CHAPTER XXIII

THE central character of Hazard’s book was an actress, young and very

beautiful. Her lover was a newspaper man, deeply in love with her and

yet not faithful, in one instance anyhow. This brought about a Zolaesque

scene in which she spanked another actress with a hairbrush. There was

treacherous plotting on the part of somebody in regard to a local

murder, which brought about the arrest and conviction of the newspaper

man for something he knew nothing about. This entailed a great struggle

on the part of Theo to save him, which resulted in her failure and his

death on the guillotine. A priest figured in it in some way, grim,

jesuitical.

To this day some of the scenes of this book come back to me as having

been forcefully done—the fight between the two actresses, for one thing,

a midnight feast with several managers, the gallows scene, a confession.

I am not sure of the name of the newspaper man who collaborated with

Hazard on this work, but the picture of his death in an opium joint

later, painted for me by Hazard, and the eccentricities of his daily

life, stand out even now as Poe-like. He must have been blessed or

cursed with some such temperament as that of Poe, dark, gloomy,

reckless, poetic, for he was a dope-fiend and died of dope.

Be that as it may, this posthumous work, never published, so far as I

know, was the opening wedge for me into the realm of realism. Being

distinctly imitative of Balzac and Zola, the method was new and to me

impressive. It has always struck me as curious that the first novel

written by an American that I read in manuscript should have been one

which by reason of its subject matter and the puritanic character of the

American mind could never be published. These two youths knew this.

Hazard handed it to me with the statement: “Of course a thing like this

could never be published over here. We’d have to get it done abroad.”

That struck me as odd at the time—the fact that if one wrote a fine

thing nevertheless because of an American standard I had not even

thought of before, one might not get it published. How queer, I thought.

Yet these two incipient artists had already encountered it. They had

been overawed to the extent of thinking it necessary to write of French,

not American life in terms of fact. Such things as they felt called upon

to relate occurred only in France, never here—or at least such things,

if done here, were never spoken of. I think it nothing less than tragic

that these men, or boys, fresh, forceful, imbued with a burning desire

to present life as they saw it, were thus completely overawed by the

moral hypocrisy of the American mind and did not even dare to think of

sending their novel to an American publisher. Hazard was deeply

impressed with the futility of attempting to do anything with a book of

that kind. The publishers wouldn’t stand for it. You couldn’t write

about life as it was; you had to write about it as somebody else thought

it was, the ministers and farmers and dullards of the home. Yet here he

was, as was I, busy in a profession that was hourly revealing the fact

that this sweetness and light code, this idea of a perfect world which

contained neither sin nor shame for any save vile outcasts, criminals

and vagrants, was the trashiest lie that was ever foisted upon an all

too human world. Not a day, not an hour, but the pages of the very

newspaper we were helping to fill with our scribbled observations were

full of the most incisive pictures of the lack of virtue, honesty,

kindness, even average human intelligence, not on the part of a few but

of nearly everybody. Not a business, apparently, not a home, not a

political or social organization or an individual but in the course of

time was guilty of an infraction of some kind of this seemingly perfect

and unbroken social and moral code. But in spite of all this, judging by

the editorial page, the pulpit and the noble mouthings of the average

citizen speaking for the benefit of his friends and neighbors, all men

were honest—only they weren’t; all women were virtuous and without evil

intent or design—but they weren’t; all mothers were gentle,

self-sacrificing slaves, sweet pictures for songs and Sunday

Schools—only they weren’t; all fathers were kind, affectionate, saving,

industrious—only they weren’t. But when describing actual facts for the

news columns, you were not allowed to indicate these things. Side by

side with the most amazing columns of crimes of every kind and

description would be other amazing columns of sweet mush about love,

undying and sacrificial, editorials about the perfection of the American

man, woman, child, his or her sweet deeds, intentions and the like—a

wonderful dose. And all this last in the face of the other, which was

supposed to represent the false state of things, merely passing

indecencies, accidental errors that did not count. If a man like Hazard

or myself had ventured to transpose a true picture of facts from the

news columns of the papers, from our own reportorial experiences, into a

story or novel, what a howl! Ostracism would have followed much more

swiftly in that day than in this, for today turgid slush approximating

at least some of the facts is tolerated. Fifteen years later Hazard told

me he still had his book buried in a trunk somewhere, but by then he had

turned to adventurous fiction, and a year later, as I have said, be blew

his brains out.

