CHAPTER XXI

“_Let me gather a little strength to think,_

_As one who reels on the outermost brink,_

_To the innermost gulf descending._”

In a summer-house of one of the several châlets perched up among

the Cintra mountains sat Leslie. Far below was a vista of hill and

dale, forests of cork and chestnut, groves of orange, lemon and olive

trees, white villages and red, ploughed fields and, in the distance,

the silver sea and Lisbon.

Behind towered rock-strewn heights, standing black and sinister

against the sunlit sky, their craggy sides patched with somber pines

and firs. Suspended like a jewel in the heavens, was the Palacio da

Pena (the Palace of Sorrow), with its three golden domes flashing in

the clear blue sky.

Nearly a fortnight ago Leslie’s employers had sent her up to their

mountain resort. For suddenly she had become pale and thin, had lost

interest in her duties and in the round of gaieties which fell to her

lot as companion to one of the most popular women in Lisbon. In fact,

she was again the sad-eyed, listless girl who had come to Lisbon

nearly a year before on Major Harding’s recommendation.

Yet this sudden lack of energy was not due to overmuch dancing in the

Portuguese capital as her employers suspected. It resulted from an

item seen in the month-old paper now lying on her knee--a curt notice

of an occurrence that frequently happens in the running of an Empire.

“News comes from Tuata, Northern Nigeria, of the death of two British

officers, Captain Lindsay Fletcher and Lieutenant Paul Vincent. They,

and a small company of _Hausas_, were ambushed and massacred by a

party of natives. The whole of the British force was annihilated. The

bodies of the _Hausas_ were recovered, but no trace of the murdered

officers’ bodies has been found.”

Inside the folded newspaper were ten letters from West Africa, all

written by Fletcher--letters with a curious air of restraint about

them.

Over a year had passed since Leslie had said good-by to Dr. Atherley.

Her new life in a strange land, with its round of pleasures and slight

duties, together with the kindness and consideration of her new

friends, had eased the blow of Molly’s tragic end. Lebrassa she still

thought of with a shudder. But as time passed he faded somewhat from

her mind and was no longer the constant, haunting specter he had been

during the early months following her departure from West Africa.

She sat, white and tearless, thinking of the man she loved, murdered

out in darkest Africa, wondering, in a numb, heartbroken way, why the

world went on just as usual.

As she sat there brooding, the approach of a servant, with a letter on

a salver, roused her.

Picking it up, she glanced at the envelope. The postmark was Lisbon,

re-addressed to her from her employers’ house there. The writing was

vaguely familiar, yet she could not put it down to any one of her

acquaintances in that city.

Thinking it must be some invitation she opened it. She drew out no

card, but thin sheets of foreign correspondence paper. The opening

phrase brought a gasp of alarm to her lips. Quickly she turned it over

and looked at the signature.

It was one she had seen before, on a letter that had come to her

eighteen months ago in London--a brief note telling her the name of

the boat that was to take her to West Africa, the time of sailing and

the best train to Liverpool.

“_Essel Lebrassa._”

Big and all-powerful the name looked back at her, blinding her to

everything but the fact of its presence.

With wide, dilated eyes she scanned the letter her shaking hands held.

_Little White Rose_,

There is so much I want to tell you, that I want you to believe, that

I would have told you, but you fled away from me. Why did you, Leslie?

I thought I had been through most of the phases of mental agony this

existence can offer, but the knowledge that you were out in that

driving gale, battling with wind and rain through miles of forest, and

that fear of me had sent you there, caused me the deepest suffering I

have yet known. You will not believe me when I say that the greatest

joy of my life was when I heard you had recovered from the effects of

that night. Yet I am such a savage. I am writing to you now to make

you come back to me.

Little friend, you once had so much sympathy. Why did you take it from

me? Just when I needed it most. When you knew me for who I was, the

depths of vile blackness in me, the red flood wherein I had sought

oblivion. And some of the white, too, that _you_ could always bring to

the top.

I was a brute that night. I think I touched the bottom of a seemingly

bottomless hell. I would have injured the little girl who trusted me.

But your scorn and contempt maddened me, roused every atom of the vile

black blood in me.

