the winter in Japan.
And then one day in January, like a bolt from the blue, came a cablegram
from Sylvia, dated Cairo: “Sailing for New York, Steamship ‘Atlantic,’
are you there, answer.”
Of course I answered. And I consulted the sailing-lists, and waited,
wild with impatience. She sent me a wireless, two days out, and so I was
at the pier when the great vessel docked. Yes, there she was, waving her
handkerchief to me; and there by her side stood her husband.
It was a long, cold ordeal, while the ship was warped in. We could only
gaze at each other across the distance, and stamp our feet and beat our
hands. There were other friends waiting for the van Tuivers, I saw,
and so I held myself in the background, full of a thousand wild
speculations. How incredible that Sylvia, arriving with her husband,
should have summoned me to meet her!
At last the gangway was let down, and the stream of passengers began
to flow. In time came the van Tuivers, and their friends gathered
to welcome them. I waited; and at last Sylvia came to me--outwardly
calm--but with her emotions in the pressure of her two hands. “Oh, Mary,
Mary!” she murmured. “I’m so glad to see you! I’m so glad to see you!”
“What has happened?” I asked.
Her voice went to a whisper. “I am leaving my husband.”
“Leaving your husband!” I stood, dumbfounded.
“Leaving him for ever, Mary.”
“But--but----” I could not finish the sentence. My eyes moved to where
he stood, calmly chatting with his friends.
“He insisted on coming back with me, to preserve appearances. He is
terrified of the gossip. He is going all the way home, and then leave
me.”
“Sylvia! What does it mean?” I whispered.
“I can’t tell you here. I want to come and see you. Are you living at
the same place?”
I answered in the affirmative.
“It’s a long story,” she added. “I must apologise for asking you to come
here, where we can’t talk. But I did it for an important reason. I can’t
make my husband really believe that I mean what I say; and you are my
Declaration of Independence!” And she laughed, but a trifle wildly, and
looking at her suddenly, I realized that she was keyed almost to the
breaking point.
“You poor dear!” I murmured.
“I wanted to show him that I meant what I said. I wanted him to see us
meet. You see, he’s going home, thinking that with the help of my people
he can make me change my mind.”
“But why do you go home? Why not stay here with me? There’s an apartment
vacant next to mine.”
“And with a baby?”
“There are lots of babies in our tenement,” I said. But to tell the
truth, I had almost forgotten the baby in the excitement of the moment.
“How is she,” I asked.
“Come and see,” said Sylvia; and when I glanced enquiringly at the tall
gentleman who was chatting with his friends, she added, “She’s _my_
baby, and I have a right to show her.”
The nurse, a rosy-cheeked English girl in a blue dress and a bonnet with
long streamers, stood apart, holding an armful of white silk and lace.
Sylvia turned back the coverings; and again I beheld the vision which
had so thrilled me--the comical little miniature of herself--her nose,
her lips, her golden hair. But oh, the pitiful little eyes, that did not
move! I looked at my friend, uncertain what I should say; I was startled
to see her whole being aglow with mother-pride. “Isn’t she a dear?” she
whispered. “And, Mary, she’s learning so fast, and growing--you couldn’t
believe it!” Oh, the marvel of mother-love, I thought--that is blinder
than any child it ever bore!
We turned away; and Sylvia said, “I’ll come to you as soon as I’ve got
the baby settled. Our train starts for the South to-night, so I shan’t
waste any time.”
“God bless you, dear,” I whispered; and she gave my hand a squeeze, and
turned away. I stood for a few moments watching, and saw her approach
her husband, and exchange a few smiling words with him in the presence
of their friends. I, knowing the agony that was in the hearts of that
desperate young couple, marvelled anew at the discipline of caste.
9. She sat in my big arm-chair; and how proud I was of her, and
how thrilled by her courage. Above all, however, I was devoured by
curiosity. “Tell me!” I exclaimed.
“There’s so much,” she said.
“Tell me why you are leaving him.”
“Mary, because I don’t love him. That’s the one reason. I have thought
it out--I have thought of little else for the last year. I have come to
see that it is wrong for a woman to live with a man she does not love.
It is the supreme crime a woman can commit.”
“Ah, yes!” I said. “If you have got that far!”
“I have got that far. Other things have contributed, but they are not
the real things--they might have been forgiven. The fact that he had
this disease, and made my child blind----”
“Oh! You found out that?”
“Yes, I found it out.”
“How?”
“It came to me little by little. In the end, he grew tired of
pretending, I think.” She paused for a moment, then went on, “The
trouble was over the question of my obligations as a wife. You see, I
had told him at the outset that I was going to live for my baby, and for
her alone. That was the ground upon which he had persuaded me not to see
you or read any of your letters. I was to ask no questions, and be nice
and bovine--and I agreed. But then, a few months ago, my husband came to
me with the story of his needs. He said that the doctors had given their
sanction to our reunion. Of course, I was stunned. I knew that he had
understood me before we left Florida.”
She stopped. “Yes, dear,” I said, gently.
“Well, he said now the doctors were agreed there was no danger to either
of us. We could take precautions and not have children. I could only
plead that the whole subject was distressing to me. He had asked me to
put off my problems till my baby was weaned; now I asked him to put off
his. But that would not do, it seemed. He took to arguing with me. It
was an unnatural way to live, and he could not endure it. I was a woman,
and I couldn’t understand this. It seemed utterly impossible to make him
realize what I felt. I suppose he has always had what he wanted, and he
simply does not know what it is to be denied. It wasn’t only a physical
thing, I think; it was an affront to his pride, a denial of his
authority.” She stopped, and I saw her shudder.
“I have been through it all,” I said.
“He wanted to know how long I expected to withhold myself. I said,
‘Until I have got this disease out of my mind, as well as out of my
body; until I know that there is no possibility of either of us having
it, to give to the other.’ But then, after I had taken a little more
time to think it over, I said, ‘Douglas, I must be honest with you. I
shall never be able to live with you again. It is no longer a question
of your wishes or mine--it is a question of right or wrong. I do not
love you. I know now that it can never under any circumstances be right
for a woman to give herself in the intimacy of the sex-relation without
love. When she does it, she is violating the deepest instinct of her
nature, the very voice of God in her soul.’
“His reply was, ‘Why didn’t you know that before you married?’
“I answered, ‘I did not know what marriage meant; and I let myself be
persuaded by others.’
“‘By your own mother!’ he declared.
“I said, ‘A mother who permits her daughter to commit such an offence is
either a slave-dealer, or else a slave.’ Of course, he thought I was
out of my mind at that. He argued about the duties of marriage, the
preserving of the home, wives submitting themselves to their husbands,
and so on. He would not give me any peace----”
And suddenly she started up. I saw in her eyes the light of old battles.
“Oh, it was a horror!” she cried, beginning to pace the floor. “It
seemed to me that I was living the agony of all the loveless marriages
of the world. I felt myself pursued, not merely by the importunate
desires of one man--I suffered with all the millions of women who give
themselves night after night without love! He came to seem like some
monster to me; I could not meet him unexpectedly without starting. I
forbade him to mention the subject to me again, and for a long time he
obeyed. But several weeks ago he brought it up afresh, and I lost my
self-control completely. ‘Douglas,’ I said, ‘I can stand it no longer!
It is not only the tragedy of my blind child--it’s that you have driven
me to hate you. You have crushed all the life and joy and youth out of
me! You’ve been to me like a terrible black cloud, constantly pressing
down on me, smothering me. You stalk around me like a grim, sepulchral
figure, closing me up in the circle of your narrow ideas. But now I can
endure it no longer. I was a proud, high-spirited girl, you’ve made
of me a colourless social automaton, a slave of your stupid worldly
traditions. I’m turning into a feeble, complaining, discontented wife!
And I refuse to be it. I’m going home--where at least there’s some human
spontaneity left in people; I’m going back to my father!’--And I went
and looked up the next steamer!”
She stopped. She stood before me, with the fire of her wild Southern
blood shining in her cheeks and in her eyes.
I sat waiting, and finally she went on, “I won’t repeat all his
protests. When he found that I was really going, he offered to take me
in the yacht, but I wouldn’t go in the yacht. I had got to be really
afraid of him--sometimes, you know, his obstinacy seems to be abnormal,
almost insane. So then he decided he would have to go in the steamer
with me to preserve appearances. I had a letter saying that papa was
not well, and he said that would serve for an excuse. He is going to
Castleman County, and after he has stayed a week or so, he is going off
on a hunting-trip, and not return.”
“And will he do it?”
“I don’t think he expects to do it at present. I feel sure he has the
idea of starting mamma to quoting the Bible to me, and dragging me down
with her tears. But I have done all I can to make clear to him that
it will make no difference. I told him I would not say a word about my
intentions at home until he had gone away, and that I expected the same
silence from him. But, of course--” She stopped abruptly, and after a
moment she asked: “What do you think of it, Mary?”
I leaned forward and took her two hands in mine. “Only,” I said, “that
I’m glad you fought it out alone! I knew it had to come--and I didn’t
want to have to help you to decide!”
