Horace never knew how he passed that night; during the twilight and the
early darkness he hovered about the moor, lying down among the fragrant
heather, when now and then for a moment he could keep still, and feeling
the penetrating damp of the bog steal into his limbs, and the dark,
noiseless prick of the whin bushes, startling him into energy as he rose
out of that feverish, momentary rest. When the night had quite fallen--a
dark summer night, soft, but gloomy, with a few faint stars, but no
moon--he stole once more, circling and sweeping about the house, towards
Marchmain; for no purpose, only to look in at the uncurtained window,
and see sitting there in his utter solitude the formal figure, erect and
motionless, which had shadowed, like a baleful tree, all his own young
life. There he sat, a little turned aside from his familiar position at
the head of the table, as though even he was glad to seek a little
companionship in the morsel of evening fire which Peggy lighted in
silent compassion every night; with his little reading-desk upon the
table, and his glass of claret reflected in that shining surface, and
the two tall candles lighting his white, worn visage, and the open page.
There he sat, reading like an automaton, turning the leaves at regular
intervals, doing the business to which he enforced himself, with his
pale fingers and his rigid face. To think that one wicked, lawful
expression of a dead man's will could have drained the humanity thus out
of one who was a woman's husband and the father of children, when that
devilish stroke smote him in full career! The woman was dead ages since,
and the children banished; and dead down in its miserable solitude had
stiffened that vexed heart. Did he ever have a heart, that dismal man,
at his dreary occupation, forlorn by the evening fire?--or was this
_life_ which he lived, hugging to his bosom through all these years that
big wrong which he had made the pivot of his impoverished existence? Who
could tell? but there might, at least, have been pity in the kindred
eyes which watched him through that melancholy night.
There was no pity, however, in the eyes of Horace: when his first guilty
fear of being discovered was over, he stood and gazed, with a burning,
steady gaze, upon his enemy. Years and days of his own existence rose
before Horace as he looked; he heard himself once more addressed with
that killing politeness which murdered nature in him; he saw himself
once more lowering in a fierce, unnatural restraint at that same
miserable table, cursing, and not blessing, the very bread he ate. He
saw Susan's head drooping, in timid and terrified silence, opposite that
lonely man. Had there been heart or hope in him, would he have banished
the harmless girl, to whom Horace did contemptuous justice for once in
his life? And as the young man gazed the fire burned. For a moment he
seemed to see, by a better revelation, all the injury--a thousand times
worse than disinheritance--which his father had done him; and became
aware furiously, without regretting it, by some extraordinary magic of
hatred, of his own unlovely character, the malicious creation of his
father's cruelty. These were dreadful thoughts; but he did not seek to
get rid of them--rather encouraged the baleful imagination, and wrapped
himself in its hostile suggestions. Nature! that was abrogated long ago
by Mr. Scarsdale's own words. They were rivals to the death--nothing but
the bitterest dislike and mutual enmity could exist between that father
and son; and Horace felt himself acquitted from any tie of nature by the
thought.
While he stood thus, watching, Mr. Scarsdale, innocent of any enemy at
the window, put up his hand to his head for a few minutes, as if in
suffering, and then, rising, left the room. When he entered again he
carried in his hand a mahogany box, bound with brass, not unlike a
small desk. Horace, who watched all his proceedings keenly, with excited
attention, saw him take out a vial, hold it up to the light, and then
measure out for himself a minute dose of the medicine it contained. With
eyes that burned through the darkness, Horace watched and noted. The box
was left standing by his father's side on the table--where had he
brought it from? The young man watched and waited, shivering for long
hours, till Mr. Scarsdale's time for retiring came. Then he followed
eagerly with his eyes the ghostly figure which glided out of the room,
with the box under one arm. The light reappeared a few minutes after in
the window of Mr. Scarsdale's bedroom, into the secrets of which he had
no power of spying. Then he wandered away blindly over the invisible
heather, feeling nothing of the pricks that caught him on every side,
insensible to the fresh night breezes blowing about his cheeks,
unthinking where he went. When the morning came he could have fancied
that he had slept there, so profound was his miserable preoccupation.
