35. THE HOTEL (continued), AND THE QUAY IN FRONT

Ethelberta, having arrived there some time earlier, had gone straight to

her aunt, whom she found sitting behind a large ledger in the office,

making up the accounts with her husband, a well-framed reflective man

with a grey beard. M. Moulin bustled, waited for her remarks and

replies, and made much of her in a general way, when Ethelberta said,

what she had wanted to say instantly, 'Has a gentleman called Mr. Neigh

been here?'

'O yes--I think it is Neigh--there's a card upstairs,' replied her aunt.

'I told him you were alone at the cathedral, and I believe he walked that

way. Besides that one, another has come for you--a Mr. Ladywell, and he

is waiting.'

'Not for me?'

'Yes, indeed. I thought he seemed so anxious, under a sort of assumed

calmness, that I recommended him to remain till you came in.'

'Goodness, aunt; why did you?' Ethelberta said, and thought how much her

mother's sister resembled her mother in doings of that sort.

'I thought he had some good reason for seeing you. Are these men

intruders, then?'

'O no--a woman who attempts a public career must expect to be treated as

public property: what would be an intrusion on a domiciled gentlewoman is

a tribute to me. You cannot have celebrity and sex-privilege both.' Thus

Ethelberta laughed off the awkward conjuncture, inwardly deploring the

unconscionable maternal meddling which had led to this, though not

resentfully, for she had too much staunchness of heart to decry a

parent's misdirected zeal. Had the clanship feeling been universally as

strong as in the Chickerel family, the fable of the well-bonded fagot

might have remained unwritten.

Ladywell had sent her a letter about getting his picture of herself

engraved for an illustrated paper, and she had not replied, considering

that she had nothing to do with the matter, her form and feature having

been given in the painting as no portrait at all, but as those of an

ideal. To see him now would be vexatious; and yet it was chilly and

formal to an ungenerous degree to keep aloof from him, sitting lonely in

the same house. 'A few weeks hence,' she thought, 'when Menlove's

disclosures make me ridiculous, he may slight me as a lackey's girl, an

upstart, an adventuress, and hardly return my bow in the street. Then I

may wish I had given him no personal cause for additional bitterness.'

So, putting off the fine lady, Ethelberta thought she would see Ladywell

at once.

Ladywell was unaffectedly glad to meet her; so glad, that Ethelberta

wished heartily, for his sake, there could be warm friendship between

herself and him, as well as all her lovers, without that insistent

courtship-and-marriage question, which sent them all scattering like

leaves in a pestilent blast, at enmity with one another. She was less

pleased when she found that Ladywell, after saying all there was to say

about his painting, gently signified that he had been misinformed, as he

believed, concerning her future intentions, which had led to his

absenting himself entirely from her; the remark being of course, a

natural product of her mother's injudicious message to him.

She cut him short with terse candour. 'Yes,' she said, 'a false report

is in circulation. I am not yet engaged to be married to any one, if

that is your meaning.'

Ladywell looked cheerful at this frank answer, and said tentatively, 'Am

I forgotten?'

'No; you are exactly as you always were in my mind.'

'Then I have been cruelly deceived. I was guided too much by

appearances, and they were very delusive. I am beyond measure glad I

came here to-day. I called at your house and learnt that you were here;

and as I was going out of town, in any indefinite direction, I settled

then to come this way. What a happy idea it was! To think of you

now--and I may be permitted to--'

'Assuredly you may not. How many times I have told you that!'

'But I do not wish for any formal engagement,' said Ladywell quickly,

fearing she might commit herself to some expression of positive denial,

which he could never surmount. 'I'll wait--I'll wait any length of time.

Remember, you have never absolutely forbidden my--friendship. Will you

delay your answer till some time hence, when you have thoroughly

considered; since I fear it may be a hasty one now?'

'Yes, indeed; it may be hasty.'

'You will delay it?'

'Yes.'

'When shall it be?'

'Say a month hence. I suggest that, because by that time you will have

found an answer in your own mind: strange things may happen before then.

"She shall follow after her lovers, but she shall not overtake them; and

she shall seek them, but shall not find them; then shall she say, I will

go and return to my first"--however, that's no matter.'

