CHAPTER XI. CONFESSION

Madame Desvarennes understood the situation at a glance. She beheld

Cayrol livid, tottering, and excited. She felt Jeanne trembling on her

breast; she saw something serious had occurred. She calmed herself and

put on a cold manner to enable her the better to suppress any resistance

that they might offer.

“What is the matter?” she asked, looking severely at Cayrol.

“Something quite unexpected,” replied the banker, laughing nervously.

“Madame refuses to follow me.”

“And for what reason?” she asked.

“She dare not speak!” Cayrol resumed, whose excitement increased as he

spoke. “It appears she has in her heart an unhappy love! And as I do not

resemble the dreamed-of type, Madame has repugnances. But you understand

the affair is not going to end there. It is not usual to come and say

to a husband, twelve hours after marriage, ‘Sir, I am very sorry, but I

love somebody else!’ It would be too convenient. I shall not lend myself

to these whims.”

“Cayrol, oblige me by speaking in a lower tone,” said Madame

Desvarennes, quietly. “There is some misunderstanding between you and

this child.”

The husband shrugged his broad shoulders.

“A misunderstanding? Faith! I think so! You have a delicacy of language

which pleases me! A misunderstanding! Say rather a shameful deception!

But I want to know the gentleman’s name. She will have to speak. I am

not a scented, educated gentleman. I am a peasant, and if I have to--”

“Enough,” said Madame Desvarennes, sharply tapping with the tips of

her fingers Cayrol’s great fist which he held menacingly like a butcher

about to strike. Then, taking him quietly aside toward the window, she

added:

“You are a fool to go on like this! Go to my room for a moment. To you,

now, she will not say anything; to me she will confide all and we shall

know what to do.”

Cayrol’s face brightened.

“You are right,” he said. “Yes, as ever, you are right. You must excuse

rile, I do not know how to talk to women. Rebuke her and put a little

sense in her head. But don’t leave her; she is fit to commit any folly.”

Madame Desvarennes smiled.

“Be easy,” she answered.

And making a sign to Cayrol, who was leaving the room, she returned to

Jeanne.

“Come, my child, compose yourself. We are alone and you will tell me

what happened. Among women we understand each other. Come, you were

frightened, eh?”

Jeanne was one petrified, immovable, and dumb, she fixed her eyes on a

flower which was hanging from a vase. This red flower fascinated her.

She could not take her eyes off it. Within her a persistent thought

recurred: that of her irremediable misfortune. Madame Desvarennes looked

at her for a moment; then, gently touching her shoulder, resumed;

“Won’t you answer me? Have you not confidence in me? Have I not brought

you up? And if you are not born of me, have not the tenderness and care

I have lavished upon you made me your real mother?”

Jeanne did not answer, but her eyes filled with tears;

“You know that I love you,” continued the mistress. “Come, come to my

arms as you used to do when you were little and were suffering. Place

your head thereon my heart and let your tears flow. I see they are

choking you.”

Jeanne could no longer resist, and falling on her knees beside Madame

Desvarennes, she buried her face in the silky and scented folds of her

dress like a frightened bird that flies to the nest and hides itself

under the wings of its mother.

This great and hopeless grief was to the mistress a certain proof that

Cayrol was right. Jeanne had loved and still loved another man than

her husband. But why had she not said anything, and why had she allowed

herself to be married to the banker? She had resisted, she remembered

now. She had struggled, and the refusals they had put down to pride they

must now attribute to passion.

She did not wish to be separated from him whom she loved. Hence the

struggle that had ended in her abandoning her hand to Cayrol, perhaps

in a moment of despair and discouragement. But why had he whom she loved

not married her? What obstacle had arisen between him and the young

girl? Jeanne, so beautiful, and dowered by Madame Desvarennes, who then

could have hesitated to ask her hand?

Perhaps he whom Jeanne loved was unworthy of her? No! She would not have

chosen him. Perhaps he was not free to marry? Yes, it must be that.

Some married man, perhaps! A scoundrel who did not mind breaking a young

girl’s heart! Where had she met him? In society at her house in the Rue

Saint-Dominique, perhaps! Who could tell? He very likely still continued

to come there. At the thought Madame Desvarennes grew angry. She wished

to know the name of the man so that she might have an explanation with

him, and tell him what she thought of his base conduct. The gentleman

should have respectable, well-educated girls to trifle with, should he?

And he risked nothing! He should be shown to the door with all honors

due to his shameful conduct.

Jeanne was still weeping silently at Madame Desvarennes’s knee. The

latter raised her head gently and wiped away the tears with her lace

pocket-handkerchief.

“Come, my child! all this deluge means nothing. You must make up your

mind. I can understand your hiding anything from your husband, but not

from me! What is your lover’s name?”

This question so simply put, threw a faint light on Jeanne’s troubled

brain. She saw the danger she was running. To speak before Madame

Desvarennes! To tell the name of him who had been false to her! To

her! Was it possible? In a moment she understood that she was about to

destroy Micheline and Serge. Her conscience revolted and she would

not. She raised herself and looking at Madame Desvarennes with still

frightened eyes,

“For pity’s sake, forget my tears! Don’t believe what my husband

has told you. Never seek to know. Remain ignorant as you are on the

subject!”

“Then he whom you love is related to me, as: you wish to hide his name

even from me,” said Madame Desvarennes with instinctive anguish.

She was silent. Her eyes became fixed. They looked without seeing. She

was thinking.

“I beseech you,” cried Jeanne, madly placing her hands before Madame

Desvarennes’s face as if to check her scrutiny.

