Chapter XXI

He went to his room, threw off his coat, waistcoat, collar, and tie,

letting them lie where they chanced to fall, and then, having violently

enveloped himself in a black velvet dressing-gown, continued this

action by lying down with a vehemence that brought a wheeze of protest

from his bed. His repose was only a momentary semblance, however, for

it lasted no longer than the time it took him to groan “Riffraff!”

between his teeth. Then he sat up, swung his feet to the floor, rose,

and began to pace up and down the large room.

He had just been consciously rude to his mother for the first time in

his life; for, with all his riding down of populace and riffraff, he

had never before been either deliberately or impulsively disregardful

of her. When he had hurt her it had been accidental; and his remorse

for such an accident was always adequate compensation—and more—to

Isabel. But now he had done a rough thing to her; and he did not

repent; rather he was the more irritated with her. And when he heard

her presently go by his door with a light step, singing cheerfully to

herself as she went to her room, he perceived that she had mistaken his

intention altogether, or, indeed, had failed to perceive that he had

any intention at all. Evidently she had concluded that he refused to

speak to her and Morgan out of sheer absent-mindedness, supposing him

so immersed in some preoccupation that he had not seen them or heard

her calling to him. Therefore there was nothing of which to repent,

even if he had been so minded; and probably Eugene himself was unaware

that any disapproval had recently been expressed. George snorted. What

sort of a dreamy loon did they take him to be?

There came a delicate, eager tapping at his door, not done with a

knuckle but with the tip of a fingernail, which was instantly clarified

to George’s mind’s eye as plainly as if he saw it: the long and

polished white-mooned pink shield on the end of his Aunt Fanny’s right

forefinger. But George was in no mood for human communications, and

even when things went well he had little pleasure in Fanny’s society.

Therefore it is not surprising that at the sound of her tapping,

instead of bidding her enter, he immediately crossed the room with the

intention of locking the door to keep her out.

Fanny was too eager, and, opening the door before he reached it, came

quickly in, and closed it behind her. She was in a street dress and a

black hat, with a black umbrella in her black-gloved hand—for Fanny’s

heavy mourning, at least, was nowhere tempered with a glimpse of white,

though the anniversary of Wilbur’s death had passed. An infinitesimal

perspiration gleamed upon her pale skin; she breathed fast, as if she

had run up the stairs; and excitement was sharp in her widened eyes.

Her look was that of a person who had just seen something extraordinary

or heard thrilling news.

“Now, what on earth do you want?” her chilling nephew demanded.

“George,” she said hurriedly, “I saw what you did when you wouldn’t

speak to them. I was sitting with Mrs. Johnson at her front window,

across the street, and I saw it all.”

“Well, what of it?”

“You did right!” Fanny said with a vehemence not the less spirited

because she suppressed her voice almost to a whisper. “You did exactly

right! You’re behaving splendidly about the whole thing, and I want to

tell you I know your father would thank you if he could see what you’re

doing.”

“My Lord!” George broke out at her. “You make me dizzy! For heaven’s

sake quit the mysterious detective business—at least do quit it around

me! Go and try it on somebody else, if you like; but I don’t want to

hear it!”

She began to tremble, regarding him with a fixed gaze. “You don’t care

to hear then,” she said huskily, “that I approve of what you’re doing?”

“Certainly not! Since I haven’t the faintest idea what you think I’m

‘doing,’ naturally I don’t care whether you approve of it or not. All

I’d like, if you please, is to be alone. I’m not giving a tea here,

this afternoon, if you’ll permit me to mention it!”

Fanny’s gaze wavered; she began to blink; then suddenly she sank into a

chair and wept silently, but with a terrible desolation.

“Oh, for the Lord’s sake!” he moaned. “What in the world is wrong with

you?”

“You’re always picking on me,” she quavered wretchedly, her voice

indistinct with the wetness that bubbled into it from her tears. “You

do—you always pick on me! You’ve always done it—always—ever since you

were a little boy! Whenever anything goes wrong with you, you take it

out on me! You do! You always—”

George flung to heaven a gesture of despair; it seemed to him the last

straw that Fanny should have chosen this particular time to come and

sob in his room over his mistreatment of her!

“Oh, my Lord!” he whispered; then, with a great effort, addressed her

in a reasonable tone: “Look here, Aunt Fanny; I don’t see what you’re

making all this fuss about. Of course I know I’ve teased you sometimes,

but—”

“‘Teased’ me?” she wailed. “‘Teased’ me! Oh, it does seem too hard,

sometimes—this mean old life of mine does seem too hard! I don’t think

I can stand it! Honestly, I don’t think I can! I came in here just

to show you I sympathized with you—just to say something pleasant

to you, and you treat me as if I were—oh, no, you wouldn’t treat

a servant the way you treat me! You wouldn’t treat anybody in the

world like this except old Fanny! ‘Old Fanny’ you say. ‘It’s nobody

but old Fanny, so I’ll kick her—nobody will resent it. I’ll kick her

all I want to!’ You do! That’s how you think of me—I know it! And

you’re right: I haven’t got anything in the world, since my brother

died—nobody—nothing—nothing!”

