I seen him. I cursed him.

Hugh Tomlinson.

Simeon made no reference to the visit or the curse, and John waited,

wondering a little whether it might be possible, even now, to undo the

consequences of the old man’s folly.

That there was any connection between Simeon’s growing weakness and

the old Scotchman’s visit did not occur to him. There were difficulties

enough in the office to account for it without going outside. As the

days went by and he watched the worn face, he grew more anxious. A look

haunted the eyes--something almost crafty--they gazed at the simplest

thing as if unseen terror lurked in it; and he started at any sudden

noise as one pursued.... When John, leaning across the desk, pushed a

book to the floor, he leaped to his feet, his hand upraised to strike,

his lip drawn back from his teeth in quick rage.

That night John made a midnight journey, traveling all night and coming

back at dawn. He had been to consult Dr. Blake, the great specialist,

laying the case before him--withholding only the name of the man whose

health was in question.

The physician had listened, his head a little bent, his eyes looking out

as if seeing the man whom John described. “It’s the same story--I hear

it every day,” he said. “I call it Ameri-canitis--It does n’t make much

difference what you call it.... He must stop work--at once.”

“He won’t do it,” said John as promptly.

The physician looked at him keenly. “I suppose not--one of the symptoms.

You have influence with him--?”

John shook his head slowly. “Not enough for that. I might get him to do

other things, perhaps.”

The physician nodded.

“He would take medicine?”

John smiled at the picture.

“Perhaps.” He waited a little. “I ’m afraid he ’s losing his mind,” he

said. “That’s really what I want to know--I don’t dare let him go on.”

The physician assented. “If I could see him ten minutes, I could tell,

perhaps--more. But not in the dark, like this. You ask too much,” he

said with a smile.

John gave a quick sigh. “He will never come to you,” he said.

The physician had drawn a paper toward him and was writing on it. “I can

give certain general directions. If they don’t help, he _must_ come.”

John waited while the pen scratched on. “These baths,” said the

physician, “are good. They may help.”

John’s eyes grew dubious--a little wide with anxiety.

“These other things,” went on the physician, “are for your discretion.

He ’s probably under-nourished. Raw eggs will give him what he

needs--tax him least.”

“How many?” asked John.

“All you can get into him.”

The young man’s eyes grew larger--at the way before him....

“He does n’t half breathe, I suppose?”

“I--I don’t know,” said John.

“Watch him. Take him in hand. He must breathe deep--all the time, night

and day. Here, I will show you.” He put his hand on the young man’s

chest. “Go on--I ’ll tell you when to stop--” He held the hand in place

a few minutes, then he withdrew it with a smile. “Tell him to breathe

like that,” he said quietly. “He ’ll get well then.”

“Don’t everybody breathe that way?” asked the youth helplessly.

The physician laughed out. “If they did, they would n’t be nervous

wrecks.” He handed him the list of instructions. “He must be spared any

nervous worry, of course. That is the most important of all. Good-by. If

he gets unmanageable, send him to me.”

“I wish I could,” said John with a little smile that was half a frown.

He was not appalled at the details of nursing thrust upon him. He had

cared for his mother too long and skilfully to be worried by these. But

Simeon--yielding gracefully to being dieted--told what to eat and how to

breathe and little things like that--!

During the home journey he devoted himself to planning ambushes for

Simeon’s obstinacy; and when, after a vigorous bath, he arrived at the

office, he was equipped with a dozen “strictly fresh” eggs in a paper

bag; a small egg-beater in one pocket and a flask of brandy in the

other. This last was a little addition of John’s own--prompted by

wisdom, and a knowledge of Simeon. He put the eggs carefully on a high

shelf. It would not do to rouse untimely prejudice against them by

untoward accidents. The egg-beater and brandy he concealed skilfully

behind a row of ledgers. When Simeon entered a little later, irritable

and suspicious, there was no sign that the office was to be turned into

a kind of fresh air hospital.

The windows were open and a little breeze came in. John, refreshed by

his bath, was hard at work, the broad, phlegmatic back a kind of huge

mountain of strength. The little man threw himself into his chair with

a grunt. He would rest more looking at that back than he could in a bed

all night, tossing and turning through the hours.

Schemes had haunted him--visions for the road--New tracks to be run--new

regulations. Investments along the route, a little here and a little

there, not for the corporation, but to build up the country--capital

to help out feeble enterprises. And athwart the visions ran black

shadows--disturbing dreams of the C., B. and L., always waiting, weapon

in hand, to spring upon him.... If only they would fight fair! He had

tossed restlessly, seeking a cool place for his tired head. There was no

time to spend in fighting.--So much to be done--his whole life-work to

build anew.... Then he had fallen again to staring at the vision as it

flared across the night, the vision of light and wonder.... When morning

came, he had slept perhaps an hour..

