Many times I could have forced my opinion on the boys and saved Fern

perhaps some bitter disappointments—“Let me do it. I’ll manage all this.

Let me know when you need anything.” But, instead, I merely stated my

attitude and said, “Here are the two alternatives. You want this; I

think the other is better. Neither of us can tell which is right. If you

choose your own way I’ll help you as long as you do it well, providing

you stop as soon as you know it is wrong and go back and pick up the

other. If experience teaches you a greater wisdom, you can call it

square.”

At Peddie Institute, Stuart was paying more attention to sports than

studies. It was easy for him to be an athlete. But he also had a logical

mind and a quick ability for co-ordinating hand and brain. When he was

ready for college he entered Sheffield Scientific School of Yale

University. His imagination was soon captured by archaeology and

medicine, but his course was already set.

Meanwhile Grant, who had been inclined to hero-worship his older

brother, had also gone to Peddie. His athletics left little opportunity

for bringing out his artistic talents, and he agreed to take his last

two years at Westminster School in Simsbury, Connecticut, where he was

encouraged to develop along his own lines. In his sophomore year at

Princeton, he still had no idea of what he wanted to do with his life.

Although he had a leaning towards diplomacy, which would include

training in law, I explained to him that, since the family had no

political influence, it might lead to being a small politician.

And so I made out a list of as many occupations known to man as I could

think of, and sent them to him, telling him to mark off with a blue

pencil those which he was perfectly sure did not appeal to him, and

check with red those for which he felt some predilection. Out

immediately went piano-mover, waiter, floorwalker, bank manager,

bookkeeper, and some fifty others.

Six months later, I returned him the red-checked list for further

perusal. Now his preferences were much more definite. Research,

journalism, editorial work, diplomacy were again red, but almost

everything else marked headed him for a scientific career.

The decision made, Grant began his pre-medical course.

After Stuart graduated from Yale he moved downtown to Wall Street and

continued in a broker’s office all during the depression. But, in this

money making atmosphere, his attitude was changing. He had concluded

that serving humanity was a higher fulfillment than profiting at

humanity’s expense, and medicine seemed the career which he also liked

best. Having found out, he had the courage to start back at the

beginning to accomplish it. We made a compact for him to go as far as he

could and test whether his interest kept up. First he had to acquire

sufficient chemistry and biology, going to Columbia University in the

daytime for the former, to New York University in the evening for the

latter, preparing his lessons until three in the morning.

The next year he passed his entrance examinations.

Following the legislative near-victory in the winter of 1934, I resolved

to go to Russia to see for myself what was happening in the greatest

social experiment of our age. With keen anticipation I looked forward to

discovering whether the Marxian philosophy, dramatized and realized and

based on an economic ideology, did not have to accept some of the

philosophy of Malthus.

Grant, then about to enter his final year at Cornell Medical School, was

eager to investigate the progress of medicine in the Soviet Union, and

made up his mind to come along. I was taking also my secretary, Florence

Rose, efficient, competent in any capacity, whether field organizing or

in the office. Though but recently enlisted in the movement, she had

come more with the attitude of the early days, not for what she could

get out of it, but for what she could give to its furtherance. Her

talents and enthusiasm, when added to her cheerfulness, made her a rare

combination; always gleeful and bubbling with fun, she carried out

nearly everything in that spirit.

Mrs. Ethel Clyde, an officer of the Federal legislative organization,

was to be the fourth of our little group within a large group. When zeal

for the “new civilization” in Russia had been at its height she had

relinquished her expensive Park Avenue apartment for a smaller one on a

side street, and contributed the difference in rent to sundry leftist

causes and birth control.

At the last moment it seemed we might not be able to go. For some years

Stuart had had a bad sinus condition, and hardly had he matriculated at

Cornell in the fall of 1933 when he had been struck by a squash racket,

fracturing the bone over his eye. That winter he had been operated on

nine times. A week before I was due to sail this doctor advised that he

have an exploratory operation. I rushed up from Washington, where the

legislative work for that session was just being wound up, and would

have abandoned the Russian expedition had not the operation apparently

been entirely successful. Stuart insisted that I go. Since he was in no

danger I continued with my plans.

