CHAPTER I

CHAPTER II

CHAPTER III

CHAPTER IV

CHAPTER V

CHAPTER VI

CHAPTER VII

CHAPTER VIII

CHAPTER IX

CHAPTER X

EPILOGUE

THE BARREL ORGAN by Alfred Noyes

ALEXANDER’S BRIDGE by Willa Cather

CHAPTER I

Late one brilliant April afternoon Professor Lucius Wilson stood at the

head of Chestnut Street, looking about him with the pleased air of a

man of taste who does not very often get to Boston. He had lived there

as a student, but for twenty years and more, since he had been

Professor of Philosophy in a Western university, he had seldom come

East except to take a steamer for some foreign port. Wilson was

standing quite still, contemplating with a whimsical smile the slanting

street, with its worn paving, its irregular, gravely colored houses,

and the row of naked trees on which the thin sunlight was still

shining. The gleam of the river at the foot of the hill made him blink

a little, not so much because it was too bright as because he found it

so pleasant. The few passers-by glanced at him unconcernedly, and even

the children who hurried along with their school-bags under their arms

seemed to find it perfectly natural that a tall brown gentleman should

be standing there, looking up through his glasses at the gray

housetops.

The sun sank rapidly; the silvery light had faded from the bare boughs

and the watery twilight was setting in when Wilson at last walked down

the hill, descending into cooler and cooler depths of grayish shadow.

His nostril, long unused to it, was quick to detect the smell of wood

smoke in the air, blended with the odor of moist spring earth and the

saltiness that came up the river with the tide. He crossed Charles

Street between jangling street cars and shelving lumber drays, and

after a moment of uncertainty wound into Brimmer Street. The street was

quiet, deserted, and hung with a thin bluish haze. He had already fixed

his sharp eye upon the house which he reasoned should be his objective

point, when he noticed a woman approaching rapidly from the opposite

direction. Always an interested observer of women, Wilson would have

slackened his pace anywhere to follow this one with his impersonal,

appreciative glance. She was a person of distinction he saw at once,

and, moreover, very handsome. She was tall, carried her beautiful head

proudly, and moved with ease and certainty. One immediately took for

granted the costly privileges and fine spaces that must lie in the

background from which such a figure could emerge with this rapid and

elegant gait. Wilson noted her dress, too,—for, in his way, he had an

eye for such things,—particularly her brown furs and her hat. He got a

blurred impression of her fine color, the violets she wore, her white

gloves, and, curiously enough, of her veil, as she turned up a flight

of steps in front of him and disappeared.

Wilson was able to enjoy lovely things that passed him on the wing as

completely and deliberately as if they had been dug-up marvels, long

anticipated, and definitely fixed at the end of a railway journey. For

a few pleasurable seconds he quite forgot where he was going, and only

after the door had closed behind her did he realize that the young

woman had entered the house to which he had directed his trunk from the

South Station that morning. He hesitated a moment before mounting the

steps. “Can that,” he murmured in amazement,—“can that possibly have

been Mrs. Alexander?”

When the servant admitted him, Mrs. Alexander was still standing in the

hallway. She heard him give his name, and came forward holding out her

hand.

“Is it you, indeed, Professor Wilson? I was afraid that you might get

here before I did. I was detained at a concert, and Bartley telephoned

that he would be late. Thomas will show you your room. Had you rather

have your tea brought to you there, or will you have it down here with

me, while we wait for Bartley?”

Wilson was pleased to find that he had been the cause of her rapid

walk, and with her he was even more vastly pleased than before. He

followed her through the drawing-room into the library, where the wide

back windows looked out upon the garden and the sunset and a fine

stretch of silver-colored river. A harp-shaped elm stood stripped

against the pale-colored evening sky, with ragged last year’s birds’

nests in its forks, and through the bare branches the evening star

quivered in the misty air. The long brown room breathed the peace of a

rich and amply guarded quiet. Tea was brought in immediately and placed

in front of the wood fire. Mrs. Alexander sat down in a high-backed

chair and began to pour it, while Wilson sank into a low seat opposite

her and took his cup with a great sense of ease and harmony and

comfort.

“You have had a long journey, haven’t you?” Mrs. Alexander asked, after

showing gracious concern about his tea. “And I am so sorry Bartley is

late. He’s often tired when he’s late. He flatters himself that it is a

little on his account that you have come to this Congress of

Psychologists.”

“It is,” Wilson assented, selecting his muffin carefully; “and I hope

he won’t be tired tonight. But, on my own account, I’m glad to have a

few moments alone with you, before Bartley comes. I was somehow afraid

that my knowing him so well would not put me in the way of getting to

know you.”

“That’s very nice of you.” She nodded at him above her cup and smiled,

but there was a little formal tightness in her tone which had not been

there when she greeted him in the hall.

