PATIENT, NOT PASSIONATE.
The quiet days went on, and the old Cavalier settled down into a
tranquil happiness, which comforted his daughter with the feeling of
duty prosperously fulfilled. To make this dear old man happy, to be his
companion and friend, to share in his rides and rambles, and of an
evening to play the games he loved on the old shovel-board in the hall,
or an old-fashioned game at cards, or backgammon beside the fire in the
panelled parlour, reconciled her to the melancholy of an existence from
which hope had vanished like a light extinguished. It seemed to her as
if she had dropped back into the old life with her great-aunt. The
Manor House was just a little gayer than the Flemish Convent—for the
voices and footsteps of the few inhabitants had a freer sound, which
made the few seem more populous than the many. And then there were the
dogs. What a powerful factor in home life those four-footed friends
were! Out-of-doors a stone barn had been turned into a kennel for five
couple of foxhounds; indoors a couple of setters, sent by a friend over
sea from Waterford, had insinuated themselves into the parlour, where
they established themselves as household favourites, to the damage of
those higher hereditary qualities which fitted them for distinction
with the guns. Indeed, the old Knight was too fond of his fireside
companions to care very much if he missed a bird now and then because
Cataline was over-fed or Caesar disobedient. They stood sentinel on
each side of his chair at dinner, like supporters to a coat-of-arms.
Angela had her own particular favourite in a King Charles’s spaniel. It
was the very dog which had first greeted her in the silence of the
plague-stricken house. She had chosen this one from the canine troop
when her sister offered her the gift of a dog at parting, though
Hyacinth had urged her to take something younger than this, which was
over five years old.
“He will die just when you love him best,” she said.
“Nay; but such partings must come. I love this one because he was with
me in fear and sadness. He used to cling to me, and look up and lick my
face, as if he were telling me to hope, when my brother seemed marked
for death.”
“Poor Fareham! Did you desire every dog in the house—and my spaniels
are of the same breed as the King’s, and worth fifty pound apiece—you
have a right to take them. But, indeed, I would rather you chose a
younger dog—and with a shorter nose; but, of course, if you like this
one best——”
Angela held by her first choice, and Ganymede was the companion of all
her hours, walked and lived with her, and slept on a satin cushion at
the foot of her spacious four-post bed, and fretted and whined if she
left him shut in an empty room for half an hour; yet with all his
refinements, and his air of being as dainty a gentleman as any spark of
quality, he had a gross passion for the kitchen, and after nibbling
sweet cakes delicately out of his mistress’s taper fingers, he would
waddle through a labyrinth of passages, and find his way to the
hog-tub, there to wallow in slush and broken victuals, till he all but
drowned himself in a flood of pot-liquor. It was hard to reconcile so
much beauty and grace, such eloquent eyes and satin coat, with tastes
and desires so vulgar; and Angela sighed over him when a scullion
brought him to her, greasy and penitent, to crouch at her feet, and
deprecate her disgust with an abject tail.
Oh, tranquil, duteous life, how fair it might have seemed, as spring
advanced, and the garden smiled with the promise of summer, were it not
for that aching sense of loss, the some one missing, whose absence made
all things grey and cold!
Yes, she knew now, fully realising as she had never done before, how
long and how utterly her life had been influenced by an affection which
even to contemplate was mortal sin. Yet to extinguish memory was not
within her power. She looked back and remembered how Fareham’s
protecting love had enfolded her with its gentle warmth, in those happy
days at Chilton; how all she knew of poetry and the drama, of ethics
and philosophy, had been learnt from him. She recalled his evident
delight in opening the rich treasures of a mind which he had never
ceased to cultivate, even amidst the vicissitudes of a soldier’s life,
in making her familiar with the writers he loved, and teaching her to
estimate, and to discuss them. And in all their talk together he had
been for the most part careful to avoid disparagement of the religion
in which she believed—so that it was only some chance revelation of the
infidel’s narrow outlook that reminded her of his unbelief.
Yes, his love had been round her like an atmosphere; and she had been
exquisitely happy while that unquestioning affection was hers. On her
part there had been neither doubt nor fear. It seemed the most natural
thing in the world that he should be fond of her and she of him.
Affinity had made them brother and sister; and then they had been
together in sickness and in peril of death. It might be true, as he
himself had affirmed, that her so happy arrival had saved his life;
since just those hours between the departure of his attendants and the
physician’s evening visit may have been the crisis of his disease.
Well, it was past—the exquisite bliss, the unconscious sin, the
confidence, the danger. All had vanished into the grave of
irrecoverable days.
She had heard nothing from Denzil since she left London, nor had she
acknowledged his letter. Her silence had doubtless angered him, and all
was at an end between them, and this was what she wished. Hyacinth and
her children were at Chilton, whence came letters of complaining
against the dulness of the country, where his lordship hunted four
times a week, and spent all the rest of his time in his library,
appearing only “at our stupid heavy meals; and that not always, since
on his hunting days he is far afield when I have to sit down to the
intolerable two-o’clock dinner, and make a pretence of eating—as if
anybody with more intellectuals than a sheep could dine; or as if
appetite came by staring at green fields! You remember how in London
supper was the only meal I ever cared for. There is some grace in a
repast that comes after conversation and music, or the theatre, or a
round of visits—a table dazzling with lights, and men and women ready
to amuse, and be amused. But to sit down in broad daylight, when one
has scarce swallowed one’s morning chocolate, and face a sweltering
sirloin, or open a smoking veal pie! Indeed, dearest, our whole method
of feeding smacks of a vulgar brutishness, more appropriate to a
company of Topinambous than to persons of quality. Why, oh, why must
these reeking hecatombs load our tables, when they might as easily be
kept out of sight upon a buffet? The spectacle of huge mountains of
meat, the steam and odour of rank boiled and roast under one’s very
nostrils, change appetite to nausea, and would induce a delicate person
to rise in disgust and fly from the dining-room. Mais, je ne fais que
divaguer; and almost forget what it was I was so earnest to tell thee
when I began my letter.
“Sir Denzil Warner has been over here, his ostensible motive a civil
inquiry after my health; but I could see that his actual purpose was to
hear of you. I told him how happily your simple soul has accommodated
itself to an almost conventual seclusion, and a very inferior style of
living—whereupon he smiled his rapture, and praised you to the skies.
‘Would that she could accommodate herself to my house as easily,’ he
said; ‘she should have every indulgence that an adoring husband could
yield her.’ And then he said much more, but as lovers always sing the
same repetitive song, and have no more strings to their lyre than the
ancients had before Mercury expanded it, I confess to not listening
over carefully, and will leave you to imagine the eloquence of a manly
and honourable love. Ah, sweetheart! you do wrong to reject him. Thou
hast a quiet soothing prettiness of thine own, but art no blazing star
of beauty, like the Stewart, to bring a King to thy feet—he would have
married her if poor Catherine had not disappointed him by her
recovery—and to take a Duke as _pis aller_. Believe me, love, it were
wise of you to become Lady Warner, with an unmortgaged estate, and a
husband who, in these Republican times, may rise to distinction. He is
your only earnest admirer; and a love so steadfast, backed by a fortune
so respectable, should not be discarded lightly.”
Over all these latter passages in her sister’s letter Angela’s eye ran
with a scornful carelessness. Her womanly pride revolted at such petty
schooling—that she should be bidden to accept this young man
gratefully, because he was her only suitor. No one else had ever cared
for her pale insignificance. She looked at her clouded image in the
oblong glass that hung on the panel above her secrétaire, and whose
reflection made any idea of her own looks rather speculative than
precise. It showed her a thoughtful face, too pale for beauty; yet she
could but note the harmony of lines which recalled that Venetian type
familiar to her eye in the Titians and Tintorets at Fareham House.
“I doubt I am good-looking enough for any one to be satisfied with the
outward semblance who valued the soul within,” she thought, as she
turned from the glass with a mournful sigh.
It was not of Denzil she was thinking, but of that other who in slow
contemplative days in the library where he had taught her what books
she ought to love, and where she might never more enter, must naturally
sometimes remember her, and cast some backward thoughts to the hours
they had spent together.
Hyacinth’s letter of matronly counsel was but a week old when Sir John
surprised his daughter one morning, as they sat at table, by the
announcement of a visitor to stay in the house.
“You will order the west room to be got ready, Angela, and bid Marjory
Cook serve us some of her savourest dishes while Sir Denzil stays
here.”
“Sir Denzil!”
“Yes, ma mie, Sir Denzil! Ventregris, the girl stares as if I had said
Sir Bevis of Southampton, or Sir Guy of Warwick! I knew this young
gentleman’s father before the troubles—an honest man, though he took
the wrong side He paid for his perversity with his life; so we’ll say
requiescat. The young man is a fine young man, whom I would fain have
something nearer to me than he is. So at a hint from your sister I have
asked him to bring his fishing tackle and whip our streams for a May
trout or two. He may catch a finer fish than trout, perhaps, while he
is a-fishing; if you will be his guide through the meadows.”
“Father, how could you——”
“Ah! thou art a sly one, fair mistress. Who was it told me there was no
one? ‘No one, dear father, and indeed, sir, I was thinking of the
convent when you came to London,’ while here was as handsome a spark as
one would meet in a day’s march, sighing and dying for you.”
