AGAIN THE ICE-CAVE.
The next morning he begged a holiday for me and Charley, of whose
family he knew something, although he was not acquainted with them. I
was a little disappointed at Charley’s being included in the request,
not in the least from jealousy, but because I had set my heart on
taking Clara to the cave in the ice, which I knew Charley would not
like. But I thought we could easily arrange to leave him somewhere near
until we returned. I spoke to Mr Coningham about it, who entered into
my small scheme with the greatest kindness. Charley confided to me
afterwards that he did not take to him--he was too like an ape, he
said. But the impression of his ugliness had with me quite worn off;
and for his part, if I had been a favourite nephew, he could not have
been more complaisant and hearty.
I felt very stiff when we set out, and altogether not quite myself; but
the discomfort wore off as we went. Charley had Mr Coningham’s horse,
and I walked by the side of Clara’s, eager after any occasion, if but a
pretence, of being useful to her. She was quite familiar with me, but
seemed shy of Charley. He looked much more of a man than I; for not
only, as I have said, had he grown much during his illness, but there
was an air of troubled thoughtfulness about him which made him look
considerably older than he really was; while his delicate complexion
and large blue eyes had a kind of mystery about them that must have
been very attractive.
When we reached the village, I told Charley that we wanted to go on
foot to the cave, and hoped he would not mind waiting our return. But
he refused to be left, declaring he should not mind going in the least;
that he was quite well now, and ashamed of his behaviour on the former
occasion; that, in fact, it must have been his approaching illness that
caused it. I could not insist, and we set out. The footpath led us
through fields of corn, with a bright sun overhead, and a sweet wind
blowing. It was a glorious day of golden corn, gentle wind, and blue
sky--with great masses of white snow, whiter than any cloud, held up in
it.
We descended the steep bank; we crossed the wooden bridge over the
little river; we crunched under our feet the hail-like crystals lying
rough on the surface of the glacier; we reached the cave, and entered
its blue abyss. I went first into the delicious, yet dangerous-looking
blue. The cave had several sharp angles in it. When I reached the
furthest corner I turned to look behind me. I was alone. I walked back
and peeped round the last corner. Between that and the one beyond it
stood Clara and Charley--staring at each other with faces of ghastly
horror.
Clara’s look certainly could not have been the result of any excess of
imagination. But many women respond easily to influences they could not
have originated. My conjecture is that the same horror had again seized
upon Charley when he saw Clara; that it made his face, already
deathlike, tenfold more fearful; that Clara took fright at his fear,
her imagination opening like a crystal to the polarized light of
reflected feeling; and thus they stood in the paralysis of a dismay
which ever multiplied itself in the opposed mirrors of their
countenances.
I too was in terror--for Charley, and certainly wasted no time in
speculation. I went forward instantly, and put an arm round each. They
woke up, as it were, and tried to laugh. But the laugh was worse than
the stare. I hurried them out of the place.
We came upon Mr Coningham round the next corner, amusing himself with
the talk of the half-silly guide.
‘Where are you going?’ he asked.
‘Out again,’ I answered. ‘The air is oppressive.’
‘Nonsense!’ he said merrily. ‘The air is as pure as it is cold. Come,
Clara; I want to explore the penetralia of this temple of Isis.’
I believe he intended a pun.
Clara turned with him; Charley and I went out into the sunshine.
‘You should not have gone, Charley. You have caught a chill again,’ I
said.
‘No, nothing of the sort,’ he answered. ‘Only it was too dreadful. That
lovely face! To see it like that--and know that is what it is coming
to!’
‘You looked as horrid yourself,’ I returned.
‘I don’t doubt it. We all did. But why?’
‘Why, just because of the blueness,’ I answered.
‘Yes--the blueness, no doubt. That was all. But there it was, you
know.’
Clara came out smiling. All her horror had vanished. I was looking into
the hole as she turned the last corner. When she first appeared, her
face was ‘like one that hath been seven days drowned;’ but as she
advanced, the decay thinned, and the life grew, until at last she
stepped from the mouth of the sepulchre in all the glow of her merry
youth. It was a dumb show of the resurrection.
As we went back to the inn, Clara, who was walking in front with her
father, turned her head and addressed me suddenly.
