CHAPTER IX.

Gervase saunters in to his hostess's boudoir the next morning, availing

himself of the privilege accorded to that distant relationship which it

pleases them both to raise into an intimate cousinship. It is a charming

boudoir, style Louis Quinze, with the walls hung with flowered silk of

that epoch, and the dado made of fans which belonged to the same period.

Lady Usk writes here at a little secretaire painted by Fragonard, and

uses an inkstand said to have belonged to Madame de Parabere, made in

the shape of a silver shell driven by a gold Cupidon; yet, despite the

frivolity of these associations, she contrives to get through a vast

mass of business at this fragile table, and has one of the soundest

heads for affairs in all England. Gervase sits down and makes himself

agreeable, and relates to her many little episodes of his recent

experiences.

She is used to be the confidante of her men; she is young enough to make

a friend who is attractive to them, and old enough to lend herself _de

bon c[oe]ur_ to the recital of their attachments to other women. Very

often she gives them very good advice, but she does not obtrude it

unseasonably. "An awfully nice woman all round," is the general verdict

of her visitants to the boudoir. She does not seek to be more than that

to them.

Gervase does not make any confidences: he only tells her things which

amuse her and reveal much about her acquaintances, nothing about

himself. He smokes some of her favorite cigarettes, praises some new

china, suggests an alteration in the arrangement of the fans, and makes

critical discourses _a propos_ of her collection of snuff-boxes.

When he is going away, he lingers a moment intently looking at a

patch-box of vernis Martin, and says, with studied carelessness, "Dolly,

tell me, when did you make the acquaintance of Madame Sabaroff?"

"Last year, at Cannes: why do you want to know? She came and stayed with

us at Orme last Easter. Is she not perfectly charming?"

"Very good-looking," says Gervase, absently. "You don't know anything

about her, then?"

"Know?" repeats his hostess. "What should I know? What everybody does, I

suppose. I met her first at the Duchesse de Luynes'. You can't possibly

mean that there can be anything--anything----"

"Oh, no," replies Gervase; but it produces on his questioner the same

effect as if he had said, "Oh, yes."

"How odious men are! such scandal-mongers," says Lady Usk, angrily.

"Talk of _our_ 'damning with faint praise' There is nothing comparable

to the way in which a man destroys a woman's reputation just by raising

his eyebrows or twisting his moustache."

"I have no moustache to twist, and am sure there is no reputation which

I wish to destroy," says her cousin.

"Then why do you ask me where I made her acquaintance?"

"My dear Dolly! Surely the most innocent and general sort of question

ever on the lips of any human being!"

"Possibly; not in the way you said it, however; and when one knows that

you were a great deal in Russia, it suggests five hundred things,--five

thousand things: and of course one knows he was shot in a duel about

her, and I believe people have talked."

"I have never helped them to talk. When do they not talk?"

And beyond this she cannot prevail upon him to go: he pretends that the

Princess Sabaroff is beyond all possibility of any approach of calumny,

but the protestation produces on her the impression that he could tell

her a great deal wholly to the contrary if he chose.

"She certainly was staying with Madame de Luynes," she insists.

"Who ever said the lady might not stay with the Archbishop of

Canterbury?" replies Gervase.

She is irritated and vexed.

Xenia Sabaroff is her idol of the moment, and if her idol were proved

human she would be very angry. She reflects that she will have Dodo and

the children kept more strictly in the school-room, and not let them

wander about over the park as they do with their Russian friend most

mornings.

"One can never be too careful with children of that age," she muses,

"and they are terribly _eveillees_ already."

Dorothy Usk's friendships, though very ardent, are like most friendships

which exist in society: they are apt to blow about with every breeze.

She is cordial, kind, and in her way sincere; but she is what her

husband characterizes as "weathercocky."

Who is not "weathercocky" in the world?

Although so tolerant in appearance of naughty people, because it is the

fashion to be so, and not to be so looks priggish and dowdy and odd, she

never at the bottom of her heart likes her naughty people. She has run

very straight herself, as her lord would express it; she has been always

much too busy to have time or inclination to be tempted "off the rails,"

and she has little patience with women who have gone off them; only she

never says so, because it would look so goody-goody and stupid, and for

fear of looking so she even manages to stifle in her own breast her own

antipathy to Dulcia Waverley.

