|New Year's Morning. So, this long-anticipated festival-week is ended,
and the old year gone. Poor old year!=
```"He gave me a friend and true, true love,
```And the New Year will take them away."=
Ah, no, no, no!
Things are strange. The utmost I can say of them is, that they seem
very strange. One would suppose, if one liked a friend, and there
existed no reasonable cause for not shewing it, why one would shew
it, just a little? That, with only forty miles between--a half-hour's
railway ride not to run over and shake hands--to write a letter and
not to mention one's name therein, was, at least, strange. Such a
small thing, even under any pressure of business--just a line written,
an hour spared. Talk of want of time! Why, if I were a man I would
make time, I would--
Simpleton! what would you do, indeed, when your plainest duty you do
not do,--just to wait and trust.
Yet I do trust. Once believing in people, I believe in them always,
against all evidence except their own--ay, and should to the very
last--“until death us do part.”
Those words have set me right again, showing me that I am not afraid,
either for myself or any other, even of that change. As I have read
somewhere, all pure love of every kind partakes in this of the nature
of the love divine, “neither life nor death, nor things present nor
things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other creature,” are
able to separate or annihilate it. One feels that--or if one does not
feel it, it is not true love, is worth nothing, and had better be let
go.
I write idly,--perhaps from having been somewhat tired this week. Let
me tell my troubles, it is only to this paper. Troubles indeed, they
would scarcely deserve to be called, had they not happened in this
festive week, when everyone expected to be so uncommonly happy.
First, there was Francis's matter, which ought to have been a great
joy, and yet has seemed to weigh us down like a great care; perhaps
because the individual most concerned took it as such, never once
looking pleased, nor giving a hearty “thank you,” to a single
congratulation. Also, instead of coming to talk over his happy
prospects with papa and me, he has avoided us pertinaciously. Whenever
we lighted upon him, it was sure to be by accident, and he slipped
away as soon as he could, to do the polite to Treherne cousins, or
to play interminably at billiards, which he considered “the most
fascinating game in the world.”
I hate it. What can be the charm of prowling for hours round and round
a green-baize table, trying to knock so many red and white balls into
so many holes? I never could discover, and told him so. He laughed,
and said it was only my ignorance; but Colin, who stood by, blushed up
to the eyes, and almost immediately left off playing. Who would have
supposed the lad so sensitive?
I am beginning to understand the interest taken by a friend of theirs
and mine in these two young men. Augustus Treherne and Colin Granton.
Though neither particularly clever, they have both two qualities
sufficiently rare in all men to make one thankful to find them in
any--uprightness of character and unselfishness of disposition.
By-the-by, I never knew but one thoroughly unselfish man in all my
life, and that was--
Well, and it was _not_ Francis Charteris, of whom I am now speaking.
The aforesaid little interchange of civility passed between him and
me on the Saturday after Christmas-day, when I had been searching for
him with a letter from Penelope. (There was in the postbag another
letter, addressed to Sir William, which made me feel sure we should
have no more guests to-day, nor, consequently, till Monday. Indeed,
the letter, which, after some difficulty, I obtained in the shape of
cigar-lighters, made no mention of any such possibility at all; but
then it had been _a promise._)
Francis put my sister's note into his pocket, and went on with the
game so earnestly that when Augustus came behind and caught hold of
him, he started as if he had been collared by a policeman.
“My dear fellow, beg pardon, but the governor wants to know if you
have written that letter?”
Lisa had told me what it was--the letter of acceptance of the
appointment offered him, which ought to have been sent immediately.
Francis looked annoyed. “Plenty of time.--My compliments to Sir
William, and I'll--think about it.”
“Cool!” muttered Augustus. “'Tis your look-out, Charteris, not
mine--only, one way or other, your answer must go to-day, for my
father has heard from--”
Here he reined up, as he himself would say; but having seen the
handwriting in the post-bag, I guessed who was meant.
“Heard from whom, did you say? Some of the officious persons who are
always so obliging as to keep my uncle informed of my affairs?”
“Nonsense--that is one of your crotchets. You have no warmer friend
than my father, if only you wouldn't rub him up the wrong way. Come
along, and have done with it. Otherwise--you know him of old--the old
gentleman will get uncommon savage.”
“Though I have the honour of knowing Sir William Treherne of old, I
really cannot be accountable for his becoming 'uncommon savage,'” said
Francis, haughtily. “Mr. Granton, will you be marker this game?”
