you, agree to stand,--leave the rest to me.”
“You must hate Egerton bitterly,” said Randal; “for I am not vain enough
to think that you thus scheme but from pure love to me.”
“The motives of men are intricate and complicated,” answered Levy, with
unusual seriousness. “It suffices to the wise to profit by the actions,
and leave the motives in shade.”
There was silence for some minutes. Then the two drew closer towards
each other, and began to discuss details in their joint designs.
Randal walked home slowly. It was a cold moonlit night. Young idlers
of his own years and rank passed him by on their way from the haunts of
social pleasure. They were yet in the first fair holiday of life. Life’s
holiday had gone from him forever. Graver men, in the various callings
of masculine labour--professions, trade, the State--passed him also.
Their steps might be sober, and their faces careworn; but no step had
the furtive stealth of his, no face the same contracted, sinister,
suspicious gloom. Only once, in a lonely thoroughfare, and on the
opposite side of the way, fell a footfall, and glanced an eye, that
seemed to betray a soul in sympathy with Randal Leslie’s.
And Randal, who had heeded none of the other passengers by the way,
as if instinctively, took note of this one. His nerves crisped at
the noiseless slide of that form, as it stalked on from lamp to lamp,
keeping pace with his own. He felt a sort of awe, as if he had beheld
the wraith of himself; and even as he glanced suspiciously at the
stranger, the stranger glanced at him. He was inexpressibly relieved
when the figure turned down another street and vanished.
That man was a felon, as yet undetected. Between him and his kind there
stood but a thought,--a veil air-spun, but impassable, as the veil of
the Image at Sais.
And thus moved and thus looked Randal Leslie, a thing of dark and secret
mischief, within the pale of the law, but equally removed from man by
the vague consciousness that at his heart lay that which the eyes of man
would abhor and loathe. Solitary amidst the vast city, and on through
the machinery of Civilization, went the still spirit of Intellectual
Evil.
CHAPTER XI.
Early the next morning Randal received two notes, one from Frank,
written in great agitation, begging Randal to see and propitiate his
father, whom he feared he had grievously offended; and then running off,
rather incoherently, into protestations that his honour as well as his
affections were engaged irrevocably to Beatrice, and that her, at least,
he could never abandon.
And the second note was from the squire himself--short, and far less
cordial than usual--requesting Mr. Leslie to call on him.
Randal dressed in haste, and went first to Limmer’s hotel. He found the
parson with Mr. Hazeldean, and endeavouring in vain to soothe him. The
squire had not slept all night, and his appearance was almost haggard.
“Oho! Mr. young Leslie,” said he, throwing himself back in his chair
as Randal entered, “I thought you were a friend,--I thought you were
Frank’s adviser. Explain, sir! explain!”
“Gently, my dear Mr. Hazeldean,” said the parson. “You do but surprise
and alarm Mr. Leslie. Tell him more distinctly what he has to explain.”
SQUIRE.--“Did you or did you not tell me or Mrs. Hazeldean that Frank
was in love with Violante Rickeybockey?”
RANDAL (as in amaze).--“I! Never, sir! I feared, on the contrary, that
he was somewhat enamoured of a very different person. I hinted at that
possibility. I could not do more, for I did not know how far Frank’s
affections were seriously engaged. And indeed, sir, Mrs. Hazeldean,
though not encouraging the idea that your son could marry a foreigner
and a Roman Catholic, did not appear to consider such objections
insuperable, if Frank’s happiness were really at stake.”
Here the poor squire gave way to a burst of passion, that involved
in one tempest Frank, Randal, Harry herself, and the whole race of
foreigners, Roman Catholics, and women. While the squire was still
incapable of hearing reason, the parson, taking aside Randal, convinced
himself that the whole affair, so far as Randal was concerned, had its
origin in a very natural mistake; and that while that young gentleman
had been hinting at Beatrice, Mrs. Hazeldean had been thinking of
Violante. With considerable difficulty he succeeded in conveying this
explanation to the squire, and somewhat appeasing his wrath against
Randal. And the Dissimulator, seizing his occasion, then expressed so
much grief and astonishment at learning that matters had gone as far as
the parson informed him,--that Frank had actually proposed to Beatrice,
been accepted, and engaged himself, before even communicating with his
father; he declared so earnestly, that he could never conjecture such
evil, that he had had Frank’s positive promise to take no step without
the sanction of his parents; he professed such sympathy with the
squire’s wounded feelings, and such regret at Frank’s involvement, that
Mr. Hazeldean at last yielded up his honest heart to his consoler,
and griping Randal’s hand, said, “Well, well, I wronged you; beg your
pardon. What now is to be done?”
“Why, you cannot consent to this marriage,--impossible!” replied Randal;
“and we must hope, therefore, to influence Frank by his sense of duty.”
“That’s it,” said the squire; “for I’ll not give way. Pretty pass things
have come to, indeed! A widow, too, I hear. Artful jade! thought, no
doubt, to catch a Hazeldean of Hazeldean. My estates go to an outlandish
Papistical set of mongrel brats! No, no, never!”
“But,” said the parson, mildly, “perhaps we may be unjustly prejudiced
against this lady. We should have consented to Violante; why not to her?
She is of good family?”
“Certainly,” said Randal.
“And good character?”
Randal shook his head, and sighed. The squire caught him roughly by the
arm--“Answer the parson!” cried he, vehemently.
“Indeed, sir, I cannot speak disrespectfully of the character of a
woman,--who may, too, become Frank’s wife; and the world is ill-natured
and not to be believed. But you can judge for yourself, my dear Mr.
Hazeldean. Ask your brother whether Madame di Negra is one whom he would
advise his nephew to marry.”
“My brother!” exclaimed the squire, furiously. “Consult my distant
brother on the affairs of my own son?”
“He is a man of the world,” put in Randal.
“And of feeling and honour,” said the parson; “and, perhaps, through
him, we may be enabled to enlighten Frank, and save him from what
appears to be the snare of an artful woman.”
“Meanwhile,” said Randal, “I will seek Frank, and do my best with him.
Let me go now,--I will return in an hour or so.”
“I will accompany you,” said the parson.
“Nay, pardon me, but I think we two young men can talk more openly
without a third person, even so wise and kind as you.”
“Let Randal go,” growled the squire. And Randal went. He spent some
time with Frank, and the reader will easily divine how that time was
employed. As he left Frank’s lodgings, he found himself suddenly seized
by the squire himself.
“I was too impatient to stay at home and listen to the parson’s
prosing,” said Mr. Hazeldean, nervously. “I have shaken Dale off. Tell
me what has passed. Oh, don’t fear,--I’m a man, and can bear the worst.”
Randal drew the squire’s arm within his, and led him into the adjacent
park.
“My dear sir,” said he, sorrowfully, “this is very confidential what
I am about to say. I must repeat it to you, because, without such
confidence, I see not how to advise you on the proper course to take.
But if I betray Frank, it is for his good, and to his own father;--only
do not tell him. He would never forgive me; it would forever destroy my
influence over him.”
“Go on, go on,” gasped the squire; “speak out. I’ll never tell the
ungrateful boy that I learned his secrets from another.”
“Then,” said Randal, “the secret of his entanglement with Madame di
Negra is simply this: he found her in debt--nay, on the point of being
arrested--”
“Debt! arrested! Jezebel!”
“And in paying the debt himself, and saving her from arrest, he
conferred on her the obligation which no woman of honour could accept
save from an affianced husband. Poor Frank!--if sadly taken in, still we
must pity and forgive him!”
Suddenly, to Randal’s great surprise, the squire’s whole face brightened
up.
“I see, I see!” he exclaimed, slapping his thigh. “I have it, I have
it! ‘T is an affair of money! I can buy her off. If she took money from
him--the mercenary, painted baggage I--why, then, she’ll take it from
me. I don’t care what if costs--half my fortune--all! I’d be content
never to see Hazeldean Hall again, if I could save my son, my own son,
from disgrace and misery; for miserable he will be, when he knows he has
broken my heart and his mother’s. And for a creature like that! My boy,
a thousand hearty thanks to you. Where does the wench live? I’ll go
to her at once.” And as he spoke, the squire actually pulled out his
pocketbook, and began turning over and counting the bank-notes in it.
Randal at first tried to combat this bold resolution on the part of the
squire; but Mr. Hazeldean had seized on it with all the obstinacy of his
straightforward English mind. He cut Randal’s persuasive eloquence off
in the midst.
“Don’t waste your breath! I’ve settled it; and if you don’t tell me
where she lives, ‘t is easily found out, I suppose.”
Randal mused a moment. “After all,” thought he, “why not? He will be
sure so to speak as to enlist her pride against himself, and to irritate
Frank to the utmost. Let him go.”
Accordingly he gave the information required; and, insisting with great
earnestness on the squire’s promise not to mention to Madame di Negra
his knowledge of Frank’s pecuniary aid (for that would betray Randal
as the informant); and satisfying himself as he best might with the
squire’s prompt assurance, “that he knew how to settle matters, without
saying why or wherefore, as long as he opened his purse wide enough,”
he accompanied Mr. Hazeldean back into the streets, and there left
him,--fixing an hour in the evening for an interview at Limmer’s,
and hinting that it would be best to have that interview without the
presence of the parson.
“Excellent good man,” said Randal, “but not with sufficient knowledge of
the world for affairs of this kind, which you understand so well.”
“I should think so,” quoth the squire, who had quite recovered his
good-humour. “And the parson is as soft as buttermilk. We must be firm
here,--firm, sir.” And the squire struck the end of his stick on the
pavement, nodded to Randal, and went on to May Fair as sturdily and as
confidently as if to purchase a prize cow at a cattle-show.
CHAPTER XII.
“Bring the light nearer,” said John Burley,--“nearer still.”
Leonard obeyed, and placed the candle on a little table by the sick
man’s bedside.
Burley’s mind was partially wandering; but there was method in his
madness. Horace Walpole said that “his stomach would survive all the
rest of him.” That which in Burley survived the last was his quaint,
wild genius. He looked wistfully at the still flame of the candle: “It
lives ever in the air!” said he.
“What lives ever?”
Burley’s voice swelled, “Light!” He turned from Leonard, and
again contemplated the little flame. “In the fixed star, in the
Will-o’-the-wisp, in the great sun that illumines half a world, or the
farthing rushlight by which the ragged student strains his eyes,--still
the same flower of the elements! Light in the universe, thought in
the soul--Ay, ay, go on with the simile. My head swims. Extinguish the
light! You cannot; fool, it vanishes from your eye, but it is still in
the space. Worlds must perish, suns shrivel up, matter and spirit both
fall into nothingness, before the combinations whose union makes that
little flame which the breath of a babe can restore to darkness,
shall lose the power to form themselves into light once more. Lose the
power!--no, the necessity: it is the one Must in creation. Ay, ay, very
dark riddles grow clear now,--now when I could not cast up an addition
sum in the baker’s bill! What wise man denied that two and two made
four? Do they not make four? I can’t answer him. But I could answer a
question that some wise men have contrived to make much knottier.” He
smiled softly, and turned his face for some minutes to the wall.
This was the second night on which Leonard had watched by his bedside,
and Burley’s state had grown rapidly worse. He could not last many days,
perhaps many hours. But he had evinced an emotion beyond mere delight
at seeing Leonard again. He had since then been calmer, more himself. “I
feared I might have ruined you by my bad example,” he said, with a touch
of humour that became pathos as he added, “That idea preyed on me.”
“No, no; you did me great good.”
“Say that,--say it often,” said Burley, earnestly; “it makes my heart
feel so light.”