There have been very many martyrs to the sense that they ought to smile

at virtue when they hate it, but Dorothy Usk's martyrdom is of a

precisely opposite kind: she forces herself to seem to approve the

reverse of virtue whilst she detests it. Anything is better, in her

creed, than looking odd; and nowadays you do look so odd and so

old-fashioned if you make a fuss about anything. Still, in her heart of

hearts she feels excessively vexed, because it is quite apparent to her

that Gervase knows something very much to the disadvantage of her new

acquaintance.

"George will be so delighted if he finds out that Madame Sabaroff is

like all those horrid women he is so fond of," she reflects. "I shall

never hear the last of it from him. It will be a standing joke for him

the whole of his life."

Certainly Madame Sabaroff is letting Brandolin carry on with her more

than is altogether proper. True, they are people who may marry each

other if they please, but Brandolin is not a man who marries, and his

attentions are never likely to take that form. He probably pays so much

court to Madame Sabaroff because he has heard that of her which leads

him to suppose that his efforts may be _couronne_, as French

vaudevillists say, without any thought of marriage.

Lady Usk has always known that he is horribly unprincipled,--more so

than even men of his world usually are. That bantering tone of his is

odious, she thinks; and he always has it, even on the gravest subjects.

"What's the row, my lady? You look ruffled!" inquires Usk, coming into

her boudoir with a sheaf of half-opened letters in his hand.

"There are always things to annoy one," she answers, vaguely.

"It is an arrangement of a prudential Providence to prevent our

affections being set on this world," replies Usk, piously.

His wife's only comment on this religious declaration is an impatient

twist to the tail of her Maltese dog.

Usk proceeds to turn over to her such letters as bore him; they are

countable by dozens; the two or three which interest him have been read

in the gun-room and put away in an inside pocket.

"Mr. Bruce could attend to all these," she says, looking with some

disgust at the correspondence. Bruce is his secretary.

"He always blunders," says Usk.

"Then change him," says his wife; nevertheless she is pleased at the

compliment implied to herself.

"All secretaries are fools," says Usk, impartially.

"Even secretaries of state," says Mr. Wootton, who has the _entree_ of

the boudoir, and saunters in at that moment. "I have some news this

morning," he adds: "Coltsfoot marries Miss Hoard."

"Never!" exclaims Dorothy Usk.

"Perfectly true," says Mr. Wootton. "Both of them staying at Dunrobin,

and engagement publicly announced."

Lord Coltsfoot is heir to a dukedom; Miss Hoard is the result in bullion

of iron-works.

"Never!" reiterates Lady Usk. "It is impossible that he can do such a

horrible thing! Why, she has one shoulder higher than the other, and red

eyes!"

"There are six millions paid down," replies Mr. Wootton, sententiously.

"What the deuce will Mrs. Donnington say?" asks Usk.

"One never announces any marriage," remarks Mr. Wootton, "but there is a

universal outcry about what will some lady, married long ago to somebody

else, say to it. Curious result of supposed monogamy!"

"It is quite disgusting!" says Lady Usk. "Some of those new people are

presentable, but she isn't; and Coltsfoot is so good-looking and so

young."

"It is what the French call an '_alliance tres comme il faut_,'" says

Usk, from sheer spirit of contradiction. "The dukedom is as full of

holes as an old tin pot; she tinkers it up with her iron and gold; and I

bet you that your friend Worth will manage to cut Lady Coltsfoot's gowns

so that one shoulder higher than the other will become all the rage next

season."

"Of course you set no store on such a simple thing as happiness," says

his wife, with acerbity.

"Happiness? Lord, my dear! Happiness was buried with Strephon and Chloe

centuries ago! We are amused or bored, we are successful or

unsuccessful, we are popular or unpopular, we are somebody or we are

nobody, but we are never either happy or miserable."

"People who have a heart are still both!"

"A heart! You mean spoons!"

"What a hideous expression! Strephon and Chloe never used that."

"When we have an unfortunate passion now," remarks Mr. Wootton, "we go

to Carlsbad. It's only an affair of the liver."

"Or the nerves," suggests Usk. "Flirtation is the proper thing:

flirtation never hurts anybody: it's like puff-paste, seltzer water, and

Turkish cigarettes."

"Puff-paste may bring on an indigestion when one's too old to eat it!"

"There! Didn't I tell you so? She is always saying something about my

age. A man is the age that he feels."

"No, a woman is the age that she looks. If you will quote things, quote

them properly."

"The age that she looks? That's so very variable. She's twenty when she

enters a ball-room at midnight, she's fifty when she comes out at

sunrise; she's sixteen when she goes to meet somebody at Hurlingham,

she's sixty when she scolds her maid and has a scene with her husband!"

