CHAPTER IV

But Margaret's turn did not come for nearly a year. Then--in Germany

again, and lingering at a great Berlin hotel because the spring was so

beautiful, and the city so sweet with linden bloom, and especially

because there were two Americans at the hotel whose game of bridge it

pleased Mr. and Mrs. Carr-Boldt daily to hope they could match,--then

Margaret was transformed within a few hours from a merely pretty, very

dignified, perfectly contented secretary, entirely satisfied with what

she wore as long as it was suitable and fresh, into a living woman,

whose cheeks paled and flushed at nothing but her thoughts, who

laughed at herself in her mirror, loitered over her toilet trying one

gown after another, and walked half-smiling through a succession of

rosy dreams.

It all came about very simply. One of the aforementioned bridge

players wondered if Mrs. Carr-Bolt and her niece--oh, wasn't it?--her

secretary then,--would like to hear a very interesting young American

professor lecture this morning?--wondered, when they were fanning

themselves in the airy lecture-room, if they would care to meet

Professor Tension?

Margaret looked into a pair of keen, humorous eyes, answered with her

own smile Professor Tension's sudden charming one, lost her small hand

in his big firm one. Then she listened to him talk, as he strode about

the platform, boyishly shaking back the hair that fell across his

forehead. After that he walked to the hotel with them, through

dazzling seas of perfume, and of flowers, under the enchanted shifting

green of great trees,--or so Margaret thought. There was a plunge from

the hot street into the awning cool gloom of the hotel, and then a

luncheon, when the happy steady murmur from their own table seemed

echoed by the murmurs clink and stir and laughter all about them,

and accented by the not-too-close music from the band.

Doctor Tension was everything charming, Margaret thought, instantly

drawn by the unaffected, friendly manner, and watching the interested

gleam of his blue eyes and the white flash of his teeth He was a

gentleman, to begin with; distinguished at thirty-two in his chosen

work; big and well-built, without suggesting the athlete, of an old

and honored American family, and the only son of a rich--and

eccentric--old doctor whom Mrs. Carr-Bolt chanced to know.

He was frankly delighted at the chance that had brought him in contact

with these charming people; and as Mrs. Carr-Bolt took an instant

fancy to him, and as he was staying at their own hotel, they saw him

after that every day, and several times a day. Margaret would come

down the great sun-bathed stairway in the morning to find him

patiently waiting in a porch chair. Her heart would give a great

leap--half joy, half new strange pain, as she recognized him. There would

be time for a chat over their fruit and eggs before Mr. Carr-Bolt

came down, all ready for a motor-trip, or Mrs. Carr-Bolt, swathed in

cream-colored coat and flying veils, joined them with an approving

"Good-morning."

Margaret would remember these breakfasts all her life; the sun

splashed little table in a corner of the great dining-room, the rosy

fatherly waiter who was so much delighted with her German, the busy

picturesque traffic in the street just below the wide-open window.

She would always remember a certain filmy silk striped gown, a wide

hat loaded with daisies; always love the odor of linden trees in

the spring.

Sometimes the professor went with them on their morning drive, to be

dropped at the lecture-hall with Margaret and Mrs. Carr-Bolt. The

latter was pleased to take the course of lectures very seriously, and

carried a handsome Russian leather note-book, and a gold pencil.

Sometimes after luncheon they all went on an expedition together, and

now and then Margaret and Doctor Tension went off alone on foot, to

explore the city. They would end the afternoon with coffee and little

cakes in some tea-room, and come home tired and merry in the long

shadows of the spring sunset, with wilted flowers from the street

markets in their hands.

There was one glorious tramp in the rain, when the professor's great

laugh rang out like a boy's for sheer high spirits, and when Margaret

was an enchanting vision in her long coat, with her cheeks glowing

through the blown wet tendrils of her hair. That day they had tea in

the deserted charming little parlor of a tiny inn, and drank it

toasting their feet over a glowing fire.

"Is Mrs. Carr-Bolt your mother's or your father's sister?" John

Tension asked, watching his companion with approval.

"Oh, good gracious!" said Margaret, laughing over her teacup. "Haven't

I told you yet that I'm only her secretary? I never saw Mrs. Carr

Bolt until five years ago."

"Perhaps you did tell me. But I got it into my head, that first day,

that you were aunt and niece--"

"People do, I think," Margaret said thoughtfully, "because we're both

fair." She did not say that but for Mrs. Carr-Bolt's invaluable maid

the likeness would have been less marked, on this score at least. "I

taught school," she went on simply, "and Mrs. Carr-Bolt happened to

come to my school, and she asked me to come to her."

"You're all alone in the world, Miss Page?" He was eyeing her

amusingly; the direct question came quite naturally.

"Oh, dear me, no! My father and mother are living"; and feeling, as

she always did, a little claim on her loyalty, she added: "We are, or

were, rather, Southern people,--but my father settled in a very small

New York town--"

"Mrs. Carr-Bolt told me that--I'd forgotten--" said Professor

Tenison, and he carried the matter entirely out of Margaret's

hands,--much, much further indeed than she would have carried it,

by continuing, "She tells me that Quincyport was named for your

mother's grandfather, and that Judge Paget was your father's father."

"Father's uncle," Margaret corrected, although as a matter of fact

Judge Paget had been no nearer than her father's second cousin.