“Father, I do protest to you——” she began, with a pale distressed look
that vouched for her earnestness; but the Knight had his face in the
tankard, and set it down only to pursue his own train of thought.
“If it had not have been for that little bird at Chilton you might have
hoodwinked me as blind as ever gerfalcon was hooded. Well, the young
man will be here before evening. I would not force your inclinations,
but it is the dearest desire of my heart to see you happily married
before I blow out the candle, and bid my last good night. And a man of
honour, handsome and of handsomest fortune, is not to be slighted.”
Angela’s spirit rose against this recurrence of her sister’s sermon.
“If Sir Denzil is coming to this house as my suitor, I will go to
Louvain without an hour’s delay that I can help,” she said resolutely.
“Why, what a vixen! Nay, dearest, there is no need for that angry
flush. The young man is too courteous to plague you with unwelcome
civilities. I saw him in London at the tennis court, and was friendly
to him for his father’s memory, knowing nothing of his desire to be my
son-in-law. He is a fine player at that royal game, and a fine man. He
comes here this evening as my friend; and if you please to treat him
disdainfully, I cannot help it. But, indeed, I wonder as much as your
sister why you should not reciprocate this gentleman’s love.”
“When you were young, father, did you love the first comer; only
because she was handsome and civil?”
“No, child; I had seen many handsome women before I met your mother.
She came over in ’35 with the Marquise, who had been lady of honour to
Queen Marie before the Princess Henriette married our King, and Queen
Henriette was fond of her, and invited her to come to London, and she
divided her life between the two countries till the troubles, when she
was one of the first to scamper off, as you know. My wife was little
more than a child when I saw her at Court, hiding behind her mother’s
large sleeves. I had seen handsomer women; but she was the first whose
face went straight to my heart. And it has dwelt there ever since,” he
concluded, with a sudden break in his voice.
“Then you can comprehend, dear sir, that a man may be honourable, and
courteous, and handsome, and yet not win a woman’s love.”
“Ah, it is not the man; it is love that should win, sweetheart. Love is
worthy of love. When that is the true coin it should buy its reward.
Indeed I have rarely seen it otherwise. Love begets love. Louise de la
Vallière is not the handsomest woman at the French Court. Her
complexion has suffered from small-pox, and she has a defective gait;
but the King discovered a so fond and romantic attachment to his
person, a love ashamed of loving, the very poetry of affection; and
that discovery made him her slave. The Court beauties—sultanas splendid
as Vashti—look on in angry wonder. Louise is adored because she began
by adoring. Mind, I do not praise or excuse her, for ’tis a mortal sin
to love a married man, and steal him from his wife. Foolish child, how
your cheek crimsons! I do wrong to shock your innocence with my babble
of a King’s mistress.”
Denzil arrived at sunset, on horseback, with a mounted servant in
attendance, carrying his saddle-bags and fishing tackle. It was but a
short day’s ride from Oxford. Fareham’s rides with the hounds must have
brought him sometimes within a few miles of the Manor Moat Hyacinth and
her children might have ridden over in their coach; and indeed she had
promised her sister a visit in more than one of her letters. But there
had been always something to postpone the expedition—company at home,
or bad weather, or a fit of the vapours—so that the sisters had been as
much asunder as if the elder had been in Yorkshire or Northumberland.
Denzil brought news of the household at Chilton. Lady Fareham was as
charming as ever, and though she had complained very often of bad
health, she had been so lively and active whenever the whim took her,
riding with hawk and hound, visiting about the neighbourhood, driving
into Oxford, that Denzil was of opinion her ailments were of the
spirits only, a kind of rustic malady to which most fine ladies were
subject, the nostalgia of paving-stones and oil lamps. Henriette—she
now insisted upon discarding her nick-name—was less volatile than in
London, and missed her aunt sorely, and quarrelled with mademoiselle,
who was painfully strict upon all points of speech and manners.
George’s days of unalloyed idleness were also ended, for the Roman
Catholic priest was now a resident in the house as the little boy’s
tutor, besides teaching ‘Henriette the rudiments, and instructing her
in her mother’s religion.
Denzil told them even of the guests he had met at the Abbey; but of the
master of the house his lips spoke not, till Sir John questioned him.
“And Fareham? Has he that same air of not belonging to the family which
I remarked of him in London?”
“His lordship has ever an air of being aloof from everybody,” Denzil
answered gravely. “He is solitary even in his sports, and his indoor
life is mostly buried in a book.”
“Ah, those books, they will be the ruin of nations! As books multiply,
great actions will grow less. Life’s golden hours will be wasted in
dreaming over the fancies of dead men; and the world will be over-full
of brooding philosophers like Descartes, or pamphleteers like your
friend Mr. Milton.”
“Nay, sir, the world is richer for such a man as John Milton, who has
composed the grandest poem in our language—an epic on a scale and
subject as sublime as the Divine Comedy of Dante.”
“I never saw Mr. Dante’s comedy acted, and confess myself ignorant of
its merits.”
“Comedy, sir, with Dante, is but a name. The Italian poem is an epic,
and not a play. Mr. Milton’s poem will be given to the world shortly,
though, alas! he will reap little substantial reward for the
intellectual labour of years. Poetry is not a marketable commodity in
England, save when it flatters a royal patron, or takes the vulgarer
form of a stage-play. But this poem of Mr. Milton’s has been the solace
of his darkened life. You have heard, perhaps, of his blindness?”
“Yes, he had to forego his office as Latin Secretary to that villain.
To my mind the decay of sight was a judgment upon him for having
written against his murdered King, even to the denial of his Majesty’s
own account of his sufferings. But I confess that even if the man had
been a loyal subject, I have little admiration for that class;
scribblers and pamphleteers, brooders over books, crouchers in the
chimney-corner, who have never trailed a pike or slept under the open
sky. And seeing this vast increase of book-learning, and the arising of
such men as Hobbes, to question our religion—and Milton to assail
monarchy—I can but believe those who say that this old England has
taken the downward bent; that, as we are dwindling in stature, so we
are decaying in courage and capacity for action.”
Denzil listened respectfully to the old man’s disquisitions over his
morning drink; while Reuben stood at the sideboard carving a ham or a
round of powdered beef; and while Angela sipped her chocolate out of
the porcelain cup which Hyacinth had bought for her at the Middle
Exchange, where curiosities from China and the last inventions from
Paris were always to be had before they were seen anywhere else.
Nothing could be more reverential than the young man’s bearing to his
host, while his quiet friendliness set Angela at her ease, and made her
think that he had abandoned his suit, and henceforward aspired only to
such a tranquil friendship as they had enjoyed at Chilton before any
word of love had been spoken.
Apart from the question of love and marriage, his presence was in no
manner displeasing to her; indeed, the long days in that sequestered
valley lost something of their grey monotony now that she had a
companion in all her intellectual occupations. Fondly as she loved her
father, she had not been able to hide from herself the narrowness of
his education and the blind prejudice which governed his ideas upon
almost every subject, from politics to natural history. Of the books
which make the greater part of a solitary life she could never talk to
him; and it was here that she had so sorely missed the counsellor and
friend, who had taught her to love and to comprehend the great poets of
the past—Homer and Virgil, Dante and Tasso, and the deep melancholy
humour of Cervantes, and, most of all, the inexhaustible riches of the
Elizabethans.
Denzil was of a temper as thoughtful, but his studies had taken a
different direction. He was not even by taste or apprehension a poet.
Had he been called upon to criticise his tutor’s compositions, he
might, like Johnson, have objected to the metaphoric turns of Lycidas,
and have missed the melody of lines as musical as the nightingale. In
that great poem of which he had been privileged to transcribe many of
the finest passages from the lips of the poet, he admired rather the
heroic patience of the blind author than the splendour of the verse. He
was more impressed by the schoolmaster’s learning than by that
God-given genius which lifted that one Englishman above every other of
his age and country. No, he was eminently prosaic, had sucked prose and
plain-thinking from his mother’s breast; but he was not the less an
agreeable companion for a girl upon whose youth an unnatural solitude
had begun to weigh heavily.
All that one mind can impart to another of a widely different fibre,
Denzil had learnt from Milton in that most impressionable period of
boyhood which he had spent in the small house in Holborn, whose back
rooms looked out over the verdant spaces of Lincoln’s Inn Fields, where
Lord Newcastle’s palace had not yet begun to rise from its foundations,
and where the singing birds had not been scared away by the growth of
the town. A theatre now stood where the boy and a fellow-scholar had
played trap and ball, and the stately houses of Queen Street hard by
were alive with rank and fashion.
In addition to the classical curriculum which Milton had taught with
the solemn earnestness of one in whom learning is a religion, Denzil
had acquired a store of miscellaneous knowledge from the great
Republican; and most interesting among these casual instructions had
been the close acquaintance with nature gained in the course of many a
rustic ramble in the country lanes beyond Gray’s Inn, or sauntering
eastward along the banks of the limpid Lee, or in the undulating
meadows beside Sir Hugh Middleton’s river. Mixed with plain facts about
plant or flower, animal or insect, Milton’s memory was stored with the
quaint absurdities of the Hermetic philosophy, that curious mixture of
deep-reaching theories and old women’s superstitions, the experience of
the peasant transmuted by the imagination of the adept. Sound and
practical as the poet had ever shown himself—save where passion got the
upper hand of common sense, as in his advocacy of divorce—he was yet
not entirely free from a leaning to Baconian superstitions, and may,
with Gesner, have believed that the pickerel weed could engender pike,
and that frogs could turn to slime in winter, and become frogs again in
spring. Whatever rags of old-world fatuity may have lingered in that
strong brain, he had been not the less a delightful teacher, and had
imparted an ardent love of nature to his little family of pupils in
that peripatetic school between hawthorn hedges or in the open fields
by the Lee.