10. She sat for a while absorbed in her own thoughts. Knowing her as I
did, I understood what intense emotions were seething within her, what a
terrific struggle her decision must have represented.
“Dear Friend,” she said, suddenly, “don’t think I haven’t seen his side
of the case. I try to tell myself that I dealt with him frankly from
the beginning. But then I ask was there ever a man I dealt with frankly?
There was coquetry in the very clothes I wore! And now that we are so
entangled, now that he loves me, what is my duty? I find I can’t respect
his love for me. A part of it is because my beauty fascinates him, but
more of it seems to me just wounded vanity. I was the only woman who
ever flouted him, and he has a kind of snobbery that made him think I
must be something remarkable because of it. I talked that all out with
him--yes, I’ve dragged him through all that humiliation. I wanted to
make him see that he didn’t really love me, that he only wanted to
conquer me, to force me to admire him and submit to him. I want to
be myself, and he wants to be himself--that has always been the issue
between us.”
“That is the issue in many unhappy marriages,” I said.
“I’ve done a lot of thinking in the last year,” she resumed--“about
things generally, I mean. We American women think we are so free. That
is because our husbands indulge us, give us money, and let us run
about. But when it comes to real freedom--freedom of intellect and of
character, English women are simply another kind of being from us. I met
a cabinet minister’s wife--he’s a Conservative in everything, and she’s
an ardent suffragist; she not merely gives money, she makes speeches and
has a public name. Yet they are friends, and have a happy home-life. Do
you suppose my husband would consider such an arrangement?”
“I thought he admired English ways,” I said.
“There was the Honorable Betty Annersley--the sister of a chum of his.
She was friendly with the militants, and I wanted to talk to her to
understand what such women thought. Yet my husband tried to stop me from
going to see her. And it’s the same way with everything I try to do,
that threatens to take me out of his power. He wanted me to accept
the authority of the doctors as to any possible danger from venereal
disease. When I got the books, and showed him what the doctors admitted
about the question--the narrow margin of safety they allowed, the
terrible chances they took--he was angry again.”
She stopped, seeing a question in my eyes. “I’ve been reading up on the
subject,” she explained. “I know it all now--the things I should have
known before I married.”
“How did you manage that?”
“I tried to get two of the doctors to give me something to read, but
they wouldn’t hear of it. I’d set myself crazy imagining things, it was
no sort of stuff for a woman’s mind. So in the end I took the bit in my
teeth. I found a medical book store, and I went in and said: ‘I am
an American physician, and I want to see the latest works on venereal
disease.’ So the clerk took me to the shelves, and I picked out a couple
of volumes.”
“You poor child!” I exclaimed.
“When Douglas found that I was reading these books he threatened to
burn them. I told him ‘There are more copies in the store, and I am
determined to be educated on this subject.’”
She paused. “How much like my own experience!” I thought.
“There were chapters on the subject of wives, how much they were not
told, and why this was. So very quickly I began to see around my own
experience. Douglas must have figured out that this would be so, for the
end of the matter was an admission.”
“You don’t mean he confessed to you!”
She smiled bitterly. “No,” she said. “He brought Dr. Perrin to London to
do it for him. Dr. Perrin said he had concluded I had best know that my
husband had had some symptoms of the disease. He, the doctor, wished to
tell me who was to blame for the attempt to deceive me. Douglas had been
willing to admit the truth, but all the doctors had forbidden it. I must
realise the fearful problem they had, and not blame them, and, above all
I must not blame my husband, who had been in their hands in the matter.”
“How stupid men are! As if that would excuse him!”
“I’m afraid I showed the little man how poor an impression he had
made--both for himself and for his patron. But I had suffered all there
was to suffer, and I was tired of pretending. I told him it would
have been far better for them if they had told me the truth at the
beginning.”
“Ah, yes!” I said. “That is what I tried to make them see; but all I got
for it was a sentence of deportation!”
11. When Sylvia’s train arrived at the station of her home town, the
whole family was waiting upon the platform for her, and a good part of
the town besides. The news that she had arrived in New York, and was
coming home on account of her father’s illness, had, of course, been
reproduced in all the local papers, with the result that the worthy
major had been deluged with telegrams and letters concerning his health.
Notwithstanding, he had insisted upon coming to the train to meet his
daughter. He was not going to be shut up in a sickroom to please all the
gossips of two hemispheres. In his best black broad-cloth, his broad,
black hat newly brushed, and his old-fashioned, square-toed shoes newly
shined, he paced up and down the station platform for half an hour, and
it was to his arms that Sylvia flew when she alighted from the train.
There was “Miss Margaret,” who had squeezed her large person and
fluttering draperies out of the family automobile, and was waiting to
shed tears over her favourite daughter; there was Celeste, radiant with
a wonderful piece of news which she alone was to impart to her sister;
there were Peggy and Maria, shot up suddenly into two amazingly-gawky
girls; there was Master Castleman Lysle, the only son of the house, with
his black-eyed and bad-tempered French governess. And finally there was
Aunt Varina, palpitating with various agitations, not daring to whisper
to anyone else the fears which this sudden home-coming inspired in her.
Bishop Chilton and his wife were away, but a delegation of cousins had
come; also Uncle Mandeville Castleman had sent a huge bunch of roses,
which were in the family automobile, and Uncle Barry Chilton had sent a
pair of wild turkeys, which were soon to be in the family.
Behind Sylvia stalked her cold and haughty husband, and behind him
tripped the wonderful nursemaid, with her wonderful blue streamers, and
her wonderful bundle of ruffles and lace. All the huge family had to
fall upon Sylvia and kiss and embrace her rapturously, and shake the
hand of the cold and haughty husband, and peer into the wonderful
bundle, and go into ecstasies over its contents. Rarely, indeed, did the
great ones of this earth condescend to spread so much of their emotional
life before the public gaze; and was it any wonder that the town crowded
about, and the proprieties were temporarily repealed?
It had never been published, but it was generally known throughout the
State that Sylvia’s child was blind, and it was whispered that this
portended something strange and awful. So there hung about the young
mother and the precious bundle an atmosphere of mystery and melancholy.
How had she taken her misfortune? How had she taken all the great events
that had befallen her--her progress through the courts and camps of
Europe? Would she still condescend to know her fellow-townsmen? Many
were the hearts that beat high as she bestowed her largess of smiles
and friendly words. There were even humble old negroes who went off
enraptured to tell the town that “Mi’ Sylvia” had actually shaken hands
with them. There was almost a cheer from the crowd as the string of
automobiles set out for Castleman Hall.
12. There was a grand banquet that evening, at which the turkeys entered
the family. Not in years had there been so many people crowded into the
big dining-room, nor so many servants treading upon each other’s toes in
the kitchen.
Such a din of chatter and laughter! Sylvia was her old radiant self, and
her husband was quite evidently charmed by the patriarchal scene. He
was affable, really genial, and won the hearts of everybody; he told
the good major, amid a hush which almost turned his words into a speech,
that he was able to understand how they of the South loved their
own section so passionately; there was about the life an intangible
something--a spell, an elevation of spirit, which set it quite apart
by itself. And since this was the thing which they of the South most
delighted to believe concerning themselves, they listened enraptured,
and set the speaker apart as a rare and discerning spirit.
Afterwards came the voice of Sylvia: “You must beware of Douglas, Papa;
he is an inveterate flatterer.” She laughed as she said it; and of those
present it was Aunt Varina alone who caught the ominous note, and saw
the bitter curl of her lips as she spoke. Aunt Varina and her niece
were the only persons there who knew Douglas van Tuiver well enough to
appreciate the irony of the term “inveterate flatterer.”
Sylvia realized at once that her husband was setting out upon a campaign
to win her family to his side. He rode about the major’s plantations,
absorbing information about the bollweevil. He rode back to the house,
and exchanged cigars, and listened to stories of the major’s boyhood
during the war. He went to call upon Bishop Chilton, and sat in his
study, with its walls of faded black volumes on theology. Van Tuiver
himself had had a Church of England tutor, and was a punctilious high
churchman; but he listened respectfully to arguments for a simpler
form of church organization, and took away a voluminous _exposé_ of
the fallacies of “Apostolic Succession.” And then came Aunt Nannie,
ambitious and alert as when she had helped the young millionaire to find
a wife; and the young millionaire made the suggestion that Aunt Nannie’s
third daughter should not fail to visit Sylvia at Newport.
There was no limit, apparently, to what he would do. He took Master
Castleman Lysle upon his knee, and let him drop a valuable watch upon
the floor. He got up early in the morning and went horse-back riding
with Peggy and Maria. He took Celeste automobiling, and helped by his
attentions to impress the cocksure young man with whom Celeste was in
love. He won “Miss Margaret” by these attentions to all her children,
and the patience with which he listened to accounts of the ailments
which had afflicted the precious ones at various periods of their lives.
To Sylvia, watching all these proceedings, it was as if he were binding
himself to her with so many knots.
She had come home with a longing to be quiet, to avoid seeing anyone.
