CHAPTER XXXIX

A NEW PLAN OF ESCAPE

I

My new neighbor turns my thoughts into a different channel. It is

"Fighting" Tom, returned after several years of absence. By means of a

string attached to a wire we "swing" notes to each other at night, and

Tom startles me by the confession that he was the author of the

mysterious note I had received soon after my arrival in the

penitentiary. An escape was being planned, he informs me, and I was to

be "let in," by his recommendation. But one of the conspirators getting

"cold feet," the plot was betrayed to the Warden, whereupon Tom "sent

the snitch to the hospital." As a result, however, he was kept in

solitary till his release. In the prison he had become proficient as a

broom-maker, and it was his intention to follow the trade. There was

nothing in the crooked line, he thought; and he resolved to be honest.

But on the day of his discharge he was arrested at the gate by officers

from Illinois on an old charge. He swore vengeance against Assistant

Deputy Hopkins, before whom he had once accidentally let drop the remark

that he would never return to Illinois, because he was "wanted" there.

He lived the five years in the Joliet prison in the sole hope of

"getting square" with the man who had so meanly betrayed him. Upon his

release, he returned to Pittsburgh, determined to kill Hopkins. On the

night of his arrival he broke into the latter's residence, prepared to

avenge his wrongs. But the Assistant Deputy had left the previous day on

his vacation. Furious at being baffled, Tom was about to set fire to the

house, when the light of his match fell upon a silver trinket on the

bureau of the bedroom. It fascinated him. He could not take his eyes off

it. Suddenly he was seized with the desire to examine the contents of

the house. The old passion was upon him. He could not resist. Hardly

conscious of his actions, he gathered the silverware into a tablecloth,

and quietly stole out of the house. He was arrested the next day, as he

was trying to pawn his booty. An old offender, he received a sentence of

ten years. Since his arrival, eight months ago, he has been kept in

solitary. His health is broken; he has no hope of surviving his

sentence. But if he is to die--he swears--he is going to take "his man"

along.

Aware of the determination of "Fighting" Tom, I realize that the safety

of the hated officer is conditioned by Tom's lack of opportunity to

carry out his revenge. I feel little sympathy for Hopkins, whose

craftiness in worming out the secrets of prisoners has placed him on the

pay-roll of the Pinkerton agency; but I exert myself to persuade Tom

that it would be sheer insanity thus deliberately to put his head in the

noose. He is still a young man; barely thirty. It is not worth while

sacrificing his life for a sneak of a guard.

However, Tom remains stubborn. My arguments seem merely to rouse his

resistance, and strengthen his resolution. But closer acquaintance

reveals to me his exceeding conceit over his art and technic, as a

second-story expert. I play upon his vanity, scoffing at the crudity of

his plans of revenge. Would it not be more in conformity with his

reputation as a skilled "gun," I argue, to "do the job" in a "smoother"

manner? Tom assumes a skeptical attitude, but by degrees grows more

interested. Presently, with unexpected enthusiasm, he warms to the

suggestion of "a break." Once outside, well--"I'll get 'im all right,"

he chuckles.

II

The plan of escape completely absorbs us. On alternate nights we take

turns in timing the rounds of the guards, the appearance of the Night

Captain, the opening of the rotunda door. Numerous details, seemingly

insignificant, yet potentially fatal, are to be mastered. Many obstacles

bar the way of success, but time and perseverance will surmount them.

Tom is thoroughly engrossed with the project. I realize the desperation

of the undertaking, but the sole alternative is slow death in the

solitary. It is the last resort.

With utmost care we make our preparations. The summer is long past; the

dense fogs of the season will aid our escape. We hasten to complete all

details, in great nervous tension with the excitement of the work. The

time is drawing near for deciding upon a definite date. But Tom's state

of mind fills me with apprehension. He has become taciturn of late.

Yesterday he seemed peculiarly glum, sullenly refusing to answer my

signal. Again and again I knock on the wall, calling for a reply to my

last note. Tom remains silent. Occasionally a heavy groan issues from

his cell, but my repeated signals remain unanswered. In alarm I stay

awake all night, in the hope of inducing a guard to investigate the

cause of the groaning. But my attempts to speak to the officers are

ignored. The next morning I behold Tom carried on a stretcher from his

cell, and learn with horror that he had bled to death during the night.