And now, in quiet rambles with Angela, in the midst of a landscape
transfigured by that vernal beauty which begins with the waning of
April, and is past and vanished before the end of May, Denzil loved to
expound the wonders of the infinitesimal; the insect life that sparkled
and hummed in the balmy air, or flashed like living light among the
dewy grasses; the life of plant and flower, which seemed almost as
personal and conscious a form of existence; since it was difficult to
believe there was no sense of struggle or of joy in those rapid growths
which shot out from a tangle of dark undergrowth upward to the
sunlight, no fondness in the wild vines that clung so close to some
patriarchal trunk, covering decay with the beautiful exuberance of
youth. Denzil taught her to realise the wonders of creation—most
wonderful when most minute—for beyond the picturesque and lovely in
nature, he showed her those marvels of order, and law, and adaptation,
which speak to the naturalist with a stronger language than beauty.
There was a tranquil pleasure in these rustic walks, which beguiled her
into forgetfulness that this man had ever sought to be more to her than
he was now—a respectful, unobtrusive friend. Of London, and the
tumultuous life going on there, he had scarcely spoken, save to tell
her that he meant to stand for Henley at the next Parliament; nor had
he alluded to the past at Chilton; nor ever of his own accord had he
spoken Lord Fareham’s name; indeed, that name was studiously avoided by
them both; and if Denzil had never before suspected Angela of an
unhappy preference for one whom she could not love without sin, he
might have had some cause for such suspicion in the eagerness with
which she changed the drift of the conversation whenever it approached
that forbidden subject.
From his Puritanical bringing up, the theory of self-surrender and
deprivation ever kept before him, Denzil had assuredly learnt to
possess his soul in patience; and throughout all that smiling month of
May, while he whipped the capricious streams that wound about the
valley, with Angela for the willing companion of his saunterings from
pool to pool, he never once alarmed her by any hint of a warmer feeling
than friendship; indeed, he thought of himself sometimes as one who
lived in an enchanted world, where to utter a certain fatal word would
be to break the spell; and whatever momentary impulse or passionate
longing, engendered by a look, a smile, the light touch of a hand, the
mere sense of proximity, might move him to speak of his love, he had
sufficient self-command to keep the fatal words unspoken. He meant to
wait till the last hour of his visit. Only when separation was imminent
would he plead his cause again. Thus at the worst he would have lost no
happy hours of her company. And, in the mean time, since she was always
kind, and seemed to grow daily more familiar and at ease in his
society, he dared hope that affection for him and forgetfulness of that
other were growing side by side in her mind.
In this companionship Angela learnt many of the secrets and subtleties
of the angler’s craft, as acquired by her teacher’s personal
experience, or expounded in that delightful book, then less than twenty
years old, which has ever been the angler’s gospel. Often after
following the meandering water till a gentle weariness invited them to
rest, Angela and Denzil seated themselves on a sheltered bank and read
their Izaak Walton together, both out of the same volume, he pleased to
point out his favourite passages and to watch her smile as she read.
Before May was ended, she knew old Izaak almost as well as Denzil, and
had learnt to throw a fly, and to choose the likeliest spot and the
happiest hour of the day for a good trout; had learnt to watch the
clouds and cloud-shadows with an angler’s keen interest; and had amused
herself with the manufacture of an artificial minnow, upon Walton’s
recipe, devoting careful labour and all the resources of her embroidery
basket—silks and silver thread—to perfecting the delicate model, which,
when completed, she presented smilingly to Denzil, who was strangely
moved by so childish a toy, and had some difficulty in suppressing his
emotion as he held the glistening silken fish in his hands, and thought
how her tapering fingers had caressed it, and how much of her very self
seemed, as he watched her, to have been enwrought with the fabric. So
poor, so trivial a thing; but her first gift! If she had tossed him a
flower, plucked that moment, he would have treasured it all his life;
but this, which had cost her so much careful work, was far more than
any casual blossom. Something of the magnetism of her mind had passed
into the silver thread drawn so daintily through her rosy
fingers—something of the soft light in her eyes had mixed with the
blended colours of the silk. Foolish fancies these, but in the gravest
man’s love there is a vein of folly.
Sometimes they rode with Sir John, and in this way explored the
neighbourhood, which was rich in historical associations—some of the
remote past, as when King John kept Christmas at Brill; but chiefly of
those troubled times through which Sir John Kirkland had lived, an
active participator in that deadly drama. He showed them the site of
the garrison at Brill, and trod every foot of the earthworks to
demonstrate how the hill had been fortified. He had commanded in the
defence against Hampden and his greencoats—that regiment of foot raised
in his pastoral shire, whose standard bore on one side the watchword of
the Parliament, “God with us,” and on the other Hampden’s own device,
“_Vestigia nulla retrorsum_.”
“’Twas a legend to frighten some of us, who had no Latin,” said Sir
John; “but we put his bumpkin greencoats to the rout, and trampled that
insolent flag in the mire.”
All was peaceful now in the hamlet on the hill. Women and children were
sitting upon sunny doorsteps, with their pillows on their knees and
their bobbins moving quickly in dexterous fingers, busy at the
lace-making which had been established in Buckinghamshire more than a
century before by Catherine of Aragon, whose dowry was derived from the
revenues of Steeple Claydon. The Curate had returned to the grey old
church, and rural life pursued its slumbrous course, scarce ruffled by
rumours of maritime war, or plague, or fire. They rode to Thame—a stage
on the journey to Oxford, Angela thought, as she noted the figures on a
milestone, and at a flash her memory recalled that scene in the gardens
by the river, when Fareham had spoken for the first time of his inner
life, and she had seen the man behind the mask. She thought of her
sister, so fair, so sweet, charming in her capriciousness even, yet not
the woman to fill that unquiet heart, or satisfy that sombre and
earnest nature. It was not by many words that Fareham had revealed
himself. Her knowledge of his character and feelings went deeper than
the knowledge that words can impart. It came from that constant
unconscious study which a romantic girl devotes to the character of the
man who first awakens her interest.
Angela was grave and silent throughout the drive to Thame and the
return home, riding for the most part in the rear of the two men,
leaving Denzil to devote all his attention to Sir John, who was
somewhat loquacious that afternoon, stimulated by the many memories of
the troubled time which the road awakened. Denzil listened
respectfully, and went never astray in his answers, but he looked back
very often to the solitary rider who kept at some distance to avoid the
dust.
Sometimes in the early morning they all went with the otter hounds, the
Knight on horseback, Denzil and Angela on foot, and spent two or three
very active hours before breakfast in rousing the otter from his holt,
and following every flash of his head upon the stream, with that
briskness and active enjoyment which seem a part of the clear morning
atmosphere, the inspiring breath of dewy fields and flowers unfaded by
the sun. All that there was of girlishness in Angela’s spirits was
awakened by those merry morning scampers by the margin of the stream,
which had often to be forded by the runners, with but’ little heed of
wet feet or splashed petticoat. The Parson and his daughters from the
village of St Nicholas joined in the sport, and were invited to the
morning drink and substantial breakfast afterwards, where the young
ladies were lost in admiration of Angela’s silver chocolate-pot and
porcelain cups, while their clerical father owned to a distaste for all
morning drinks except such as owed their flavour and strength to malt
and hops.
“If you had lived among green fields and damp marshes as long as I
have, miss, you would know what poor stuff your chocolate is to fortify
a man’s bones against ague and rheumatism. I am told the Spaniards
brought it from Mexico, where the natives eat nothing else, from which
comes the copper colour of their skins.”
Denzi’s visit lasted over a month, during which time he rode into
Oxfordshire twice, to see Lady Warner, stopping a night each time, lest
that worthy person should fancy herself neglected.
Sir John derived the utmost pleasure from the young man’s company, who
bore himself towards his host with a respectful courtesy that had gone
out of fashion after the murder of the King, and was rarely met with in
an age when elderly men were generally spoken of as “old puts,” and
considered proper subjects for “bubbling.”
To Denzil the old campaigner opened his heart more freely than he had
ever done to any one except a brother in arms; and although he was
resolute in upholding the cause of Monarchy against Republicanism, he
owned to the natural disappointment which he had felt at the King’s
neglect of old friends, and reluctantly admitted that Charles,
sauntering along Pall Mall with ruin at his heels, and the wickedest
men and women in England for his chosen companions, was not a monarch
to maintain and strengthen the public idea of the divinity that doth
hedge a King.
“Of all the lessons danger and adversity can teach he has learnt but
one,” said Sir John, with a regretful sigh. “He has learnt the Horatian
philosophy—to snatch the pleasures of the day, and care nothing what
may happen on the morrow. I do not wonder that predictions of a sudden
end to this globe of ours should have been bruited about of late; for
if lust and profaneness could draw down fire from heaven, London would
be in as perilous a case as Gomorrah. But I doubt such particular
judgments belonged but to the infancy of this world, when men believed
in a Personal God, interested in all their concerns, watchful to bless
or to punish. We have now but the God of Spinoza—a God who is in all
things and everywhere about us, of whom this Creation in which we move
is but the garment—a Universal Essence which should govern and inform
all we are and all we do; but not the Judge and Father of His people,
to be reached by prayer and touched by pity.”
