She came in and shut the door carefully after her and, though the
fumbling was scarcely perceptible, groped her way to a chair. She had
on an old dressing-gown, like a cassock, of a patterned cinnamon
colour.
"What is it you want?" she said, seating herself and lifting her blank
face to mine.
"Might I just have Arthur's address?" I said deferentially. "I am so
sorry to have disturbed you."
"H'm. You have come to see my nephew?"
"Not necessarily to see him, only to hear how he is, and, of course,
Mrs. Seaton too. I am afraid my silence must have appeared...."
"He hasn't noticed your silence," croaked the old voice out of the
great mask; "besides, there isn't any Mrs. Seaton."
"Ah, then," I answered, after a momentary pause, "I have not seemed so
black as I painted myself! And how is Miss Outram?"
"She's gone into Yorkshire," answered Seaton's aunt.
"And Arthur too?"
She did not reply, but simply sat blinking at me with lifted chin, as
if listening, but certainly not for what I might have to say. I began
to feel rather at a loss.
"You were no close friend of my nephew's, Mr. Smithers?" she said
presently.
"No," I answered, welcoming the cue, "and yet, do you know, Miss
Seaton, he is one of the very few of my old schoolfellows I have come
across in the last few years, and I suppose as one gets older one
begins to value old associations...." My voice seemed to trail off into
a vacuum. "I thought Miss Outram," I hastily began again, "a
particularly charming girl. I hope they are both quite well."
Still the old face solemnly blinked at me in silence.
"You must find it very lonely, Miss Seaton, with Arthur away?"
"I was never lonely in my life," she said sourly. "I don't look to
flesh and blood for my company. When you've got to be my age, Mr.
Smithers (which God forbid), you'll find life a very different affair
from what you seem to think it is now. You won't seek company then,
I'll be bound. It's thrust on you." Her face edged round into the clear
green light, and her eyes, as it were, groped over my vacant,
disconcerted face. "I dare say, now," she said, composing her mouth, "I
dare say my nephew told you a good many tarradiddles in his time. Oh,
yes, a good many, eh? He was always a liar. What, now, did he say of
me? Tell me, now." She leant forward as far as she could, trembling,
with an ingratiating smile.
"I think he is rather superstitious," I said coldly, "but, honestly, I
have a very poor memory, Miss Seaton."
"Why?" she said. "_I_ haven't."
"The engagement hasn't been broken off, I hope."
"Well, between you and me," she said, shrinking up and with an
immensely confidential grimace, "it has."
"I'm sure I'm very sorry to hear it. And where is Arthur?"
"Eh?"
"Where is Arthur?"
We faced each other mutely among the dead old bygone furniture. Past
all my scrutiny was that large, flat, grey, cryptic countenance. And
then, suddenly, our eyes for the first time, really met. In some
indescribable way out of that thick-lidded obscurity a far small
something stooped and looked out at me for a mere instant of time that
seemed of almost intolerable protraction. Involuntarily I blinked and
shook my head. She muttered something with great rapidity, but quite
inarticulately; rose and hobbled to the door. I thought I heard,
mingled in broken mutterings, something about tea.
"Please, please, don't trouble," I began, but could say no more, for
the door was already shut between us. I stood and looked out on the
long-neglected garden. I could just see the bright greenness of
Seaton's old tadpole pond. I wandered about the room. Dusk began to
gather, the last birds in that dense shadowiness of trees had ceased to
sing. And not a sound was to be heard in the house. I waited on and on,
vainly speculating. I even attempted to ring the bell; but the wire was
broken, and only jangled loosely at my efforts.
I hesitated, unwilling to call or to venture out, and yet more
unwilling to linger on, waiting for a tea that promised to be an
exceedingly comfortless supper. And as darkness drew down, a feeling of
the utmost unease and disquietude came over me. All my talks with
Seaton returned on me with a suddenly enriched meaning. I recalled
again his face as we had stood hanging over the staircase, listening in
the small hours to the inexplicable stirrings of the night. There were
no candles in the room; every minute the autumnal darkness deepened. I
cautiously opened the door and listened, and with some little dismay
withdrew, for I was uncertain of my way out. I even tried the garden,
but was confronted under a veritable thicket of foliage by a padlocked
gate. It would be a little too ignominious to be caught scaling a
friend's garden fence!
Cautiously returning into the still and musty drawing-room, I took out
my watch and gave the incredible old woman ten minutes in which to
reappear. And when that tedious ten minutes had ticked by I could
scarcely distinguish its hands. I determined to wait no longer, drew
open the door, and, trusting to my sense of direction, groped my way
through the corridor that I vaguely remembered led to the front of the
house.
I mounted three or four stairs and, lifting a heavy curtain, found
myself facing the starry fanlight of the porch. Hence I glanced into
the gloom of the dining-room. My fingers were on the latch of the outer
door when I heard a faint stirring in the darkness above the hall. I
looked up and became conscious of, rather than saw, the huddled old
figure looking down on me.
There was an immense hushed pause. Then, "Arthur, Arthur," whispered an
inexpressively peevish, rasping voice, "is that you? Is that you,
Arthur?"
I can scarcely say why, but the question horribly startled me. No
conceivable answer occurred to me. With head craned back, hand clenched
on my umbrella, I continued to stare up into the gloom, in this fatuous
confrontation.
"Oh, oh;" the voice croaked. "It is you, is it? _That_ disgusting
man!... Go away out. Go away out."
Hesitating no longer, I caught open the door and, slamming it behind
me, ran out into the garden, under the gigantic old sycamore, and so
out at the open gate.
I found myself half up the village street before I stopped running. The
local butcher was sitting in his shop reading a piece of newspaper by
the light of a small oil-lamp. I crossed the road and enquired the way
to the station. And after he had with minute and needless care directed
me, I asked casually if Mr. Arthur Seaton still lived with his aunt at
the big house just beyond the village. He poked his head in at the
little parlour door.
"Here's a gentleman enquiring after young Mr. Seaton, Millie," he said.
"He's dead, ain't he?"
"Why, yes, bless you," replied a cheerful voice from within. "Dead and
buried these three months or more--young Mr. Seaton. And just before he
was to be married, don't you remember, Bob?"
I saw a fair young woman's face peer over the muslin of the little door
at me.
"Thank you," I replied, "then I go straight on?"
"That's it, sir; past the pond, bear up the hill a bit to the left, and
then there's the station lights before your eyes."
We looked intelligently into each other's faces in the beam of the
smoky lamp. But not one of the many questions in my mind could I put
into words.
And again I paused irresolutely a few paces further on. It was not, I
fancy, merely a foolish apprehension of what the raw-boned butcher
might "think" that prevented my going back to see if I could find
Seaton's grave in the benighted churchyard. There was precious little
use in pottering about in the muddy dark merely to find where he was
buried. And yet I felt a little uneasy. My rather horrible thought was
that, so far as I was concerned--one of his esteemed few friends--he
had never been much better than "buried" in my mind.