But this could not be, she discovered. There was gossip about the
child’s blindness, and the significance thereof; and to have gone into
hiding would have meant an admission of the worst. The ladies of the
family had prepared a grand “reception,” at which all Castleman County
was to come and gaze upon the happy mother. And then there was the
monthly dance at the Country Club, where everybody would come, in the
hope of seeing the royal pair. To Sylvia it was as if her mother and
aunts were behind her every minute of the day, pushing her out into the
world. “Go on, go on! Show yourself! Do not let people begin to talk!”
13. She bore it for a couple of weeks; then she went to her cousin,
Harley Chilton. “Harley,” she said, “my husband is anxious to go on a
hunting-trip. Will you go with him?”
“When?” asked the boy.
“Right away; to-morrow or the next day.”
“I’m game,” said Harley.
After which she went to her husband. “Douglas, it is time for you to
go.”
He sat studying her face. “You still have that idea?” he said, at last.
“I still have it.”
“I was hoping that here, among your home-people, your sanity would
partially return.”
“I know what you have been hoping, Douglas. And I am sorry--but I am
quite unchanged.”
“Have we not been getting along happily here?” he demanded.
“No, I have not--I have been wretched. And I cannot have any peace until
you no longer haunt me. I am sorry for you, but I must be alone--and so
long as you are here the entertainments will continue.”
“We could make it clear that we did not care for entertainments. We
could find some quiet place near your people, where we could live in
peace.”
“Douglas,” she said, “I have spoken to Cousin Harley. He is ready to
go hunting with you. Please call him up and make arrangements to start
to-morrow. If you are still here the following day, I shall leave for
one of Uncle Mandeville’s plantations.”
There was a long silence. “Sylvia,” he said, at last, “how long do you
imagine this behaviour of yours can continue?”
“It will continue forever. My mind is made up. It is necessary that you
make up yours.”
Again he waited, while he made sure of his self-control. “You propose to
keep the baby with you?” he asked, at last.
“For the present, yes. The baby cannot get along without me.”
“And for the future?”
“We will make a fair arrangement as to that. Give me a little time to
get myself together, and then I will come and live somewhere near you in
New York, and I will arrange it so that you can see the child as often
as you please. I have no desire to take her from you--I only want to
take myself from you.”
“Sylvia,” he said, “have you realized all the unhappiness this course of
yours is going to bring to your people?”
“Oh, don’t begin that now!” she pleaded.
“I know,” he said, “how determined you are to punish me. But I should
think you would try to find some way to spare them.”
“Douglas,” she replied, “I know exactly what you have been doing. I have
watched your change of character since you came here. You may be able
to make my people so unhappy that I must be unhappy also. You see how
deeply I love them, how I yield everything for love of them. But let me
make it clear, I will not yield this. It was for their sake I went into
this marriage, but I have come to see that it was wrong, and no power on
earth can induce me to stay in it. My mind is made up--I will not live
with a man I do not love. I will not even pretend to do it. Now do you
understand me, Douglas?”
There was a silence, while she waited for some word from him. When none
came, she asked, “You will arrange to go to-morrow?”
He answered calmly, “I see no reason why I, your husband, should permit
you to pursue this insane course. You propose to leave me; and the
reason you give is one that would, if it were valid, break up two-thirds
of the homes in the country. Your own family will stand by me in my
effort to prevent your ruin.”
“What do you expect to do?” she asked in a suppressed voice.
“I have to assume that my wife is insane; and I shall look after her
till she comes to her senses.”
She sat watching him for a few moments, wondering at him. Then she said,
“You are willing to stay on here, day after day, pursuing me in the only
refuge I have. Well then, I shall not consider your feelings. I have a
work to do here--and I think that when I begin it, you will want to be
far away.”
“What do you mean?” he asked--and he looked at her as if she were really
a maniac.
“You see my sister Celeste is about to marry. That was the wonderful
news she had to tell me at the depot. It happens that I have known Roger
Peyton all my life, and know he has the reputation of being one of the
‘fastest’ boys in the town.”
“Well?” he asked.
“Just this, Douglas--I do not intend to leave my sister unprotected as
I was. I am going to tell her about Elaine. I am going to tell her
all that she needs to know. It is bound to mean arguments with the old
people, and in the end the whole family will be discussing the subject.
I feel sure you will not care to be here under such circumstances.”
“And may I ask when this begins?” he inquired, with intense bitterness
in his tone.
“Right away,” she said. “I have merely been waiting until you should
go.”
He said not a word, but she knew by the expression on his face that she
had carried her point at last. He turned and left the room; and that
was the last word she had with him, save for their formal parting in the
presence of the family.
14. Roger Peyton was the son and heir of one of the oldest families
in Castleman County. I had heard of this family before--in a wonderful
story that Sylvia told of the burning of “Rose Briar,” their stately
mansion, some years previously: how the neighbours had turned out to
extinguish the flames, and failing, had danced a last whirl in the
ball-room, while the fire roared in the stories overhead. The house had
since been rebuilt, more splendid than ever, and the prestige of
the family stood undiminished. One of the sons was an old “flame” of
Sylvia’s, and another was married to one of the Chilton girls. As for
Celeste, she had been angling for Roger the past year or two, and she
stood now at the apex of happiness.
Sylvia went to her father, to talk with him about the difficult subject
of venereal disease. The poor major had never expected to live to hear
such a discourse from a daughter of his; however, with the blind child
under his roof, he could not find words to stop her. “But, Sylvia,”
he protested, “what reason have you to suspect such a thing of Roger
Peyton?”
“I have the reason of his life. You know that he has the reputation of
being ‘fast’; you know that he drinks, you know that I once refused to
speak to him because he danced with me when he was drunk.”
“My child, all the men you know have sowed their wild oats.”
“Papa, you must not take advantage of me in such a discussion. I don’t
claim to know what sins may be included in the phrase ‘wild oats.’ Let
us speak frankly--can you say that you think it unlikely that Roger
Peyton has been unchaste?”
The major hesitated and coughed; finally he said: “The boy drinks,
Sylvia; further than that I have no knowledge.”
“The medical books tell me that the use of alcohol tends to break down
self-control, and to make continence impossible. And if that be true,
you must admit that we have a right to ask assurances. What do you
suppose that Roger and his crowd are doing when they go roistering about
the streets at night? What do they do when they go off to Mardi Gras?
Or at college--you know that Cousin Clive had to get him out of trouble
several times. Go and ask Clive if Roger has ever been exposed to the
possibility of these diseases.”
“My child,” said the major, “Clive would not feel he had the right to
tell me such things about his friend.”
“Not even when the friend wants to marry his cousin?”
“But such questions are not asked, my daughter.”
“Papa, I have thought this matter out carefully, and I hava something
definite to propose to you. I have no idea of stopping with what Clive
Chilton may or may not see fit to tell about his chum. I want _you_ to
go to Roger.”
Major Castleman’s face wore a blank stare.
“If he’s going to marry your daughter, you have the right to ask about
his past. What I want you to tell him is that you will get the name of a
reputable specialist in these diseases, and that before he can have your
daughter he must present you with a letter from this man, to the effect
that he is fit to marry.”
The poor major was all but speechless. “My child, who ever heard of such
a proposition?”
“I don’t know that any one ever did, papa. But it seems to me time they
should begin to hear of it; and I don’t see who can have a better right
to take the first step than you and I, who have paid such a dreadful
price for our neglect.”
Sylvia had been prepared for opposition--the instinctive opposition
which men manifest to having this embarrassing subject dragged out into
the light of day. Even men who have been chaste themselves--good fathers
of families like the major--cannot be unaware of the complications
incidental to frightening their women-folk, and setting up an impossibly
high standard in sons-in-law. But Sylvia stood by her guns; at last she
brought her father to his knees by the threat that if he could not bring
himself to talk with Roger Peyton, she, Sylvia Castleman, would do it.
15. The young suitor came by appointment the next day, and had a session
with the Major in his office. After he had gone, Sylvia went to her
father and found him pacing the floor, with an extinct cigar between his
lips, and several other ruined cigars lying on the hearth.
“You asked him, papa?”
“I did, Sylvia.”
“And what did he say?”
“Why, daughter----” The major flung his cigar from him with desperate
energy. “It was most embarrassing!” he exclaimed--“most painful!” His
pale old face was crimson with blushes.
“Go on, papa,” said Sylvia, gentle but firm.
“The poor boy--naturally, Sylvia, he could not but feel hurt that I
should think it necessary to ask such questions. Such things are not
done, my child. It seemed to him that I must look upon him as--well, as
much worse than other young fellows----”
The old man stopped, and began to walk restlessly up and down. “Yes,
papa,” said Sylvia. “What else?”
“Well, he said it seemed to him that such a matter might have been left
to the honour of a man whom I was willing to think of as a son-in-law.
And you see, my child, what an embarrassing position I was in; I could
not give him any hint as to my reason for being anxious about these
matters--anything, you understand, that might be to the discredit of
your husband.”
“Go on, papa.”
“Well, I gave him a fatherly talking to about his way of life.”
“Did you ask him the definite question as to his health?”
“No, Sylvia.”
“Did he tell you anything definite?”
“No.”
“Then you didn’t do what you had set out to do!”
“Yes, I did. I told him that he must see a doctor.”