“Oh my Lord!” George groaned.

Fanny spread out her small, soaked handkerchief, and shook it in the

air to dry it a little, crying as damply and as wretchedly during this

operation as before—a sight which gave George a curious shock to add

to his other agitations, it seemed so strange. “I ought not to have

come,” she went on, “because I might have known it would only give you

an excuse to pick on me again! I’m sorry enough I came, I can tell

you! I didn’t mean to speak of it again to you, at all; and I wouldn’t

have, but I saw how you treated them, and I guess I got excited about

it, and couldn’t help following the impulse—but I’ll know better next

time, I can tell you! I’ll keep my mouth shut as I meant to, and as I

would have, if I hadn’t got excited and if I hadn’t felt sorry for you.

But what does it matter to anybody if I’m sorry for them? I’m only old

Fanny!”

“Oh, good gracious! How can it matter to me who’s sorry for me when I

don’t know what they’re sorry about!”

“You’re so proud,” she quavered, “and so hard! I tell you I didn’t mean

to speak of it to you, and I never, never in the world would have told

you about it, nor have made the faintest reference to it, if I hadn’t

seen that somebody else had told you, or you’d found out for yourself

some way. I—”

In despair of her intelligence, and in some doubt of his own, George

struck the palms of his hands together. “Somebody else had told me

what? I’d found what out for myself?”

“How people are talking about your mother.”

Except for the incidental teariness of her voice, her tone was casual,

as though she mentioned a subject previously discussed and understood;

for Fanny had no doubt that George had only pretended to be mystified

because, in his pride, he would not in words admit that he knew what he

knew.

“What did you say?” he asked incredulously.

“Of course I understood what you were doing,” Fanny went on, drying her

handkerchief again. “It puzzled other people when you began to be rude

to Eugene, because they couldn’t see how you could treat him as you

did when you were so interested in Lucy. But I remembered how you came

to me, that other time when there was so much talk about Isabel; and I

knew you’d give Lucy up in a minute, if it came to a question of your

mother’s reputation, because you said then that—”

“Look here,” George interrupted in a shaking voice. “Look here, I’d

like—” He stopped, unable to go on, his agitation was so great. His

chest heaved as from hard running, and his complexion, pallid at

first, had become mottled; fiery splotches appearing at his temples

and cheeks. “What do you mean by telling me—telling me there’s talk

about—about—” He gulped, and began again: “What do you mean by using

such words as ‘reputation’? What do you mean, speaking of a ‘question’

of my—my mother’s reputation?”

Fanny looked up at him woefully over the handkerchief which she now

applied to her reddened nose. “God knows I’m sorry for you, George,”

she murmured. “I wanted to say so, but it’s only old Fanny, so whatever

she says—even when it’s sympathy—pick on her for it! Hammer her!” She

sobbed. “Hammer her! It’s only poor old lonely Fanny!”

“You look here!” George said harshly. “When I spoke to my Uncle George

after that rotten thing I heard Aunt Amelia say about my mother, he

said if there was any gossip it was about you! He said people might be

laughing about the way you ran after Morgan, but that was all.”

Fanny lifted her hands, clenched them, and struck them upon her knees.

“Yes; it’s always Fanny!” she sobbed. “Ridiculous old Fanny—always,

always!”

“You listen!” George said. “After I’d talked to Uncle George I saw

you; and you said I had a mean little mind for thinking there might be

truth in what Aunt Amelia said about people talking. You denied it.

And that wasn’t the only time; you’d attacked me before then, because

I intimated that Morgan might be coming here too often. You made me

believe that mother let him come entirely on your account, and now you

say—”

“I think he did,” Fanny interrupted desolately. “I think he did come

as much to see me as anything—for a while it looked like it. Anyhow,

he liked to dance with me. He danced with me as much as he danced with

her, and he acted as if he came on my account at least as much as he

did on hers. He did act a good deal that way—and if Wilbur hadn’t died—”

“You told me there wasn’t any talk.”

“I didn’t think there was much, then,” Fanny protested. “I didn’t know

how much there was.”

“What!”

“People don’t come and tell such things to a person’s family, you know.

You don’t suppose anybody was going to say to George Amberson that his

sister was getting herself talked about, do you? Or that they were

going to say much to me?”

“You told me,” said George, fiercely, “that mother never saw him except

when she was chaperoning you.”

“They weren’t much alone together, then,” Fanny returned. “Hardly

ever, before Wilbur died. But you don’t suppose that stops people from

talking, do you? Your father never went anywhere, and people saw Eugene

with her everywhere she went—and though I was with them people just

thought”—she choked—“they just thought I didn’t count! ‘Only old Fanny

Minafer,’ I suppose they’d say! Besides, everybody knew that he’d been

engaged to her—”

“What’s that?” George cried.