Lady Usk interrupts him with vivacity: "And he? Pray, isn't he

five-and-twenty when he's in Paris alone, and five-and-ninety when he's

grumbling at home?"

"Because he's bored at home! Youth is, after all, only good spirits. If

you laugh you are young, but your wife don't make you laugh; you pay her

bills, and go with her to a state ball, and sit opposite to her at

dinner, and when you catch a cold she is always there to say, 'My dear,

didn't I tell you so?' but I defy any man living to recall any hour of

his existence in which his wife ever made him laugh!"

"And yet you wanted me to ask married people together."

"Because I wanted it all to be highly proper and deadly dull. Surrenden

has got a sort of reputation of being a kind of Orleans Club."

"And yet you complain of being bored in it!"

"One is always bored in one's own house! One can never take in to dinner

the person one likes."

"You make up to yourself for the deprivation after dinner!"

"My lady's very ruffled to-day," says Usk to Mr. Wootton. "I don't know

which of her doves has turned out a fighting-cock."

"That reminds me," observes Mr. Wootton. "I wanted to ask you, did you

know that Gervase, when he was Lord Baird, was very much _au mieux_ with

Madame Sabaroff? I remember hearing long ago from Russians----"

Lady Usk interrupts the great man angrily: "Very much _au mieux_! What

barbarous polygot language for a great critic like you! Must you have

the assistance of bad grammar in two tongues to take away my friend's

reputation?"

Lord Usk chuckles. "Reputations aren't taken away so easily; they're

very hardy plants nowadays, and will stand a good deal of bad weather."

Mr. Wootton is shocked. "Oh, Lady Usk! Reputation! You couldn't think I

meant to imply of any guest of yours--only, you know, he was secretary

in Petersburg when he was Lord Baird, and so----"

"Well, it doesn't follow that he is the lover of every woman in

Petersburg!"

Mr. Wootton is infinitely distressed. "Oh, indeed I didn't mean anything

of that sort."

"You did mean everything of that sort," murmurs his hostess.

"But, you see, he admired her very much, was constantly with her, and

yesterday I saw they didn't speak to each other, so I was curious to

know what could be the reason."

"I believe she didn't recognize him."

Mr. Wootton smiles. "Oh, ladies have such prodigious powers of

oblivion--and remembrance!"

"Yes," observes Usk, with complacency: "the storms of memory sometimes

sink into them as if they were sponges, and sometimes glide off them as

if they were ducks. It is just as they find it convenient. But Madame

Sabaroff can't have been more than a child when Gervase was in Russia."

Mr. Wootton smiles again significantly. "She was married."

"To a brute!" cries Dorothy Usk.

"All husbands," says Lord Usk, with a chuckle, "are brutes, and all

wives are angels. _C'est imprime!_"

"I hope no one will ever call me an angel! I should know at once that I

was a bore!"

"No danger, my lady: you've no wings on your shoulders, and you've salt

on your tongue."

"I'm sure you mean to be odiously rude, but to my taste it's a great

compliment."

"My dear Alan," says Dorothy Usk, having got him at a disadvantage in

her boudoir one-quarter of an hour after luncheon, "what has there been

between you and the Princess Sabaroff? Everybody feels there is

something. It is in the air. Indeed, everybody is talking about it. Pray

tell me. I am dying to know."

Gervase is silent.

"Everybody in the house is sure of it," continues his hostess. "They

don't say so, of course, but they think so. Nina Curzon, who is

_mauvaise langue_, pretends even that she knows all the circumstances;

and it would seem that they are not very nice circumstances. I really

cannot consent to go on in the dark any longer."

"Ask the lady," replies Gervase, stiffly.

"I certainly shall do nothing so ill-bred. You are a man, you are a

relation of mine, and I can say things to you I couldn't possibly say to

a stranger, which Madame Sabaroff is quite to me. If you won't answer, I

shall only suppose that you paid court to her and were 'spun,' as the

boys say at the examinations."

"Not at all," says Gervase, haughtily.

"Then tell me the story."

He hesitates. "I don't know whether you will think very well of me if I

tell you the truth."

"That you may be sure I shall not. No man ever behaves well where women

are in the question."

"My dear Dolly, what unkind exaggeration! If I tell you anything, you

will be sure not to repeat what I say? Madame Sabaroff considers me a

stranger to her: I am bound to accept her decision on such a point."