“Upon my word, he is the coolest customer! By George, Charteris, if
you wanted Penelope as much as I did my wife--”
“Excuse me,” returned Francis, “_I_ have never mentioned Miss
Johnston's name.”
Certainly Augustus goes awkwardly to work with his cousin, who
has good points if you know how to take hold of them. To use my
brother-in-law's own phrase, Francis too gets “rubbed up the wrong
way,” especially when something has annoyed him. I saw him afterwards
stand by a window, of the library, reading Penelope's letter, with
an expression of such perplexity and pain that I should have been
alarmed, had not hers to me been so cheerful. They cannot have been
quarrelling, for then she is never cheerful. No wonder. Silences, or
slight clouds of doubt between friends are hard enough to bear: a
real quarrel, and between lovers, must be heart-breaking. With all
Francis's peculiarities, I trust it will never come to that.
Yet something must have been amiss, for there he stood, looking out
vacantly on the Italian garden, with the dreary statues half clad
in snow--on Antinous, almost seeming to shiver under anything but
an Egyptian sky; and a white-limbed Egeria pouring out of her urn
a stream of icicles. Of my presence he was scarcely conscious, I do
believe, until I ventured to speak.
“Francis, do you see how near it is to post-time?”
Again a start, which with difficulty he concealed. “Et tu Brute? You
also among my tormentors?--I quit the field.”
--And the room: whence he was just escaping, had not his uncle's
wheeled-chair filled up the door-way.
“Just in search of you”--cried the querulous voice, which Francis
declares goes through his nervous system like a galvanic shock. “Have
you written that letter?”
“My dear Sir William--”
“Have you written that letter?”
“No sir, but--”
“Can't wait for 'buts'--I know your ways. There's pen and ink--and--I
mean to wait here till the letter is done.”
I thought Francis would have been indignant. And with reason: Sir
William, despite his good blood, is certainly a degree short of a
gentleman:--but old habit may have force with his nephew, who, without
more remonstrance, quietly sat down to write.
A long half hour, only broken by the rustle of Sir William's _Times_,
and Lady Augusta's short cough--she was more nervous than usual, and
whispered me that she hoped Mr. Charteris would not offend his uncle,
for the gout was threatening. An involuntary feeling of suspense
oppressed even me; until, slipping across the room, I saw that a few
stray scribblings were the only writing on Francis's sheet of paper.
That intolerable procrastination of his! he would let everything
slip--his credit, his happiness--nor his alone. And, the more people
irritated him, the worse he was. I thought, in despair, I would try
my hand at this incorrigible young man, who makes me often feel as
if, clever and pleasing as he is, he were not half good enough for our
Penelope.
“Francis”--I held out my watch with a warning whisper. He caught at it
with great relief, and closed the letter-case.
“Too late for to-day; I'll do it to-morrow.”
“To-morrow will indeed be too late: Augustus said so distinctly. The
appointment will be given to some one else--and then--”
“And then, you acute, logical and businesslike young lady?”
There was no time for ultra-delicacy. “And then you may not be able to
marry Penelope for ten more years.”
“Penelope will be exceedingly obliged to you for suggesting the
possibility, and taking me to task for it in this way--such a child as
you?”
Am I a child? but it mattered not to him how old I seem to have grown.
Nor did his satirical tone vex me as it once might have done.
“Forgive me,” I said; “I did not mean to take you to task. But it is
not your own happiness alone which is at stake, and Penelope is my
sister.”
Strange to say, he was not offended. Perhaps, if Penelope had
sometimes spoken her mind to him, instead of everlastingly adoring
him, he might have been the better for it.
Francis sighed, and made another scribble on his paper--“Do you think,
you who seem to be well acquainted with your sister's mind, that
Penelope would be exceedingly unhappy if--if I were to decline this
appointment?”
“Decline--oh!--you're jesting.”
“Not at all. The governorship looks far finer than it is. A hot
climate--and I detest warm weather: no society--and I should lose all
my London enjoyments--give up all my friends and acquaintance.”
“So would Penelope.”
“So would Penelope, as you say. But--”
“But women count that as nothing--they are used to it. Easy for them
to renounce home and country, kindred and friends, and follow a
man to the ends of the earth. Quite natural, and they ought to be
exceedingly obliged to him for taking them.”
He looked at me; then begged me not to fly into a passion, as somebody
might hear.
