There was a long pause here, and even the blackbird could hardly fill
it up.
"Do you regret it?"
(Why does man on these occasions ask such a heap of questions?)
"Why should I?"
(Why does woman invariably answer his query with another?)
"I hope there is no reason," I answered, "and yet--oh, can you not
see of what that day was the beginning? Can you not see whither
these last four months have carried me?"
The sun struck slanting on the water and ran in tapering lustre to
our feet. The gilded ripple slipped and murmured below us; the
bronzed leaves overhead bent carefully to veil her answer. The bird
within the covert uttered an anxious note.
"They have carried you, it seems," she answered, with eyes gently
lowered, "back to the same place."
"They have carried me," I echoed, "from spring to summer. If they
have brought me back to this spot, it is because the place and I have
changed--Claire!"
As I called her by her Christian name she gave one quick glance, and
then turned her eyes away again. I could see the soft rose creeping
over her white neck and cheek. Had I offended? Between hope and
desperation, I continued--
"Claire--I will call you Claire, for that was the name you told me
just four months ago--I am changed, oh, changed past all remembrance!
Are you not changed at all? Am I still nothing to you?"
She put up her hand as if to ward off further speech, but spoke no
word herself.
"Answer me, Claire; give me some answer if only a word. Am I still
no more than the beggar who rescued your boat that day?"
"Of course, you are my friend--now. Please forget that I took you
for a beggar."
The words came with effort. Within the bushes the blackbird still
chirped expectant, and the ripple below murmured to the bank,
"The old story--the old story."
"But I am a beggar," I broke out. "Claire, I am always a beggar on
my knees before you. Oh, Claire!"
Her face was yet more averted--the sun kissed her waving locks with
soft lips of gold, the breeze half stirred the delicate draperies
around her. The blackbird's note was broken and halting as my own
speech.
"Claire, have you not guessed? will you never guess? Oh, have pity
on me!"
I could see the soft bosom heaving now. The little hand was pulling
at the gown. Her whole sweet shape drooped away from me in vague
alarm--but still no answer came.
"Courage! Courage!" chirped the bird, and the river murmured
responsive, "Courage!"
"Claire!"--and now there was a ring of agony in the voice; the tones
came alien and scarcely recognised--"Claire, I have watched and
waited for this day, and now that it has come, for good or for evil,
answer me--I love you!"
O time-honoured and most simple of propositions! "I love you!" Night
after night had I lain upon my bed rehearsing speeches, tender,
passionate and florid, and lo! to this had it all come--to these
three words, which, as my lips uttered them, made my heart leap in
awe of their crude and naked daring.
And she? The words, as though they smote her, chased for an instant
the rich blood from her cheek. For a moment the bosom heaved wildly,
then the colour came slowly back, and ebbed again. A soft tremor
shook the bending form, the little hand clutched the gown, but she
made no answer.
"Speak to me, Claire! I love you! With my life and soul I love you.
Can you not care for me?" I took the little hand. "Claire, my heart
is in your hands--do with it what you will, but speak to me. Can you
not--do you not--care for me?"
The head drooped lower yet, the warm fingers quivered within mine,
then tightened, and--
What was that whisper, that less than whisper, for which I bent my
head? Had I heard aright? Or why was it that the figure drooped
closer, and the bird's note sprang up jubilant?
"Claire!"
A moment--one tremulous, heart-shaking moment--and then her form bent
to me, abandoned, conquered; her face looked up, then sank upon my
breast; but before it sank I read upon it a tenderness and a passion
infinite, and caught in her eyes the perfect light of love.
As the glory of delight came flooding on my soul, the sun's disc
dropped, and the first cold shadow of night fell upon earth.
The blackbird uttered a broken "Amen," and was gone no man knew
whither. The golden ripple passed up the river, and vanished in a
leaden grey. One low shuddering sigh swept through the trees, then
all was dumb. I looked westward. Towards the horizon the blue of
day was fading downwards through indistinguishable zones of purple,
amethyst, and palest rose, the whole heaven arching in one perfect
rainbow of love.
But while I looked and listened to the beating of that beloved heart
girdled with my arm, there grew a something on the western sky that
well-nigh turned my own heart to marble. At first, a lightest
shadow--a mere breath upon heaven's mirror, no more. Then as I
gazed, it deepened, gathering all shadows from around the pole,
heaping, massing, wreathing them around one spot in the troubled
west--a shape that grew and threatened and still grew, until I looked
on--what?
Up from the calm sea of air rose one solitary island, black and
looming, rose and took shape and stood out--the very form and
semblance of Dead Man's Rock! Sable and real as death it towered
there against the pale evening, until its shadow, falling on my heart
itself and on the soft brown head that bent and nestled there, lay
round us clasped so, and with its frown cursed the morning of our
love.
Something in my heart's beat, or in the stiffening of my arm, must
have startled my darling, for as I gazed I felt her stir, and,
looking down, caught her eyes turned wistfully upwards. My lips bent
to hers.
"Mine, Claire! Mine for ever!"
And there, beneath the shadow of the Rock, our lips drew closer, met,
and were locked in their first kiss.
When I looked up again the shadow had vanished, and the west was grey
and clear.
So in the tranquil evening we rowed homewards, our hearts too full
for speech. The wan moon rose and trod the waters, but we had no
thoughts, no eyes for her. Our eyes were looking into each other's
depths, our thoughts no thoughts at all, but rather a dazzled and
wondering awe.
Only as a light or two gleamed out, and Streatley twinkled in the
distance, Claire said--
"Can it be true? You know nothing of me."
"I know you love me. What more should I know, or wish to know?"
The red lips were pursed in a manner that spoke whole tomes of
wisdom.
"You do not know that I work for my living all the week?"
"When you are mine you shall work no more."
"'But sit on a cushion and sew a gold seam'? Ah, no; I have to work.
It is strange," she said, musingly, "so strange."
"What is strange, Claire?"
"That you have never seen me except on my holidays--that we have
never met. What have you done since you have been in London?"
I thought of my walks and tireless quest in Oxford Street with a kind
of shame. That old life was severed from the present by whole
worlds.
"I have lived very quietly," I answered. "But is it so strange that
we have never met?"
She laughed a low and musical laugh, and as the boat drew shoreward
and grounded, replied--
"Perhaps not. Come, let us go to mother--Jasper."
O sweet sound from sweetest lips! We stepped ashore, and
hand-in-hand entered the room where her mother sat.
As she looked up and saw us standing there together, she knew the
truth in a moment. Her blue eyes filled with sudden fear, her worn
hand went upwards to her heart. Until that instant she had not known
of my presence there that day, and in a flash divined its meaning.
"I feared it," she answered at length, as I told my story and stood
waiting for an answer. "I feared it, and for long have been
expecting it. Claire, my love, are you sure? Oh, be quite sure
before you leave me."
For answer, Claire only knelt and flung her white arms round her
mother's neck, and hid her face upon her mother's bosom.
"You love him now, you think; but, oh, be careful. Search your heart
before you rob me of it. I have known love, too, Claire, or thought
I did; and indeed it can fade--and then, what anguish, what anguish!"
"Mother, mother! I will never leave you."
Mrs. Luttrell sighed.
"Ah, child, it is your happiness I am thinking of."
"I will never leave you, mother."
"And you, sir," continued Mrs. Luttrell, "are you sure? I am giving
you what is dearer than life itself; and as you value her now, treat
her worthily hereafter. Swear this to me, if my gift is worth so
much in your eyes. Sir, do you know--"
"Mother!"
Claire drew her mother's head down towards her and whispered in her
ear. Mrs. Luttrell frowned, hesitated, and finally said--
"Well, it shall be as you wish--though I doubt if it be wise.
God bless you, Claire--and you, sir; but oh, be certain, be certain!"
What incoherent speech I made in answer I know not, but my heart was
sore for this poor soul. Claire turned her eyes to me and rose,
smoothing her mother's grey locks.
"We will not leave her, will we? Tell her that we will not."
I echoed her words, and stepping to Mrs. Luttrell, took the frail,
white hand.
"Sir," she said, "you who take her from me should be my bitterest
foe. Yet see, I take you for a son."
Still rapt with the glory of my great triumph, and drunk with the
passion of that farewell kiss, I walked into our lodgings and laid my
hand on Tom's shoulder.
"Tom, I have news for you."
Tom started up. "And so have I for you."
"Great news."
"Glorious news!"
"Tom, listen: I am accepted."
"Bless my soul! Jasper, so am I."
"You?"
"Yes."
"When? Where?"
"This afternoon. Jasper, our success has come at last: for you the
Loves, for me the Muses; for you the rose, for me the bay. Jasper,
dear boy, they have learnt her worth at last."
"Her! Who?"
