CHAPTER XVIII

THE HERMITS ASSOCIATE

During the next day no one in camp had reason to complain of Corona

Raybold. She did not seem inclined to talk to anybody, but spent the most

of her time alone. She wrote a little and reflected a great deal,

sometimes walking, sometimes seated in the shade, gazing far beyond the

sky.

When the evening fire was lighted, her mood changed so that one might have

supposed that another fire had been lighted somewhere in the interior of

her mental organism. Her fine eyes glistened, her cheeks gently reddened,

and her whole body became animated with an energy created by warm

emotions.

"I have something I wish to say to you all," she exclaimed, as she reached

the fire. "Where is Arthur? Will somebody please call him? And I would

like to see both the guides. It is something very important that I have to

say. Mrs. Perkenpine will be here in a moment; I asked her to come. If Mr.

Matlack is not quite ready, can he not postpone what he is doing? I am

sure you will all be interested in what I have to say, and I do not want

to begin until every one is here."

Mr. Archibald saw that she was very much in earnest, and so he sent for

the guides, and Clyde went to call Raybold.

In a few minutes Clyde returned and told Corona that her brother had said

he did not care to attend services that evening.

"Where is he?" asked Miss Raybold.

"He is sitting over there looking out upon the lake," replied Clyde.

"I will be back almost immediately," said she to Mr. Archibald, "and in

the mean time please let everybody assemble."

Arthur Raybold was in no mood to attend services of any sort. He had spent

nearly the whole day trying to get a chance to speak to Margery, but never

could he find her alone.

"If I can once put the matter plainly to her," he said to himself, "she

will quickly perceive what it is that I offer her; and when she clearly

sees that, I will undertake to make her accept it. She is only a woman,

and can no more withstand me than a mound of sand built by a baby's hand

could withstand the rolling wave."

At this moment Corona arrived and told him that she wanted him at the

camp-fire. He was only a man, and could no more withstand her than a mound

of sand built by a baby's hand could withstand the rolling wave.

When everybody in the camp had gathered around the fire, Corona, her

eye-glasses illumined by the light of her soul, gazed around the circle

and began to speak.

"My dear friends," she said, "I have been thinking a great deal to-day

upon a very important subject, and I have come to the conclusion that we

who form this little company have before us one of the grandest

opportunities ever afforded a group of human beings. We are here, apart

from our ordinary circumstances and avocations, free from all the trammels

and demands of society, alone with nature and ourselves. In our ordinary

lives, surrounded by our ordinary circumstances, we cannot be truly

ourselves; each of us is but part of a whole, and very often an entirely

unharmonious part. It is very seldom that we are able to do the things we

wish to do in the manner and at times and places when it would best suit

our natures. Try as we may to be true to ourselves, it is seldom possible;

we are swept away in a current of conventionality. It may be one kind of

conventionality for some of us and another kind for others, but we are

borne on by it all the same. Sometimes a person like myself or Mr.

Archibald clings to some rock or point upon the bank, and for a little

while is free from the coercion of circumstances, but this cannot be for

long, and we are soon swept with the rest into the ocean of conglomerate

commonplace."

"That's when we die!" remarked Mrs. Perkenpine, who sat reverently

listening.

"No," said the speaker, "it happens while we are alive. But now," she

continued, "we have a chance, as I said before, to shake ourselves free

from our enthralment. For a little while each one of us may assert his or

her individuality. We are a varied and representative party; we come from

different walks of life; we are men, women, and--" looking at Margery, she

was about to say children, but she changed her expression to "young

people." "I think you will all understand what I mean. When we are at our

homes we do things because other people want us to do them, and not

because we want to do them. A family sits down to a meal, and some of them

like what is on the table, some do not; some of them would have preferred

to eat an hour before, some of them would prefer to eat an hour later; but

they all take their meals at the same time and eat the same things because

it is the custom to do so.

"I mention a meal simply as an instance, but the slavery of custom extends

into every branch of our lives. We get up, we go to bed, we read, we work,

we play, just as other people do these things, and not as we ourselves

would do them if we planned our own lives. Now we have a chance, all of

us, to be ourselves! Each of us may say, 'I am myself, one!' Think of

that, my friends, each one! Each of us a unit, responsible only to his or

her unity, if I may so express it."

"Do you mean that I am that?" inquired Mrs. Perkenpine.

"Oh yes," replied Corona.

