VIII.

THE man had got the better of the Jew; and the man retained the upper

hand. There came no reaction. Elias Bacharach's Judaism--or so much of

it, at least, as bore upon the question of matrimony--had apparently

suffered sudden and total annihilation. Under the light of love, it

had apparently behaved as those hackneyed images in the Etruscan tombs

behaved under the light of the sun--collapsed into nothingness. Looking

backward, and repeating to himself the views upon intermarriage, which,

the rabbi said, there had never been a Bacharach to doubt, he was amazed

at their glaring unreasonableness, at their enormity even, and could

only ask incredulously, “Is it possible that I ever believed that

rubbish?” The philosophy of the matter was extremely simple. Elias

had never bestowed upon the rabbi's religious teachings any skeptical

consideration. He had accepted them as facts stated upon authority--had

taken the rabbi's word for them, just as he had taken the rabbi's word

for the boundaries of the State of Nebraska, and for the date of the

Battle of Bunker Hill. But, now, when, for the first time, circumstances

had led him to bring to bear upon them a little analysis and

common-sense, to exercise a little his right and his power of private

judgment, now their absurdity had become startlingly conspicuous. Then,

of course, his wish fostered his thought. Every spontaneous impulse

of his nature aided and abetted his intelligence in its iconoclasm. He

wanted--_he wanted_--to marry Christine Redwood; and a theology which

taught that, merely because the accident of birth had made of him a Jew,

and of her a Christian, such marriage would be sinful, thereby proved

itself to be the offspring of prejudice and superstition.

Christine had said that she would tell her father; but on second

thoughts she found that she lacked the proper courage; and so Elias, not

without some trepidation, had to take the mission upon himself. The old

man, at the outset, professed no end of astonishment, and considerable

indignation. “So!” he cried. “I engage you to paint my daughter's

portrait, and you spend the time making love to her! A pretty kettle

of fish, as I'm alive!” But by degrees his amiability was restored;

and finally he remarked, “Well, Mr. Bacharach, though you are a

Hebrew, you're white; and any how, religion don't worry us much in this

household, and never did. I'm a Universalist, myself; and Chris--well, I

guess no one knows what she is. One thing's certain--she might have

gone further, and fared worse; she might, for a fact. You're a perfect

gentleman; and you can't help it, if you _were_ born a Jew. You don't

look like one, and you don't act like one. Of course, there's your

name--Bacharach--a regular jaw-breaker; but I shan't stick on a name.

It ain't I that's got to bear it; and so long as Chris is satisfied, it

ain't for me to grumble. I guess she'll smell about as sweet under it,

as she does under her present one. You see, I agree with the Great Bard.

Any how, if she's made up her mind to have ye, I suppose I'll be obliged

to say yes, sooner or later; and it'll save time and trouble for me to

say it sooner.” So it was arranged that they should be married early in

the spring, that they should spend the summer traveling in Europe,

and that in the autumn they should return to New York, and domicile

themselves under Redwood's roof.

“The man who marries my daughter,” stipulated the old gentleman, with a

grim smile, “has got to marry me. I ain't pretty, but I'm solid; and I'm

not going to be separated from her in my old age. He's got to fetch his

traps, and live in this house, besides, because I'm used to it, and

I don't mean to quit it till I'm carried out horizontally. It's big

enough, and to spare, the Lord knows. Come and look it over.”

Elias followed the old man from cellar to garret. On the third floor his

conductor threw open a door, and announced. “This is her room.” Elias's

memory of the few brief seconds that he had been permitted to pass upon

Christine's threshold, looking into her room, breathing the sweet air

of it, and noting its hundred pretty little girlish fixings--inanimate

companions of her most intimate life--thrilled in his heart many a time

afterward. Was it not for him, her lover, like a glimpse into the Holy

of Holies?