“You made quite clear to him what you wanted?”
“Yes, I did--really, I did.”
“And what did he say?” She went to him and took his arm and led him to a
couch. “Come, papa, let us get to the facts. You must tell me.” They sat
down, and the major sighed, lit a fresh cigar, rolled it about in his
fingers until it was ruined, and then flung it away.
“Boys don’t talk freely to older men,” he said. “They really never do.
You may doubt this----”
“What did he _say,_ papa?”
“Why, he didn’t know what to say. He didn’t really say anything.” And
here the major came to a complete halt.
His daughter, after studying his face for a minute, remarked, “In plain
words, papa, you think he has something to hide, and he may not be able
to give you the evidence you asked?”
The other was silent.
“You fear that is the situation, but you are trying not to believe it.”
As he still said nothing, Sylvia whispered, “Poor Celeste!”
Suddenly she put her hands upon his shoulders, and looked into his eye.
“Papa, can’t you see what that means--that Celeste ought to have been
told these things long ago?”
“What good would that have done?” he asked, in bewilderment.
“She could have known what kind of man she was choosing; and she might
be spared the dreadful unhappiness that is before her now.”
“Sylvia! Sylvia!” protested the other. “Surely such things cannot be
discussed with innocent young girls!”
“So long as we refuse to do it, we are simply entering into a conspiracy
with the man of loose life, so that he may escape the worst penalty of
his evil-doing. Take the boys in our own set--why is it they feel safe
in running off to the big cities and ‘sowing their wild oats’--even
sowing them in the obscure parts of their own town? Is it not because
they know that their sisters and girl friends are ignorant and
helpless; so that when they are ready to pick a wife, they will be at no
disadvantage? Here is Celeste; she knows that Roger has been ‘wild,’ but
no one has hinted to her what that means; she thinks of things that
are picturesque--that he’s high-spirited, and brave, and free with his
money.”
“But, my daughter,” protested the major, “such knowledge would have a
terrible effect upon young girls!” He rose and began to pace the floor
again. “Daughter, you are letting yourself run wild! The sweetness, the
virginal innocence of young and pure women--if you take that from
them, there’d be nothing left to keep men from falling to the level of
brutes!”
“Papa,” said Sylvia, “all that sounds well, but it has no meaning. I
have been robbed of my ‘innocence,’ and I know that it has not debased
me. It has only fitted me to deal with the realities of life. And it
will do the same for any girl who is taught by earnest and reverent
people. Now, as it is, we have to tell Celeste, but we tell her too
late.”
“But we _won’t_ have to tell her!” cried the major.
“Dear papa, please explain how we can avoid telling her.”
“I will inform her that she must give the young man up. She is a good
and dutiful daughter----”
“Yes,” replied Sylvia, “but suppose on this one occasion she were to
fail to be good and dutiful? Suppose the next day you learn that she had
run away and married Roger--what would you do about it then?”
16. That evening Roger was to take his _fiancée_ to one of the young
people’s dances. And there was Celeste, in a flaming red dress, with
a great bunch of flaming roses; she could wear these colours, with her
brilliant black hair and gorgeous complexion. Roger was fair, with a
frank, boyish face, and they made a pretty couple; but that evening
Roger did not come. Sylvia helped to dress her sister, and then watched
her wandering restlessly about the hall, while the hour came and went.
Later in the evening Major Castleman called up the Peyton home. The boy
was not there, and no one seemed to know where he was.
Nor the next day did there come any explanation. At the Peytons it was
still declared that no one had heard from Roger, and for another day
the mystery continued, to Celeste’s distress and mortification. At
last, from Clive Chilton, Sylvia managed to extract the truth. Roger
was drunk--crazy drunk, and had been taken off by some of the boys to be
straightened out.
Of course this rumour soon got to the rest of the family and they had
to tell Celeste, because she was frantic with anxiety. There were grave
consultations among the Castleman ladies. It was a wanton affront to his
_fiancée_ that the boy had committed, and something must be done about
it quickly. Then came the news that Roger had escaped from his warders,
and got drunker than ever; he had been out at night, smashing the street
lamps, and it had required extreme self-control on the part of the town
police force to avoid complications.
“Miss Margaret” went to her young daughter, and in a tear-flooded
scene informed her of the opinion of the family, that her self-respect
required the breaking of the engagement. Celeste went into hysterics.
She would _not_ have her happiness ruined for life! Roger was “wild,”
but so were all the other boys--and he would atone for his recklessness.
She had the idea that if only she could get hold of him, she could
recall him to his senses; the more her mother was scandalised by this
proposal, the more frantically Celeste wept. She shut herself up in
her room, refusing to appear at meals, and spending her time pacing the
floor and wringing her hands.
The family had been through all this with their eldest daughter several
years before, but they had not learned to handle it any better. The
whole household was in a state of distraction, and the conditions grew
worse day by day, as bulletins came in concerning the young man. He
seemed to have gone actually insane. He was not to be restrained even by
his own father, and if the unfortunate policemen could be believed, he
had violently attacked them. Apparently he was trying to break down the
unwritten law that the sons of the “best families” are not arrested.
Poor Celeste, with pale, tear-drenched face, sent for her elder sister,
to make one last appeal. Could Sylvia not somehow get hold of Roger and
bring him to his senses? Could she not interview some of the other boys,
and find out what he meant by his conduct?
So Sylvia went to her cousin Clive, and had a talk with him--assuredly
the most remarkable talk that that young man had ever had in his life.
She told him that she wanted to know the truth about Roger Peyton,
and after a cross-examination that would have made the reputation of a
criminal lawyer, she got what she wanted. All the young men in town, it
seemed, knew the true state of affairs, and were in a panic concerning
it; that Major Castleman had sent for Roger and informed him that
he could not marry his daughter, until he produced a certain kind of
medical certificate. No, he couldn’t produce it! Was there a fellow in
town who could produce it? What was there for him to do but to get drunk
and stay drunk, until Celeste had cast him off?
It was Clive’s turn then to do some plain speaking. “Look here, Sylvia,”
he said, “since you have made me talk about this----”
“Yes, Clive?”
“Do you know what people are saying--I mean the reason the Major made
this proposition to Roger?”
She answered, in a quiet voice: “I suppose, Clive, it has something to
do with Elaine.”
“Yes, exactly!” exclaimed Clive. “They say--” But then he stopped. He
could not repeat it. “Surely you don’t want that kind of talk, Sylvia?”
“Naturally, Clive, I’d prefer to escape that kind of talk, but my fear
of it will not make me neglect the protection of my sister.”
“But Sylvia,” cried the boy, “you don’t understand about this! A woman
_can’t_ understand about these things----”
“You are mistaken, my dear cousin,” said Sylvia--and her voice was firm
and decisive. “I _do_ understand.”
“All right!” cried Clive, with sudden exasperation. “But let me tell
you this--Celeste is going to have a hard time getting any other man to
propose to her!”
“You mean, Clive, because so many of them are----?”
“Yes, if you must put it that way,” he said.
There was a pause, then Sylvia went on: “Let us discuss the practical
problem, Clive. Don’t you think it would have been better if Roger,
instead of going off and getting drunk, had set about getting himself
cured?”
The other looked at her, with evident surprise. “You mean in that case
Celeste might marry him?”
“You say the boys are all alike, Clive; and we can’t turn our girls into
nuns. Why didn’t some of you fellows point that out to Roger?”
“The truth is,” said Clive, “we tried to.” There was a little more
cordiality in his manner, since Sylvia had shown such a unexpected
amount of intelligence.
“Well?” she asked. “What then?”
“Why, he wouldn’t listen to anything.”
“You mean--because he was drunk?”
“No, we had him nearly sober. But you see--” And Clive paused for
a moment, painfully embarrassed. “The truth is, Roger had been to a
doctor, and been told it might take him a year or two to get cured.”
“Clive!” she cried. “Clive! And you mean that in the face of that, he
proposed to go on and marry?”
“Well, Sylvia, you see--” And the young man hesitated still longer. He
was crimson with embarrassment, and suddenly he blurted out: “The truth
is, the doctor told him to marry. That was the only way he’d ever get
cured.”
Sylvia was almost speechless. “Oh! Oh!” she cried, “I can’t believe
you!”
“That’s what the doctors tell you, Sylvia. You don’t understand--it’s
just as I told you, a woman can’t understand. It’s a question of a man’s
nature----”
“But Clive--what about the wife and her health? Has the wife no rights
whatever?”
“The truth is, Sylvia, people don’t take this disease with such
desperate seriousness. You understand, it isn’t the one that everybody
knows is dangerous. It doesn’t do any real harm----”
“Look at Elaine! Don’t you call that real harm?”
“Yes, but that doesn’t happen often, and they say there are ways it can
be prevented. Anyway, fellows just can’t help it! God knows we’d help it
if we could.”
Sylvia thought for a moment, and then came back to the immediate
question. “It’s evident what Roger could do in this case. He is young,
and Celeste is still younger. They might wait a couple of years and
Roger might take care of himself, and in time it might be properly
arranged.”
