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And the elephant said: Pippala, as I gazed at her, I almost shrank

before her tranquil eyes, half believing she could see me, so utterly

had she crushed me by her unanswerable words. And yet, the less I

could reply, the more intense became my admiration of herself, and the

stronger my unwillingness to obey her, and go away and leave her. And

as if her beauty was not enough, her very virtue came to reinforce it,

making her attraction a hundred times more powerful than ever. O

pippala, what is this mystery of love, and who is there who can sound

it? For what was I doing, but endeavouring to persuade her? and yet,

had she been persuaded, I should actually have grieved at my success;

as I actually rejoiced at her refusal, loving her the better, the less

she could be persuaded to love me. And I exclaimed, as if in defiance

of despair: No matter, O thou incomparable beauty, what I was, for I am

changed, and by thee, in the twinkling of an eye. And what does it

matter what they say in the bazaar, for the world is but a straw to me,

in comparison with thee? See, I cannot live without thee, and I will

carry thee away, to a distance from the world, and be to thee

infinitely more than a thousand husbands such as thine. For he

neglected thee, and left thee to thyself, not valuing his pearl. But I

will be thy other self; see, thou art blind, but I will be thy eyes,

and by means of me, thou shall utterly forget thy want of sight. And

if thou wilt, I will take thee clean away, turning my back upon my

kingdom and the world, like yonder necklace which I have left for thy

sake lying unregarded in the grass, and asking of thee in return

nothing but thyself. Dost thou not know, what fate awaits thee here?

Canst thou endure to live, deserted by thy husband, who is either dead

or gone, the object of the scorn and derision and hard usage of the

world, a very target for the arrows of contempt?[14] What then will

thou resemble but a blue delicious lotus, trampled in the mire of a

city street by the foot of every passer-by; a lotus, whose appropriate

position is either the pool in the silence of the forest, or the head

of a king? But come with me, O lotus, and thou shall gain at one

stroke both the forest and the king. For here am I, a king, and beside

us is the forest, stretching like the ocean to the south, whose farther

shore no hunter ever sees. And far away within it, I will build thee a

marble palace that shall laugh at even Alaká, set like a pearl in the

middle of an emerald of gardens, full of pools of golden lotuses, whose

roots are nibbled by a multitude of silver swans. And there by day

thou shall wander led by me, or lie and dream, fanned by breezes heavy

with the sandal straight from Malaya, on marble slabs cooled by the

spray tossed from the crystal tanks by waterfalls whose music shall

pour sleep into thy ear, leaving thee wakeful at midnight to listen and

tremble as I guide thee along the palace-top at the cry of the wild

animals roaming at a distance in the wood, till at last thou fall to

dreaming in my arms, lulled by the slow and melancholy weeping of the

moonstones oozing as they swing to and fro slowly in the moonlight, as

if keeping time to the silent dance of their own long shadows on the

floor. And what will it matter to thee or me what they say in the

bazaar, living together like Siddhas in the moon, to whom this babble

of busybodies in the cities of this despicable earth sounds like the

recollection of the murmur of a far-off ocean in the dream of a

half-remembered birth. And all the while I will be thy servant and the

eyes of thee, and my voice shall paint to thee pictures of the world

that shall surround thee, and be thy one interpreter, till learning its

language, thy soul shall even forget to remember it was blind. And I

will utterly efface thy recollection of this husband, who is a husband

in nothing but the name, since he leaves thee deserted and alone, to be

afflicted; and instead of him I will be thy husband, and thy other half

and helper, and thy soother and thy lover and the very eyes and soul of

thee.

And Trishodadhi, as he listened, said with anxiety to himself: Ha! now

this liar of a king is very cunning, and beyond a doubt, many a woman

would have found it hard to resist the flattery of his tongue. And

oblivious of his muttering, he listened eagerly for the remainder of

the tale.

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