I said he might trust me for that; I would rather not, for his
sake--for all our sakes, that anybody did hear--and then the thought
of Penelope's gay letter suddenly choked me.
“Don't cry, Dora--I never could bear to see a girl cry. I am very
sorry. Heaven help me! was there ever such an unfortunate fellow born?
but it is all circumstances: I have been the sport of circumstances
during my whole life. No, you need not contradict. What the devil do
you torment me for?”
I have thought since, how great must have been the dormant irritation
and excitement which could have forced that ugly word out of the
elegant lips of Francis Charteris. And, the smile being off it, I saw
a face, haggard and sallow with anxiety.
I told him, as gently as I could, that the only thing wanted of him
was to make up his mind, either way.--If he saw good reasons for
declining--why, decline; Penelope would be content.
“Do as you think best--only do it--and let my sister know. There are
two things which you men, the best of you, count for nought; but which
are the two things which almost break a woman's heart--one is, when
you keep secrets from her; the other when you hesitate and hesitate,
and never know your own minds. Pray, Francis, don't do so with
Penelope. She is very fond of you.”
“I know that. Poor Penelope!” He dropped his head, with something very
like a groan.
Much shocked, to see that what ought to have been his comfort, seemed
to be his worst pain, I forgot all about the letter in my anxiety lest
anything should be seriously amiss between them: and my great concern
roused him.
“Nonsense, child. Nothing is amiss. Very likely I shall be Governor
of------------ after all, and your sister governor's lady, if she
chooses. Hush!--not a word; Sir William is calling.--Yes, sir, nearly
ready. There, Dora, you can swear the letter is begun.” And he hastily
wrote the date--Treherne Court.
Even then, though, I doubt if he would have finished it, save for the
merest accident, which shows what trifles apparently cause important
results, especially with characters so impressible and variable as
Francis.
Sir William, opening his letters, called me to look at one with a name
written on the corner.
“Is that meant for my nephew? His correspondent writes an atrocious
hand, and cannot spell. 'Mr. F. Chatters!'--the commonest tradesman
might have had the decency to put 'Francis Charteris, Esquire.'
Perhaps it is not for him, but for one of the servants.”
It was not: for Francis, looking rather confused, claimed it as from
his tailor--and then, under his uncle's keen eyes, turned scarlet.
These two must have had some sharp encounters, in former days, since,
even now, their power of provoking one another is grievous to see.
Heartily vexed for Francis, I took up the ugly letter to give to him,
but Sir William interfered.
“No thank you, young lady. Tradesmen's bills can always wait. Mr.
Francis shall have this letter when he has written his own.”
Rude as this behaviour, was, Francis bore with it. I was called out of
the library, but half an hour afterwards I learned that the letter was
written--a letter of acceptance.
So I conclude his hesitation was all talk--or else his better self,
sees that a good and loving wife, in any nook of the world, outweighs
a host of grand London acquaintance, miscalled “friends.”
Dear old Mrs. Granton beamed with delight at the hope of another
marriage at Rockmount.
“Only,” said she--“what will become of your poor papa, when he has
lost all his daughters?”
I reminded her that Francis did not intend marrying more than one of
us, and the other was likely to be a fixture for many years.
“Not so sure of that, my dear; but it is very pretty of you to say so.
We'll see--something will be thought of for your good papa when the
time comes.”
What could she mean?--But I was afterwards convinced that only
my imagination suspected her of meaning anything beyond her usual
old-ladyish eagerness in getting young people “settled.”
Sunday was another long day--they seem so long and still in spite of
all the gaiety with which these country cousins fill Treherne Court,
which is often so oppressive to me, and affects me-with such a strange
sensation of nervous irritation, that when Colin and his mother, who
take a special charge of me, have hunted me out of stray corners,
their affectionate kindness has made me feel like to cry.
--Now, I did not mean to write about myself--I have been trying
desperately to fill my mind with other people's affairs--but it will
out. I am not myself, I know. All Sunday, a formal and dreary day at
Treherne Court, I do think a dozen gentle words would have made me
cry like a baby. I did cry once, but it was when nobody saw me, in the
firelight, by Mrs. Granton's arm-chair.
“What is ailing you my dear?” she had been saying. “You are not near
so lively as you were a week ago. Has any body been vexing my Dora?”
Which, of course, Dora at once denied, and tried to be as blithe as a
lark, all the evening.