They were to be married in the spring. Now it was December. Meanwhile

they had nothing to do but to make the most of the present. They saw

each other nearly every day; and those days on which something prevented

them from seeing each other, were very long and very dark days to Elias

Bacharach. How did they amuse themselves? Innocently enough, and with

no sort of difficulty. If an exhaustive account of their doings were

reduced to writing, it would seem very trivial and very monotonous;

but to them, basking in the light of new-born love, the trivial and the

monotonous did not exist. High and low, far and wide, the world had been

invested with the splendor, the mystery, and the majesty of the golden

age. Yes, indeed: the period, long or short, during which first love

holds sway over our hearts, tyrant though the ruler be, is notoriously

our golden age, never to come but once. In this respect history does

not repeat itself. Elias felt that each of his five senses had been

sharpened, and that, moreover, he had acquired a sixth sense, a

super-sense. The homeliest things, the most familiar sights,

the commonest occurrences, took on a beauty, a significance, a

suggestiveness, undreamed of until now. They aroused thoughts in his

brain, emotions in his breast. He had used to regard New York as a

somewhat sordid and unpicturesque metropolis: now he held it to be the

most romantic city of the earth. Did she not dwell within its walls?

Certainly, in former years, the Eighth Avenue horse-railway, with its

dingy cars and shabby passengers, had had no special fascination for

him; but now the bare mention of its name would rouse a sentimental

tenderness in his bosom. Was not that the line by which he traveled when

he went to see her? Everywhere he became aware of new aspects and new

influences, to which heretofore his consciousness had been hermetically

sealed. In a letter written by him to Christine at about this time--for,

despite the frequency of their meetings, they found it necessary to keep

the post-office busied on their behalf--Elias indulges in the following

rhapsody:

“I have waked up from a long sleep, a period of torpor, diversified by

vague dreams, into fresh, keen, sensitive life. I have begun to love;

and until one begins to love, one is only half born. Until one loves,

half the faculties, half the activities, which one possesses, lie in

a dormant state, are merely potential, latent. For love--is it not the

very soul and life of life itself? I know a poem which says: 'Through

love to light! Oh, wonderful the way, that leads from darkness to the

perfect day!' That expresses exactly what I mean. The life I lived

before I knew you, and began to love you, compared to the life I live

now, as the dusk of early morning compares to the brilliant day that

comes with the rising of the sun. Where there was chill, now there is

warmth. Where there was silence, now there is music. Where there was

gloom, now there is glory.

“Things that were before invisible or insignificant, now force

themselves upon my attention, and have a meaning and a solemnity. It is

as though you had touched me with a vivifying wand--as though you had

given me to drink of the elixir of life. Well, you _have_ given me to

drink of the elixir of love; and that is even more potent and marvelous

in its effects. These are not mere phrases, Christine, dashed off in

enthusiasm, without being weighed. They are an imperfect expression of

very real and practical facts. See the direct and manifest influence

that my love of you has exercised upon my work, my art. I used to tell

myself, with a good deal of complacency, that the artist was a sort of

priest; that he ought to be a celibate, that he ought to consecrate the

whole of himself to his art, that the muse should be his wife, that no

mortal woman should divide his homage with her. I had one formula that

pleased me especially. I said,4 The muse is a jealous mistress. She will

brook no rivalry. To win her favor, one must renounce the world, and

devote himself exclusively to her service.' And I used to fancy that I

really believed this high-flown nonsense. But what sophism! What cant!

What puerile pinning of my faith to a hollow set of words? For the very

first requirement to successful accomplishment in art--what is it?