It was not feasible to travel in Russia except in a party under official

guidance. Three people I knew who had gone by themselves described how

train after train had passed them, boat after boat had steamed down the

Volga with no accommodations available. Therefore, we chose the

non-partisan Second Russian Seminar.

Shortly prior to leaving I spent an evening with Maurice Hindus, Will

Durant, John Kingsbury, and Drs. Hannah and Abraham Stone, all of whom

had been to Russia the previous year. Maurice Hindus had returned

impersonal and still unprejudiced, Will Durant utterly antagonistic,

John Kingsbury full of fervor, and both Stones warmly disposed. They had

all been in Moscow, practically at the same time, for approximately the

same number of days, and all had received utterly dissimilar

impressions. Even pictures that Will Durant had taken were not the same

as those of John Kingsbury or Dr. Stone, snapped from almost identical

places, thus showing me how wide might be the variety of responses,

depending on the individual bias.

I expected to keep my eyes open, to think independently, to ask

questions, and compare. I was going to use as much sanity and fairness

as I possessed, and not be swept emotionally into any current of

opinion.

Billy Barber was the manager of the Seminar, and I did not envy him his

job. There were many complaints and stupid remarks and much

faultfinding. Most of the party were going merely to be able to say

those things were true which they had previously said were true. I asked

one woman who went on every sight-seeing expedition but never got out of

the bus, “Why did you come?”

“Oh, just to wipe Russia off my list.”

Edward Alsworth Ross was among the leaders. He was the only person who

had been there under the former regime some twenty years earlier, and

had an authoritative basis of contrast between the old and the new; we

all rather sat at his feet. He was a typical professor, wore enormously

high, stiff collars, played checkers with anybody who would indulge him,

and was upset when he failed to win. His personality was impressive,

literally so because wherever you looked you spied him. One of the

funniest sights was to see this Nordic giant, six feet four, walking

with short dark Florence Rose, five feet two, each jollying the other.

We scooted through England across to Copenhagen, about which I recall

very little. I was always trying to learn what advance the women’s

movement had made, but somebody was always trying to tell me how

marvelous the city was. Remembering Ellen Key, I reached Scandinavia

with great hopes for Feminism. But the women who were considered the

most intelligent were complacently resting on their laurels. The older

ones still reigned supreme and believed that, because they had won their

battles of twenty-five years ago, there was nothing left to fight for.

The younger group found it hard to rise above the inertia of this

overwhelming prestige. Since population was not a problem in

Scandinavia, they were interested chiefly in eugenics, and had almost

forgotten the aspect of individual suffering.

At Oslo a number of us went on pilgrimage to the grave of Ibsen. As I

stood there in silent tribute I had the feeling he had understood women

and the ties they had been loosening. To my mind Nora never went back to

the “doll’s house”; her evolution was too complete. Or, if she did

return, she entered by another door.

Mr. Barber had arranged to feed his hundred and six charges at the last

Finnish railroad station. There was a particular exhilaration about the

prospect of that meal, because it was to be our final one before

crossing into “famine-stricken” Russia. We arrived at ten in the

morning, all of us hungry. As we filed into the station our eyes met the

most gorgeous panorama—long tables beautifully laid out with delicious

meats, fish, breads, compotes.

While we paused, debating which of these delicacies to taste first,

there came a stampede of fifty other Americans, a tourist group led by

Sherwood Eddy. Never had I seen such an exhibition. The men, unshaven,

hatless, coatless, pushed and shoved around, in front of, and almost on

top of the tables. The best we could do was find comfortable seats from

which we could have a good view of the riot. The meal prepared by the

railroad with such courtesy for our party was demolished by another.

Barber and Eddy eventually discovered it was all a mistake. The train

carrying the Eddy-ites had failed to stop at the town where their repast

had been awaiting them, and naturally they supposed this breakfast was

theirs.