"Francesca. Jasper, in three months I shall be famous; for next
November 'Francesca: a Tragedy' will be produced at the Coliseum."
CHAPTER V.
TELLS HOW THE CURTAIN ROSE UPON "FRANCESCA: A TRAGEDY."
Again my story may hurry, for on the enchanted weeks that followed it
would weary all but lovers to dwell, and lovers for the most part
find their own matters sufficient food for pondering. Tom was busy
with the rehearsals at the Coliseum, and I, being left alone, had
little taste for the _Materia Medica_. On Sundays only did I see
Claire; for this Mrs. Luttrell had stipulated, and my love, too, most
mysteriously professed herself busy during the week. As for me, it
was clear that before marriage could be talked of I must at least
have gained my diplomas, so that the more work I did during the week
the better. The result of this was a goodly sowing of resolutions
and very little harvest. In the evenings, Tom and I would sit
together--he tirelessly polishing and pruning the tragedy, and I for
the most part smoking and giving advice which I am bound to say in
duty to the author ("Francesca" having gained some considerable fame
since those days) was invariably rejected.
Tom had been growing silent and moody of late--a change for which I
could find no cause. He would answer my questions at random, pause
in his work to gaze long and intently on the ceiling, and altogether
behave in ways unaccountable and strange. The play had been written
at white-hot speed: the corrections proceeded at a snail's pace.
The author had also fallen into a habit of bolting his meals in
silence, and, when rebuked, of slowly bringing his eyes to bear upon
me as a person whose presence was until the moment unsuspected.
All this I saw in mild wonder, but I reflected on certain moods of my
own of late, and held my peace.
The explanation came without my seeking. We were seated together one
evening, he over his everlasting corrections, and I in some
especially herbaceous nook of the _Materia Medica_, when Tom looked
up and said--
"Jasper, I want your opinion on a passage. Listen to this."
Sick of my flowery solitude, I gave him my attention while he read:--
"She is no violet to veil and hide
Before the lusty sun, but as the flower,
His best-named bride, that leaneth to the light
And images his look of lordly love--
Yet how I wrong her. She is more a queen
Than he a king; and whoso looks must kneel
And worship, conscious of a Sovranty
Undreamt in nature, save it be the Heaven
That minist'ring to all is queen of all,
And wears the proud sun's self but as a gem
To grace her girdle, one among the stars.
Heaven is Francesca, and Francesca Heaven.
Without her, Heaven is dispossessed of Heaven,
And Earth, discrowned and disinherited,
Shall beg in black eclipse, until her eyes--"
"Stay," I interrupted, "unless I am mistaken her eyes are like the
Pleiads, a simile to which I have more than once objected."
"If you would only listen you would find those lines cut out," said
Tom, pettishly.
"In that case I apologise: nevertheless, if that is your idea of a
Francesca, I confess she seems to me a trifle--shall we say?--
massive."
"Your Claire, I suppose, is stumpy?"
"My Claire," I replied with dignity, "is neither stumpy nor
stupendous."
"In fact, just the right height."
"Well, yes, just the right height."
Tom paid no attention, but went on in full career--
"I hate your Griseldas, your Jessamys, your Mary Anns; give me
Semiramis, Dido, Joan of--"
"My dear Tom, not all at once, I hope."
"Bah! you are so taken up with your own choice, that you must needs
scoff at anyone who happens to differ. I tell you, woman should be
imperial, majestic; should walk as a queen and talk as a goddess.
You scoff because you have never seen such; you shut your eyes and go
about saying, 'There is no such woman.' By heaven, Jasper, if you
could only see--"
At this point Tom suddenly pulled up and blushed like any child.
"Go on--whom shall I see?"
Tom's blush was beautiful to look upon.
"The Lambert, for instance; I meant--"
"Who is the Lambert?"
"Do you mean to say you have never heard of Clarissa Lambert, the
most glorious actress in London?"
"Never. Is she acting at the Coliseum?"
"Of course she is. She takes Francesca. Oh, Jasper, you should see
her, she is divine!"
Here another blush succeeded.
"So," I said after a pause, "you have taken upon yourself to fall in
love with this Clarissa Lambert."
Tom looked unutterably sheepish.
"Is the passion returned?"
"Jasper, don't talk like that and don't be a fool. Of course I have
never breathed a word to her. Why, she hardly knows me, has hardly
spoken to me beyond a few simple sentences. How should I, a
miserable author without even a name, speak to her? Jasper, do you
like the name Clarissa?"
"Not half so well as Claire."
"Nonsense; Claire is well enough as names go, but nothing to
Clarissa. Mark how the ending gives it grace and quaintness; what a
grand eighteenth-century ring it has! It is superb--so sweet, and at
the same time so stately."
"And replaces Francesca so well in scansion."
Tom's face was confession.
"You should see her, Jasper--her eyes. What colour are Claire's?"
"Deep grey."
"Clarissa's are hazel brown: I prefer brown; in fact I always thought
a woman should have brown eyes: we won't quarrel about inches, but
you will give way in the matter of eyes, will you not?"
"Not an inch."
"It really is wonderful," said Tom, "how the mere fact of being in
love is apt to corrupt a man's taste. Now in the matter of voice--I
dare wager that your Claire speaks in soft and gentle numbers."
"As an Aeolian harp," said I, and I spoke truth.
"Of course, unrelieved tenderness and not a high note in the gamut.
But you should hear Clarissa; I only ask you to hear her once, and
let those glorious accents play upon your crass heart for a moment or
two. O Jasper, Jasper, it shakes the very soul!"
Tom was evidently in a very advanced stage of the sickness; I could
not find it in my heart to return his flouts of a month before, so I
said--
"Very well, my dear Tom, I shall look upon your divinity in November.
I do not promise you she will have the effect that you look forward
to, but I am glad your Francesca will be worthily played; and, Tom, I
am glad you are in love; I think it improves you."
"It is hopeless--absolutely hopeless; she is cold as ice."
"What, with that voice and those eyes? Nonsense, man."
"She is cold as ice," groaned poor Tom; "everyone says so."
"Of course everyone says so; you ought to be glad of that, for this
is the one point on which what everyone says must from the nature of
things be false. Why, man, if she beamed on the whole world, then I
might believe you."
From which it will be gathered that I had learned something from
being in love.
So sad did I consider Tom's case, that I spoke to Claire about it
when I saw her next.
"Claire," I said, "you have often heard me speak of Tom."
"Really, Jasper, you seldom speak of anybody else. In fact I am
growing quite jealous of this friend."
After the diversion caused by this speech, I resumed--
"But really Tom is the best of fellows, and if I talk much of him it
is because he is my only friend. You must see him, Claire, and you
will be sure to like him. He is so clever!"
"What is the name of this genius--I mean the other name?"
"Why, Loveday, of course--Thomas Loveday. Do you mean to say I have
never told you?"
"Never," said Claire, meditatively. "Loveday--Thomas Loveday--is it
a common name?"
"No, I should think not very common. Don't you like it?"
"It--begins well."
Here followed another diversion.
"But what I was going to say about Tom," I continued, "is this--he
has fallen in love; in fact, I have never seen a man so deeply in
love."
"Oh!"
"Anyone else," I corrected, "for of course I was quite as bad; you
understand that."
"We were talking of Thomas Loveday."
"Oh, yes, of Tom. Well, Tom, you know--or perhaps you do not.
At any rate, Tom has written a tragedy."
"All about love?"
"Well, not quite all; though there is a good deal in it, considering
it was written when the author had no idea of what the passion was
like. But that is not the point. This tragedy is coming out at the
Coliseum in November. Are you not well, Claire?"
"Yes, yes; go on. What has all this to do with Tom's love?"
"I am coming to that. Tom, of course, has been attending the
rehearsals lately. He will not let me come until the piece is ready,
for he is wonderfully nervous. I am to come and see it on the first
night. Well, as I was saying, Tom has been going to rehearsals, and
has fallen in love with--guess with whom."
Claire was certainly getting very white.
"Are you sure you are well, Claire?" I asked, anxiously.
"Oh, yes; quite sure. But tell me with whom--how should I guess?"
"Why, with the leading actress; one Clarissa Lambert, is it not?"
"Clarissa--Lambert!"
"Why, Claire, what is the matter? Are you faint?" For my love had
turned deathly pale, and seemed as though she would faint indeed.
We were in the old spot so often revisited, though the leaves were
yellowing fast, and the blackbird's note had long ceased utterly.
I placed my arm around her for support, but my darling unlocked it
after a moment, struggled with her pallor, and said--
"No, no; I am better. It was a little faintness, but is passing off.
Go on, and tell me about Mr. Loveday."
"I am afraid I bored you. But that is all. Do you know this
Clarissa Lambert? Have you seen her?"
"Yes--I have seen her."
