III

In ordinary times my thrifty instinct might have led me to travel in

the second class division of the great steamer. But it had happened

that the sum I set aside to cover my travelling expenses proved more

than ample. Several small unreckoned additions had been made to it

during my last month in England; and the upshot was that I decided to

travel by first saloon, and even to indulge myself in the added luxury

of a single-berth, upper-deck cabin. For me privacy had for long been

one of the few luxuries I really did value. Heron had mildly satirised

my sybaritic plans as representing an ingenious preparation for hut

life in the Australian bush, but I had claimed that comfort and

privacy on the passage would give me a deserved holiday, and help put

me into good form for my fresh start oversea. I am not sure which view

was the more correct.

At all events I certainly was very comfortably placed on board the

_Oronta_. My books I had deliberately packed in boxes marked 'Not

wanted on voyage.' There was not so much as a sheet of manuscript

paper among my cabin luggage. Beyond an odd letter or two for postage

at ports of call, and any casual browsing in the ship's library to

which I might feel impelled in my idleness, I was prepared to give no

thought to reading or writing for the present; since for five-and-twenty

years I had been giving practically all my days and half my

nights to these pursuits as a working man of letters.

I had amused myself of late with elaborate anticipations of the

delights of idleness during this passage to Australia. My ideas of sea

travel were really culled from recollections of life on a full rigged

clipper ship--not a steamboat. (The homeward passage from Australia

had hardly been sea-travel in the ordinary sense for me, but rather

six weeks of clerking in an office.) In my anticipations of the

present journey, the dominant impressions had been based upon memories

of the spotless cleanliness, endless leisure, and primitive simplicity

of the old time sailing ship life. I do not mean that I had thought I

should trot about the decks of the _Oronta_ bare-footed, as I and my

childish companions had done aboard the _Ariadne_; but I do mean that

the atmosphere of the _Ariadne_ life had coloured all my thoughts of

what the present trip would be for me.

And that, of course, was a mistake. The smoothly ordered life of the

_Oronta's_ saloon passengers was very much that of a first-class

seaside hotel, say in Bournemouth. So far from sprawling upon the

snowy deck of a forecastle-head, to watch the phosphorescent lights in

the water under our ship's bow, saloon passengers on board the

_Oronta_ were not expected ever to intrude upon the forward deck--the

ship had no forecastle-head--which was reserved for the uses of the

crew. Also, in the conventional black and white of society's evening

uniform for men, I suppose one does not exactly sprawl on decks, even

where these are spotless, as they never are on board a steamship.

The pleasant race of sailor men, of shell-backs, such as those who

swung the yards and tallied on to the halliards of the _Ariadne_, may

or may not have become extinct, and given place to a breed of sea-going

mechanics, who protect their feet by means of rubber boots when

washing decks down in the morning. In any case, I met none of the old

salted variety among the _Oronta's_ multitudinous crew. For me there

was here no sitting on painted spars, or tarry hatch-covers, or rusty

anchor-stocks, and listening to long, rambling 'yarns,' or 'cuffers,'

in idle dog-watches or restful night-watches, when the southern Trades

blew steadily, and the braces hung untouched upon their pins for a

week on end. No, in the second dog-watch here, one took a solemn

constitutional preparatory to dressing for dinner; and in the first

night-watch one smoked and listened willy-nilly to polite small talk,

and (from the ship's orchestra) the latest and most criminal products

of New York's musical genius. I never heard or saw the process of

relieving wheel or look-out aboard the _Oronta_, and long before the

beginning of the middle watch I had usually switched off for the night

the electric reading-lamp over my pillow.

The fact is, of course, that I had never had any kind of training for

such a life as that in which I now found myself. I will not pretend to

regret that, for, to be frank, it is a vapid, foolish, empty life

enough. But there it was; one could not well evade it, and I had had

no previous experience of anything at all like it. The most popular

breakfast-hour was something after nine. Beef-tea, ices, and suchlike

aids to indigestion were partaken of a couple of hours later. Luncheon

was a substantial dinner. The four o'clock tea was quite a meal for

most passengers. Caviare and anchovy sandwiches were the rule in the

half hour preceding dinner, which was, of course, a serious function.

But ours was a valiant company, and supper was a seventh meal achieved

by many. The orchestra seemed never far away; games were numerous

(here again I had hopelessly neglected my education), and at night

there were concerts, impromptu dances, and balls that were far from

being impromptu.