"You knew her in Russia?"

"Yes; when I was there she was the new beauty at the court. She had been

married a year or less to Paul Sabaroff. I had the honor of her

friendship at that time; if she withdraws it now I must acquiesce."

"Oh!"

Lady Usk gives a little sound between a snort and a sigh.

She is annoyed. The gossipers are right, then. She is sorry the children

have been so much with their friend, and she is infuriated at the idea

of her husband's triumph over her credulity.

"Oh, pray don't think--don't think for a moment----" murmurs Gervase;

but his cousin understands that it is the conventional compulsory

expostulation which every man who is well-bred is bound to make on such

subjects.

"She must have been very young then?" she says, beating impatiently on

her blotting-book with her gold pen.

"Very young; but such a husband as Paul Sabaroff made is--well, a more

than liberal education to any woman, however young. She was sixteen, I

think, and very lovely; though she is perhaps handsomer now. I had the

honor of her confidence: she was unhappy and _incomprise_; her father

had given her hand in discharge of a debt at cards; Sabaroff was a

gambler and a brute; at the end of the second winter season he had a

violent fit of jealousy, and sent her to his estate on the White

Sea----"

"Jealousy of you?"

Gervase bowed.

"Where she was kept in a state of surveillance scarcely better than

absolute imprisonment. I did all manner of crazy and romantic things to

endeavor to see her; and once or twice I succeeded; but he had

discovered letters of mine, and made her captivity more rigorous than

ever. I myself was ordered on the special mission to Spain,--you

remember,--and I left Russia with a broken heart. From that time to this

I have never seen her."

"But your broken heart has continued to do its daily work?"

"It is a figure of speech. I adored her, and the husband was a brute.

When Lustoff shot him he only rid the world of a brute. You have seen

that broad bracelet she wears above the right elbow? People always talk

so about it. She wears it to hide where Sabaroff broke her arm one night

in his violence: the marks of it are there forever."

Lady Usk is silent: she is divided between her natural compassion and

sympathy, which are very easily roused, and her irritation at

discovering that her new favorite is what Usk would call "just like all

the rest of them."

"You perceive," he added, "that, as the princess chooses wholly to

ignore the past, it is not for me to recall it. I am obliged to accept

her decision, however much I must suffer from it."

"Suffer!" echoes his cousin. "After her husband's death you never took

the trouble to cross Europe to see her."

"She had never answered my letters," says Gervase, but he feels that the

excuse is a frail one. And how, he thinks, angrily, should a good woman

like his cousin, who has never flirted in her life and never done

anything which might not have been printed in the daily papers,

understand a man's inevitable inconstancy?

"I assure you that I have never loved any woman as I loved her," he

continues.

"Then you are another proof, if one were wanted, that men have died and

worms have eaten them, but not for----"

"I did not die, certainly," Gervase says, much irritated; "but I

suffered greatly, whether you choose to believe it or not."

"I am not inclined to believe it," replies his hostess. "It is not your

style."

"I wrote to her a great many times."

He pauses.

Lady Usk fills up the pause. "And she answered you?" she inquires.

"N-no," replies Gervase, unwilling to confess such an affront to him.

"She did not write. Prudence, I suppose; or perhaps she might be too

closely watched, or her letters might be stopped: who can say?"

"Nobody but herself, clearly. Well?"

"I was sent to Madrid; and I heard nothing of her except that Sabaroff

was shot in a duel about her with Lustoff; but that was two years

afterwards."

"And when he was shot why did you not in due course go to the White Sea,

or wherever she was, and offer yourself?"

"The truth is, I had become acquainted with a Spanish lady----"

"A great many Spanish ladies, no doubt! What a half-hearted Lothario!"

"Not at all. Only just at that time----"

"Manillas, mandolines, balconies, bull-fights, high mass, and moonlight

had the supremacy! My dear Alan, tell your story how you will, you can't

make yourself heroic."

"I have not the smallest pretension to do so," says Gervase, very much

annoyed. "I have no heroism. I leave it to Lord Brandolin, who has been

shipwrecked five hundred times, I believe, and ridden as many

dromedaries over unknown sand-plains as Gordon----"

"As you don't care in the least for her, why should you care if his

shipwrecks and his dromedaries interest her? We don't know that they do;

but----"

"How little sympathy you have!"

