CHAPTER II

She pushed them in, and shut the door behind them. They looked

round them in amazement. Here was an _atelier_ precisely

corresponding in size and outlook to Dubois'. But to their

tired eyes the change was one from squalor to fairyland. The

room was not in fact luxurious at all. But there was a Persian

rug or two on the polished floor; there was a wood fire burning

on the hearth, and close to it there was a low sofa or divan

covered with pieces of old stuffs, and flanked by a table whereon

stood a little meal, a roll, some cut ham, part of a flat fruit

tart from the _patissier_ next door, a coffee pot, and a spirit

kettle ready for lighting. There were two easels in the room;

one was laden with sketches and photographs; the other carried

a half-finished picture of a mosque interior in Oran--a rich

splash of colour, making a centre for all the rest. Everywhere

indeed, on the walls, on the floor, or standing on the chairs,

were studies of Algeria, done with an ostentatiously bold and

rapid hand. On the mantelpiece was a small reproduction in terra

cotta of one of Dalou's early statues, a peasant woman in a long

cloak straining her homely baby to her breast--true and passionate.

Books lay about, and in a corner was a piano, open, with a

confusion of tattered music upon it. And everywhere, as it seemed

to Louie, were _shoes!_--the daintiest and most fantastic shoes

imaginable--Turkish shoes, Pompadour shoes, old shoes and new

shoes, shoes with heels and shoes without, shoes lined with fur,

and shoes blown together, as one might think, out of cardboard

and ribbons. The English girl's eyes fastened upon them at once.

'Ah, you tink my shoes pretty,' said the hostess, speaking a few words

of English, _'c'est mon dada, voyez-vous--ma collection!--Tenez_--I

cannot say dat in English, Monsieur; explain to your sister. My shoes

are my passion, next to my foot. I am not pretty, but my foot is

ravishing. Dalou modelled it for his Siren. That turned my head. Sit

down, Mademoiselle--we will find some plat

es.'

She pushed Louie into a corner of the divan, and then she went over

to a cupboard standing against the wall, and beckoned to David.

'Take the plates--and this potted meat. Now for the _petit

vin_ my doctor cousin brought me last week from the family

estate. I have stowed it away somewhere. Ah! here it is. We are

from the Gironde--at least my mother was. My father was

nobody--_bourgeois_ from tip to toe, though he called himself

an artist. It was a _mesalliance_ for her when she married

him. Oh, he led her a life!--she died when I was small, and last

year _he_ died, eleven months ago. I did my best to cry.

_Impossible!_ He had made Maman and me cry too much. And now I

am perfectly alone in the world, and perfectly well-behaved.

Monsieur Prudhomme may talk--I snap my finger at him. You will have

your ideas, of course. No matter! If you eat my salt, you will

hardly be able to speak ill of me.'

'Mademoiselle!' cried David, inwardly cursing his shyness--a

shyness new to him--and his complete apparent lack of anything to

say, or the means of saying it.

'Oh, don't protest!--after that journey you can't afford to waste

your breath. Move a little, Monsieur--let me open the other door of

the cupboard--there are some chocolates worth eating on that back

shelf. Do you admire my _armoire?_ It is old Breton--it

belonged to my grandmother, who was from Morbihan. She brought her

linen in it. It is cherry wood, you see, mounted in silver. You may

search Paris for another like it. Look at that flower work on the

panels. It is not _banal_ at all--it has character--there is

real design in it. Now take the chocolates, and these sardine--put

them down over there. As for me, I make the coffee.'

She ran over to the spirit lamp, and set it going; she measured out

the coffee; then sitting down on the floor, she took the bellows

and blew up the logs.

'Tell me your name, Monsieur?' she said suddenly, looking round.