“Ah, sir, our life here and hereafter is encompassed with mystery. To
think is to be lost on the trackless ocean of doubt. The Papists have
the easiest creed, for they believe that which they are taught, and
take the mysteries of the unseen world at second hand from their
Priests. A year ago, had I been happy enough to win your daughter, I
should have tried my hardest to wean her from Rome; but I have lived
and thought since then, and I have come to see that Calvinism is a
religion of despair, and that the doctrine of Predestination involves
contradictions as difficult to swallow as any fable of the Roman
Church.”
“It is well that you should be prepared to let her keep her religion;
for I doubt she has a stubborn affection for the creed she learnt in
her childhood. Indeed, it was but the other day she talked of the
cloister; and I fear she has all the disposition to that religious
prison in which her great aunt lived contentedly for the space of a
long lifetime. But it is for you, Denzil, to cure her of that fancy,
and to spare me the pain of seeing my best-beloved child under the
black veil.”
“Indeed, sir, if a love as earnest as man ever experienced—”
“Yes, Denzil, I know you love her; and I love you almost as if you were
my very son. In the years that went by after Hyacinth was born, before
the beginning of trouble, I used to long for a son, and I am afraid I
did sometimes distress my dear wife by dwelling too persistently upon
disappointed hopes. And then came chaos—England in arms, a rebellious
people, a King put upon his defence—and I had leisure to think of none
but my royal master. And in the thick of the strife my poor lamb was
born to me—the bringer of my life’s great sorrow—and there was no more
thought of sons. So, you see, friend, the place in my heart and home
has waited empty for you. Win but yonder shy dove to consent, and we
shall be of one family and of one mind, and I as happy as any
broken-down campaigner in England can be—content to creep to the grave
in obscurity, forgotten by the Prince whose father it is my dear memory
to have served.”
“You loved your King, sir, I take it, with a personal affection.”
“Ah, Denzil, we all loved him. Even the common people—led as they were
by hectoring preachers of sedition, of no more truth or honesty than
the mountebanks that ply their knavish trade round Henry’s statue on
the Pont Neuf—even they, the very rabble, had their hours of loyalty. I
rode with his Majesty from Royston to Hatfield, in ’47, when the people
filled the midsummer air with his name, from hearts melting with love
and pity. They strewed the ways with boughs, and strewed the boughs
with roses. So great honour has been seldom shown to a royal captive.”
“I take it that the lower class are no politicians, and loved their
King for his private virtues.”
“Never was monarch worthier to be so esteemed. He was a man of deep
affections, and it was perhaps his most fatal quality where he loved to
love too much. I have no grudge against that beautiful and most
accomplished woman he so worshipped, and who was ever gracious to me;
but I cannot doubt that Henrietta Maria was his evil star. She had the
fire and daring of her father, but none of his care and affection for
the people. The daughter of the most beloved of kings had the instincts
of a tyrant, and was ever urging her too pliant husband to unpopular
measures. She wanted to set that little jewelled shoe of hers on the
neck of rebellion, when she should have held out her soft white hand to
make friends of her foes. Her beauty and her grace might have done
much, had she inherited with the pride of the Medici something of their
finesse and suavity. But he loved her, Denzil, forgave all her follies,
her lavish spending and wasteful splendour. ‘My wife is a bad
housekeeper,’ I heard him say once, when she was hanging upon his chair
as he sat at the end of the Council table. The palace accounts were on
the table—three thousand pounds for a masque—extravagance only
surpassed by Nicholas Fouquet twenty years afterwards, when he was
squandering the public money. ‘My wife is a bad housekeeper,’ his
Majesty said gently, and then he drew down the little French museau
with a caressing hand, and kissed her in the presence of those
greybeards.”
“His son is strangely unlike him in domestic matters.”
“His son has the manners of a Frenchman and the morals of a Turk. He is
a despot to his wife and a slave to his mistress. There never was
greater cruelty to a woman than his Majesty’s treatment of Catherine
while she was still but a stranger in the land, and when he forced his
notorious paramour upon her as her lady of honour. Of honour, quotha!
There was sorry store of honour in his conduct. He had need feel the
sting of remorse t’other day when the poor lady was thought to be on
her death-bed—so gentle, so affectionate, so broken to the
long-suffering of consort-queens, apologising for having lived to
trouble him. Ned Hyde has given me the whole story of that poor lady’s
subjugation, for he was behind the scenes, and in their secrets. Poor
soul! Blood rushed from her ears and nostrils when that shameless woman
was brought to her, and she was carried swooning to her chamber. And
then she was sullen, and the King threatened her, and sent away all her
Portuguese, save one ancient waiting woman. I grant you they were ugly
devils, fit to set in a field to frighten crows; but Catherine loved
them. Royal treatment for a Christian Queen from a Christian King!
Could the Sophy do worse? And presently the poor lady yielded (as most
women will, for at heart they are slavish and love to be beaten), and
after holding herself aloof for a long time—a sad, silent, neglected
figure where all the rest were loud and merry—she made friends with the
lady, and even seemed to fawn upon her.”
“And now I dare swear the two women mingle their tears when Charles is
unfaithful to both; or Catherine weeps while Barbara curses. That would
be more in character. Fire and not water is her ladyship’s element.”
“Ah, Denzil, ’tis a curious change; and to have lived to see Buckingham
murdered, and Strafford sacrificed, and the Rebellion, and the
Commonwealth, and the Restoration, and the Plague, and the Fire, and to
have skirmished in the battles of Parliaments and Princes, t’other side
the Channel, and seen the tail of the Thirty Years’ War, towns ruined,
villages laid waste, where Tilly passed in blood and fire, is to have
lived through as wild a variety of fortunes as ever madman invented in
a dream.”
Denzil lingered at the Manor, urged again and again by his host to stay
over the day fixed for departure, and so lengthening his visit with a
most willing submission till late in June, when the silence of the
nightingales made sleep more possible, and the sunset was so late and
the sunrise so early that there seemed to be no such thing as night. He
had made up his mind to plead for a hearing in the hour of farewell;
and it may have been as much from apprehension of that fateful hour as
even from the delight of being in his mistress’s company that he
acceded with alacrity when Sir John desired him to stay. But an end
must come at last to all hesitations, and a familiar verse repeated
itself in his brain with the persistent iteration of cathedral chimes—
“He either fears his fate too much,
Or his desert is small,
Who fears to put it to the touch,
And win or lose it all.”
Sir John pushed him towards his fate with affectionate urgency.
“Never be dastardised by a girl’s refusal, man,” said the Knight, warm
with his morning draught, on that last day, when the guest’s horses had
been fed for a journey, and the saddle-bags packed. “Don’t let a
simpleton’s coldness cow your spirits. The wench likes you; else she
would scarce have endured your long sermons upon weeds and insects, or
been smiling and contented in your company all these weeks. Take heart
of grace, man; and remember that though I am no tyrannical father to
drag an unwilling bride to the altar, I have all a father’s authority,
and will not have my dearest wishes baulked by the capricious humours
of a coquette.”
“Not for worlds, sir, would I owe to authority what love cannot freely
grant—”
“Don’t chop logic, Denzil. You want my daughter; and by God you shall
have her! Win her with pretty speeches if you can. If she turn stubborn
she shall have plain English from me. I have promised not to force her
inclination; but if I am driven to harsh measures ’twill be for her own
good I am severe. Ventregris! What can fortune give her better than a
handsome and virtuous husband?”
Angela was in the garden when Denzil went to take leave of her. She was
walking up and down beside a long border of June flowers, screened from
rough winds by those thick walls of yew which gave such a comfortable
sheltered feeling to the Manor gardens, while in front of flowers and
turf there sparkled the waters of a long pond or stew, stocked with
tench and carp, some among them as ancient and as greedy as the scaly
monsters of Fontainebleau.
The sun was shining on the dark green water and the gaudy flower-bed,
and Angela’s favourite spaniel was running about the grass, barking his
loudest, chasing bird or butterfly with impotent fury, since he never
caught anything. At sight of Denzil he tore across the greensward, his
silky ears flying, and barked at him as if the young man’s appearance
in that garden were an insufferable impertinence; but, on being taken
up in one strong hand, changed his opinion, and slobbered the face of
the foe in an ecstasy of affection.
“Soho, Ganymede, thou knowest I bear thee a good heart, plaything and
mere pretence of a dog as thou art,” said Denzil, depositing their
little bundle of black-and-tan flossiness at Angela’s feet.
He might have carried and nursed his mistress’s favourite with pleasure
during any casual sauntering and random talk; but a man could hardly
ask to have his fate decided for good or ill with a toy spaniel in his
arms.
“My horse is at the door, Angela, and I am come to bid you good-bye,”
he said in a grave voice.
The words were of the simplest; but there was something in his tone
that told her all was not said. She paled at the thought of an
approaching conflict; for she knew her father was against her, and that
there must be hard fighting.
They walked the length of flower border and lawn in silence; and then,
when they were furthest from the house, and from the hazard of eyes
looking out of windows, he stopped suddenly, and took her unresisting
hand, which lay cold in his.
