CHAPTER XXIX

IN WHICH HERMIONE MAKES A FATEFUL DECISION

When Mrs. Trapes was gone, Hermione stood a long time to look at herself

in her little mirror, viewing and examining each feature of her lovely,

intent face more earnestly than she had ever done before; and sometimes

she smiled, and sometimes she frowned, and all her thought was:

"Shall I make him happy, I wonder? Can I be all he wants--all he thinks

I am?"

So, after some while, she combed and brushed out her glorious hair,

shyly glad because of its length and splendour; and, having crowned her

shapely head with it, viewed the effect with cold, hypercritical eyes.

"Can I, oh, can I ever be all he wants--all he thinks I am?"

And then she proceeded to dress; the holey stockings were replaced by

others that had seen less service; the worn frills and laces were

changed for others less threadbare. This done, Hermione, with many

supple twists, wriggled dexterously into her best dress, pausing now and

then to sigh mournfully and grieve over its many deficiencies and

shortcomings, defects which only feminine eyes, so coldly critical,

might hope to behold.

Scarcely was all this accomplished when she heard a soft knock at the

outer door, and at the sound her heart leapt; she flushed and paled and

stood a moment striving to stay the quick, heavy throbbing within her

bosom; then breathlessly she hastened along the passage and, opening the

door with trembling hands, beheld Bud M'Ginnis. While she stared, dumb

and amazed, he entered and, closing the door, leaned his broad back

against it.

"Goin' away, Hermy?" he enquired softly, looking her over with his slow

gaze.

"Yes."

"Goin' far, Hermy?"

"I don't know."

"Goin'--alone, Hermy?"

"Why are you here? What do you want?"

"T' save ye from--hell!" he answered, his voice rising loud and harsh on

the last word. "Oh, I know," he went on fiercely, "I know why you're all

dolled up in your best. I know as you mean t' go away to-night with--him.

But you ain't goin', girl--you ain't."

"To-night," she said gently, "is my wedding night."

M'Ginnis lifted a hand and wrenched at the silken neckerchief he wore as

though it choked him.

"No!" he cried, "you ain't a-goin' t' get no wedding, Hermy; he don't

mean t' give ye a square deal. He's foolin' ye--foolin' ye, girl! Oh,"

said he through shut teeth, "ye thought I was safe out o' the way, I

guess. You ought t' known better; th' p'lice couldn't hold me, they

never will. Anyway, I've kept tabs on ye--I know as you've been meeting

him--in a wood! I know," here M'Ginnis seemed to choke again, "I know of

you an' him--kissin' an' cuddlin'--oh, I've kept tabs on ye--"

"Yes," she said gently, "I saw your spy at work."

"But y' can't deny it. Y' don't deny it! Say, what kind o' girl are

you?"

"The kind that doesn't fear men like you."

"But y' can't deny meetin' him," he repeated, his hoarse voice

quivering; "you don't deny--kissin' him--in a wood! Only deny it, Hermy,

only say you didn't, an' I'll choke th' life out of any guy as says you

did--only deny it, Hermy."

"But I don't want to deny it. If your spy had ears he can tell you that

we are going to be married. Now go."

Once more M'Ginnis reached up to his throat and trenched off the

neckerchief altogether.

"Married!" he cried, "an' t' him! He's foolin' ye, Hermy, by God he is!

Girl, I'm tellin' ye straight an' true--he'll never marry ye. His kind

don't marry Tenth Av'ner girls--Nooport an' Fifth Av'ner's a good ways

from Hell's Kitchen an' Tenth Av'ner, an' they can't ever come t'gether,

I reckon."

"Ah!" sighed she, falling back a step, "what do you mean?"

"Why, I mean," said M'Ginnis, twisting the neckerchief in his powerful

hands much as if it had been the neck of some enemy, "I mean as this guy

as comes here bluffin' about bein' down an' out, this guy as plays at

sellin' peanuts is--Geoffrey Ravenslee, the millionaire."

"But--he is--Arthur's friend!"

"Friend--nothin'!" said he, wringing and wrenching at the neckerchief,

"I guess you ain't found out how th' Kid an' him came t' meet, eh? Well,

I'll tell ye--listen! Your brother broke in to this millionaire's swell

house--through the winder--an' this millionaire caught him."

"Oh," said she, smiling in bitter scorn, "what a clumsy liar you are,

Bud M'Ginnis!"

"No," he cried eagerly, "no, I ain't tellin' ye no lies; it's God's own

truth I'm givin' ye."

"No, you're just a liar, Bud M'Ginnis!" and she would have turned from

him, but his savage grip stayed her.

"A liar, am I?" he cried. "Why, then, you're sister to a crook, see!

Your brother's a thief! a crook! You ain't got much t' be s' proud

over--"

"Let me go!"

"Listen! Your brother got into this guy's house t' steal, and this

millionaire guy caught him--in the act! An' havin' nothin' better t' do,

he makes young Spike bring him down here--just t' see th' kind o' folks

as lives in Hell's Kitchen, see? Then he meets you--you look kind o'

good t' him, so he says t' th' Kid, 'Look here,' he says, 'you help me

game along with y'r sister, an' we'll call it quits--'"

Breaking from his hold, Hermione entered the little parlour, and

sinking down beside the table, crouched there, hiding her face, while

M'Ginnis, leaning in the doorway, watched her, his strong hands twisting

and wrenching at the neckerchief.

