Winifred scarcely slept all that night. She had enough to think of. Her
entire life hung in the balance. And, indeed, that was not all, for
there remained the doubtful possibility that she might deprive herself
of everything without doing any good by her sacrifice. The necessity to
be falsely true seemed, once having been taken up, to pursue her
everywhere. Unless she could find some way of accomplishing it
deceitfully, and frustrating her father’s will, while she seemed to be
executing it, she would be incapable of doing anything for her brothers,
and would either be compelled to accept an unjust advantage over them,
or give up everything that was in her own favour without advantaging
them. She lay still in the darkness and thought and thought over this
great problem, but came no nearer to any solution. And she was separated
even from her usual counsellors in this great emergency. In respect to
Edward, she divined his wishes with a pang unspeakable, yet excused him
to herself with a hundred tender apologies. It was not that he was
capable of wronging any one, but he felt--who could help feeling
it?--that all would go better in his hands. She, too, felt it. She said
to herself, it would be better for Bedloe, better for the people, that
he, through her, should reign, instead of George or Tom, who, if they
did well at all, would do well for themselves only, and who, up to this
time, even in that had failed. To give it over to two bad or indifferent
masters, careless of everything, save what it produced; or to place it
under the care of a wise and thoughtful master, who would consider the
true advantage of all concerned: who, she asked herself, could hesitate
as to which was best? But though it would be best, it would be founded
on wrong, and would be impossible. Impossible! that was the only word.
She was in no position to abolish the ordinary laws of nature, and act
upon her own judgment of what was best. It was impossible, whatever good
might result from it, that she should build her own happiness upon the
ruin of her brothers. Even Miss Farrell did not take the same view of
the subject. She had wept over the dethronement of the brothers, but she
could not consent to Winifred’s renunciation of all things for their
sake. “You can always make it up to them,” she had said, reiterating the
words, without explaining how this was to be done. How was it to be
done? Winifred tried very hard through all to respect her father. She
tried to think that he had only exposed her to a severe trial to prove
her strength. She thought that now at least, even if never before, he
must be enlightened, he must watch her with those “larger, other eyes
than ours,” with which natural piety endows all who have passed away,
whether bad or good. Even if he had not intended well at the time, he
must know better now. But how was she to do it? How succeed in thwarting
yet obeying him? The problem was beyond her powers, and the hours would
not stop to give her time to consider it. They flowed on, slow, yet
following each other in a ceaseless current; and the morning broke which
was to bring her perplexities to some sort of issue, though what she did
not know.
Tom arrived by the early morning train. He also had not slept much in
the night, and his eyes were red, and his face pale. He was tremulous
with excitement, not unmingled with anxiety; but an air of triumph over
all, and elation scarcely controlled, gave a certain wildness to his
aspect, almost like intoxication. It was an intoxication of the spirit,
however, and not anything else, though, as he leapt out of the dog-cart
and made a rush up the steps, Winifred, standing there to meet him,
almost shrank from the careless embrace he gave her. “Well, Win, and so
here we are back again,” he said. He had no great reason, perhaps, to be
touched by his father’s death. It brought him back from unwilling work,
it gave him back (he thought) the wealth and luxury which he loved, it
restored him to all that had been taken from him. Why should he be
sorry? And yet, at the moment of returning to his father’s house, it
seemed to his sister that some natural thought of the father, who had
not always been harsh, should have touched his heart. But Tom did not
show any consciousness of what nature and good feeling required, which
was, after all, as Winifred reflected next moment, better, perhaps, as
being more true than any pretence at fictitious feeling. He gave nods of
acknowledgment, half boisterous, half condescending, to the servants as
he passed through the hall to the dining-room, which stood open, with
the table prepared for breakfast. He laughed at the sight, and pointed
to his sister. “It was supper you had waiting for me the last time I was
here,” he said, with a laugh, and went in before her, and threw himself
down in the large easy chair, which was the seat Mr. Chester had always
occupied. Probably Tom forgot, and meant nothing; but old Hopkins
hastened to thrust another close to the table, indicating it with a wave
of his hand.
“Here, sir, this is your place, sir,” the old butler said.
“I am very comfortable where I am,” cried Tom. “That’s enough, Hopkins;
bring the breakfast.” Hopkins explained to the other servants when he
left the room that Mr. Tom was excited. “And no wonder, considering all
that’s happened,” he said.
“Well,” repeated Tom, when he and his sister were left alone, “so here
we are again. You thought it was for good when I went away, Winnie.”
“I thought it would be--for a longer time, Tom.”
“You thought it was for good; but you might have known better. The poor
old governor thought better of it at the last?”
“I don’t think that he changed--his opinion,” Winifred said, hesitating,
afraid to carry on the deception, afraid to undeceive him, tired and
excited as he was.
“Well,” said Tom, addressing himself to the good things on the breakfast
table, “whatever his opinion was, it don’t matter much now, for here I
am, at all events, and that horrible episode of New Zealand over. It
didn’t last very long, thank Heaven!”