Wilson leaned forward. “Have I said something awkward? I live very far

out of the world, you know. But I didn’t mean that you would exactly

fade dim, even if Bartley were here.”

Mrs. Alexander laughed relentingly. “Oh, I’m not so vain! How terribly

discerning you are.”

She looked straight at Wilson, and he felt that this quick, frank

glance brought about an understanding between them.

He liked everything about her, he told himself, but he particularly

liked her eyes; when she looked at one directly for a moment they were

like a glimpse of fine windy sky that may bring all sorts of weather.

“Since you noticed something,” Mrs. Alexander went on, “it must have

been a flash of the distrust I have come to feel whenever I meet any of

the people who knew Bartley when he was a boy. It is always as if they

were talking of someone I had never met. Really, Professor Wilson, it

would seem that he grew up among the strangest people. They usually say

that he has turned out very well, or remark that he always was a fine

fellow. I never know what reply to make.”

Wilson chuckled and leaned back in his chair, shaking his left foot

gently. “I expect the fact is that we none of us knew him very well,

Mrs. Alexander. Though I will say for myself that I was always

confident he’d do something extraordinary.”

Mrs. Alexander’s shoulders gave a slight movement, suggestive of

impatience. “Oh, I should think that might have been a safe prediction.

Another cup, please?”

“Yes, thank you. But predicting, in the case of boys, is not so easy as

you might imagine, Mrs. Alexander. Some get a bad hurt early and lose

their courage; and some never get a fair wind. Bartley”—he dropped his

chin on the back of his long hand and looked at her admiringly—“Bartley

caught the wind early, and it has sung in his sails ever since.”

Mrs. Alexander sat looking into the fire with intent preoccupation, and

Wilson studied her half-averted face. He liked the suggestion of stormy

possibilities in the proud curve of her lip and nostril. Without that,

he reflected, she would be too cold.

“I should like to know what he was really like when he was a boy. I

don’t believe he remembers,” she said suddenly. “Won’t you smoke, Mr.

Wilson?”

Wilson lit a cigarette. “No, I don’t suppose he does. He was never

introspective. He was simply the most tremendous response to stimuli I

have ever known. We didn’t know exactly what to do with him.”

A servant came in and noiselessly removed the tea-tray. Mrs. Alexander

screened her face from the firelight, which was beginning to throw

wavering bright spots on her dress and hair as the dusk deepened.

“Of course,” she said, “I now and again hear stories about things that

happened when he was in college.”

“But that isn’t what you want.” Wilson wrinkled his brows and looked at

her with the smiling familiarity that had come about so quickly. “What

you want is a picture of him, standing back there at the other end of

twenty years. You want to look down through my memory.”

She dropped her hands in her lap. “Yes, yes; that’s exactly what I

want.”

At this moment they heard the front door shut with a jar, and Wilson

laughed as Mrs. Alexander rose quickly. “There he is. Away with

perspective! No past, no future for Bartley; just the fiery moment. The

only moment that ever was or will be in the world!”

The door from the hall opened, a voice called “Winifred?” hurriedly,

and a big man came through the drawing-room with a quick, heavy tread,

bringing with him a smell of cigar smoke and chill out-of-doors air.

When Alexander reached the library door, he switched on the lights and

stood six feet and more in the archway, glowing with strength and

cordiality and rugged, blond good looks. There were other

bridge-builders in the world, certainly, but it was always Alexander’s

picture that the Sunday Supplement men wanted, because he looked as a

tamer of rivers ought to look. Under his tumbled sandy hair his head

seemed as hard and powerful as a catapult, and his shoulders looked

strong enough in themselves to support a span of any one of his ten

great bridges that cut the air above as many rivers.

After dinner Alexander took Wilson up to his study. It was a large room

over the library, and looked out upon the black river and the row of

white lights along the Cambridge Embankment. The room was not at all

what one might expect of an engineer’s study. Wilson felt at once the

harmony of beautiful things that have lived long together without

obtrusions of ugliness or change. It was none of Alexander’s doing, of

course; those warm consonances of color had been blending and mellowing

before he was born. But the wonder was that he was not out of place

there,—that it all seemed to glow like the inevitable background for

his vigor and vehemence. He sat before the fire, his shoulders deep in

the cushions of his chair, his powerful head upright, his hair rumpled

above his broad forehead. He sat heavily, a cigar in his large, smooth

hand, a flush of after-dinner color in his face, which wind and sun and

exposure to all sorts of weather had left fair and clear-skinned.

“You are off for England on Saturday, Bartley, Mrs. Alexander tells

me.”

“Yes, for a few weeks only. There’s a meeting of British engineers, and

I’m doing another bridge in Canada, you know.”

“Oh, every one knows about that. And it was in Canada that you met your

wife, wasn’t it?”