"I suppose she is very famous; at least, Tom says so. He also says
she is divine; but I expect, from his description, that she is of the
usual stamp of Tragedy Queen, tall and loud, with a big voice."
"Did he tell you that?"
"No, of course Tom raves about her. But there is no accounting for
what a lover will say." This statement was made with all the sublime
assurance of an accepted man. "But you have seen her," I went on,
"and can tell me how far his description is true. I suppose she is
much the same as other actresses, is she not?"
"Jasper," said Claire, very gently, after a pause, "do you ever go to
a theatre?"
"Very seldom; in fact, about twice only since I have been in London."
"I suppose you were taught as a boy to hate such things?"
"Well," I laughed, "I do not expect Uncle Loveday would have approved
of Tom's choice, if that is what you mean. But that does not matter,
I fear, as Tom swears that his case is hopeless. He worships from
afar, and says that she is as cold as ice. In fact, he has never
told his love, but lets concealment like a--"
"That is not what I meant. Do you--do you think all actors and
actresses wicked?"
"Of course not. Why should I?"
"You are going to see--"
"'Francesca'? Oh, yes, on the opening night."
"Then possibly we shall meet. Will you look out for me?"
"Let me take you, Claire. Oh, I am glad indeed! You will see Tom
there, and, I hope, be able to congratulate him on his triumph.
So let me take you."
She shook her head.
"No, no."
"Why?"
"Because that is impossible--really. I shall see you there, and you
will see me. Is not that enough?"
"If you say so, it must be," I answered sadly. "But--"
"'But me no buts,'" she quoted. "See, it is getting late; we must be
going."
A most strange silence fell upon us on the way back to Streatley.
Claire's face had not yet wholly regained its colour, and she seemed
disinclined to talk. So I had to solace myself by drinking in long
draughts of her loveliness, and by whispering to my soul how poorly
Tom's Queen of Tragedy would show beside my sweetheart.
O fool and blind!
Presently my love asked musingly--
"Jasper, do you think that you could cease to love me?"
"Claire, how can you ask it?"
"You are quite sure? You remember what mother said?"
"Claire, love is strong as death. How does the text run?
'Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if
a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would
utterly be contemned.' Claire, you must believe that!"
"'Strong as death,'" she murmured. "Yes, I believe it. What a
lovely text that is!"
The boat touched shore at Streatley, and we stepped out.
"Jasper," she said again at parting that night, "you have no
doubt, no grain of doubt, about my question, and the answer?
'Strong as death,' you are sure?"
For answer I strained her to my heart.
O fool and blind! O fool and blind!
The night that was big with Tom's fate had come. The Coliseum was
crowded as we entered. In those days the theatre had no stalls, so
we sat in the front row of the dress circle, Tom having in his
modesty refused a box. He was behind the scenes until some five
minutes before the play began, so that before he joined me I had
ample time to study the house and look about for some sign of Claire.
Certainly, the sedulous manner in which the new tragedy had been
advertised was not without result. To me, unused as I was to
theatre-going, the host of people, the hot air, the glare of the
gas-lights were intoxicating. In a flutter of anxiety for Tom's
success, of sweet perturbation at the prospect of meeting Claire, at
first I could grasp but a confused image of the scene. By degrees,
however, I began to look about me, and then to scan the audience
narrowly for sight of my love.
Surely I should note her at once among thousands. Yet my first
glance was fruitless. I looked again, examined the house slowly face
by face, and again was baffled. I could see all but a small portion
of the pit, the upper boxes and gallery. Pit and gallery were out of
the question. She might, though it was hardly likely, be in the tier
just above, and I determined to satisfy myself after the end of Act
I. Meantime I scanned the boxes. There were twelve on either side
of the house, and all were full. By degrees I satisfied myself that
strangers occupied all of them, except the box nearest the stage on
the right of the tier where I was sitting. The occupants of this
were out of sight. Only a large yellow and black fan was swaying
slowly backwards and forwards to tell me that somebody sat there.
Somehow, the slow, ceaseless motion of this pricked my curiosity.
Its pace, as it waved to and fro, was unaltered; the hand that moved
it seemingly tireless; but even the hand was hidden. Not a finger
could I gain a glimpse of. By some silly freak of fancy I was
positively burning with eagerness to see the fan's owner, when Tom
returned and took his seat beside me.
"It begins in five minutes; everything is ready," said he, and his
voice had a nervous tremor which he sought in vain to hide.
"Courage!" I said; "at least the numbers here should flatter you."
"They frighten me! What shall I do if it fails?"
The overture was drawing to its close. Tom looked anxiously around
the house.
"Yes," he said, "it is crowded, indeed. By the way, was not Claire
to have been here? Point her out to me."
"She was; but I cannot see her anywhere. Perhaps she is late."
"If so, I cannot see where she is to find a place. Hush! they are
ending."
As he spoke, the last strains of the orchestra died slowly and
mournfully away, and the curtain rose upon "Francesca: a Tragedy."
This play has since gained such a name, not only from its own merits
(which are considerable), but in consequence also of certain
circumstances which this story will relate, that it would be not only
tedious but unnecessary to follow its action in detail. For the
benefit, however, of those who did not see it at the Coliseum, I here
subjoin a short sketch of the plot, which the better-informed reader
may omit.
Francesca is the daughter of Sebastian, at one time Duke of Bologna,
but deposed and driven from his palace by the intrigues of his
younger brother Charles. At the time when the action begins,
Sebastian is chief of a band of brigands, the remains of his faithful
adherents, whom he has taken with him to the fastnesses of the
Apennines. Charles, who has already usurped the duchy for some
sixteen years, is travelling with his son Valentine, a youth of
twenty, near the haunt of his injured brother. Separated from their
escort, they are wandering up a pass, when Valentine stops to admire
the view, promising his father to join him at the summit. While thus
occupied, he is startled by the entrance of Francesca, and, struck
with her beauty, accosts her. She, sympathising for so noble a
youth, warns him of the banditti, and he hastens on only to find his
father lying at the foot of a precipitous rock, dead. He supposes
him to have fallen, has the body conveyed back to Bologna, and having
by this time fallen deeply in love with Francesca, prevails on her to
leave her father and come with him. She consents, and flies with
him, but after some time finds that he is deserting her for Julia,
daughter of the Duke of Ferrara. Slighted and driven to desperation,
she makes her way back to her father, is forgiven, and learns that
Charles' death was due to no accident, but to her father's hand.
No sooner is this discovery made than Valentine and Julia are brought
in by the banditti, who have surprised and captured them, but do not
know their rank. The deposed duke, Sebastian, does not recognise
Valentine, and consigns him, with his wife, to a cave, under guard of
the brigands. It is settled by Sebastian that on the morrow
Valentine is to go and fetch a ransom, leaving his wife behind.
Francesca, having plied the guards with drink, enters by night into
the cave where they lie captive, is recognised by them, and offers to
change dresses with Julia in order that husband and wife may escape.
A fine scene follows of insistence and self-reproach, but ultimately
Francesca prevails. Valentine and Julia pass out in the grey dawn,
and Francesca, left alone, stabs herself. The play concludes as her
father enters the cave and discovers his daughter's corpse.
The first scene (which is placed at the court of Bologna) passed
without disaster, and the curtain fell for a moment before it rose
upon the mountain pass. Hitherto the audience had been chilly.
They did not hiss, but neither did they applaud; and I could feel,
without being able to give any definite reason for the impression,
that so far the play had failed. Tom saw it too. I did not dare to
look in his face, but could tell his agony by his short and laboured
breathing. Luckily his torture did not last long, for the curtain
quickly rose for Scene 2.
The scene was beautifully painted and awakened a momentary enthusiasm
in the audience. It died away, however, as Sebastian and Valentine
entered. The dialogue between them was short, and Valentine was very
soon left alone to a rather dull soliloquy (since shortened) which
began to weary the audience most unmistakably. I caught the sound of
a faint hiss, saw one or two people yawning; and then--
Stealing, rising, swelling, gathering as it thrilled the ear all
graces and delights of perfect sound; sweeping the awed heart with
touch that set the strings quivering to an ecstasy that was almost
pain; breathing through them in passionate whispering; hovering,
swaying, soaring upward to the very roof, then shivering down again
in celestial shower of silver--there came a voice that trod all
conceptions, all comparisons, all dreams to scorn; a voice beyond
hope, beyond belief; a voice that in its unimaginable beauty seemed
to compel the very heaven to listen.
And yet--surely I knew--surely it could not be--
I must be dreaming--mad! The bare notion was incredible--and even as
my heart spoke the words, the theatre grew dim and shadowy; the vast
sea of faces heaved, melted, swam in confusion; all sound came dull
and hoarse upon my ear; while there--there--
There, in the blaze of light, radiant, lovely, a glorified and
triumphant queen, stepped forward before the eyes of that vast
multitude--my love, my Claire!