David gave it in full, his own name and Louie's. Then he walked up

to her, making an effort to be at his ease, and said something

about their French descent. His mode of speaking was slow and

bookish--correct, but wanting in life. After this year's devotion

to French books, after all his compositions with Barbier, he had

supposed himself so familiar with French! With the woman from the

_loge_, indeed, he could have talked at large, had she been

conversational instead of rude. But here, with this little glancing

creature, he felt himself plunged in a perfect quagmire of

ignorance and stupidity. When he spoke of being half French, she

became suddenly grave, and studied him with an intent piercing

look. 'No,' she said slowly, 'no, at bottom you are not French a bit,

you are all English, I feel it. I should fight you--_a outrance!

Grive_--what a strange name! It's a bird's name. You are not

like it--you do not belong to it. But _David_!--ah, that is

better. _Voyons_!'

She sprang up, ran over to the furthest easel, and, routing about

amongst its disorder of prints and photographs, she hit upon one,

which she held up triumphantly.

'There, Monsieur!--there is your prototype. That is David--the

young David--scourge of the Philistine. You are bigger and broader.

I would rather fight him than you--but it is like you, all the

same. Take it.'

And she held out to him a photograph of the Donatello David at

Florence--the divine young hero in his shepherd's hat, fresh from

the slaying of the oppressor.

He looked at it, red and wondering, then shook his head.

'What is it? Who made it, Mademoiselle?'

'Donatello--oh, I never saw it. I was never in Italy, but a friend

gave it me. It is like you, I tell you. But, what use is that? You

are English--yes, you _are_, in spite of your mother. It is

very well to be called David--you may be Goliath all the time!'

Her tone had grown hard and dry--insulting almost. Her look sent

him a challenge.

He stared at her dumbfounded. All the self-confidence with which he

had hitherto governed his own world had deserted him. He was like a

tongue-tied child in her hands.

She enjoyed her mastery, and his discomfiture. Her look changed and

melted in an instant.

'I am rude,' she said, 'and you can't answer me back--not yet--for a

day or two. _Pardon_! Monsieur David--Mademoiselle--will you

come to supper?'

She put chairs and waved them to their places with the joyous

animation of a child, waiting on them, fetching this and that, with

the quickest, most graceful motions. She had brought from the

_armoire_ some fine white napkins, and now she produced a

glass or two and made her guests provide themselves with the red

wine which neither had ever tasted before, and over which Louie

made an involuntary face. Then she began to chatter and to

eat--both as fast as possible--now laughing at her own English or

at David's French, and now laying down her knife and fork that she

might look at Louie with an intent professional look which

contrasted oddly with the wild freedom of her talk and movements.

Suddenly she took up a wineglass and held it out to David with a

piteous childish gesture.

'Fill it, Monsieur, and then drink--drink to my good luck. I wish

for something--with my _life_--my soul; but there are people

who hate me, who would delight to see me crushed. And it will be

three weeks--three long long weeks, almost--before I know.'

She was very pale, the tears had sprung to her eyes, and the hand

holding the glass trembled. David flushed and frowned in the vain

desire to understand her.

'What am I to do?' he said, taking the glass mechanically, but

making no use of it.

'Drink!--drink to my success. I have two pictures, Monsieur, in the

Salon; you know what that means? the same as your _Academie?

Parfaitement!_ ah! you understand. One is well hung, on the

line; the other has been shamefully treated--but _shamefully!_

And all the world knows why. I have some enemies on the jury, and

they delight in a mean triumph over me--a triumph which is a

scandal. But I have friends, too--good friends--and in three weeks

the rewards will be voted. You understand? the medals, and the

_mentions honorables_. As for a medal--no! I am only two years

in the _atelier;_ I am not unreasonable. But a _mention!

_--ah! Monsieur David, if they don't give it me I shall be very

miserable.'

Her voice had gone through a whole gamut of emotion in this

speech--pride, elation, hope, anger, offended dignity--sinking

finally to the plaintive note of a child asking for consolation.