“Yes, at Allway. She was visiting her great-aunt there. A most

remarkable old lady. I was working with MacKeller then, an old Scotch

engineer who had picked me up in London and taken me back to Quebec

with him. He had the contract for the Allway Bridge, but before he

began work on it he found out that he was going to die, and he advised

the committee to turn the job over to me. Otherwise I’d never have got

anything good so early. MacKeller was an old friend of Mrs. Pemberton,

Winifred’s aunt. He had mentioned me to her, so when I went to Allway

she asked me to come to see her. She was a wonderful old lady.”

“Like her niece?” Wilson queried.

Bartley laughed. “She had been very handsome, but not in Winifred’s

way. When I knew her she was little and fragile, very pink and white,

with a splendid head and a face like fine old lace, somehow,—but

perhaps I always think of that because she wore a lace scarf on her

hair. She had such a flavor of life about her. She had known Gordon and

Livingstone and Beaconsfield when she was young,—every one. She was the

first woman of that sort I’d ever known. You know how it is in the

West,—old people are poked out of the way. Aunt Eleanor fascinated me

as few young women have ever done. I used to go up from the works to

have tea with her, and sit talking to her for hours. It was very

stimulating, for she couldn’t tolerate stupidity.”

“It must have been then that your luck began, Bartley,” said Wilson,

flicking his cigar ash with his long finger. “It’s curious, watching

boys,” he went on reflectively. “I’m sure I did you justice in the

matter of ability. Yet I always used to feel that there was a weak spot

where some day strain would tell. Even after you began to climb, I

stood down in the crowd and watched you with—well, not with confidence.

The more dazzling the front you presented, the higher your facade rose,

the more I expected to see a big crack zigzagging from top to

bottom,”—he indicated its course in the air with his forefinger,—“then

a crash and clouds of dust. It was curious. I had such a clear picture

of it. And another curious thing, Bartley,” Wilson spoke with

deliberateness and settled deeper into his chair, “is that I don’t feel

it any longer. I am sure of you.”

Alexander laughed. “Nonsense! It’s not I you feel sure of; it’s

Winifred. People often make that mistake.”

“No, I’m serious, Alexander. You’ve changed. You have decided to leave

some birds in the bushes. You used to want them all.”

Alexander’s chair creaked. “I still want a good many,” he said rather

gloomily. “After all, life doesn’t offer a man much. You work like the

devil and think you’re getting on, and suddenly you discover that

you’ve only been getting yourself tied up. A million details drink you

dry. Your life keeps going for things you don’t want, and all the while

you are being built alive into a social structure you don’t care a rap

about. I sometimes wonder what sort of chap I’d have been if I hadn’t

been this sort; I want to go and live out his potentialities, too. I

haven’t forgotten that there are birds in the bushes.”

Bartley stopped and sat frowning into the fire, his shoulders thrust

forward as if he were about to spring at something. Wilson watched him,

wondering. His old pupil always stimulated him at first, and then

vastly wearied him. The machinery was always pounding away in this man,

and Wilson preferred companions of a more reflective habit of mind. He

could not help feeling that there were unreasoning and unreasonable

activities going on in Alexander all the while; that even after dinner,

when most men achieve a decent impersonality, Bartley had merely closed

the door of the engine-room and come up for an airing. The machinery

itself was still pounding on.

Bartley’s abstraction and Wilson’s reflections were cut short by a

rustle at the door, and almost before they could rise Mrs. Alexander

was standing by the hearth. Alexander brought a chair for her, but she

shook her head.

“No, dear, thank you. I only came in to see whether you and Professor

Wilson were quite comfortable. I am going down to the music-room.”

“Why not practice here? Wilson and I are growing very dull. We are

tired of talk.”

“Yes, I beg you, Mrs. Alexander,” Wilson began, but he got no further.

“Why, certainly, if you won’t find me too noisy. I am working on the

Schumann ‘Carnival,’ and, though I don’t practice a great many hours, I

am very methodical,” Mrs. Alexander explained, as she crossed to an

upright piano that stood at the back of the room, near the windows.

Wilson followed, and, having seen her seated, dropped into a chair

behind her. She played brilliantly and with great musical feeling.

Wilson could not imagine her permitting herself to do anything badly,

but he was surprised at the cleanness of her execution. He wondered how

a woman with so many duties had managed to keep herself up to a

standard really professional. It must take a great deal of time,

certainly, and Bartley must take a great deal of time. Wilson reflected

that he had never before known a woman who had been able, for any

considerable while, to support both a personal and an intellectual

passion. Sitting behind her, he watched her with perplexed admiration,

shading his eyes with his hand. In her dinner dress she looked even

younger than in street clothes, and, for all her composure and

self-sufficiency, she seemed to him strangely alert and vibrating, as

if in her, too, there were something never altogether at rest. He felt

that he knew pretty much what she demanded in people and what she

demanded from life, and he wondered how she squared Bartley. After ten

years she must know him; and however one took him, however much one

admired him, one had to admit that he simply wouldn’t square. He was a

natural force, certainly, but beyond that, Wilson felt, he was not

anything very really or for very long at a time.