CHAPTER VI.
TELLS HOW THE BLACK AND YELLOW FAN SENT A MESSAGE; AND HOW I SAW A
FACE IN THE FOG.
As I sat stupefied our eyes met. It was but for an instant, but in
that instant I saw that she recognised me and mutely challenged my
verdict. Then she turned to Valentine.
The theatre rang with tumultuous plaudits as her song ended. I could
feel Tom's grasp at my elbow, but I could neither echo the applause
nor answer him. It was all so wildly, grotesquely improbable.
This then was my love, this the Claire whom I had wooed and won in
the shy covert of Pangbourne Woods--this deified and transfigured
being before whom thousands were hushed in awe. Those were the lips
that had faltered in sweet confession--those before which the breath
of thousands came and went in agitated wonder. It was incredible.
And then, as Tom's hand was laid upon my arm, it flashed upon me that
the woman he loved was my plighted bride--and he knew nothing of it.
As this broke upon me there swept over me an awful dread lest he
should see my face and guess the truth. How could I tell him?
Poor Tom! Poor Tom!
I turned my eyes upon Claire again. Yes, she was superb: beyond all
challenge glorious. And all the more I felt as one who has betrayed
his friend and is angry with fate for sealing such betrayal beyond
revoke.
Whether Claire misinterpreted my look of utter stupefaction or not, I
do not know; but as she turned and recognised Valentine there was a
tremor in her voice which the audience mistook for art, though I knew
it to be but too real. I tried to smile and to applaud, but neither
eyes nor hand would obey my will; and so even Claire's acting became
a reproach and an appeal to me, pleading forgiveness to which my soul
cried assent though my voice denied it. Minute after minute I sat
beneath an agonising spell I could not hope to break.
"Congratulate me, Jasper. What do you think of her?"
It was Tom's voice beside me. Congratulate him! I felt the meanest
among men.
"She is--glorious," I stammered.
"I knew you would say so. Unbeliever, did ever man see such eyes?
Confess now, what are Claire's beside them?"
"Claire's--are--much the same."
"Why, man, Claire's were deep grey but a day or two ago, and
Clarissa's are the brownest of brown; but of course you cannot see
from here."
Alas! I knew too surely the colour of Claire's eyes, so like brown
in the blaze of the foot-lights. And her height--Tom had only seen
her walk in tragic buskin. How fatally easy had the mistake been!
"Tom, your success is certain now."
"Yes, thanks to her. They were going to damn the play before she
entered. I could see it. Did you see, Jasper? She looked this way
for a moment. Do you think she meant to encourage me? By the way,
have you caught sight of Claire yet?"
Oh, Tom, Tom, let me spare you for this night! My heart throbbed and
something in my throat seemed choking me as I muttered, "Yes."
"Then do not stay congratulating me, but fly. Success spoils the
lover. Ah, Jasper, if only Clarissa had summoned me! Hasten: I will
keep my eye upon you and smile approval on your taste. Where is
she?"
Again something seemed to catch me by the throat; I was struggling to
answer when I heard a voice behind me say, "For you, sir," and a note
was thrust into my hand. With beating heart I opened it, expecting
to see Claire's handwriting. But the note was not from her. It was
scribbled hastily with pencil in a bold hand, and ran thus:--
"An old friend wishes to see you. Come, if you have time.
Box No. 7."
At first I thought the message must have reached me by mistake, but
it was very plainly directed to "J. Trenoweth, Esq." I looked around
for the messenger but found him gone, and fell to scanning the boxes
once more.
As before, they were filled with strangers; and, as before, the black
and yellow fan was waving slowly to and fro, as though the hand that
wielded it was no hand at all, but rather some untiring machine.
Still the owner remained invisible. I hesitated, reflected a moment,
and decided that even a fool's errand was better than enduring the
agony of Tom's rapture. I rose.
"I will be back again directly," I said, and then left him.
Still pondering on the meaning of this message, I made my way down
the passages until I came to the doors of the boxes, and stopped
opposite that labelled "No. 7." As I did so, it struck me that this,
from its position, must be the one which contained the black and
yellow fan. By this time thoroughly curious, I knocked.
"Come in," said a low voice which I seemed to remember.
I entered and found myself face to face with the yellow woman--the
mistress of the gambling-hell.
She was seated there alone, slightly retired from the view of the
house and in the shadow; but her arm, as it rested on the cushion,
still swayed the black and yellow fan, and her diamonds sparkled
lustrously as ever in the glare that beat into the box. Her dress,
as if to emphasise the hideousness of her skin and form a staring
contrast with her wrinkled face and white hair, was of black and
yellow, in which she seemed some grisly corpse masquerading as youth.
Struck dumb by this apparition, I took the seat into which she
motioned me, while her wonderful eyes regarded my face with stony
impassiveness. I could hear the hoarse murmurs of the house and feel
the stifling heat as it swept upwards from the pit. The strange
woman did not stir except to keep up the ceaseless motion of her
wrist.
For a full five minutes, as it seemed to me, we sat there silently
regarding each other. Then at last she spoke, and the soft voice was
as musically sympathetic as ever.
"You seem astonished to see me, Mr. Trenoweth, and yet I have been
looking for you for a long time."
I bowed.
"I have been expecting you to give me a chance of redeeming my
defeat."
"I am sorry," stammered I, not fully recovered from my surprise,
"but that is not likely."
"No? From my point of view it was extremely likely. But somehow
I had a suspicion that you would be different from the rest.
Perhaps it was because I had set my heart upon your coming."
"I hope," said I, "that the money--"
She smiled and waved her hand slightly.
"Do not trouble about that. Had I chosen, I could have gone on
losing to you until this moment. No, perhaps it was simply because
you were least likely to do so, that I wished you to come back as all
other young men would come back. I hope you reached home safely with
what you won; but I need not ask that."
"Indeed you need. I was attacked as I left the room, and but for a
lucky accident, should now be dead."
"Ah," she said placidly; "you suspect me. Don't say 'no,' for
I can see you do. Nevertheless you are entirely wrong.
Why, Mr. Trenoweth, had I chosen, do you think I could not have had
you robbed before you had gone three paces from the house?"
This was said with such composure, and her eyes were so absolutely
void of emotion, that I could but sit and gasp. Once more I recalled
the moment when, as I fled down the dark passage, I had seen her
sitting motionless and calm in the light of her countless candles.
"But do you think I sent for you to tell you that?" she continued.
"I sent for you because you interested me, and because I want a talk
with you. Hush! the curtain is rising for the second act. Let us
resume when it has finished; you will not deny me that favour at
least."
I bowed again, and was silent as the curtain rose--and once more
Claire's superb voice thrilled the house. Surely man was seldom more
strangely placed than was I, between the speech of my love and the
eyes of this extraordinary woman. As I sat in the shadow and
listened, I felt those blazing fires burning into my very soul; yet
whenever I looked up and met them, their icy glitter baffled all
interpretation. Still as I sat there, the voice of Claire came to me
as though beseeching and praying for my judgment, and rising with the
blaze of light and heated atmosphere of the house, swept into the box
until I could bear the oppression no longer. She must have looked
for me, and seeing my place empty, have guessed that I condemned her.
Mad with the thought, I rose to my feet and stood for a minute full
in the light of the theatre. It may not have been even a minute, but
she saw me, and once more, as our gaze met, faltered for an instant.
Then the voice rang out clear and true again, and I knew that all was
well between us. Yet in her look there was something which I could
not well interpret.
As I sank back in my seat, I met the eyes of my companion still
impenetrably regarding me. But as the curtain fell she said
quietly--
"So you know Clarissa Lambert?"
I stammered an affirmative.
"Well? You admire her acting?"
"I never saw it until to-night."
"That is strange; and yet you know her?"
I nodded.
"She is a great success--on which I congratulate myself, for I
discovered her."
"You!" I could only exclaim.
"Yes, I. Is it so extraordinary? She and I are connected, so to
speak; which makes it the more odd that she should never have
mentioned you."
The eyes seemed now to be reading me as a book. I summoned all my
courage and tried to return their steady stare. There was a pause,
broken only by the light_ frou-frou_ of the fan, as it still waved
slowly backwards and forwards. Among all the discoveries of this
night, it was hard enough to summon reason, harder to utter speech.
"But you will be leaving me again if I do not explain why I sent for
you. You are wondering now on my reasons. They are very simple--
professional even, in part. In the first place, I wished to have a
good look at you. Do you wonder why an old woman should wish to look
upon a comely youth? Do not blush; but listen to my other and
professional reason. I should greatly like, if I may, to look upon
your talisman--that golden buckle or whatever it was that brought
such marvellous luck. Is it on you to-night?"
