CHAPTER XVIII

Dick Sheridan was conscious of a curious impression of elation while

lying awake recalling the somewhat exciting incident in which he had

played an important part. And when he thought over the details of the

occurrence, he felt glad that he was elated. He did himself the justice

to refrain from attributing his elation solely to the fact of his

having put some rascals to flight, and his having followed them with a

naked sword, anxious to run them through. Of course, he did not deny

that he found pleasure in the reflection that he had made the rascals

fly, and he was quite ready to allow that this pleasure was tinged with

regret that he had not been able to get the point of his weapon in

between some of their ribs. At the same time, however, he knew that he

was sincerely glad that he had been able to save the life of the man

who was taking Betsy Linley out of his life.

She had told him, when her hand was in his, that the joy of life was

not in living for oneself, but in bringing happiness to others; and he

had gone forth from her presence feeling that she had spoken the truth.

It was a truth that he had often heard before from the lips of teachers

of the elements of Christianity; but its enunciation had produced no

greater impression on him than the words of such teachers usually do

upon their hearers. All his thoughts had been for himself: seeking his

own pleasure--seeking to cut a good figure before the eyes of the

people who were around him. He had even gone to pay his visit to her

in the same spirit. He was anxious to cut the figure of a cynical man

of the world in her presence, and to show her that he was in no way

touched by the announcement that she had given her promise to marry Mr.

Long.

But in her presence he felt all the sweet influence of her nature; it

surrounded him as the scent of a rose-garden surrounds one who comes

among the flowers in June; he breathed it as one breathes the scent

of the roses. The fragrance of her presence permeated his life. Her

spirit became part of his spirit, and, sitting on the hill-slope, with

the mystery of the moonlight about him, he felt himself to be a new

man. The reality of the change that had come to him was soon put to

the test. The chance had been given to him of saving the life of the

man who was taking Betsy from him, and he had welcomed that chance. To

be sure, when he had run upon the men with his naked sword, he had not

known who it was that he was rescuing from his assailants; but he knew

now, and he felt that the reflection that he had saved his life for

Betsy was the greatest happiness he had ever known.

What would have happened if he had held back his hand at that time?

That question he asked of himself, and he had no difficulty in

answering it. He knew that, unless some miracle had happened, nothing

could have saved Mr. Long from being murdered. And in that case Betsy

would be freed from the obligation which she had accepted.

He knew all this, and he thanked Heaven in all sincerity that he had

been able to save the life of the man who stood between him and Betsy

Linley. He shuddered at the thought of the bare possibility of his

having failed to hear Mr. Long's cries for help; and he felt rejoiced

at the thought that he had done an unusual thing in wearing his sword

when going to pay his visit to Betsy. It was not customary to wear

swords in the afternoon at Bath, though, of course, they were carried

at night. But, when setting out to pay his call, Dick had fastened on

his sword, the fact being--though he tried not to include it in the

sequence of his thoughts while lying awake that night--that he had

meant to accept an invitation to supper and cards at which one of his

fashionable friends had hinted the previous evening. After offering

Betsy his congratulations, and making a few worldly-wise remarks on the

absurdity of marriage, it had been his intention to go to one of the

Assembly Rooms, and thence to the supper-party; and, as an early return

home was not among his calculations, he felt that it would be prudent

to wear his sword.

What a lucky chance it was that he had been so prudent! (He had so

successfully avoided thinking of his unworthy project that he had

come to attribute his carrying of the sword to his own prudence and

forethought.) Without a weapon, he himself, as well as Mr. Long, could

hardly have escaped from the footpads, who were undoubtedly most

desperate ruffians. And then, having settled the matter of his caution

and forethought--two attributes which he had certainly not inherited,

and which he could scarcely regard as inevitable to his nationality

as an Irishman, from whatever source his intentions regarding the

supper-party may have sprung--he went on to think of Mr. Long.