But here, in the cool office, he could rest. The boy came and went with

quiet step, his hand everywhere, yet without hurry, and his thought

running always ahead of Simeon’s, smoothing the way.

The president of the road had intended to rest, but before he knew it,

he was hurrying feverishly to finish a letter for the ten o’clock mail.

His head throbbed and his hand, as it dipped the pen in the ink, shook

quick spatters across the paper. He swore under his breath, dabbing the

blotter here and there.... There was a gentle shiver of egg shell, a

little whirring sound that buzzed, and then, upon the air of the room,

a subtle, pervasive odor. Simeon raised his head and sniffed. Then he

looked around. The boy was at his elbow.

“You’d better take this, sir,” he said casually. He set it down beside

him, picked up a pile of papers and returned to his own desk.

Simeon dropped an eye to the glass of yellow foam. He looked hastily

away. He particularly and fervently hated an egg--and an egg that

foamed--“Bah!” He wrote savagely, the gentle odor stealing up wooingly,

appealingly to his nostrils. He moved restlessly in his chair, throwing

back his head, as if to shake it off. Then his hand reached out

slowly--shook a little--and closed upon it.

John, with his back to him, went on slowly sorting papers. When he

looked around, the glass, with its little flecks of foam, stood empty

and Simeon was writing fiercely. The boy took the glass to the faucet

and washed it, humming a little, gentle tune to himself as the water

ran. The first step in a long and difficult way had been taken.

But no one knew better than John that it was only a first step and that

the road ahead was strewn with difficulties.... It was at the seventh

egg that Simeon rebelled openly, and John was forced to retire upon

six-thankful to have achieved as much as this, and thankful to have

discovered the limit. “As many as you can get into him,” the physician

had said. John had not known what this number might be, until the day of

the explosion--when the seventh egg was proffered and rejected.

He had swept up the fragments of glass and repaired damages with

grateful heart.... Six a day was the limit. But there ought to be a

great deal of nourishment in six eggs.

That there was, Simeon’s conduct proved. He rose to a kind of new,

fierce strength that exhausted itself each day.

“He ’s just eggs!” thought the youth, watching him gloomily. “He has n’t

gained an inch. It all goes into work.” And he set himself anew to spare

the nervous, driven frame.

There were times when he hoped, for a little, that a permanent gain had

been made. But an emergency would arise and three days would be used up

in one blaze of wrath.

The C., B. and L. was tireless in its attacks, goading him on, nagging

him--now here, now there--till he shook his nervous fists, palpitating,

in air.

“They’ve held back those machines on purpose,” he said, one morning,

late in September.

“Those machines” were a consignment of harvesters, sidetracked somewhere

along the C., B. and L. and not to be located. The “B. and Q.” had been

telegraphing frantically for weeks--only to receive cool and regretful

apologies. Farmers were besieging the road. A whole crop depended on the

issue.

Simeon tossed the last telegram to John with a grunt. “We ’ll have to

give it up,” he said grimly, “it’s too late. But they shall pay for

it--if there is a law in the land, they shall make it good--every cent.

Think of that crop--wasted for deviltry!” He groaned suddenly and the

hand resting on the desk trembled heavily.

“You could n’t have helped it, sir,” said John. “They would have done

it, anyway, and you’ve made them trouble enough.”

“I don’t know--I don’t know.” He turned his head restlessly, as if

pursued. “I think any other man would have made ’em.”

The young man laughed out. “They ’re afraid of you, sir--for their life!

You ’ve _made_ the ’R. and Q.’”

The man gulped a little. He glanced suspiciously at the door. “I’ve

ruined it, I think,” he said slowly. “_There ’s a curse on everything I

touch!_”

“Nonsense! Look at _me!_” The young man threw back his head, choosing

the first words at hand to banish the look in Simeon’s face. It was this

look--the shadow haunting the eyes, that troubled him. Sometimes when he

turned and caught it, his own heart seemed suddenly to stop its beat, at

what it saw there. “Look at me!” he said laughing. “You have n’t ruined

_me!_”

The man looked at him--a long, slow, hopeless look. Then he shook his

head. “It’s no use, John. I’m broken--! The road has used all of me--”

He stopped suddenly, his gaze fixed on the floor.... A memory rang in

his ear. The high Scotch voice thrilled through it. “They’ve not gi’e

their strength to the road, as I have. The road’s had all o’ me.”

That night John visited Dr. Blake again.

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