HIS SOMBRE RIVALS
Never had his noble horse Mayburn seemed to fail him until the hour
that severed the military chain which had so long bound him to
inexorable duty, and yet the faithful beast was carrying him like the
wind. Iss, his servant, soon fell so far behind that Graham paused and
told him to come on more leisurely, that Mayburn would be at the
terminus of the military railroad. And there Iss found him, with
drooping head and white with foam. The steam-engine was driven to City
Point with the reckless speed characteristic of military railroads; but
to Graham the train seemed to crawl. He caught a steamer bound for
Washington, and paced the deck, while in the moonlight the dark shores
of the James looked stationary. From Washington the lightning express
was in his view more dilatory than the most lumbering stage of the old
regime.
When at last he reached the gate to his aunt's cottage and walked
swiftly up the path, the hour and the scene were almost the same as
when he had first come, an indifferent stranger, long years before. The
fruit-trees were as snowy white with blossoms, the air as fragrant, the
birds singing as jubilantly, as when he had stood at the window and
gazed with critical admiration on a sportive girl, a child-woman,
playing with her little Spitz dog. As he passed the spot where she had
stood, beneath his ambush behind the curtains, his excited mind brought
back her image with lifelike realism--the breeze in her light hair, her
dark eyes brimming with mirth, her bosom panting from her swift
advance, and the color of the red rose in her cheeks.
He groaned as he thought of her now.
His aunt saw him from the window, and a moment later was sobbing on his
breast.
"Aunt," he gasped, "I'm not too late?"
"Oh, no," she said, wearily; "Grace is alive; but one can scarcely say
much more. Alford, you must be prepared for a sad change."
He placed her in her chair, and stood before her with heaving breast.
"Now tell me all," he said, hoarsely.
"Oh, Alford, you frighten me. You must be more composed. You cannot see
Grace, looking and feeling as you do. She is weakness itself;" and she
told him how the idol of his heart was slowly, gradually, but
inevitably sinking into the grave.
"Alford, Alford," she cried, entreatingly, "why do you look so stern?
You could not look more terrible in the most desperate battle."
In low, deep utterance, he said, "This is my most desperate battle; and
in it are the issues of life and death."
"You terrify _me_, and can you think that a weak, dying woman can look
upon you as you now appear?"
"She shall not die," he continued, in the same low, stern utterance,
"and she must look upon me, and listen, too. Aunt, you have been
faithful to me all these years. You have been my mother. I must entreat
one more service. You must second me, sustain me, co-work with me. You
must ally all your experienced womanhood with my manhood, and with my
will, which may be broken, but which shall not yield to my cruel fate."
"What do you propose to do?"
"That will soon be manifest. Go and prepare Grace for my visit. I wish
to see her alone. You will please be near, however;" and he abruptly
turned and went to his room to remove his military suit and the dust of
travel.
He had given his directions as if in the field, and she wonderingly and
tremblingly obeyed, feeling that some crisis was near.
Grace was greatly agitated when she heard of Graham's arrival; and two
or three hours elapsed before she was able to be carried down and
placed on the sofa in the library. He, out in the darkness on the
piazza, watched with eyes that glowed like coals--watched as he had
done in the most desperate emergency of all the bloody years of battle.
He saw her again, and in her wasted, helpless form, her hollow cheeks,
her bloodless face, with its weary, hopeless look, her mortal weakness,
he clearly recognized his _sombre rivals_, _Grief and Death_; and with
a look of indomitable resolution he raised his hand and vowed that he
would enter the lists against them. If it were within the scope of
human will he would drive them from their prey.
His aunt met him in the hall and whispered, "Be gentle."
"Remain here," was his low reply. "I have also sent for Dr. Markham;"
and he entered.
Grace reached out to him both her hands as she said, "Oh, Alford, you
are barely in time. It is a comfort beyond all words to see you
before--before--" She could not finish the sinister sentence.
He gravely and silently took her hands, and sat down beside her.
"I know I disappoint you," she continued. "I've been your evil genius,
I've saddened your whole life; and you have been so true and faithful!
Promise me, Alford, that after I'm gone you will not let my blighted
life cast its shadow over your future years. How strangely stern you
look!"
"So you intend to die, Grace?" were his first, low words.
"Intend to die?"
"Yes. Do you think you are doing right by your father in dying?"
"Dear, dear papa! I have long ceased to be a comfort to him. He, too,
will be better when I am gone. I am now a hopeless grief to him.
Alford, dear Alford, do not look at me in that way."
"How else can I look? Do you not comprehend what your death means to
_me_, if not to others?"
"Alford, can I help it?"
"Certainly you can. It will be sheer, downright selfishness for you to
die. It will be your one unworthy act. You have no disease: you have
only to comply with the conditions of life in order to live."