'What--did you--?' Ladywell began, altogether bewildered by this.

'It is a passage in Hosea which came to my mind, as possibly applicable

to myself some day,' she answered. 'It was mere impulse.'

'Ha-ha!--a jest--one of your romances broken loose. There is no law for

impulse: that is why I am here.'

Thus fancifully they conversed till the interview concluded. Getting her

to promise that she would see him again, Ladywell retired to a sitting-

room on the same landing, in which he had been writing letters before she

came up. Immediately upon this her aunt, who began to suspect that

something peculiar was in the wind, came to tell her that Mr. Neigh had

been inquiring for her again.

'Send him in,' said Ethelberta.

Neigh's footsteps approached, and the well-known figure entered.

Ethelberta received him smilingly, for she was getting so used to awkward

juxtapositions that she treated them quite as a natural situation. She

merely hoped that Ladywell would not hear them talking through the

partition.

Neigh scarcely said anything as a beginning: she knew his errand

perfectly; and unaccountable as it was to her, the strange and

unceremonious relationship between them, that had originated in the

peculiar conditions of their first close meeting, was continued now as

usual.

'Have you been able to bestow a thought on the question between us? I

hope so,' said Neigh.

'It is no use,' said Ethelberta. 'Wait a month, and you will not require

an answer. You will not mind speaking low, because of a person in the

next room?'

'Not at all.--Why will that be?'

'I might say; but let us speak of something else.'

'I don't see how we can,' said Neigh brusquely. 'I had no other reason

on earth for calling here. I wished to get the matter settled, and I

could not be satisfied without seeing you. I hate writing on matters of

this sort. In fact I can't do it, and that's why I am here.'

He was still speaking when an attendant entered with a note.

'Will you excuse me one moment?' said Ethelberta, stepping to the window

and opening the missive. It contained these words only, in a scrawl so

full of deformities that she could hardly piece its meaning together:--

'I must see you again to-day unless you absolutely deny yourself to

me, which I shall take as a refusal to meet me any more. I will

arrive, punctually, five minutes after you receive this note. Do pray

be alone if you can, and eternally gratify,--Yours,

'MOUNTCLERE.'

'If anything has happened I shall be pleased to wait,' said Neigh, seeing

her concern when she had closed the note.

'O no, it is nothing,' said Ethelberta precipitately. 'Yet I think I

will ask you to wait,' she added, not liking to dismiss Neigh in a hurry;

for she was not insensible to his perseverance in seeking her over all

these miles of sea and land; and secondly, she feared that if he were to

leave on the instant he might run into the arms of Lord Mountclere and

Ladywell.

'I shall be only too happy to stay till you are at leisure,' said Neigh,

in the unimpassioned delivery he used whether his meaning were a trite

compliment or the expression of his most earnest feeling.

'I may be rather a long time,' said Ethelberta dubiously.

'My time is yours.'

Ethelberta left the room and hurried to her aunt, exclaiming, 'O, Aunt

Charlotte, I hope you have rooms enough to spare for my visitors, for

they are like the fox, the goose, and the corn, in the riddle; I cannot

leave them together, and I can only be with one at a time. I want the

nicest drawing-room you have for an interview of a bare two minutes with

an old gentleman. I am so sorry this has happened, but it is not

altogether my fault! I only arranged to see one of them; but the other

was sent to me by mother, in a mistake, and the third met with me on my

journey: that's the explanation. There's the oldest of them just come.'

She looked through the glass partition, and under the arch of the court-

gate, as the wheels of the viscount's carriage were heard outside.

Ethelberta ascended to a room on the first floor, Lord Mountclere was

shown up, and the door closed upon them.

At this time Neigh was very comfortably lounging in an arm-chair in

Ethelberta's room on the second floor. This was a pleasant enough way of

passing the minutes with such a tender interview in prospect; and as he

leant he looked with languid and luxurious interest through the open

casement at the spars and rigging of some luggers on the Seine, the

pillars of the suspension bridge, and the scenery of the Faubourg St.

Sever on the other side of the river. How languid his interest might

ultimately have become there is no knowing; but there soon arose upon his

ear the accents of Ethelberta in low distinctness from somewhere outside

the room.