And luckily David had followed her. His French novels had brought

him across the Salon and the jury system; and Barbier had told him

tales. His courage rose. He poured the wine into the glass with a

quick, uncertain hand, and raised it to his lips.

'_A la gloire de Mademoiselle!_' he cried, tossing it down

with a gesture almost as free and vivid as her own.

Her eye followed him with excitement, taking in every detail of the

action--the masculine breadth of chest, the beauty of the dark head

and short upper lip.

'Very good--very good!' she said, clapping her small hands. 'You did

that admirably--you improve--_n'est-ce pas, Mademoiselle?_'

But Louie only stared blankly and somewhat haughtily in return. She

was beginning to be tired of her silent _role_, and of the

sort of subordination it implied. The French girl seemed to divine

it, and her.

'She does not like me,' she said, with a kind of wonder under her

breath, so that David did not catch the words. 'The other is quite

different.'

Then, springing up, she searched in the pockets of her jacket for

something--lips pursed, brows knitted, as though the quest were

important.

'Where are my cigarettes?' she demanded sharply. 'Ah! here they are.

Mademoiselle--Monsieur.'

Louie laughed rudely, pushing them back without a word. Then she

got up, and began boldly to look about her. The shoes attracted

her, and some Algerian scarves and burnouses that were lying on a

distant chair. She went to turn them over.

Mademoiselle Delaunay looked after her for a moment--with the same

critical attention as before--then with a shrug she threw herself

into a corner of the divan, drawing about her a bit of old

embroidered stuff which lay there. It was so flung, however, as to

leave one dainty foot in an embroidered silk stocking visible

beyond it. The tone of the stocking was repeated in the bunch of

violets at her neck, and the purples of the flowers told with

charming effect against her white skin and the pale fawn colour of

her dress and hair. David watched her with intoxication. She could

hardly be taller than most children of fourteen, but her

proportions were so small and delicate that her height, whatever it

was, seemed to him the perfect height for a woman. She handled her

cigarette with mannish airs; unless it were some old harridan in a

collier's cottage, he had never seen a woman smoke before, and

certainly he had never guessed it could become her so well. Not

pretty! He was in no mood to dissect the pale irregular face with

its subtleties of line and expression; but, as she sat there

smoking and chatting, she was to him the realisation--the climax of

his dream of Paris. All the lightness and grace of that dream, the

strangeness, the thrill of it seemed to have passed into her.

'Will you stay in those rooms?' she inquired, slowly blowing away

the curls of smoke in front of her.

David replied that he could not yet decide. He looked as he

felt--in a difficulty.

'Oh! _you_ will do well enough there. But your

sister--_Tenez_! There is a family on the floor below--an

artist and his wife. I have known them take _pensionnaires_.

They are not the most distinguished persons in the world--_mais

enfin_!--it is not for long. Your sister might do worse than

board with them.'

David thanked her eagerly. He would make all inquiries. He had in

his pocket a note of introduction from Dubois to Madame Cervin, and

another, he believed, to the gentleman on the ground floor--to M.

Montjoie, the sculptor.

'Ah! M. Montjoie!'

Her brows went up, her grey eyes flashed. As for her tone it was

half amused, half contemptuous. She began to speak, moved

restlessly, then apparently thought better of it.

'After all,' she said, in a rapid undertone, '_qu'est-ce que cela

me fait? Allons._ Why did you come here at all, instead of to an

hotel, for so short a time?'

He explained as well as he was able.

'You wanted to see something of French life, and French artists or

writers?' she repeated slowly, 'and you come with introductions from

Xavier Dubois! _C'est drole, ca._ Have you studied art?'

He laughed.

'No--except in books.'

'What books?'

'Novels--George Sand's.'

It was her turn to laugh now.

'You are really too amusing! No, Monsieur, no; you interest me.

I have the best will in the world towards you; but I cannot ask

Consuelos and Teverinos to meet you. _Pas possible._ I regret--'

She fell into silence a moment, studying him with a merry look.