No, not vexed, that would be impossible--but just a little hurt. If
I could only talk about some things that puzzle me--talk in a cursory
way, or mention names carelessly, like other names, or ask a question
or two, that might throw a light on circumstances not clear, then they
would be easier to bear. But I dare not trust my tongue, or my cheeks,
so all goes inwards--I keep pondering and wondering till my brain is
bewildered, and my whole heart sore. People should not--cannot--that
is good people cannot--say things they do not mean; it would not be
kind or generous; it would not be _right_ in short; and as good people
usually act rightly, or what they believe to be right, that doubt
falls to the ground.
Has there risen up somebody better than I? with fewer faults and
nobler virtues? God knows I have small need to be proud. Yet I am
myself--this Theodora Johnston--as I was from the first, no better and
no worse; honest and true if nothing else, and he knew it. Nobody ever
knew me so thoroughly--faults and all.
We women must be constituted differently from men. A word said, a line
written and we are happy; omitted, our hearts ache--ache as if for a
great misfortune. Men cannot feel it, or guess at it--if they did, the
most careless of them would be slow to wound us so.
There's Penelope, now, waiting alone at Rockmount. Augustus wanted
to go post haste and fetch her here, but Francis objected. He had to
return to London immediately, he said, and yet, here he is still. How
can men make themselves so content abroad, while the women are wearing
their hearts out at home?
I am bitter--naughty--I know I am. I was even cross to Colin to-day,
when he wanted me to take a walk with him, and then persisted in
staying beside me indoors. Colin likes me--Colin is kind to me--Colin
would walk twenty miles for an hour of his old playmate's company--he
told me so. And yet I was cross with him.
Oh, I am wicked, wicked! But my heart is so sore. One look into eyes
I knew--one clasp of a steadfast kindly hand, and I would be all right
again. Merry, happy, brave--afraid of nothing and nobody--not even of
myself; it cannot be so bad a self if it is worth being cared for. I
can't see to write. There now, there now--as one would say to a child
in a passion--cry your heart out, it will do you good, Theodora.
After that, I should have courage to tell the last thing, which, this
evening, put a climax to my ill-humours, and in some sense cleared
them off, thunder-storm fashion. An incident so unexpected, a story
so ridiculous, so cowardly, that had Francis been less to me than my
expected brother-in-law, I declare I would have cut his acquaintance
for ever and ever, and never spoken to him again.
I was sitting in a corner of the billiard-room, which, when the
players are busy, is as quiet unobserved a nook as any in the house. I
had a book--but read little, being stopped by the eternal click-clack
of the billiard-balls. There were only three in the room--Francis,
Augustus, and Colin Granton, who came up and asked my leave to play
just one game. My leave? How comical! I told him he might play on till
Midsummer, for all I cared.
They were soon absorbed in their game, and their talk between whiles
went in and out of my head as vaguely as the book itself had done,
till something caught my attention.
“I say, Charteris, you know Tom Turton? He was the cleverest fellow at
a cannon. It was refreshing only to watch him hold the cue, so long as
his hand was steady, and even after he got a little “screwed.” He was
a wild one, rather. What has become of him?”
“I cannot say. Doctor Urquhart might, in whose company I last met
him.”
Augustus stared.
“Well, that is a good joke. Doctor Urquhart with Tom Turton. I was
nothing to boast of myself before I married; but Tom Turton!'' “They
seemed intimate enough; dined, and went to the theatre together and
finished the evening--I really forget where. Your friend the doctor
made himself uncommonly agreeable.”
“Urquhart and Tom Turton,” Augustus kept repeating, quite unable to
get over his surprise at such a juxtaposition; from which I conclude
that Mr. Turton, whose name I never heard before, was one of the not
too creditable associates of my brother-in-law in his bachelor days.
When, some one calling, he went out, Colin took up the theme; being
also familiar with this notorious person, it appeared.
“Very odd, Doctor Urquhart's hunting in couples with Tom Turton.
However, I hope he may do him good--there was room for it.”
“In Tom, of course; your doctor being one of those china patterns of
humanity, in which it is vain to find a flaw, and whose mission it is
to go about as patent cementers of all cracked and unworthy vessels.”
“Eh?” said Colin, opening his good, stupid eyes.
“Query--whether your humdrum Scotch doctor is one whit better than
his neighbours. (Score that as twenty, Granton). I once heard he has
a wife and six children living in the shade, near some cathedral town,
Canterbury, or Salisbury.”