‘You see it was all a sham, Wilfrid!’ she said.
‘What was a sham? I don’t know what you mean,’ I rejoined.
‘Why that,’ she returned, pointing with her hand. Then addressing her
father, ‘Isn’t that the Eiger,’ she asked--‘the same we rode under
yesterday?’
‘To be sure it is,’ he answered.
She turned again to me.
‘You see it is all a sham! Last night it pretended to be on the very
edge of the road and hanging over our heads at an awful height. Now it
has gone a long way back, is not so very high, and certainly does not
hang over. I ought not to have been satisfied with that precipice. It
took me in.’
I did not reply at once. Clara’s words appeared to me quite irreverent,
and I recoiled from the very thought that there could be any sham in
nature; but what to answer her I did not know. I almost began to
dislike her; for it is often incapacity for defending the faith they
love which turns men into persecutors.
Seeing me foiled, Charley advanced with the doubtful aid of a sophism
to help me.
‘Which is the sham, Miss Clara?’ he asked.
‘That Eiger mountain there.’
‘Ah! so I thought.’
‘Then you are of my opinion, Mr Osborne?’
‘You mean the mountain is shamming, don’t you--looking far off when
really it is near?’
‘Not at all. When it looked last night as if it hung right over our
heads, it was shamming. See it now--far away there!’
‘But which, then, is the sham, and which is the true? It _looked_ near
yesterday, and now it _looks_ far away. Which is which?’
‘It must have been a sham yesterday; for although it looked near, it
was very dull and dim, and you could only see the sharp outline of it.’
‘Just so I argue on the other side. The mountain must be shamming now,
for although it looks so far off, it yet shows a most contradictory
clearness--not only of outline but of surface.’
‘Aha!’ thought I, ‘Miss Clara has found her match. They both know he is
talking nonsense, yet she can’t answer him. What she was saying was
nonsense too, but I can’t answer it either--not yet.’
I felt proud of both of them, but of Charley especially, for I had had
no idea he could be so quick.
‘What ever put such an answer into your head, Charley?’ I exclaimed.
‘Oh! it’s not quite original,’ he returned. ‘I believe it was suggested
by two or three lines I read in a review just before we left home. They
took hold of me rather.’
He repeated half of the now well-known little poem of Shelley, headed
_Passage of the Apennines_. He had forgotten the name of the writer,
and it was many years before I fell in with the lines myself.
‘The Apennine in the light of day
Is a mighty mountain dim and gray,
Which between the earth and sky doth lay;
But when night comes, a chaos dread
On the dim starlight then is spread,
And the Apennine walks abroad with the storm.’
In the middle of it I saw Clara begin to titter, but she did not
interrupt him. When he had finished, she said with a grave face, too
grave for seriousness:
‘Will you repeat the third line--I think it was, Mr Osborne?’
He did so.
‘What kind of eggs did the Apennine lay, Mr Osborne?’ she asked, still
perfectly serious.
Charley was abashed to find she could take advantage of probably a
provincialism to turn into ridicule such fine verses. Before he could
recover himself, she had planted another blow’ or two.
‘And where is its nest?’ Between the earth and the sky is vague. But
then to be sure it must want a good deal of room. And after all, a
mountain is a strange fowl, and who knows where it might lay? Between
earth and sky is quite definite enough? Besides, the bird-nesting boys
might be dangerous if they knew where it was. It would be such a find
for them!’
My champion was defeated. Without attempting a word in reply, he hung
back and dropped behind. Mr Coningham must have heard the whole, but he
offered no remark. I saw that Charley’s sensitive nature was hurt, and
my heart was sore for him.
‘That’s too bad of you, Clara,’ I said.
‘What’s too bad of me, Wilfrid?’ she returned.
I hesitated a moment, then answered--
‘To make game of such verses. Any one with half a soul must see they
were fine.’
‘Very wrong of you, indeed, my dear,’ said Mr Coningham from behind, in
a voice that sounded as if he were smothering a laugh; but when I
looked round, his face was grave.
‘Then I suppose that half soul I haven’t got,’ returned Clara.
‘Oh! I didn’t mean that,’ I said, lamely enough. ‘But there’s no logic
in that kind of thing, you know.’