He had listened to Leonard’s story with deep interest, and was fond
of talking to him of little Helen. He detected the secret at the young
man’s heart, and cheered the hopes that lay there, amidst fears and
sorrows. Burley never talked seriously of his repentance; it was not in
his nature to talk seriously of the things which he felt solemnly. But
his high animal spirits were quenched with the animal power that fed
them. Now, we go out of our sensual existence only when we are no longer
enthralled by the Present, in which the senses have their realm. The
sensual being vanishes when Ave are in the Past or the Future. The
Present was gone from Burley; he could no more be its slave and its
king.
It was most touching to see how the inner character of this man unfolded
itself, as the leaves of the outer character fell off and withered,--a
character no one would have guessed in him, an inherent refinement that
was almost womanly; and he had all a woman’s abnegation of self. He
took the cares lavished on him so meekly. As the features of the old
man return in the stillness of death to the aspect of youth,--the lines
effaced, the wrinkles gone,--so, in seeing Burley now, you saw what he
had been in his spring of promise. But he himself saw only what he had
failed to be,--powers squandered, life wasted. “I once beheld,” he said,
“a ship in a storm. It was a cloudy, fitful day, and I could see the
ship with all its masts fighting bard for life and for death. Then came
night, dark as pitch, and I could only guess that the ship fought on.
Towards the dawn the stars grew visible, and once more I saw the ship:
it was a wreck,--it went down just as the stars shone forth.”
When he had made that allusion to himself, he sat very still for some
time, then he spread out his wasted hands, and gazed on them, and on
his shrunken limbs. “Good,” said he, laughing low; “these hands were too
large and rude for handling the delicate webs of my own mechanism,
and these strong limbs ran away with me. If I had been a sickly, puny
fellow, perhaps my mind would have had fair play. There was too much of
brute body here! Look at this hand now! You can see the light through
it! Good, good!”
Now, that evening, until he had retired to bed, Burley had been
unusually cheerful, and had talked with much of his old eloquence, if
with little of his old humour. Amongst other matters, he had spoken with
considerable interest of some poems and other papers in manuscript which
had been left in the house by a former lodger, and which, the reader may
remember, Mrs. Goodyer had urged him in vain to read, in his last visit
to her cottage. But then he had her husband Jacob to chat with, and the
spirit bottle to finish, and the wild craving for excitement plucked his
thoughts back to his London revels. Now poor Jacob was dead, and it was
not brandy that the sick man drank from the widow’s cruse; and London
lay afar amidst its fogs, like a world resolved back into nebula. So,
to please his hostess and distract his own solitary thoughts, he had
condescended (just before Leonard found him out) to peruse the memorials
of a life obscure to the world, and new to his own experience of coarse
joys and woes. “I have been making a romance, to amuse myself, from
their contents,” said he. “They maybe of use to you, brother author. I
have told Mrs. Goodyer to place them in your room. Amongst those papers
is a sort of journal,--a woman’s journal; it moved me greatly. A man
gets into another world, strange to him as the orb of Sirius, if he can
transport himself into the centre of a woman’s heart, and see the
life there, so wholly unlike our own. Things of moment to us, to it so
trivial; things trifling to us, to it so vast. There was this journal,
in its dates reminding me of stormy events in my own existence, and
grand doings in the world’s. And those dates there, chronicling but the
mysterious, unrevealed record of some obscure, loving heart! And in
that chronicle, O Sir Poet, there was as much genius, vigour of thought,
vitality of being, poured and wasted, as ever kind friend will say was
lavished on the rude outer world by big John Burley! Genius, genius! are
we all alike, then, save when we leash ourselves to some matter-of-fact
material, and float over the roaring seas on a wooden plank or a herring
tub?” And after he had uttered that cry of a secret anguish, John Burley
had begun to show symptoms of growing fever and disturbed brain; and
when they had got him into bed, he lay there muttering to himself,
until, towards midnight, he had asked Leonard to bring the light nearer
to him.
So now he again was quiet, with his face turned towards the wall; and
Leonard stood by the bedside sorrowfully, and Mrs. Goodyer, who did not
heed Burley’s talk, and thought only of his physical state, was dipping
cloths into iced water to apply to his forehead. But as she approached
with these, and addressed him soothingly, Burley raised himself on his
arm, and waved aside the bandages. “I do not need them,” said he, in a
collected voice. “I am better now. I and that pleasant light understand
one another, and I believe all it tells me. Pooh, pooh, I do not rave.”
He looked so smilingly and so kindly into her face, that the poor woman,
who loved him as her own son, fairly burst into tears. He drew her
towards him, and kissed her forehead.
“Peace, old fool,” said he, fondly. “You shall tell anglers hereafter
how John Burley came to fish for the one-eyed perch which he never
caught; and how, when he gave it up at the last, his baits all gone, and
the line broken amongst the weeds, you comforted the baffled man. There
are many good fellows yet in the world who will like to know that poor
Burley did not die on a dunghill. Kiss me. Come, boy, you too. Now, God
bless you, I should like to sleep.” His cheeks were wet with the tears
of both his listeners, and there was a moisture in his own eyes, which,
nevertheless, beamed bright through the moisture.
He laid himself down again, and the old woman would have withdrawn the
light. He moved uneasily. “Not that,” he murmured,--“light to the last!”
and putting forth his wan hand, he drew aside the curtain so that the
light might fall full on his face.
[Every one remembers that Goethe’s last words are said to have been,
“More Light;” and perhaps what has occurred in the text may be
supposed a plagiarism from those words. But, in fact, nothing is
more common than the craving and demand for light a little before
death. Let any consult his own sad experience in the last moments
of those whose gradual close he has watched and tended. What more
frequent than a prayer to open the shutters and let in the sun?
What complaint more repeated and more touching than “that it is
growing dark”? I once knew a sufferer, who did not then seem in
immediate danger, suddenly order the sick room to be lit up as if
for a gala. When this was told to the physician, he said gravely,
“No worse sign.”]
In a few minutes he was asleep, breathing calmly and regularly as an
infant.
The old woman wiped her eyes, and drew Leonard softly into the adjoining
room, in which a bed had been made up for him. He had not left the house
since he had entered it with Dr. Morgan. “You are young, sir,” said she,
with kindness, “and the young want sleep. Lie down a bit: I will call
you when he wakes.”
“No, I could not sleep,” said Leonard. “I will watch for you.”
The old woman shook her head. “I must see the last of him, sir; but I
know he will be angry when his eyes open on me, for he has grown very
thoughtful of others.”
“Ah, if he had but been, as thoughtful of himself!” murmured Leonard;
and he seated himself by the table, on which, as he leaned his elbow, he
dislodged some papers placed there. They fell to the ground with a dumb,
moaning, sighing sound.--
“What is that?” said he, starting.
The old woman picked up the manuscripts and smoothed them carefully.
“Ah, sir, he bade me place these papers here. He thought they might keep
you from fretting about him, in case you would sit up and wake. And he
had a thought of me, too; for I have so pined to find out the poor young
lady, who left them years ago. She was almost as dear to me as he is;
dearer perhaps until now--when--when I am about to lose him!”
Leonard turned from the papers, without a glance at their contents: they
had no interest for him at such a moment. The hostess went on,
“Perhaps she is gone to heaven before him; she did not look like one
long for this world. She left us so suddenly. Many things of hers
besides these papers are still, here; but I keep them aired and dusted,
and strew lavender over them, in case she ever come for them again.
You never heard tell of her, did you, sir?” she added, with great
simplicity, and dropping a half courtesy.
“Of her--of whom?”
“Did not Mr. John tell you her name--dear, dear; Mrs. Bertram.”
Leonard started; the very name so impressed upon his memory by Harley
L’Estrange!
“Bertram!” he repeated. “Are you sure?”
“Oh, yes, sir! And many years after she had left us, and we had heard no
more of her, there came a packet addressed to her here, from over sea,
sir. We took it in, and kept it, and John would break the seal, to know
if it would tell us anything about her; but it was all in a foreign
language like,--we could not read a word.”
“Have you the packet? Pray show it to me. It may be of the greatest
value. To-morrow will do--I cannot think of that just now. Poor Burley!”
Leonard’s manner indicated that he wished to talk no more, and to be
alone. So Mrs. Goodyer left him, and stole back to Burley’s room on
tiptoe:
The young man remained in deep revery for some moments. “Light,” he
murmured. “How often ‘Light’ is the last word of those round whom the
shades are gathering!” He moved, and straight on his view through the
cottage lattice there streamed light indeed,--not the miserable ray lit
by a human hand, but the still and holy effulgence of a moonlit heaven.
It lay broad upon the humble floors, pierced across the threshold of the
death chamber, and halted clear amidst its shadows.
Leonard stood motionless, his eye following the silvery silent
splendour.
“And,” he said inly--“and does this large erring nature, marred by its
genial faults, this soul which should have filled a land, as yon orb the
room, with a light that linked earth to heaven--does it pass away into
the dark, and leave not a ray behind? Nay, if the elements of light are
ever in the space, and when the flame goes out, return to the vital air,
so thought once kindled lives forever around and about us, a part of our
breathing atmosphere. Many a thinker, many a poet, may yet illumine the
world, from the thoughts which yon genius, that will have no name, gave
forth to wander through air, and recombine again in some new form of
light.”
Thus he went on in vague speculations, seeking, as youth enamoured
of fame seeks too fondly, to prove that mind never works, however
erratically, in vain, and to retain yet, as an influence upon earth,
the soul about to soar far beyond the atmosphere where the elements that
make fame abide. Not thus had the dying man interpreted the endurance of
light and thought.
Suddenly, in the midst of his revery, a loud cry broke on his ear. He
shuddered as he heard, and hastened forebodingly into the adjoining
room. The old woman was kneeling by the bedside, and chafing Burley’s
hand, eagerly looking into his face. A glance sufficed to Leonard. All
was over. Burley had died in sleep,--calmly, and without a groan.
The eyes were half open, with that look of inexpressible softness which
death sometimes leaves; and still they were turned towards the light;
and the light burned clear.
Leonard closed tenderly the heavy lids; and as he covered the face, the
lips smiled a serene farewell.
CHAPTER XIII.
We have seen Squire Hazeldean (proud of the contents of his pocketbook,
and his knowledge of the mercenary nature of foreign women) set off on
his visit to Beatrice di Negra. Randal thus left, musing lone in the
crowded streets, resolved with astute complacency the probable results
of Mr. Hazeldean’s bluff negotiation; and convincing himself that one of
his vistas towards Fortune was becoming more clear and clear, he turned,
with the restless activity of some founder of destined cities in a new
settlement, to lop the boughs that cumbered and obscured the others. For
truly, like a man in a vast Columbian forest, opening entangled space,
now with the ready axe, now with the patient train that kindles the
slower fire, this child of civilized life went toiling on against
surrounding obstacles, resolute to destroy, but ever scheming to
construct. And now Randal has reached Levy’s dainty business-room, and
is buried deep in discussion how to secure to himself, at the expense
of his patron, the representation of Lansmere, and how to complete the
contract which shall reannex to his forlorn inheritance some fragments
of its ancient wealth.
Meanwhile, Chance fought on his side in the boudoir of May Fair. The
squire had found the marchesa at home, briefly introduced himself and
his business, told her she was mistaken if she had fancied she had
taken in a rich heir in his son; that, thank Heaven, he could leave his
estates to his ploughman, should he so please, but that he was willing
to do things liberally; and whatever she thought Frank was worth, he was
very ready to pay for.