Isn't there a spiritual equipment as much needed by the artist, as

indispensable to his productiveness, as his material equipment of

palette, paint-tubes, and brushes? Why, the very sinequa-non is this;

that he shall live. I mean, that he shall be intensely human; that he

shall think clearly, feel deeply, and see truly--see the truth, the

whole truth, and the very heart of the truth. Until one has lived in

this sense, one's art will never be real art. It will only be a nicer, a

more complex, species of mechanics. It will be the body of art, without

the spirit of it. Well, did I live, did I think, feel, see, before I

knew you, and loved you? A little, perhaps; vaguely, incompletely; by

fits and starts; as in a glass, darkly. But now? Oh, it is as though you

had given me a soul! You have quickened the dormant soul that was in

me, given it eyes, ears, perceptions, sympathies. At last I am alive,

tingling and throbbing to my finger tips with life, with warm, buoyant,

intense, eager life. My existence now is a constant exaltation, a

constant inspiration. Whatever my eye looks upon, whatever my ear hears,

whatever my fingers touch, means something, says something to me, and

wakes a response in my own heart. I think, feel, see, and consequently

paint, with a zest, an impetus, a power, and yet a serenity, a repose,

of which I never even had a conception in the old days, Christine! Oh,

my love! '...When I look at you, Christine, and realize that you are my

betrothed--that you love me, and that you have promised to be my wife;

and when I take your little hand in mine, and stroke it, and feel its

wondrous warmth and softness, and bring it to my lips, and breathe that

most delicate fragrance which ever clings to it; and when I gaze into

the luminous depths of your eyes, and behold your spirit burning far,

far down in them: oh! my blood seems to catch fire; each breath is like

a draught of some magic, intoxicating vapor; I come near to fainting,

for the great joy that fills my heart--fills it, and thrills it. I dare

say all men who love, and are loved in return, are happy. But none can

be so supremely happy as I am, so miraculously happy; because no one

else loves you, and is loved by you. And other women are no more like

you than--than dust is like fire, than glass is like diamond, than water

is like wine. You mustn't laugh at me for saying this. It is really,

honestly true. They resemble you in outward form, of course; they, too,

have hands and feet, shaped more or less upon the same pattern that

yours are shaped upon. But you--you have something--something which

I can not name or describe--something subtle, impalpable, and yet

unmistakable--something supersensual, celestial--which makes you as

different from them as--it is a grotesque comparison, but it will show

you what I mean--as a magnet is different from common iron. It is a

difference of quality, which I can not find any words exactly to define.

I suppose really that it is simply your soul--that you have a purer,

finer soul than other women. Whatever it is, I recognized it, and felt

it, with a thick thrill, as one feels an electric spark, the first

time I ever saw you--reflected in that old, time-stained looking-glass,

between the windows in your father's shop. I recognize and feel it

perpetually, everywhere I go. All the other women that I see have about

them a touch of the earth, from which you are free; and they lack that

touch of heaven, which you have....

“Why, from among the millions of men upon this planet, why should I have

been the one chosen to enjoy this unique rapture? What have I done to

deserve that the single peerless and perfect lady should be mine? It is

incomprehensible. In a world built up of marvels, it is the prime, the

crowning, the over-topping marvel. It would be incredible, were it not

indubitably true. But sometimes, true though I know it to be, I become

so acutely conscious of the wonder and incomprehensibility of it, that

I doubt it in spite of myself. Then I think: may be, after all, it is

a dream. At such moments, I hasten to see you, to verify it. I can not

reach you quickly enough. At what a snail's pace the horse-car drags

along! How endless are the intervals when it stops, to take in or to let

off a passenger! I count the seconds, I count the inches. All the while,

my soul is trembling within me; nor does it cease to tremble, till I

have crossed your threshold, and beheld you with my eyes, and

touched you with my hands, and thus, so far as seeing and feeling are

believing, convinced myself that you really exist, and that my great

happiness is not a phantasm--unless indeed, my whole life is one long

phantasm, one continuous dream, which sometimes I think may be the

explanation of it. This great, vast happiness! It would be ungrateful

and irreverent to suppose that it has fallen to my lot by mere chance or

accident; and yet I can not understand why God should have so favored

me above all other living men; why He should have selected me to receive

the greatest blessing that He had to bestow--your love, my queen!”

And in a letter written by her to him, she says: “What if we had never

known each other? That would have been very possible, wouldn't it?