I wore it, as a matter of fact, in my waistcoat pocket, attached to
one end of my chain; but I hesitated for a moment.
"You need not be afraid," she said, and there was a suspicion of
mockery in her tone. "I will return it, as I returned it before.
But if you are reluctant to let me see it (and remember, I have seen
it once), do not hesitate to refuse. I shall not be annoyed."
Reflecting that, after all, her curiosity was certain to be baffled,
I handed her the Golden Clasp, with the chain, in silence.
"It is a curious relic," said she, as she slowly examined it and laid
it on her lap for a moment. "If the question be allowed, how did you
become possessed of it?"
"It belonged to my father," I answered.
"Excuse me," she said, deliberately, "that is hardly an answer to my
question."
During the silence that followed, she took up the clasp again, and
studied the writing. As she did so she used her right hand only;
indeed, during the whole time, her left had been occupied with her
tireless fan. I fancied, though I could not be certain, that it was
waving slightly faster than before.
"The writing seems to be nonsense. What is this--'Moon end
South--deep at point'? I can make no meaning of it. I suppose
there is a meaning?"
"Not to my knowledge," said I, and immediately repented, for once
more I seemed to catch that gleam in her eyes which had so baffled me
when first she saw the Clasp. The curtain rose upon the third act of
"Francesca," and we sat in silence, she with the Clasp lying upon her
lap, I wondering by what possibility she could know anything about my
father's secret. She could not, I determined. The whole history of
the Golden Clasp made it impossible. And yet I repented my rashness.
It was too late now, however; so, when the act was over I waited for
her to speak.
"So this belonged to your father. Tell me, was he at all like you?"
"He was about my height, I should guess," said I, wondering at this
new question; "but otherwise quite unlike. He was a fair man, I am
dark."
"But your grandfather--was he not dark?"
"I believe so," I answered, "but really--"
"You wonder at my questions, of course. Never mind me; think me a
witch, if you like. Do I not look a witch?"
Indeed she did, as she sat there. The diamonds flashed and gleamed,
lighting up the awful colour of her skin until she seemed a very
"Death-in-Life."
"I see that I puzzle you; but your looks, Mr. Trenoweth, are hardly
complimentary. However, you are forgiven. Here, take your talisman,
and guard it jealously; I thank you for showing it to me, but if I
were you I should keep it secret. Shall I see you again? I suppose
not. I am afraid I have made you miss some of the tragedy. You must
pardon me for that, as I have waited long to see you. At any rate,
there is the last act to come. Good-bye, and be careful of your
talisman."
As she spoke, she shut her fan with a sharp click, and then it
flashed upon me that it had never ceased its pendulous motion until
that instant. It was a strange idea to strike me then, but a
stranger yet succeeded. Was it that I heard a low mocking laugh
within the box as I stepped out into the passage? I cannot clearly
tell; perhaps it is but a fancy conjured up by later reflection on
that meeting and its consequences. I only know that as I bowed and
left her, the vision that I bore away was not of the gleaming gems,
the yellow face, the white hair, or waving fan, but of two coal-black
and impenetrable eyes.
I sought my place, and dropped into the seat beside Tom. The fourth
act was beginning, so that I had time to speculate upon my interview,
but could find no hope of solution. Finally, I abandoned guessing,
to admire Claire. As the play went on, her acting grew more and more
transcendent. Lines which I had heard from Tom's lips and scoffed
at, were now fused with subtle meaning and passion. Scenes which I
had condemned as awkward and heavy, became instinct with exquisite
pathos. There comes a point in acting at which criticism ceases,
content to wonder; this point it was clear that my love had touched.
The new play was a triumphant success.
"So," said Tom, before the last act, "Claire carries a yellow fan,
does she? I looked everywhere for you at first, and only caught
sight of you for an instant by the merest chance. You behaved rather
shabbily in giving me no chance of criticism, for I never caught a
glimpse of her. I hope she admired--Hallo! she's gone!"
I followed his gaze, and saw that Box No. 7 was no longer occupied by
the fan.
"I suppose you saw her off? Well, I do not admire your taste, I must
confess--nor Claire's--to go when Francesca was beginning to touch
her grandest height. Whew! you lovers make me blush for you."
"Tom." I said, anxious to lead him from all mention of Claire,
"you must forgive me for having laughed at your play."
"Forgive you! I will forgive you if you weep during the next act;
only on that condition."
How shall I describe the last act? Those who read "Francesca" in its
published form can form no adequate idea of the enthusiasm in the
Coliseum that night. To them it is a skeleton; then it was clothed
with passionate flesh and blood, breathed, sobbed and wept in purest
pathos; to me, even now, as I read it again, it is charged with the
inspiration of that wonderful art, so true, so tender, that made its
last act a miracle. I saw old men sob, and young men bow their heads
to hide the emotion which they could not check. I saw that audience
which had come to criticise, tremble and break into tumultuous
weeping. Beside me, a greyheaded man was crying as any child.
Yet why do I go on? No one who saw Clarissa Lambert can ever
forget--no one who saw her not can ever imagine.
Tom had bowed his acknowledgments, the last flower had been flung,
the last cheer had died away as we stepped out into the Strand
together. The street was wrapped in the densest of November fogs.
So thick was it that the lamps, the shop windows, came into sight,
stared at us in ghostly weakness for a moment, and then were gone,
leaving us in Egyptian gloom. I could not hope to see Claire
to-night, and Tom was too modest to offer his congratulations until
the morning. Both he and I were too shaken by the scene just past
for many words, and outside the black fog caught and held us by the
throat.
Even in the pitchy gloom I could feel that Tom's step was buoyant.
He was treading already in imagination the path of love and fame.
How should I have the heart to tell him? How wither the chaplet that
already seemed to bind his brow?
Tom was the first to break the silence which had fallen upon us.
"Jasper, did you ever see or hear the like? Can a man help
worshipping her? But for her, 'Francesca' would have been hissed.
I know it, I could see it, and now, I suppose, I shall be famous.
"Famous!" continued he, soliloquising. "Three months ago I would
have given the last drop of my blood for fame; and now, without
Clarissa, fame will be a mockery. Do you think I might have any
chance, the least chance?"
How could I answer him? The fog caught my breath as I tried to
stammer a reply, and Tom, misinterpreting my want of words, read his
condemnation.
"You do not? Of course, you do not; and you are right. Success has
intoxicated me, I suppose. I am not used to the drink!" and he
laughed a joyless laugh.
Then, with a change of mood, he caught my hat from off my head, and
set his own in its place.
"We will change characters for the nonce," he said, "after the
fashion of Falstaff and Prince Hal, and I will read myself a
chastening discourse on the vanity of human wishes. 'Do thou stand
for me, and I'll play my father.' Eh, Jasper?"
"'Well, here I am set,'" quoted I, content to humour him.
"Well, then, I know thee; thou art Thomas Loveday, a beggarly Grub
Street author, i' faith, a man of literature, and wouldst set eyes
upon one to whom princes fling bouquets; a low Endymion puffing a
scrannel pipe, and wouldst call therewith a queen to be thy bride.
Out upon thee for such monstrous folly!"
In his voice, as it came to me through the dense gloom, there rang,
for all its summoned gaiety, a desperate mockery hideous to hear.
"Behold, success hath turned thy weak brain. But an hour agone
enfranchised from Grub Street, thou must sing 'I'd be a butterfly.'
Thou art vanity absolute, conceit beyond measure, and presumption out
of all whooping. Yea, and but as a fool Pygmalion, not content with
loving thine own handiwork, thou must needs fall in love with the
goddess that breathed life into its stiff limbs; must yearn, not for
Galatea, but for Aphrodite; not for Francesca, but for--Ah!"
What was that? I saw a figure start up as if from below our feet,
and Tom's hand go up to his breast. There was a scuffle, a curse,
and as I dashed forward, a dull, dim gleam--and Tom, with a groan,
sank back into my arms.
That was all. A moment, and all had happened. Yet not all; for as I
caught the body of my friend, and saw his face turn ashy white in the
gloom, I saw also, saw unmistakably framed for an instant in the
blackness of the fog, a face I knew; a face I should know until death
robbed my eyes of sight and my brain of remembrance--the face of
Simon Colliver.
A moment, and before I could pursue, before I could even shout or
utter its name, it had faded into the darkness, and was gone.
CHAPTER VII.
TELLS HOW CLAIRE WENT TO THE PLAY; AND HOW SHE SAW THE GOLDEN CLASP.
Tom was dying. His depositions had been taken and signed with his
failing hand; the surgeon had given his judgment, and my friend was
lying upon his bed, face to face with the supreme struggle.
The knife had missed his heart by little more than an inch, but the
inward bleeding was killing him and there was no hope. He knew it,
and though the reason of that cowardly blow was a mystery to him, he
asked few questions, but faced his fate with the old boyish pluck.