“If I had a son,” continued the mistress, “I would believe--” Suddenly

she ceased speaking; she became pale, and bending toward Jeanne, she

looked into her very soul.

“Is it--” she began.

“No! no!” interrupted Jeanne, terrified at seeing that the mistress had

found out the truth.

“You deny it before I have pronounced the name?” said Madame Desvarennes

in a loud voice. “You read it then on my lips? Unhappy girl! The man

whom you love is the husband of my daughter!”

My daughter! The accent with which Madame Desvarennes pronounced the

word “my” was full of tragical power. It revealed the mother capable

of doing anything to defend the happiness of the child whom she

adored. Serge had calculated well. Between Jeanne and Micheline, Madame

Desvarennes would not hesitate. She would have allowed the world to

crumble away to make of its ruins a shelter where her daughter would be

joyous and happy.

Jeanne had fallen back overwhelmed. The mistress raised her roughly.

She had no more consideration for her. It was necessary that she should

speak. Jeanne was the sole witness, and if the truth had to be got by

main force she should be made to speak it.

“Ah, forgive me!” moaned the young girl.

“It is not a question of that! In one word, answer me: Does he love

you?”

“Do I know?”

“Did he tell you he did?”

“Yes.”

“And he has married Micheline!” exclaimed Madame Desvarennes, with a

fearful gesture. “I distrusted him. Why did I not obey my instinct?”

And she began walking about like a lioness in a cage. Then, suddenly

stopping and placing herself before Jeanne, she continued:

“You must help me to save Micheline!”

She thought only of her own flesh and blood. Without hesitation,

unconsciously, she abandoned the other--the child of adoption. She

claimed the safety of her daughter as a debt.

“What has she to fear?” asked Jeanne, bitterly. “She triumphs, as she is

his wife.”

“If he were to abandon her,” said the mother with anguish. Then,

reflecting: “Still, he has sworn to me that he loved her.”

“He lied!” cried Jeanne, with rage. “He wanted Micheline for her

fortune!”

“But why that?” inquired Madame Desvarennes, menacingly. “Is she not

pretty enough to have pleased him? Do you think that you are the only

one to be loved?”

“If I had been rich he would have married me!”, replied Jeanne,

exasperated.

She had risen in revolt. They were treading too heavily on her. With a

ferocious cry of triumph; she added:

“The night he used his influence with me to get me to marry Cayrol, he

assured me so on his word of honor!”

“Honor!” ironically repeated Madame Desvarennes, overwhelmed. “How

he has deceived us all! But what can I do? What course can I take? A

separation? Micheline would not consent. She loves him.”

And, in an outburst of fury, she cried:

“Is it possible that that stupid girl loves that worthless dandy? And

she has my blood in her veins! If she knew the truth she would die!”

“Am I dead?” asked Jeanne, gloomily.

“You have an energetic nature,” retorted the mistress, compassionately;

“but she is so weak, so gentle! Ah! Jeanne, think what I have been to

you; raise some insurmountable barrier between yourself and Serge!

“Go back to your husband. You would not go with him a little while ago.

It was folly. If you separate from Cayrol, you will not be able to keep

away Serge, and you will take my daughter’s husband from her!”

“Ah! you think only of her! Her, always! She above all!” cried Jeanne,

with rage. “But me, I exist, I count, I have the right to be protected,

of being happy! And you wish me to sacrifice myself, to give myself up

to this man, whom I do not love, and who terrifies me?”

This time the question was plainly put. Madame Desvarennes became

herself. She straightened her figure, and in her commanding voice whose

authority no one resisted, said:

“What then? You wish to be separated from him? To regain your liberty at

the price of scandal? And what liberty? You will be repulsed, disdained.

Believe me, impose silence on your heart and listen to your reason. Your

husband is a good, loyal man. If you cannot love him, he will command

your respect. In marrying him, you have entered into engagements toward

him. Fulfil them; it is your duty.”

Jeanne felt overpowered and vanquished. “But what will my life be?” she

groaned.

“That of an honest woman,” replied Madame Desvarennes, with true

grandeur. “Be a wife; God will make you a mother, and you will be

saved.”

Jeanne bowed herself at these words. She no longer felt in them the

selfishness of the mother. What the mistress now said was sincere and

true. It was no longer her agitated and alarmed heart that inspired her;

it was her conscience, calm and sincere.

“Very well; I will obey you,” said the young wife, simply. “Kiss me

then, mother.”

She bent her brow, and Madame Desvarennes let tears of gratitude and

admiration fall on it. Then Jeanne went of her own accord to the room

door.

“Come, Monsieur,” called she to Cayrol.

The husband, grown cooler while waiting, and troubled at the length of

the interview, showed his anxious face on the threshold. He saw Madame

Desvarennes grave, and Jeanne collected. He dared not speak.

“Cayrol, everything is explained,” said the mistress. “You have nothing

to fear from him whom you suspected. He is separated from Jeanne

forever, And; besides, nothing has passed between him and her who is

your wife that could arouse your jealousy. I will not tell you the name

of this man now. But if perchance he by some impossibility reappeared

and threatened your happiness, I would myself--you understand,

me?--point him out to you!”

Cayrol remained thinking for, a moment; then addressing Madame

Desvarennes, replied:

“It is well. I have confidence in you.”

Then turning toward Jeanne, he added:

“Forgive me and let everything be forgotten.”

The mistress’s face beamed with joy, as she followed their departing

figures with her eyes, and murmured:

“Brave hearts!”

Then, changing her expression:

“Now for the other one!” exclaimed she.

And she went out on to the terrace.

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