The world is so large, and there are so many, many people, and the

likelihood of any two happening to come together is so very slight, it

would have been quite possible for us to have gone through life, and

died, without ever having known each other. Think of the many years that

we did dwell right here in the same city, without ever even knowing of

each other's existence! And yet often, perhaps, in the course of those

years, we came very near together. Who can tell but that we may have sat

together in the same concert-hall, listening to the same music? We may

have passed each other in the street a great many times. We may even

have ridden in the same horse-car together, and not have noticed each

other. Isn't it strange? But think, if I had not happened to go to my

father's shop that afternoon! Or, if you had not happened to go there,

too, at just the same time! Why, then we might never have known each

other at all! It takes my breath away, to think of it; doesn't it yours?

How strange and empty and incomplete our lives would have been? We

should have gone through life, without ever really knowing what life

meant--without ever realizing the greatness and the richness and the

wonder of it. I should never have known what it was to love--for I never

could have loved any one but you. Oh, how lonesome I should have been!

But you--do you think you might have loved somebody else, and married

her? There are so many women; but there is only one you.---- Oh, if I

could only feel sure that you would always, always love me, and never

get over loving me! Whenever you are away from me, I can't help being

afraid that you do not love me any more. I long so impatiently to have

you come back and tell me that you do. If you ever really should get

over loving me--oh, I--I would rather have you kill me right away.”

Thus these young persons pursued their billing and cooing. Thus they

played their parts in the oldest of old plays, never for an instant

suspecting that the same songs had been sung, the same lines declaimed,

the same little scenes enacted, the whole worn threadbare, by myriads

of similar personages, ever since the world began; and scarcely giving a

thought, either, to the time when, by and by, the curtain would be

rung down, and the theater emptied, and the foot-lights put out. So

shortsighted, so self-absorbed, is love. The two letters from which I

have just quoted, lie before me now. It is not such a great while since

they were written--not such a great while since the paper grew hot

tinder the writer's hand, and fluttered as the reader's breath fell upon

it. But the paper is quite cold now; and already the ink has begun to

fade. Yet, to Christine's pages there still clings, singularly enough,

the ghost of a faint, sweet smell.

Numberless were the delightful hours that Elias spent painting at her

portrait; and long before the spring came he had it finished. Of course,

he was not satisfied with it. Of course, he found it tame and poor when

compared to the original. But what true artist ever is satisfied with

his own handiwork? What true lover but always will find tame and poor

a portrait of his mistress? He made, besides, a great many pencil and

water-color drawings of her. He never tired of striving to transfix

something of her exquisite beauty upon the pages of his sketch-book. The

effort was always a pleasure. The result was always a disappointment.

He did not, however, by any means, confine these experiments to his

sketch-book. All the blank paper that passed his way, ran an imminent

risk of being seized upon, and made to bear an attempt at her likeness.

I have on my desk that volume of Rossetti's poems, from which, on

a memorable Sunday morning, Elias read aloud “The Blessed Damozel.”

Scattered over the fly-leaves and the margins of the pages, I have

counted no fewer than sixty-nine pencil studies of Christine's face, in

various stages of completion. Beneath one of these is written in Elias's

hand, “Oh, what a wonder of a woman!” and immediately following, in

Christine's, “Oh, what a goose!”

Often, if the sun shone, they would take long walks in Central Park; and

Christine kept her promise to show him some of those nooks and corners

which she had preempted, and which nobody else knew the existence of.

One of these speedily became a favorite resort of theirs. It was a

high rock, the top of which was carpeted with many generations of pine

needles, and screened from the vulgar gaze by a girdle of pine trees.

Here, when the weather was warm enough, they would stop to rest for a

little after their jaunts; and here, though he never suspected it, the

final chapter of Elias Bacharach's story was destined to be acted

out. The pine trees are still standing and flourishing: but they are

inscrutable, and bear no record, breathe no hint, of the tender passages

between these lovers, at which they were wont to assist.

