SHE WAS A WIFE, AND SHE HAD A LOVER WHO DISAPPOINTED HER.
The prayer of Ella Linton had not been answered. She had prayed,
not that her heart wherewith she loved Herbert Courtland might be
changed--that she knew would be difficult; not that her love for Herbert
Courtland might cease--that she believed to be impossible; but simply
that Herbert Courtland might be kept away from her--that she knew to be
the most sensible course her scheme of imploration could take.
She was well aware of the fact that God had given her strength to run
away from Herbert Courtland, and for that she was sincerely thankful;
she did not pause to analyze her feelings, to ask herself if her thanks
were due to her reflection upon the circumstance of her husband’s
return, at the very hour when she had appointed to meet Herbert
Courtland; she only felt that God had been good to her in giving her
sufficient strength to run away from that appointment. Then it was that
she had prayed that he might be kept away from her. Surely God would
find it easy to do that, she thought. Surely she might assume that God
was on her side, and that he would not leave his work half done.
But when she began to think of the thorough manner in which God does
his work she began to wish that she had not prayed quite so earnestly.
Supposing that God should think it fit to keep him away from her by
sending a blast from heaven to capsize that yacht in the deep sea, what
would she think of the fervency of her prayer then?
The terror of her reflection upon the possibility of this occurrence
flung her from her bed and sent her pacing, with bare feet and flying
lace, the floor of her bedroom in the first pearly light of dawn, just
as she had paced the floor of Phyllis’ drawing room beneath the glow of
the electric lights.
She wished that she had not prayed quite so earnestly that he might be
kept apart from her. But one cannot pray hot and cold; she felt that she
had no right now to lay down any conditions to Heaven in the matter
of keeping Herbert Courtland away from her. She had prayed her prayer;
only, if he were drowned before she saw him again, she would never say
another prayer.
This feeling that she would be even with Heaven, so to speak, had the
effect of soothing her. She threw herself upon her bed once more and was
able to fall asleep; she had a considerable amount of confidence in the
discrimination of Heaven.
But before she had come down to the breakfast room where her husband
was reading a newspaper in the morning, she had thought a good deal
upon another matter that disquieted her in some degree. She had been
exuberant (she thought) at having had sufficient strength given to her
to run away from her lover; but then she had not dwelt upon the rather
important circumstance that all the running away had not been on her
side. What were the facts as revealed by the narrative of Mr. Ayrton?
Why, simply, that while she was putting on that supreme toilet which she
had prepared for the delight of the eyes of her lover (feeling herself
to be a modern Cleopatra), that lover of hers was sitting on the
cushions of a first-class carriage, flying along to Southampton; and
while she had been lying among the cushions of her drawing room, waiting
tremulously, nervously, ecstatically, for the dreary minutes to crawl on
until the clock should chime the hour of nine, he was probably lighting
his first pipe aboard the yacht _Water Nymph_. What did it matter that
she had lifted her hot face from her cushions and had fled in wild haste
to the arms of Phyllis Ayrton? The fact remained the same; it was he who
had run away from her.
That was a terrible reflection. Hitherto she had never felt humiliated.
She had not felt that he had insulted her by his kisses; she had given
him kiss for kiss. She had but to hold up her finger and he was ready
to obey her. But now--what was she to think of him? Had ever man so
humiliated woman? She had offered him, not her heart but her soul--had
he not told her a few days before that he meant her to give him her
soul? and when she had laid heart and soul at his feet--that was how she
put it to herself--he had not considered it worth his while to take the
priceless gift that she offered to him.
“He will answer to me for that,” she said, as she thought over her
humiliation, in front of her dressing-glass that morning, while her maid
was absent from the room.
Her wish was now not that her prayer had been less earnest, but that it
had not been uttered at all. It was necessary for her to meet him again
in order that he might explain to her how it came that he had preferred
the attractions incidental to a cruise with Lord Earlscourt and his
friends to all that she had written to offer him.
And yet when her husband, after having quite finished with his paper,
said:
“It’s very awkward that Herbert Courtland is not in town.”
She merely raised her shoulders an inch, saying:
“I suppose that he has a right to take a holiday now and then. If you
didn’t telegraph to him from Paris, you cannot complain.”