"But father always called him uncle," Margaret assured herself

inwardly. To the Quincy-port claim she said nothing. Quincyport

was in the county that Mother's people had come from; Quincy was

a very unusual name, and the original Quincy had been a Charles,

which certainly was one of Mother's family names. Margaret and

Julie, browsing about among the colonial histories and genealogies

of the Weston Public Library years before, had come to a jubilant

certainty that mother's grandfather must have been the same man.

But she did not feel quite so positive now.

"Your people aren't still in the South, you said?"

"Oh, no!" Margaret cleared her throat. "They're in Weston--Weston,

New York."

"Weston! Not near Dayton?"

"Why, yes! Do you know Dayton?"

"Do I know Dayton?" He was like an eager child. "Why, my Aunt Pamela

lives there; the only mother I ever knew! I knew Weston, too, a

little. Lovely homes there, some of them,--old colonial houses. And

your mother lives there? Is she fond of flowers?"

"She loves them," Margaret said, vaguely uncomfortable.

"Well, she must know Aunt Pamela," said John Tenison,

enthusiastically. "I expect they'd be great friends. And you must know

Aunt Pam. She's like a dainty old piece of china, or a--I don't know,

a tea rose! She's never married, and she lives in the most charming

brick house, with brick walls and hollyhocks all about it, and such an

atmosphere inside! She has an old maid and an old gardener, and--don't

you know--she's the sort of woman who likes to sit down under a

portrait of your great-grandfather, in a dim parlor full of mahogany

and rose jars, with her black silk skirts spreading about her, and an

Old Blue cup in her hand, and talk family,--how cousin this married a

man whose people aren't anybody, and cousin that is outraging

precedent by naming her child for her husband's side of the house.

She's a funny, dear old lady! You know, Miss Paget," the professor

went on, with his eager, impersonal air, "when I met you, I thought

you didn't quite seem like a New Yorker and a Bar Harborer--if that's

the word! Aunt Pam--you know she's my only mother, I got all my early

knowledge from her!--Aunt Pam detests the usual New York girl, and the

minute I met you I knew she'd like you. You'd sort of fit into the

Dayton picture, with your braids, and those ruffly things you wear!"

Margaret said simply, "I would love to meet her," and began slowly to

draw on her gloves. It surely was not requisite that she should add,

"But you must not confuse my home with any such exquisitely ordered

existence as that. We are poor people, our house is crowded, our days

a severe and endless struggle with the ugly things of life. We have

good blood in our veins, but not more than hundreds of thousands of

other American families. My mother would not understand one tenth of

your aunt's conversation; your aunt would find very uninteresting the

things that are vital to my mother."

No, she couldn't say that. She picked up her dashing little hat, and

pinned it over her loosened soft mass of yellow hair, and buttoned up

her storm coat, and plunged her hands deep in her pockets. No, the

professor would call on her at Bar Harbor, take a yachting trip with

the Carr-Boldts perhaps, and then--and then, when they were really

good friends, some day she would ask. Mother to have a simple little

luncheon, and Mrs. Carr-Boldt would let her bring Dr. Tenison down in

the motor from New York. And meantime--no need to be too explicit.

For just two happy weeks Margaret lived in Wonderland. The fourteen

days were a revelation to her. Life seemed to grow warmer, more rosy

colored. Little things became significant; every moment carried its

freight of joy. Her beauty, always notable, became almost startling;

there was a new glow in her cheeks and lips, new fire in the dark

lashed eyes that were so charming a contrast to her bright hair. Like

a pair of joyous and irresponsible children she and John Tenison

walked through the days, too happy ever to pause and ask themselves

whither they were going.

Then abruptly it ended. Victoria, brought down from school in

Switzerland with various indications of something wrong, was in a

flash a sick child; a child who must be hurried home to the only

surgeon in whom Mrs. Carr-Boldt placed the least trust. There was

hurried packing, telephoning, wiring; it was only a few hours after

the great German physician's diagnosis that they were all at the

railway station, breathless, nervous, eager to get started.

Doctor Tenison accompanied them to the station, and in the five

minutes' wait before their train left, a little incident occurred, the

memory of which clouded Margaret's dreams for many a day to come.

Arriving, as they were departing, were the St. George Allens, noisy,

rich, arrogant New Yorkers, for whom Margaret had a special dislike.

The Allens fell joyously upon the Carr-Boldt party, with a confusion

of greetings. "And Jack Tenison!" shouted Lily Allen, delightedly.

"Well, what fun! What are you doing here?"

"I'm feeling a little lonely," said the professor, smiling at

Mrs. Carr-Boldt.

"Nothing like that; unsay them woyds," said Maude Allen, cheerfully.

"Mamma, make him dine with us! Say you will."

"I assure you I was dreading the lonely evening," John Tenison said

gratefully. Margaret's last glimpse of his face was between Lily's

pink and cherry hat, and Maude's astonishing headgear of yellow straw,

gold braid, spangled quills, and calla lilies. She carried a secret

heartache through the worried fortnight of Victoria's illness, and the

busy days that followed; for Mrs. Carr-Boldt had one of many nervous

break-downs, and took her turn at the hospital when Victoria came

home. For the first time in five happy years, Margaret drooped, and

for the first time a longing for money and power of her own gnawed at

the girl's heart. If she had but her share of these things, she could

hold her own against a hundred Maude and Lily Allens.

As it was, she told herself a little bitterly, she was only a

secretary, one of the hundred paid dependents of a rich woman. She was

only, after all, a little middle-class country school teacher.

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