He had never exchanged more than half a dozen words with Mr. Long

during the six months that the latter had been in Bath, and he had

looked on him as quite an old fogey, possessing none of the brilliant

gifts of a man of fashion. None of the _bons mots_ of the dialogues

of scandal which circulated in the Pump-Room in the morning and

in the Assembly Rooms in the evening, having blown about the town

during the day, were attributed to him. None of the dainty plums of

malice--preserved in vinegar, not in sugar--which the ladies with

the rouge and patches passed round in their _bonbonnières_ at the

card-tables, came from him; and therefore Dick had never thought of him

except as a good-natured elderly gentleman. To have a reputation for

good-nature was of itself quite sufficient to exclude any one from the

most fashionable set in Bath.

It was really only when it was announced that he was the successful

suitor for the hand of Miss Linley, that people began to notice Mr.

Long, and then the form that their attention took consisted in their

alluding to him as an old fogey, if not an old fool.

Dick noticed that it was mostly the rejected suitors who so alluded

to him, and he thought that it showed an amazing amount of weakness

on their part: they were simply advertising their own failure--he had

said so to his friend Halhed the previous evening in the Long Room, and

he made up his mind that, whatever might happen and whatever he might

think, he would never betray his own chagrin by calling Mr. Long an old

fool.

Of course he could not but feel that it was an act of folly for a man

turned sixty to make up his mind to marry a beautiful girl not yet

twenty; he thought that he was equal to taking a dispassionate view of

the matter. But he would never be heard alluding to Mr. Long as an old

fool. He himself was not such a young fool as to give himself credit

for any generosity in maintaining an attitude of reticence on this

question; he was only determined not to show the same weakness as his

friends, who acknowledged Mr. Long to be their successful rival.

But now, after recalling the attitude of Mr. Long when recovering from

the effects of the attack made upon him by the three footpads--after

recalling the easy tone of his conversation, and the adroitness

with which he had obtained from Dick a good deal of information

about himself and his prospects, and more particularly his lack of

prospects, Dick came to the conclusion that for the first time in his

life he had been speaking to one who was indeed a man of the world--a

man who understood his fellow men and who could be humorously tolerant

of their weaknesses and their prejudices. He could not but feel,

however, that among the attributes of a man of the world which he

possessed, there was in parts of his conversation a certain element of

the enigmatical. For instance, when almost at the point of parting he

had said---- What were his exact words?

"_The man whom Elizabeth Linley loves is fortunate.... I am wondering

whether that man be you or I._"

Those were his very words, and they had puzzled Dick the moment they

were uttered. They puzzled him much more now that he recalled them.

They were certainly very strange words for such a man as Mr. Long

to say at such a time as he had said them. Did they mean that he

questioned whether Betsy loved him or Dick; or did he merely mean that

he was uncertain whether he or Dick was the more fortunate in regard to

some matter quite apart from the love of Elizabeth Linley--say, in the

matter of age, or in respect of the adventure in which they had both

been concerned? Did he mean that it was an open question whether the

man who saves another man's life or the one whose life has been saved

is the more fortunate?

To be sure, his remark about the good-fortune of a man was connected

solely with the question of the love of Elizabeth Linley, so that

his saying that he wondered whether the fortunate man was himself

or Dick, seemed to be simply equivalent to saying that he wondered

whether Elizabeth Linley loved himself, whom she had promised to

marry, or Dick, who was no more to her than other men. Still, it

might be susceptible of a different meaning; for instance.... Great

heavens! Could it be that Mr. Long was treating thus lightly the bare

possibility that the girl whom he hoped to marry had given all her

love to another man?

He could not believe this of such a man as Mr. Long. No; Dick felt

that his ear had been over-sensitive. He had allowed himself to be led

into a tortuous course of thought, only because Mr. Long had made a

pause of perhaps two seconds instead of four between his sentences. It

would, he felt, be ridiculous for him to base a theory upon so shallow

a foundation. It would be absurd for him to assume that Mr. Long meant

to suggest anything more than a casual reflection on a topic worn

threadbare in the pulpit--namely, the uncertainty of human happiness.