Just the same the book made a great impression on me! It gave me a great

respect for Hazard, made me really fond of him. And it fixed my mind

definitely on this matter of writing—not a novel, curiously, but a play,

a form which from the first seemed easier for me and which I still

consider so, one in which I work with greater ease than I do in the

novel. I mentioned to Wood and McCord that Hazard and another man had

written a novel and that I had read it. I must have enthused over it for

both were impressed, and I myself seemed to gain standing, especially

with Wood. It was generally admitted then that Hazard was one of the

best reporters in the city, and my being taken into his confidence in

this fashion seemed to Wood to be a significant thing.

And not long after that I had something else to tell these two which

carried great weight. There was at that time on the editorial page of

the paper a column entitled “Heard in the Corridors,” which was nothing

more than a series of imaginary interviews with passing guests at the

various hotels, or interviews condensed into short tales, about six to

the column, one at least being accredited to a guest at each of the

three principal hotels, the others standing accredited as things heard

at the Union Station or upon the street somewhere. Previous to my

arrival this column had been written by various men, the last one having

been the already famous W. C. Brann, then editor of the brilliant

_Iconoclast_. By the time I arrived, however, Brann had departed, and

the column had sagged. Hazard was doing a part of it, Bellairs another,

but both were tired of it. At first when I considered it (a little extra

work added to my daily reporting) I was not so pleased; indeed it seemed

an all but impossible thing to do. Later, however, after a trial, I

discovered that it gave free rein to my wildest imaginings, which was

exactly what I wanted. I could write any sort of story I pleased,

romantic, realistic or lunatic, and credit it to some imaginary guest at

one of the hotels, and if it was not too improbable it was passed

without comment. At any rate, when this was assigned to me I went forth

to get names of personages stopping at the hotels. I inquired for

celebrities. As a rule, the clerks could give me no information or were

indifferent, and seemed to take very little interest in having the hotel

advertised. I returned and racked my brain, decided that I could

manufacture names as well as stories, and forthwith scribbled six

marvels, attaching such names as came into my mind. The next day these

were all duly published and I was told to do the column regularly as

well as my regular assignments. My asinine ebullience had won me a new

task without any increase in pay.

However, it seemed an honor to have a whole column assigned to me, and

this honor I communicated to McCord and Wood. It was then that either

Wood or McCord informed me that Brann had done it previously and had

written snake stories for the paper into the bargain. This flattered me,

for they pictured him for what he was, a rare soul, and I felt myself

growing. Peter had illustrated some of these tales for him, for, as he

said with mock dignity: “I am the official snake artist of this paper.”

That very night, as a reward for my efficiency I was invited by Dick to

come to his room—_the_ room, the studio—where he inflicted about nine of

his horrible masterpieces upon me.

I would not make so much of this great honor if it were not for what it

meant to me then. The room was large and dark, on Broadway between

Market and Walnut, with the cars jangling below. It contained one great

white bed, a long table covered with the papers and literary

compositions of Mr. Richard Wood, and was decorated and reinforced with

that gentleman’s conception of what constituted literary insignia. On

the walls hung dusty engravings representing the death of Hamlet and the

tempting of Faust. In one corner, over a chest of drawers, was the

jagged blade of a sword-fish, and in another a most curious display of

oriental coins. The top of the wardrobe was surmounted by a gruesome

_papier-mâché_ head representing that somewhat demented creature known

in England as Ally Sloper. A clear space at one corner of the table held

a tin pail for carrying beer, and the floor, like the walls, was covered

with some dusty brown material which might once have been a carpet.

Owing to the darkness of the furnishings and the brightness of the fire,

the room had a very cheery look.

“Say, Dick, did you see where one of ——’s plays had made a great hit in

New York?” asked McCord. “He’s made a strike this time.”

“No,” replied Dick solemnly, poking among the coals of the grate and

drawing up a chair. “Sit down, Dreiser. Pull up a chair, Peter. This

confounded grate smokes whenever the wind’s from the South. Still

there’s nothing like a grate fire.”

We drew up chairs. I was revolving in my mind the charm of the room and

a vision of greatness in play-writing. These two men seemed subtly

involved with the perfection of the arts. In this atmosphere, with such

companions, I felt that I could accomplish anything, and soon.

“I’ll tell you how it is with the game of play-writing,” observed Dick

sententiously. “You have to have imagination and feeling and all that,

but what’s more important than anything is a little business sense, to

know how to get in with those fellows. You might have the finest play in

the world in your pocket, but if you didn’t know how to dispose of it

what good would it do you? None at all. You got to know that end first.”

