The Moment That Did Not Count

And that is really all the story save for the moment Jurgen paused

on his way home. For Koshchei (if it, indeed, was Koshchei) had

quitted Jurgen just as they approached Bellegarde: and as the

pawnbroker walked on alone in the pleasant April evening one called

to him from the terrace. Even in the dusk he knew this was the

Countess Dorothy.

"May I speak with you a moment?" says she.

"Very willingly, madame." And Jurgen ascended from the highway to

the terrace.

"I thought it would be near your supper hour. So I was waiting here

until you passed. You conceive, it is not quite convenient for me to

seek you out at the shop."

"Why, no, madame. There is a prejudice," said Jurgen, soberly. And

he waited.

He saw that Madame Dorothy was perfectly composed, yet anxious to

speed the affair. "You must know," said she, "that my husband's

birthday approaches, and I wish to surprise him with a gift. It is

therefore necessary that I raise some money without troubling him.

How much--abominable usurer!--could you advance me upon this

necklace?"

Jurgen turned it in his hand. It was a handsome piece of jewelry,

familiar to him as formerly the property of Heitman Michael's

mother. Jurgen named a sum.

"But that," the Countess says, "is not a fraction of its worth!"

"Times are very hard, madame. Of course, if you cared to sell

outright I could deal more generously."

"Old monster, I could not do that. It would not be convenient." She

hesitated here. "It would not be explicable."

"As to that, madame, I could make you an imitation in paste which

nobody could distinguish from the original, I can amply understand

that you desire to veil from your husband any sacrifices that are

entailed by your affection."

"It is my affection for him," said the Countess quickly.

"I alluded to your affection for him," said Jurgen--"naturally."

Then Countess Dorothy named a price for the necklace. "For it is

necessary I have that much, and not a penny less." And Jurgen shook

his head dubiously, and vowed that ladies were unconscionable

bargainers: but Jurgen agreed to what she asked, because the

necklace was worth almost as much again. Then Jurgen suggested that

the business could be most conveniently concluded through an

emissary.

"If Messire de Nérac, for example, could have matters explained to

him, and could manage to visit me tomorrow, I am sure we could carry

through this amiable imposture without any annoyance whatever to

Heitman Michael," says Jurgen, smoothly.

"Nérac will come then," says the Countess. "And you may give him the

money, precisely as though it were for him."

"But certainly, madame. A very estimable young nobleman, that! and

it is a pity his debts are so large. I heard that he had lost

heavily at dice within the last month; and I grieved, madame."

"He has promised me when these debts are settled to play no

more--But again what am I saying! I mean, Master Inquisitive, that I

take considerable interest in the welfare of Messire de Nérac: and

so I have sometimes chided him on his wild courses. And that is all

I mean."

"Precisely, madame. And so Messire de Nérac will come to me to-morrow

for the money: and there is no more to say."

Jurgen paused. The moon was risen now. These two sat together upon a

bench of carved stone near the balustrade: and before them, upon the

other side of the highway, were luminous valleys and tree-tops.

Fleetingly Jurgen recollected the boy and girl who had once sat in

this place, and had talked of all the splendid things which Jurgen

was to do, and of the happy life that was to be theirs together.

Then he regarded the composed and handsome woman beside him, and he

considered that the money to pay her latest lover's debts had been

assured with a suitable respect for appearances.

"Come, but this is a gallant lady, who would defy the almanac,"

reflected Jurgen. "Even so, thirty-eight is an undeniable and

somewhat autumnal figure, and I suspect young Nérac is bleeding

his elderly mistress. Well, but at his age nobody has a conscience.

Yes, and Madame Dorothy is handsome still; and still my pulse is

playing me queer tricks, because she is near me, and my voice has

not the intonation I intend, because she is near me; and still I am

three-quarters in love with her. Yes, in the light of such cursed

folly as even now possesses me, I have good reason to give thanks

for the regained infirmities of age. Yet living seems to me a

wasteful and inequitable process, for this is a poor outcome for

the boy and girl that I remember. And weighing this outcome, I am

tempted to weep and to talk romantically, even now."

But he did not. For really, weeping was not requisite. Jurgen was

making his fair profit out of the Countess's folly, and it was

merely his duty to see that this little business transaction was

managed without any scandal.

"So there is nothing more to say," observed Jurgen, as he rose in

the moonlight, "save that I shall always be delighted to serve you,

madame, and I may reasonably boast that I have earned a reputation

for fair dealing."

And he thought: "In effect, since certainly as she grows older she

will need yet more money for her lovers, I am offering to pimp for

her." Then Jurgen shrugged. "That is one side of the affair. The

other is that I transact my legitimate business,--I, who am that

which the years have made of me."

Thus it was that Jurgen quitted the Countess Dorothy, whom, as you

have heard, this pawnbroker had loved in his first youth under the

name of Heart's Desire; and whom in the youth that was loaned him by

Mother Sereda he had loved as Queen Helen, the delight of gods and

men. For Jurgen was quitting Madame Dorothy after the simplest of

business transactions, which consumed only a moment, and did not

actually count one way or the other.

And after this moment which did not count, the pawnbroker resumed

his journey, and so came presently to his home. He peeped through

the window. And there in a snug room, with supper laid, sat Dame

Lisa about some sewing, and evidently in a quite amiable frame of

mind.

Then terror smote the Jurgen who had faced sorcerers and gods and

devils intrepidly. "For I forgot about the butter!"

But immediately afterward he recollected that, now, not even what

Lisa had said to him in the cave was real. Neither he nor Lisa, now,

had ever been in the cave, and probably there was no longer any such

place, and now there never had been any such place. It was rather

confusing.

"Ah, but I must remember carefully," said Jurgen, "that I have not

seen Lisa since breakfast, this morning. Nothing whatever has

happened. There has been no requirement laid upon me, after all, to

do the manly thing. So I retain my wife, such as she is, poor dear!

I retain my home. I retain my shop and a fair line of business. Yes,

Koshchei--if it was really Koshchei--has dealt with me very justly.

And probably his methods are everything they should be; certainly I

cannot go so far as to say that they are wrong: but still, at the

same time--!"

Then Jurgen sighed, and entered his snug home. Thus it was in the

old days.

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