But he had not slept there. The other man within him had struck out
resolutely across the night, and gained shelter in a roadside
public-house, from whence it was, refreshed and resolute, that he now
came.
That same afternoon Horace once more essayed an entrance at Marchmain.
Peggy received him with a suspicious face, but thrust him into the
kitchen with a haste and force which betrayed to Horace that, as once
before, her master was out, and everything propitious for him. He asked
the question hurriedly.
"What does the like of you want here, Mr. Horry, two days running?" said
the startled woman; "and what's your business if he's out or in? I tauld
ye last time, and ye know what came o't. It's no' your meaning that you
came to see _him_, like a dutiful son?"
"No, Peggy; but only to look for something I want in my old room. I
confess I got frightened yesterday," said Horace, with a grim, and
somewhat tremulous smile. "I had no desire to meet him, fierce and
furious as he used to be, or polite, which is worse. I ran away: but
to-day you will surely let me go upstairs?"
"And what for," said Peggy, steadily fixing her eyes on his face, "did
you throw _yon_ napkin in the fire?"
Horace grew pale in spite of himself. "A napkin? Did I throw it in the
fire? I was not aware of it," he said, with all the boldness he could
muster. "However, let me go upstairs."
Peggy looked at him, and shook her head. "Ye'll be a-going and rummaging
again," she said, with a voice of grieved uncomprehension. She had
brought him up, and her heart warmed to him, unlovable as he was.
"I tell you I have found out everything. What should I rummage for?--and
a great deal of good it is to me, now I know all," said Horace, in a
tone more natural than Peggy had yet heard from his lips. "Go you and
watch, Peggy, and let me know when my father appears."
Peggy followed him mournfully. Still, shaking her head, she went in
after him with suspicion, and looked round the bare walls of his old
room. "I'm bound to say I can see nowght to look for here," said Peggy,
sharply; but, after another inspection, she went reluctantly up to her
watch-tower--the store-room--to look for her master's approach. Whenever
she was gone, Horace stole noiselessly as a ghost into his father's
apartment. It was not a murderous light that shone from the May skies
into that room, the most comfortable in the house--but the young felon
had night and darkness in his face. The box stood on the dressing-table,
beside that chair of Mr. Scarsdale's, in which some malicious ghost
might have sat, it looked so occupied and observant. With a trembling
yet rapid hand, Horace opened the box, and took out of it the little
phial which he had seen his father use. It was carefully closed, with a
piece of pink leather tied over the cork, and a very peculiar knot,
which Horace, with his excited fingers, found great difficulty in
opening. When he had succeeded, he poured out its contents, and replaced
them from another of his own sealed packets. He did this mechanically
and methodically, but with the cold dew bursting on his face, and his
fingers, in their haste and tremble, fumbling over the knot, which he
did not seem able to tie as it was before. When he had replaced it, and
closed the box, he stood, trembling and miserable, looking at it. He
could not tell whether he had placed the phial exactly as it was before:
the box now would not close perfectly, and he could not remember, with
his scared and desperate wits, whether it had been so when he opened it.
At last, impatient, he put down the lid violently, with a jar which
startled him into a fever of apprehension. Somebody must have heard
it!--it went through his own head and heart with a thrill of terror.
Then he skulked out, with that stealthy horror in his face which should
henceforward be the prevailing sentiment of Horace Scarsdale's unhappy
countenance. Twice a parricide!--without calling Peggy from her watch,
or daring to look in her face, he stole out the back-way from his
father's house, leaving Death and Murder there!
A week after, Mr. Pouncet's confidential clerk returned to Kenlisle. He
was restless, and deadly pale, and went to his desk to look for letters
with a horrible anxiety. There were no letters there; and he turned out
again with a breathless flutter of excitement to see his principal, and
speak as he best could about business. But neither Mr. Pouncet nor any
other person had heard anything from Marchmain, and Horace went out
again in a miserable fever, which all his efforts could not quite
conceal. He had laid the train; but heaven knows how long it might
smoulder before the spark was set to that thread of death!