I will now, without further preamble, begin the history of my life.

* * * * *

"I assure you, my dear Lena, Mr. Zaluski is nothing less than a

Nihilist!"

The sound waves set in motion by Mrs. O'Reilly's words were tumultuously

heaving in the atmosphere when I sprang into being, a young but perfectly

formed and most promising slander. A delicious odour of tea pervaded the

drawing-room, it was orange-flower pekoe, and Mrs. O'Reilly was just

handing one of the delicate Crown Derby cups to her visitor, Miss Lena

Houghton.

"What a shocking thing! Do you really mean it?" exclaimed Miss Houghton.

"Thank you, cream but no sugar; don't you know, Mrs. O'Reilly, that it is

only Low-Church people who take sugar nowadays? But, really, now, about

Mr. Zaluski? How did you find it out?"

"My dear, I am an old woman, and I have learnt in the course of a

wandering life to put two and two together," said Mrs. O'Reilly. She had

somehow managed to ignore middle age, and had passed from her position of

renowned beauty to the position which she now firmly and constantly

claimed of many years and much experience. "Of course," she continued,

"like every one else, I was glad enough to be friendly and pleasant to

Sigismund Zaluski, and as to his being a Pole, why, I think it rather

pleased me than otherwise. You see, my dear, I have knocked about the

world and mixed with all kinds of people. Still, one must draw the line

somewhere, and I confess it gave me a very painful shock to find that he

had such violent antipathies to law and order. When he took Ivy Cottage

for the summer I made the General call at once, and before long we had

become very intimate with him; but, my dear, he's not what I thought

him--not at all!"

"Well now, I am delighted to hear you say that," said Lena Houghton, with

some excitement in her manner, "for it exactly fits in with what I always

felt about him. From the first I disliked that man, and the way he goes

on with Gertrude Morley is simply dreadful. If they are not engaged they

ought to be--that's all I can say."

"Engaged, my dear! I trust not," said Mrs. O'Reilly. "I had always

hoped for something very different for dear Gertrude. Quite between

ourselves, you know, my nephew John Carew is over head and ears in love

with her, and they would make a very good pair; don't you think so?"

"Well, you see, I like Gertrude to a certain extent," replied Lena

Houghton. "But I never raved about her as so many people do. Still, I

hope she will not be entrapped into marrying Mr. Zaluski; she deserves a

better fate than that."

"I quite agree with you," said Mrs. O'Reilly, with a troubled look. "And

the worst of it is, poor Gertrude is a girl who might very likely take up

foolish revolutionary notions; she needs a strong wise husband to keep

her in order and form her opinions. But is it really true that he flirts

with her? This is the first I have heard of it. I can't think how it

has escaped my notice."

"Nor I, for indeed he is up at the Morleys' pretty nearly every day. What

with tennis, and music, and riding, there is always some excuse for it. I

can't think what Gertrude sees in him, he is not even good-looking."

"There is a certain surface good-nature about him," said Mrs. O'Reilly.

"It deceived even me at first. But, my dear Lena, mark my words: that

man has a fearful temper; and I pray Heaven that poor Gertrude may have

her eyes opened in time. Besides, to think of that little gentle,

delicate thing marrying a Nihilist! It is too dreadful; really, quite

too dreadful! John would never get over it!"

"The thing I can't understand is why all the world has taken him up so,"

said Lena Houghton. "One meets him everywhere, yet nobody seems to know

anything about him. Just because he has taken Ivy Cottage for four

months, and because he seems to be rich and good-natured, every one is

ready to run after him."

"Well, well," said Mrs. O'Reilly, "we all like to be neighbourly, my

dear, and a week ago I should have been ready to say nothing but good of

him. But now my eyes have been opened. I'll tell you just how it was.

We were sitting here, just as you and I are now, at afternoon tea; the

talk had flagged a little, and for the sake of something to say I made

some remark about Bulgaria--not that I really knew anything about it, you

know, for I'm no politician; still, I knew it was a subject that would

make talk just now. My dear, I assure you I was positively frightened.

All in a minute his face changed, his eyes flashed, he broke into such a

torrent of abuse as I never heard in my life before."