“Dearest, I have kept silence through all those blessed days in which
you and I have been together; but I have not left off loving you or
hoping for you. Things have changed since I spoke to you in London last
winter. I have a powerful advocate now whose pleading ought to prevail
with you—a father whose anxious affection urges what my passionate love
so ardently desires. Indeed, dear heart, if you will be kind, you can
make a father and lover happy with one breath. You have but to say
‘Yes’ to the prayer you know of——”
“Alas! Denzil, I cannot. I am your true and faithful friend. If you
were sick and alone—as his lordship was—I would go to you and nurse
you, as your friend and sister. If you were poor and I were rich, I
would divide my fortune with you. I shall always think of you with
affection—always take pleasure in your society, if you will let me; but
it must be as your sister. You have no sister, Denzil—I no brother. Why
cannot we be to each other as brother and sister?”
“Only because from the hour when your beauty and sweetness began to
grow into my mind I have been your lover, and nothing else—your adoring
lover. I cannot change my fervent hope for the poor name of friend. I
can never again dare be to you what I have been in this happy season
last past, unless you will let me be more than I have been.”
“Alas!”
Only that one word, with a sorrowful shake of the graceful head,
covered with feathery ringlets in the dainty fashion of that day, so
becoming in youth, so inappropriate to advancing years, when the rich
profusion of curls came straight from Chedreux, or some of his
imitators, and baldness was hidden by the spoils of the dead.
“Alas!”
No need for more than that sad dissyllable.
“Then I am no nearer winning this dear hand than I was at Fareham
House?” he said heartbrokenly, for he had built high hopes upon her
kindness and willing companionship in that Arcadian valley.
“I told you then that I should never marry. I have not changed my mind.
I never can change. I am to be Henriette’s spinster aunt.”
“And Fareham’s spinster sister?” said Denzil. “I understand. We are
neither of us cured of our malady. It is my disease to love you in
spite of your disdain. It is your disease to love where you should not.
Farewell!”
He was gone before she could reply. The livid anger of his face, the
deep resentment in his voice, haunted her memory, and made life almost
intolerable.
“My sin has found me out!” she said to herself, as she paced the garden
with the rapid steps that indicate a distempered spirit. “What right
has he to pry into the depths of my mind, and ferret out all that there
is of evil in my nature? Well, he goes the surest way to make me hate
him. If ever he comes here again, I will run away and hide from all who
know me. I would rather be a farm-servant, and rise at daybreak to work
in the fields, than endure his insolence.”
She had to bear worse pain before Denzil had ridden far upon his
journey; for her father came to the garden to seek her, eager to know
the result of his _protégé’s_ wooing.
“Well, sweetheart,” he began, taking her to his bosom and kissing her.
“Do I salute the future Lady Warner?”
“No, sir; I am too well content with the name I inherit to desire any
other.”
“That is gracefully said, chérie; but I want to see my ewe lamb happily
wedded. Has thy sweetheart stolen away without finding courage to ask
the question that has been on the tip of his tongue for the last six
weeks?”
“He has been both importunate and impertinent, sir, and he has had his
answer. I hope I may never see him again.”
“What! you have refused him? You must be mad!”
“No, sir; sober and sane enough to know when I am happy. I told you
before this gentleman came here that I did not mean to marry. Surely I
am not so unloving a daughter that I must be driven to take a husband,
because my father will not have me.”
“Angela, it is for your own safety and welfare I would see you married.
What have you to succeed to when I am gone? An impoverished estate, in
a country that has seen such rough changes within a score of years that
one dare scarcely calculate upon a prolonged time of safety, even in
this sequestered valley. God only knows when cannon-balls may tear up
our fields, and bullets whistle through the copses. This Monarchy,
restored with such a clamorous approval, may endure no longer than the
Commonwealth, which was thought to be lasting. His Majesty’s trivial
life and gross extravagance have disgusted and alarmed some who loved
him dearly, and have set the common people questioning whether the
rough rule of the Protector were not better than the ascendency of
shameless women and dissolute men. The pageantry of Whitehall may
vanish like a parchment scroll in a furnace, and Charles, who has
tasted the sours of exile, may be again a wanderer, dependent on the
casual munificence of foreign states; and in such an evil hour,”
continued the Knight, his mind straying from the contemplation of his
daughter’s future to the memory of his own wrongs, “Charles Stuart may
remember the old puts who fought and suffered for his father, and how
scurvy a recompense they had for their services.”
He reverted to Denzil’s offer after a brief silence, Angela walking
dutifully by his side, prepared to suffer any harshness upon his part
without complaining.
“I love the young man, and he would be to me as a son,” he said; “the
comrade and support of my old age. I am poor, as the world goes now;
have but just enough to live modestly in this retreat, where life costs
but little. He is rich, and can give you a handsome seat near your
sister’s mansion; and a house in London if you desire one; less
splendid, doubtless, than Fareham’s palace on the Thames, but more
befitting the habits and manners of an English gentleman’s wife. He can
give you hounds and hawks, your riding-horses, and your coach-and-six.
What more, in God’s name, can any reasonable woman desire?”
“Only one thing, sir. To live my own life in peace, as my conscience
and my reason bid me. I cannot love Denzil Warner, though of late I
have grown to like and respect him as a friend and most intelligent
companion. Your persistence is fast changing friendship into dislike;
and the very name of the man would speedily become hateful to me.”
“Oh, I have done!” retorted Sir John. “I am no tyrant. You must take
your own way, mistress. I can but lament that Providence gave me only
two daughters, and one of them an arrant fool.”
He left her in a huff, and had it not been for an astonishing event,
which convulsed town and country, and suspended private interests and
private quarrels in the excitement of public affairs, she would have
heard much more of his discontent.
The Dutch ships were at Chatham. English men-of-war were blazing at the
very mouth of the Thames, and there was panic lest the triumphant foe
should sail their fire-ships up the river to London, besiege the Tower,
relight the fire whose ashes were scarce grown cold, pillage,
slaughter, destroy—as Tilly had destroyed the wretched Provinces in the
religious war.
Here, in this sheltered haven, amidst green fields, under the lee of
the Brill, the panic and consternation were as intense as if the
village of St. Nicholas were the one spot the Dutch would make for
after landing; and, indeed, there were rustics who went to the placid
scene where the infant Thame rises in its cradle of reed and lily, half
expectant of seeing Netherlandish vessels stranded among the rushes.
The Dutch fleet was at Chatham. Ships were being sunk across the
Medway, to stop the invader.
Sheerness was to be fortified. London was in arms; and Brill remembered
its repulse of Hampden’s regiment with a proud consciousness of being
invincible.
The Dutch fleet saved Angela many a paternal lecture; for Sir John rode
post-haste towards London, and did not return until the end of the
month.
In London he found Hyacinth, much disturbed about her husband, who had
gone as volunteer with General Middleton, and was in command of a
cavalry regiment at Chatham.
“I never saw him in such spirits as when he left me,” Lady Fareham told
her father. “I believe he is ever happiest when he breathes gunpowder.”
Sir John’s leave-taking had been curt and moody, for Angela’s offence
rankled deep in his mind; and it was as much as he could do to command
his anger, even in bidding her good-bye.
“Did I not tell you that we live in troubled times, and that no man can
foresee the coming evil, or how great our woes and distractions may
be?” he asked, with a gloomy triumph. “Whoever thought to hear De
Ruyter’s guns at Sheerness, or to see the Royal Charles led captive?
Absit omen! Who knows what destruction may come upon that other Royal
Charles, for whose safety we pray morning and night, and who lolls
across a basset-table, perhaps, with his wantons around him, while we
are on our knees supplicating the Creator for him? Who knows? We may
have London in flames again, and a conflagration more fatal than the
last, thou obstinate wench, before thou art a week older, and every
able-bodied man called away from plough and pasture to serve the King,
and desolation and famine where plenty now smiles at us. And is this a
time in which to refuse a valiant and wealthy protector, a lover as
honest as ever God made; a pious, conforming Christian, of unsullied
name; a young man after my own pattern; a fine horseman and a good
farmer; one who loves a pack of hounds and a well-bred horse, a flight
of hawks and a match at bowls, better than to give chase to a she-rake
in the Mall, or to drink himself stark mad at a tavern in Covent Garden
with debauchees from Whitehall?”
Sir John prosed and grumbled to the last moment, but could not refuse
to bend down from his saddle and kiss the fair, pale face that looked
at him in piteous deprecation at the moment of parting.
“Well, keep a brave heart, Mistress Wilful. Thou art safe here yet
awhile from Dutch marauders. I go but to find out how much truth there
is in these panic rumours.”
She begged him not to fatigue himself with too long stages, and went
back to the silent house, thankful to be alone in her despondency. She
felt as if the last page in her worldly life had been written. She had
to turn her thoughts backward to that quiet retreat where there would
at least be peace. She had promised her father that she would not
return to the Convent while he wanted her at home. But was that promise
to hold good if he were to embitter her life by urging her to a
marriage that would only bring her unhappiness?