He reached over and pulled the coal-scuttle into position as a footrest

and then looked introspectively at the ceiling.

“The play’s the thing,” put in Peter. “If you could write a real good

play you wouldn’t need to worry about getting it staged.”

“Aw, wouldn’t I? Listen to that now!” commented Dick irascibly. “I tell

you, Peter, you don’t know anything about it. You only think you do;

that’s all. Say, did Campbell have a good play in his pocket or didn’t

he? You betcher neck he did. Did he get it staged? No, you betcher boots

he didn’t. Don’t talk to me; I know.”

By his manner you would have thought he had a standing bone to pick with

Peter, but this was only his way. It made me laugh.

“Well, the play’s the first thing to worry about anyhow,” I observed. “I

wish I were in a position to write one.”

“Why don’t you try?” suggested McCord. “You ought to be able to do

something in that line. I bet you could write a good one.”

We fell to discussing dramatists. Peter, with his eye for gorgeous

effects, costuming and the like, immediately began to describe the

ballet effects and scenery of a comic opera laid in Algeria which was

then playing in St. Louis.

“You ought to go and see that, Dreiser,” he urged. “It’s something

wonderful. The effect of the balconies in the first act, with the

muezzins crying the prayers from the towers in the distance, is great.

Then the harmony of the color work in the stones of the buildings is

something exquisite. You want to see it.”

I felt myself glowing. This intimate conversation with men of such

marked artistic ability, in a room, too, which was the reflection of an

artist’s personality, raised my sense of latent ability to the highest

point. Not that I felt I was not fit to associate with these people—I

felt that I was more than fit, their equal at every point, conceal it as

I might—but it was something to come in touch with your own, to find

real friends to the manner born who were your equals and able to

sympathize with you and appreciate your every mood. A man who had found

such friends as these so quickly surely need never worry.

“I’ll tell you what I propose to do, Peter, while you people are

talking,” observed Dick. “I propose to go over to Frank’s and get a can

of beer. Then I’ll read you that story.”

This proposal to read a story was new to me; I had not heard Wood had

written one before. I looked at him more keenly, and a little flame of

envy leaped to life in me. To be able to write a short story—or any kind

of a story!

He went to his wardrobe, whence he extracted a medium-length black cape

of broadcloth, which he threw about his shoulders, and a soft hat which

he drew rakishly over his eyes, then took the tin pail and a piece of

money from a plate, after the best fashion of the artistic romances of

the day, and went out. I gazed admiringly after him, touched by the

romance of it all. That face, waxen, drawn, sensitive, with deep burning

eyes, and that frail body! That cape! That hat! That plate of coins!

Yes, this was Bohemia! I was now a part of that happy middle world which

was superior to wealth and poverty. I was in that serene realm where

moved freely talent, artistic ability, noble thought, ingenious action,

unhampered by conventional thought and conduct. A great man should so

live, an artist certainly. These two could and did do as they pleased.

They were not as others, but wise, sensitive, delicately responsive to

all that was best in life; and as yet the great world was not aware of

their existence!

Wood came back with the beer and then Peter insisted that he read us the

story. I noticed that there was something impish in his manner. He

assured me that all of Dick’s stories were masterpieces, every one; that

time alone was required for world-wide recognition.

Dick picked up a single manuscript from a heap. “I don’t want to inflict

this on you, Dreiser,” he said sweetly and apologetically. “We had

planned to do this before I knew you were coming.”

“That’s the way he always talks,” put in Peter banteringly. “Dick loves

to stage things. But they’re great stories just the same.”

I leaned back, prepared to be thrilled. Dick drew up his chair to the

table and adjusted a green-shaded gas lamp close to the table’s edge. He

then unfolded his MS. and began reading in a low, well-modulated,

semi-pathetic voice, which seemed very effective in the more sentimental

passages. Reverently I sat and listened. The tale was nothing, a mere

daub, but, oh, the wonder of it! Was I not in the presence and

friendship of artists? Was not this Bohemia? Had I not long heard and

dreamed of it? Well, then, what difference whether the tales were good

or bad? They were by one whom I was compelled to admire, an artist,

pale, sensitive, recessive, one who at the slightest show of inattention

or lack of appreciation might leave me and never see me more.

I listened to about nine without dying, declaring each and every one to

be the best I had ever heard—perfect.

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