|THERE is one serious disadvantage--which mistresses should do well to
remember--at which waiting-maids are always placed in disputations with
their domestic superiors; they cannot (except they are prepared for
instant dismissal) either quit the room, and hang the door after them,
or leave it open, and run down stairs “saying things” at the top of
their voices. Both these modes of procedure, so natural to the female
when “put out,” are denied to them, for the same reason that when on
board ship they can't take champagne for sea-sickness as their employers
do; they cannot afford the indulgence.
Now, although Mary Forest was not debarred by mère pecuniary
considerations from flinging herself out of her mistress's room when
she cried, “And I mean to stand to it,” there were other reasons which
prevented her from suiting to her words that very appropriate and
natural action. In all her blinding passion (and she was really very
angry), she never quite lost sight of the respect she owed her mistress.
Her devotion to her was such, that even while she listened to her most
unpalatable arguments against the man she had accepted for her husband,
her heart smote her with a sense of ingratitude towards the long-tried
friend, who, after all, she knew, was anxious for her happiness rather
than for her own mère comfort; and when she seemed most obstinate, she
had often been nearest to throwing herself upon her mistress's neck, and
exclaiming: “You are quite right, my Lady; and I believe I have been an
old fool all along.” It was more with the desire of putting a stop
to this most unpleasant dispute, than because her determination was
absolutely adamantine and inflexible, that she once more reiterated:
“Yes, my Lady, I mean to stand to it,” and fixed her eyes doggedly upon
the floor, as though she would not even encounter another questioning
glance.
“Mary,” said her mistress solemnly, and after a long silence, “I am
grieved beyond all power of words to tell at what you have just said;
but the mischief may not yet be quite past mending. I have seen this--Mr
Derrick--this very night, and therefore he will not receive your letter
till, at earliest, to-morrow evening.”
“No, nor then neither, my Lady, so far as that goes, for I was late for
the London post; I put the letter in the box for the very reason that I
might not be persuaded to change my mind by”----
“Then it has not yet left the village postoffice,” interrupted my Lady,
hastily snatching up her bonnet from the table on which she had wearily
put it down upon entering the room: “there is time to stop it yet.”
“No, my Lady; I heard the postman's horn half an hour ago; and if it
were otherwise, nothing would induce me to alter what I have already
written--nothing--nothing!” repeated Mistress Forest, emphasising her
last two words by beating with her foot upon the carpet.
“Alas, dear friend, you know not what you say,” replied my Lady very
gravely. “Give me your hand, Mary; nay, do not withdraw it coldly, for
you will have need of comfort and support, almost as much, alas, as
I----_Mary, Mary, this man is married already!_”
The waiting-maid started from her seat with a shrill scream. “I don't
believe it, I won't believe it; it is false. How dare you tell a lie to
me, Lady Lisgard, only to gain your ends?”
“Hush, hush, Mary; did you ever know me to tell a lie, my friend? It is
true as that yonder moon is rising, that this man has a wife alive. Do
not weep so passionately.”
“The perjured villain; the false, bad man; the wicked, wicked wretch!”
cried the waiting-maid, her eyes flashing through their tears.
“Nay, above all, do not blame _him_, Mary, for he knows it not himself;
he does not, indeed.”
“What? Not know whether he's married or not!” sobbed the unhappy
bride-elect. “I don't believe that, at all events, even if I believe
you. He has married so many, he doesn't know rightly who is his wife;
that is what you mean, I see. Sailors are all alike. O dear, dear, dear,
when Mrs Welsh comes to know of it! And the monster will have got
my letter by to-morrow night, to shew about! How nearly have I been
committing bi--bi--bigamy!”
“Calm yourself, dear Mary, calm yourself. Your trouble is nothing to
what I suffer, and must continue to endure for my life long.”