At another time Beatrice would perhaps have laughed at this strange
address; or she might, in some prouder moment, have fired up with all
a patrician’s resentment and a woman’s pride; but now her spirit was
crushed, her nerves shattered: the sense of her degraded position, of
her dependence on her brother, combined with her supreme unhappiness at
the loss of those dreams with which Leonard had for a while charmed
her wearied waking life,--all came upon her. She listened; pale and
speechless; and the poor squire thought he was quietly advancing
towards a favourable result, when she suddenly burst into a passion
of hysterical tears; and just at that moment Frank himself entered the
room. At the sight of his father, of Beatrice’s grief, his sense of
filial duty gave way. He was maddened by irritation, by the insult
offered to the woman he loved, which a few trembling words from her
explained to him,--maddened yet more by the fear that the insult had
lost her to him; warm words ensued between son and father, to close with
the peremptory command and vehement threat of the last.
“Come away this instant, sir! Come with me, or before the day is over, I
strike you out of my will!”
The son’s answer was not to his father; he threw himself at Beatrice’s
feet.
“Forgive him; forgive us both--”
“What! you prefer that stranger to me,--to the inheritance of
Hazeldean!” cried the squire, stamping his foot.
“Leave your estates to whom you will; all that I care for in life is
here!”
The squire stood still a moment or so, gazing on his son with a strange
bewildered marvel at the strength of that mystic passion, which none
not labouring under its fearful charm can comprehend, which creates the
sudden idol that no reason justifies, and sacrifices to its fatal shrine
alike the Past and the Future. Not trusting himself to speak, the father
drew his hand across his eyes, and dashed away the bitter tear
that sprang from a swelling and indignant heart; then he uttered an
inarticulate sound, and, finding his voice gone, moved away to the door,
and left the house.
He walked through the streets, bearing his head very erect, as a proud
man does when deeply wounded, and striving to shake off some affection
that he deems a weakness; and his trembling nervous fingers fumbled at
the button of his coat, trying to tighten the garment across his chest,
as if to confirm a resolution that still sought to struggle out of the
revolting heart.
Thus he went on, and the reader, perhaps, will wonder whither; and the
wonder may not lessen when he finds the squire come to a dead pause in
Grosvenor Square, and at the portico of his “distant brother’s” stately
house.
At the squire’s brief inquiry whether Mr. Egerton was at home, the
porter summoned the groom of the chambers; and the groom of the
chambers, seeing a stranger, doubted whether his master was not engaged,
but would take in the stranger’s card and see.
“Ay, ay,” muttered the squire, “this is true relationship!--my child
prefers a stranger to me; why should I complain that I am a stranger in
a brother’s house? Sir,” added the squire aloud, and very meekly--“sir,
please to say to your master that I am William Hazeldean.”
The servant bowed low, and without another word conducted the visitor
into the statesman’s library, and announcing Mr. Hazeldean, closed the
door.
Audley was seated at his desk, the grim iron boxes still at his feet,
but they were now closed and locked. And the ex-minister was no longer
looking over official documents; letters spread open before him of far
different nature; in his hand there lay a long lock of fair silken hair,
on which his eyes were fixed sadly and intently. He started at the sound
of his visitor’s name, and the tread of the squire’s stalwart footstep;
and mechanically thrust into his bosom the relic of younger and warmer
years, keeping his hand to his heart, which beat loud with disease under
the light pressure of that golden hair.
The two brothers stood on the great man’s lonely hearth, facing each
other in silence, and noting unconsciously the change made in each
during the long years in which they had never met.
The squire, with his portly size, his hardy sunburned cheeks, the
partial baldness of his unfurrowed open forehead, looked his full
age,--deep into middle life. Unmistakably he seemed the pater familias,
the husband and the father, the man of social domestic ties. But about
Audley (really some few years junior to the squire), despite the lines
of care on his handsome face, there still lingered the grace of youth.
Men of cities retain youth longer than those of the country,--a remark
which Buffon has not failed to make and to account for. Neither did
Egerton betray the air of the married man; for ineffable solitariness
seemed stamped upon one whose private life had long been so stern a
solitude. No ray from the focus of Home played round that reserved,
unjoyous, melancholy brow. In a word, Audley looked still the man for
whom some young female heart might fondly sigh; and not the less because
of the cold eye and compressed lip, which challenged interest even while
seeming to repel it.
Audley was the first to speak, and to put forth the right hand, which
he stole slowly from its place at his breast, on which the lock of hair
still stirred to and fro at the heave of the labouring heart. “William,”
said he, with his rich deep voice, “this is kind. You are come to see
me, now that men say that I am fallen. The minister you censured is no
more; and you see again the brother.”
The squire was softened at once by this address. He shook heartily the
hand tendered to him; and then, turning away his head, with an honest
conviction that Audley ascribed to him a credit which he did not
deserve, he said, “No, no, Audley; I am more selfish than you think me.
I have come--I have come to ask your advice,--no, not exactly that--your
opinion. But you are busy?”
“Sit down, William. Old days were coming over me when you entered; days
earlier still return now,--days, too, that leave no shadow when their
suns are set.”
The proud man seemed to think he had said too much. His practical nature
rebuked the poetic sentiment and phrase. He re-collected himself, and
added, more coldly, “You would ask my opinion? What on? Some public
matter--some parliamentary bill that may affect your property?”
“Am I such a mean miser as that? Property--property? what does property
matter, when a man is struck down at his own hearth? Property, indeed!
But you have no child--happy brother!”
“Ay, ay; as you say, I am a happy man; childless! Has your son
displeased you? I have heard him well spoken of, too.”
“Don’t talk of him. Whether his conduct be good or ill is my affair,”
resumed the poor father, with a testy voice--jealous alike of Audley’s
praise or blame of his rebellious son. Then he rose a moment, and made
a strong gulp, as if for air; and laying his broad brown hand on his
brother’s shoulder, said, “Randal Leslie tells me you are wise,--a
consummate man of the world. No doubt you are so. And Parson Dale tells
me that he is sure you have warm feelings,--which I take to be a strange
thing for one who has lived so long in London, and has no wife and no
child, a widower, and a member of parliament,--for a commercial city,
too. Never smile; it is no smiling matter with me. You know a foreign
woman, called Negra or Negro; not a blackymoor, though, by any
means,--at least on the outside of her. Is she such a woman as a plain
country gentleman would like his only son to marry--ay or no?”
“No, indeed,” answered Audley, gravely; “and I trust your son will
commit no action so rash. Shall I see him, or her? Speak, my dear
William. What would you have me do?”
“Nothing; you have said enough,” replied the squire, gloomily; and his
head sank on his breast.
Audley took his hand, and pressed it fraternally. “William,” said the
statesman, “we have been long estranged; but I do not forget that when
we last met, at--at Lord Lansmere’s house, and when I took you aside,
and said, ‘William, if I lose this election, I must resign all chance of
public life; my affairs are embarrassed. I would not accept money from
you,--I would seek a profession, and you can help me there,’ you divined
my meaning, and said, ‘Take orders; the Hazeldean living is just vacant.
I will get some one to hold it till you are ordained.’ I do not forget
that. Would that I had thought earlier of so serene an escape from all
that then tormented me! My lot might have been far happier.”
The squire eyed Audley with a surprise that broke forth from his more
absorbing emotions. “Happier! Why, all things have prospered with you;
and you are rich enough now; and--you shake your head. Brother, is it
possible! do you want money? Pooh, not accept money from your mother’s
son!--stuff!” Out came the squire’s pocketbook. Audley put it gently
aside.
“Nay,” said he, “I have enough for myself; but since you seek and speak
with me thus affectionately, I will ask you one favour. Should I die
before I can provide for my wife’s kinsman, Randal Leslie, as I could
wish, will you see to his fortunes, so far as you can, without injury to
others,--to your own son?”
“My son! He is provided for. He has the Casino estate--much good may it
do him! You have touched on the very matter that brought me here. This
boy, Randal Leslie, seems a praiseworthy lad, and has Hazeldean blood in
his veins. You have taken him up because he is connected with your late
wife. Why should I not take him up, too, when his grandmother was a
Hazeldean? My main object in calling was to ask what you mean to do for
him; for if you do not mean to provide for him, why, I will, as in duty
bound. So your request comes at the right time; I think of altering my
will. I can put him into the entail, besides a handsome legacy. You are
sure he is a good lad,--and it will please you too, Audley!”
“But not at the expense of your son. And stay, William: as to this
foolish marriage with Madame di Negra,--who told you Frank meant to take
such a step?”
“He told me himself; but it is no matter. Randal and I both did all we
could to dissuade him; and Randal advised me to come to you.”
“He has acted generously, then, our kinsman Randal--I am glad to hear
it,” said Audley, his brow somewhat clearing. “I have no influence
with this lady; but, at least, I can counsel her. Do not consider the
marriage fixed because a young man desires it. Youth is ever hot and
rash.”
“Your youth never was,” retorted the squire, bluntly.
“You married well enough, I’m sure. I will say one thing for you: you
have been, to my taste, a bad politician--beg pardon--but you were
always a gentleman. You would never have disgraced your family and
married a--”
“Hush!” interrupted Egerton, gently. “Do not make matters worse than
they are. Madame di Negra is of high birth in her own country; and if
scandal--”
“Scandal!” cried the squire, shrinking, and turning pale. “Are you
speaking of the wife of a Hazeldean? At least she shall never sit by the
hearth at which now sits his mother; and whatever I may do for Frank,
her children shall not succeed. No mongrel cross-breed shall kennel in
English Hazeldean. Much obliged to you, Audley, for your good feeling;
glad to have seen you; and hark ye, you startled me by that shake of
your head, when I spoke of your wealth; and from what you say about
Randal’s prospects, I guess that you London gentlemen are not so
thrifty as we are. You shall let me speak. I say again, that I have some
thousands quite at your service. And though you are not a Hazeldean,
still you are my mother’s son; and now that I am about to alter my will,
I can as well scratch in the name of Egerton as that of Leslie. Cheer
up, cheer up: you are younger than I am, and you have no child; so you
will live longer than I shall.”
“My dear brother,” answered Audley, “believe me, I shall never live to
want your aid. And as to Leslie, add to the L5,000 I mean to give him an
equal sum in your will, and I shall feel that he has received justice.”
Observing that the squire, though he listened attentively, made no
ready answer, Audley turned the subject again to Frank; and with the
adroitness of a man of the world, backed by cordial sympathy in his
brother’s distress, he pleaded so well Frank’s lame cause, urged so
gently the wisdom of patience and delay, and the appeal to filial
feeling rather than recourse to paternal threats, that the squire grew
mollified in spite of himself, and left his brother’s house a much less
angry and less doleful man.
Mr. Hazeldean was still in the Square, when he came upon Randal
himself, who was walking with a dark-whiskered, showy gentleman, towards
Egerton’s house. Randal and the gentleman exchanged a hasty whisper, and
the former then exclaimed,
“What, Mr. Hazeldean, have you just left your brother’s house? Is it
possible?”
“Why, you advised me to go there, and I did. I scarcely knew what I was
about. I am very glad I did go. Hang politics! hang the landed interest!
what do I care for either now?”
“Foiled with Madame di Negra?” asked Randal, drawing the squire aside.
“Never speak of her again!” cried the squire, fiercely. “And as to that
ungrateful boy--but I don’t mean to behave harshly to him,--he shall
have money enough to keep her if he likes, keep her from coming to me,
keep him, too, from counting on my death, and borrowing post-obits on
the Casino--for he’ll be doing that next--no, I hope I wrong him there;
I have been too good a father for him to count on my death already.