It is, I fear, a confession of natural perversity, but by the time we

reached the Mediterranean I was exceedingly restless, and inclined to

nervous depression.

I welcomed the various ports of call, and was properly ashamed of the

unsocial irritability which made me resent the feeling of being made

one of a chattering, laughing, high-spirited horde of tourists, whose

descent upon a foreign port seriously damaged whatever charm or

interest it might possess. At least the trading residents of these

ports were far more sensible than I, their preference undoubtedly

causing them to welcome the wielders of camera and guide-book in the

vein of 'the more the merrier.'

It was in Naples, outside the Villa Nazionale, that it fell to me to

rescue the elegant young widow, Mrs. Oldcastle, from the embarrassing

attentions of a cabman, whose acquaintances were already rallying

about him in great force. So far as speech went, my command of Italian

was not very much better than Mrs. Oldcastle's perhaps; but at least I

had a pocketful of Italian silver, while she, poor lady, had only

English money. The cabman was grossly overpaid, of course, but the

main point was I silenced him. And then, her flushed cheeks testifying

to her embarrassment, Mrs. Oldcastle turned towards the gardens, and,

in common courtesy, I walked with her to ascertain if I could be of

any further service. The upshot was that we strolled for some time,

took tea in the Cafe Umberto, walked through the Museo, visited one of

the city's innumerable glove-shops, and finally, still together, drove

back to the port and rejoined the _Oronta_.

As fellow-passengers we had up till this time merely exchanged casual

salutations, Mrs. Oldcastle being one of the three who shared the

particular table in the saloon at which I sat. No one else of her name

appeared in the passenger list, in which I had already read the line:

'Mrs. Oldcastle and maid.' I imagined her age to be still something in

the earliest thirties, and I had been informed by some obliging gossip

that she was English by birth; that she had married an Australian

squatter, who had died during the past year or so; that her permanent

home was in England, but that she was just now paying a visit to the

Commonwealth upon some business connected with her late husband's

estates there.

'You have been most kind, Mr. Freydon,' she said, as we stepped from

the gangway to the steamer's deck. 'I was in a dreadful muddle by

myself, and now, thanks to you, I have really enjoyed my afternoon in

Naples. Believe me, I am grateful. And,' she added, with a faint

blush, 'I shall now find even greater interest than before in your

books. Au revoir!'

So she disappeared, by way of the saloon companion, while I took a

turn along the deck to smoke a cigarette. Naturally I had not

mentioned my books or profession, and I thought it an odd chance that

she should know them. She certainly had been a most agreeable

companion, and----

'There's no doubt that life in any other country, no matter where,

does seem to enlarge the sympathies of English people,' I told myself.

'It tends to mitigate the severity of their attitude towards the

narrower conventions. If this had been her first journey out of

England she might have accepted my help in the matter of the cabman,

but would almost certainly have felt called upon to reject my company

from that on. Instead of which-- H'm! Well, upon my word, I have

enjoyed the day far more than I should have done alone. She certainly

is very bright and intelligent.'

And I nodded and smiled to myself, recalling some of her comments upon

certain figures in the marble gallery of the Museo that afternoon.

There was nothing in the least inane or parrot-like about her

conversation. I experienced a more genial and friendly feeling than

had been mine till then toward the whole of my fellow-passengers.

'After all,' I told myself, 'this forming of hasty impressions of

people, from snatches of their talk and mannerisms and so forth, is

both misleading and uncharitable. Here have I been sitting at table

for a week, and, upon my word, I had no idea that any one among her

sex on board had half so much intelligence as she had shown in these

few hours away from the crowd. The crowd--that's it. It's misleading

to observe folk in the mass, and in the confinement of a ship.'

The passengers' quarters on an ocean liner are fully equal to the

residences in a cathedral close as forcing beds of gossip and scandal.

Thus, before we reached the Indian Ocean, I was aware that the gossips

had so far condescended as to link my name with that of one whom I

certainly rated as the most attractive of her sex on board. Indeed, it

was Mrs. Oldcastle herself who drew my attention to this, with a

little _moue_ of contempt and disgust.

'Really, people on board ship are too despicable in this matter of

gossip,' she said. 'It would seem that they are literally incapable of

evolving any other topic than the doings, or supposed doings, of those

about them. And the men seem to me just as bad as the women.'

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