“I felt certain that I should find him here,” said the husband.
“Here?” said the wife, raising her eyebrows and casting an offended
glance at her husband. “Here?”
He smiled in the face of her offended glance.
“Here--in London, I mean, of course. Heavens, Ella! did you fancy for a
moment that I meant----Ah, by the way, you have seen him recently?”
“Oh, yes; quite recently--on Tuesday, I think it was, we met at the
Ayrton’s dinner party--yes, it was Tuesday. There was some fuss, or
attempted fuss, about his adventures in New Guinea, and a question was
being asked about the matter in the House of Commons. Mr. Ayrton got rid
of some of his superfluous cleverness in putting a counter question--you
know the way.”
“Oh, perfectly well! And that is how you met on Tuesday--if it was
Tuesday?”
“Yes; he went to thank Mr. Ayrton, and Mr. Ayrton asked him to dinner.
It was a small party, and not very brilliant. Herbert came here with me
afterward--for five minutes.”
“Ah! To get the taste of the party off his mouth, I suppose? He didn’t
say anything to you then about being tired of his London season?”
“Not a word. He seemed tired of the dinner party. He yawned.”
“And I’m sure that you yawned in sympathy. When a man so far forgets
himself as to yawn in the presence of a woman, she never fails to
respond with one of more ample circumference. When a woman so far
remembers herself as to yawn in the presence of a man, he tries to say
something witty.”
“Yes, when the woman is not his wife. If she is his wife, he asks her if
she doesn’t think it’s about time she was in bed.”
“I dare say you’re right; you have observed men--and women, for that
matter--much more closely than I have had time to do. It’s very awkward
that he isn’t here. I must bring him back at once.”
She felt a little movement at her heart; but she only said:
“I wouldn’t do that, if I were you. Why shouldn’t he be allowed to enjoy
his holiday in peace?”
“It’s a matter of business; the mine, I told you.”
“What’s wrong with the mine that could be set right by his coming back
at once? Are you not making enough out of it?”
“We’re making quite as much as is good for us out of it. But if we can
get a hundred and fifty thousand pounds for a few yards of our claim
further east, without damaging the prospects of the mine itself, I don’t
think we should refuse it--at any rate, I don’t think that we should
refuse to consider the offer.”
“What is a hundred and fifty thousand pounds?” said she.
“I wonder why you dressed yourself as you did last night?” said he.
The suddenness of the words did not cause her to quail as the guilty
wife quails--yes, under a properly managed lime-light. She did not even
color. But then, of course, she was not a guilty wife.
She lay back on her chair and laughed.
He watched her--not eagerly, but pleasantly, admiringly.
“My dear Stephen, if you could understand why I dressed myself that way
you would be able to give me a valuable hint as to where the connection
lies between your mine and my toilet--I need such a hint, now, I can
assure you.”
She was sitting up now looking at him with lovely laughing eyes. (After
all, she was no guilty wife.)
“What, you can’t see the connection?” he said slowly. “You can sew over
your dress about fifty thousand pounds’ worth of diamonds, and yet
you don’t see the connection between the wearing of that dress and the
development of a gold mine by your husband?”
“I think I see it now--something of a connection. But I don’t want any
more diamonds; I don’t care if you take all that are sewed about the
dress and throw them into the river. That’s how I feel this morning.”
“I heard some time ago of a woman who had something of your mood upon
her one day. She had some excellent diamonds, and in one of her moods,
she flung them into the river. She was a wife and she had a lover who
disappointed her. The story reads very smoothly in verse.”
She laughed.
“I have no lover,” she said--was it mournfully? “I have a husband, it is
true; but he is not exactly of the type of King Arthur--nor Sir Galahad,
for that matter. I hope you found Paris as enjoyable as ever?”
“Quite. I never saw at Paris a more enrapturing toilet than yours of
last night. You are, I know, the handsomest woman of my acquaintance,
and you looked handsomer than I had ever before seen you in that
costume. I wonder why you put it on.”
“Didn’t someone--was it Phyllis?--suggest that it was an act of
inspiration; that I had a secret, mysterious prompting to put it on to
achieve the object which--well, which I did achieve.”