Then she broke out again.

'Are you a connoisseur in pictures, Monsieur?'

He had reddened already under her _persiflage._ At this he

grew redder still.

'I have never seen any, Mademoiselle,' he said, almost piteously;

'except once a little exhibition in Manchester.'

'Nor sculpture?'

'No,' he said honestly; 'nor sculpture.'

It seemed to him he was being held under a microscope, so keen and

pitiless were her laughing eyes. But she left him no time to resent

it.

'So you are a blank page, Monsieur--virgin soil--and you confess

it. You interest me extremely. I should even like to teach you a

little. I am the most ignorant person in the world. I know nothing

about artists in books. _Mais je suis artiste, moi! fille

d'artiste._ I could tell you tales--'

She threw her graceful head back against the cushion behind her,

and smiled again broadly, as though her sense of humour were

irresistibly tickled by the situation.

Then a whim seized her, and she sat up, grave and eager.

'I have drawn since I was eight years old,' she said; 'would you

like to hear about it? It is not romantic--not the least in the

world--but it is true.'

And with what seemed to his foreign ear a marvellous swiftness and

fertility of phrase, she poured out her story. After her mother

died she had been sent at eight years old to board at a farm near

Rouen by her father, who seemed to have regarded his daughter now

as plaything and model, now as an intolerable drag on the freedom

of a vicious career. And at the farm the child's gift declared

itself. She began with copying the illustrations, the saints and

holy families in a breviary belonging to one of the farm servants;

she went on to draw the lambs, the carts, the horses, the farm

buildings, on any piece of white wood she could find littered about

the yard, or any bit of paper saved from a parcel, till at last the

old cure took pity upon her and gave her some chalks and a

drawing-book. At fourteen her father, for a caprice, reclaimed her,

and she found herself alone with him in Paris. To judge from the

hints she threw out, her life during thee next few years had been

of the roughest and wildest, protected only by her indomitable

resolve to learn, to make herself an artist, come what would. 'I

meant to be _famous_, and I mean it still!' she said, with a

passionate emphasis which made David open his eyes. Her father

refused to believe in her gift, and was far too self-indulgent and

brutal to teach her. But some of his artist friends were kind to

her, and taught her intermittently; by the help of some of them she

got permission, although under age, to copy in the Louvre, and with

hardly any technical knowledge worked there feverishly from morning

to night; and at last Taranne--the great Taranne, from whose

_atelier_ so many considerable artists had gone out to the

conquest of the public--Taranne had seen some of her drawings,

heard her story, and generously taken her as a pupil.

Then emulation took hold of her--the fierce desire to be first in

all the competitions of the _atelier_. David had the greatest

difficulty in following her rapid speech, with its slang, its

technical idioms, its extravagance and variety; but he made out

that she had been for a long time deficient in sound training, and

that her rivals at the _atelier_ had again and again beaten

her easily in spite of her gift, because of her weakness in the

grammar of her art.

'And whenever they beat me I could have killed my conquerors; and

whenever I beat them, I despised my judges and wanted to give the

prize away. It is not my fault. _Je suis faite comme ça--voilà!

_ I am as vain as a peacock; yet when people admire anything I

do, I think them fools--_fools!_ I am jealous and proud and

absurd--so they all say; yet a word, a look from a real

artist--from one of the great men who _know_--can break me,

make me cry. _Demelez ca, Monsieur, si vous pouvez!_'

She stopped, out of breath. Their eyes were on each other. The

fascination, the absorption expressed in the Englishman's look

startled her. She hurriedly turned away, took up her cigarette

again, and nestled into the cushion. He vainly tried to clothe some

of the quick comments running through his mind in adequate French,

could find nothing but the most commonplace phrases, stammered out

a few, and then blushed afresh. In her pity for him she took up her

story again.

