IMPATIENCE.

A sweet little crocus came up through the mold,

And hugged round her shoulders her mantle of gold,

While tears of distress fringed her delicate eye,

Like rain drops that start from a showery sky.

"Where, pray, are those laggards, the violets blue?

The roses and lilies and daffodils too?

I really think it's a shame and a sin

This waiting so long for the spring to begin.

"The first day of April and only one bird

Since I lifted my head has uttered a word!

And search as I may all over the meadow

Not even a cowslip has shown its bright head, O--

"Misery me! Sure there's no use in waiting,

For something, no doubt, is the summer belating;

So I'll go back to bed, put on my lace night cap,

And snatch, for a fortnight, a nice little cat-nap!"

Down went little Gold-head, back to her pillow;

When, all in a twinkling, up over the hill, O,

The wind-flower host, with rose-tinted banners,

Marched into the world; Queen Summer's forerunners.

Her rose maids of honor, in filmiest laces,

Loitered and lingered in shy woodland places;

And white-vested lilies were ever at prayer;

Their vespers, the perfume that sweetened the air.

The apple trees blushed into delicate splendor;

The blue birds hung over in ecstasy tender,

While the gold powdered bee with helmet all dusty

Kept watch over the flowers, a sentinel trusty.

The robin sang love to his shy little sweetheart;

The orioles lashed their nests in the tree top;

The willows drooped low over swift water courses,

And murmuring brooks started fresh from their sources.

But down in the gloom, on her dream-haunted pillow,

As pale and as cold as the moon on the billow,

Forgot and unmissed by bird and by blossom,

The crocus slept sound in the earth's faithful bosom.

When at last she awoke, the spring had been banished,

Her forerunner flowers from the hillside had vanished.

And all of the bees had turned into stock brokers.

And even the birds had changed into croakers.

'Tis only by waiting we find our fruition;

To learn how to wait is a needed tuition.

The faint-hearted people who go to sleep fretting,

Will wake up at last too late for the getting.

* * * * *

If there is anything more utterly desolate than a poorly-conducted farm,

preserve me from it. There is an ideal farm familiar to the writers of

pretty tales, where everything is kept in apple-pie order throughout

the year, and where one can walk broadcast, so to speak, in a spick and

span white gown without attracting so much as the shadow of a shade of

minutest defilement. We have seen pictures of such farms wherein sleek

cattle stood around knee-deep in dewy clover, or lay serenely on

polished hillsides, or meandered dreamily by crystal streams; wherein

pale pink farm-houses with green gables and yellow piazzas, fairly

scintillated from behind decorous foliage, and peacocks, with tails

nearly as long as the Mississippi River, posed on the gate-posts;

wherein neat little boys in variegated trousers rode prancing chargers

down blooming lanes, and correct little girls in ruffled underclothing

fed well-mannered chickens from morning till night. But the actual farm

of the remote rural districts is about as much like its ideal picture as

Esau was like a modern dude. Not long ago somebody suggested that I go

and board for a fortnight at a farm-house. "You will have perfect rest,"

said my friend, "and that is what you need." So I went, and rather than

again undergo the torments of the five days spent in that restful (?)

spot I think I would cheerfully hire out with a Siberian chain-gang. In

the first place there was no such a thing as rest possible after the

first glimmer of each day's dawn. Every rooster on the farm, and there

were millions of them, was up "for keeps" long before sunrise. Their

united chorus smote the skies. One might as well have tried to sleep

through Gettysburg's battle. A score or so of bereaved cows lamented all

night for their murdered babies, and a couple of donkeys, kept purely

for ornamental purposes, made sounds every half hour or so that turned

my hair snow white with terror. After breakfast each day I used to walk

down the hill and fish for pickerel in a river that had no current, and

looked discouraged. "Walked," did I say? Nay, there was nothing so

decorous as a walk possible down the slippery, stony descent which led

to the haunts of the pickerel. When I didn't hurl myself down that hill,

I slid down, and between the two methods I wrecked both muscle and shoe

leather. The latter part of the way led through a pasture devoted to

several cows and a bull. As I am more afraid of the latter than of death

and all his cohorts, my morning walks ended in heart failures and had to

be abandoned. Occasionally I would take a book and go out and sit in my

hammock. Then the large roosters, each one of them at least seven feet

tall and highly ruffled about the legs, would come around and look at

me, so that I would have to go into the house to hide my embarrassment.

