VIII.

The next day still (the fifteenth), 'Haven't I heard you lived at

Saint-Graal when you were a child?' she asked.

'If you have, for once in a way rumour has told the truth. I lived at

Saint-Graal till I was thirteen.'

'Then perhaps you knew her?'

'Her?'

'The Queen. Mademoiselle de la Granjolaye de Ravanches.'

'Oh, I knew her very well--when we were children.'

'Tell me all about her.'

'It would be a long story.'

She leaped from her horse; then, raising her riding whip, and looking

the animal severely in the eye, 'Bézigue! Attention,' she said

impressively. 'You're to stop exactly where you are and not play any

tricks. _Entendu? Bien_.' She moved a few steps down the pathway, and

stopped at an opening among the trees, where the ground was a cushion

of bright green moss. 'By Jove, she _is_ at her ease,' thought Paul,

who followed her. 'How splendidly she walks--what undulations!' From

the French point of view, as she must be aware, the situation gave him

all sorts of rights.

She sank softly, gracefully, upon the moss.

'It's a long story. Tell it me,' she commanded, and pointed to the

earth. He sat down facing her, at a little distance.

'It's odd you should have chosen this place,' said he.

'Odd? Why?' She looked at him inquiringly. For a moment their eyes

held each other; and all at once the blood swept through him with

suffocating violence. She was so beautiful, so sumptuous, so warmly

and richly feminine; and surely the circumstances were not anodyne.

Her softly rounded face, its very pallor, the curve and colour of her

lips, her luminous dark eyes, the smooth modulations of her voice, and

then her loose abundance of black hair, and the swelling lines of her

breast, the fluent contour of her waist and hips, under the fine black

cloth of her dress--all these, with the silence of the forest, the

heat of the southern day, the woodland fragrances of which the air was

full, and the sense of being intimately alone with her, set up within

him a turbulent vibration, half of delight, half of pained suspense.

And the complaisant informality with which she met him played a

sustaining counterpoint. 'What luck, what luck, what luck,' were the

words which shaped themselves to the strong beating of his pulses.

What would happen next? Whither would it lead? He had savoured the

bouquet, he was famished to taste the wine. And yet, so complicated

are our human feelings, he was obscurely vexed. Only two kinds of

woman, he would have maintained yesterday, could conceivably do a

thing like this: an _ingénue_ or 'that sort.' She wasn't an _ingénue_.

Something, at the same time, half assured him that she wasn't 'that

sort,' either. But--the circumstances! The situation!

'Why odd?' she repeated.

'Oh, I don't want to talk about the Queen,' he said, in a smothered

voice.

'The oddity relates itself to the Queen?'

'Oh, this is where we used to waste half our lives when we were

children. That's all. This was our favourite nook.'

'Perfect then for the story you're going to tell me.'

'What story?'

'You said it was a long story.'

'There's really no story at all.' His eyes were fastened upon her

hands, small and tapering, in their tan gauntlets. The point of a

patent-leather boot glanced from the edge of her skirt. A short gold

watch-chain dangled from her breast, a cluster of charms at the end.

'You said it was a long story,' she repeated sternly.

'It would be a dull one. We knew each other when we were infants, and

used to play together. That is all.'

'But what was she like? Describe her to me. I adore _souvenirs

d'enfance_.' Her eyes were bright with eagerness.

'Oh, she was very pretty. The prettiest little girl I've ever seen.

She had the most wonderful eyes--deep, deep, into which you could look

a hundred miles; you know the sort; dreamy, poetical, sad; oh, lovely

eyes. And she used to wear her hair down her back; it was very long,

and soft--soft as smoke, almost; almost impalpable. She always dressed

in white--short white frocks, with broad sashes, red or blue. That

was the fashion then for little girls. Perhaps it is still--I've never

noticed.'

'Yes. Don't stop. Go on.'

'Dear me, I don't know what to say. I used to see her a good deal,

because they were our neighbours. Her father used to ask me over to

stay at Granjolaye. She needed a playmate, and I was the only one

available. Sometimes she would come and spend a day at Saint-Graal. Do

you know Granjolaye? The castle? It's worth going over. It used to

belong to the Kings of Navarre, you know. We used to play together in

the great audience chamber, and chase each other through the secret

passages in the walls. At Saint-Graal we confined ourselves to the

garden. Her head was full of the queerest romantic notions. You

couldn't persuade her that the white irises that grew about our pond

weren't enchanted princesses. One day we filled a bottle with holy

water at the Church, and then she sprinkled them with it, pronouncing

an incantation. "If ye were born as ye are, remain as ye are; but if

ye were born otherwise, resume your original shapes." They remained

as they were; but that didn't shake her faith. Something was amiss

with the holy water, or with the form of her incantation.'