At Leningrad we were met by buses and driven through streets that

swarmed with imperturbable, peasant-like people. The upper parts of

their Mongolian-shaped heads all looked exactly the same. I noticed how

immaculate they were. Faces, necks, hands, were white as white and

displayed a cleanliness simply marvelous when you took into

consideration the difficulty of securing soap and water. Very few were

old; many were children apparently between the ages of two to twelve.

But in the expressions of all I glimpsed a sadness.

The former capital was depressing and down at heels, shabby and in need

of painting. Yet it was beyond comparison in its spacious dignity; the

architectural design of the houses could not be hidden. My

high-ceilinged room at the Astoria was luxurious with alcove bed, bath

room, and large marble tub, which, although cracked and spotted with

rust, nevertheless evidenced the days of splendor when the hotel had

been frequented by the aristocracy of the Old Regime.

From my window I could see the cobbled square. It was eight o’clock and

the city was awakening. I watched the passing show: heavy wagons were

drawn by a single and often most decrepit horse with what seemed a dark

brown rainbow, arched and graceful, over his neck; queues formed in

front of little stands that served rations of beer or bottled soda

water; some women, the varying colors in their shawls making bright

splotches, swept the car tracks with birch switches or pushed empty

carts on their way to market, others carried hods of cement up the

ladders to the masons on the new buildings being erected everywhere.

Usually the men were doing the skilled work, and women, hardy and

robust, with strong legs, bare feet, sunburned faces, were kept at the

laborious, monotonous, physical labor until such time as they could

qualify as expert artisans.

The Communists’ apartments were much better, lighter, airier, cleaner,

more modern than those for non-party members. When we asked why, in an

equalitarian state, one section should be thus privileged, we were

answered, “It was they who made all this possible. Why should they not

have the best? What you bourgeois give to your capitalists, we give to

our Communists.”

We asked Tanya, our guide, if she were a Communist, and she replied,

“Oh, no. That’s too hard.” Ordinary citizens might be excused for a

mistake or even a crime, but party members could have no human

frailties. They were exiled or perhaps shot for cheating, stealing,

deceiving, exploiting, taking money under false pretenses, or many

things which average people could do and be punished with fines alone.

Although the cost of the trip itself was relatively low, whatever we

bought in Russia was excessively high owing to the peculiar situation of

the ruble. In the first place, there was no ruble; it existed only in

theory. Second, every foreigner was supposed to deal exclusively with

the Torgsin stores through which the Government had cleverly contrived

to come by a hoard of foreign currency by charging seventy-eight cents

in our money for each ruble instead of its actual value of five cents.

For example, the price of a stamp on a letter to the United States,

which was two and a half rubles, amounted to two dollars.

Mrs. Clyde, who leaned sympathetically towards Communism, said to one of

our young men, “Let me get you a little present.”

“Not here,” he said. “It’ll be too expensive.”

“Oh, yes,” she insisted. “What would you like?”

“Well—a bar of almond chocolate, then.”

She had to pay ten American dollars for that ten-cent bar of chocolate.

Her Communism melted slightly.

Ultimately, we solved the ruble problem. One morning a boy who had been

loitering around the Astoria asked Grant, “Would you like me to take you

through the city?”

Grant prudently inquired, “How much?” It appeared that the boy merely

desired an opportunity to perfect his English; he had plenty of rubles,

which he was glad to dispose of at the rate of fifty for a dollar.

Russians could obtain none but the cheapest commodities on their

tickets; if they wanted luxuries such as good shirts, leather or rubber

boots, and other articles sold only at Torgsin, they were obliged to

surrender some treasured gold piece or use foreign money.

With an ample supply of rubles I sent long, elaborate cables to Stuart

to cheer him up. He must have thought an excessive maternal solicitude

was getting the better of my economic judgment. But, as a matter of

fact, one of twenty words was costing me less than twenty-five cents.