“What!” and Colin's eyes almost started out of his head with
astonishment.
I laugh now--I could have laughed then, the minute after, to recollect
what a “stound” it gave us both, Colin and me, this utterly improbable
and ridiculous tale, which Francis so coolly promulgated.
“I don't believe it,” said Colin, doggedly, bless his honest heart! Beg
your pardon, Charteris, but there must be some mistake. I don't believe
it.”
“As you will--it is a matter of very little consequence. Your game,
now.”
“I won't believe it,” persisted Colin, who, once getting a thing into
his head, keeps it there. “Doctor Urquhart isn't the sort of man to do
it. If he had married ever so low a woman, he would have made the best
of her. He'd never take a wife and keep her in the background. Six
young ones, too--and he so fond of children.”
Francis laughed.
And all this while I sat quiet in my chair.
“Children are sometimes inconvenient--even to a gentleman of your
friend's parental propensities. Perhaps--we know such things do occur,
and can't be helped, sometimes--perhaps the tale is all true, except
that he omitted the marriage ceremony.”
“Charteris, that girl's sitting there.”
It was this hurried whisper of Colin's, and a certain tone of
Francis's, which made me guess at the meaning, which, when I clearly
caught it--for I am not a child exactly, and Lydia Cartwright's story
has lately made me sorrowfully wise,--sent me burning hot all over,
and then so cold.
“That girl.” Yes, she was but a girl. Perhaps she ought to have crept
blushing away, or pretended not to have heard a syllable of
these men's talk. But, girl as she was, she scorned to be such a
hypocrite--such a coward. What! sit still to hear a friend sneered at,
and his character impeached.
While one--the only one at hand to do it--durst not so much as say
“The tale is false--prove it.” And why? Because she happened to be a
woman! Out upon it! I should despise the womanhood that skulked behind
such rags of miscalled modesty as these.
“Mr. Granton,” I said, as steadily and coolly as I could, “your
caution comes too late. If you gentlemen wished to talk about anything
I should not hear, you ought to have gone into another room. I have
heard every word you uttered.”
“I'm sorry for it,” said Colin, bluntly.
Francis proposed carelessly “to drop the subject.” What! take away a
man's good name, behind his back, and then merely “drop the subject.”
Suppose the listener had been other than I, and had believed: or Colin
had been a less honest fellow than he is, and he had believed, and
we had both gone and promulgated the story, with a few elegant
improvements of our own, where would it have ended? These are the
things that destroy character--foul tales, that grow up in darkness,
and before a man can seize hold of them, root them up, and drag them
to light, homes are poisoned, reputation gone.
Such thoughts came in a crowd upon me. I hardly knew till then how
much I cared for him--I mean his honour, his stainless name, all that
helps to make his life valuable and noble. And he absent, too, unable
to defend himself. I was right to do as I did; I take shame to myself
even for this long preamble lest it might look like an apology.
“Francis,” I said, holding fast by the billiard-table, and trying
to smother down the heat of my face, and the beat at my heart, which
nearly choked me, “if you please, you have no right to say such
things, and then drop the subject. You are quite mistaken. Doctor
Urquhart was never married, he told papa so. Who informed you that he
had a wife and six children living at Salisbury?”
“My dear girl, I do not vouch for any such fact; I merely 'tell the
tale, as it was told to me.'”
“By whom? Remember the name, if you can. Any one who repeated it,
ought to be able to give full confirmation.”
“Faith, I almost forget what the story was.”
“You said, he had a wife and six children, living near Salisbury.
Or,” and I looked Francis direct in the face, “a woman who was not his
wife, but who ought to have been.”
He must have been ashamed of himself, I think; for he turned away and
began striking irritably at the balls.
“I must say, Dora, these are extraordinary questions to put. Young
ladies ought to know nothing about such things; what possible concern
is this of yours?”
I did not shrink; or I am sure he could not have seen me do so. “It
is my concern, as much as it is Colin's, there; or that of any honest
stander-by. Francis, I think that to take away a man's character
behind his back, as you have been doing, is as bad as murdering him.”
“She's right,” cried Colin; “upon my soul she is!--Dora--Miss Dora, if
Charteris will only give me the scoundrel's name that told him this,
I'll hunt him down, and unearth him, wherever he is. Come, my dear
fellow, try and remember. Who was it?”
“I think,” observed Francis, after a pause; “his name was Augustus
Treherne.”