She laughed softly. 'Then she was nice? You liked her?' she asked.

'Oh, I was passionately in love with her. All children are

passionately in love with somebody, aren't they? A real _grande

passion_. It began when I was about ten.' He broke off, to laugh. 'Do

you care for love stories? I'm a weary, wayworn man; but upon my word,

I've never in all my life felt any such intense emotion for a woman,

anything that so nearly deserved to be called _love_, as I felt for

Hélène de la Granjolaye when I was an infant. Night after night I used

to lie awake thinking how I loved her--longing to tell her

so--planning how I would, next day--composing tremendous

declarations--imagining her response--and waiting in a fever of

impatience for the day to come. But then, when I met her, I didn't

dare. Bless me, how I used to thrill at sight of her, with love, with

fear. How I used to look at her face, and pine to kiss her. If her

hand touched mine, I almost fainted. It's very strange that children

before their teens should be able to experience the whole gamut of the

spiritual side of love; and yet it's certain.'

She was looking at him with intent eyes, her lips parted a little.

'But you did tell her at last, I hope?' she said, anxiously.

He had got warmed to his subject, and her interest inspired him. 'Oh,

at last! It was here--in this very spot. I had picked a lot of

celandine, and stuck them about in her hair, where they shone like

stars. Oh, the joy of being allowed to touch her hair! It made

utterance a necessity. I fumbled and stammered, and blushed and

thrilled, and almost choked. And at last I blurted it out. "I love you

so. I love you so." That--after the eloquent declarations I had

composed overnight!'

'And she?'

'She answered quite simply, "Et moi, je t'aime tant, aussi." And then

she began to cry. And when I asked her what she was crying for, she

explained that I oughtn't to have left her in doubt for so long; she

had been so unhappy from fear that I didn't "love her so." She was

quite unfemininely frank, you see. Oh, the ecstacy of that hour! The

ecstacy of our first kiss! From that time on it was "mon petit mari"

and "ma petite femme." The greatest joy in life for me, for us, was to

sit together, holding each other's hands, and repeating from time to

time, "J' t'aime tant, j' t'aime tant." Now and then we would vary it

with a fugue upon our names--"Hélène!"--"Paul!"' He laughed.

'Children, with their total lack of humour, are the drollest of

created beings, aren't they?'

'Oh, I don't think it's droll. I know, all children have those

desperate love affairs. But they seem to me pathetic. How did it go

on?'

'Oh, for two or three years we lived in Paradise. There were no other

boys in the neighbourhood, so she was constant.'

'For three years? And then?'

'Then my grandmother died, and I was carried off to Paris. She

remained here. And so it ended.'

'And when did you meet her next? After you were grown up?'

'I have never met her since.'

'You must have followed her career with a special interest, though?'

'_Ah, quant à ça_!'

'Her marriage, her coronation, her divorce. Poor Woman! What she must

have suffered. Have you made any attempt to see her since you came

back to Saint-Graal?'

'_Ah, merci, non_! If she wanted to see me, she'd send for me.'

'She sees no one, everybody says. But I should think she'd like to see

you--her old playmate. If she _should_ send for you--But I suppose I

musn't ask you to tell me about it afterwards? Of course, like

everybody else in her neighbourhood, I'm awfully interested in her.'

There was a moment's silence. She looked at the moss beneath her, and

stroked it lightly with a finger-tip. Paul looked at her.

'You're horribly unkind,' he said at last.

'Unkind?' She raised wide eyes of innocent surprise.

'You know I'm in an agony of curiosity.'

'About what?'

'About you.'

'Me?'

'Yourself.'

She lifted the cluster of charms at the end of her watch-chain. One of

them was a tiny golden whistle. On this she blew, and Bézigue came

trotting up. She mounted him to-day without Paul's assistance. Smiling

down on the young man, she said, 'Oh, after the reckless way in which

I've cast the conventions to the winds, you really can't expect me to

give you my name and address.' And before he could answer, she was

gone.

He walked about for the rest of the day in a great state of

excitement. 'My dear,' he told himself, 'if you're not careful,

something serious will happen to you.'