Wilson glanced toward the fire, where Bartley’s profile was still

wreathed in cigar smoke that curled up more and more slowly. His

shoulders were sunk deep in the cushions and one hand hung large and

passive over the arm of his chair. He had slipped on a purple velvet

smoking-coat. His wife, Wilson surmised, had chosen it. She was clearly

very proud of his good looks and his fine color. But, with the glow of

an immediate interest gone out of it, the engineer’s face looked tired,

even a little haggard. The three lines in his forehead, directly above

the nose, deepened as he sat thinking, and his powerful head drooped

forward heavily. Although Alexander was only forty-three, Wilson

thought that beneath his vigorous color he detected the dulling

weariness of on-coming middle age.

The next afternoon, at the hour when the river was beginning to redden

under the declining sun, Wilson again found himself facing Mrs.

Alexander at the tea-table in the library.

“Well,” he remarked, when he was bidden to give an account of himself,

“there was a long morning with the psychologists, luncheon with Bartley

at his club, more psychologists, and here I am. I’ve looked forward to

this hour all day.”

Mrs. Alexander smiled at him across the vapor from the kettle. “And do

you remember where we stopped yesterday?”

“Perfectly. I was going to show you a picture. But I doubt whether I

have color enough in me. Bartley makes me feel a faded monochrome. You

can’t get at the young Bartley except by means of color.” Wilson paused

and deliberated. Suddenly he broke out: “He wasn’t a remarkable

student, you know, though he was always strong in higher mathematics.

His work in my own department was quite ordinary. It was as a

powerfully equipped nature that I found him interesting. That is the

most interesting thing a teacher can find. It has the fascination of a

scientific discovery. We come across other pleasing and endearing

qualities so much oftener than we find force.”

“And, after all,” said Mrs. Alexander, “that is the thing we all live

upon. It is the thing that takes us forward.”

Wilson thought she spoke a little wistfully. “Exactly,” he assented

warmly. “It builds the bridges into the future, over which the feet of

every one of us will go.”

“How interested I am to hear you put it in that way. The bridges into

the future—I often say that to myself. Bartley’s bridges always seem to

me like that. Have you ever seen his first suspension bridge in Canada,

the one he was doing when I first knew him? I hope you will see it

sometime. We were married as soon as it was finished, and you will

laugh when I tell you that it always has a rather bridal look to me. It

is over the wildest river, with mists and clouds always battling about

it, and it is as delicate as a cobweb hanging in the sky. It really was

a bridge into the future. You have only to look at it to feel that it

meant the beginning of a great career. But I have a photograph of it

here.” She drew a portfolio from behind a bookcase. “And there, you

see, on the hill, is my aunt’s house.”

Wilson took up the photograph. “Bartley was telling me something about

your aunt last night. She must have been a delightful person.”

Winifred laughed. “The bridge, you see, was just at the foot of the

hill, and the noise of the engines annoyed her very much at first. But

after she met Bartley she pretended to like it, and said it was a good

thing to be reminded that there were things going on in the world. She

loved life, and Bartley brought a great deal of it in to her when he

came to the house. Aunt Eleanor was very worldly in a frank,

Early-Victorian manner. She liked men of action, and disliked young men

who were careful of themselves and who, as she put it, were always

trimming their wick as if they were afraid of their oil’s giving out.

MacKeller, Bartley’s first chief, was an old friend of my aunt, and he

told her that Bartley was a wild, ill-governed youth, which really

pleased her very much. I remember we were sitting alone in the dusk

after Bartley had been there for the first time. I knew that Aunt

Eleanor had found him much to her taste, but she hadn’t said anything.

Presently she came out, with a chuckle: ‘MacKeller found him sowing

wild oats in London, I believe. I hope he didn’t stop him too soon.

Life coquets with dashing fellows. The coming men are always like that.

We must have him to dinner, my dear.’ And we did. She grew much fonder

of Bartley than she was of me. I had been studying in Vienna, and she

thought that absurd. She was interested in the army and in politics,

and she had a great contempt for music and art and philosophy. She used

to declare that the Prince Consort had brought all that stuff over out

of Germany. She always sniffed when Bartley asked me to play for him.

She considered that a newfangled way of making a match of it.”

When Alexander came in a few moments later, he found Wilson and his

wife still confronting the photograph. “Oh, let us get that out of the

way,” he said, laughing. “Winifred, Thomas can bring my trunk down.

I’ve decided to go over to New York to-morrow night and take a fast

boat. I shall save two days.”

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