It was, perhaps, only because the conversation was so difficult that she
asked him then suddenly whether, perhaps, on the way he had seen
anything of George.
“Of George?” Tom put down his knife and fork and stared at her. “How, in
the name of Heaven, could I see anything of George--on my way home?”
“I--don’t know, Tom. I am not clear about the geography. I thought
perhaps you might have come by the same ship.”
“By the same ship?” It was only by degrees that he took in what she
meant. Then he thrust back his chair from the table and exclaimed,
“What! is George coming too?” in a tone full of disgust and dismay.
“I sent for him at the same time,” she replied, in spite of herself, in
a tone of apology. “How could I leave him out?”
“_You_ sent for him?” said Tom, with evident relief. “Then I think you
did a very silly thing, Winnie. Why should he come here, such an
expensive journey, stopping his work and everything? Some one told me he
was getting on very well out there.”
“I thought it indispensable that he should come back, that we should all
meet to arrange everything.”
“To arrange everything?” There was a sort of compassionate impatience in
Tom’s tone. “I suppose that is how women judge,” he said. “What can
there be to arrange? You may be sure the governor had it all set down
clear enough in black and white. And now you will have disturbed the
poor beggar’s mind all for nothing; for he is sure to build upon it,
and think there’s something for him. I hope, at least, you made that
point clear.”
“Tom, if you would but listen to me! There is no point clear. I felt
that I must see you both, and talk it all over, and that we must decide
among us”--
“You take a great deal upon you, Winnie,” said Tom. “You have got
spoilt, I think. What is there to decide about? The thing that vexes me
is for George’s own sake. That you might like to see him, and give him a
little holiday, that’s no harm; and I suppose you mean to make it up to
him out of your own little money, though I should think Langton would
have a word to say on that subject. But how do you know what ridiculous
ideas you may put into the poor beggar’s head? He may think that the
governor has altered his will again. He is sure to think something
that’s absurd. If it’s not too late, it would be charity to telegraph
again and tell him it was not worth his while.”
“Tom,” said Winifred, faltering, “he is our brother, and he is the
eldest. Whatever my father’s will was, do you think it would be right to
leave him out?”
“Oh, that is what you are after!” said Tom. “To work upon me, and get me
to do something for him! You may as well understand once for all that
I’ll be no party to changing the governor’s will--I’ll not have him
cheated, poor old gentleman! in his grave.”
He had risen up from the table full of angry decision, pushing his chair
away, while Winifred sat weak and helpless, more bewildered at every
word, gazing at him, not knowing how to reply.
“He was a man of great sense, was the governor,” said Tom. “He was a
better judge of character than either you or I. To be sure, he made a
little mistake that time about me; but it hasn’t done me any harm, and
I wouldn’t be the one to bring it up against him. And I’ll be no party
to changing his will. If you bring George here, it is upon your own
responsibility. He need not look for anything from me.”
“Tom, I don’t ask anything from you; but don’t you think--oh, is not
your heart softer now that you know what it is to suffer hardship
yourself?”
“That’s all sentimental nonsense,” said Tom hastily. He went to the
fireplace and warmed himself, for there is always a certain chill in
excitement. Then he returned to the table to finish his breakfast. He
had a feverish appetite, and the meal served to keep in check the fire
of expectation and restlessness in his veins. After a few minutes’
silence he looked up with a hurried question. “Babington has been sent
for to meet me, I suppose?”
“He is coming on Monday. We did not think you could arrive before
Monday, and George perhaps by that time”--
“Always George!” he said, with an angry laugh.
“Always both of you, Tom. We are only three in the world, and to whom
can I turn but to my brothers to advise me? Oh, listen a little! I want
you to know everything, to judge everything, and then to tell me”--
It was natural enough, perhaps, that Tom should think of her personal
concerns. “Oh, I see,” he said; “you and Langton don’t hit it off,
Winnie? That’s a different question. Well, he is not much of a match for
you. No doubt you could do much better for yourself; but that’s not
enough to call George for, from the Antipodes. I’ll advise you to the
best of my ability. If you mean to trust for advice to George”--
“It is not about myself,” said Winifred. “Oh, Tom, how am I to tell you?
I cannot find the words--my father--oh, listen to me for a
little--don’t go away!”
“If you say anything--to make me think badly of the governor, I will
never forgive you, Winnie!” he said. His face grew pale and then almost
black with gloom and excitement. “I’ve been travelling all night,” he
added. “I want a bath, and to make myself comfortable. It’s too soon to
begin about your business. Where have you put me? In the old room, I
suppose?”
“All your things have been put there,” replied Winifred. It was a relief
to escape from the explanation, and yet a disappointment. He turned away
without looking at her.
“Oh, all right! there is plenty of time to change when I have made up my
mind which I like best,” he said.