I know of nothing harder to endure than the stare of a Brahma fowl,

especially if one is a bit nervous and overworked. Nervous prostration

has sprung from lighter causes.

Nothing happened while I was at the farm but meal time, and the

intervals were so long between those episodes that I used to wonder

daily at my own mission subsequent to the farm-life as one gropes for

prehistoric clues. There was a man about the premises who walked to and

from the village twice a day with a large brown jug. When I asked at

different times what he fetched in the jug, not because I wanted to

know, but merely to find a topic of conversation, I was successively

told that it was "kerosene," "maple molasses," "buttermilk," and

"vinegar." I wish I knew if I was told the truth every time, or if

somebody tried to impose upon me merely because I was town-bred.

Occasionally we took rides over stony trails where boulders and ruts

marked the way, and only the creaking of our bones broke the primeval

silence. These rides were supposed to be part of the generous plan of

contemplated rest, but a few more of them would have resulted in the

rest from which there is no awaking. No, my dear, I am an ardent lover

of the country, and I love it as the epicure loves a good dinner, or the

musician loves music, but I will take it, please, without the

accessories of a poorly-kept hoosier farm. I do not yearn for the

defilements of a barn-yard that is never cleansed, nor for the

frolicsomeness of pigs that wander at their own sweet will, nor for the

clamor of aggressively alert poultry, nor for piscatorial delights. I

love the country as God made it before greed and gain and all the

abominations of man entered into and spoiled it. I love it clean and

wholesome and sweet, as it was turned out of the workshop; its streams

untainted, and their banks unbereft of beautiful trees; its hills still

covered with verdure, and its winds uncontaminated with the scent of

defiling drains and waterways.

* * * * *

I have seen him! Actually seen him! Shall I say the coming man? No,

rather let us call him the vanished type, the stalwart, full-blooded,

glorious "might have been" of nature. Not an exotic, but the indigenous

growth of a soil fed by breeze and sun. No earmuffs about him; no

cringing withdrawal into mufflers before the advance of winter blasts.

No cowardly retreat into furry overcoats, mittens and gum shoes.

"Amber," said a fellow traveler the other day, "yonder is a man after

your own heart. He has not worn an overcoat or heavyweight flannels for

six years. He never buttons up his coat save when it rains. What do you

think of him?"

"Think of him!" said I; "were it not for a lingering regard for the

conventionalities, I should walk right over to that man and say: 'Sir, I

thank you for the sight of a man--not a human lily bud! You have struck

the right way of living, and you will be a hale and handsome man when

the enfeebled race that surrounds you have toddled into the

consumptive's grave or are sneezing upon their catarrhal pilgrimage to

the tomb.'" The man was worth looking at, hale and hearty, his chest like

the convex curve of a barrel, his eye like a falcon's.

"But," said my friend, "were I to throw aside my overcoat and go forth

unprotected this freezing weather, the exposure would surely kill me!"