But Clive did not seem too warm to the proposition, and Sylvia, who knew
Roger Peyton, was not long in making out the reason. “You mean you don’t
think he has character enough to keep straight for a year or two?”
“To tell you the honest truth, we talked it out with him, and he
wouldn’t make any promises.”
To which Sylvia answered: “Very well, Clive--that settles it. You can
help me find some man for Celeste who loves her a little more than
that!”
17. That afternoon came Aunt Nannie, the Bishop’s wife, in shining
chestnut-coloured silk to match a pair of shining chestnut-coloured
horses. Other people, it appeared, had been making inquiries into Roger
Peyton’s story, and other people besides Clive Chilton had been telling
the truth. Aunt Nannie gathered the ladies of the family in a hurried
conference, and Sylvia was summoned to appear before it--quite as in the
days of her affair with Frank Shirley.
“Miss Margaret” and Aunt Varina were solemn and frightened, as of old;
and, as of old, Aunt Nannie did the talking. “Sylvia, do you know what
people are saying about you?”
“Yes, Aunt Nannie” said Sylvia.
“Oh, you do know?”
“Yes, of course. And I knew in advance that they would say it.”
Something about the seraphic face of Sylvia, chastened by terrible
suffering, must have suggested to Mrs. Chilton the idea of caution.
“Have you thought of the humiliation this must inflict upon your
relatives?”
“I have found, Aunt Nannie,” said Sylvia, “that there are worse
afflictions than being talked about.”
“I am not sure,” declared the other, “that anything could be worse than
to be the object of the kind of gossip that is now seething around
our family. It has been the tradition of our people to bear their
afflictions in silence.”
“In this case, Aunt Nannie, it is obvious that silence would have meant
more afflictions, many more. I have thought of my sister--and of all the
other girls in our family, who may be led to sacrifice by the ambitions
of their relatives.” Sylvia paused a moment, so that her words might
have effect.
Said the bishop’s wife: “Sylvia, we cannot undertake to save the world
from the results of its sins. God has his own ways of punishing men.”
“Perhaps so, but surely God does not wish the punishment to fall upon
innocent young girls. For instance, Aunt Nannie, think of your own
daughters----”
“My daughters!” broke out Mrs. Chilton. And then, mastering her
excitement: “At least, you will permit me to look after my own
children.”
“I noticed, my dear aunt, that Lucy May turned colour when Tom Aldrich
came into the room last night. Have you noticed anything?”
“Yes--what of it?”
“It means that Lucy May is falling in love with Tom.”
“Why should she not? I certainly consider him an eligible man.”
“And yet you know, Aunt Nannie, that he is one of Roger Peyton’s set.
You know that he goes about town getting drunk with the gayest of them,
and you let Lucy May go on and fall in love with him! You have taken no
steps to find out about him--you have not warned your daughter--”
Mrs. Chilton was crimson with agitation. “Warned my daughter! Who ever
heard of such a thing?”
Said Sylvia, quietly: “I can believe that you never heard of it--but you
will hear soon. The other day I had a talk with Lucy May--”
“Sylvia Castleman!” And then it seemed Mrs. Chilton reminded herself
that she was dealing with a dangerous lunatic. “Sylvia,” she said, in a
suppressed voice, “you mean to tell me that you have been poisoning my
young daughter’s mind--”
“You have brought her up well,” said Sylvia, as her aunt stopped for
lack of words. “She did not want to listen to me. She said that young
girls ought not to know about such matters. But I pointed out Elaine,
and then she changed her mind--just as you will have to change yours in
the end, Aunt Nannie.”
Mrs. Chilton sat glaring at her niece, her bosom heaving. Then suddenly
she turned her indignant eyes upon Mrs. Castleman. “Margaret, cannot you
stop this shocking business? I demand that the tongues of gossip shall
no longer clatter around the family of which I am a member! My husband
is the bishop of this diocese, and if our ancient and untarnished name
is of no importance to Sylvia van Tuiver, then, perhaps the dignity and
authority of the church may have some weight----”
“Aunt Nannie,” interrupted Sylvia, “it will do no good to drag Uncle
Basil into this matter. I fear you will have to face the fact that from
this time on your authority in our family is to be diminished. You had
more to do than any other person with driving me into the marriage that
has wrecked my life, and now you want to go on and do the same thing for
my sister and for your own daughters--to marry them with no thought of
anything save the social position of the man. And in the same way you
are saving up your sons to find rich girls. You know that you kept
Clive from marrying a poor girl in this town a couple of years ago--and
meantime it seems to be nothing to you that he’s going with men like
Roger Peyton and Tom Aldrich, learning all the vices the women in the
brothels have to teach him----”
Poor “Miss Margaret” had several times made futile efforts to check
her daughter’s outburst. Now she and Aunt Varina started up at the same
time. “Sylvia! Sylvia! You must not talk like that to your aunt!”
And Sylvia turned and gazed at them with her sad eyes. “From now on,”
she said, “that is the way I am going to talk. You are a lot of ignorant
children. I was one too, but now I know. And I say to you: Look at
Elaine! Look at my little one, and see what the worship of Mammon has
done to one of the daughters of your family!”
18. After this, Sylvia had her people reduced to a state of terror. She
was an avenging angel, sent by the Lord to punish them for their sins.
How could one rebuke the unconventionality of an avenging angel? On the
other hand, of course, one could not help being in agony, and letting
the angel see it in one’s face. Outside, there were the tongues of
gossip clattering, as Aunt Nannie had said; quite literally everyone
in Castleman County was talking about the blindness of Mrs. Douglas van
Tuiver’s baby, and how, because of it, the mother was setting out on
a campaign to destroy the modesty of the State. The excitement, the
curiosity, the obscene delight of the world came rolling back into
Castleman Hall in great waves, that picked up the unfortunate inmates
and buffeted them about.
Family consultations were restricted, because it was impossible for
the ladies of the family to talk to the gentlemen about these horrible
things; but the ladies talked to the ladies, and the gentlemen talked to
the gentlemen, and each came separately to Sylvia with their distress.
Poor, helpless “Miss Margaret” would come wringing her hands, and
looking as if she had buried all her children. “Sylvia! Sylvia! Do you
realise that you are being DISCUSSED?” That was the worst calamity
that could befal a woman in Castleman County--it summed up all
possible calamities that could befal her--to be “discussed.” “They were
discussing you once when you wanted to marry Frank Shirley! And now--oh,
now they will never stop discussing you!”
Then would come the dear major. He loved his eldest daughter as he loved
nothing else in the world, and he was a just man at heart. He could not
meet her arguments--yes, she was right, she was right. But then he would
go away, and the waves of scandal and shame would come rolling.
“My child,” he pleaded, “have you thought what this thing is doing to
your husband? Do you realise that while you talk about protecting
other people, you are putting upon Douglas a brand that will follow him
through life?”
Uncle Mandeville came up from New Orleans to see his favourite niece;
and the wave smote him as he alighted from the train, and he became so
much excited that he went to the club and got drunk, and then could not
see his niece, but had to be carried off upstairs and given forcible
hypodermics. Cousin Clive told Sylvia about it afterwards--how Uncle
Mandeville refused to believe the truth, and swore that he would shoot
some of these fellows if they didn’t stop talking about his niece. Said
Clive, with a grim laugh: “I told him: ‘If Sylvia had her way, you’d
shoot a good part of the men in the town.’” He answered: “Well, by God,
I’ll do it--it would serve the scoundrels right!” And he tried to get
out of bed and get his pants and his pistols--so that in the end it was
necessary to telephone for the major, and then for Barry Chilton and two
of his gigantic sons from their plantation.
Sylvia had her way, and talked things out with the agonised Celeste.
And the next day came Aunt Varina, hardly able to contain herself.
“Oh, Sylvia, such a horrible thing! To hear such words coming from your
little sister’s lips--like the toads and snakes in the fairy story! To
think of these ideas festering in a young girl’s brain!” And then again:
“Sylvia, your sister declares she will never go to a party again!
You are teaching her to hate men! You will make her a STRONG-MINDED
woman!”--that was another phrase they had summing up a whole universe
of horrors. Sylvia could not recall a time when she had not heard that
warning. “Be careful, dear, when you express an opinion, always end
it with a question: ‘Don’t you think so?’ or something like that,
otherwise, men may get the idea that you are ‘STRONG-MINDED’!”
Sylvia, in her girlhood, had heard vague hints and rumours which now she
was able to interpret in the light of her experience. In her courtship
days she had met a man who always wore gloves, even in the hottest
weather, and she had heard that this was because of some affliction
of the skin. Now, talking with the young matrons of her own set, she
learned that this man had married, and had since had to take to a
wheel-chair, while his wife had borne a child with a monstrous deformed
head, and had died of the ordeal and the shock.