"Do you mean that he abused you?"

"Dear me, no! but Russia and the Czar, and tyranny and despotism, and

many other things I had never heard of. I tried to calm him down and

reason with him, but I might as well have reasoned with the cockatoo in

the window. At last he caught himself up quickly in the middle of a

sentence, strode over to the piano, and began to play as he generally

does, you know, when he comes here. Well, would you believe it, my dear!

instead of improvising or playing operatic airs as usual, he began to

play a stupid little tune which every child was taught years ago, of

course with variations of his own. Then he turned round on the music-

stool with the oddest smile I ever saw, and said, "Do you know that air,

Mrs. O'Reilly?"

"Yes," I said; "but I forget now what it is.'"

"It was composed by Pestal, one of the victims of Russian tyranny," said

he. "The executioner did his work badly, and Pestal had to be strung up

twice. In the interval he was heard to mutter, 'Stupid country, where

they don't even know how to hang!'"

"Then he gave a little forced laugh, got up quickly, wished me good-bye,

and was gone before I could put in a word."

"What a horrible story to tell in a drawing-room!" said Lena Houghton. "I

envy Gertrude less than ever."

"Poor girl! What a sad prospect it is for her!" said Mrs. O'Reilly with

a sigh. "Of course, my dear, you'll not repeat what I have just told

you."

"Not for the world!" said Lena Houghton emphatically. "It is perfectly

safe with me."

The conversation was here abruptly ended, for the page threw open the

drawing-room door and announced 'Mr. Zaluski.'

"Talk of the angel," murmured Mrs. O'Reilly with a significant smile at

her companion. Then skilfully altering the expression of her face, she

beamed graciously on the guest who was ushered into the room, and Lena

Houghton also prepared to greet him most pleasantly.

I looked with much interest at Sigismund Zaluski, and as I looked I

partly understood why Miss Houghton had been prejudiced against him at

first sight. He had lived five years in England, and nothing pleased him

more than to be taken for an Englishman. He had had his silky black hair

closely cropped in the very hideous fashion of the present day; he wore

the ostentatiously high collar now in vogue; and he tried to be

sedulously English in every respect. But in spite of his wonderfully

fluent speech and almost perfect accent, there lingered about him

something which would not harmonise with that ideal of an English

gentleman which is latent in most minds. Something he lacked, something

he possessed, which interfered with the part he desired to play. The

something lacking showed itself in his ineradicable love of jewellery and

in a transparent habit of fibbing; the something possessed showed itself

in his easy grace of movement, his delightful readiness to amuse and to

be amused, and in a certain cleverness and rapidity of idea rarely, if

ever, found in an Englishman.

He was a little above the average height and very finely built; but there

was nothing striking in his aquiline features and dark grey eyes, and I

think Miss Houghton spoke truly when she said that he was 'Not even good-

looking.' Still, in spite of this, it was a face which grew upon most

people, and I felt the least little bit of regret as I looked at him,

because I knew that I should persistently haunt and harass him, and

should do all that could be done to spoil his life.

Apparently he had forgotten all about Russia and Bulgaria, for he looked

radiantly happy. Clearly his thoughts were engrossed with his own

affairs, which, in other words, meant with Gertrude Morley; and though,

as I have since observed, there are times when a man in love is an

altogether intolerable sort of being, there are other times when he is

very much improved by the passion, and regards the whole world with a

genial kindliness which contrasts strangely with his previous cool

cynicism.

"How delightful and home-like your room always looks!" he exclaimed,

taking the cup of tea which Mrs. O'Reilly handed to him. "I am horribly

lonely at Ivy Cottage. This house is a sort of oasis in the desert."

"Why, you are hardly ever at home, I thought," said Mrs. O'Reilly,

smiling. "You are the lion of the neighbourhood just now; and I'm sure

it is very good of you to come in and cheer a lonely old woman. Are you

going to play me something rather more lively to-day?"

He laughed.

"Ah! Poor Pestal! I had forgotten all about our last meeting."

"You were very much excited that day," said Mrs. O'Reilly. "I had no

idea that your political notions--"

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