"No doubt it would," was my cheerful reply. "There are always a host to

die before any reform is achieved or victory accomplished. You have

coddled yourself so long between blankets and absorbed red-hot furnace

heat until you haven't the stamina of an aspen leaf. Take a hot-house

flower out of doors and it soon wilts. But mark the beautiful Edelweiss

of the Alps--it thrives in the pure breath of eternal snow." But what is

the use of talking? Although my tongue became a golden bell and my pen a

gleaming flame, I could never convince you, my dear old, shivery, shaky

public, of the advantage of fresh air and plenty of it, and the

advisability of a generous cultivation of nature and her free gifts. As

well expect to be nourished by looking at your food through an opera

glass as hope to be strong and stalwart upon a homeopathic allowance of

pure air and sunshine, or in spite of the devices you plan to shut

yourself away and hermetically seal your body, as it were, from the

sweet, health-giving influence of sun and wind and frost. Just stop a

moment before you turn away from this subject, my dear, and hear a

little story. I know the subject is a bore and that I am a crank, but

listen. Once there was a grand beneficent power--call it God if you

will--who planned a spot wherein to place some atom which he had shaped

out of dust and vivified with a spark of his own life. He looked about a

little, we will imagine, and finally settled upon a garden wherein to

place these precious pensioners on his care. A roofless, wall-less spot

full of draughts and dew, breezes and blossoms. He filled it with birds

and carpeted it with grass, set rivulets running through it for "water

works" and sunbeams and starbeams for "electric light" plants, etc. That

is all I have to say. Like the Mother Morey legend my story is done

before it is scarcely begun. But ask yourself the question, Why didn't

God put his well-beloved models of the forthcoming race into a more

sheltered place if there was so much danger in fresh air, draughts and

chilly weather? Why didn't he seal them up behind double windows in an

airless, sunless, hot and unhealthful home where the dear things could

keep warm? Because he was God and knew everything, and not man and knew

nothing.

* * * * *

Well, the old ship Time has put into port again to take on a new cargo

of good resolutions, earnest resolves and patented schemes, before

setting sail for the shores of a distant future. Ten to one she goes to

pieces on the breakers before ever sighting land again, and a hundred to

ninety-nine her cargo is thrown overboard before she reaches mid-sea.

The channel is narrow and the rocks lie thick as peas in a marrowfat

pod, and many more bales of choice merchandise find the bottom of the

sea each year than are ever delivered to the good angel consignee. "I am

going to be the best girl in all the world," says the poor little

Captain on New Year's eve. Behold! the hours have not swung around the

diurnal circle before there is a wild onslaught from shadowland, and the

brave captain is left wounded on the field. Only a tender hand and

tireless patience can set her on her feet again.

"I will eschew debt as I would poison, and starve before I will commit

an indiscretion," cries the Doctor as he sets sail for the untried sea.

Within the first watch he hauls down his colors from the mast head,

captured by a pirate extravagance.

"I will be gentle of speech and courteous and sweet to all!" says the

Young Person, and gayly steers for the open channel. Midway she

encounters a rock of annoyance and the air is stormy with irritable

words that fly and beat like stinging rain. Ah, well, my dear, thank the

good Lord there are life-saving stations all along the shore, and no

wreck was ever yet so hopeless but Infinite Love could set it afloat

again.

* * * * *

"There is just one person born who has a right to this thoroughfare, and

that is I!" muses the woman with the umbrella as she walks the crowded

streets on a rainy day. "I am in possession of that part of the universe

immediately contiguous to the spot on which I stand, and I shall make

myself just as much of a nuisance as I choose. I shall jab out your

eyes, and knock off your hat, and clip your ears, and stab your back

with my umbrella tip just as often and as violently as I choose. I shall

run into you from behind, and bump into you, and knock you down if I so

desire, and none shall say me nay. I am not very tall, but all the

better for my plans if I am not. If I were of the same height as you I

should not be able to take you under the hat-brim as I do, and jab you

in the nostril as I pass. If I choose to cut criss-cross through a

crowd, who shall forbid me, being a woman? I can be just as rude and

just as mean as I want to be, and who is going to hinder, so long as I

wear a gown and call myself a lady? If I were a man and manifested the

reckless thirst for universal carnage that I do you would call the

patrol and bear me away to the lock-up; but being a poor little,

innocent woman I have it all my own way."