“Ah, my Lady, I daresay it is very bad to be a widow; but it's much
worse to die an old----leastways, at forty-fi--or forty-four, rather--to
lose---- O dear! what an honest man he looked, and such a beard and
eyes! I will never trust to appearances again. I daresay, it is
very wrong, my Lady, but I fee--fee--feel as though I could tear Mrs
Derrick's eyes out; I do, indeed.” Here the bottle of smelling-salts,
which upon a certain occasion we saw used by Mary Forest for the
recovery of her mistress, had to change hands. The unfortunate
waiting-maid was taken with a very genuine fit of hysterics, and not
of the quiet sort either; and if her senses left her, it could not
certainly be said that she also lost the use of her limbs. At last,
exhausted in body, but also more reasonable as to her mind, she
whispered: “Mistress, dearest, tell me all you know.” Then my Lady knew
that the time was come for her first self-humiliation. Throughout the
narrative that followed, they were sitting upon the sofa together, hand
in hand, but each had her face averted from the other, and only now and
then, by a convulsive grasp of the fingers, did Mary shew her sympathy
with her unhappy mistress. At first, she was too full of her own trouble
to interrupt by words, but soon the astounding revelation from my Lady's
lips overwhelmed every faculty of speech within her, and she sat like a
child who listens to a horrid story in the darkening twilight.
“We have known one another more than half our lives, Mary, said I, a
while ago, and yet there has been a secret between us all that time. I
have never kept anything else from you, but this was not mine alone to
tell; it was Sir Robert's also. When he asked me to become his wife
at Coveton, and you thought me so mad for first refusing him, and
afterwards for demanding such a long delay, I had a reason for it, which
he knew, but which you have never guessed. I was then the three-weeks'
bride of another man.--You may well start, Mary, but that is the
dreadful truth. The man, Ralph Gavestone, whom I mourned so deeply,
as being drowned with my dear parents, and all the rest of the ship's
company, in that great storm--which I would to Heaven had whelmed me in
its waves--was not my half-brother, as Sir Robert persuaded me to give
out, but my husband.”
“You had no wedding-ring, my Lady, when you came ashore,” murmured the
waiting-maid half incredulously.
“That is true, Mary. I know not how it was, but perhaps the cold and wet
of that dreadful night made my fingers shrink--you remember how wan and
thin I looked--and the ring must have dropped off; I never saw it after
I reached land. But I was none the less a widow--as I thought; and
although friendless, save for you, Mary--homeless and penniless, I
thought I could never take another husband to my arms, although the
raging sea had worked that rough divorce between us. At first, I
replied: 'No, Sir Robert, never;' you will bear me witness that I did.
Then, when he pressed me still, I bargained for three years. I thought
that he would tire of waiting for me, and get some fitter mate in the
meantime; I did, as Heaven is my judge. I was true to my poor Ralph--he
had saved me upon that spar at the risk, and, as I then believed, at
the sacrifice of his own life--as long as I--nay, I was true to him in
a sense for ever. Sir Robert was well aware of that. I do not need
justification from man or woman; God himself absolved me, I think, so
far. But that was an evil day, Mary, when I married. I was no more Sir
Robert's wife than you were, Mary. Think of that. And he was not
my husband. And our children, of whom he was so proud, are
baseborn--bastards. Sir Richard--is it not terrible? do you not wonder
that I live and am not mad?--he is not Sir Richard. And my dear, dear
Walter, he is baseborn too. And Letty--for whom her eldest brother
thinks nobody too high--she, too, is no Lisgard. If I had waited seven
years instead of three, this would not have been so. There are law-books
in the library which have told me so much; but I have no adviser--none;
no friend--yes, you, Mary, I know--but not one who can help me. Is not
this something worse than death itself which has fallen upon me!”
“And this man Derrick--he was Gavestone?” whispered Mary Forest in a
hoarse grating voice.
“Yes; did I not tell you so? I only found it out last Christmas Eve. I
knew his voice, and I knew the carol that he sang. For one thing only
do I thank Heaven--I who had reason, as I thought, to be thankful for
so many things--that Sir Robert is not alive. His sleep in yonder
churchyard is disturbed by no such ghastly dream. Ah, happy dead!”
“Mistress, beloved mistress,” cried the waiting-maid, in an agony of
remorse--“forgive me that I have been thinking of myself these many
weeks, while you have been so burdened and tormented. Henceforth, I am
yours only. As I hope to get to heaven when I die, I will be true to you
whatever happens. Let us think what that may be.”
“Nay, let us _not_ think,” exclaimed her mistress with a shudder, “or I
shall lose my wits. 'Would you have me picture what this house would
be should _he_ come hither and claim me for his wife? Richard and he
beneath the self-same roof, and he the master! Would Walter--though
he herds with him, you say--brook this man as his equal? Would he not
loathe him rather, and how soon, ah me! unlearn the love he owes to
me--his wretched mother! I cannot hear to think of it, I tell you. Let
us act; let us be doing something--something! How my brain whirls!