'Yes; the scene is pleasant to-day,' she said. 'I like a view over a

river.'

'I should think the steamboats are objectionable when they stop here,'

said another person.

Neigh's face closed in to an aspect of perplexity. 'Surely that cannot

be Lord Mountclere?' he muttered.

Had he been certain that Ethelberta was only talking to a stranger, Neigh

would probably have felt their conversation to be no business of his,

much as he might have been surprised to find her giving audience to

another man at such a place. But his impression that the voice was that

of his acquaintance, Lord Mountclere, coupled with doubts as to its

possibility, was enough to lead him to rise from the chair and put his

head out of the window.

Upon a balcony beneath him were the speakers, as he had

suspected--Ethelberta and the viscount.

Looking right and left, he saw projecting from the next window the head

of his friend Ladywell, gazing right and left likewise, apparently just

drawn out by the same voice which had attracted himself.

'What--you, Neigh!--how strange,' came from Ladywell's lips before he had

time to recollect that great coolness existed between himself and Neigh

on Ethelberta's account, which had led to the reduction of their intimacy

to the most attenuated of nods and good-mornings ever since the Harlequin-

rose incident at Cripplegate.

'Yes; it is rather strange,' said Neigh, with saturnine evenness. 'Still

a fellow must be somewhere.'

Each then looked over his window-sill downwards, upon the speakers who

had attracted them thither.

Lord Mountclere uttered something in a low tone which did not reach the

young men; to which Ethelberta replied, 'As I have said, Lord Mountclere,

I cannot give you an answer now. I must consider what to do with Mr.

Neigh and Mr. Ladywell. It is too sudden for me to decide at once. I

could not do so until I have got home to England, when I will write you a

letter, stating frankly my affairs and those of my relatives. I shall

not consider that you have addressed me on the subject of marriage until,

having received my letter, you--'

'Repeat my proposal,' said Lord Mountclere.

'Yes.'

'My dear Mrs. Petherwin, it is as good as repeated! But I have no right

to assume anything you don't wish me to assume, and I will wait. How

long is it that I am to suffer in this uncertainty?'

'A month. By that time I shall have grown weary of my other two

suitors.'

'A month! Really inflexible?'

Ethelberta had returned inside the window, and her answer was inaudible.

Ladywell and Neigh looked up, and their eyes met. Both had been

reluctant to remain where they stood, but they were too fascinated to

instantly retire. Neigh moved now, and Ladywell did the same. Each saw

that the face of his companion was flushed.

'Come in and see me,' said Ladywell quickly, before quite withdrawing his

head. 'I am staying in this room.'

'I will,' said Neigh; and taking his hat he left Ethelberta's apartment

forthwith.

On entering the quarters of his friend he found him seated at a table

whereon writing materials were strewn. They shook hands in silence, but

the meaning in their looks was enough.

'Just let me write a note, Ladywell, and I'm your man,' said Neigh then,

with the freedom of an old acquaintance.

'I was going to do the same thing,' said Ladywell.

Neigh then sat down, and for a minute or two nothing was to be heard but

the scratching of a pair of pens, ending on the one side with a more

boisterous scratch, as the writer shaped 'Eustace Ladywell,' and on the

other with slow firmness in the characters 'Alfred Neigh.'

'There's for you, my fair one,' said Neigh, closing and directing his

letter.

'Yours is for Mrs. Petherwin? So is mine,' said Ladywell, grasping the

bell-pull. 'Shall I direct it to be put on her table with this one?'

'Thanks.' And the two letters went off to Ethelberta's sitting-room,

which she had vacated to receive Lord Mountclere in an empty one beneath.

Neigh's letter was simply a pleading of a sudden call away which

prevented his waiting till she should return; Ladywell's, though stating

the same reason for leaving, was more of an upbraiding nature, and might

almost have told its reader, were she to take the trouble to guess, that

he knew of the business of Lord Mountclere with her to-day.

'Now, let us get out of this place,' said Neigh. He proceeded at once

down the stairs, followed by Ladywell, who--settling his account at the

bureau without calling for a bill, and directing his portmanteau to be

sent to the Right-bank railway station--went with Neigh into the street.