His eyes as they turned to mine were lit with the old boyish love.
Once only since his evidence was taken had his lips moved, and then
to murmur _her_ name. I had sent for her: a short note with only the
words "Tom is dying and wants to speak with you." So, while we
waited, I sat holding my friend's hand and busy with my own black
thoughts.
I knew that he had received the blow meant for me, and that
the secret of this too, as well as that other assault in the
gambling-den, hung on the Golden Clasp and the Great Ruby.
Whatever that secret was, the yellow woman knew of it, and held it
beneath the glitter of her awful eyes. She it was that had directed
the murderous knife in the hands of Simon Colliver. Bitterly I
cursed the folly which had prompted my rash words in the theatre, and
so sacrificed my friend. With what passion, even in my despair, I
thanked Heaven that the act which led to Colliver's mistake had been
Tom's and not mine! Yet, what consolation was it? It was I, not he,
that should be lying there. He had given his life for his friend--a
friend who had already robbed him of his love. O false and
traitorous friend!
In my humiliation I would have taken my hand from his, but a feeble
pressure and a look of faint reproach restrained me. So he lay there
and I sat beside him, and both counted the moments until Claire
should come--or death.
A knock at the door outside. Tom heard it and in his eyes shone a
light of ineffable joy. In answer to his look I dropped his hand and
went to meet her.
"Claire, how can I thank you for this speed?"
"How did it happen?"
"Murdered!" said I. "Foully struck down last night as he left the
theatre."
Her eyes looked for a moment as though they would have questioned me
further, but she simply asked--
"Does he want to see me?"
"When he heard he was to die he asked for you. Claire, if you only
knew how he longs to see you; had you only seen his eyes when he
heard you come! You know why--"
She nodded gravely.
"I suppose," she said slowly, "we had better say nothing of--"
"Nothing," I answered; "it is better so. If there be any knowledge
beyond the grave he will know all soon."
Claire was silent.
"Yes," she assented at length, "it is better so. Take me to him."
I drew back as Claire approached the bed, dreading to meet Tom's
eyes; but I saw them welcome her in a flash of thankful rapture, then
slowly close as though unable wholly to bear this glad vision.
Altogether lovely she was as she bent and lifted his nerveless hand,
with the light of purest compassion on her face.
"You have come then," said the dying man. "God bless you for that!"
"I am come, and oh! I am so very, very sorry."
"I saw Jasper write and knew he had sent, but I hardly dared to hope.
I am--very weak--and am going--fast."
For answer, a tear of infinite pity dropped on the white hand.
"Don't weep--I can't bear to see you weeping. It is all for the
best. I can see that I have had hopes and visions, but I should
never have attained them--never. Now I shall not have to strive.
Better so--better so."
For a moment or two the lips moved inaudibly; then they spoke again--
"It was so good of you--to come; I was afraid--afraid--but you are
good. You saved my play last night, but you cannot save--me."
A wan smile played over the white face and was gone.
"Better so, for I can speak now and be pardoned. Do you know why I
sent for you? I wanted to tell something--before I died. Do not be
angry--I shall be dead soon, and in the grave, they say, there is no
knowledge. Clarissa! oh, pity me--pity me, if I speak!"
The eyes looked up imploringly and met their pardon.
"I have loved you--yes, loved you. Can you forgive? It need not
distress--you--now. It was mad--mad--but I loved you. Jasper, come
here."
I stepped to the bed.
"Tell her I loved her, and ask her--to forgive me. Tell her I knew
it was hopeless. Tell her so, Jasper."
Powerless to meet those trustful eyes, weary with the anguish of my
remorse, I stood there helpless.
"Jasper is too much--upset just now to speak. Never mind, he will
tell you later. He is in love himself. I have never seen her, but I
hope he may be happier than I. Forgive me for saying that. I am
happy now--happy now.
"You do not know Jasper," continued the dying man after a pause; "but
he saw you last night--and admired--how could he help it? I hope you
will be friends--for my sake. Jasper is my only friend."
There was a grey shadow on his face now--the shadow of death.
Tom must have felt it draw near, for suddenly raising himself upon
his elbow, he cried--
"Ah, I was selfish--I did not think. They are waiting at the
theatre--go to them. You will act your best--for my sake.
Forget what I have said, if you cannot forgive."
"Oh, why will you think that?"
"You do forgive? Oh, God bless you, God bless you for it! Clarissa,
if that be so, grant one thing more of your infinite mercy. Kiss me
once--once only--on the lips. I shall die happier so. Will you--can
you--do this?"
The film was gathering fast upon those eyes once so full of laughter;
but through it they gazed in passionate appeal. For answer, my love
bent gravely over the bed and with her lips met his; then, still
clasping his hand, sank on her knees beside the bed.
"Thank God! My love--oh, let me call you that--you cannot--help--my
loving you. Do not pray--I am happy now and--they are waiting for
you."
Slowly Claire arose to her feet and stood waiting for his last word--
"They are waiting--waiting. Good-bye, Jasper--old friend--and
Clarissa--Clarissa--my love--they are waiting--I cannot come--Clar--"
Slowly Claire bent and once more touched his lips, then without a
word passed slowly out. As she went Death entered and found on its
victim's face a changeless, rapturous smile.
So "Francesca" was played a second time and, as the papers said next
morning, with even more perfect art and amid more awed enthusiasm
than on the first night. But as the piece went on, a rumour passed
through the house that its young author was dead--suddenly and
mysteriously dead while the dawn of his fame was yet breaking--struck
down, some said, outside the theatre by a rival, while others
whispered that he had taken poison, but none knew for certain.
Only, as Claire passed from one heart-shaking scene to another, the
rumour grew and grew, so that when the curtain fell the audience
parted in awed and murmured speculations.
And all the while I was kneeling beside the body of my murdered
friend.
A week had passed and I was standing with Claire beside Tom's grave.
We had met and spoken at the funeral, but some restraint had lain
upon our tongues. For myself, I was still as one who had sold his
brother for a price, and Claire had forborne from questioning my
grief.
The coroner's jury had brought in a verdict of "Murder by a certain
person unknown," and now the police were occupied in following such
clues as I could give them. All the daily papers assigned robbery as
the motive, and the disappearance of Tom's watch-chain gave
plausibility to the theory. But I knew too well why that chain had
disappeared, and even in my grief found consolation in the thought of
Colliver's impotent rage when he should come to examine his prize.
I had described the face and figure of my enemy and had even
identified him with the long-missing sailor Georgio Rhodojani, so
that they promised to lay hands on him in a very short space.
But the public knew nothing of this. The only effect of the
newspapers' version of the murder was to send the town crowding in
greater numbers than ever to see the dead man's play.
Since the first night of "Francesca," Claire and I had only met by
Tom's bedside and at his funeral. But as I entered the gloomy
cemetery that afternoon I spied a figure draped in black beside the
yet unsettled mound, and as I drew near knew it to be Claire.
So we stood there facing one another for a full minute, at a loss for
words. A wreath of _immortelles_ lay upon the grave. In my heart I
thanked her for the gift, but could not speak. It seemed as though
the hillock that parted us were some impassable barrier to words.
Had I but guessed the truth I should have known that, unseen and
unsuspected, across that foot or two of turf was stretched a gulf we
were never more to cross: between our lives lay the body of my
friend; and not his only, but many a pallid corpse that with its mute
lips cursed our loves.
Presently Claire raised her head and spoke.
"Jasper, you have much to forgive me, and I hardly dare ask your
forgiveness. It is too late to ask forgiveness of a dead man, but
could he hear now I would entreat him to pardon the folly that
wrought this cruel mistake."
"Claire, you could not know. How was it possible to guess?"
"That is true, but it is no less cruel. And I deceived you. Can you
ever forgive?"
"Forgive! forgive what? That I found my love peerless among women?
Oh, Claire, Claire, 'forgive'?"
"Yes; what matters it that for the moment I have what is called fame?
I deceived you--yet, believe me, it was only because I thought to
make the surprise more pleasant. I thought--but it is too late.
Only believe I had no other thought, no other wish. My poor scheme
seemed so harmless at first: then as the days went on I began to
doubt. But until you told me, as we stood beside the river, of--
_him_, I never guessed;--oh, believe me, I never guessed!"
"Love, do not accuse yourself in this way. It hurts me to hear you
speak so. If there was any fault it was mine; but the Fates blinded
us. If you had known Tom, you would know that he would forgive could
he hear us now. For me, Claire, what have I to pardon?"
Claire did not answer for a moment. There was still a trouble in her
face, as though something yet remained to be said and she had not the
courage to utter it.
"Jasper, there is something besides, which you have to pardon if you
can."
"My love!"