‘You see, papa,’ said Clara, ‘what you are accountable for. Why didn’t
you make them teach me logic?’
Her father smiled a pleased smile. His daughter’s naiveté would in his
eyes make up for any lack of logic.
‘Mr Osborne,’ continued Clara, turning back, ‘I beg your pardon. I am a
woman, and you men don’t allow us to learn logic. But at the same time
you must confess you were making a bad use of yours. You know it was
all nonsense you were trying to pass off on me for wisdom.’
He was by her side the instant she spoke to him. A smile grew upon his
face; I could see it growing, just as you see the sun growing behind a
cloud. In a moment it broke out in radiance.
‘I confess,’ he said. ‘I thought you were too hard on Wilfrid; and he
hadn’t anything at hand to say for himself.’
‘And you were too hard upon me, weren’t you? Two to one is not fair
play--is it now?’
‘No; certainly not.’
‘And that justified a little false play on my part?’
‘No, it did _not_,’ said Charley, almost fiercely. ‘Nothing justifies
false play.’
‘Not even yours, Mr Osborne?’ replied Clara, with a stately coldness
quite marvellous in one so young; and leaving him, she came again to my
side. I peeped at Mr Coningham, curious to see how he regarded all this
wrangling with his daughter. He appeared at once amused and satisfied.
Clara’s face was in a glow, clearly of anger at the discourteous manner
in which Charley had spoken.
‘You mustn’t be angry with Charley, Clara,’ I said.
‘He is very rude,’ she replied indignantly.
‘What he said was rude, I allow, but Charley himself is anything but
rude. I haven’t looked at him, but I am certain he is miserable about
it already.’
‘So he ought to be. To speak like that to a lady, when her very
friendliness put her off her guard! I never was treated so in all my
life.’
She spoke so loud that she must have meant Charley to hear her. But
when I looked back, I saw that he had fallen a long way behind, and was
coming on very slowly, with dejected look and his eyes on the ground.
Mr Coningham did not interfere by word or sign.
When we reached the inn he ordered some refreshment, and behaved to us
both as if we were grown men. Just a touch of familiarity was the sole
indication that we were not grown men. Boys are especially grateful for
respect from their superiors, for it helps them to respect themselves;
but Charley sat silent and gloomy. As he would not ride back, and Mr
Coningham preferred walking too, I got into the saddle and rode by
Clara’s side.
As we approached the house, Charley crept up the other side of Clara’s
horse, and laid his hand on his mane. When he spoke Clara started, for
she was looking the other way and had not observed his approach.
‘Miss Clara,’ he said, ‘I am very sorry I was so rude. Will you forgive
me?’
Instead of being hard to reconcile, as I had feared from her outburst
of indignation, she leaned forward and laid her hand on his. He looked
up in her face, his own suffused with a colour I had never seen in it
before. His great blue eyes lightened with thankfulness, and began to
fill with tears. How she looked, I could not see. She withdrew her
hand, and Charley dropped behind again. In a little while he came up to
my side, and began talking. He soon got quite merry, but Clara in her
turn was silent.
I doubt if anything would be worth telling but for what comes after.
History itself would be worthless but for what it cannot tell, namely,
its own future. Upon this ground my reader must excuse the apparent
triviality of the things I am now relating.
When we were alone in our room that night--for ever since Charley’s
illness we two had had a room to ourselves--Charley said,
‘I behaved like a brute this morning, Wilfrid.’
‘No, Charley; you were only a little rude from being over-eager. If she
had been seriously advocating dishonesty, you would have been quite
right to take it up so; and you thought she was.’
‘Yes; but it was very silly of me. I dare say it was because I had been
so dishonest myself just before. How dreadful it is that I am always
taking my own side, even when I do what I am ashamed of in another! I
suppose I think I have got my horse by the head, and the other has
not.’
‘I don’t know. That may be it,’ I answered. ‘I’m afraid I can’t think
about it to-night, for I don’t feel well. What if it should be your
turn to nurse me now, Charley?’
He turned quite pale, his eyes opened wide, and he looked at me
anxiously.
Before morning I was aching all over: I had rheumatic fever.