"George says I have always a great deal too much. What do you want me to

sympathize with? According to your own story, you 'loved and rode away;'

at least, took a through-ticket across Europe, as Lovelace has to do in

these prosaic days. If you did not go back to Russia when you might have

gone back, _a qui la faute_? Nobody's but your own and the nameless

Spanish lady or ladies'!"

"You are very perverse."

"It is you who are, or who were, perverse. According to your own story,

you adored a woman when she was unattainable; when she became attainable

you did not even take the trouble to get into a railway-carriage: you

were otherwise amused. What romantic element is there in such a tale as

yours to excite the smallest fragment of interest? To judge you out of

your own mouth, you seem to me to have behaved with most uninteresting

inconstancy."

"It was four years, and she had never answered my letters."

"Really a reason to make you esteem her infinitely more than if she had

answered them. My dear Alan, you were a flirt, and you forgot as flirts

forget: why should one pity you for being so easily consoled? You ought

to be infinitely grateful that Madame Sabaroff did not send you reams of

reproaches, and telegraph you compromising messages which would have got

you into trouble in Downing Street. The thing died a natural death; you

did not care to keep it alive: why are you now all lamentations over its

grave? I really do not follow the course of your emotions,--if you feel

any emotion: I thought you never did. Madame Sabaroff has never been a

person difficult to follow or to find; the fashionable intelligence of

the newspapers would at any time have enabled you to know where she was;

you never had inclination or remembrance enough to make you curious to

see her again, and then when you come across her in a country house you

think yourself very ill used because she does not all at once fall into

your arms. You couldn't possibly care about her, since you never tried

to see her all those years!"

Dorothy Usk is really annoyed.

She is not a person who has a high standard of humanity at any time, and

she knows men thoroughly, and they have no chance of being heroes in her

sight. But she likes a man to be a man, and to be an ardent lover if he

be a lover at all, and her favorite cousin seems to her to wear a poor

aspect in this page of his autobiography.

"Pray, did you know that she is as rich as she is?" she asks, with some

sharpness in her tone.

Gervase colors a little, being conscious that his response cannot

increase his cousin's sympathies with him.

"No. Is she rich? Paul Sabaroff was poor. He had gambled away nearly

everything. Your children have a great deal of _blague_ about her

riches; but I suppose it is all nonsense."

"Not nonsense at all. Two years ago some silver was discovered on a bit

of rough land which belonged to her, somewhere beyond the Urals, I

think, and she is enormously rich,--will be richer every year, they

say."

"Indeed!"

He tries to look indifferent, but his cousin's penetrating eyes seem to

him to be reading his very soul.

"How dreadfully sorry he must be that he didn't leave Madrid!" she

thinks, and aloud says, irritably, "Why on earth didn't you try to renew

things with her all these three years?"

"I imagined that I had forgotten her."

"Well, so you had,--completely forgotten her, till you saw her here."

"On my honor, she is the only woman I have ever really loved."

"Oh, men always say that of somebody or another, generally of the most

impossible people. George always declares that the only woman he ever

really loved was a pastry-cook when he was at Christ-church."

"Dear Dorothy, don't joke. I assure you I am thoroughly in earnest."

"She certainly has forgotten you."

She knows that for him to be convinced of this is the surest way to

revive a died-out passion.

"Who knows? She would be indifferent in that case, and polite: as it is,

she is cold, even rude."

"That may be resentment."

"Resentment means remembrance."

"Oh, not always."

"Then she has a number of my letters."

"So you said; you cannot be so very sure she has kept them. Other people

may have written her the same sort of letters, or more admirable letters

still: how can you tell?"

He colors angrily. "She is not a _femme legere_."

"She is receiving a great deal of attention now from Lord Brandolin, and

she does not seem to dislike it. They say he writes exquisite letters to

women he is fond of; I don't know myself, because I have never had

anything more interesting from him than notes about dinners or visits;

but they say so. They even say that his deserted ladies forgive his

desertions because he writes his farewells so divinely."

"Lord Brandolin's epistolary accomplishments do not interest me in the

least. Everybody knows what he is with women." He pauses a moment, then

adds, with some hesitation,--

"Dear Dorothy, you know her very well. Don't you think you could find

out for me, and tell me----"

"What?"

"Well, what she thinks or does not think; in a word, how I stand with

her."

"No,--oh, no, my dear Alan; I couldn't attempt anything of that

sort,--in my own house, too: it would seem so horribly rude. Besides, I

am not in the least--not the very least--intimate with her. I think her

charming, we are _bonnes connaiassances_, the children adore her; but I

have never said anything intimate to her in my life,--never."