“Everybody knows it. Don’t you remember your grandfather speaking of it

at the Sunday dinner one night?”

“He didn’t say they were engaged or—”

“Well, they were! Everybody knows it; and she broke it off on account

of that serenade when Eugene didn’t know what he was doing. He drank

when he was a young man, and she wouldn’t stand it, but everybody in

this town knows that Isabel has never really cared for any other man in

her life! Poor Wilbur! He was the only soul alive that didn’t know it!”

Nightmare had descended upon the unfortunate George; he leaned back

against the foot-board of his bed, gazing wildly at his aunt. “I

believe I’m going crazy,” he said. “You mean when you told me there

wasn’t any talk, you told me a falsehood?”

“No!” Fanny gasped.

“You did!”

“I tell you I didn’t know how much talk there was, and it wouldn’t have

amounted to much if Wilbur had lived.” And Fanny completed this with a

fatal admission: “I didn’t want you to interfere.”

George overlooked the admission; his mind was not now occupied with

analysis. “What do you mean,” he asked, “when you say that if father

had lived, the talk wouldn’t have amounted to anything?”

“Things might have been—they might have been different.”

“You mean Morgan might have married you?”

Fanny gulped. “No. Because I don’t know that I’d have accepted him.”

She had ceased to weep, and now she sat up stiffly. “I certainly didn’t

care enough about him to marry him; I wouldn’t have let myself care

that much until he showed that he wished to marry me. I’m not that sort

of person!” The poor lady paid her vanity this piteous little tribute.

“What I mean is, if Wilbur hadn’t died, people wouldn’t have had it

proved before their very eyes that what they’d been talking about was

true!”

“You say—you say that people believe—” George shuddered, then forced

himself to continue, in a sick voice: “They believe my mother is—is in

love with that man?”

“Of course!”

“And because he comes here—and they see her with him driving—and all

that—they think they were right when they said she was in—in love with

him before—before my father died?”

She looked at him gravely with her eyes now dry between their reddened

lids. “Why, George,” she said, gently, “don’t you know that’s what they

say? You must know that everybody in town thinks they’re going to be

married very soon.”

George uttered an incoherent cry; and sections of him appeared to

writhe. He was upon the verge of actual nausea.

“You know it!” Fanny cried, getting up. “You don’t think I’d have

spoken of it to you unless I was sure you knew it?” Her voice was

wholly genuine, as it had been throughout the wretched interview:

Fanny’s sincerity was unquestionable. “George, I wouldn’t have told

you, if you didn’t know. What other reason could you have for treating

Eugene as you did, or for refusing to speak to them like that a while

ago in the yard? Somebody must have told you?”

“Who told you?” he said.

“What?”

“Who told you there was talk? Where is this talk? Where does it come

from? Who does it?”

“Why, I suppose pretty much everybody,” she said. “I know it must be

pretty general.”

“Who said so?”

“What?”

George stepped close to her. “You say people don’t speak to a person of

gossip about that person’s family. Well, how did you hear it, then? How

did you get hold of it? Answer me!”

Fanny looked thoughtful. “Well, of course nobody not one’s most

intimate friends would speak to them about such things, and then only

in the kindest, most considerate way.”

“Who’s spoken of it to you in any way at all?” George demanded.

“Why—” Fanny hesitated.

“You answer me!”

“I hardly think it would be fair to give names.”

“Look here,” said George. “One of your most intimate friends is that

mother of Charlie Johnson’s, for instance. Has she ever mentioned this

to you? You say everybody is talking. Is she one?”

“Oh, she may have intimated—”

“I’m asking you: Has she ever spoken of it to you?”

“She’s a very kind, discreet woman, George; but she may have intimated—”

George had a sudden intuition, as there flickered into his mind the

picture of a street-crossing and two absorbed ladies almost run down

by a fast horse. “You and she have been talking about it to-day!” he

cried. “You were talking about it with her not two hours ago. Do you

deny it?”

“I—”

“Do you deny it?”

“No!”

“All right,” said George. “That’s enough!”

She caught at his arm as he turned away. “What are you going to do,

George?”

“I’ll not talk about it, now,” he said heavily. “I think you’ve done a

good deal for one day, Aunt Fanny!”

And Fanny, seeing the passion in his face, began to be alarmed. She

tried to retain possession of the black velvet sleeve which her fingers

had clutched, and he suffered her to do so, but used this leverage to

urge her to the door. “George, you know I’m sorry for you, whether you

care or not,” she whimpered. “I never in the world would have spoken of

it, if I hadn’t thought you knew all about it. I wouldn’t have—”

But he had opened the door with his free hand. “Never mind!” he said,

and she was obliged to pass out into the hall, the door closing quickly

behind her.

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