CHAPTER VI

Life in Vernon went on and on, and Stacey watched it proceed. But his

attitude remained one of scornful indifference through which flickered

occasional gleams of sudden eager interest, anger or hate. The

perception of greed was one of the things that stirred him most

frequently, and it grew within him until it amounted almost to a fixed

idea. His hatred of money, its symbol, became fanatical. He would have

renounced his own income entirely, except that he did not want to throw

himself into the mêlée just yet, but somehow to see things through from

outside—though through to where, he could not have said. As it was, he

retained two hundred dollars a month and sent the rest to the relief

fund for Viennese children. In this he was making no effort to live up

to a principle, to conform himself to some ideal of life; if he had

been, he would have sent all. He was, almost solely, striving for

freedom from something he hated. Not quite solely, however, or why did

he make this particular disposition of the money? He refused to answer

the question. He would be free from what he loved as well as from what

he hated.

One carefully covered-up aspect of life in Vernon did interest Stacey.

Existence there _seemed_ the same as formerly, people thought it

was—though perhaps a few of them only pretended to think so; but at

bottom certain fundamental relationships were shaken. Men paid eighteen

dollars for a pair of shoes for which five years back they would have

paid seven, or, not buying them, would next day have to pay

twenty-three; women would offer sixty dollars a month for a maid, then

not get her. The majority said that the cost of living was outrageous

and servants scarce, and went superbly on as before. But Stacey grinned

at them malignantly. He stamped on the ground and heard a hollow sound.

Therefore, although by this time his father talked to him almost with

constraint and gave him often a wistful puzzled glance, Stacey himself

felt a juster appreciation of his father than at first. Mr. Carroll was

partizan down to the tips of his toes, but he did know that more was

abroad than mere surface changes. His angry thought of Bolshevism was an

obsession. And, knowing his father’s nature to be kindly and impulsive,

Stacey gave him credit for something more than the mere desire to hold

what he had got,—which Stacey thought he discerned beneath the

vehemence of most perturbed capitalists—Colin Jeffries, for instance.

No, Mr. Carroll was in arms for principles he believed in.

As for Stacey, he neither believed in them nor in those that opposed

them. It was unfortunate. He would have been much happier if he could

have thrown himself actively into the fray on one side or the other. Not

because he craved human association; he did not. He was singularly

solitary and aloof—with a white-hot kind of aloofness. But because he

craved action.

There was strike after strike of labor in Vernon. They became almost the

only subject of conversation. Even women discussed them, at teas or in

their electrics as they drove to the movies. There was no coal for a

while; then the workmen in all the mills struck; then the river

dock-hands went out, and were promptly joined by the truck and dray men.

This last strike tied up nearly everything.

Stacey was interested. He walked down to strike headquarters one

afternoon and faced one of the sullen groups of men gathered in the

dishevelled yard before the low brick building.

“What is it you fellows want?” he asked curiously.

There ensued a rumble of hostile voices and some sharp cries. “Beat it,

you bum!” “Get to hell out of here, you damned aristocrat!”

“Oh, shut up! I want to know,” Stacey said impatiently. “You must have

some idea about it.”

The rumble became a roar, a man struck out at Stacey, and Stacey

promptly knocked him down. There was a general mix-up during which

Stacey was surprised to find a man—one of the laborers, so far as he

had time to see—fighting efficiently on his side.

The police, who must have been close-at-hand, presently smashed up the

affray and rescued the two, whereupon Stacey, rather battered, but

happier than he had been for a long while, swung about to investigate

his comrade-in-arms.

“By the Lord! Burnham!” he cried, with real pleasure.

“The same, Captain,” said the other, instinctively raising his hand in

salute, then dropping it again awkwardly.

But Stacey seized the hand and wrung it. Burnham had been first sergeant

in one of his two companies.

Stacey gave his name to the police, observed that he was much obliged

but that there was nothing to make a fuss about, and walked away with

Burnham.

“Quite like old times, eh?” he remarked.

“Oh, this!” said Burnham, and spat scornfully.

“What are you doing up here?” Stacey demanded. “Thought you lived in

Omaha.”

“Well, I did. And my wife and kids are still there with my wife’s

sister. But I heard there was good work with better pay up here, so I

come up to see, and I was drivin’ a truck, and then the boys went out—”

“Oh, look here!” cried Stacey. “Then you were one of them! I swear I’m

sorry! This will put you in bad with the others, won’t it?”

Burnham grinned. “They won’t exactly be coming around and begging me to

have another drink of ginger extract on them,” he admitted. “It don’t

matter, Captain, honest it don’t! I was going back to Omaha anyway.”

Stacey stopped walking and stared at him curiously. “Why on earth did

you side with me?” he asked.