III

The peculiar death of my friend preys on my mind. Was it suicide or

accident? Tom had been weakened by long confinement; in some manner he

may have ruptured a blood vessel, dying for lack of medical aid. It is

hardly probable that he would commit suicide on the eve of our attempt.

Yet certain references in his notes of late, ignored at the time, assume

new significance. He was apparently under the delusion that Hopkins was

"after him." Once or twice my friend had expressed fear for his safety.

He might be poisoned, he hinted. I had laughed the matter away, familiar

with the sporadic delusions of men in solitary. Close confinement exerts

a similar effect upon the majority of prisoners. Some are especially

predisposed to auto-suggestion; Young Sid used to manifest every symptom

of the diseases he read about. Perhaps poor Tom's delusion was

responsible for his death. Spencer, too, had committed suicide a month

before his release, in the firm conviction that the Warden would not

permit his discharge. It may be that in a sudden fit of despondency, Tom

had ended his life. Perhaps I could have saved my friend: I did not

realize how constantly he brooded over the danger he believed himself

threatened with. How little I knew of the terrible struggle that must

have been going on in his tortured heart! Yet we were so intimate; I

believed I understood his every feeling and emotion.

* * * * *

The thought of Tom possesses my mind. The news from the Girl about

Bresci's execution of the King of Italy rouses little interest in me.

Bresci avenged the peasants and the women and children shot before the

palace for humbly begging bread. He did well, and the agitation

resulting from his act may advance the Cause. But it will have no

bearing on my fate. The last hope of escape has departed with my poor

friend. I am doomed to perish here. And Bresci will perish in prison,

but the comrades will eulogize him and his act, and continue their

efforts to regenerate the world. Yet I feel that the individual, in

certain cases, is of more direct and immediate consequence than

humanity. What is the latter but the aggregate of individual

existences--and shall these, the best of them, forever be sacrificed for

the metaphysical collectivity? Here, all around me, a thousand

unfortunates daily suffer the torture of Calvary, forsaken by God and

man. They bleed and struggle and suicide, with the desperate cry for a

little sunshine and life. How shall they be helped? How helped amid the

injustice and brutality of a society whose chief monuments are prisons?

And so we must suffer and suicide, and countless others after us, till

the play of social forces shall transform human history into the history

of true humanity,--and meanwhile our bones will bleach on the long,

dreary road.

* * * * *

Bereft of the last hope of freedom, I grow indifferent to life. The

monotony of the narrow cell daily becomes more loathsome. My whole being

longs for rest. Rest, no more to awaken. The world will not miss me. An

atom of matter, I shall return to endless space. Everything will pursue

its wonted course, but I shall know no more of the bitter struggle and

strife. My friends will sorrow, and yet be glad my pain is over, and

continue on their way. And new Brescis will arise, and more kings will

fall, and then all, friend and enemy, will go my way, and new

generations will be born and die, and humanity and the world be whirled

into space and disappear, and again the little stage will be set, and

the same history and the same facts will come and go, the playthings of

cosmic forces renewing and transforming forever.

How insignificant it all is in the eye of reason, how small and puny

life and all its pain and travail!... With eyes closed, I behold myself

suspended by the neck from the upper bars of the cell. My body swings

gently against the door, striking it softly, once, twice,--just like

Pasquale, when he hanged himself in the cell next to mine, some months

ago. A few twitches, and the last breath is gone. My face grows livid,

my body rigid; slowly it cools. The night guard passes. "What's this,

eh?" He rings the rotunda bell. Keys clang; the lever is drawn, and my

door unlocked. An officer draws a knife sharply across the rope at the

bars: my body sinks to the floor, my head striking against the iron

bedstead. The doctor kneels at my side; I feel his hand over my heart.

Now he rises.

"Good job, Doc?" I recognize the Deputy's voice.

The physician nods.

"Damn glad of it," Hopkins sneers.

The Warden enters, a grin on his parchment face. With an oath I spring

to my feet. In terror the officers rush from the cell. "Ah, I fooled

you, didn't I, you murderers!"

* * * * *

The thought of the enemy's triumph fans the embers of life. It engenders

defiance, and strengthens stubborn resistance.

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