Often, in the midst of his work in his studio, Elias would be seized by

a sudden and uncontrollable desire to pay his sweetheart a visit; and

would fling aside his brushes, discharge his model, hurry up-town, and

ring her door-bell. Of course, unapprised of his coming, she would not

always be at home; but if the maid could inform him whither she had

gone, he would be sure to follow; and on more than one occasion he

caught a fine cold, standing in the wind-swept-street, watching the door

of the house where he knew that she was calling, and waiting to join her

at her exit.

Christmas came, and New Year's Day, and her birthday, and his. They

celebrated all of these festivals in company. For New Year's Eve, one of

Christine's Normal College classmates had invited her to a party. Elias

naturally was her cavalier. He suffered torments indescribable, as she

whirled through the waltz on the arm of another man--he could not dance,

himself; had never learned how, poor fellow--but when, from the corner

in which he was sulking alone, he saw that the heel of her slipper had

broken off, and that her partner was holding that heel in his hand, and

inspecting it with curious eyes, he could no longer contain himself.

Another man to profane with his touch the heel of Christine's slipper!

He advanced upon the couple, scowling savagely; and addressing the young

man: “Give me that,” he commanded gruffly. He got hold of it, and stuck

it into his pocket. Christine shot dagger-glances at him. On their way

home, in the carriage, she scolded him roundly for his jealousy and his

bad manners; but before they separated, she had forgiven him; and the

padded carriage walls had witnessed a very pretty reconciliation. That

night he sat up till daybreak, writing her a letter, very penitent, very

affectionate, very voluminous. “That we should have begun the New

Year with a quarrel!” was its remorseful burden. At eight o'clock he

dispatched it by a messenger. Yet he knew that at ten o'clock that very

forenoon she would be ready to receive him in proper person. But ten

o'clock!

Two mortal hours! It seemed years and years away.

Time moved steadily forward. The winter passed. March came, an

exceptionally mild, sunshiny March, much of which was spent among the

pine trees in the park; then April. Their wedding-day was definitely

fixed for the second of May. On the third, they were to set sail by the

French steamship for Havre. Their tickets were bought, their plans were

all made. The services of the clergyman who was to tie the knot,

had been secured. And yet, in all these months, not a whisper of his

engagement had Elias breathed to his uncle, the Rabbi Felix. From day

to day, from week to week, he had put off the inevitable moment. He knew

that nothing which the rabbi could say or do, would have the slightest

effect upon him, so far as shaking his resolution was concerned; but he

supposed that there would be a scene, and a very stormy and disagreeable

one, and he dreaded it; and so he had procrastinated--or, as he phrased

it, had waited for a favorable opportunity. He had gone on living in

the same house, eating at the same board, with this old man, his uncle;

chatting with him, even, as a precaution against possible suspicions,

saying his prayers and reading his Bible with him, and all the while

keeping the one dominant fact of his life shut close in from sight.

Sometimes the secret weighed very heavily upon his mind, pressed hard

for utterance, got even so far as the tip of his tongue. But then,

asking himself, “What good--what but bad--could come of my telling him?”

he would decide to wait for yet another while. Perhaps the rabbi, on

his side, had noticed that Elias was absent from home a good deal; but,

considering his youth, and that his home was such a dull, unattractive

place, what wonder? What else could be expected? I must not forget to

state that some rumors to the effect that Elias Bach-arach intended

to get married, were circulating in the Jewish world--which is, of all

worlds, the one most prone to gossip--but these failed to specify the

lady's name, and took for granted that she was a Jewess; and the rabbi

was far too much of a recluse to be reached by them, any how.