"Ah, leave me now!" she pleaded, "you've done enough, so--go now--go!"

"Oh, I'll go. I come here t' put ye wise--an' I have! You're on to it

all now, I guess. Nooport and Fifth Av'ner's a good ways from Hell's

Kitchen and Tenth Av'ner, an' they can't never come together. I guess

there's sure some difference between this swell guy with all his

millions an' a Tenth Av'ner girl as is a--thief's sister--"

Slowly Hermione lifted her head and looked up at him, and M'Ginnis saw

that in her face which struck him mute; the neckerchief fell from his

nerveless fingers and lay there all unheeded.

"Hermione," he muttered, "I--girl, are ye--sick?"

"Go!" she whispered, "go!"

And turning about, M'Ginnis stumbled out of the place and left her

alone. For a long time she sat there, motionless and crouched above the

table, staring blindly before her, and in her eyes an agony beyond

tears, heedless of the flight of time, conscious only of a pain sharper

than flesh can know. Suddenly a key was thrust in the lock of the outer

door, footsteps sounded along the passage accompanied by a merry

whistling, and Spike appeared.

"Hello, Hermy, ain't tea ready yet?" he enquired, tossing aside his

straw hat and opening a newspaper he carried, "say, the Giants are sure

playin' great ball this season--what, are ye asleep?"

"No, dear!"

"Why, Hermy," he exclaimed, dropping the paper and clasping an arm about

her, "Oh, Hermy--what is it?"

"Oh, boy--dear, dear boy--you didn't, did you?" she cried feverishly.

"You are a little wild--sometimes, dear, just a little--but you are

good--and honourable, aren't you?"

"Why, yes, Hermy I--I try t' be," he answered uneasily; "but I don't

know what you mean."

"You're not a thief, are you? You're not a burglar? You never broke into

any one's house. I know you didn't, but--tell me you didn't--tell me you

didn't!"

"No--no, o' course not," stammered Spike and, averting his head, tried

to draw away, but she clung to him all the closer.

"Boy--boy dear," she whispered breathlessly, "oh, boy, look at me!"

But seeing he kept his face still turned from her, she set a hand to his

cheek and very gently forced him to meet her look. For a long moment she

gazed thus--saw how his eyes quailed, saw how his cheek blanched, and as

he cowered away, she rose slowly to her feet, and into her look came a

growing horror; beholding which Spike covered his face and shrank away

from her.

"Oh, boy--" her voice had sunk to a whisper now, "oh, boy--say you

didn't!"

"Hermy--I--can't--"

"Can't?"

"It's--it's all--true. Yes, I did! Oh, Hermy, forgive me."

"Tell me!"

"Oh, forgive me, Hermy, forgive me!" he cried, reaching out and trying

to catch her hand. "Yes, I'll tell ye. I--I got in--through th' winder,

an' Geoff caught me. But he let me go again--he said he'd never tell

nobody if--ah, don't look at me like that!"

"If--what?"

"If I'd bring him back here with me--Hermy, don't! Your eyes hurt

me--don't look at me that way."

"So it--is--all--true!"

"Oh, forgive me, forgive me!" he pleaded, throwing himself on his knees

before her and writhing in the anguish of remorse. "They doped me,

Hermy, I--didn't know what I was doin'--they didn't give me no time t'

think. Oh, forgive me, Hermy; Geoff forgave me, an' you must--oh, God,

you must, Hermy!" Again he sought to reach her hand, but now it was she

who shrank away.

"I loved you so--I--loved--you so!" she said dully.

"Hermy," he cried, catching hold of her dress, "forgive me--just this

once, for God's sake! I ain't got nobody in the world but you--forgive

me!" And now his pleading was broken by fierce sobs, and he sought to

hide his tear-stained face in the folds of her dress, but she drew it

quickly from him, shrinking away almost as if she feared him.

"A thief!" she whispered, "oh, God--my brother a thief! I don't

seem--able to--think. Go away--go away, I--must be--alone!"

"Hermy, dear, I swear--oh, I swear I'll--"

"Go away!"

"Oh, Hermy, I didn't think you'd ever--turn away--from me."

"Go away!"

"Oh, Hermy--won't you listen?"

"I can't! Not now. Go away."

Sobbing, the boy got to his feet, and taking his hat, crossed

slow-footed to the door; there he paused to look back at her, but her

staring eyes gazed through him and, turning hopelessly away, he brushed

his sleeve across his cheek and, treading slow and heavily along the

passage, was gone.

Dry-eyed she stood awhile, then sank again beside the table and crouched

there with face bowed between outstretched arms, and hands tight

clenched. Evening began to fall, but still she sat huddled there,

motionless, and uttering no sound, and still her eyes were tearless.

At last she stirred, conscious of a quick, firm step near by, and,

thrilling to that sound, rose and stood with her back to the fading

light as Ravenslee entered.