"Do you remember what I asked you that night, when you first told me
about _him_?"
"You asked me a foolish question, if I remember rightly. You asked
if I could ever cease to love you."
"No, not foolish; I really meant it seriously, and I believed you
when you answered me. Are you of the same mind now? Believe me, I
am not asking lightly."
"I answer you as I answered you then: 'Love is strong as death.'
My love, put away these thoughts and be sure that I love you as my
own soul."
"But perhaps, even so, you might be so angry that--Oh, Jasper, how
can I tell you?"
"Tell me all, Claire."
"I told you I was called, or that they called me Claire. Were you
not surprised when you saw my name as Clarissa Lambert?"
"Is that all?" I cried. "Why, of course, I knew how common it is for
actresses to take another name. I was even glad of it; for the name
I know, your own name, is now a secret, and all the sweeter so.
All the world admires Clarissa Lambert, but I alone love Claire
Luttrell, and know that Claire Luttrell loves me."
"But that is not all," she expostulated, whilst the trouble in her
eyes grew deeper. "Oh, why will you make it so hard for me to
explain? I never thought, when I told you so carelessly on that
night when we met for the first time, that you would grow to care for
me at all. And it was the same afterwards, when I introduced you to
my mother; I gave you the name Luttrell, without ever dreaming--"
"Was Luttrell not your mother's name?" I asked, perplexed.
"That is the name by which she is always called now; and I am always
called Claire; in fact, it is my name, but I have another, and I
ought to have told you."
"Why, as Claire I know you, and as Claire I shall always love you.
What does it matter if your real name be Lambert? You will change
it, love, soon, I trust."
But my poor little jest woke no mirth in her eyes.
"No, it is not Lambert. That is only the name I took when I went on
the stage. Nor am I called Luttrell. It is a sad story; but let me
tell it now, and put an end to all deception. I meant to do so long
ago; but lately I thought I would wait until after you had seen me on
the stage; I thought I would explain all together, not knowing
that _he_--but it has all gone wrong. Jasper, I know you will pity
poor mother, even though she had allowed you to be deceived. She has
been so unhappy. But let me tell it first, and then you will judge.
She calls herself Luttrell to avoid persecution; to avoid a man who
is--"
"A villain, I am sure."
"A villain, yes; but worse. He is her husband; not my father, but a
second husband. My father died when I was quite a little child, and
she married again. Ever since that day she has been miserable.
I remember her face--oh, so well! when she first discovered the real
character of the man. For years she suffered--we were abroad then--
until at last she could bear it no longer, so she fled--fled back to
England, and took me with her. I think, but I am not sure, that her
husband did not dare to follow her to England, because he had done
something against the laws. I only guess this, for I never dare to
ask mother about him. I did so once, and shall never forget the look
of terror that came into her eyes. I only guess he has some strong
reason for avoiding England, for I remember we went abroad hastily,
almost directly after that night when mother first discovered that
she had been deceived. However that may be, we came to England,
mother and I, and changed our name to Luttrell, which was her maiden
name. After this, our life became one perpetual dread of discovery.
We were miserably poor, of course, and I was unable to do anything to
help for many years. Mother was so careful; why, she even called me
by my second name, so desperately anxious was she to hide all traces
from that man. Then suddenly we were discovered--not by him, but by
his mother, whom he set to search for us, and she--for she was not
wholly bad--promised to make my fortune on the single condition that
half my earnings were sent to him. Otherwise, she threatened that
mother should have no rest. What could I do? It was the only way to
save ourselves. Well, I promised to go upon the stage, for this
woman fancied she discovered some talent in me. Why, Jasper, how
strangely you are looking!"
"Tell me--tell me," I cried, "who is this woman?"
"You ought to know that, for you were in the box with her during most
of the first night of 'Francesca.'"
A horrible, paralysing dread had seized me.
"Her name, and his? Quick--tell me, for God's sake!"
"Colliver. He is called Simon Colliver. But, Jasper, what is it?
What--"
I took the chain and Golden Clasp and handed them to Claire without
speech.
"Why, what is this?" she cried. "He has a piece exactly like this,
the fellow to it; I remember seeing it when I was quite small.
Oh, speak! what new mystery, what new trouble is this?"
"Claire, Colliver is here in London, or was but a week ago."
"Here!"
"Yes, Claire; and it was he that murdered Thomas Loveday."
"Murdered Thomas Loveday! I do not understand." She had turned
a deathly white, and spread out her hands as if for support.
"Tell me--"
"Yes, Claire," I said, as I stepped to her, and put my arm about her;
"it is truth, as I stand here. Colliver, your mother's husband,
foully murdered my innocent friend for the sake of that piece of
gold; and more, Simon Colliver, for the sake of this same accursed
token, murdered my father!"
"Your father!"
She shook off my arm, and stood facing me there, by Tom's grave, with
a look of utter horror that froze my blood.
"Yes, my father; or stay, I am wrong. Though Colliver prompted, his
was not the hand that did the deed. That he left to a poor wretch
whom he afterwards slew himself--one Railton--John Railton."
"What!"
"Why, Claire, Claire! What is it? Speak!"
"I am Janet Railton!"
CHAPTER VIII.
TELLS HOW THE CURTAIN FELL UPON "FRANCESCA: A TRAGEDY."
For a moment I staggered back as though buffeted in the face, then,
as our eyes met and read in each other the desperate truth, I sprang
forward just in time to catch her as she fell. Blindly, as if in
some hideous trance, reeling and stumbling over the graves, I carried
her in my arms to the cemetery gate and stood there panting and
bewildered.
Cold and white as marble she lay in my arms, so that for one terrible
moment I thought her dead. "Better so," my heart had cried, and then
I laughed aloud (God forgive me!) at the utter cruelty of it all.
But she was not dead. As I watched the lovely ashen face, the slow
blood came trickling back and throbbed faintly at her temples, the
light breath flickered and went and came once more. Feebly and with
wonder the dark eyes opened to the light of day, then closed again as
the lips parted in a moaning whisper.
"Claire!" I cried, and my voice seemed to come from far away, so
hollow and unnatural was it, "I must take you to your home; are you
well enough to go?"
I had laid her on the stone upon which the bearers were used to set
down the coffins when weary. Scarcely a week ago, poor Tom's corpse
had rested for a moment upon this grim stone. As I bent to catch the
answer, and saw how like to death her face was, I thought how well it
were for both of us, should we be resting there so together; not
leaving the acre of the dead, but entering it as rightful heirs of
its oblivion.
After a while, as I repeated my question, the lips again parted and I
heard.
I looked down the road. The cemetery lay far out in one of the
northern suburbs, and just now the neighbourhood seemed utterly
deserted. By good chance, however, I spied an old four-wheeler
crawling along in the distance. I ran after it, hailed it, brought
it back, and with the help of the wondering driver, placed my love
inside; then I gave the man the address, and bidding him drive with
all speed, sprang in beside Claire.
Still faint, she was lying back against the cushion. The cab crawled
along at a snail's pace, but long as the journey was, it was passed
in utter silence. She never opened her eyes, and as for me, what
comfortable words could I speak? Yet as I saw the soft rise and fall
of her breast, I longed for words, Heaven knows how madly! But none
came, and in silence we drew up at length before a modest doorway in
Old Kensington.
Here Claire summoned all her strength lest her mother should be
frightened. Still keeping her eyes averted, she stepped as bravely
as she could from the cab, and laid her hand upon the door-handle.
I made as if to follow.
"No, no," she said hastily, "leave me to myself--I will write
to-morrow and perhaps see you; but, oh, pray, not to-day!"
Before I could answer she had passed into the house.
Twenty-four hours had passed and left me as they found me, in
torture. Despite my doubt, I swore she should not cast me off; then
knelt and prayed as I had never prayed before, that Heaven would deny
some of its cruelty to my darling. In the abandonment of my
supplication, I was ready to fling the secret from me and forgive
all, to forgive my father's murderer, my life-long enemy, and let him
go unsought, rather than give up Claire. Yet as I prayed, my
entreaties and my tears went up to no compassionate God, but beat
themselves upon the adamantine face of Dead Man's Rock that still
rose inexorable between me and Heaven.
That night the crowd that gathered in the Coliseum to see the new
play, went away angry and disappointed; for Clarissa Lambert was not
acting. Another actress took her part--but how differently! And all
the while she, for whose sake they had come, was on her knees
wrestling with a grimmer tragedy than "Francesca," with no other
audience than the angels of pity.
Twenty-four hours had passed, and found me hastening towards Old
Kensington; for in my pocket lay a note bearing only the words
"Come at 3.30--Claire," and on my heart rested a load of suspense
unbearable. For many minutes beforehand, I paced up and down outside
the house in an agony, and as my watch pointed to the half-hour,
knocked and was admitted.