After all,” continued the squire, beginning to relax, “as Audley says,
the marriage is not yet made; and if the woman has taken him in, he is
young, and his heart is warm. Make yourself easy, my boy. I don’t forget
how kindly you took his part; and before I do anything rash, I’ll at
least consult with his poor mother.”
Randal gnawed his pale lip, and a momentary cloud of disappointment
passed over his face.
“True, sir,” said he, gently; “true, you must not be rash. Indeed, I
was thinking of you and poor dear Frank at the very moment I met you. It
occurred to me whether we might not make Frank’s very embarrassments a
reason to induce Madame di Negra to refuse him; and I was on my way to
Mr. Egerton, in order to ask his opinion, in company with the gentleman
yonder.”
“Gentleman yonder. Why should he thrust his long nose into my family
affairs? Who the devil is he?”
“Don’t ask, sir. Pray let me act.”
But the squire continued to eye askant the dark-whiskered personage thus
interposed between himself and his son, and who waited patiently a
few yards in the rear, carelessly readjusting the camellia in his
button-hole.
“He looks very outlandish. Is he a foreigner too?” asked the squire at
last.
“No, not exactly. However, he knows all about Frank’s embarrassments;
and--”
“Embarrassments! what, the debt he paid for that woman? How did he raise
the money?”
“I don’t know,” answered Randal; “and that is the reason I asked Baron
Levy to accompany me to Egerton’s, that he might explain in private what
I have no reason--”
“Baron Levy!” interrupted the squire. “Levy, Levy--I have heard of a
Levy who has nearly ruined my neighbour Thornhill,--a money-lender.
Zounds! is that the man who knows my son’s affairs? I’ll soon learn,
sir.”
Randal caught hold of the squire’s arm: “Stop, stop; if you really
insist upon learning more about Frank’s debts, you must not appeal to
Baron Levy directly, and as Frank’s father: he will not answer you. But
if I present you to him as a mere acquaintance of mine, and turn the
conversation, as if carelessly, upon Frank, why, since, in the London
world, such matters are never kept secret, except from the parents of
young men, I have no doubt he will talk out openly.”
“Manage it as you will,” said the squire.
Randal took Mr. Hazeldean’s arm, and joined Levy--“A friend of mine from
the country, Baron.” Levy bowed profoundly, and the three walked slowly
on.
“By the by,” said Randal, pressing significantly upon Levy’s arm,
“my friend has come to town upon the somewhat unpleasant business of
settling the debts of another,--a young man of fashion,--a relation of
his own. No one, sir (turning to the squire), could so ably assist you
in such arrangements as could Baron Levy.”
BARON (modestly, and with a moralizing air).--“I have some experience in
such matters, and I hold it a duty to assist the parents and relations
of young men who, from want of reflection, often ruin themselves for
life. I hope the young gentleman in question is not in the hands of the
Jews?”
RANDAL.--“Christians are as fond of good interest for their money as
ever the Jews can be.”
BARON.--“Granted, but they have not always so much money to lend. The
first thing, sir” (addressing the squire),--“the first thing for you to
do is to buy up such of your relation’s bills and notes of hand as may
be in the market. No doubt we can get them a bargain, unless the young
man is heir to some property that may soon be his in the course of
nature.”
RANDAL.--“Not soon--Heaven forbid! His father is still a young
man,--a fine healthy man,” leaning heavily on Levy’s arm; “and as to
post-obits--”
BARON.--“Post-obits on sound security cost more to buy up, however
healthy the obstructing relative may be.”
RANDAL.--“I should hope that there are not many sons who can calculate,
in cold blood, on the death of their fathers.”
BARON.--“Ha, ha! He is young, our friend Randal; eh, sir?”
RANDAL.--“Well, I am not more scrupulous than others, I dare say; and I
have often been pinched hard for money, but I would go barefoot rather
than give security upon a father’s grave! I can imagine nothing more
likely to destroy natural feeling, nor to instil ingratitude and
treachery into the whole character, than to press the hand of a
parent, and calculate when that hand may be dust; than to sit down with
strangers and reduce his life to the measure of an insurance-table;
than to feel difficulties gathering round one, and mutter in fashionable
slang, ‘But it will be all well if the governor would but die.’ And he
who has accustomed himself to the relief of post-obits must gradually
harden his mind to all this.”
The squire groaned heavily; and had Randal proceeded another sentence in
the same strain, the squire would have wept outright. “But,” continued
Randal, altering the tone of his voice, “I think that our young friend,
of whom we were talking just now, Levy, before this gentleman joined us,
has the same opinions as myself on this head. He may accept bills, but
he would never sign post-obits.”
BARON (who, with the apt docility of a managed charger to the touch of
a rider’s hand, had comprehended and complied with each quick sign of
Randal’s).--“Pooh! the young fellow we are talking of? Nonsense.
He would not be so foolish as to give five times the percentage he
otherwise might. Not sign post-obits! Of course he has signed one.”
RANDAL.--“Hist! you mistake, you mistake!”
SQUIRE (leaving Randal’s arm and seizing Levy’s).--“Were you speaking of
Frank Hazeldean?”
BARON.--“My dear sir, excuse me, I never mention names before
strangers.”
SQUIRE.--“Strangers again! Man, I am the boy’s father Speak out, sir,”
and his hand closed on Levy’s arm with the strength of an iron vice.
BARON.--“Gently; you hurt me, sir: but I excuse your feelings. Randal,
you are to blame for leading me into this indiscretion; but I beg
to assure Mr. Hazeldean, that though his son has been a little
extravagant--”
RANDAL.--“Owing chiefly to the arts of an abandoned woman.”
BARON.--“Of an abandoned woman;--still he has shown more prudence than
you would suppose; and this very post-obit is a proof of it. A simple
act of that kind has enabled him to pay off bills that were running on
till they would have ruined even the Hazeldean estate; whereas a charge
on the reversion of the Casino--”
SQUIRE.--“He has done it then? He has signed a postobit?”
RANDAL.--“No, no, Levy must be wrong.”
BARON.--“My dear Leslie, a man of Mr. Hazeldean’s time of life cannot
have your romantic boyish notions. He must allow that Frank has acted
in this like a lad of sense--very good head for business has my young
friend Frank! And the best thing Mr. Hazeldean can do is quietly to
buy up the post-obit, and thus he will place his son henceforth in his
power.”
SQUIRE.--“Can I see the deed with my own eyes?”
BARON.--“Certainly, or how could you be induced to buy it up? But on
one condition; you must not betray me to your son. And, indeed, take my
advice, and don’t say a word to him on the matter.”
SQUIRE.--“Let me see it, let me see it with my own eyes! His mother else
will never believe it--nor will I.”
BARON.--“I can call on you this evening.”
SQUIRE.--“Now, now!”
BARON.--“You can spare me, Randal; and you yourself can open to Mr.
Egerton the other affair respecting Lansmere. No time should be lost,
lest L’Estrange suggest a candidate.”
RANDAL (whispering).--“Never mind me. This is more important.”
(Aloud)--“Go with Mr. Hazeldean. My dear kind friend” (to the squire),
“do not let this vex you so much. After all, it is what nine young men
out of ten would do in the same circumstances. And it is best you should
know it; you may save Frank from further ruin, and prevent, perhaps,
this very marriage.”
“We will see,” exclaimed the squire, hastily. “Now, Mr. Levy, come.”
Levy and the squire walked on, not arm in arm, but side by side. Randal
proceeded to Egerton’s house.
“I am glad to see you, Leslie,” said the ex-minister. “What is it I have
heard? My nephew, Frank Hazeldean, proposes to marry Madame di Negra
against his father’s consent? How could you suffer him to entertain an
idea so wild? And how never confide it to me?”
RANDAL.--“My dear Mr. Egerton, it is only to-day that I was informed of
Frank’s engagement. I have already seen him, and expostulated in vain;
till then, though I knew your nephew admired Madame di Negra, I could
never suppose he harboured a serious intention.”
EGERTON.--“I must believe you, Randal. I will myself see Madame di
Negra, though I have no power, and no right, to dictate to her. I
have but little time for all such private business. The dissolution of
parliament is so close at hand.”
RANDAL (looking down).--“It is on that subject that I wished to speak
to you, sir. You think of standing for Lansmere. Well, Baron Levy has
suggested to me an idea that I could not, of course, even countenance,
till I had spoken to you. It seems that he has some acquaintance with
the state of parties in that borough. He is informed that it is not only
as easy to bring in two of our side as to carry one, but that it would
make your election still more safe not to fight single-handed against
two opponents; that if canvassing for yourself alone, you could not
carry a sufficient number of plumper votes; that split votes would go
from you to one or other of the two adversaries; that, in a word, it
is necessary to pair you with a colleague. If it really be so, you of
course will learn best from your own Committee; but should they concur
in the opinion Baron Levy has formed, do I presume too much on your
kindness to deem it possible that you might allow me to be the second
candidate on your side? I should not say this, but that Levy told me you
had some wish to see me in parliament, amongst the supporters of your
policy. And what other opportunity can occur? Here the cost of carrying
two would be scarcely more than that of carrying one. And Levy says the
party would subscribe for my election; you, of course, would refuse
all such aid for your own; and indeed, with your great name, and
Lord Lansmere’s interest, there can be little beyond the strict legal
expenses.”
As Randal spoke thus at length, he watched anxiously his patron’s
reserved, unrevealing countenance.
EGERTON (dryly).--“I will consider. You may safely leave in my hands any
matter connected with your ambition and advancement. I have before told
you I hold it a duty to do all in my power for the kinsman of my late
wife, for one whose career I undertook to forward, for one whom honour
has compelled to share in my own political reverses.”
Here Egerton rang the bell for his hat and gloves, and walking into the
hall, paused at the street door. There beckoning to Randal, he said,
slowly, “You seem intimate with Baron Levy; I caution you against
him,--a dangerous acquaintance, first to the purse, next to the honour.”
RANDAL.--“I know it, sir; and am surprised myself at the acquaintance
that has grown up between us. Perhaps its cause is in his respect for
yourself.”
EGERTON.--“Tut.”
RANDAL.--“Whatever it be, he contrives to obtain a singular hold over
one’s mind, even where, as in my case, he has no evident interest to
serve. How is this? It puzzles me!”
EGERTON.--“For his interest, it is most secured where he suffers it to
be least evident; for his hold over the mind, it is easily accounted
for. He ever appeals to two temptations, strong with all men,--Avarice
and Ambition. Good-day.”
RANDAL.--“Are you going to Madame di Negra’s? Shall I not accompany you?
Perhaps I may be able to back your own remonstrances.”
EGERTON.--“No, I shall not require you.”
RANDAL.--“I trust I shall hear the result of your interview? I feel so
much interested in it. Poor Frank!”
Audley nodded. “Of course, of course.”
CHAPTER XIV.
On entering the drawing-room of Madame di Negra, the peculiar charm
which the severe Audley Egerton had been ever reputed to possess with
women would have sensibly struck one who had hitherto seen him chiefly
in his relations with men in the business-like affairs of life. It was
a charm in strong contrast to the ordinary manners of those who are
emphatically called “Ladies’ men.” No artificial smile, no conventional,
hollow blandness, no frivolous gossip, no varnish either of ungenial
gayety or affected grace. The charm was in a simplicity that unbent more
into kindness than it did with men. Audley’s nature, whatever its
faults and defects, was essentially masculine; and it was the sense
of masculine power that gave to his voice a music when addressing the
gentler sex, and to his manner a sort of indulgent tenderness that
appeared equally void of insincerity and presumption.