Think for me, Mary--pray for me, for Heaven is deaf, alas, to my poor
prayers!”
But even while she spoke, the gracious tears began to fill the furrows
in her cheeks, which until now had been dry throughout her talk; and
having told her friend, the weight about her heart was lifted off a
little, and the tightness round her brow was loosened by the blessed
hand of sympathy.
“I must write to him at once,” said Mary thoughtfully. “How fortunate
that he did not leave Mirk until to-night. The two letters will now
reach him at the same time. He cannot write in answer to the one
which--which I wrote first--without having read the other; that will be
something saved.”
My Lady shook her head.
“There is but little hope in that, I fear; for he himself has this night
told me--yes, I saw him face to face, Mary, only I was thickly veiled,
thank Heaven--he told me frankly (thinking I did not wish to lose my
waiting-maid) that he should lay it to my charge if your reply was 'No,'
and should not take it as the answer of your heart. How much more, if he
gets a refusal coming so quickly upon the very heels of this acceptance,
will he decline to believe it comes from your own self. More likely,
it would cause him, reckless as he is, to do something rash and
vengeful--perhaps to return hither on the instant, and---- O Mary,
Mary, I would give five thousand pounds this day, if that would stop his
coming to Mirk again!”
“Would that _not_ stop him, mistress?” asked the waiting-maid with
earnest gravity. “Five thousand pounds is a fortune, is it not?”
“It would not stop _him_, Mary,” rejoined my Lady sadly. “Ralph
Gavestone, even in his youth-time, never valued money a fillip when
weighed against a whim; and now his will is more a law to him than ever.
I have never known Resolve so fixed as I read it in his eyes this night.
And if he guessed the truth, Mary--oh, if he did but dream that I, his
lawful wife, for whom he had gladly laid his own life down, whose memory
he has kept fresh and green when all else has withered, whose loss has
been his ruin, was playing him false!--he said himself, that on his
reckless soul 'twas like as not there might be murder some day--and,
Mary, I do believe him.”
White as the very moonbeams was my Lady's face, and the hand trembled
which held the handkerchief she passed across her damp white brow.
“Not for myself, good Mary, is this fear,” gasped she, “but for my
dear ones--do you hear them yonder? is it not sad to listen to
such mirth?--for this unhappy man being wronged, becomes a madman
straightway. Not disgrace alone may fall upon us here, not only
shame--think of that, Mary; not _only_ shame upon Sir Richard and the
rest! but even Crime may visit us. This house of dead Sir Robert--once
the home of peace, and genial ease, and hospitality----But that shall
never be; no, they shall never meet, my sons and he; I will die rather,
and my corpse would part them wide enough.”
“O mistress, talk not so; you freeze my very blood. What was it we were
saying before you began to look like this?”
“You talked of bribing this Ralph Gavestone--for how could I offer him
gold save _as_ a bribe! But if a bribe, what need was there to bribe
him? Why should I wish him once more upon the other side of the world?
Why pay him a younger brother's portion, to quit the courtship of my
waiting-maid? No, Mary, this man is no mère rogue, that he should take
his money without question, and be off; he is suspicious, keen--and ah,
if wronged, as implacable as Death itself.”
“One moment, my Lady!” cried Mistress Forest leaping to her feet. “I do
believe I have a plan to get that letter back.”
“Ah, good Heaven! What is it, wise, kind heart?”
“See, madam,” and she began to reckon on her plump fingers, with
her pleasant face aglow with mingled joy and astonishment at her own
sagacity: “the note was put in late for the London post from Dalwynch;
it will therefore remain there, though it has left Mirk, all to-night,
and not be forwarded till the morning mail. If we drive over to-morrow
early--starting, say, at six o'clock--we shall be in plenty of time to
stop its going further. In the meantime, I will write another letter in
its place.”
“You have saved me--for this time--I do believe, dear Mary; yes, we can
drive to Dalwynch--I will give orders for the carriage to be ready at
six--and still be back at the Abbey by breakfast-time. If we are pressed
for the reason, we can give the true one--to a certain point, if needs
must be--you had a mind to alter what you have written to your suitor.”