Dr. Nadina Kavanoky, who had been interested in birth control in the

United States, had given me a letter to her father, Dr. Reinstein, once

a dentist in Rochester, New York, now in Stalin’s close confidence. He

came to see me about eleven-thirty one night, the Russian calling hour,

and we talked until three in the morning. When he wanted to know my

“impressions of Russia,” I said promptly, “It seems to me your policy of

overcharging us is a mistake; for the sake of a few dollars you are

creating ill will, just as the French have done. In our own Seminar we

have twenty librarians and perhaps double that number of schoolteachers

and students, many of whom have gone without other vacations to come

here. They have a unique opportunity to influence people; everybody will

ask them when they get back, ‘Did you like Russia?’ You are trying to

build up a favorable public opinion abroad, and these people are the

best mediums for that purpose. If they are pleased they will fight for

you and break down prejudice.”

But he was not convinced, and, evoking the specter of the Tsarist debt

to America, he replied, “We’ll bleed you, we’ll milk you, we’ll get

every dollar out of you we can. America demands her pound of flesh and

this is how we’ll pay you.”

The occasions for receiving “pleasant impressions” were offered by

vigorous tours to points of interest. We were given a choice of hard

buses or harder ones, all, in my experience, springless and clattering

noisily over the cobble-paved streets. After a few bumps we usually hit

the roof and came down with headaches. Our poor little guides had to

screech with full lung power to be heard over the incessant rattling.

One morning when driving back from sight-seeing, the motor gasped and

collapsed on a slight hill. Passengers volunteered helpful

suggestions—“Put it in low. Put it in neutral. Push this. Pull that.”

The driver moved gears forward and backward and then looked around at us

in perplexity, “I did, but it won’t work.” We waited and waited and

waited and waited. Somebody ran a mile to telephone that we were

stranded and needed another bus. Meanwhile, everything we wanted to see

was closing, and we had already learned that whatever you missed in

Russia was always the most worth while. In fact, it seemed they had

visiting hours timed to end five minutes before you got there. Several

other buses came along and stopped. Their drivers got out, poked their

heads under the hood, began taking things apart, strewing bolts this way

and nuts that. Then they, too, became discouraged, and, leaving

increased confusion, climbed on their chariots again and went on.

Finally some bright young man discovered we were out of gas.

As we crossed the huge square in front of the hotel, I saw directly

ahead of us an enormous pile of bricks with wide spaces on both sides.

Closer and closer we came. “When will the driver turn?” I asked myself.

But he never did; we went right over the top and the bricks slipped out

from under. That was the Russian system. You could not go round an

obstacle; you must go over it.

Enlarged portraits of Lenin and Stalin were in all public buildings.

Their statues were everywhere, in every square, on every corner. A major

industry of Russia seemed to be to find new poses for Stalin—standing

up, lying down, writing, reading. Often just his head, definitely

recognizable in spite of the predominance of red, was designed in flower

beds. One of the most delicate attentions was to give him a different

colored necktie on different days; the plants were kept in pots to make

this charming gesture possible.

After the Revolution when peace had come, connoisseurs from various

countries had been invited to examine the recovered statues, rugs,

tapestries, and _objets d’art_ stolen from the palaces and churches. One

by one the priceless paintings were displayed, specialists rendered

their opinions, commercial dealers furnished appraisals, stenographers

took down every word. The same was done with the lapis lazuli tables,

the snuff boxes, the court jewels.

The interesting part of the new arrangement was that the interpretation

was entirely Marxian. Pictures, instead of being hung according to the

orthodox history of art, were fitted into the Industrial Revolution. A

certain Madonna was not admired for its qualities of color or form, or

as a thing of beauty in itself; the guide explained to you that it was

created at such and such a time when the Church was trying to get a hold

over the people, when artists were starving and had to look for their

means of livelihood to the patronage of the Church.

Later, in the Kremlin at Moscow we saw fantastic and incredible riches,

jeweled saddles, a whole set of harness studded with turquoise, a huge

casket cloth embroidered with thousands of pearls. In order to place the

period of the latter I asked Tanya where it had come from. She replied

in her precise English, “You see, it is for to cover the dead. You see,

in Russia there was such a custom. When they died they put them in the

ground. It was such a custom, you see, to cover them with cloths.”

She spoke of the Tsarist Regime as though it had been centuries ago.