Frank had been gone about half-an-hour, and Madame di Negra was scarcely
recovered from the agitation into which she had been thrown by the
affront from the father and the pleading of the son.
Egerton took her passive hand cordially, and seated himself by her side.
“My dear marchesa,” I said he, “are we then likely to be near
connections? And can you seriously contemplate marriage with my young
nephew, Frank Hazeldean? You turn away. Ah, my fair friend, there are
but two inducements to a free woman to sign away her liberty at the
altar. I say a free woman, for widows are free, and girls are not. These
inducements are, first, worldly position; secondly, love. Which of these
motives can urge Madame di Negra to marry Mr. Frank Hazeldeani?”
“There are other motives than those you speak of,--the need of
protection, the sense of solitude, the curse of dependence, gratitude
for honourable affection. But you men never know women!”
“I grant that you are right there,--we never do; neither do women ever
know men. And yet each sex contrives to dupe and to fool the other!
Listen to me. I have little acquaintance with my nephew, but I allow he
is a handsome young gentleman, with whom a handsome young lady in her
teens might fall in love in a ball-room. But you, who have known the
higher order of our species, you who have received the homage of men,
whose thoughts and mind leave the small talk of drawing-room triflers
so poor and bald, you cannot look me in the face and say that it is
any passion resembling love which you feel for my nephew. And as to
position, it is right that I should inform you that if he marry you
he will have none. He may risk his inheritance. You will receive no
countenance from his parents. You will be poor, but not free. You
will not gain the independence you seek for. The sight of a vacant,
discontented face in that opposite chair will be worse than solitude.
And as to grateful affection,” added the man of the world, “it is a
polite synonym for tranquil indifference.”
“Mr. Egerton,” said Beatrice, “people say you are made of bronze. Did
you ever feel the want of a home?”
“I answer you frankly,” replied the statesman, “if I had not felt it,
do you think I should have been, and that I should be to the last, the
joyless drudge of public life? Bronze though you call my nature, it
would have melted away long since like wax in the fire, if I had sat
idly down and dreamed of a home!”
“But we women,” answered Beatrice, with pathos, “have no public life,
and we do idly sit down and dream. Oh,” she continued, after a short
pause, and clasping her hands firmly together, “you think me worldly,
grasping, ambitious; how different my fate had been had I known a
home!--known one whom I could love and venerate; known one whose smiles
would have developed the good that was once within me, and the fear of
whose rebuking or sorrowful eye would have corrected what is evil.”
“Yet,” answered Audley, “nearly all women in the great world have had
that choice once in their lives, and nearly all have thrown it away. How
few of your rank really think of home when they marry! how few ask to
venerate as well as to love! and how many, of every rank, when the
home has been really gained, have wilfully lost its shelter,--some in
neglectful weariness, some from a momentary doubt, distrust, caprice,
a wild fancy, a passionate fit, a trifle, a straw, a dream! True, you
women are ever dreamers. Commonsense, common earth, is above or below
your comprehension.”
Both now are silent. Audley first roused himself with a quick, writhing
movement. “We two,” said he, smiling half sadly, half cynically,--“we
two must not longer waste time in talking sentiment. We know both
too well what life, as it has been made for us by our faults or our
misfortunes, truly is. And once again, I entreat you to pause before
you yield to the foolish suit of my foolish nephew. Rely on it, you will
either command a higher offer for your prudence to accept; or, if you
needs must sacrifice rank and fortune, you, with your beauty and your
romantic heart, will see one who, at least for a fair holiday season
(if human love allows no more), can repay you for the sacrifice. Frank
Hazeldean never can.”
Beatrice turned away to conceal the tears that rushed to her eyes.
“Think over this well,” said Audley, in the softest tones of his mellow
voice. “Do you remember that when you first came to England, I told you
that neither wedlock nor love had any lures for me? We grew friends upon
that rude avowal, and therefore I now speak to you like some sage of
old, wise because standing apart and aloof from all the affections and
ties that mislead our wisdom. Nothing but real love--how rare it is; has
one human heart in a million ever known it?--nothing but real love can
repay us for the loss of freedom, the cares and fears of poverty, the
cold pity of the world that we both despise and respect. And all these,
and much more, follow the step you would inconsiderately take, an
imprudent marriage.”
“Audley Egerton,” said Beatrice, lifting her dark, moistened eyes, “you
grant that real love does compensate for an imprudent marriage. You
speak as if you had known such love--you! Can it be possible?”
“Real love--I thought that I knew it once. Looking back with remorse,
I should doubt it now but for one curse that only real love, when lost,
has the power to leave evermore behind it.”
“What is that?”
“A void here,” answered Egerton, striking his heart.
“Desolation!--Adieu!”
He rose and left the room.
“Is it,” murmured Egerton, as he pursued his way through the
streets--“is it that, as we approach death, all the first fair feelings
of young life come back to us mysteriously? Thus I have heard, or read,
that in some country of old, children scattering flowers preceded a
funeral bier.”
CHAPTER XV.
And so Leonard stood beside his friend’s mortal clay, and watched, in
the ineffable smile of death, the last gleam which the soul had left
there; and so, after a time, he crept back to the adjoining room with a
step as noiseless as if he had feared to disturb the dead. Wearied as
he was with watching, he had no thought of sleep. He sat himself down by
the little table, and leaned his face on his hand, musing sorrowfully.
Thus time passed. He heard the clock from below strike the hours. In the
house of death the sound of a clock becomes so solemn. The soul that we
miss has gone so far beyond the reach of time! A cold, superstitious
awe gradually stole over the young man. He shivered, and lifted his eyes
with a start, half scornful, half defying. The moon was gone; the gray,
comfortless dawn gleamed through the casement, and carried its raw,
chilling light through the open doorway into the death-room. And there,
near the extinguished fire, Leonard saw the solitary woman, weeping low;
and watching still. He returned to say a word of comfort; she pressed
his hand, but waved him away. He understood. She did not wish for other
comfort than her quiet relief of tears. Again, he returned to his
own chamber, and his eye this time fell upon the papers which he had
hitherto disregarded. What made his heart stand still, and the blood
then rush so quickly through his veins? Why did he seize upon those
papers with so tremulous a hand, then lay them down, pause, as if
to nerve himself, and look so eagerly again? He recognized the
handwriting,--those fair, clear characters, so peculiar in their
woman-like delicacy and grace, the same as in the wild, pathetic poems,
the sight of which had made an era in his boyhood. From these pages the
image of the mysterious Nora rose once more before him. He felt that he
was with a mother. He went back, and closed the door gently, as if with
a jealous piety, to exclude each ruder shadow from the world of spirits,
and be alone with that mournful ghost. For a thought written in warm,
sunny life, and then suddenly rising up to us, when the hand that traced
and the heart that cherished it are dust, is verily as a ghost. It is a
likeness struck off of the fond human being, and surviving it. Far more
truthful than bust or portrait, it bids us see the tear flow, and the
pulse beat. What ghost can the churchyard yield to us like the writing
of the dead?
The bulk of the papers had been once lightly sewn to each other; they
had come undone, perhaps in Burley’s rude hands, but their order
was easily apparent. Leonard soon saw that they formed a kind of
journal,--not, indeed, a regular diary, nor always relating to the
things of the day. There were gaps in time--no attempt at successive
narrative; sometimes, instead of prose, a hasty burst of verse, gushing
evidently from the heart; sometimes all narrative was left untold,
and yet, as it were, epitomized by a single burning line--a single
exclamation--of woe or joy! Everywhere you saw records of a nature
exquisitely susceptible; and, where genius appeared, it was so artless,
that you did not call it genius, but emotion. At the onset the writer
did not speak of herself in the first person. The manuscript opened with
descriptions and short dialogues, carried on by persons to whose names
only initial letters were assigned, all written in a style of simple
innocent freshness, and breathing of purity and happiness, like a dawn
of spring. Two young persons, humbly born, a youth and a girl, the last
still in childhood, each chiefly self-taught, are wandering on Sabbath
evenings among green dewy fields, near the busy town, in which labour
awhile is still. Few words pass between them. You see at once, though
the writer does not mean to convey it, how far beyond the scope of her
male companion flies the heavenward imagination of the girl. It is he
who questions, it is she who answers; and soon there steals upon you,
as you read, the conviction that the youth loves the girl, and loves in
vain. All in this writing, though terse, is so truthful! Leonard, in the
youth, already recognizes the rude imperfect scholar, the village bard,
Mark Fairfield. Then there is a gap in description; but there are short
weighty sentences, which show deepening thought, increasing years, in
the writer. And though the innocence remains, the happiness begins to be
less vivid on the page.
Now, insensibly, Leonard finds that there is a new phase in the writer’s
existence. Scenes no longer of humble, workday rural life surround her,
and a fairer and more dazzling image succeeds to the companion of the
Sabbath eves. This image Nora evidently loves to paint,--it is akin to
her own genius; it captivates her fancy; it is an image that she (inborn
artist, and conscious of her art) feels to belong to a brighter and
higher school of the Beautiful. And yet the virgin’s heart is not
awakened,--no trace of the heart yet there! The new image thus
introduced is one of her own years, perhaps; nay, it may be younger
still, for it is a boy that is described, with his profuse fair curls,
and eyes new to grief, and confronting the sun as a young eagle’s; with
veins so full of the wine of life, that they overflow into every joyous
whim; with nerves quiveringly alive to the desire of glory; with the
frank generous nature, rash in its laughing scorn of the world, which
it has not tried. Who was this boy? it perplexed Leonard. He feared to
guess. Soon, less told than implied, you saw that this companionship,
however it chanced, brings fear and pain on the writer. Again (as
before, with Mark Fairfield), there is love on the one side and not on
the other; with her there is affectionate, almost sisterly, interest,
admiration, gratitude, but a something of pride or of terror that keeps
back love.
Here Leonard’s interest grew intense. Were there touches by which
conjecture grew certainty; and he recognized, through the lapse of
years, the boy-lover in his own generous benefactor?
Fragments of dialogue now began to reveal the suit of an ardent,
impassioned nature, and the simple wonder and strange alarm of a
listener who pitied but could not sympathize. Some great worldly
distinction of rank between the two became visible,--that distinction
seemed to arm the virtue and steel the affections of the lowlier born.
Then a few sentences, half blotted out with tears, told of wounded and
humbled feelings,--some one invested with authority, as if the suitor’s
parent, had interfered, questioned, reproached, counselled. And it was
evident that the suit was not one that dishonoured; it wooed to flight,
but still to marriage.
And now these sentences grew briefer still, as with the decision of a
strong resolve. And to these there followed a passage so exquisite, that
Leonard wept unconsciously as he read. It was the description of a
visit spent at home previous to some sorrowful departure. He caught the
glimpse of a proud and vain, but a tender wistful mother, of a father’s
fonder but less thoughtful love. And then came a quiet soothing scene
between the girl and her first village lover, ending thus: “So she put
M.’s hand into her sister’s, and said, ‘You loved me through the fancy,
love her with the heart,’ and left them comprehending each other, and
betrothed.”
Leonard sighed. He understood now how Mark Fairfield saw, in the homely
features of his unlettered wife, the reflection of the sister’s soul and
face.
A few words told the final parting,--words that were a picture. The long
friendless highway, stretching on--on--towards the remorseless city,
and the doors of home opening on the desolate thoroughfare, and the old
pollard-tree beside the threshold, with the ravens wheeling round it and
calling to their young. He too had watched that threshold from the same
desolate thoroughfare. He too had heard the cry of the ravens. Then
came some pages covered with snatches of melancholy verse, or some
reflections of dreamy gloom.