After her father's sudden death, the shelter, such as it was, of

his name and companionship was withdrawn. What was she to do? It

turned out that she possessed a small _rente_ which had belonged to

her mother, and which her father had never been able to squander.

Two relations from her mother's country near Bordeaux turned up to

claim her, a country doctor and his sister--middle-aged, devout--to

her wild eyes at least, altogether forbidding.

'They made too much of their self-sacrifice in taking me to live

with them,' she said with her little ringing laugh. 'I said to

them--"My good uncle and aunt, it is too much--no one could have

the right to lay such a burden upon you. Go home and forget me. I

am incorrigible. I am an artist. I mean to live by myself, and work

for myself. I am sure to go to the bad--good morning." They went

home and told the rest of my mother's people that I was insane. But

they could not keep my money from me. It is just enough for me.

Besides, I shall be selling soon,--certainly I shall be selling! I

have had two or three inquiries already about one of the exhibits

in the Salon. Now then--_talk_, Monsieur David!' and she

emphasised the words by a little frown; 'it is your turn.'

And gradually by skill and patience she made him talk, made him

give her back some of her confidences. It seemed to amuse her

greatly that he should be a bookseller. She knew no booksellers in

Paris; she could assure him they were all pure _bourgeois_,

and there was not one of them that could be likened to Donatello's

David. Manchester she had scarcely heard of; she shook her fair

head over it. But when he told her of his French reading, when he

waxed eloquent about Rousseau and George Sand, then her mirth

became uncontrollable.

'You came to France to talk of Rousseau and George Sand?' she asked

him with dancing eyes--'_Mon Dieu! mon Dieu!_ what do you

take us for?'

This time his vanity was hurt. He asked her to tell him what she

meant--why she laughed at him.

'I will do better than that,' she said; 'I will get some friend of

mine to take you to-morrow to "Les Trois Rats."'

'What is "Les Trois Rats"?' he asked, half wounded and half

mystified.

'"Les Trois Rats," Monsieur, is an artist's cafe. It is famous, it

is characteristic; if you are in search of local colour you must

certainly go there. When you come back you will have some fresh

ideas, I promise you.'

He asked if ladies also went there.

'Some do; I don't. Conventions mean nothing to me, as you perceive,

or I should have a companion here to play propriety. But like you,

perhaps, I am Romantic. I believe in the grand style. I have ideas

as to how men should treat me. I can read Octave Feuillet. I have a

terrible weakness for those _cavaliers_ of his. And garbage

makes me ill. So I avoid the "Trois Rats."'

She fell silent, resting her little chin on her hand. Then with a

sudden sly smile she bent forward and looked him in the eyes.

'Are you pious, Monsieur, like all the English? There is some

religion left in your country, isn't there?'

'Yes, certainly,' he admitted, 'there was a good deal.'

Then, hesitating, he described his own early reading of Voltaire,

watching its effect upon her, afraid lest here too he should say

something fatuous, behind the time, as he seemed to have been doing

all through.

'Voltaire!'--she shrugged her little shoulders--'Voltaire to me is

just an old _perruque_--a prating philanthropical person who talked

about _le bon Dieu_, and wrote just what every _bourgeois_ can

understand. If he had had his will and swept away the clergy and

the Church, how many fine subjects we artists should have lost!'

He sat helplessly staring at her. She enjoyed his perplexity a

minute; then she returned to the charge.

'Well, my credo is very short. Its first article is art--and its

second is art--and its third is art!'

Her words excited her. The delicate colour flushed into her cheek.

She flung her head back and looked straight before her with

half-shut eyes.

'Yes--I believe in art--and expression--and colour--and _le

vrai_. Velazquez is my God, and--and he has too many prophets to

mention! I was devout once for three months--since then I have

never had as much faith of the Church sort as would lie on a

ten-sous piece. But'--with a sudden whimsical change of voice--'I

am as credulous as a Breton fisherman, and as superstitious as a

gipsy! Wait and see. Will you look at my pictures?'