They had not walked fifty yards up the quay when two British workmen, in

holiday costume, who had just turned the corner of the Rue Jeanne d'Arc,

approached them. Seeing him to be an Englishman, one of the two

addressed Neigh, saying, 'Can you tell us the way, sir, to the Hotel Bold

Soldier?'

Neigh pointed out the place he had just come from to the tall young men,

and continued his walk with Ladywell.

Ladywell was the first to break silence. 'I have been considerably

misled, Neigh,' he said; 'and I imagine from what has just happened that

you have been misled too.'

'Just a little,' said Neigh, bringing abstracted lines of meditation into

his face. 'But it was my own fault: for I ought to have known that these

stage and platform women have what they are pleased to call Bohemianism

so thoroughly engrained with their natures that they are no more constant

to usage in their sentiments than they are in their way of living. Good

Lord, to think she has caught old Mountclere! She is sure to have him if

she does not dally with him so long that he gets cool again.'

'A beautiful creature like her to think of marrying such an infatuated

idiot as he!'

'He can give her a title as well as younger men. It will not be the

first time that such matches have been made.'

'I can't believe it,' said Ladywell vehemently. 'She has too much poetry

in her--too much good sense; her nature is the essence of all that's

romantic. I can't help saying it, though she has treated me cruelly.'

'She has good looks, certainly. I'll own to that. As for her romance

and good-feeling, that I leave to you. I think she has treated you no

more cruelly, as you call it, than she has me, come to that.'

'She told me she would give me an answer in a month,' said Ladywell

emotionally.

'So she told me,' said Neigh.

'And so she told him,' said Ladywell.

'And I have no doubt she will keep her word to him in her usual precise

manner.'

'But see what she implied to me! I distinctly understood from her that

the answer would be favourable.'

'So did I.'

'So does he.'

'And he is sure to be the one who gets it, since only one of us can.

Well, I wouldn't marry her for love, money, nor--'

'Offspring.'

'Exactly: I would not. "I'll give you an answer in a month"--to all

three of us! For God's sake let's sit down here and have something to

drink.'

They drew up a couple of chairs to one of the tables of a wine-shop close

by, and shouted to the waiter with the vigour of persons going to the

dogs. Here, behind the horizontal-headed trees that dotted this part of

the quay, they sat over their bottles denouncing womankind till the sun

got low down upon the river, and the houses on the further side began to

be toned by a blue mist. At last they rose from their seats and

departed, Neigh to dine and consider his route, and Ladywell to take the

train for Dieppe.

While these incidents had been in progress the two workmen had found

their way into the hotel where Ethelberta was staying. Passing through

the entrance, they stood at gaze in the court, much perplexed as to the

door to be made for; the difficulty was solved by the appearance of

Cornelia, who in expectation of them had been for the last half-hour

leaning over the sill of her bed-room window, which looked into the

interior, amusing herself by watching the movements to and fro in the

court beneath.

After conversing awhile in undertones as if they had no real right there

at all, Cornelia told them she would call their sister, if an old

gentleman who had been to see her were gone again. Cornelia then ran

away, and Sol and Dan stood aloof, till they had seen the old gentleman

alluded to go to the door and drive off, shortly after which Ethelberta

ran down to meet them.

'Whatever have you got as your luggage?' she said, after hearing a few

words about their journey, and looking at a curious object like a huge

extended accordion with bellows of gorgeous-patterned carpeting.

'Well, I thought to myself,' said Sol, ''tis a terrible bother about

carrying our things. So what did I do but turn to and make a carpet-bag

that would hold all mine and Dan's too. This, you see, Berta, is a deal

top and bottom out of three-quarter stuff, stained and varnished. Well,

then you see I've got carpet sides tacked on with these brass nails,

which make it look very handsome; and so when my bag is empty 'twill shut

up and be only a couple of boards under yer arm, and when 'tis open it

will hold a'most anything you like to put in it. That portmantle didn't

cost more than three half-crowns altogether, and ten pound wouldn't ha'

got anything so strong from a portmantle maker, would it, Dan?'

'Well, no.'