One of the pictures was a Christ removed from the cross and lying on the

ground. Tanya said, “People used to come here, and they even kissed it!”

This she uttered in the tone of scorn of a very youthful generation

shocked and horrified at the ancient traditions.

“Our hope is in the young people,” she said frequently.

“But how old are you?”

“Oh, I’m thirty-two,” as though she were doddering.

Grant and I were once walking by a group of children when a small boy

pointed at us and remarked, “Ah, there go some of the dying race.” To

them all _Amerikanski_ were capitalists.

The Marxian ideology had been applied to every phase of life. H.G.,

accompanied by Gyp, his biologist son, had flown over from London. Since

he wanted an opportunity to go around alone, he rather resented being so

closely guarded and courteously guided. After talking with Stalin he had

come to the conclusion that the Dictator had no understanding of

economics. He was somewhat annoyed at the constant interpretation of

everything in terms of politics, and of having Marx stuffed down his

throat at every turn.

At the schools you might ask what kind of mathematics they taught.

“Marx.”

“And what system of engineering?”

“Marx.”

No matter what the question, the answer was Marx.

The Anti-Religious Museum, once a cathedral, was directly across from

the Astoria. Each half-hour little girls, who seemed hardly more than

ten or twelve, their sleeves hanging down over their finger tips, with

great dignity conducted excursions of peasants through. Their lecture

started with the fundamental principle that the earth was round. A

bas-relief of the world was underneath the huge pendulum which hung from

the dome. If you stood there long enough you saw it swing from one point

to a further one. They were trying to show that it was within man’s

power to make his own heaven.

Here were kept the relics of the churches, the icons laden with silver

and gold wrung from the poor peasants in the past. Actual concrete

things were reduced to their simplest terms on large poster-type murals

which depicted stories, a necessary practice since the muzhiks were so

generally illiterate. In one a kulak was coming to the priest with a

sick child in his arms, asking for prayers to cure its illness. The

priest, fat and clad in rich robes, shook his head, saying, “You must

bring money for the saint. The saint will not cure your child unless her

arms are covered with silver.” But the kulak had only his farm.

“Mortgage it and get the money,” the priest ordered. Soon the kulak

returned with silver, and the mural showed how now the saint’s arm was

almost hidden. But still the child remained sick. “The saint’s halo is

bare,” said the priest. At last the whole figure was silvered, but the

baby died just the same.

Opposite this mural was pictured the Soviet way. The father carried the

baby to the hospital, where nurses with gauze across their mouths took

it preciously, bathed it carefully, laid it in bed. The entire

sterilizing process was illustrated—the doctor in white gown and cap,

scrubbing and washing each hand five minutes as marked by a clock.

Finally you saw the child, healthy and well, jumping into its mother’s

arms.

The people stood there looking, their imaginations fired. They said,

“This is what is happening to us.”

Most particularly I wanted to investigate what had been done for women

and children in Russia, to learn whether they had been given the rights

and liberties due them in any humanitarian civilization. Grant, Rose, as

she was known to me, and I went one day to the Institute for the

Protection of Motherhood and Childhood, a vast establishment stretching

over several miles, with model clinics, nurseries, milk centers, and

educational laboratories. I was overwhelmed in contemplating the

undertaking. There was no doubt that the Government was exerting itself

strenuously to teach the rudiments of hygiene to an enormous population

that had previously known nothing of it. Russia was also aiming to free

women from the two bonds that enslaved them most—the nursery and the

kitchen. All over the country were crèches connected with the places

they worked.

Children were the priceless possessions of Russia. Their time was

planned for them from birth to the age of sixteen, when they were paid

to go to college, if they so desired. No longer were they a drain or

burden to their families. Not only were teachers or parents forbidden to

inflict corporal punishment, but children might even report their

parents for being vindictive, ill-humored, disorderly, and in many cases

they did so.

In one divorce dispute as to custody of the offspring, the father argued

that the mother was bad. The Judge asked, “Of what does her badness

consist?”

“She is nervous and loses her temper.”

The Judge agreed she was not fit for motherhood.

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