She had ample leisure for thought in one summer day of a solitude so
absolute that she began to shiver in the sultry stillness of afternoon,
and scarce ventured to raise her eyes from her embroidery frame, lest
some shadowy presence, some ghost out of the dead past, should hover
near, watching her as she sat alone in scenes where that pale spirit
had been living flesh. The thought of all who had lived and died in
that house—men and women of her own race, whose qualities of mind and
person she had inherited—oppressed her in the long hours of silent
reverie. Before her first day of loneliness had ended, her spirits had
sunk to deepest melancholy; and in that weaker condition of mind she
had begun to ask herself whether she had any right to oppose her
father’s wishes by denying herself to a suitor whom she esteemed and
respected, and whose filial affection would bring new sunshine into
that dear father’s declining years. She had noted their manner to each
other during Denzil’s protracted visit, and had seen all the evidences
of a warm regard on both sides. She had too complete a faith in
Denzil’s sterling worth to question the reality of any feeling which
his words and manner indicated. He was above all things a man of truth
and honesty. She was roaming about the gardens with her dog towards
noon in the second day of her solitude, when across the yew hedges she
saw white clouds of dust rising from the high-road, and heard the
clatter of hoofs and roll of wheels—a noise as of a troop of
cavalry—whereat Ganymede barked himself almost into an apoplexy, and
rushed across the grass like a mad thing.
A great cracking of whips and sound of voices, horses galloping, horses
trotting, dust enough to whiten all the hedges and greensward! Angela
stood at gaze, wondering if the Dutch were coming to storm the old
house, or the county militia coming to garrison it.
The Manor Moat was the destination of that clamorous troop, whoever
they were. Wheels and horses stopped sharply at the great iron gate in
front of the house, and the bell began to ring furiously, while other
dogs, with voices that resembled Ganymede’s, answered his shrill bark
with even shriller yelpings.
Angela ran towards the gate, and was near enough to see it opened to
admit three black-and-tan spaniels, and one slim personage in a long
flame-coloured brocatelle gown and a large beaver hat, who approached
with stately movements, a small, pert nose held high, and rosy upper
lip curled in patrician disdain of common things, while a fan of
peacock’s plumage, that flashed sapphire and emerald in the fierce
noonday sun, was waved slowly before the dainty face, scattering the
tremulous life of summer that buzzed and fluttered in the sultry air.
In the rear of this brilliant figure appeared a middle-aged person in a
grey silk gown and hood, and a negro page in the Fareham livery, a
waiting-woman, and a tall lackey, so many being the necessary adjuncts
to the Honourable Henrietta Maria Revel’s state when she went abroad.
Angela ran to receive her niece with a cry of rapture, and the tall
slip of a girl in the flame-coloured frock was clasped to her aunt’s
heart with a ruthless disregard of the beaver hat and cataract of
ostrich plumage.
“Prends garde d’abimer mon chapeau, p’tite tante,” cried Henriette,
“’tis one of Lewin’s Nell Gwyn hats, and cost twenty guineas, without
the buckle, which I stole out of father’s shoe t’other day. His
lordship is so careless about his clothes that he wore the shoes two
days and never knew there was a buckle missing, and those lazy devils
his servants never told him. I believe they meant to rook him of
t’other buckle.”
“Chatterer, chatterer, how happy I am to see thee! But is not your
mother with you?”
“Her ladyship is in London. Everybody of importance is scampering off
to London; and no doubt will be rushing back to the country again if
the Dutch take the Tower; but I don’t think they will while my father
is able to raise a regiment.”
“And mademoiselle”—with a curtsy to the lady in grey—“has brought you
all this long way through the heat to see me?”
“I have brought mademoiselle,” Henrietta answered contemptuously,
before the Frenchwoman had finished the moue and the shrug which with
her always preceded speech; “and a fine plague I had to make her come.”
“Madame will conceive that, in miladi’s absence, it was a prodigious
inconvenience to order two coaches, and travel so far. His lordship’s
groom of the chambers is my witness that I protested against such an
outrageous proceeding.”
“Two coaches!” exclaimed Angela.
“A coach-and-six for me and my dogs and my gouvernante, and a
coach-and-four for my people,” explained Henriette, who had modelled
her equipage and suite upon a reminiscence of the train which attended
Lady Castlemaine’s visit to Chilton, as beheld from a nursery window.
“Come, child, and rest, out of the sun; and you, mademoiselle, must
need refreshment after so long a drive.”
“Our progress through a perpetual cloud of dust and a succession of
narrow lanes did indeed suggest the torments of purgatory; but the
happiness of madame’s gracious welcome is an all-sufficient
compensation for our fatigue,” mademoiselle replied, with a deep
curtsey.
“I was not tired in the least,” asserted Henriette. “We stopped at the
Crown at Thame and had strawberries and milk.”
“_You_ had strawberries and milk, mon enfant. I have a digestion which
will not allow such liberties.”
“And our horses were baited, and our people had their morning drink,”
said Henriette, with her grown-up air. “One ought always to remember
cattle and servants. May we put up our horses with you, auntie? We must
leave you soon after dinner, so as to be at Chilton by sunset, or
mademoiselle will be afraid of highwaymen, though I told Samuel and
Peter to bring their blunderbusses in case of an attack. Ma’amselle has
no valuables, and at the worst I should but have to give them my
diamond buckle, and my locket with his lordship’s portrait.”
Angela’s cheeks flushed at that chance allusion to Fareham’s picture.
It brought back a vision of the Convent parlour, and she standing there
with Fareham’s miniature in her hand, wonderingly contemplative of the
dark, strong face. At that stage of her life she had seen so few men’s
faces; and this one had a power in it that startled her. Did she
divine, by some supernatural foreknowledge, that this face held the
secret of her destiny?
She went to the house, with Henriette’s lissom form hanging upon her,
and the grey governess tripping mincingly beside them, tottering a
little upon her high heels.
Old Reuben had crept out into the sunshine, with a rustic footman
following him, and the cook was looking out at a window in the wing
where kitchen and servants’ hall occupied as important a position as
the dining-parlour and saloon on the opposite side. A hall with open
roof, wide double staircase, and music gallery, filled the central
space between the two projecting wings, and at the back there was a
banqueting-chamber or ball-room, where in more prosperous days, the
family had been accustomed to dine on all stately occasions—a room now
shabby and grey with disuse.
While the footman showed the way to the stables, Angela drew Reuben
aside for a brief consultation as to ways and means for a dinner that
must be the best the house could provide, and which might be served at
two o’clock, the later hour giving time for extra preparation. A capon,
larded after the French fashion, a pair of trouts, the finest the
stream could furnish, or a carp stewed in clary wine, and as many sweet
kickshaws as cook’s ingenuity could furnish at so brief a notice. Nor
were waiting-woman, lackey, and postillions to be neglected. Chine and
sirloin, pudding and beer must be provided for all.
“There are six men besides the black boy,” sighed Reuben; they will
devour us a week’s provision of butcher’s meat.”
“If you have done your housekeeping, tante, let me go to your favourite
summer-house with you, and tell you my secrets. I am perishing for a
_tête-à-tête!_ Ma’amselle”—with a wave of the peacock fan—“can take a
siesta, and forget the dust of the road, while we converse.”
Angela ushered mademoiselle to the pretty summer-parlour, looking out
upon a geometrical arrangement of flower-beds in the Dutch manner.
Chocolate and other light refreshments were being prepared for the
travellers; but Henrietta’s impatience would wait for nothing.
“I have not driven along these detestable roads to taste your
chocolate,” she protested. “I have a world to say to you: en attendant,
mademoiselle, you will consider everything at your disposal in the
house of my grandfather, jusqu’à deux heures.”
She sank almost to the ground in a Whitehall curtsy, rose swift as an
arrow, tucked her arm through Angela’s, and pulled her out of the room,
paying no attention to the governess’s voluble injunctions not to
expose her complexion to the sun, or to sit in a cold wind, or to spoil
her gown.
“What a shabby old place it is!” she said, looking critically round her
as they went through the gardens. “I’m afraid you must perish with
_ennui_ here, with so few servants and no company to speak of.
Yes”—contemplating her shrewdly, as they seated themselves in a stone
temple at the end of the bowling-green—“you are looking moped and ill.
This valley air does not agree with you. Well, you can have a much
finer place whenever you choose. A better house and garden, ever so
much nearer Chilton. And you will choose, won’t you, dearest?” nestling
close to her, after throwing off the big hat which made such loving
contact impossible.
“I don’t understand you, Henriette.”
“If you call me Henriette I shall be sure you are angry with me.”
“No, love, not angry, but surprised.”
“You think I have no right to talk of your sweetheart, because I am
only thirteen—and have scarce left off playing with babies—I have hated
them for ages, only people persist in giving me the foolish puppets. I
know more of the world than you do, auntie, after being shut in a
Convent the best part of your life. Why are you so obstinate, ma
chérie, in refusing a gentleman we all like?”
“Do you mean Sir Denzil?”
“Sans doute. Have you a crowd of servants?”
“No, child, only this one. But don’t you see that other people’s liking
has less to do with the question than mine? And if I do not like him
well enough to be his wife——”
“But you ought to like him. You know how long her ladyship’s heart has
been set on the match; you must have seen what pains she took in London
to have Sir Denzil always about you. And now, after a most exemplary
patience, after being your faithful servant for over a year, he asks
you to be his wife, and you refuse, obstinately refuse. And you would
rather mope here with my poor old grandfather—in abject poverty—mother
says ‘abject poverty’—than be the honoured mistress of one of the
finest seats in Oxfordshire.”