"You are mistaken," she said, the faintest possible color coming into
her face. "The bullet that caused Warren's death has been equally fatal
to me. Have I not tried to live?"
"I do not ask you to _try_ to live, but to _live_. Nay, more, I demand
it; and I have the right. I ask for nothing more. Although I have loved
you, idolized you, all these years, I ask only that you comply with the
conditions of life and live." The color deepened perceptibly under his
emphatic words, and she said, "Can a woman live whose heart, and hope,
and soul, if she has one, are dead and buried?"
"Yes, as surely as a man whose heart and hope were buried long years
before. There was a time when I weakly purposed to throw off the burden
of life; but I promised to live and do my best, and I am here to-day.
You must make me the same promise. In the name of all the past, I
demand it. Do you imagine that I am going to sit down tamely and shed a
few helpless tears if you do me this immeasurable wrong?"
"Oh, Alford!" she gasped, "what do you mean?"
"I am not here, Grace, to make threats," he said gravely; "but I fear
you have made a merely superficial estimate of my nature. Hilland is
not. You know that I would have died a hundred times in his place. He
committed you to my care with his last breath, and that trust gave
value to my life. What right have you to die and bring to me the
blackness of despair? I am willing to bear my burden patiently to the
end. You should be willing to bear yours."
"I admit your claim," she cried, wringing her hands. "You have made
death, that I welcome, a terror. How can I live? What is there left of
me but a shadow? What am I but a mere semblance of a woman? The snow is
not whiter than my hair, or colder than my heart. Oh, Alford, you have
grown morbid in all these years. You cannot know what is best. Your
true chance is to let me go. I am virtually dead now, and when my
flickering breath ceases, the change will be slight indeed."
"It will be a fatal change for me," he replied, with such calm emphasis
that she shuddered. "You ask how you can live. Again I repeat, by
complying with the conditions of life. You have been complying with the
conditions of death; and I will not yield you to him. Grief has been a
far closer and more cherished friend than I; and you have permitted it,
like a shadow, to stand between us. The time has now come when you must
choose between this fatal shadow, this useless, selfish grief, and a
loyal friend, who only asks that he may see you at times, that he may
know where to find the one life that is essential to his life. Can you
not understand from your own experience that a word from you is sweeter
to me than all the music of the world?--that smiles from you will give
me courage to fight the battle of life to the last? Had Hilland come
back wounded, would you have listened if he had reasoned, 'I am weak
and maimed--not like my old self: you will be better off without me'?"
"Say no more," she faltered. "If a shadow can live, I will. If a poor,
heartless, hopeless creature can continue to breathe, I will. If I die,
as I believe I must, I will die doing just what you ask. If it is
possible for me to live, I shall disappoint you more bitterly than
ever. Alford, believe me, the woman is dead within me. If I live I
shall become I know not what--a sort of unnatural creature, having
little more than physical life."
"Grace, our mutual belief forbids such a thought. If a plant is deeply
shadowed, and moisture is withdrawn, it begins to die. Bring to it
again light and moisture, the conditions of its life, and it gradually
revives and resumes its normal state. This principle applies equally to
you in your higher order of existence. Will you promise me that, at the
utmost exertion of your will and intelligence, you will try to live?"
"Yes, Alford; but again I warn you. You will be disappointed."
He kissed both her hands with a manner that evinced profound gratitude
and respect, but nothing more; and then summoned his aunt and Dr.
Markham.
Grace lay back on the sofa, white and faint, with closed eyes.
"Oh, Alford, what have you done?" exclaimed Mrs. Mayburn.
"What is right and rational. Dr. Markham, Mrs. Hilland has promised to
use the utmost exertion of her will and intelligence to live. I ask
that you and my aunt employ your utmost skill and intelligence in
co-operation with her effort. We here--all four of us--enter upon a
battle; and, like all battles, it should be fought with skill and
indomitable courage, not sentimental impulse. I know that Mrs. Hilland
will honestly make the effort, for she is one to keep her word. Am I
not right, Grace?"
"Yes," was the faint reply.
"Why, now I can go to work with hope," said the physician briskly, as
he gave his patient a little stimulant.
"And I also," cried the old lady, tears streaming down her face. "Oh,
darling Grace, you will live and keep all our hearts from breaking."
"I'll try," she said, in almost mortal weariness.
When she had been revived somewhat by his restoratives, Dr. Markham
said, "I now advise that she be carried back to her room, and I promise
to be unwearied in my care."
"No," said Graham to his aunt. "Do not call the servants; I shall carry
her to her room myself;" and he lifted her as gently as he would take
up a child, and bore her strongly and easily to her room.
"Poor, poor Alford!" she whispered--"wasting your rich, full heart on a
shadow."