With the Redwoods Elias had been perfectly frank. He had said to the

old man: “I suppose you will think that the only relative I have in this

quarter of the world--my uncle, Dr. Gedaza--ought to call upon you; and

I suppose you'll think it very singular if he doesn't. But I had better

tell you candidly that he will strongly disapprove of my marriage,

simply and solely on the ridiculous ground that Christine happens not

to have been born a Jewess. I hope you won't let this have the slightest

influence whatever upon you; because I'm a man, of full age and sound

mind, master of my own purse and person, and he's only my uncle;

and, with all due respect, I can't see that my marriage is any of

his business.” In the end, both Christine and her father had accepted

Elias's view of the case.

Time moved steadily forward, and now it was the night of Tuesday,

the first of May, and to-morrow Elias's happiness would be sealed and

consummated. He and Christine had spent a very ecstatic evening with

each other; but, of course, by and by it behooved him to take his leave;

and so, toward eleven o'clock, he rose and began the process. About

midway in it, however, he broke off and said abruptly: “Oh, by the by, I

forgot to tell you something.”

“Ah?” she queried. “What?”

“An idea I had.”

“An idea?”

“Yes; about--about breaking the news to my uncle.”

“News? What news?”

“Why, _the_ news--the news of our marriage.”

“Why!” she exclaimed, with an expression of very serious surprise. “Do

you mean to say that--that you haven't done that yet?”

“No; not yet. That's just the point. You see----

“Oh, Elias,” she interrupted, in a tone of emphatic rebuke, “I supposed,

of course, you had told him long ago. You ought to have told him. That

wasn't right.”

“What difference does it make? I have waited about it, because it would

only have raised trouble between him and me, without doing a particle of

good to either. There's no end to the bother and complications it would

have caused. He lives in my house, you know; and if we had had a row,

he would have felt obliged to clear out, and all that. So I kept my own

counsel; and I'm very glad I did. For now my idea is to say nothing

to him at all; but after we're safely aboard-ship, and started for the

other side, I'll send him a letter by the pilot. That will spare both of

us a very painful and unprofitable interview.”

“Oh, but it's not fair, it's not honorable, it's not respectful. He's

your uncle--your own mother's brother--and you owe it to him not to do

that--not to go and get married without even letting him know. You ought

to have told him long ago. It will hurt his feelings awfully, when he

finds out how long you have kept it from him--when he finds that you

have waited till the very eleventh hour. Now you must tell him right

straight away--as soon as you possibly can--to-night, as soon as you

reach home. Promise me that you will.”

“But, Christine--”

“No, no, no! Unless you want to make me very unhappy, you'll promise to

tell him right away. That letter by the pilot! I don't understand how

you could have thought of such a thing! It would be cruel and--and it

would be _cowardly!_ There!”

Elias tried to argue the matter. But Christine put her foot down, and

vowed, with a look of inflexible determination upon her gentle face,

that she would never, never, forgive him, unless he made a clean breast

of it to the rabbi that very night.

“But it is late. What if he should have gone to bed?” he suggested

feebly.

“Then wake him up.”

Of course, before they parted, he had pledged himself to do exactly as

she wished; and she, pacified, went off to bed, whether to sleep or to

lie awake, in either case, we may be sure, to dream of the happiness

that was ripening for her in the womb of time.

Elias did not enjoy his journey home that night. His frame of mind was

by no means such as, on general principles, one would expect of a man in

his position--a man who had just said his last farewell to the lady whom

he loved, and whom the morrow was to make his bride. His imagination

running on ahead of his person, entered the rabbi's study, and rehearsed

the scene that would there shortly have to be enacted in very truth.

Elias was surprised at the excessive dread he felt. He strove to reason

it away, repeating to himself, “He can do nothing, absolutely nothing.

He can only talk; and talk doesn't hurt.” But all the same, when he

arrived in front of his house, and realized that the long-deferred

moment was actually at hand, his heart quaked within him, and a sudden

perspiration broke out upon his forehead. However, there was no help for

it. He had promised; and he was bound to keep his promise. So, drawing a

deep breath, and swallowing his reluctance he opened the rabbi's study

door.

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