"Dear," said he, tender and eager, "I found the door open--did you leave

it for me? Why, Hermione--oh, my love, what is it?" and he would have

caught her to him, but she held him away and questioned him,

quick-breathing:

"You are--Geoffrey Ravenslee--the millionaire--aren't you?"

"Why--er--I--I'm afraid I am," he stammered. "I'm sorry you found it out

so soon, dearest; I wanted to tell you after we--"

"Oh, why didn't you tell me before--why didn't you? No--please wait!

You--you caught my--brother, didn't you?" she went on breathlessly; "he

had broken in--was burgling your house, wasn't he--wasn't he?"

"How in the world," began Ravenslee, flinching, "who told--"

"He broke into your house to--steal, didn't he--didn't he?"

"But, good heavens--that was all forgotten and done with long ago!

They'd made the poor chap drunk--he didn't know what he was doing--it's

all forgotten long ago! Dear heart, why are you so pale? God,

Hermione--nothing can alter our love!"

"No, nothing can alter our love," she repeated in the same dull tones.

"Oh, no, nothing can ever alter that; even though you deceived me I

shall always love you, I can't help it. And just because I do love you

so, and because I am a thief's sister, I--oh, I can never be your

wife--I couldn't, could I?"

"By God, Hermione, but you shall!" As he spoke he caught her in his

arms, passionate arms that drew and held her close. Very still and

unresisting she lay in his embrace, uttering no word; and stooping, he

kissed her fiercely--her lips, her eyes, her white throat, her hair,

and, silent still, she yielded herself to his caresses.

"You are mine, Hermione, mine always and forever! You are the one woman

I long for--the wife nature intended for me! You are mine, Hermione!"

Very softly she answered, her eyes closed:

"I felt at the first there was a gulf dividing us--and now--this gulf

is wider--so wide it can never be crossed by either of us. Your world is

not my world, after all--you are Geoffrey Ravenslee and I am only--what

I am. Newport and Fifth Avenue are a long way from Hell's Kitchen and

Tenth Avenue, and they can never--never come together. And I--am a

thief's sister, so please, please loose me--oh, have mercy and--let me

go."

His arms fell from her and, shivering, she sank beside the table, and

the pale agony of her face smote him.

"But you love me, Hermione?" he pleaded.

"If I had only known," she sighed, "I might not have learned to love

you--quite so much! If I had only known!" Her voice was soft and low,

her blue eyes wide and tearless, and because of this, he trembled.

"Hermione," said he gently, "all this week I have been planning for you

and Arthur. I have been dreaming of our life together, yours and mine,

a life so big, so wonderful, so full of happiness that I trembled,

sometimes, dreading it was only a dream. Dear, the gates of our paradise

are open; will you shut me out? Must I go back to my loneliness?"

"I shall be lonely, too!" she murmured brokenly. "But better, oh, far

better loneliness than that some day--" she paused, her lips quivering.

"Some day, Hermione?"

"You should find that you had married not only a scrubwoman but--the

sister of a--thief!" Suddenly she sprang to her feet, her clinging arms

held him to her bosom and, drawing down his head, she pressed her mouth

to his; holding him thus, she spoke, her voice low and quick and

passionate:

"Oh, my love, my love! I do love you with every thought, with every part

of me--so much, so very much that my heart is breaking, I think. But,

dearest, my love is such that I would be everything fair and beautiful

for you, everything proud and good and noble for you if I could. But I

am only Hermy Chesterton, a Tenth Avenue girl, and--my brother--So I'm

going to send you away, back to your own world, back to your own kind

because--because I do love you so! Ah, God, never doubt my love,

but--you must go--"

"Never, Hermione, never!"

"You must! You will, I know, because your love is a big, generous

love--because you are chivalrous and strong and gentle--because I beg

and implore you if you have any pity for me--go--"

"But why?--Why?"

"Oh, must I tell you that--can't you understand?"

"Why must I go, Hermione?"

"Because," she murmured, her yearning arms close about him, her face

close hidden against his breast, "because I'll never--marry

you--now--but I love you--love you so much that I'm afraid--ah, not of

you. So, I must be alone--quite alone--to fight my battle. And now--now

that I've shown you all my heart, told you all my weakness, you'll go

for my sake--just for my sake--won't you?"

"Yes--I'll--go!" he answered slowly.

"Away from here--to-night?"

"Yes," he answered hoarsely, "yes!"

Then Hermione fell suddenly before him on her knees, and, before he

could stay her, had caught his hands, kissing them, wetting them with

her tears, and pressing them passionately to her bosom.

"I knew," she cried, "I knew that you were strong and gentle and--good.

Good-by--oh, my love--good-by!"

"Hermione," said he, kissing her bowed head, "oh, my Hermione, I love

you with a love that will die only when I do. I want you, and I'll never

lose hope of winning you--some day, never give up my determination to

marry you--never, so help me God!"

Then swiftly he turned away but, reaching the door, stooped and picked

up M'Ginnis's neckerchief and, recognising it, crumpled it in fierce

hand; so, with it clenched in griping fingers, he hurried away and left

her there upon her knees.

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