It was, however, one thing to assure himself that it would be

unreasonable to suppose that Mr. Long meant to suggest anything but

what was trite, but quite another to convince himself that his ear

had played him false; and this was how it came about that he had the

first sleepless night of his life, and that he startled his sisters by

coming down in good time to breakfast. His appearance was, in fact,

rather embarrassing to the housekeeper for the week: Alicia had heard

him enter the house at so late an hour that she took it for granted

he would not come down to breakfast before noon, and had given her

instructions to the cook on this basis. Dick had to face an empty plate

until his fish was made ready.

He inquired for his brother--was he the late one this morning?

"What! did not Charles tell you that he meant to go to the country?"

asked Alicia.

"Not he," replied Dick. "The country? Why should he go to the country

at this time?"

"Why, he said that you advised him to do so," cried Elizabeth. "You

know what is the only reason he could have for flying from Bath just

now. Poor Charlie! he feels that Betsy was not considerate toward him."

Dick laughed. He had quite forgotten that he had counselled his brother

to go away for a time. He had really been more in jest than in earnest

in the matter; but Charles had taken him very seriously, and had gone

off without an hour's delay to a farmhouse eight miles out of Bath,

on the Wells road. He was not slow to perceive what Dick had hinted

at--that a gratifying degree of prominence might be given to his name

if the fact became well known that he had been so greatly overcome by

the news of Miss Linley's having promised to marry another man as to

make it impossible for him to continue living in the same town with her.

"Poor Charlie!" said the elder Miss Sheridan in a tone that was meant

as a reproof to Dick for his levity--"poor Charlie! But we can keep the

matter a secret; we need not add to his humiliation, Dick, by talking

of his having gone away on account of Betsy's treatment of him."

Dick laughed more heartily still.

"My dear girl," he cried, "your suggestion is well meant, but poor

Charlie would not thank you if you were to act on it. Poor Charlie

knows perfectly well that he has now got a chance of attaining such

fame as may never come to him again so long as he lives. When the

fickle Phyllis rejects Strephon's advances and accepts those of Damon,

the Pastoral that commemorates the event confers immortality upon

Strephon the rejected, just as surely as if he had been the fortunate

lover. I can assure you that Bath, and Oxford too, I doubt not, are

just now crowded with Strephons anxious to be handed down to posterity

as the rejected swains. Take my word for it, poor Charlie would only

be chagrined if he thought that no notice whatever would be taken of

his forlorn condition as the rejected swain. Good heavens! wait until

Friday comes, and you scan the Poet's Corner of the _Advertiser_; if

you do not find poor Charlie making a bid for the immortality of the

doleful Strephon, I am greatly mistaken."

The girls stared at him.

"You are wrong--quite wrong, Dick," cried the elder. "Yes, you are.

Charlie begged of us to keep his departure a secret. He said he would

not have it known for the world."

Dick did not laugh again: on the contrary, he became solemn. He felt

that it would be heartless on his part to make the attempt to undermine

the simplicity of his sisters. But the fact that Charlie had taken such

elaborate precautions to give publicity to the news of his departure

caused Dick to have a higher opinion than he had up to that moment

possessed of his brother's knowledge of human nature.

And then, finding that Dick was silent--penitentially silent--the two

girls thought that the opportunity was a fitting one to give expression

to their views regarding the heartlessness of Betsy and the devotion

of Charlie. They had seen Mr. Long, and were ready to assert that poor

Charlie was quite as good as he was, without being nearly so old; and

Miss Sheridan went so far as to suggest that the family of Sheridan

were fortunate in that they were not called on to welcome Betsy Linley

as a stepmother.

Dick began to think, after this remark, that perhaps he had done his

sisters an injustice in assuming their entire simplicity.

[Illustration: Mrs. Abington was in her chair. [_page 185._]

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