"Is Phil Matlack one?"

"Yes."

"All right," said the female guide; "if he is one, I don't mind."

"Now what I propose is this," said Corona: "I understand that the stay in

this camp will continue for about a week longer, and I earnestly urge upon

you that for this time we shall each one of us assert our individuality.

Let us be what we are, show ourselves what we are, and let each other see

what we are."

"It would not be safe nor pleasant to allow everybody to do that," said

Mr. Archibald. He was more interested in Miss Raybold's present discourse

than he had been in any other he had heard her deliver.

"Of course," said she, "it would not do to propose such a thing to the

criminal classes or to people of evil inclinations, but I have carefully

considered the whole subject as it relates to us, and I think we are a

party singularly well calculated to become the exponent of the

distinctiveness of our several existences."

"That gits me," said Matlack.

"I am afraid," said the speaker, gazing kindly at him, "that I do not

always express myself plainly to the general comprehension, but what I

mean is this: that during the time we stay here, let each one of us do

exactly what he or she wants to do, without considering other people at

all, except, of course, that we must not do anything which would interfere

with any of the others doing what they please. For instance--and I assure

you I have thought over this matter in all its details--if any of us were

inclined to swear or behave disorderly, which I am sure could not be the

case, he or she would not do so because he or she would feel that, being

responsible to himself or herself, that responsibility would prevent him

or her from doing that which would interfere with the pleasure or comfort

of his or her associates."

"I think," said Mrs. Archibald, somewhat severely, "that our duty to our

fellow-beings is far more important than our selfish consideration of

ourselves."

"But reflect," cried Corona, "how much consideration we give to our

fellow-beings, and how little to ourselves as ourselves, each one. Can we

not, for the sake of knowing ourselves and honoring ourselves, give

ourselves to ourselves for a little while? The rest of our lives may then

be given to others and the world."

"I hardly believe," said Mr. Archibald, "that all of us clearly understand

your meaning, but it seems to me that you would like each one of us to

become, for a time, a hermit. I do not know of any other class of persons

who so thoroughly assert their individuality."

"You are right!" exclaimed Corona. "A hermit does it. A hermit is more

truly himself than any other man. He may dwell in a cave and eat

water-cresses, he may live on top of a tall pillar, or he may make his

habitation in a barrel! If a hermit should so choose, he might furnish a

cave with Eastern rugs and bric-à-brac. If he liked that sort of thing, he

would be himself. Yes, I would have all of us, in the truest sense of the

word, hermits, each a hermit; but we need not dwell apart. Some of us

would certainly wish to assert our individuality by not dwelling apart

from others."

"We might, then," said Mr. Archibald, "become a company of associate

hermits."

"Exactly!" cried Corona, stretching out her hands. "That is the very

word--associate hermits. My dear friends, from to-morrow morning, until we

leave here, let us be associate hermits. Let us live for ourselves, be

true to ourselves. After all, if we think of it seriously, ourselves are

all that we have in this world. Everything else may be taken from us, but

no one can take from me, myself, or from any one of you, yourself."

The bishop now rose. He as well as the others had listened attentively to

everything that had been said; even Arthur Raybold had shown a great deal

of interest in his sister's remarks.

"You mean," said the bishop, "that while we stay here each one of us shall

act exactly as we think we ought to act if we were not influenced by the

opinions and examples of others around us, and thus we shall have an

opportunity to find out for ourselves and show others exactly what we

are."

"That is it," said Corona, "you have stated it very well."

"Well, then," said the bishop, "I move that for the time stated we

individually assert our individuality."

"Second the motion," said Mr. Archibald.

"All in favor of this motion please say 'Aye,'" said Corona. "Now let

everybody vote, and I hope you will all say 'Aye,' and if any one does not

understand, I will be happy to explain."

"I want to know," said Phil Matlack, rising, "if one man asserts what you

call his individ'ality in such a way that it runs up agin another man's,

and that second man ain't inclined to stand it, if that--"

"Oh, I assure you," interrupted the bishop, "that that will be all right.

I understand you perfectly, and the individualities will all run along

together without interfering with each other, and if one happens to get in

the way of another it will be gently moved aside."

"Gently!" said Matlack, somewhat satirically. "Well, all right, it will be

moved aside. I am satisfied, if the rest are."

"Now all in favor say 'Aye,'" said Corona.

They all said "Aye," except Mrs. Perkenpine, who said "Me."

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