The writer was in London, in the house of some high-born
patroness,--that friendless shadow of a friend which the jargon of
society calls “companion.” And she was looking on the bright storm of
the world as through prison bars. Poor bird, afar from the greenwood,
she had need of song,--it was her last link with freedom and nature. The
patroness seems to share in her apprehensions of the boy suitor, whose
wild rash prayers the fugitive had resisted; but to fear lest the suitor
should be degraded, not the one whom he pursues,--fear an alliance
ill-suited to a high-born heir. And this kind of fear stings the
writer’s pride, and she grows harsh in her judgment of him who thus
causes but pain where he proffers love. Then there is a reference to
some applicant for her hand, who is pressed upon her choice; and she is
told that it is her duty so to choose, and thus deliver a noble family
from a dread that endures so long as her hand is free. And of this fear,
and of this applicant, there breaks out a petulant yet pathetic scorn.
After this the narrative, to judge by the dates, pauses for days and
weeks, as if the writer had grown weary and listless,--suddenly to
reopen in a new strain, eloquent with hopes and with fears never known
before. The first person was abruptly assumed,--it was the living “I”
that now breathed and moved along the lines. How was this? The woman was
no more a shadow and a secret unknown to herself. She had assumed the
intense and vivid sense of individual being; and love spoke loud in the
awakened human heart.
A personage not seen till then appeared on the page. And ever
afterwards this personage was only named as “He,” as if the one and sole
representative of all the myriads that walk the earth. The first notice
of this prominent character on the scene showed the restless, agitated
effect produced on the writer’s imagination. He was invested with
a romance probably not his own. He was described in contrast to the
brilliant boy whose suit she had feared, pitied, and now sought to
shun,--described with a grave and serious, but gentle mien, a voice that
imposed respect, an eye and lip that showed collected dignity of will.
Alas? the writer betrayed herself, and the charm was in the contrast,
not to the character of the earlier lover, but her own. And now, leaving
Leonard to explore and guess his way through the gaps and chasms of
the narrative, it is time to place before the reader what the narrative
alone will not reveal to Leonard.
CHAPTER XVI.
Nora Avenel had fled from the boyish love of Harley L’Estrange,
recommended by Lady Lansmere to a valetudinarian relative of her own,
Lady Jane Horton, as companion. But Lady Lansmere could not believe it
possible that the lowborn girl could long sustain her generous pride,
and reject the ardent suit of one who could offer to her the prospective
coronet of a countess. She continually urged upon Lady Jane the
necessity of marrying Nora to some one of rank less disproportioned to
her own, and empowered that lady to assure any such wooer of a dowry far
beyond Nora’s station. Lady Jane looked around, and saw in the outskirts
of her limited social ring a young solicitor, a peer’s natural son, who
was on terms of more than business-like intimacy with the fashionable
clients whose distresses made the origin of his wealth. The young man
was handsome, well-dressed, and bland. Lady Jane invited him to
her house; and, seeing him struck with the rare loveliness of Nora,
whispered the hint of the dower. The fashionable solicitor, who
afterwards ripened into Baron Levy, did not need that hint; for, though
then poor, he relied on himself for fortune, and, unlike Randal, he had
warm blood in his veins. But Lady Jane’s suggestions made him sanguine
of success; and when he formally proposed, and was as formally refused,
his self-love was bitterly wounded. Vanity in Levy was a powerful
passion; and with the vain, hatred is strong, revenge is rankling. Levy
retired, concealing his rage; nor did he himself know how vindictive
that rage, when it cooled into malignancy, could become, until the
arch-fiend OPPORTUNITY prompted its indulgence and suggested its design.
Lady Jane was at first very angry with Nora for the rejection of a
suitor whom she had presented as eligible. But the pathetic grace of
this wonderful girl had crept into her heart, and softened it even
against family prejudice; and she gradually owned to herself that Nora
was worthy of some one better than Mr. Levy.
Now, Harley had ever believed that Nora returned his love, and that
nothing but her own sense of gratitude to his parents, her own instincts
of delicacy, made her deaf to his prayers. To do him justice, wild and
headstrong as he then was, his suit would have ceased at once had he
really deemed it persecution. Nor was his error unnatural; for his
conversation, till it had revealed his own heart, could not fail to have
dazzled and delighted the child of genius; and her frank eyes would have
shown the delight. How, at his age, could he see the distinction between
the Poetess and the Woman? The poetess was charmed with rare promise in
a soul of which the very errors were the extravagances of richness
and beauty. But the woman--no! the woman required some nature not yet
undeveloped, and all at turbulent, if brilliant, strife with its own
noble elements, but a nature formed and full-grown. Harley was a boy,
and Nora was one of those women who must find or fancy an Ideal that
commands and almost awes them into love.
Harley discovered, not without difficulty, Nora’s new residence. He
presented himself at Lady Jane’s, and she, with grave rebuke, forbade
him the house. He found it impossible to obtain an interview with Nora.
He wrote, but he felt sure that his letters never reached her, since
they were unanswered. His young heart swelled with rage. He dropped
threats, which alarmed all the fears of Lady Lansmere, and even the
prudent apprehensions of his friend, Audley Egerton. At the request
of the mother, and equally at the wish of the son, Audley consented to
visit at Lady Jane’s, and make acquaintance with Nora.
“I have such confidence in you,” said Lady Lansmere, “that if you once
know the girl, your advice will be sure to have weight with her. You
will show her how wicked it would be to let Harley break our hearts and
degrade his station.”
“I have such confidence in you,” said young Harley, “that if you once
know my Nora, you will no longer side with my mother. You will recognize
the nobility which nature only can create, you will own that Nora is
worthy a rank more lofty than mine; and my mother so believes in your
wisdom, that, if you plead in my cause, you will convince even her.”
Audley listened to both with his intelligent, half-incredulous smile;
and wholly of the same opinion as Lady Lansmere, and sincerely anxious
to save Harley from an indiscretion that his own notions led him to
regard as fatal, he resolved to examine this boasted pearl, and to find
out its flaws. Audley Egerton was then in the prime of his earnest,
resolute, ambitious youth. The stateliness of his natural manners had
then a suavity and polish which, even in later and busier life, it never
wholly lost; since, in spite of the briefer words and the colder looks
by which care and power mark the official man, the minister had ever
enjoyed that personal popularity which the indefinable, external
something, that wins and pleases, can alone confer. But he had even
then, as ever, that felicitous reserve which Rochefoucauld has called
the “mystery of the body,”--that thin yet guardian veil which reveals
but the strong outlines of character, and excites so much of interest
by provoking so much of conjecture. To the man who is born with this
reserve, which is wholly distinct from shyness, the world gives credit
for qualities and talents beyond those that it perceives; and such
characters are attractive to others in proportion as these last are
gifted with the imagination which loves to divine the unknown.
At the first interview, the impression which this man produced upon Nora
Avenel was profound and strange. She had heard of him before as the one.
whom Harley most loved and looked up to; and she recognized at once
in his mien, his aspect, his words, the very tone of his deep tranquil
voice, the power to which woman, whatever her intellect, never
attains; and to which, therefore, she imputes a nobility not always
genuine,--namely, the power of deliberate purpose and self-collected,
serene ambition. The effect that Nora produced on Egerton was not less
sudden. He was startled by a beauty of face and form that belonged to
that rarest order, which we never behold but once or twice in our lives.
He was yet more amazed to discover that the aristocracy of mind could
bestow a grace that no aristocracy of birth could surpass. He was
prepared for a simple, blushing village girl, and involuntarily he bowed
low his proud front at the first sight of that delicate bloom, and that
exquisite gentleness which is woman’s surest passport to the respect of
man. Neither in the first, nor the second, nor the third interview,
nor, indeed, till after many interviews, could he summon up courage to
commence his mission, and allude to Harley. And when he did so at last
his words faltered. But Nora’s words were clear to him. He saw that
Harley was not loved; and a joy, which he felt as guilty, darted through
his whole frame. From that interview Audley returned home greatly
agitated, and at war with himself. Often, in the course of this story,
has it been hinted that, under all Egerton’s external coldness and
measured self-control, lay a nature capable of strong and stubborn
passions. Those passions broke forth then. He felt that love had already
entered into the heart, which the trust of his friend should have
sufficed to guard.
“I will go there no more,” said he, abruptly, to Harley.
“But why?”
“The girl does not love you. Cease then to think of her.”
Harley disbelieved him, and grew indignant. But Audley had every worldly
motive to assist his sense of honour. He was poor, though with the
reputation of wealth, deeply involved in debt, resolved to rise in
life, tenacious of his position in the world’s esteem. Against a host
of counteracting influences, love fought single-handed. Audley’s was a
strong nature; but, alas! in strong natures, if resistance to temptation
is of granite, so the passions that they admit are of fire.
Trite is the remark that the destinies of our lives often date from the
impulses of unguarded moments. It was so with this man, to an ordinary
eye so cautious and so deliberate. Harley one day came to him in great
grief; he had heard that Nora was ill: he implored Andley to go once
more and ascertain. Audley went. Lady Jane Horton, who was suffering
under a disease which not long afterwards proved fatal, was too ill
to receive him. He was shown into the room set apart as Nora’s. While
waiting for her entrance, he turned mechanically over the leaves of an
album, which Nora, suddenly summoned away to attend Lady Jane, had left
behind her on the table. He saw the sketch of his own features; he read
words inscribed below it,--words of such artless tenderness, and such
unhoping sorrow, words written by one who had been accustomed to regard
her genius as her sole confidant, under Heaven; to pour out to it,
as the solitary poet-heart is impelled to do, thoughts, feelings, the
confession of mystic sighs, which it would never breathe to a living
ear, and, save at such moments, scarcely acknowledge to itself. Audley
saw that he was beloved, and the revelation, with a sudden light,
consumed all the barriers between himself and his own love. And at that
moment Nora entered. She saw him bending over the book. She uttered
a cry, sprang forward, and then sank down, covering her face with her
hands. But Audley was at her feet. He forgot his friend, his trust;
he forgot ambition, he forgot the world. It was his own cause that he
pleaded,--his own love that burst forth from his lips. And when the two
that day parted, they were betrothed each to each. Alas for them, and
alas for Harley! And now this man, who had hitherto valued himself as
the very type of gentleman, whom all his young contemporaries had so
regarded and so revered, had to press the hand of a confiding friend,
and bid adieu to truth. He had to amuse, to delay, to mislead his
boy-rival,--to say that he was already subduing Nora’s hesitating
doubts, and that with a little time, she could be induced to consent to
forget Harley’s rank, and his parent’s pride, and become his wife. And
Harley believed in Egerton, without one suspicion on the mirror of his
loyal soul.
Meanwhile, Audley, impatient of his own position,--impatient, as strong
minds ever are, to hasten what they have once resolved, to terminate a
suspense that every interview with Harley tortured alike by jealousy
and shame, to pass out of the reach of scruples, and to say to himself,
“Right--or wrong, there is no looking back; the deed is done,”--Audley,
thus hurried on by the impetus of his own power of will, pressed for
speedy and secret nuptials,--secret, till his fortunes, then wavering,
were more assured, his career fairly commenced. This was not his
strongest motive, though it was one. He shrank from the discovery of
his wrong to his friend, desired to delay the self-humiliation of such
announcement, until, as he persuaded himself, Harley’s boyish passion
was over, had yielded to the new allurements that would naturally beset
his way. Stifling his conscience, Audley sought to convince himself that
the day would soon come when Harley could hear with indifference that
Nora Avenel was another’s. “The dream of an hour, at his age,” murmured
the elder friend; “but at mine the passion of a life!” He did not speak
of these latter motives for concealment to Nora. He felt that to own the
extent of his treason to a friend would lower him in her eyes. He spoke
therefore but slightingly of Harley, treated the boy’s suit as a thing
past and gone. He dwelt only on reasons that compelled self-sacrifice
on his side or hers. She did not hesitate which to choose. And so, where
Nora loved, so submissively did she believe in the superiority of the
lover, that she would not pause to hear a murmur from her own loftier
nature, or question the propriety of what he deemed wise and good.