Oh, the stories that one uncovered--right in one’s own town, among one’s
own set--like foul sewers underneath the pavements! The succession of
deceased generations, of imbeciles, epileptics, paralytics! The innocent
children born to a life-time of torment; the women hiding their secret
agonies from the world! Sometimes women went all through life without
knowing the truth about themselves. There was poor Mrs. Valens, for
example, who reclined all day upon the gallery of one of the most
beautiful homes in the county, and showed her friends the palms of her
hands, all covered with callouses and scales, exclaiming: “What in
the world do you suppose can be the matter with me?” She had been a
beautiful woman, a “belle” of “Miss Margaret’s” day; she had married a
man who was rich and handsome and witty--and a rake. Now he was drunk
all the time, and two of his children had died in hospital, and another
had arms that came out of joint, and had to be put in plaster of Paris
for months at a time. His wife, the one-time darling of society, would
lie on her couch and read the Book of Job until she knew it by heart.
And could you believe it, when Sylvia came home, ablaze with excitement
over the story, she found that the only thing that her relatives
were able to see in it was the Book of Job! Under the burden of her
afflictions the woman had become devout; and how could anyone fail to
see in this the deep purposes of Providence revealed? “Verily,” said
“Miss Margaret,” “‘whom the Lord loveth, He chasteneth.’ We are told in
the Lord’s Word that ‘the sins of the fathers shall be visited upon
the children, even unto the third and fourth generations,’ and do you
suppose the Lord would have told us that, if He had not known there
would be such children?”
19. I cannot pass over this part of my story without bringing forward
Mrs. Armistead, the town cynic, who constituted herself one of Sylvia’s
sources of information in the crisis. Mrs. Sallie Ann Armistead was
the mother of two boys with whom Sylvia, as a child, had insisted upon
playing, in spite of the protests of the family. “Wha’ fo’ you go wi’
dem Armistead chillun, Mi’ Sylvia?” would cry Aunt Mandy, the cook.
“Doan’ you know they granddaddy done pick cottin in de fiel’ ‘long o’
me?” But while her father was picking cotton, Sallie Ann had looked
after her complexion and her figure, and had married a rising young
merchant. Now he was the wealthy proprietor of a chain of “nigger
stores,” and his wife was the possessor of the most dreaded tongue in
Castleman County.
She was a person who, if she had been born a duchess, would have made
a reputation in history; the one woman in the county who had a mind
and was not afraid to have it known. She used all the tricks of a
duchess--lorgnettes, for example, with which she stared people into
a state of fright. She did not dare try anything like that on the
Castlemans, of course, but woe to the little people who crossed her
path! She had an eye that sought out every human weakness, and such a
wit that even her victims were fascinated. One of the legends about her
told how her dearest foe, a dashing young matron, had died, and all the
friends had gathered with their floral tributes. Sallie Ann went in to
review the remains, and when she came out a sentimental voice inquired:
“And how does our poor Ruth look?”
“Oh,” was the answer, “as old and grey as ever!”
Now Mrs. Armistead stopped Sylvia in the street: “My dear, how goes the
eugenics campaign?”
And while Sylvia gazed, dumbfounded, the other went on as if she were
chatting about the weather: “You can’t realise what a stir you are
making in our little frog pond. Come, see me, and let me tell you the
gossip! Do you know you’ve enriched our vocabulary?”
“I have made someone look up the meaning of eugenics, at least,”
answered Sylvia--having got herself together in haste.
“Oh, not only that, my dear. You have made a new medical term--the ‘van
Tuiver disease.’ Isn’t that interesting?”
For a moment Sylvia shrivelled before this flame from hell. But then,
being the only person who had ever been able to chain this devil, she
said: “Indeed? I hope that with so fashionable a name the disease does
not become an epidemic!”
Mrs. Armistead gazed at her, and then, in a burst of enthusiasm, she
exclaimed: “Sylvia Castleman, I have always insisted that one of the
most interesting women in the world was spoiled by the taint of goodness
in you.”
She took Sylvia to her bosom, as it were. “Let us sit on the fence and
enjoy this spectacle! My dear, you can have no idea what an uproar you
are making! The young married women gather in their boudoirs and whisper
ghastly secrets to each other; some of them are sure they have it, and
some of them say they can trust their husbands--as if any man could be
trusted as far as you can throw a bull by the horns! Did you hear
about poor Mrs. Pattie Peyton, she has the measles, but she sent for a
specialist, and vowed she had something else--she had read about it, and
knew all the symptoms, and insisted on having elaborate blood-tests! And
little Mrs. Stanley Pendleton has left her husband, and everybody says
that’s the reason. The men are simply shivering in their boots--they
steal into the doctor’s offices by the back-doors, and a whole car-load
of the boys have been shipped off to Hot Springs to be boiled--” And
so on, while Mrs. Armistead revelled in the sensation of strolling down
Main Street with Mrs. Douglas van Tuiver!
Then Sylvia would go home, and get the newest reactions of the family
to these horrors. Aunt Nannie, it seemed, made the discovery that Basil,
junr., her fifth son, was carrying on an intrigue with a mulatto girl
in the town; and she forbade him to go to Castleman Hall, for fear lest
Sylvia should worm the secret out of him; also she shipped Lucy May off
to visit a friend, and came and tried to persuade Mrs. Chilton to do
the same with Peggy and Maria, lest Sylvia should somehow corrupt these
children.
The bishop came, having been ordered to preach religion to his wayward
niece. Poor dear Uncle Basil--he had tried preaching religion to Sylvia
many years ago, and never could do it because he loved her so well that
with all his Seventeenth Century theology he could not deny her chance
of salvation. Now the first sight that met his eyes when he came to
see her was his little blind grand-niece. And also he had in his secret
heart the knowledge that he, a rich and gay young planter before he
became converted to Methodism, had played with the fire of vice, and
been badly burned. So Sylvia did not find him at all the Voice of
Authority, but just a poor, hen-pecked, unhappy husband of a tyrannous
Castleman woman.
The next thing was that “Miss Margaret” took up the notion that a time
such as this was not one for Sylvia’s husband to be away from her.
What if people were to say that they had separated? There were family
consultations, and in the midst of them there came word that van Tuiver
was called North upon business. When the family delegations came to
Sylvia, to insist that she go with him, the answer they got was that
if they could not let her stay quietly at home without asking her any
questions, she would go off to New York and live with a divorced woman
Socialist!
“Of course, they gave up,” she wrote me. “And half an hour ago poor dear
mamma came to my room and said: ‘Sylvia, dear, we will let you do what
you want, but won’t you please do one small favour for me?’ I got ready
for trouble, and asked what she wanted. Her answer was: ‘Won’t you go
with Celeste to the Young Matrons’ Cotillion tomorrow night, so that
people won’t think there’s anything the matter?’”
20. Roger Peyton had gone off to Hot Springs, and Douglas van Tuiver was
in New York; so little by little the storms about Castleman Hall began
to abate in violence. Sylvia was absorbed with her baby, and beginning
to fit her life into that of her people. She found many ways in which
she could serve them--entertaining Uncle Mandeville to keep him sober;
checking the extravagrance of Celeste; nursing Castleman Lysle through
green apple convulsions. That was to be her life for the future, she
told herself, and she was making herself really happy in it--when
suddenly, like a bolt from the blue, came an event that swept her poor
little plans into chaos.
It was an afternoon in March, the sun was shining brightly and the
Southern springtime was in full tide, and Sylvia had had the old family
carriage made ready, with two of the oldest and gentlest family horses,
and took the girls upon a shopping expedition to town. In the front seat
sat Celeste, driving, with two of her friends, and in the rear seat was
Sylvia, with Peggy and Maria. When an assemblage of allurements such as
this stopped on the streets of the town, the young men would come out
of the banks and the offices and gather round to chat. There would be
a halt before an ice-cream parlour, and a big tray of ices would be
brought out, and the girls would sit in the carriage and eat, and the
boys would stand on the curb and eat--undismayed by the fact that
they had welcomed half a dozen such parties during the afternoon. The
statistics proved that this was a thriving town, with rapidly increasing
business, but there was never so much business as to interfere with
gallantries like these.
Sylvia enjoyed the scene; it took her back to happy days, before black
care had taken his seat behind her. She sat in a kind of dream, only
half hearing the merriment of the young people, and only half tasting
her ice. How she loved this old town, with its streets deep in black
spring mud, its mud-plastered “buck-boards” and saddle horses hitched
at every telegraph pole! Its banks and stores and law offices seemed
shabbier after one had made the “grand tour,” but they were none the
less dear to her for that. She would spend the rest of her days in
Castleman County, and the sunshine and peace would gradually enfold her.
Such were her thoughts when the unforeseen event befel. A man on
horse-back rode down a side-street, crossing Main Street a little way in
front of her; a man dressed in khaki, with a khaki riding hat pulled low
over his face. He rode rapidly--appearing and vanishing, so that Sylvia
scarcely saw him--really did not see him with her conscious mind at all.
Her thoughts were still busy with dreams, and the clatter of boys and
girls; but deep within her had begun a tumult--a trembling, a pounding
of the heart, a clamouring under the floors of her consciousness.
And slowly this excitement mounted. What was the matter, what had
happened? A man had ridden by, but why should a man--. Surely it could
not have been--no. There were hundreds of men in Castleman County who
wore khaki and rode horse-back, and had sturdy, thick-set figures! But
then, how could she make a mistake? How could her instinct have betrayed
her so? It was that same view of him as he sat on a horse that had first
thrilled her during the hunting party years ago!