She sprang up and showed her sketches. She had been a winter in

Algiers, and had there and in Spain taken a passion for the East,

for its colour, its mystery, its suggestions of cruelty and

passion. She chattered away, explaining, laughing, haranguing, and

David followed her submissively from thing to thing, dumb with the

interest and curiosity of this new world and language of the

artist.

Louie meanwhile, who, after the refreshment of supper, had been

forgetting both her fatigue and the other two in the entertainment

provided her by the shoes and the Oriental dresses, had now found a

little inlaid coffer on a distant table, full of Algerian trinkets,

and was examining them. Suddenly a loud crash was heard from her

neighbourhood.

Elise Delaunay stood still. Her quick speech, died on her lips. She

made one bound forward to Louie; then, with a cry, she turned

deathly pale, tottered, and would have fallen, but that David ran

to her.

'The glass is broken,' she said, or rather gasped; 'she has broken

it--that old Venetian glass of Maman's. Oh! my pictures!--my pictures!

How can I undo it? _Je suis perdue_! Oh go!--go!--_go_--both of you!

Leave me alone! Why did I ever see you?'

She was beside herself with rage and terror. She laid hold of

Louie, who stood in sullen awkwardness and dismay, and pushed her

to the door so suddenly and so violently that the stronger, taller

girl yielded without an attempt at resistance. Then holding the

door open, she beckoned imperiously to David, while the tears

streamed down her cheeks.

'Adieu, Monsieur--say nothing--there is nothing to be said--go!'

He went out bewildered, and the two in their amazement walked

mechanically to their own door.

'She is mad!' said Louie, her eyes blazing, when they paused and

looked at each other. 'She must be mad. What did she say?'

'What happened?' was all he could reply.

'I threw down that old glass--it wasn't my fault--I didn't see it.

It was standing on the floor against a chair. I moved the chair

back just a trifle, and it fell. A shabby old thing--I could have

paid for another easily. Well, I'm not going there again to be

treated like that.'

The girl was furious. All that chafed sense of exclusion and

slighted importance which had grown upon her during David's

_tete-a-tete_ with their strange hostess came to violent

expression in her resentment. She opened the door of their room,

saying that whatever he might do she was going to bed and to sleep

somewhere, if it was on the floor.

David made a melancholy light in the squalid room, and Louie went

about her preparations in angry silence. When she had withdrawn

into the little cupboard-room, saying carelessly that she supposed

he could manage with one of the bags and his great coat, he sat

down on the edge of the bare iron bedstead, and recognised with a

start that he was quivering all over--with fatigue, or excitement?

His chief feeling perhaps was one of utter discomfiture, flatness,

and humiliation.

He had sat there in the dark without moving for some minutes, when

his ear caught a low uncertain tapping at the door. His heart

leapt. He sprang up and turned the key in an instant.

There on the landing stood Elise Delaunay, her arms filled with

what looked like a black bearskin rug, her small tremulous face and

tear-wet eyes raised to his.

'_Pardon_, Monsieur,' she said hurriedly. 'I told you I was

superstitious--well, now you see. Will you take this rug?--one can

sleep anywhere with it though it is so old. And has your sister

what she wants? Can I do anything for her? No! _Alors_--I must

talk to you about her in the morning. I have some more things in my

head to say. _Pardon!--et bonsoir. '_

She pushed the rug into his hands. He was so moved that he let it

drop on the floor unheeding, and as she looked at him, half

audacious, half afraid, she saw a painful struggle, as of some

strange new birth, pass across his dark young face. They stood so a

moment, looking at each other. Then he made a quick step forward

with some inarticulate words. In an instant she was halfway along

the corridor, and, turning back so that her fair hair and smiling

eyes caught the light she held, she said to him with the queenliest

gesture of dismissal:

'_Au revoir_, Monsieur David, sleep well.'

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