“I dunno,” said the other, looking down and shuffling with his feet on

the sidewalk. “Habit, I guess. No,” he added, looking Stacey in the eye,

while a dull flush spread over his face, “no, it ain’t that. I’d go

anywhere you went, Captain, even if it was straight to hell. Pshaw, hell

would be a song compared with some of the places I’ve gone with you!”

Stacey was touched and also disturbed. What a responsibility! Here was a

bond with a vengeance!

“I’m blessed if I know why,” he murmured, and they walked on. “And yet,”

he exclaimed suddenly, “you’ve been here in Vernon for I don’t know how

long and haven’t even come to see me! Is hell the only place you’ll

accompany me to? Have you got a special preference for it?”

Burnham hung his head. “Well, you see,” he muttered, “you’re such a

confounded swell up here, Captain!”

Stacey again paused abruptly and turned on the man. “Damn you, Burnham,

I’m not!” he cried. “What do you say that for?”

“Well,” said Burnham apologetically, “maybe you don’t want to be, maybe

you ain’t, but I guess you’ll have a hell of a time not to be. Looks to

me like every one’s gone back the way they was before.”

Stacey felt profoundly discouraged, the comment was so obviously true.

“Was that what the men down there had against me?” he inquired almost

humbly, walking on once more.

“Sure!” Burnham assented. “The boys are all right, but they’re touchy.

And you blow in, not meaning any harm—but they didn’t know that, not

knowing you like I know you—and you ask them what the matter is, like a

man giving orders, and they get sore.”

Sullen anger with himself crept over Stacey. It was all true enough. He

_had_ spoken to the men crisply, like one in authority. There was no use

in explaining to them, or even to Burnham, that this was not because he

was a Vernon Carroll but because he could not rid himself of the

military habit of command in word and thought. There was no use in

explaining anything to anybody. Bonds? He was tied hand and foot with

them!

“By the way,” he asked quietly, “what _is_ it they want, Burnham?”

“They’re getting seventy cents an hour—my crowd, I mean. They want

eighty.”

“I see.”

They continued, in silence, until at last they reached the Carroll

house. Burnham paused to look up at it.

“Some place, Captain!” he observed appreciatively.

“You know it?”

“Yes, I—I’ve been by here before,” said Burnham sheepishly.

“Oh, you’ve been by here before, have you?” Stacey returned sharply.

“Well, you’re not going by this time. You’re coming in.”

“No, now listen, Captain! I’m going to take the ten P.M. for Omaha.”

“Well, you can start for it from here as well as from anywhere else.

Come now! March!”

Newspaper reporters were ringing Stacey insistently on the telephone.

“Pshaw!” he answered. “Nothing to it. Went down to strike headquarters

to ask silly questions, and got into a baby fracas, as I deserved to. No

casualties. No, I can’t tell you any more. There isn’t any more to

tell.”

He took Burnham up to his study and made him sit down. “Now I tell you

what we’ll do,” he said. “About nine-fifteen or so we’ll drive around to

your boarding-house or wherever it is you’ve been living and pick up

your things—”

Burnham was grinning. “Gee, Captain, you’re innocent, considering what

kind of things you’ve been through!” he interrupted. “D’you think after

what’s happened that I’d find any of my stuff there? I’d find a bunch of

the boys waiting to beat me up.”

“Oh!” said Stacey. And, paying no heed to Burnham’s embarrassed

protestations, he pulled a travelling-bag from a closet and packed it.

“Oh, shut up!” he said finally. “Go into the bath-room there and wash.

You’re even dirtier than I am.”

Presently the door of the study was thrown open and Mr. Carroll hurried

in, red-faced and out of breath. “I’ve just heard,” he panted. “Did

those damned scoundrels do you any—”

“Sh!” said Stacey, raising his finger to his lip, as Burnham came out of

the bath-room. “Father, this is Burnham, my first sergeant—C

Company—and as good a man as I’ve run up against. Incidentally, though

he’s one of the boys who’re striking, he turned in and fought them with

me this afternoon. Whole thing very silly. Neither of us hurt at all.

Burnham will stay to dinner.”

Mr. Carroll looked at Burnham keenly and held out his hand. “I’m glad to

know you, Sergeant,” he said.

“_American Legion Veteran Attacked By Strikers!_” announced the

newspaper headlines next morning.

“_The striking dock and dray men added another outrage to their

intolerable behavior when they yesterday violently attacked former

Captain Stacey Carroll, D.S.C., a hero of_ _numerous battles in the late

World War and son of Edward H. Carroll of this city. Captain Carroll had

gone to strike headquarters at 13 Plumb Street at about five o’clock

yesterday afternoon in a generous attempt to learn the men’s side of the

case. His friendly questions, however, were met by a brutal assault.