Abandoning prudence in this arch affair of life, Audley still
preserved his customary caution in minor details. And this indeed was
characteristic of him throughout all his career, heedless in large
things, wary in small. He would not trust Lady Jane Horton with his
secret, still less Lady Lansmere. He simply represented to the former
that Nora was no longer safe from Harley’s determined pursuit under Lady
Jane’s roof, and that she had better elude the boy’s knowledge of
her movements, and go quietly away for a while, to lodge with some
connection of her own.
And so, with Lady Jane’s acquiescence, Nora went first to the house of
a very distant kinswoman of her mother’s, and afterwards to one that
Egerton took as their bridal home, under the name of Bertram. He
arranged all that might render their marriage most free from the chance
of premature discovery. But it so happened on the very morning of their
bridal, that one of the witnesses he selected (a confidential servant of
his own) was seized with apoplexy. Considering, in haste, where to find
a substitute, Egerton thought of Levy, his own private solicitor, his
own fashionable money-lender, a man with whom he was then as intimate
as a fine gentleman is with the lawyer of his own age, who knows all his
affairs, and has helped, from pure friendship, to make them as bad as
they are! Levy was thus suddenly summoned. Egerton, who was in great
haste, did not at first communicate to him the name of the intended
bride; but he said enough of the imprudence of the marriage, and his
reasons for secrecy, to bring on himself the strongest remonstrances;
for Levy had always reckoned on Egerton’s making a wealthy
marriage,--leaving to Egerton the wife, and hoping to appropriate to
himself the wealth, all in the natural course of business. Egerton did
not listen to him, but hurried him on towards the place at which the
ceremony was to be performed; and Levy actually saw the bride before
he had learned her name. The usurer masked his raging emotions, and
fulfilled his part in the rites. His smile, when he congratulated the
bride, might have shot cold into her heart; but her eyes were cast on
the earth, seeing there but a shadow from heaven, and her heart was
blindly sheltering itself in the bosom to which it was given evermore.
She did not perceive the smile of hate that barbed the words of joy.
Nora never thought it necessary later to tell Egerton that Levy had been
a refused suitor. Indeed, with the exquisite tact of love, she saw that
such a confidence, the idea of such a rival, would have wounded the
pride of her high-bred, well-born husband.
And now, while Harley L’Estrange, frantic with the news that Nora had
left Lady Jane’s roof, and purposely misled into wrong directions, was
seeking to trace her refuge in vain, now Egerton, in an assumed name,
in a remote quarter, far from the clubs, in which his word was oracular,
far from the pursuits, whether of pastime or toil, that had hitherto
engrossed his active mind, gave himself up, with wonder at his own
surrender, to the only vision of fairyland that ever weighs down the
watchful eyelids of hard ambition. The world for a while shut out, he
missed it not. He knew not of it. He looked into two loving eyes that
haunted him ever after, through a stern and arid existence, and said
murmuringly, “Why, this, then, is real happiness!” Often, often, in the
solitude of other years, to repeat to himself the same words, save that
for is, he then murmured was! And Nora, with her grand, full heart,
all her luxuriant wealth of fancy and of thought, child of light and of
song, did she then never discover that there was something comparatively
narrow and sterile in the nature to which she had linked her fate? Not
there could ever be sympathy in feelings, brilliant and shifting as the
tints of the rainbow. When Audley pressed her heart to his own, could he
comprehend one finer throb of its beating? Was all the iron of his mind
worth one grain of the gold she had cast away in Harley’s love?
Did Nora already discover this? Surely no. Genius feels no want,
no repining, while the heart is contented. Genius in her paused and
slumbered: it had been as the ministrant of solitude: it was needed no
more. If a woman loves deeply some one below her own grade in the mental
and spiritual orders, how often we see that she unconsciously quits her
own rank, comes meekly down to the level of the beloved, is afraid lest
he should deem her the superior,--she who would not even be the equal.
Nora knew no more that she had genius; she only knew that she had love.
And so here, the journal which Leonard was reading changed its tone,
sinking into that quiet happiness which is but quiet because it is so
deep. This interlude in the life of a man like Audley Egerton could
never have been long; many circumstances conspired to abridge it. His
affairs were in great disorder; they were all under Levy’s management.
Demands that had before slumbered, or been mildly urged, grew menacing
and clamorous. Harley, too, returned to London from his futile
researches, and looked out for Audley. Audley was forced to leave his
secret Eden, and reappear in the common world; and thenceforward it was
only by stealth that he came to his bridal home,--a visitor, no more the
inmate. But more loud and fierce grew the demands of his creditors, now
when Egerton had most need of all which respectability and position
and belief of pecuniary independence can do to raise the man who has
encumbered his arms, and crippled his steps towards fortune. He was
threatened with writs, with prison. Levy said “that to borrow more would
be but larger ruin,” shrugged his shoulders, and even recommended a
voluntary retreat to the King’s Bench. “No place so good for frightening
one’s creditors into compounding their claims; but why,” added Levy,
with covert sneer, “why not go to young L’Estrange, a boy made to be
borrowed from!”
Levy, who had known from Lady Jane of Harley’s pursuit of Nora, had
learned already how to avenge himself on Egerton. Audley could not apply
to the friend he had betrayed. And as to other friends, no man in town
had a greater number. And no man in town knew better that he should lose
them all if he were once known to be in want of their money. Mortified,
harassed, tortured, shunning Harley, yet ever sought by him, fearful of
each knock at his door, Audley Egerton escaped to the mortgaged remnant
of his paternal estate, on which there was a gloomy manor-house, long
uninhabited, and there applied a mind, afterwards renowned for its quick
comprehension of business, to the investigation of his affairs, with a
view to save some wreck from the flood that swelled momently around him.
And now--to condense as much as possible a record that runs darkly on
into pain and sorrow--now Levy began to practise his vindictive arts;
and the arts gradually prevailed. On pretence of assisting Egerton in
the arrangement of his affairs, which he secretly contrived, however,
still more to complicate, he came down frequently to Egerton Hall for
a few hours, arriving by the mail, and watching the effect which Nora’s
almost daily letters produced on the bridegroom, irritated by the
practical cares of life. He was thus constantly at hand to instil into
the mind of the ambitious man a regret for the imprudence of hasty
passion, or to embitter the remorse which Audley felt for his treachery
to L’Estrange. Thus ever bringing before the mind of the harassed debtor
images at war with love, and with the poetry of life, he disattuned it
(so to speak) for the reception of Nora’s letters, all musical as they
were with such thoughts as the most delicate fancy inspires to the
most earnest love. Egerton was one of those men who never confide their
affairs frankly to women. Nora, when she thus wrote, was wholly in
the dark as to the extent of his stern prosaic distress. And so--and
so--Levy always near--type of the prose of life in its most cynic
form--so by degrees all that redundant affluence of affection, with its
gushes of grief for his absence, prayers for his return, sweet reproach
if a post failed to bring back an answer to the woman’s yearning
sighs,--all this grew, to the sensible, positive man of real life,
like sickly romantic exaggeration. The bright arrows shot too high into
heaven to hit the mark set so near to the earth. Ah, common fate of all
superior natures! What treasure, and how wildly wasted! “By-the-by,”
said Levy, one morning, as he was about to take leave of Audley
and return to town,--“by-the-by, I shall be this evening in the
neighbourhood of Mrs. Egerton.”
EGERTON.--“Say Mrs. Bertram!”
LEVY.--“Ay; will she not be in want of some pecuniary supplies?”
EGERTON. “My wife!--Not yet. I must first be wholly ruined before she
can want; and if I were so, do you think I should not be by her side?”
LEVY.--“I beg pardon, my dear fellow; your pride of gentleman is so
susceptible that it is hard for a lawyer not to wound it unawares. Your
wife, then, does not know the exact state of your affairs?”
EGERTON.--“Of course not. Who would confide to a woman things in which
she could do nothing, except to tease one the more?”
LEVY.--“True, and a poetess too! I have prevented your finishing your
answer to Mrs. Bertram’s last letter. Can I take it--it may save a day’s
delay--that is, if you do not object to my calling on her this evening.”
EGERTON (sitting down to his unfinished letter).--“Object! no.”
LEVY (looking at his watch).--“Be quick, or I shall lose the coach.”
EGEPTON (sealing the letter).--“There. And I should be obliged to you if
you would call; and without alarming her as to my circumstances, you
can just say that you know I am much harassed about important affairs at
present, and so soothe the effects of my very short answers--”
LEVY.--“To those doubly-crossed, very long letters,--I will.”
“Poor Nora,” said Egerton, sighing, “she will think this answer brief
and churlish enough. Explain my excuses kindly, so that they will serve
for the future. I really have no time and no heart for sentiment. The
little I ever had is well-nigh worried out of me. Still I love her
fondly and deeply.”
LEVY.--“You must have done so. I never thought it in you to sacrifice
the world to a woman.”
EGERTON.--“Nor I either; but,” added the strong man, conscious of that
power which rules the world infinitely more than knowledge, conscious of
tranquil courage, “but I have not sacrificed the world yet. This right
arm shall bear up her and myself too.”
LEVY.--“Well said! but in the mean while, for heaven’s sake, don’t
attempt to go to London, nor to leave this place; for, in that case,
I know you will be arrested, and then adieu to all hopes of
parliament,--of a career.”
Audley’s haughty countenance darkened; as the dog, in his bravest mode,
turns dismayed from the stone plucked from the mire, so, when Ambition
rears itself to defy mankind, whisper “disgrace and a jail,”--and,
lo, crestfallen, it slinks away! That evening Levy called on Nora, and
ingratiating himself into her favour by praise of Egerton, with indirect
humble apologetic allusions to his own former presumption, he prepared
the way to renewed visits; she was so lonely, and she so loved to see
one who was fresh from seeing Audley, one who would talk to her of
him! By degrees the friendly respectful visitor thus stole into her
confidence; and then, with all his panegyrics on Audley’s superior
powers and gifts, he began to dwell upon the young husband’s worldly
aspirations, and care for his career; dwell on them so as vaguely to
alarm Nora,--to imply that, dear as she was, she was still but second
to Ambition. His way thus prepared, he next began to insinuate his
respectful pity at her equivocal position, dropped hints of gossip and
slander, feared that the marriage might be owned too late to preserve
reputation. And then what would be the feelings of the proud Egerton
if his wife were excluded from that world whose opinion he so prized?
Insensibly thus he led her on to express (though timidly) her own
fear, her own natural desire, in her letters to Audley. When could the
marriage be proclaimed? Proclaimed! Audley felt that to proclaim such a
marriage at such a moment would be to fling away his last cast for fame
and fortune. And Harley, too,--Harley still so uncured of his frantic
love! Levy was sure to be at hand when letters like these arrived.
And now Levy went further still in his determination to alienate these
two hearts. He contrived, by means of his various agents, to circulate
through Nora’s neighbourhood the very slanders at which he had hinted.