He had gone West, and had said that he would never return. He had not
been heard from in years. What an amazing thing, that a mere glimpse of
a man who looked and dressed and rode like him should be able to set her
whole being into such a panic! How futile became her dreams of peace!
She heard the sound of a vehicle close beside her carriage, and turned
and found herself looking into the sharp eyes of Mrs. Armistead. It
happened that Sylvia was on the side away from the curb, and there was
no one talking to her; so Mrs. Armistead ran her electric alongside, and
had the stirring occasion to herself. Sylvia looked into her face, so
full of malice, and knew two things in a flash: First, it really had
been Frank Shirley riding by; and second, Mrs. Armistead had seen him!
“Another candidate for your eugenics class!” said the lady.
Sylvia glanced at the young people and made sure they were paying no
attention. She might have made some remark that would have brought
them into the conversation, and delivered her from the torments of this
devil. But no, she had never quailed from Mrs. Armistead in her life,
and she would not now give her the satisfaction of driving off to tell
the town that Sylvia van Tuiver had seen Frank Shirley, and had been
overcome by it, and had taken refuge behind the skirts of her little
sisters!
“You can see I have my carriage full of pupils” she said, smilingly.
“How happy it must make you, Sylvia--coming home and meeting all your
old friends! It must set you trembling with ecstasy--angels singing in
the sky above you--little golden bells ringing all over you!”
Sylvia recognised these phrases. They were part of an effort she had
made to describe the raptures of young love to her bosom friend, Harriet
Atkinson. And so Harriet had passed them on to the town! And they had
been cherished all these years.
She could not afford to recognise these illegitimate children of
romance. “Mrs. Armistead,” she said, “I had no idea you had so much
poetry in you!”
“I am simply improvising, my dear--upon the colour in your cheeks at
present!”
There was no way save to be bold. “You couldn’t expect me not to be
excited, Mrs. Armistead. You see, I had no idea he had come back from
the West.”
“They say he left a wife there.” remarked the lady, innocently.
“Ah!” said Sylvia. “Then he will not be staying long, presumably.”
There was a pause; all at once Mrs. Armistead’s voice became gentle
and sympathetic. “Sylvia,” she said, “don’t imagine that I fail to
appreciate what is going on in your heart. I know a true romance when I
see one. If only you could have known in those days what you know now,
there might have been one beautiful love story that did not end as a
tragedy.”
You would have thought the lady’s better self had suddenly been touched.
But Sylvia knew her; too many times she had seen this huntress trying to
lure a victim out of his refuge.
“Yes, Mrs. Armistead,” she said, gently. “But I have the consolation at
least of being a martyr to science.”
“In what way?”
“Have you forgotten the new medical term that I have given to the
world?”
And Mrs. Armistead looked at her for a moment aghast. “My God, Sylvia!”
she whispered; and then--an honest tribute: “You certainly can take care
of yourself!”
“Yes,” said Sylvia. “Tell that to my other friends in town.” And so, at
last, Mrs. Armistead started her machine, and this battle of hell-cats
came to an end.
21. Sylvia rode home in a daze, answering without hearing the prattle of
the children. She was appalled at the emotions that possessed her--that
the sight of Frank Shirley riding down the street could have affected
her so! She forgot Mrs. Armistead, she forgot the whole world, in her
dismay over her own state of mind. Having dismissed Frank from her life
and her thoughts forever, it seemed to her preposterous that she should
be at the mercy of such an excitement.
She found herself wondering about her family. Did they know that Frank
Shirley had returned? Would they have failed to mention it to her? For
a moment she told herself it would not have occurred to them she could
have any interest in the subject. But no--they were not so _naive_--the
Castleman women--as their sense of propriety made them pretend to be!
But how stupid of them not to give her warning! Suppose she had happened
to meet Frank face to face, and in the presence of others! She must
certainly have betrayed her excitement; and just at this time, when the
world had the Castleman family under the microscope!
She told herself that she would avoid such difficulty in future; she
would stay at home until Frank had gone away. If he had a wife in
the West, presumably he had merely come for a visit to his mother and
sisters. And then Sylvia found herself in an argument with herself. What
possible difference could it make that Frank Shirley had a wife? So long
as she, Sylvia, had a husband, what else mattered? Yet she could not
deny it--it brought her a separate and additional pang that Frank
Shirley should have married. What sort of wife could he have found--he,
a stranger in the far West? And why had he not brought his wife home to
his people?
When she stepped out of the carriage, it was with her mind made up that
she would stay at home until all danger was past. But the next afternoon
a neighbour called up to ask Sylvia and Celeste to come and play cards
in the evening. It was not a party, Mrs. Witherspoon explained to “Miss
Margaret,” who answered the ‘phone; just a few friends and a good time,
and she did so hope that Sylvia was not going to refuse. The mere
hint of the fear that Sylvia might refuse was enough to excite Mrs.
Castleman. Why should Sylvia refuse? So she accepted the invitation, and
then came to plead with her daughter--for Celeste’s sake, and for the
sake of all her family, so that the world might see that she was not
crushed by misfortune!
There were reasons why the invitation was a difficult one to decline.
Mrs. Virginia Witherspoon was the daughter of a Confederate general
whose name you read in every history-book; and she had a famous old
home in the country which was falling about her ears--her husband being
seldom sober enough to know what was happening. She had also three
blossoming daughters, whom she must manage to get out of the home before
the plastering of the drawing-room fell upon the heads of their suitors;
so that the ardour of her husband-hunting was one of the jokes of the
State. Naturally, under such circumstances, the Witherspoons had to
be treated with consideration by the Castlemans. One might snub rich
Yankees, and chasten the suddenly-prosperous; but a family with an
ancient house in ruins, and with faded uniforms and battle-scarred
sabres in the cedar-chests in its attic--such a family can with
difficulty overdraw its social bank account.
Dolly Witherspoon, the oldest daughter, had been Sylvia’s rival for
the palm as the most beautiful girl in Castleman County. And Sylvia
had triumphed, and Dolly had failed. So, in her secret heart she
hated Sylvia, and the mother hated her; and yet--such was the social
game--they had to invite Sylvia and her sister to their card-parties,
and Sylvia and her sister had to go. They had to go and be the most
striking figures there: Celeste, slim and pale from sorrow, virginal, in
clinging white chiffon; and Sylvia, regal and splendid, shimmering like
a mermaid in a gown of emerald green.
The mermaid imagined that she noticed a slight agitation underneath
the cordiality of her hostess. The next person to greet her was Mrs.
Armistead; and Sylvia was sure that she did not imagine the suppressed
excitement in that lady’s manner. But even while she was speculating
and suspecting, she was led toward the drawing-room. It was late, her
hostess explained; the other guests were waiting, so if they did not
mind, the play would start at once. Celeste was to sit at that table
over there, with Mr. Witherspoon’s crippled brother, and old Mr.
Perkins, who was deaf; and Sylvia was to come this way--the table in the
corner. Sylvia moved toward it, and Dolly Witherspoon and her sister,
Emma, greeted her cordially, and then stepped out of the way to let her
to her seat; and Sylvia gave one glance--and found herself face to face
with Frank Shirley!
22. Frank’s face was scarlet; and Sylvia had a moment of blind terror,
when she wanted to turn and fly. But there about her was the circle
of her enemies; a whole roomful of people, breathless with curiosity,
drinking in with eyes and ears every hint of distress that she might
give. And the next morning the whole town would, in imagination, attend
the scene!
“Good-evening, Julia,” said Sylvia, to Mrs. Witherspoon’s youngest
daughter, the other lady at the table. “Good-evening, Malcolm”--to
Malcolm McCallum, an old “beau” of hers. And then, taking the seat which
Malcolm sprang to move out for her, “How do you do, Frank?”
Frank’s eyes had fallen to his lap. “How do you do?” he murmured. The
sound of his voice, low and trembling, full of pain, was like the
sound of some old funeral bell to Sylvia; it sent the blood leaping in
torrents to her forehead. Oh, horrible, horrible!
For a moment her eyes fell like his, and she shuddered, and was beaten.
But there was the roomful of people, watching; there was Mrs. Armistead,
there were the Witherspoon women gloating. She forced a tortured smile
to her lips, and asked, “What are we playing?”
“Oh, didn’t you know that?” said Julia. “Progressive whist.”
“Thank-you,” said Sylvia. “When do we begin?” And she looked
about--anywhere but at Frank Shirley, with his face grown so old in four
years.
No one said anything, no one made a move. Was everybody in the room
conspiring to break her down? “I thought we were late,” she said,
desperately; and then, with another effort--“Shall I cut?” she asked, of
Julia.
“If you please,” said the girl; but she did not make a motion to pass
the cards. Her manner seemed to say, You may cut all night, but it won’t
help you to rob me of this satisfaction.
Sylvia made a still more determined effort. If the game was to be
postponed indefinitely, so that people might watch her and Frank--well,
she would have to find something to talk about.
“It is a surprise to see you again, Frank Shirley!” she exclaimed.