Mrs. Luttrell met me in the passage. She seemed most terribly white
and worn, so that I was astonished when she simply said, "Claire is
slightly unwell, and in fact could not act last night, but she wishes
to see you for some reason."
Wondering why Claire's mother should look so strangely if she guessed
nothing of what had happened, but supposing illness to be the reason,
I stopped for an instant to ask.
"Am I pale?" she answered. "It is nothing--nothing--do not take any
notice of it. I am rather weaker than usual to-day, that is all--a
mere nothing. You will find Claire in the drawing-room there."
And so she left me.
I knocked at the drawing-room door, and hearing a faint voice inside,
entered. As I did so, Claire rose to meet me. She was very pale,
and the dark circles around her eyes told of a long vigil; but her
manner at first was composed and even cold.
"Claire!" I cried, and stretched out my hands.
"Not yet," she said, and motioned me to a chair. "I sent for you
because I have been thinking of--of--what happened yesterday, and I
want you to tell me all; the whole story from beginning to end."
"But--"
"There is no 'but' in the case, Jasper. I am Janet Railton, and you
say that my father killed yours. Tell me how it was."
Her manner was so calm that I hesitated at first, bewildered.
Then, finding that she waited for me to speak, I sat down facing her
and began my story.
I told it through, without suppression or concealment, from the time
when my father started to seek the treasure, down to the cowardly
blow that had taken my friend's life. During the whole narrative she
never took her eyes from my face for more than a moment. Her very
lips were bloodless, but her manner was as quiet as though I were
reading her some story of people who had never lived. Once only she
interrupted me. I was repeating the conversation between her father
and Simon Colliver upon Dead Man's Rock.
"You are quite sure," she asked, "of the words? You are positive he
said, 'Captain, it was your knife'?"
"Certain," I answered sadly.
"You are giving the very words they both used?"
"As well as I can remember; and I have cause for a good memory."
"Go on," she replied simply.
So I unrolled the whole chronicle of our unhappy fates, and even read
to her Lucy Railton's letter which I had brought with me. Then, as I
ceased, for full a minute we sat in absolute silence, reading each
other's gaze.
"Let me see the letter," she said, and held out her hand for it.
I gave it to her. She read it slowly through and handed it back.
"Yes, it is my mother's letter," she said, slowly.
Then again silence fell upon us. I could hear the clock tick slowly
on the mantelpiece, and the beating of my own heart that raced and
outstripped it. That was all; until at length the slow, measured
footfall of the timepiece grew maddening to hear; it seemed a symbol
of the unrelenting doom pursuing us, and I longed to rise and break
it to atoms.
I could stand it no longer.
"Claire, tell me that this will not--cannot alter you--that you are
mine yet, as you were before."
"This is impossible," she said, very gravely and quietly.
"Impossible? Oh, no, no, do not say that! You cannot, you must not
say that!"
"Yes, Jasper," she repeated, and her face was pallid as snow; "it is
impossible."
But as I heard my doom, I arose and fought it with blind despair.
"Claire, you do not know what you are saying. You love me, Claire;
you have told me so, and I love you as my very soul. Surely, then,
you will not say this thing. How were we to know? How could you
have told? Oh, Claire! is it that you do not love me?"
Her eyes were full of infinite compassion and tenderness, but her
lips were firm and cold.
"You know that I love you."
"Then, oh, my love! how can this come between us? What does it
matter that our fathers fought and killed each other, if only we
love? Surely, surely Heaven cannot fix the seal of this crime upon
us for ever? Speak, Claire, and tell me that you will be mine in
spite of all!"
"It cannot be," she answered, very gently.
"Cannot be!" I echoed. "Then I was right, and you do not love, but
fancied that you did for a while. Love, love, was that fair?
No power on earth--no, nor in heaven--should have made me cast you
off so."
My rage died out before the mute reproach of those lovely eyes.
I caught the white hand.
"Forgive me, Claire; I was desperate, and knew not what I was saying.
I know you love me--you have said so, and you are truth itself; truth
and all goodness. But if you have loved, then you can love me still.
Remember our text, Claire, 'Love is strong as death.' Strong as
death, and can it be overcome so easily?"
She was trembling terribly, and from the little hand within mine I
could feel her agitation. But though the soft eyes spoke appealingly
as they were raised in answer, I could see, behind all their anguish,
an immutable resolve.
"No, Jasper; it can never be--never. Do you think I am not
suffering--that it is nothing to me to lose you? Try to think better
of me. Oh, Jasper, it is hard indeed for me, and--I love you so."
"No, no," she went on; "do not make the task harder for me. Why can
you not curse me? It would be easier then. Why can you not hate me
as you ought? Oh, if you would but strike me and go, I could better
bear this hour!"
There was such abandonment of entreaty in her tones that my heart
bled for her; yet I could only answer--
"Claire, I will not give you up; not though you went on your knees
and implored it. Death alone can divide us now; and even death will
never kill my love."
"Death!" she answered. "Think, then, that I am dead; think of me as
under the mould. Ah, love, hearts do not break so easily. You would
grieve at first, but in a little while I should be forgotten."
"Claire!"
"Forgive me, love; not forgotten. I wronged you when I said the
word. Believe me, Jasper, that if there be any gleam of day in the
blackness that surrounds me it is the thought that you so love me;
and yet it would have been far easier otherwise--far easier."
Little by little my hope was slipping from me; but still I strove
with her as a man battles for his life. I raved, protested, called
earth and heaven to witness her cruelty; but all in vain.
"It would be a sin--a horrible sin!" she kept saying. "God would
never forgive it. No, no; do not try to persuade me--it is
horrible!" and she shuddered.
Utterly beaten at last by her obstinacy, I said--
"I will leave you now to think it over. Let me call again and hear
that you repent."
"No, love; we must never meet again. This must be our last good-bye.
Stay!" and she smiled for the first time since that meeting in the
cemetery. "Come to 'Francesca' to-night; I am going to act."
"What! to-night?"
"Yes. One must live, you see, even though one suffers. See, I have
a ticket for you--for a box. You will come? Promise me."
"Never, Claire."
"Yes, promise me. Do me this last favour; I shall never ask
another."
I took the card in silence.
"And now," she said, "you may kiss me. Kiss me on the lips for the
last time, and may God bless you, my love."
Quite calmly and gently she lifted her lips to mine, and on her face
was the glory of unutterable tenderness.
"Claire! My love, my love!" My arms were round her, her whole form
yielded helplessly to mine, and as our lips met in that one
passionate, shuddering caress, sank on my breast.
"You will not leave me?" I cried.
And through her sobs came the answer--
"Yes, yes; it must be, it must be."
Then drawing herself up, she held out her hand and said--
"To-night, remember, and so--farewell."
And so, in the fading light of that grey December afternoon I left
her standing there.
Mad and distraught with the passion of that parting, I sat that
evening in the shadow of my box and waited for the curtain to rise
upon "Francesca." The Coliseum was crowded to the roof, for it was
known that Clarissa Lambert's illness had been merely a slight
indisposition, and to-night she would again be acting. I was too
busy with my own hard thoughts to pay much attention at first, but I
noticed that my box was the one nearest to the stage, in the tier
next above it. So that once more I should hear my darling's voice,
and see her form close to me. Once or twice I vaguely scanned the
audience. The boxes opposite were full; but, of course, I could see
nothing of my own side of the theatre. After a moment's listless
glance, I leaned back in the shadow and waited.
I do not know who composed the overture. It is haunted by one
exquisite air, repeated, fading into variations, then rising once
more only to sink into the tender sorrow of a minor key. I have
heard it but twice in my life, but the music of it is with me to this
day. Then, as I heard it, it carried me back to the hour when Tom
and I sat expectant in this same theatre, he trembling for his play's
success, I for the sight of my love. Poor Tom! The sad melody
wailed upwards as though it were the voice of the wind playing about
his grave, every note breathing pathos or suspiring in tremulous
anguish. Poor Tom! Yet your love was happier than mine; better to
die with Claire's kiss warm upon the lips than to live with but the
memory of it.
The throbbing music had ended, and the play began. As before, the
audience were without enthusiasm at first, but to-night they knew
they had but to wait, and they did so patiently; so that when at last
Claire's voice died softly away at the close of her opening song, the
hushed house was suddenly shaken to its roof with the storm and
tumult of applause.
There she stood, serene and glowing, as one that had never known
pain. My very eyes doubted. On her face was no sign of suffering,
no trace of a tear. Was she, then, utterly without heart? In my
memory I retraced the scene of that afternoon, and all my reason
acquitted her. Yet, as she stood there in her glorious epiphany,
illumined with the blazing lights, and radiant in the joy and
freshness of youth, I could have doubted whether, after all, Clarissa
Lambert and Claire Luttrell were one and the same.