“I would rather do what is right and honest, my dearest It is dishonest
to marry without love.”
“Then half mother’s fine friends must be dishonest, for I dare swear
that very few of them love their husbands.”
“Henriette, you talk of things you don’t know.”
“Don’t know! Why, there is no one in London knows more. I am always
listening, and I always remember. De Malfort used to say I had a
plaguey long memory, when I told him of things he had said a year ago.”
“My dear, I love you fondly, but I cannot have you talk to me of what
you don’t understand; and I am sorry Sir Denzil Warner had no more
courtesy than to go and complain of me to my sister.”
“He did not come to Chilton to complain. Her ladyship met him on the
way from Oxford in her coach. He was riding, and she called to him to
come to the coach door. It was the day after he left you, and he was
looking miserable; and she questioned him, and he owned that his suit
had been rejected, and he had no further hope. My mother came home in a
rage. But why was she angry with his lordship? Indeed, she rated him as
if it were his fault you refused Sir Denzil.”
Angela sat silent, and the hand Henriette was clasping grew cold as
ice.
“Did my father bid you refuse him, aunt?” asked the girl, scrutinising
her aunt’s countenance, with those dark grey eyes, so like Fareham’s in
their falcon brightness.
“No, child. Why should he interfere? It is no business of his.”
“Then why was mother so angry? She walked up and down the room in a
towering passion. ‘This is your doing,’ she cried. ‘If she were not
your adoring slave, she would have jumped at so handsome a sweetheart.
This is your witchcraft. It is you she loves—you—you—you!’ His lordship
stood dumb, and pointed to me. ‘Do you forget your child is present?’
he said. ‘I forget everything except that everybody uses me
shamefully,’ she cried. ‘I was only made to be slighted and trampled
upon.’ His lordship made no answer, but walked to the door in that way
he ever has when he is angered—pale, frowning, silent. I was standing
in his way, and he gripped me by the arm, and dragged me out of the
room. I dare venture there is a bruise on my arm where he held me. I
know his fingers hurt me with their grip; and I could hear my lady
screaming and sobbing as he took me away. But he would not let me go
back to her. He would only send her women. ‘Your mother has an interval
of madness,’ he said; ‘you are best out of her presence.’ The news of
the Dutch ships came the same evening, and my father rode off towards
London, and my mother ordered her coach, and followed an hour after.
They seemed both distracted; and only because you refused Sir Denzil.”
“I cannot help her ladyship’s foolishness, Papillon. She has no
occasion for any of this trouble. I am her dutiful, affectionate
sister; but my heart is not hers to give or to refuse.”
“But was it indeed my father’s fault? Is it because you adore him that
you refused Sir Denzil?”
“No—no—no. My affection for my brother—he has been to me as a
brother—can make no difference in my regard for any one else. One
cannot fall in love at another’s ordering, or be happy with a husband
of another’s choice. You will discover that for yourself, Papillon,
perhaps, when you are a woman.”
“Oh, I mean to marry for wealth and station, as all the clever women
do,” said Papillon, with an upward jerk of her delicate chin. “Mrs.
Lewin always says I ought to be a duchess. I should like to have
married the Duke of Monmouth, and then, who knows, I might have been a
Queen. The King’s other sons are too young for me, and they will never
have Monmouth’s chance. But, indeed, sweetheart, you ought to marry Sir
Denzil, and come and live near us at Chilton. You would make us all
happy.”
“Ma tres chère, it is so easy to talk—but when thou thyself art a
woman——”
“I shall never care for such trumpery as love. I mean to have a grand
house—ever so much grander than Fareham House. Perhaps I may marry a
Frenchman, and have a salon, and all the wits about me on my day. I
would make it gayer than Mademoiselle de Scudery’s Saturdays, which my
governess so loves to talk of. There should be less talk and more
dancing. But listen, p’tite tante,” clasping her arms suddenly round
Angela’s neck, “I won’t leave this spot till you have promised to
change your mind about Denzil. I like him vastly; and I’m sure there’s
no reason why you should not love him—unless you really are his
lordship’s adoring slave,” emphasising those last words, “and he has
forbidden you.”
Angela sat dumb, her eyes fixed on vacancy.
“Why, you are like the lady in those lines you made me learn, who ‘sat
like patience on a monument, smiling at grief.’ Dearest, why so sad?
Remember that fine house—and the dairy that was once a chapel. You
could turn it into a chapel again if you liked, and have your own
chaplain. His Majesty takes no heed of what we Papists do—being a
Papist himself at heart, they say—though poor wretches are dragged off
to gaol for worshipping in a conventicle. What is a conventicle? Will
you not change your mind, dearest? Answer, answer, answer!”
The slender arms tightened their caress, the pretty little brown face
pressed itself against Angela’s pale, cold cheek.
“For my sake, sweetheart, say thou wilt have him. I will go to see thee
every day.”
“I have been here for months and you have not come, though I begged you
in a dozen letters.”
“I have been kept at my book and my dancing lessons. Mademoiselle told
her ladyship that I was a monster of ignorance. I have been treated
shamefully. I could not have come to-day had my lady been at home; but
I would not brook a hireling’s dictation. Voyons, p’tite tante, tu
seras miladi Warner. Dis, dis, que je te fasse mourir de baisers.”
She was almost stifling her aunt with kisses in the intervals of her
eager speech.
“The last word has been spoken, Papillon. I have sent him away—and it
was not the first time. I had refused him before. I cannot call him
back.”
“But he shall come without calling. He is your adoring slave,” cried
Henriette, leaping up from the stone bench, and clapping her hands in
an ecstasy. “He will need no calling. Dearest, dearest, most exquisite,
delectable auntie! I am so happy! And my mother will be content. And no
one shall ever say you are my father’s slave.”
“Henriette, if you repeat that odious phrase I shall hate you!”
“Now you are angry. God, what a frown! I will repeat no word that
angers you. My Lady Warner—sweet Lady Warner. I vow ’tis a prettier
name than Revel or Fareham.”
“You are mad, Henriette! I have promised nothing.”
“Yes, you have, little aunt. You have promised to drop a curtsy, and
say ‘Yes’ when Sir Denzil rides this way. You sent him away in a huff.
He will come back smiling like yonder sunshine on the water. Oh, I am
so happy! My doing, all my doing!”
“It is useless to argue with you.”
“Quite useless. Il n’y a pas de quoi. Nous sommes d’accord. I shall be
your chief bridesmaid. You must be married in her Majesty’s chapel at
St. James’s. The Pope will give his dispensation—if you cannot persuade
Denzil to change his religion. Were he my suitor I would twist him
round my fingers,” with an airy gesture of the small brown hand.
There is nothing more difficult than to convince a child that she
pleads in vain for any ardently desired object. Nothing that Angela
could say would reconcile her niece to the idea of failure; so there
was no help but to let her fancy her arguments conclusive, and to
change the bent of her thoughts if possible.
It wanted nearly an hour of dinner-time, so Angela suggested an
inspection of the home farm, which was close by, trusting that
Henriette’s love of animals would afford an all-sufficient diversion;
nor was she disappointed, for the little fine lady was quite as much at
home in stable and cowshed as in a London drawing-room, and spent a
happy hour in making friends with the live stock, from the favourite
Hereford cow, queen of the herd, to the smallest bantam in the
poultry-yard.
To this rustic entertainment followed dinner, in the preparation of
which banquet Marjory Cook had surpassed herself; and Papillon, being
by this time seriously hungry, sat and feasted to her heart’s content,
discussing the marrow pudding and the stewed carp with the acumen and
authority of a professed gourmet.
“I like this old-fashioned rustic diet,” she said condescendingly.
She reproached her governess with not doing justice to a syllabub; but
showed herself a fine lady by her complaint at the lack of ice for her
wine.
“My grandfather should make haste and build an icehouse before next
winter,” she drawled. “One can scarce live through this weather without
ice,” fanning herself, with excessive languor.
“I hope, dear, thou wilt not expire on the journey home.”
The coaches were at the gate before Papillon had finished dinner, and
Mademoiselle was in great haste to be gone, reminding her pupil that
she had travelled so far against her will and at the hazard of angering
Madame la Baronne.
“Madame la Baronne will be enraptured when she knows what I have done
to please her,” answered Papillon, and then, with a last parting
embrace, hugging her aunt’s fair neck more energetically than ever, she
whispered, “I shall tell Denzil. You will make us all happy.”
A cloud of dust, a clatter of hoofs, Ma’amselle’s screams as the
carriage rocked while she was mounting the steps, and with much
cracking of whips and swearing at horses from the postillions who had
taken their fill of home-brewed ale, hog’s harslet, and cold chine,
and, lo, the brilliant vision of the Honourable Henrietta Maria and her
train vanished in the dust of the summer highway, and Angela went
slowly back to the long green walk beside the fish-pond, where she was
in as silent a solitude, but for a lingering nightingale or two, as if
she had been in the palace of the sleeping beauty. If all things
slumbered not, there was at least as marked a pause in life. The Dutch
might be burning more ships, and the noise of war might be coming
nearer London with every hour of the summer day. Here there was a
repose as of the after-life, when all hopes and dreams and loves and
hates are done and ended, and the soul waits in darkness and silence
for the next unfolding of its wings.