“Yes,” he said. His voice was a mumble, and he did not lift his eyes.
“You have been in the West, I understand?”
“Yes,” again; but still he did not lift his eyes.
Sylvia managed to lift hers as far as his cravat; and she saw in it
an old piece of imitation jewelry which she had picked up once on the
street, and had handed to him in jest. He had worn it all these years!
He had not thrown it away--not even when she had thrown him away!
Again came a surge of emotion; and out of the mist she looked about her
and saw the faces of tormenting demons, leering. “Well,” she demanded,
“are we going to play?”
“We were waiting for you to cut,” said Julia, graciously; and Sylvia’s
fury helped to restore her self-posession. She cut the cards; and fate
was kind, sparing both her and Frank the task of dealing.
But then a new difficulty arose. Julia dealt, and thirteen cards lay
in front of Frank Shirley; but he did not seem to know that he ought
to pick them up. And when the opposing lady called him to time, in
what seemed an unnecessarily penetrating voice, he found that he was
physically unable to get the cards from the table. And when with his
fumbling efforts he got them into a bunch, he could not straighten them
out--to say nothing of the labour of sorting them according to suit,
which all whist-players know to be an indispensable preliminary to the
game. When the opposing lady prodded him again, Frank’s face changed
from vivid scarlet to a dark and alarming purple.
Miss Julia led the tray of clubs; and Frank, whose turn came next,
spilled three cards upon the table, and finally selected from them the
king of hearts to play--hearts being trumps. “But you have a club there,
Mr. Shirley,” said his opponent; something that was pardonable, inasmuch
as the nine of clubs lay face up where he had shoved it aside.
“Oh--I beg pardon,” he stammered, and took back his king, and reached
into his hand and pulled out the six of clubs, and a diamond with it.
It was evident that this could not go on. Sylvia might be equal to the
emergency, but Frank was not. He was too much of a human being and too
little of a social automaton. Something must be done.
“Don’t they play whist out West, Mr. Shirley,” asked Julia, still
smiling benevolently.
And Sylvia lowered her cards. “Surely, my dear, you must understand,”
she said, gently. “Mr. Shirley is too much embarrassed to think about
cards.”
“Oh!” said the other, taken aback. (_L’audace, touljours l’audace!_ runs
the formula!)
“You see,” continued Sylvia, “this is the first time that Frank has seen
me in more than three years. And when two people have been as much in
love as he and I were, they are naturally disturbed when they meet, and
cannot put their minds upon a game of cards.”
Julia was speechless. And Sylvia let her glance wander casually about
the room. She saw her hostess and her daughters standing watching; and
near the wall at the other side of the room stood the head-devil, who
had planned this torment.
“Mrs. Armistead,” Sylvia called, “aren’t you going to play to-night?” Of
course everybody in the room heard this; and after it, anyone could have
heard a pin drop.
“I’m to keep score,” said Mrs. Armistead.
“But it doesn’t need four to keep score,” objected Sylvia--and looked at
the three Witherspoon ladies.
“Dolly and Emma are staying out,” said Mrs. Witherspoon. “Two of our
guests did not come.”
“Well,” Sylvia exclaimed, “that just makes it right! Please let them
take the place of Mr. Shirley and myself. You see, we haven’t seen each
other for three or four years, and it’s hard for us to get interested
into a game of cards.”
The whole room caught its breath at once; and here and there one heard
a little squeak of hysteria, cut short by some one who was not sure
whether it was a joke or a scandal. “Why--Sylvia!” stammered Mrs.
Witherspoon, completely staggered.
Then Sylvia perceived that she was mistress of the scene. There came the
old rapture of conquest, that made her social genius. “We have so much
that we want to talk about,” she said, in her most winning voice. “Let
Dolly and Emma take our places, and we will sit on the sofa in the other
room and chat. You and Mrs. Armistead come and chaperone us. Won’t you
do that, please?”
“Why--why----” gasped the bewildered lady.
“I’m sure that you will both be interested to hear what we have to say
to each other; and you can tell everybody about it afterwards--and that
will be so much better than having the card-game delayed any more.”
And with this side-swipe Sylvia arose. She stood and waited, to make
sure that her ex-fiancé was not too paralysed to follow. She led him out
through the tangle of card-tables; and in the door-way she stopped and
waited for Mrs. Armistead and Mrs. Witherspoon, and literally forced
these two ladies to come with her out of the room.
23. Do you care to hear the details of the punishment which Sylvia
administered to the two conspirators? She took them to the sofa, and
made Frank draw up chairs for them, and when she had got comfortably
seated, she proceeded to talk to Frank just as gently and sincerely and
touchingly as she would have talked if there had been nobody present.
She asked about all that had befallen him, and when she discovered that
he was still not able to chat, she told him about herself, about her
baby, who was beautiful and dear, even if she was blind, and about all
the interesting things she had seen in Europe. When presently the old
ladies showed signs of growing restless, she put hand cuffs on them and
chained them to their chairs.
“You see,” she said, “it would never do for Mr. Shirley and myself to
talk without a chaperon. You got me into this situation, you know, and
papa and mamma would never forgive you.”
“You are mistaken, Sylvia!” cried Mrs. Witherspoon. “Mr. Shirley so
seldom goes out, and he had said he didn’t think he would come!”
“I am willing to accept that explanation,” said Sylvia, politely, “but
you must help me out now that the embarrassing accident has happened.”
Nor did it avail Mrs. Witherspoon to plead her guests and their score.
“You may be sure they don’t care about the score,” said Sylvia. “They’d
much prefer you stayed here, so that you can tell them how Frank and I
behaved.”
And then, while Mrs. Witherspoon was getting herself together, Sylvia
turned upon the other conspirator. “We will now hold one of my eugenics
classes,” she said, and added, to Frank, “Mrs. Armistead told me that
you wanted to join my class.”
“I don’t understand,” replied Frank, at a loss.
“I will explain,” said Sylvia. “It is not a very refined joke they have
in the town. Mrs. Armistead meant to say that she credits a disgraceful
story that was circulated about you when we were engaged, and which my
people made use of to make me break our engagement. I am glad to have
a chance to tell you that I have investigated and satisfied myself
that the story was not true. I want to apologise to you for ever having
believed it; and I am sure that Mrs. Armistead may be glad of this
opportunity to apologise for having said that she believed it.”
“I never said that I believed it!” cried Sallie Ann.
“No, you didn’t, Mrs. Armistead--you would not be so crude as to say
it directly. You merely dropped a hint, which would lead everybody to
understand that you believed it.”
Sylvia paused, just long enough to let the wicked lady suffer, but not
long enough to let her find a reply. “When you tell your friends about
this scene,” she continued, “please make clear that I did not drop hints
about anything, but said exactly what I meant--that the story is false,
so far as it implies any evil done by Mr. Shirley, and that I am deeply
ashamed of myself for having ever believed it. It is all in the past
now, of course--we are both of us married, and we shall probably never
meet again. But it will be a help to us in future to have had this
little talk--will it not, Frank?”
There was a pause, while Sallie Ann Armistead recovered from her
dismay, and got back a little of her fighting power. Suddenly she rose:
“Virginia,” she said, firmly, “you are neglecting your guests.”
“I don’t think you ought to go until Frank has got himself together,”
said Sylvia. “Frank, can you sort your cards now?”
“Virginia!” commanded Sallie Ann, imperiously. “Come!”
Mrs. Witherspoon rose, and so did Sylvia. “We can’t stay here alone,”
said she. “Frank, will you take Mrs. Witherspoon in?” And she gently
but firmly took Mrs. Armistead’s arm, and so they marched back into the
drawing-room.
Dolly and Emma had progressed to separate tables, it developed, so that
the ordeal of Frank and Sylvia was over. Through the remainder of the
evening Sylvia chatted and played, and later partook of refreshments
with Malcolm McCallum, and mildly teased that inconsolable bachelor,
quite as in the old days. Now and then she stole a glance at Frank
Shirley, and saw that he was holding up his end; but he kept away from
her, and she never even caught his eye.
At last the company broke up, and Sylvia thanked her hostess for a most
enjoyable evening. She stepped into the motor with Celeste, and sat with
compressed lips, answering in monosyllables her “little sister’s” flood
of excited questions--“Oh, Sylvia, didn’t you feel perfectly _terrible?_
Oh, sister, I felt _thrills_ running up and down my back! Sister, what
_did_ you say to him? Sister, do you know old Mr. Perkins kept leaning
over me and asking what was happening; and how could I shout into his
deaf ear that everybody was stopping to hear what you were saying to
Frank Shirley?”
At the end of the ride, there was Aunt Varina waiting up as usual--to
renew her own youth in the story of the evening, what this person had
worn and what that person had said. But Sylvia left her sister to tell
the story, and fled to her room and locked the door, and flung herself
upon the bed and gave way to a torrent of weeping.
Half an hour later Celeste went up, and finding that the door between
her room and Sylvia’s was unlocked, opened it softly, and stood
listening. Finally she stole to her sister’s side and put her arm about
her. “Never mind, sister dear,” she whispered, solemnly, “I know how it
is! We women all have to suffer!”