This time, however, the strikers mistook their man, and the only result

of the attempted outrage is that Michael Dennis (24) has a broken nose,

Vladimir Sarovitch (20) a black and blue facial coloring that improves

his former appearance, while Lorenzo Cecchi (21) is in the City Hospital

with a fractured wrist. The public will be relieved to learn that

Captain Carroll is uninjured except for a few superficial bruises.

Dennis and Sarovitch were arrested on a charge of assault and battery

but were promptly released on bail, money, as is well known, being

plentiful at strike headquarters._

“_This brutal and uncalled-for assault upon a hero of the World War

marks_” . . . etc.

Stacey was infuriated. He wrote a sharp fetter to the paper, then, with

grudging common sense, tore it up and wrote another milder one in which

he protested that the whole affair was due to a misunderstanding and was

anyway too unimportant to deserve mention in the press.

He went to the hospital to see Cecchi, a handsome dark-haired Neapolitan

who stared at him angrily at first out of immense black eyes till Stacey

apologized to him in Italian, after which the two conversed in that

language with an increasing good humor that was heightened by their

puzzled pauses over Stacey’s mistakes and Cecchi’s dialect. The

interview put them almost on terms of intimacy. Stacey gave the

Neapolitan, who had fought in the Battle of the Piave, some Austrian

bank-notes printed in Italian for use in Venetia during the invasion,

and Cecchi responded with a tiny silver medal of the Madonna.

“_Accidenti alla stampa!_” (damn newspapers!) they agreed heartily.

But Stacey’s pleasant frame of mind on leaving the hospital was

destroyed by his glimpse of the morning paper’s noon edition. His letter

was there, but ruined by the caption above: “_Captain Carroll’s Generous

Reply—Makes Light of Cowardly Attack—Would Exonerate Strikers_,” and

by the fulsome eulogy of his behavior that followed. A vibrant editorial

completed the wreck, insisting that while the personal magnanimity shown

in Captain Carroll’s letter must appeal to every red-blooded citizen,

the time had at last come when law and order must be . . . etc.

Without the slightest desire to align himself either on one side or the

other, save that he felt a little more personal sympathy with the

strikers, who anyway lived in touch with the few realities of life, than

with their opponents, Stacey saw himself established irremediably as a

Saint-George-like champion of law and order. He damned the press more

earnestly than before. He lunched at the club with his father, whose

eyes shone with approval of him, and he had, moreover, to undergo an

ordeal of praise and congratulation from his father’s friends, together

with briefer, less intense words from men of his own age. (The younger

men, he told himself, were anyhow less grandiloquent nowadays than the

older, though perhaps this was only because they _were_ younger). Once

or twice he tried impatiently to explain the silly business as it really

was, but unavailingly. Anything he said was taken, he saw, as merely a

further proof of his generosity. He gave up the attempt sulkily. Clearly

his position was fixed. People had made up their minds about him, his

reputation was solidly established, and nothing he might henceforth do

could affect it. It struck him that the levity with which people

acquired convictions would be ghastly if it were not so ridiculous.

Deserting the club with a feeling of relief, he wandered aimlessly about

the city. But toward five o’clock, being caught in a sudden rain-shower,

he took refuge in Philip Blair’s house.

As a matter of fact, there were other houses closer-by that would have

afforded shelter, and it was at least partly from preference that he

chose this one. He had not regained his old warm affection for Phil and

Catherine, but their society was like a temporary balm applied to his

fevered restless mind. No touch of greed was in them. They were, Stacey

concluded, hardly human.

Phil had not yet returned from the office, but Catherine was at home

with her two sons—Carter, now nine years old, and Jack, who was seven.

She welcomed him with her pleasant smile, that was like light shining

coolly through an alabaster bowl, but also with characteristic

constraint. She was only perfectly at ease with him when Phil, too, was

present and less demand for expression was thus put upon her. “Shy,”

thought Stacey once again. “Shy as Truth herself!” But he did not mind

her shyness; he liked it. Being with Catherine was like bathing in a

bottomless pool of clear translucent water. Fancies such as this,

resembling those among which he had formerly lived so familiarly, came

to him now only when he was with the Blairs. The fact should have

revealed to him much that was obscure in himself; but it did not.

There was no constraint in Carter’s and Jack’s greetings.

“Uncle Stacey,” cried Carter immediately, “I got A in arithmetic on my

report in New York and A in reading and B-Plus in spelling!”

“Well, that’s good,” said Stacey. “What did you get in conduct?”

Catherine smiled.

“C-Plus,” said Carter in a small voice. But his depression did not last

long. “Uncle Stacey,” he exclaimed, “do ‘Fly away, Jack! Fly away,

Jill!’ for him.” He pointed to his brother. “I bet he can’t guess the

secret! I bet he’ll look all over the room for them!” And Carter grinned

a delighted toothless grin.