He contrived that she should be insulted when she went abroad, outraged
at home by the sneers of her own servant, and tremble with shame at her
own shadow upon her abandoned bridal hearth.
Just in the midst of this intolerable anguish, Levy reappeared. His
crowning hour was ripe. He intimated his knowledge of the humiliations
Nora had undergone, expressed his deep compassion, offered to intercede
with Egerton “to do her justice.” He used ambiguous phrases, that
shocked her ear and tortured her heart, and thus provoked her on to
demand him to explain; and then, throwing her into a wild state of
indefinite alarm, in which he obtained her solemn promise not to divulge
to Audley what he was about to communicate, he said, with villanous
hypocrisy of reluctant shame, “that her marriage was not strictly legal;
that the forms required by the law had not been complied with, that
Audley, unintentionally or purposely, had left himself free to disown
the rite and desert the bride.” While Nora stood stunned and speechless
at a falsehood which, with lawyer-like show, he contrived to make
truth-like to her inexperience, he hurried rapidly on, to re-awake on
her mind the impression of Audley’s pride, ambition, and respect for
worldly position. “These are your obstacles,” said he; “but I think I
may induce him to repair the wrong, and right you at last.” Righted at
last--oh, infamy!
Then Nora’s anger burst forth. She believe such a stain on Audley’s
honour!
“But where was the honour when he betrayed his friend? Did you not know
that he was entrusted by Lord L’Estrange to plead for him. How did he
fulfil the trust?”
“Plead for L’Estrange!” Nora had not been exactly aware of this,--in the
sudden love preceding those sudden nuptials, so little touching Harley
(beyond Audley’s first timid allusions to his suit, and her calm and
cold reply) had been spoken by either.
Levy resumed. He dwelt fully on the trust and the breach of it, and then
said: “In Egerton’s world, man holds it far more dishonour to betray
a man than to dupe a woman; and if Egerton could do the one, why doubt
that he would do the other? But do not look at me with those indignant
eyes. Put himself to the test; write to him to say that the suspicions
amidst which you live have become intolerable, that they infect even
yourself, despite your reason, that the secrecy of your nuptials, his
prolonged absence, his brief refusal, on unsatisfactory grounds, to
proclaim your tie, all distract you with a terrible doubt. Ask him, at
least (if he will not yet declare your marriage), to satisfy you that
the rites were legal.”
“I will go to him,” cried Nora, impetuously.
“Go to him!--in his own house! What a scene, what a scandal! Could he
ever forgive you?”
“At least, then, I will implore him to come here. I can not write such
horrible words; I cannot! I cannot! Go, go!” Levy left her, and hastened
to two or three of Audley’s most pressing creditors,--men, in fact,
who went entirely by Levy’s own advice. He bade them instantly surround
Audley’s country residence with bailiffs. Before Egerton could reach
Nora, he would thus be lodged in a jail. These preparations made, Levy
himself went down to Audley, and arrived, as usual, an hour or two
before the delivery of the post.
And Nora’s letter came; and never was Audley’s grave brow more dark than
when he read it. Still, with his usual decision, he resolved to obey
her wish,--rang the bell, and ordered his servant to put up a change of
dress, and send for post-horses.
Levy then took him aside, and led him to the window. “Look under yon
trees. Do you see those men? They are bailiffs. This is the true reason
why I come to you to-day. You cannot leave this house.”
Egerton recoiled. “And this frantic, foolish letter at such a time!” he
muttered, striking the open page, full of love in the midst of terror,
with his clenched hand. O Woman, Woman! if thy heart be deep, and its
chords tender, beware how thou lovest the man with whom all that plucks
him from the hard cares of the workday world is frenzy or a folly! He
will break thy heart, he will shatter its chords, he will trample out
from its delicate framework every sound that now makes musical the
common air, and swells into unison with the harps of angels.
“She has before written to me,” continued Audley, pacing the room
with angry, disordered strides, “asking me when our marriage can be
proclaimed, and I thought my replies would have satisfied any reasonable
woman. But now, now this is worse, immeasurably worse,--she actually
doubts my honour! I, who have made such sacrifices,--actually doubts
whether I, Audley Egerton, an English gentleman, could have been base
enough to--”
“What?” interrupted Levy, “to deceive your friend L’Estrange? Did not
she know that?”
“Sir!” exclaimed Egerton, turning white.
“Don’t be angry,--all’s fair in love as in war; and L’Estrange will live
yet to thank you for saving him from such a misalliance. But you are
seriously angry: pray, forgive me.”
With some difficulty and much fawning, the usurer appeased the storm
he had raised in Audley’s conscience. And he then heard, as if with
surprise, the true purport of Nora’s letter.
“It is beneath me to answer, much less to satisfy, such a doubt,”
said Audley. “I could have seen her, and a look of reproach would have
sufficed; but to put my hand to paper, and condescend to write, ‘I am
not a villain, and I will give you the proofs that I am not’--never!”
“You are quite right; but let us see if we cannot reconcile matters
between your pride and her feelings. Write simply this: ‘All that you
ask me to say or to explain, I have instructed Levy, as my solicitor, to
say and explain for me; and you may believe him as you would myself.’”
“Well, the poor fool, she deserves to be punished; and I suppose that
answer will punish her more than a lengthier rebuke.--My mind is so
distracted, I cannot judge of these trumpery woman-fears and whims;
there, I have written as you suggest. Give her all the proof she needs,
and tell her that in six months at furthest, come what will, she shall
bear the name of Egerton, as henceforth she must share his fate.”
“Why say six months?”
“Parliament must be dissolved, and there must be a general election
before then. I shall either obtain a seat, be secure from a jail, have
won field for my energies, or--”
“Or what?”
“I shall renounce ambition altogether, ask my brother to assist me
towards whatever debts remain when all my property is fairly sold--they
cannot be much. He has a living in his gift; the incumbent is old, and,
I hear, very ill. I can take orders.”
“Sink into a country parson!”
“And learn content. I have tasted it already. She was then by my side.
Explain all to her. This letter, I fear, is too unkind--But to doubt me
thus!”
Levy hastily placed the letter in his pocketbook; and, for fear it
should be withdrawn, took his leave.
And of that letter he made such use, that the day after he had given
it to Nora, she had left the house, the neighbourhood; fled, and not
a trace! Of all the agonies in life, that which is most poignant and
harrowing, that which for the time most annihilates reason, and leaves
our whole organization one lacerated, mangled heart, is the conviction
that we have been deceived where we placed all the trust of love. The
moment the anchor snaps, the storm comes on, the stars vanish behind the
cloud.
When Levy returned, filled with the infamous hope which had stimulated
his revenge,--the hope that if he could succeed in changing into
scorn and indignation Nora’s love for Audley, he might succeed also
in replacing that broken and degraded idol,--his amaze and dismay were
great on hearing of her departure. For several days he sought her traces
in vain. He went to Lady Jane Horton’s,--Nora had not been there. He
trembled to go back to Egerton. Surely Nora would have written to her
husband, and in spite of her promise, revealed his own falsehood; but as
days passed, and not a clew was found, he had no option but to repair to
Egerton Hall, taking care that the bailiffs still surrounded it.
Audley had received no line from Nora. The young husband was surprised,
perplexed, uneasy, but had no suspicion of the truth.
At length Levy was forced to break to Audley the intelligence of Nora’s
flight. He gave his own colour to it. Doubtless she had gone to seek
her own relations, and, by their advice, take steps to make her marriage
publicly known. This idea changed Audley’s first shock into deep and
stern resentment. His mind so little comprehended Nora’s, and was ever
so disposed to what is called the common-sense view of things, that he
saw no other mode to account for her flight and her silence. Odious to
Egerton as such a proceeding would be, he was far too proud to take
any steps to guard against it. “Let her do her worst,” said he, coldly,
masking emotion with his usual self-command; “it will be but a nine
days’ wonder to the world, a fiercer rush of my creditors on their
hunted prey”
“And a challenge from Lord L’Estrange.”
“So be it,” answered Egerton, suddenly placing his hand at his heart.
“What is the matter? Are you ill?”
“A strange sensation here. My father died of a complaint of the heart,
and I myself was once told to guard, through life, against excess of
emotion. I smiled at such a warning then. Let us sit down to business.”
But when Levy had gone, and solitude reclosed round that Man of the
Iron Mask, there grew upon him more and more the sense of a mighty loss.
Nora’s sweet loving face started from the shadows of the forlorn walls.
Her docile, yielding temper, her generous, self-immolating spirit, came
back to his memory, to refute the idea that wronged her. His love, that
had been suspended for awhile by busy cares, but which, if without much
refining sentiment, was still the master passion of his soul, flowed
back into all his thoughts,--circumfused the very atmosphere with a
fearful, softening charm. He escaped under cover of the night from
the watch of the bailiffs. He arrived in London. He himself sought
everywhere he could think of for his missing bride. Lady Jane Horton was
confined to her bed, dying fast, incapable even to receive and reply to
his letter. He secretly sent down to Lansmere to ascertain if Nora had
gone to her parents. She was not there. The Avenels believed her still
with Lady Jane Horton.
He now grew most seriously alarmed; and in the midst of that alarm, Levy
secretly contrived that he should be arrested for debt; but he was not
detained in confinement many days. Before the disgrace got wind, the
writs were discharged, Levy baffled. He was free. Lord L’Estrange had
learned from Audley’s servant what Audley would have concealed from him
out of all the world. And the generous boy, who, besides the munificent
allowance he received from the earl, was heir to an independent and
considerable fortune of his own, when he should attain his majority,
hastened to borrow the money and discharge all the obligations of his
friend. The benefit was conferred before Audley knew of it, or could
prevent. Then a new emotion, and perhaps scarce less stinging than the
loss of Nora, tortured the man who had smiled at the warning of science;
and the strange sensation at the heart was felt again and again.
And Harley, too, was still in search of Nora,--would talk of nothing but
her, and looked so haggard and grief-worn. The bloom of the boy’s youth
was gone. Could Audley then have said, “She you seek is another’s; your
love is razed out of your life; and, for consolation, learn that your
friend has betrayed you”? Could Audley say this? He did not dare. Which
of the two suffered the most?
And these two friends, of characters so different, were so singularly
attached to each other,--inseparable at school, thrown together in the
world, with a wealth of frank confidences between them, accumulated
since childhood. And now, in the midst of all his own anxious sorrow,
Harley still thought and planned for Egerton. And self-accusing remorse,
and all the sense of painful gratitude, deepened Audley’s affection
for Harley into a devotion as to a superior, while softening it into a
reverential pity that yearned to relieve, to atone; but how,--oh, how?
A general election was now at hand, still no news of Nora. Levy kept
aloof from Audley, pursuing his own silent search. A seat for the
borough of Lansmere was pressed upon Audley, not only by Harley, but his
parents, especially by the countess, who tacitly ascribed to Audley’s
wise counsels Nora’s mysterious disappearance.
Egerton at first resisted the thought of a new obligation to his injured
friend; but he burned to have it, some day, in his power to repay at
least his pecuniary debt: the sense of that debt humbled him more
than all else. Parliamentary success might at last obtain for him some
lucrative situation abroad, and thus enable him gradually to remove
this load from his heart and his honour. No other chance of repayment
appeared open to him. He accepted the offer, and went down to Lansmere.
His brother, lately married, was asked to meet him; and there also
was Miss Leslie the heiress, whom Lady Lansmere secretly hoped her son
Harley would admire, but who had long since, no less secretly, given her
heart to the unconscious Egerton.