Colin started--but I only said, “Very well, I shall go and ask him.”
And just then it chanced that papa and Augustus were seen passing the
window. I was well nigh doing, great mischief by forgetting, for the
moment, how that the name of the place was Salisbury. It would never
have done to hurt papa even by the mention of Salisbury, so I let him
go by. I then called in my brother-in-law, and at once, without an
instant's delay, put the question.
He utterly and instantly denied having said any such thing. But
afterwards, just in time to prevent a serious fracas between him and
Francis, he suddenly burst out laughing violently.
“I have it, and if it isn't one of the best jokes going! Once, when I
was chaffing Urquhart about marrying, I told him he 'looked as savage,
as if he had a wife and six children hidden somewhere on Salisbury
Plain.' And I dare say afterwards, I told some fellow at the camp, who
told somebody else, and so it got round.”
“And that was all?”
“'Upon my word of honour, Granton, that was all.”
Mr. Charteris said, he was exceedingly happy to hear it. They all
seemed to consider it a capital joke, and in the midst of their mirth
I slipped out.
But, the thing ended, my courage gave way. O the wickedness of this
world and of the men in it! Oh! if there were any human being to speak
to, to trust, to lean upon! I laid my head in my hands and cried. If
he could know how bitterly I have cried.
* * * * *
New Year's night.
Feeling wakeful, I will just put down the remaining occurrences of
this New Year's day.
When I was writing the last line, Lisa knocked at the door.
“Dora, Dr. Urquhart is in the library; make haste, if you care to see
him; he says he can only stop half an hour.”
So, after a minute, I shut and locked my desk. Only half an hour!
I have the credit of “flying into a passion,” as Francis says, about
things that vex and annoy me. Things that wound, that stab to the
heart, affect me quite differently. Then, I merely say “yes,” or
“no,” or “of' course,” and go about quietly, as if nothing were amiss.
Probably, did there come any mortal blow, I should be like one of
those poor soldiers one hears of, who, being shot, will stand up as
if unhurt, or even fight on for a minute or so, then suddenly drop
down--dead.
I fastened my neck-ribbon, smoothed my hair, and descended. I knew I
should have entered the library all proper, and put out my hand. Ah!
he should not--he ought not, that night--this very same right hand.
I mean to say, I should have met Doctor Urquhart exactly as usual, had
I not, just in the corridor, entering from the garden, come upon him
and Colin Granton in close talk.
“How do you do?” and “It is a very cold morning.” Then they passed
on. I have since thought that their haste was Colin's doing. He looked
confused, as if it were a confidential conversation I had interrupted,
which very probably it was. I hope, not the incident of the morning,
for it would vex Doctor Urquhart so; and blunt as Colin is, his kind
heart teaches him tact, oftentimes.
Doctor Urquhart stayed out his half-hour punctually, and over the
luncheon-table there was plenty of general conversation. He also
took an opportunity to put to me, in my character of nurse, various
questions about papa's health, and desired me, still in the same
general half-medical tone, to be careful of my own, as Treherne Court
was a much colder place than Rockmount, and we were likely to have a
severe winter. I said it would not much signify, as we did not purpose
remaining more than a week longer; to which he merely answered, “Oh,
indeed!”
We had no more conversation, except that on taking leave, having
resisted all the Trehernes' entreaties to remain, he wished me “a
happy New Year.”
“I may not see you again for some time to come; if not, good-bye;
good-bye!”
Twice over, good-bye; and that was all.
A happy New Year. So now, the Christmas time is over and gone; and
to-morrow, January 2nd, 1857, will be like all other days in all other
years. If I ever thought or expected otherwise, I was mistaken.
One thing made me feel deeply and solemnly glad of Doctor Urquhart's
visit to-day. It was, that if ever Francis, or any one else, was
inclined to give a moment's credence to that atrocious lie, his
whole appearance and demeanour were, its instantaneous contradiction.
Whether Colin had told him anything, I could not discover; he looked
grave, and somewhat anxious, but his manner was composed and at
ease--the air of a man whose life, if not above sorrow, was wholly
above suspicion; whose heart was steadfast and whose conscience free.
“A thoroughly good man, if ever there was one,” said papa,
emphatically, when he had gone away.
“Yes,” Augustus answered, looking at Francis and then at me. “As
honest and upright a man as God ever made.”
Therefore, no matter--even if I was mistaken.