“H’m!” observed Stacey, obediently making the necessary preparations, “I

remember some one else who looked all over the room for them a few years

ago.”

“I guess you mean me,” Carter replied. “Well, I guess I did. I guess I

was awful stupid maybe.”

“Carter,” said his mother, with a laugh, “there aren’t that many

‘guesses’ in the whole dictionary.”

Presently Phil arrived. He looked tired with the heat, but his thin face

brightened when he saw Stacey there playing with the boys.

“Stacey, you’re a fraud!” he said. “What sort of behavior is this for a

misanthrope? You ought to be gloating over what Jack and Carter will

grow up to be.”

Catherine put an end to the game and sent the boys out to play on the

porch. “Yes,” she said, as she closed the door upon them, “I guess

Stacey doesn’t mean all he says. I guess he’s really kind-hearted. I

guess he likes children, maybe.”

Phil stared at his wife and smiled. “For heaven’s sake, Catherine,” he

demanded, “what’s come over your English?”

Stacey laughed. “Corrupting effect of Carter,” he explained. “Yes, of

course I like children.”

“Would you like to have some of your own?” Phil asked.

Stacey reflected, frowning. “Yes,” he replied at last, “I think so. Just

one, a boy, so that I could try bringing him up.”

Phil and Catherine both laughed.

“Upon my word,” said the former, “this is delightful! Fancy finding you

not merely humanly usual but positively universal—a bachelor with

theories on education! What is your present theory, my son?”

Stacey smiled. However, it had become difficult for him to smile, and

when he did so his face took on uneasy lines. He was not at his best

when smiling. He was at his best when his face remained impassive and

soldierly.

“Oh,” he said drily, “it’s a romantic enough theory, quite

Rousseau-like. I’ve just invented it this minute. If I had a son I

should take him to live in the country, in some place where the

landscape was neither too grand, and thus apt to arouse vast disturbing

aspirations in him, nor yet ignominious and depressing, like these dingy

middle-western plains. I would have him live among trees, that are

handsome and do no harm, and associate familiarly with a great many

kindly simple-minded animals such as dogs, cows and horses, with a few

cultivated elegant animals such as cats, and—less frequently and

intimately—with one or two goats, who are old, sophisticated and

skeptical, the _libres penseurs_ among animals.”

“And with no humans at all, eh?”

“Well,” said Stacey dubiously, “perhaps now and then an occasional, very

choice human, such as you or Catherine, just to show him what human

beings _can_ become,—but rarely, Phil, rarely!”

“Thanks, from Catherine and myself,” Phil observed, with a rather weary

smile, “but I’d rather you’d select some one else. I should be

profoundly unwilling to pose as an example.”

“And I!” echoed Catherine. “Besides, I shouldn’t have time. I should

have to be getting dinner for Phil and the boys—just as I must do now.”

And she rose. “I’ve not been able to find a maid yet.”

But Stacey, considering Catherine and Phil, perceived, with a softening

touch of sympathy, that they were both very tired and that no doubt he

had been adding to their fatigue. These two lived with a life of their

own, apart, serene, modestly adding their few grains of pure gold to

that appallingly small treasure which represented the sole remainder of

all these ages and ages of human existence. Yet because they did so,

thought Stacey, because they were clear pin-points of light in chaos,

all life was against them, chillingly indifferent where not actively

hostile. The blackness swirled about with a malignant, dully sentient

desire to engulf and extinguish them. They were repaid for their

foolhardy torch-bearing, their unforgivable sin of having some meaning,

by being ground down beneath the sordid difficulties of bare existence.

Ames Price, who played golf, or Jimmy Prout, who tried law suits, or

Colin Jeffries, who handled a dozen corporations of no value to life,

had carpets unrolled obsequiously before them as they walked; while Phil

must wear his genius frayed on hack labor and Catherine must cook for

her family in a small hot kitchen. “What a brute of a world! What an

ugly perverse mess of a world!” thought Stacey, with a fierce sick

disgust. Worth nothing! Its hard won treasure was too tiny to justify

such a colossal grovelling incoherence.

But while Stacey was reflecting moodily in this manner Catherine had

gone into the kitchen. Stacey could hear her there, moving pots and

pans. Suddenly he sprang up and went out after her.

“Look here, Catherine!” he said. “It’s too hot to cook this evening!

Come on out with me. We’ll all go and have dinner at a chop-suey place.

The boys, too, of course.”

She looked at him doubtfully for just a moment, then smiled. “Thank you,

Stacey,” she said simply. “That will be awfully pleasant. I think Phil

is pretty tired. I’ll go and get the boys ready.”

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