"But you have so much tact."

"The more tact I have, the less likely shall I be to recall to her what

she is evidently perfectly determined to ignore. You can do it yourself

if you want it done. You are not usually shy."

Gervase gets up impatiently, and walks about in the narrow limits of the

boudoir, to the peril of the Sevres and Saxe.

"But women have a hundred indirect ways of finding out everything: you

might discover perfectly well, if you chose, whether--whether she feels

anger or any other sentiment; whether--whether, in a word, it would be

prudent to recall the past to her."

Lady Usk shakes her head with energy, stirring all its pretty blonde

curls, real and false. "_Entre l'arbre et l'ecorce ne mettez pas le

doigt._ That is sound advice which I have heard given at the Francais."

"That is said of not interfering between married people."

"It is generally true of people who wish, or may not wish, to marry. And

I suppose, Alan, that when you speak in my house of renewing

your--your--relations with the Princess Sabaroff, you do not mean that

you have any object less serious than _le bon motif_?"

Gervase is amused, although he is disconcerted and irritated.

"Come, Dorothy, your guests are not always so very serious, are they? I

never knew you so prim before."

Then she in turn feels angry. She always steadily adheres to the

convenient fiction that she knows nothing whatever of the amorous

filaments which bind her guests together in pairs, as turtle-doves might

be tied together by blue ribbons.

"If you only desire to reawake the sentiments of Madame Sabaroff in your

favor that you may again make sport of them, you must excuse me if I say

that I cannot assist your efforts, and that I sincerely hope they will

not be successful," she says, with dignity and distance.

"Do you suppose his are any better than mine?" asks Gervase, irritably,

as he waves his hand towards the window which looks on the west gardens.

Between the yew- and cedar-trees, at some distance from the house,

Brandolin is walking beside Xenia Sabaroff: his manner is interested and

deferential; she moves with slow and graceful steps down the grassy

paths, listening with apparent willingness, her head is uncovered, she

carries a large sunshade opened over it made of white lace and pale-rose

silk, she has a cluster of Duchess of Sutherland roses in her hand. They

are really only speaking of recent French poets, but those who look at

them cannot divine that.

"He is not my cousin, and he does not solicit my assistance," says

Dorothy Usk, seeing the figures in her garden with some displeasure.

"_Je ne fais pas la police pour les autres_; but if he asked me what you

asked me, I should give him the same answer that I give to you."

"He is probably independent of any assistance," says Gervase, with

irritable irony.

"Probably," says his hostess, who is very skilful at fanning faint

flame. "He is not a man whom I like myself, but many women--most women,

I believe--think him irresistible."

Thereon she leaves him, without any more sympathy or solace, to go and

receive some county people who have come to call, and who converse

principally about prize poultry.

"_Comme elles sont assommees avec leurs poules!_" says the Marquise de

Caillac, who chances to be present at this infliction, and gazes in

stupefaction at a dowager duchess who has driven over from twenty miles

off, who wears very thick boots, her own thin gray hair, water-proof

tweed clothing, and a hat tied under her double chin with black strings.

"_Un paquet!_" murmurs Madame de Caillac; "_un veritable paquet!_"

"_C'est la vertu anglaise, un peu demodee_," says Lord Iona, with a

yawn.

Gervase stays on as well as Brandolin, somewhat bored, very much

_enerve_, but fascinated, too, by the presence of his Russian Ariadne,

and stung by the sight of Brandolin's attentions to her into such a

strong sense of revived passion that he means what he says when he

declares to his cousin that the wife of Sabaroff was the only woman he

has ever really loved. Her manner to him also, not cold enough to be

complimentary, but entirely indifferent, never troubled, never moved in

any way by his vicinity or by his direct allusions to the past, is such

as irritates, piques, attracts, and magnetizes him. It seems to him

incredible that any woman can ignore him so utterly. If she only seemed

afraid of him, agitated in any way, even adversely, he could understand

what was passing in her mind; but he cannot even flatter himself that

she does this: she treats him with just such perfect indifference as she

shows to the Duke of Queenstown or Hugo Mandeville or any one of the

gilded youths there present. If he could once see a wistful memory in

her glance, once see a flush of color on her face at his approach, it is

probable that his vanity would be satisfied and his interest cease as

quickly as it has revived; but he never does see anything of this sort,

and, by the rule of contradiction, his desire to see it increases. And

he wonders uneasily what she has done with his letters.

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