'And then you see, Berta,' Sol continued in the same earnest tone, and

further exhibiting the article, 'I've made this trap-door in the top with

hinges and padlock complete, so that--'

'I am afraid it is tiring you after your journey to explain all this to

me,' said Ethelberta gently, noticing that a few Gallic smilers were

gathering round. 'Aunt has found a nice room for you at the top of the

staircase in that corner--"Escalier D" you'll see painted at the

bottom--and when you have been up come across to me at number thirty-four

on this side, and we'll talk about everything.'

'Look here, Sol,' said Dan, who had left his brother and gone on to the

stairs. 'What a rum staircase--the treads all in little blocks, and

painted chocolate, as I am alive!'

'I am afraid I shall not be able to go on to Paris with you, after all,'

Ethelberta continued to Sol. 'Something has just happened which makes it

desirable for me to return at once to England. But I will write a list

of all you are to see, and where you are to go, so that it will make

little difference, I hope.'

Ten minutes before this time Ethelberta had been frankly and earnestly

asked by Lord Mountclere to become his bride; not only so, but he pressed

her to consent to have the ceremony performed before they returned to

England. Ethelberta had unquestionably been much surprised; and, barring

the fact that the viscount was somewhat ancient in comparison with

herself, the temptation to close with his offer was strong, and would

have been felt as such by any woman in the position of Ethelberta, now a

little reckless by stress of circumstances, and tinged with a bitterness

of spirit against herself and the world generally. But she was

experienced enough to know what heaviness might result from a hasty

marriage, entered into with a mind full of concealments and suppressions

which, if told, were likely to stop the marriage altogether; and after

trying to bring herself to speak of her family and situation to Lord

Mountclere as he stood, a certain caution triumphed, and she concluded

that it would be better to postpone her reply till she could consider

which of two courses it would be advisable to adopt; to write and explain

to him, or to explain nothing and refuse him. The third course, to

explain nothing and hasten the wedding, she rejected without hesitation.

With a pervading sense of her own obligations in forming this compact it

did not occur to her to ask if Lord Mountclere might not have duties of

explanation equally with herself, though bearing rather on the moral than

the social aspects of the case.

Her resolution not to go on to Paris was formed simply because Lord

Mountclere himself was proceeding in that direction, which might lead to

other unseemly rencounters with him had she, too, persevered in her

journey. She accordingly gave Sol and Dan directions for their guidance

to Paris and back, starting herself with Cornelia the next day to return

again to Knollsea, and to decide finally and for ever what to do in the

vexed question at present agitating her.

Never before in her life had she treated marriage in such a terribly cool

and cynical spirit as she had done that day; she was almost frightened at

herself in thinking of it. How far any known system of ethics might

excuse her on the score of those curious pressures which had been brought

to bear upon her life, or whether it could excuse her at all, she had no

spirit to inquire. English society appeared a gloomy concretion enough

to abide in as she contemplated it on this journey home; yet, since its

gloominess was less an essential quality than an accident of her point of

view, that point of view she had determined to change.

There lay open to her two directions in which to move. She might annex

herself to the easy-going high by wedding an old nobleman, or she might

join for good and all the easy-going low, by plunging back to the level

of her family, giving up all her ambitions for them, settling as the wife

of a provincial music-master named Julian, with a little shop of fiddles

and flutes, a couple of old pianos, a few sheets of stale music pinned to

a string, and a narrow back parlour, wherein she would wait for the

phenomenon of a customer. And each of these divergent grooves had its

fascinations, till she reflected with regard to the first that, even

though she were a legal and indisputable Lady Mountclere, she might be

despised by my lord's circle, and left lone and lorn. The intermediate

path of accepting Neigh or Ladywell had no more attractions for her taste

than the fact of disappointing them had qualms for her conscience; and

how few these were may be inferred from her opinion, true or false, that

two words about the spigot on her escutcheon would sweep her lovers'

affections to the antipodes. She had now and then imagined that her

previous intermarriage with the Petherwin family might efface much

besides her surname, but experience proved that the having been wife for

a few weeks to a minor who died in his father's lifetime, did not weave

such a tissue of glory about her course as would resist a speedy undoing

by startling confessions on her station before her marriage, and her

environments now.

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