There was a time--so long ago that I had almost forgotten it until I

met you--when I tried to conquer every evil passion the negro blood

brought with it. And I succeeded. Yet it proved no use. All I had been

working for was swept from me by an act of treachery, by a man who

should have been my best friend. I left England for Africa, went back

to a heritage I knew was mine, where I was welcomed and worshipped as

a god and Sultan, not an object of contempt, as I was in your country,

to be sneered at and called a “nigger,” and treated as though I were

immeasurably beneath the poorest white trash civilization produces.

I was not twenty when I left the white world, to take up every rite

and custom of my mother’s people, and very bitter against my father’s

race because they had dealt out to me nothing but sneers and insults

and injustice.

I had once hoped to make a name for myself, not in the way I have

since done, but honorably. My birth and one man’s crime barred me out

from that, so I tried another way, and succeeded. I think I am born

for success, provided there is no honor attached to it. I tried to win

you honorably, Leslie, though you will not believe me. And all the

time I knew how poor my chance was. You were mine, more mine even than

you know, the white side of me that had come back embodied in an angel

who had deigned to be my friend.

I want to tell you, little rose, of the worship and adoration in my

heart. Yet I know you have no wish to hear it. No pleading or love I

could offer would bring you to me willingly, as I had once hoped,

foolishly, wildly. Your white hands had touched me gently once or

twice with such sympathy and understanding, that I dared to think you

might give yourself into my keeping.

I was always a dreamer, Leslie, and always rudely awakened. I had

forgotten what I was--a creature black and bloodstained. Such a flood

of blood and blackness that it swept away the one friend life had

given me; one I would have chosen had fate made me as other men.

I must have the one pure thing that has come into this nightmare life

of mine. I am so thirsty down here at the bottom of my black hell,

thirstier than ever before for goodness and purity. My little angel

knows the truth about me; no small white hands will touch me willingly

again; no rose will flood me with its sweetness.

Because of the vile depths of blackness in me, I must make a bargain

with the whiteness that has spurned me.

Little Rose, I hold a life in my hand. I will give it to you in

exchange for yourself. A man’s life for one sweet white flower from an

English garden. One whom you now call “friend,” as you once called me.

It is Captain Fletcher.

What a threat to use! One that will make you loathe and despise me

more utterly than ever. I am a brute even to my most cherished

treasure, whom I would have know only the best in me, but to whom Fate

has determined to show the worst.

Captain Fletcher is my prisoner, not dead, as will be reported, but

captured by me with but one motive--to learn your whereabouts. If you

will come to me his life is yours--his and that of his brother officer

whom I took at the same time. The day you arrive at Kallu they will be

sent back to the nearest British station. If you refuse to come they

both die. It is for you to choose. Even if you refuse to come, you

cannot escape me. I know where you are now. My servants will be

watching your every movement, awaiting an opportunity to trap you and

bring you out here. The first is the quicker method, that is why I

have adopted it. I am so hungry for you; so hungry to have my little

English rose set in the sweetest garden earth holds. And I must make a

further compact with my rose, lest she betray me.

I have sent a guardian to Lisbon for you, Dr. Hillman, who, for the

next week will wait all day in the Rocio. If you are willing to give

yourself in exchange for Captain Fletcher, you have only to stand by

the statue in the middle, with a white rosebud in your hand. He will

give you another letter. You must do what it says, and say nothing to

any one of where you are going. You will come out to Africa as his

daughter. There will be eyes watching you always. Any attempt on your

part to betray either me or my servant will result in Captain

Fletcher’s death.

How can I expect you to do anything but hate and loathe me? I am the

Sultan of Kallu, with ten thousand souls to treat as I please, yet I

am the son of an English nobleman, an upright and honorable man who

would have had me the same, but he reckoned without my mother and the

race of savage rulers she sprang from. _You_ can keep me the son of my

father, even after twenty years of savagery, if you will. Be my sweet

angel of pity, as you once were. Don’t drive me quite back to

barbarism, Leslie. Try to have toleration and pity on your side. Love

I could not hope for, but just a little something, dearest, that would

hold us together outside the power of my arms.

Essel Lebrassa.

With trembling hands Leslie put the letter down. The first feeling

that came out of the chill, sick daze enveloping her was one of relief

to know Fletcher was alive. The full meaning of what the price of his

life meant she was too stunned to realize. She only knew he was not

dead and that she could save him.

None of the pathos and the pleading in the letter came to her.

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