“Object? What object?”
“To make my husband fall in love with me again.”
“Ah! In love there is no again. I wonder where a telegram would find
Herbert.”
“Don’t worry yourself about him. Let him enjoy his holiday.”
“Do you fancy he is enjoying himself with Earlscourt and his boon
companions? They’ll be playing poker from morning till night--certainly
from night till morning.”
“Why should he go on the cruise if he was not certain to enjoy himself?”
“Ah, that question is too much for me. Think over it yourself and let me
know if you come to a solution, my dear.”
He rose and left the room before she could make any answer--before
she could make an attempt to find out in what direction his thoughts
regarding the departure of Herbert Courtland were moving.
She wondered if he had any suspicion in regard to Herbert and herself.
He was not a man given to suspicion, or at any rate, given to allowing
whatever suspicion he may have felt, to be apparent. He had allowed her
to drive and to ride with Herbert Courtland during the four months they
had been together, first at Egypt, then at Florence, Vienna, Munich, and
Paris, and he could not have but seen that Herbert and she had a good
many sympathies in common. Not a word had been breathed, however, of a
suspicion that they were more than good friends to each other.
(As a matter of fact, they had not been more than good friends to each
other; but then some husbands are given to unworthy suspicions.)
Could it be possible, she asked herself, that some people with nasty
minds had suggested to him in Paris that she and Herbert were together
a great deal in London, and that he had been led to make this sudden
visit, this surprise visit to London, with a view of satisfying himself
as to the truth of the nasty reports--the disgraceful calumnies which
had reached his ears?
If he had done so, all that could be said was that he had been
singularly unfortunate in regard to his visit. “Unfortunate” was the
word which was in her mind, though, of course _“fortunate”_ was the word
which should have occurred to her. It was certainly a fortunate result
of his visit--that tableau in the drawing room of Mr. Ayrton: Ella and
her dearest friend standing side by side, hand in hand, as he entered.
A surprise visit, it may have been, but assuredly the surprise was
a pleasant one for the husband, if he had listened to the voice of
calumny.
And then, after pondering upon this with a smiling face, her smile
suddenly vanished. She was overwhelmed with the thought of what might
have been the result of that surprise visit--yes, if she had not had the
strength to run away to the side of Phyllis; yes, if Herbert had not had
the weakness to join that party of poker-players aboard the yacht.
She began to wonder what her husband would have done if he had entered
the house by the aid of his latch-key, and had found her sitting in that
lovely costume by the side of Herbert Courtland? Would he have thought
her a guilty woman? Would he have thought Herbert a false friend? Would
he have killed her, or would he have killed Herbert? Herbert would, she
thought, take a good deal of killing from a man of the caliber of her
husband; but what could she have done?
Well, what she did, as the force of that thought crushed her back upon
her chair, was to bring her hands together in a passionate clasp, and to
cry in a passionate gasp:
“Thank God--thank God--thank God!”
She dined alone with her husband that night, and thought it well to
appear in another evening toilet--one that was quite as lovely, though
scarcely so striking, as that which her husband had so admired the
previous night. He clearly appreciated her efforts to maintain her
loveliness in his eyes, and their little dinner was a very pleasant one.
He told her that he had learned that the yacht _Water Nymph_ would put
in to Leith before crossing the North Sea, and that he had written to
Herbert Courtland at that port to return without delay.
“You did wrong,” said she; and she felt that she was speaking the truth.
“I don’t think so,” he replied. “At any rate, you may rest perfectly
certain that Herbert will receive my letter with gratitude.”
And Mr. Linton’s judgment on this point was not in error. Herbert
Courtland received, on the evening of the third day after leaving
Southampton, the letter which called him back to London, and he
contrived to conceal whatever emotion he may have felt at the
prospect of parting from his shipmates. They accompanied him ashore,
however--they had worn out six packs of cards already, and were about
to buy another dozen or two, to see them safely through the imposing
scenery of the Hardanger Fjord.
The next day he was in London, and it was on the evening of that same
day that he came face to face with the Rev. George Holland outside Miss
Ayrton’s drawing room.