* * * * *

I know a wife who is waiting, safe and sound in her father's home, for

her young husband to earn the money single-handed to make a home worthy

of her acceptance. She makes me think of the first mate of a ship who

should stay on shore until the captain tested the ability of his vessel

to weather the storm. Back to your ship, you cowardly one! If the boat

goes down, go down with it, but do not count yourself worthy of any fair

weather you did not help to gain! A woman who will do all she can to win

a man's love merely for the profit his purse is going to be to her, and

will desert him when the cash runs low, is a bad woman and carries a bad

heart in her bosom. Why, you are never really wedded until you have had

dark days together. What earthly purpose would a cable serve that never

was tested by a weight? Of what use is the tie that binds wedded hearts

together if like a filament of floss it parts when the strain is brought

to bear upon it? It is not when you are young, my dear, when the skies

are blue and every wayside weed flaunts a summer blossom, that the story

of your life is recorded. It is when "Darby and Joan" are faded and

wasted and old, when poverty has nipped the roses, when trouble and want

and care have flown like uncanny birds over their heads (but never yet

nested in their hearts, thank God!), that the completed chronicle of

their lives furnishes the record over which approving heaven smiles and

weeps.

* * * * *

There is one thing I learn day by day in my strollings about town, and

that is that nobody is going to give me dollar values for half-dollar

equivalents. In these days when the best of folks go mad on bargains we

seem to think it is an easy thing to get something for nothing, but I

have yet to see the day when we can. There are cheap restaurants where

they serve you roast turkey for a quarter, but don't fool yourself! It

is not the same kind of bird they serve in a high-class place for a

dollar. You look at your check when you come out from an economical

kitchen with a feeling of glee that you have got so much for so little.

But how about the flavor that lingers in your mouth? How about the

display of pine toothpicks and spotted linen? How about the

finger-marked drinking glasses and damp napkins? No, no; poor as I am I

would rather pay my dollar and get a dollar's worth of cleanliness and

daintiness and flavor than save seventy-five cents and do without them.

Sure as you live and sure as the world is operated on a

self-accommodative basis, you never will get a first-water diamond

without you pay first-water diamond equivalents.

* * * * *

The other day there was a little girl, scarce 16 years of age, who

started away for the first time from home and mother. She was brave and

gay in a new suit, new boots and a new hat with a feather the color of a

linnet's wing. She carried a bunch of the loveliest sweet peas at her

dainty waist and on her face there played a sunburst of smiles. She had

not been five hours in the place appointed her to visit when her mother

received the following letter:

"My Precious Mamma: I am writing this in my room before I am called to

breakfast. None but God can know what I suffer! Not until I am in your

arms once more will you know what I am going through! If you love me let

me come home. Don't tell anyone, but let me come if you love me! Don't

send the shoes--I shall not need them--but let me come home! Think what

I must suffer so far away from you. I shall sell my ring and buy a

ticket if you do not telegraph that I may come!"

And as I read the pathetic letter between my smiles and tears I thought

to myself, is there anything on earth so hard to bear as

homesickness--first homesickness, when the heart is new to sorrow? I

would rather have any disease the laboratory of evil keeps in stock than

one pang of what that little girl was suffering when she penciled that

letter.

* * * * *

Around in a picture store on one of the avenues I chanced upon a

painting that attracted not only myself, but a crowd of people from the

street. It represented a lion's cage barred with heavy barriers of iron.

On the floor of the den is the figure of a beautiful girl stretched in a

deathlike swoon. There are orange blossoms in her hair, and the flush on

her cheek has had no time to fade. Crouched by her side, one great paw

on her breast and another at her waist, is a wrathful lion whose evident

intention is to tear his victim into bonbon fragments. I wish somebody

would explain that picture to me. I am tired conjecturing how the bride

strayed into the lion's quarters, and where her husband was that he

shouldn't be taking better care of her, and why there was nobody on hand

to help at this critical moment portrayed on the canvas. Young married

women are not supposed to be visiting zoological gardens when they ought

to be changing their white satin favors for their traveling gowns. The

picture seems a puzzler to all who watch it, and as the crowd is great

the confusion of wits is catching.

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