Those hateful words, “your adoring slave,” and all that speech of
Hyacinth’s which the child had repeated, haunted Angela with an
agonising iteration. She had not an instant’s doubt as to the scene
being faithfully reported. She knew how preternaturally acute
Henriette’s intellect had become in the rarified atmosphere of her
mother’s drawing-room, how accurate her memory, how sharp her ears, and
how observant her eyes. Whatever Henriette reported was likely to be to
the very letter and spirit of the scene she had witnessed. And
Hyacinth, her sister, had put this shame upon her, had spoken of her in
the cruelest phrase as loving one whom it was mortal sin to love.
Hyacinth, so light, so airy a creature, whom her younger sister had
ever considered as a grown-up child, had yet been shrewd enough to
fathom her mystery, and to discover that secret attachment which had
made Denzil’s suit hateful to her. “And if I do not consent to marry
him she will always think ill of me. She will think of me as a wretch
who tried to steal her husband’s love—a worse woman than Lady
Castlemaine—for she had the King’s affection before he ever saw the
Queen’s poor plain face. His adoring slave!”
Evening shadows were around her. She had wandered into the woods, was
slowly threading the slender cattle tracks in the cool darkness; while
that passionate song of the nightingales rose in a louder ecstasy as
the quiet of the night deepened, and the young moon hung high above the
edge of a wooded hill.
“His adoring slave,” she repeated, with her hands clasped above her
uncovered head.
Hateful, humiliating words! Yet there was a keen rapture in repeating
them. They were true words. His slave—his slave to wait upon him in
sickness and pain; to lie and watch at his door like a faithful dog; to
follow him to the wars, and clean his armour, and hold his horse, and
wait in his tent to receive him wounded, and heal his wounds where
surgeons failed to cure, wanting that intensity of attention and
understanding which love alone can give; to be his Bellario, asking
nothing of him, hoping for nothing, hardly for kind words or common
courtesy, foregoing woman’s claim upon man’s chivalry, content to be
nothing—only to be near him.
If such a life could have been—the life that poets have imagined for
despairing love! It was less than a hundred years since handsome Mrs.
Southwell followed Sir Robert Dudley to Italy, disguised as a page. But
the age of romance was past. The modern world had only laughter for
such dreams.
That revelation of Hyacinth’s jealousy had brought matters to a crisis.
Something must be done, Angela told herself, and quickly, to set her
right with her sister, and in her own esteem. She had to choose between
a loveless marriage and the Convent. By accepting one or the other she
must prove that she was not the slave of a dishonourable love.
Marriage or the Convent? It had been easy, contemplating the step from
a distance, to choose the Convent. But when she thought of it,
to-night, amid the exquisite beauty of these woods, with the moonlit
valley lying at her feet, the winding streams reflecting that silvery
light, or veiled in a pale haze—to-night, in the liberty and loveliness
of the earth, the vision of Convent walls filled her with a shuddering
horror. To be shut in that Flemish garden for ever; her life enclosed
within the straight lines of that long green alley leading to a dead
wall, darkened over by flowerless ivy. How witheringly dull the old
life showed, looking back at it after years of freedom and enjoyment,
action and variety. No, no, no! She could not bury herself alive, could
not forego the liberty to wander in a wood like this, to gaze upon
scenes as beautiful as yonder valley, to read the poets she loved, to
see, perhaps, some day those romantic scenes which she knew but as
dreams—Florence, Vallombrosa—to follow the footsteps of Milton, to see
the Venice she had read of in Howell’s Letters, to kneel at the feet of
the Holy Father, in the City of Cities. All these things would be for
ever forbidden to her if she chose the common escape from earthly
sorrow.
She thought of her whose example had furnished the theme of many a
discourse at the Convent, Mazarin’s lovely niece, the Princess de
Conti, who, in the bloom of early womanhood, was awakened from the
dream of this life to the reality of Heaven, and had renounced the
pleasures of the most brilliant Court in the world for the severities
of Port Royal. She thought of that sublime heretic Ferrar, whose later
existence was one long prayer. Of how much baser a clay must she be
fashioned when her too earthly heart clung so fondly to the loveliness
of earth, and shrank with aversion from the prospect of a long life
within those walls where her childhood had been so peaceful and happy.
“How changed, how changed and corrupted this heart has become!” she
murmured, in her dejection, “when that life which was once my most
ardent desire now seems to me worse than the grave. Anything—any life
of duty in the world, rather than that living death.”
She was in the garden next morning at six, after a sleepless night, and
she occupied herself till noon in going about among the cottagers
carrying those small comforts which she had been in the habit of taking
them, and listening patiently to those various distresses which they
were very glad to relate to her. She taught the children, and read to
the sick, and was able in this round of duties to keep her thoughts
from dwelling too persistently upon her own trouble. After the one
o’clock dinner, at which she offended old Reuben by eating hardly
anything, she went for a woodland ramble with her dogs, and it was near
sunset when she returned to the house, just in time to see two
road-stained horses being led away from the hall door.
Sir John had come home. She found him in the dining parlour, sitting
gloomy and weary looking before the table where Reuben was arranging a
hasty meal.
“I have eaten nothing upon the road, yet I have but a poor stomach for
your bacon-ham,” he said, and then looked up at his daughter with a
moody glance, as she went towards him.
“Dear sir, we must try to coax your appetite when you have rested a
little. Let me unbuckle your spurs and pull off your boots, while
Reuben fetches your easiest shoes.”
“Nay, child, that is man’s work, not for such fingers as yours. The
boots are nowise irksome—’tis another kind of shoe that pinches,
Angela.”
She knelt down to unbuckle the spur-straps, and while on her knees she
said—
“You look sad, sir. I fear you found ill news at London.”
“I found such shame as never came before upon England, such confusion
as only traitors and profligates can know; men who have cheated and
lied and wasted the public money, left our fortresses undefended, our
ships unarmed, our sailors unpaid, half-fed, and mutinous; clamorous
wives crying aloud in the streets that their husbands should not fight
and bleed for a King who starved them. They have clapped the scoundrel
who had charge of the Yard at Chatham in the Tower—but will that mend
matters? A scapegoat, belike, to suffer for higher scoundrels. The mob
is loudest against the Chancellor, who I doubt is not to blame for our
unreadiness, having little power of late over the King. Oh, there has
been iniquity upon iniquity, and men know not whom most to blame—the
venal idle servants, or the master of all.”
“You mean that men blame his Majesty?”
“No, Angela. But when our ships were blazing at Chatham, and the Dutch
triumphing, the cry was ‘Oh, for an hour of old Noll!’ Charles has
played his cards so that he has made the loyalest hearts in England
wish the Brewer back again. They called him the Tiger of the Seas. We
have no tigers now, only asses and monkeys. Why, there was scarce a
grain of sense left in London. The beat of the drums calling out the
train-bands seemed to have stupefied the people. Everywhere madness and
confusion. They have sunk their richest argosies at Barking Creek to
block the river; but the Dutch break chains, ride over sunken ships,
laugh our petty defences to scorn.”
“Dear sir, this confusion cannot last.”
“It will last as long as the world’s history lasts. Our humiliation
will never be forgotten.”
“But Englishmen will not look on idle. There must be brave men up in
arms.”
“Oh, there are brave men enough—Fairfax, Ingoldsby, Bethell, Norton.
The Presbyterians come to the front in our troubles. Your
brother-in-law is with Lord Middleton. There is no lack of officers;
and regiments are being raised. But our merchant-ships, which should be
quick to help us, hang back. Our Treasury is empty, and half the
goldsmiths in London are bankrupt. And our ships that are burnt, and
our ships that are taken, will not be conjured back again. The _Royal
Charles_ carried off with insulting triumph! Oh, child, it is not the
loss that galls; it is the dishonour!”
He took a draught of claret out of the tankard which Angela placed at
his elbow, and she carved the ham for him, and persuaded him to eat.
“Is it the public misfortune that troubles you so sadly, sir?” she
asked, presently, when her father flung himself back in his chair with
a heavy sigh.
“Nay, Angela, I have my peck of trouble without reckoning the ruin of
my country. But my back is broad. It can bear a burden as well as any.”
“Do you count a disobedient daughter among your cares, sir?”
“Disobedient is too harsh a word. I told you I would never force your
inclinations. But I have an obstinate daughter, who has disappointed
me, and well-nigh broken my spirit.”
“Your spirit shall not rest broken if my obedience can mend it, sir,”
she said gently, dropping on her knees beside his chair.
“What! has that stony heart relented! Wilt thou marry him, sweetheart?
Wilt give me a son as well as a daughter, and the security that thou
wilt be safe and happy when I’m gone?”
“No one can be sure of happiness, father; it comes strangely, and goes
we know not why. But if it will make your heart easier, sir, and Denzil
be still of the same mind——”
“His mind his rock, dearest. He swore to me that he could never change.
Ah, love, you have made me happy! Let the fleet burn, the _Royal
Charles_ fly Dutch colours. Here, in this quiet valley, there shall be
a peaceful household and united hearts. Angela, I love that youth!
Fareham, with all his rank and wealth, has never been so dear to me.
That black visage repels love. But Denzil’s countenance is open as the
day. I can say ‘Nunc Dimittis’ with a light heart. I can trust Denzil
Warner with my daughter’s happiness.”